#not that I'm striving for perfection

[canisalbus]

I really appriciate how often Machete is depicted struggling and feeling like a burden, while still being loved and supported by Vasco. It gives the top tier angst of "i'm not good enough, I'm not worth it" but you frame it in such a way where it's clear that's just how he *feels* and is not how things really are, but also it's so nice to see someone who struggles quite often in a loving and unique relationship that suits them. The narrative of not being able to love or be loved unless you're consistently healthy is really tiring lol.

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#ah thank you! I'm so glad these themes come through the way I intended #this touches on something that I've been thinking a lot so sorry if this gets a bit ranty #but I have massive personal beef with the sentiment “you have to love yourself before you can love someone else/someone else can love you ” #I hate it with a passion #I know it's meant to encourage positive growth and I get that self-love and healthy self-image are something you should strive for #but it also sort of sends the message that people who struggle with these sort of issues don't deserve to be loved #not until they reach some external invisible standard of “okay I'm normal and well adjusted now” #“perhaps now I'm worthy of entering a relationship without the danger of dragging the other person down with me” #people who aren't in perfect health mentally or physically already feel like they're inconveniencing others with their mere existence #depriving them of the possibility or even the idea of loving and being loved won't make them better #it's just a stupid idiom it doesn't matter but to me it just comes across as unspeakably cruel way to think #and it rustles my jimmies #answered #anonymous

[nattikay]

friendly reminder that Neteyam is a well-adjusted kid who has a good relationship with his parents, that he tries his darnedest to be a good warrior because he genuinely looks up to his dad and wants to be like him, and that the idea that Jake and Neytiri are "forcing" him to be perfect, that they "stole his childhood" or that he's "not allowed" to be a kid, etc. are all pure fanfiction with little to no evidence in canon thanks bye

#avatar #avatar 2 #neteyam #given how hesitant Jake is to let Neteyam fight I can absolutely GUARANTEE you that there was almost certainly NEVER an interaction... #...in which Neteyam said ''hey Mom and Dad I'm gonna go hang out with Lo'ak and Kiri now'' #and Jake and Neytiri reply ''no son you're too old for such childish things you must come do Adult Tasks that you secretly hate instead #so you can be the Perfect Future Olo'eyktan™" #THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN #AND IT'S NOT “IMPLIED” TO HAVE HAPPENED EITHER #Y'ALL MADE THAT UP IN YOUR HEADS #along with the idea that Neteyam secretly hates his lot in life and is internally yearning to be A Normal Kid™ #guys Neteyam WANTS to be a warrior he WANTS follow in Jake's footsteps he strives so hard because HE *WANTS* TO OF HIS OWN ACCORD #there is absolutely d i d d l y s q u a t that suggests this path is being “forced” on him #or that he is being secretly ~crushed under the pressure~ and Just Wants to Be Free or w/e #you. made. that. up. #it's not a canon aspect of his character #and. look. if you wanna explore the idea of him being ''crushed under pressure'' in a fanfic #because you find it interesting or it helps you work through your own stuff then hey be my guest #but once you start saying stuff like #''oh i feel so bad for [canon] Neteyam because he died before he could break free of his parents' toxic influence'' #Shut Up™ #neteyam's parents were not a toxic influence; he was never forced into being something he didn't want to be; his childhood was not “stolen” #he did not have anything to “break free” of. you are injecting extra layers of tragedy that aren't actually there #you are giving yourself extra grief for things that were never canon #stahp #feel free to write whatever you want in fanfiction but please i am begging you #to be aware of which ideas are actually present in the movie vs. which ones are just fanfiction

[slowestlap]

Post-FP2 interview with F1TV | Abu Dhabi GP, 2023

Int: We saw you quite keen at one point to get out of the pit lane and try to squeeze through Max: They have to move. I mean, they're all driving slow and I want to go out because we're all limited on time. They just keep on driving in the middle and when I try to pass they try to squeeze me in the wall, so. Yeah, bit silly.

#max verstappen #red bull racing #abu dhabi gp #myf1gifs #the annyoing thing about knowing how to gif #is that if nobody else has giffed the thing you want to see and reblog #then you gotta do it yourself before you can rest 😮‍💨 #(also never underestimate max verstappen knowing the rule book by heart and making it to work in his favor) #(also also. wHy iS hE soMad it's Fp2 aNd He'S aLreaDy woN?? #winners strive for perfection at all times #this shouldn't be such a hard concept to understand 😐) #anyway 3 sets in one day i'm going to bed now #until tmrw lads!!

[alyeecoffee]

(Please ignore this, it's just a vent that I want to let out lately)

Sometimes I just want a day where I don't need to work on anything (art, especially) and just to relax myself from all the pressure I've been through...

Lately it's been so tiring.. I'm so sorry for the negativity.. it's just that I feel like I'm not a good artist.. the thing is, I've always tried to make everyone like my hard-work content but in the end there's no use because I don't get many people to like it as much as that cool artist did.. (why can they managed make many people like their art..?)

Like, I had a dream where I can get likes that is equal to my hard-work but no matter what that's impossible, like, 'with too much effort' posts is just the same as 'no effort at all' posts

So, why do I always strive to work something hard if in the end only a few people that really like my art, right..? I'm just tired of trying to be perfect at art.. but I don't want to be lazy at art too.. ugh, it's confusing 😭

#people always tell me that it's a long process and i shouldn't be too impatient #it's not like that #it's just that I've been doing this for a half of year but it seems like my hard work meant nothing much... #I'm tired of working so goddamn hard #why am i always keep on striving for perfection..? it's not like people will like it lmao #Guys...why are you liking this post? 😭 it's just a shitty vent lmao #if i lose many followers in the end that means i deserve it because I'm greedy

[torgawl]

i'm so in love with wrio. that man is the embodiment of mercy and compassion. he is so... human. despite the deep disdain for atrocious acts that hurt others, especially acts that remind him of his own pain and traumas, he is able to keep himself in check and hold on to his values. despite being so proactive in fixing the wrongdoings of people that actively harm those under his care and assuring that everyone is supported in the best way possible; despite knowing he could have not controlled other people's hearts once they were in too deep in their own sins, he still feels helpless and incompetent. he recognises he cannot fully empathise with those who have been hurt for he has not experienced what they have and he understands that some wounds might not be able to heal even with all the attention and efforts, or at least not that easily. and it pains him. his whole life he's been trying to protect others. all his hard work during his time at the fortress and taking over it's administration has granted him the power and resources to actually change lives in a more restorative way, with a bigger amplitude than just the people who he's close to. yet he's only human. and not everyone wishes to be saved. and he doesn't hold back from breaking his own rules if means he is guaranteeing the best outcome for the greater good, for the well being of all of those he's sworn to protect. and although he earned himself a respectable title and even got used to being referred to in that way, he doesn't see people at the fortress as innmates but as equals. he never stopped being the little boy that was sentenced to live over a decade of his life there. and he is so good at what he does and he is so successful at restoring people's hopes in life, at giving them a second chance to become who they want to be, that there's people who actually want to stay there. he is the literal personification of turning your own pain into goodness, into love. love for community and love for others. he found meaning in making the world a better place and i just think that's really fucking beautiful.

#cerberus preventing the dead from leaving the underworld vs wrio whose compassion makes people not want to leave the fortress #god he makes me go feral #sorry for wrioposting everyday shjshdh he never leaves my mind #i saw someone point out the 3 heads possibly meaning past present and future and how we get to see a bit of all of those aspects through #his quest and i think that's really cool #also how the main themes surrounding his character are redemption and retribution #dwelling into these topics is just fun and i think they did it really well and again i think wrio is incredibly well written #i just think it's cool to see a character in a position with power to punish others be someone who was also judged by that same system #i think it's cool that rather than blindly following authority he used his power to change and reform the system #he created this utopia of the perfect living conditions and managed to sustain them #it makes you feel a certain type of way when you strive or wish for this type of equity and justice in the real world too #obviously it's only a slice of the cake but it's a relevant slice of the cake #not to enter a socialism and politics conversation but wriothesley and his quest share a very radical ideal and i think it's relevant #to acknowledge it #something something stories about revolution #i'm a bit sleepy tired it's so late but well i had to write something bye #genshin thoughts #genshin impact #my post

[hwiyoungies]

hoshi ✧ tiger

#svtgifs #svtcreations #svtsource #seventeen #soonyoung #flashing #b.edits #the way i adore this dude and his art #he knows who he is and what he's capable of and he will show everyone #without a hint of cockiness too he just knows that he's that good and simply proves it every time #i'm glad he has the space to show us this solo side of himself because it's simply incredible #truly one of the best performers and all rounders #and even if he's aware of how incredible he is he doesn't settle down and just keeps pushing and making himself even better than before #that's what i like the most i think the fact that he simply doesn't settle down #and continues to perfect his skill even further than before #i admire him so damn much and strive to have even 10% of the will he has #also had the hardest time figuring out what to gif because every single part of it was just fantastic #and i think gifs don't make this perfomance justice at all

[eru-iru]

even now ive never really settled a name for color 20 bedman with him having his own identity in my aus djhgk him being bedman cranked up to the 11 (when it comes to the violence and sadism yeah he's just that more delusional dsgkfdg and a little bit of a romantic but he's a freaking menace) ig the name twenty in the end fits him??? since he's not that very human and cant understand humanity no matter how hard he tries to copy it. he's just that even more disconnected ahaha.

#I do shorten his name to twen sometimes hmm nickname #anyway and thats why him and romeo are the toxic gays #or them trying to kill each other #or mostly 20 wanting to replace romeo so he can be the only “bedman” #20 “I'm jealous of you. I want to trade places with you but I can't. Because you're alive” #then in other aus he's madly in love and still also jealous of bedman KHFSDKG #because bedman is perfect in his eyes #and he strives to be perfect and hates the fact that he's defective for feeling emotions quickly #once bedman's powers are his #he'll be perfect #this is the most ive talked about of this au regarding these two LKFHSDKLF

[angelisproductive]

i give up (dealing with people is way too much so i'm going to focus on reaching my goals and becoming aggravatingly perfect until it isn't anymore)

#angelisproductive #cool girl #that girl #girl interrupted syndrome #coquettecore #waifcore #femme fatale #it girl #clean girl #dark academia #hustle #dark coquette #dark feminine #productivity #if i'm not striving for perfection i am dead #female manipulator #dark femininity #dark feminine energy #localy hated #coquette dollete #self improvement

[bandzboy]

i feel like discussing singing is more intricate and deep than some people make it seem because everyone is so different and their voices have different qualities to them because of genetics and how their body is and i think about this a lot about how... every voice is unique in their own way because it's not like an instrument it's something that comes with your body and so people just fail to realize these things when talking about vocals and singing

#to think that my voice is quite unique is special #my technique is different and so on #i mean... i've had vocal classes for year i've been singing for years #and i always find particular things i do with my voice that idk it was possible #it's something that can change through time with a lot of training #i don't think i've reached my full potential and there are many artists out there #who probably feel the same #sometimes it takes years to perfect your voice #that's how i see it and i'm just sharing what i've learned a while back #i always strive to make people see these things differently #because sometimes online spaces make it seem like there's only one way #of seeing singing and voices and etc #but i don't think it's simple and it's quite limiting #i'm rambling but you get it... #tris.txt

[supernovaa-remnant]

anyway, one of these days I'm just gonna make a long post about all my favorite prose from ad aeternum (I'll put it under a cut probably) because, whilst I do think goals of self-improvement in one's craft is important, I also think that it's deeply important to be able to find things in your craft to be currently proud of.

#like strive for improvement I do think that's great #but also that doesn't mean you have to diminish everything you write just because it's not perfect #you'll never actually reach perfection #so don't dismiss things you're proud of just because it's not perfect #tbh I think the ability to find parts of your craft that you genuinely like and are proud of #is incredibly important for keeping passion in your craft #because if you only ever dislike what you make #how long will your passion last? #anyway on that note I'm off to sleep farewell let's see if I have any weird dreams tonight #stella rambles

[ghcstcd]

tries to remake my oc Eden in ESO again...

#not yet for real but I'm thinking about it #as well as a vessel inspired character but I made vessel Eden's vc because the growls and round sound #perfect for wolf prince moon-moon who has themes of devotion and sacrifice as well as striving to obtain love that is impossible

[fayeandknight]

Working the closing shift at work on Fridays is such a weird experience.

We close an hour earlier than we do M - T but there's usually some one who either forgot or "forgets" and is late to pick up their dog. It's always two people closing, a trainer and a kennel tech, and the unspoken rule is that the trainer stays and sends the kennel tech home on time.

I used to work the closing shift but got booted because I wasn't telling my boss when dogs were late but not past the 15 minute mark. (After 15 minutes there's a late fee for the client.) She updates people's time for payroll herself because she's a stickler for paying people for their time and we don't have a system to clock in/out.

There's only three trainers, not including my boss, and one of them can't stay late on Fridays because of other commitments. However the other trainer who was closing Fridays was getting really upset with constantly having to stay late. Which I completely understand, is sucks because you can't just leave. It's not like dry cleaning where you just leave and the client can pick up their things the next day. It's a living being who cannot be left unattended.

So I offered to take the Friday closing shift back and promised to text my boss when I left, if I left after closing time.

All that to say at closing time there was still a dog who hadn't been picked up. I sent my coworker home and called the client to let them know we closed at X time and their dog was still here. The person was super apologetic, said they forgot about the Friday time, and told me their spouse was on the way but probably wouldn't arrive for another 15 to 20 minutes.

I thanked them for giving me a time estimate and that their partner can call when they arrive and I'd bring the dog out to the car since it's raining.

The spouse showed up almost a half hour later and met me at the back gate. They were so distraught at being late that I felt bad. They told me to charge them the late fee and gave me cash. I tried to push back against the cash because it was clearly an honest mistake. But they insisted their spouse would be upset if I didn't take the money. I didn't want to prolong them standing in the rain so I relented and told them to have a lovely weekend.

My boss had called about 15 minutes after close because she saw me still there on the cameras. I relayed the relevant information and assured her it wasn't a big deal. That I filled the time by putting on music and dancing around with Forte for silly training.

I did text her when the dog left. But I also told her about being given cash and that I'd put it in the coffee fund jar.

It feels weird to be given extra money over an honest mistake, especially when I am a) being paid for that time and b) used said time to play with my own dog.

By the time my boss answered and told me to keep the cash I had already locked up and was in my car. So on Monday I'll treat everyone to coffee. It doesn't feel right, for me, to just pocket the money when I'm already being paid for the time and used said time in a personal manner.

There's not a point to this, just sharing my experience. But if I had to tack on one it would be that I wish more people had practice with and experience with kind acceptance of mistakes. I don't have an issue with people making honest mistakes, even if it's inconvenient for me. I know I'd want someone to be kind to me if the roles were reversed and that I'd be absolutely mortified for having made the mistake in the first place.

I want to live in a world where the knee jerk reaction to others mistakes is kindness. If it doesn't start with me I have no business expecting others to model it.

#dogblr #customer service #if the person had been one of the chronically late people i would have different feelings #but this couple were so both clearly upset that i felt like an asshole to further make them feel bad #i'm just rambling #I'm not a perfect person #i make mistskes all the time #and i want others to be kind about it #so that's what i strive to be when the roles are reserved

[ratgirlcopia]

[bones creaking with every step i take] i think a lot of copia's self-image issues would start resolving themselves pretty quick with a transition arc. but that's just me.

#copiaposting #i see a lot of copia's gender stuff being a bit more social dysphoria than physical dysphoria. #which may sound. interesting. given my plastic surgery takes. but i think that's like. rooted in social dysphoria too. #to me a key thing about copia's Everything in the chapters is that underlying vibe of...not getting perceived correctly. #like... not getting titled correctly by imperator/not being taken seriously by nihil. #and then like. hypercorrecting toward masculinity in a way that both doesn't work and makes him seem kind of miserable. #and tbh i read the like. disappointment at imperator not calling him papa as less “this is the title i want” and more like... #“what the hell i did all that and suppressed so much of myself and i don't even get the title” #which is SOOOOO ripe for some ghovie plot point that's like. alright copia! you did it and they still never titled you correctly! #at which point copia “snapping” and just doing whatever the hell it is he actually wants to do would be the natural Thing. #[waves hand] hence the transition/drag show arc that makes perfect sense in my head. you see. #where was i going with this. oh yeah. #i feel like copia going “oh. i'm a woman” would make a lot of the uhhh self-image issues start falling off. #no longer striving for the impossible (parental approval) and instead just going “oh THIS is what i needed/wanted all along.” #i feel like that would result in less of the...[gestures to the vague yet constant sense of misery and inadequacy wafting off him] #bad at being a papa worse at being a man great at being a middle aged gamer woman. is my personal interpretation.

[foolishnpd]

no matter what I do, no matter how considerate I try to be, I'm never good enough for anyone am I. I'm already the screw up, I always upset someone when I'm just trying my best

I'm never fucking good enough

#lilyroaring #I overthink every little action #I have to be such a people pleaser #but in the end I just disappoint and upset and hurt everyone #I can't help my mother #I always end up upsetting my friend #I always just say something wrong or do something wrong #or my overthinking wasn't enough and I should've overthunk even harder #just to be sure I never do anything wrong #it's this horrible endless strive for a standard of perfection I can't reach #other people can be nasty inconsiderate assholes all day long #and never have issues #but I'm trying so hard to be perfect and it goes unappreciated #or it even somehow becomes a detriment #it's so painful. year after year after year for my entire life #just trying to be the best person I can be #the nicest. the one who helps everyone. the one who considers everything and tries to do everything with respect #and that perfection means nothing to anyone #why do I even try to please people #why do I still put in any effort to be considerate of others #it's not appreciated #it gets me into trouble more often than not for reasons I can never quite comprehend #I always think I'm doing the right thing. at least I try to #and I'm always wrong wrong wrong #I'm so tired of being perfect #but if I'm not perfect I'm not anything anymore #I need to at least be able to say I'm trying #otherwise I'm worthless and horrible AND I'm not even making the effort to be good

[junotter]

i think it is worrying how mean the online world is. yes there's good, but within good there's bad and maybe the bad doesn't justify the good or whatever that saying is.

its cruel and i think it teaches people, especially young people, to be cruel. but i don't want to act like the internet is some amorphous figure that controls us like a god, its not, its also people. some people who have an active interest in us being cruel but also just some people see the internet as a safe haven for cruelness.

i think more people are realizing how tiring it is to get the "Well actually this person..." comment under everything. but even i become cruel. ill watch tiktoks, laugh, and then think "wow this person probably sucks" and its just, perhaps they do but its not me who gets to rule over this.

for some people being able to be cruel online is a sort of healing i think. people who weren't allowed to express their anger. and i do think I'm bias on this, of course id like us to all be nice to each other, but many people do not want to be and at times it leaves no other option.

i thinkithink ithink idk ill keep thinking and then create people in my brain who disagree with me to get mad at and fight with in my head and then realize it stands no point because people arent like that in person.

deleting social media would be cool ig but i will contradict that dream and not do that

#personal #not perfect but striving for perfection because I'm scared someone will get angry at me for it not being perfect is idiotic #nonetheless someone could put this in better words than me

[brown-little-robin]

This is a message of solidarity with your tags ‘*through gritted teeth* it's OKAY to make imperfect art#*with bloodshot eyes* I am writing this FOR FUN’ 💜 i am struggling with this too at the moment and I’m sending all the progress-not-perfection vibes your way x

Thank you so much! <3

#for me part of this struggle comes from academia #where I'm always striving for perfection #and also from the lingering effects of believing that traditional publishing was the only option #I'm learning to abide in the joy of creating for myself and my friends #like Chinese poets used to do!! honestly ancient poets from many cultures seemed to have this down. #writing circles are the BEST. #the value of a piece of writing isn't dependent on its publishability.