#not to mention that fob lyric is one of my all time favorites from anything.....

[omegalomania]

What are some of your favorite aro-/ace-coded fob lyrics?

oh fuck yes a little bowl of seeds just for me

boycott love from disloyal order of water buffaloes is a personal favorite of mine. its a lyric i really really want tattooed at some point. that's not the only lyric i latch onto from an aro perspective but it's probably the biggest one

basically the entirety of it's hard to say "i do" when i don't but a special mention goes to you are appealing to emotions that i simply do not have as well as the only ring i want buried with me are the ones around my eyes

it's true romance is dead / i shot it in the chest and in the head from the music or the misery is also a favorite of mine, also just that whole song in general

i thought i loved you but it was just how you looked in the light in hum hallelujah resonates with a lot of queer folks i've found, and it's no different for me

same goes for it's a strange way of saying that i know i'm supposed to love you from g.i.n.a.s.f.s.

i'm outside the door, invite me in / so we can go back and play pretend from alone together brings me back to when i was trying to perform heteronormativity/amatonormativity even if it was making me miserable

i also hold to a very similar vibe with she said "i love you 'till i don't" / i am just playing house, no idea what i'm doing now from sunshine riptide and also most of burna boy's verse, frankly. i fell in love but i didn't fall down and feel like i'm bulletproof, baby in particular

american beauty/american psycho, particularly the first verse. i think i fell in love again / maybe i just took too much cough medicine

golden is a big one for queer folks in general i've found. the chorus especially hits hard from an aro and/or ace reading. and i saw god cry in the reflection of my enemies / and all the lovers with no time for me

i've got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth is a heavy song no matter how you slice it. but that chorus gets to me in particular: we can fake it for the airwaves / force our smiles, baby, half-dead / from comparing myself to everyone else around me

the kids aren't alright reads to me as one big anthem for platonic love above anything romantic, which resonates super hard with me. the second verse has a lot of good lines that i latch onto from an aroace lens too. your love is anemic and i can't believe / that you couldn't see it coming from me

pretty much the whole chorus of HOLD ME TIGHT OR DON'T does it for me, and those verses have got some good aroallo vibes too! i never really feel a thing... confidants but never friends...

the whole of fake out is a gimme. that chorus rings real true. starts with love is in the air, i just gotta find a window to break out and finishing with but it was all a fake-out

i've got all this ringing in my ears and none on my fingers is one that has another highly applicable title but the whole refrain of the truth hurts worse / than anything i could bring myself to do to you paired with the one-two punch of that second verse REALLY gets under my skin

and of course, the culminating one: you are what you love, not who loves you from save rock and roll. obviously there are a LOT of ways to read that line

there are a couple other songs i latch onto - wilson (expensive mistakes); a little less "sixteen candles", a little more "touch me"; the (after) life of the party to name a few - but the ones listed above are the big lyrics that resonate with me on a personal level

just in general i have a shitton of fob over on my aro playlist (which doubles as a general aroace/queer playlist but has a lot of emphasis on aromanticism) in case i forgot to mention anything but like i said those are the big ones

#askin hours #anon #happy aro awareness week lol ive had this in my drafts for mONTHS and forgot about it #sorry it took so long to answer i have a million asks in my inbox and just do not have time most days #go listen to aromanticism by moses sumney for black history month and aro awareness week btw #now THAT there is an album that rewrote my neural chemistry

[petewentzisblack1312]

what are some of your favorite fob lyrics?

cannot answer this in a universally true manner so heres fob lyrics im thinking about right now

'tip your glass to no direction' fellowship of the nerd. very elegant and clever word play. tip your glass to no particular direction, or tip your glass to the concept of being labelled as having no direction. falls into the same category

'spent most of last night dragging this lake for the corpses of all my past mistakes' my heart is the worst kind of weapon. i didnt know what dragging a lake was until a few years ago (because saint lucia does not have any lakes) and the stark and dark imagery really makes this song a top 10 teen angst bullshit bop

'stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me. hide the details i dont want to know a thing' the pros and cons of breathing. toxic homoerotic girl best friend bops for the ages. either you cut yourself off from an abusive relationship that you never really got any closure from or were otherwise inextricably linked to someone who was poisonous to your soul or you just wont get it. i could write an essay about this song. perhaps i will.

'i know, i know, i've made mistakes. i know, i know, but at least they were mine to make.' so good right now. manic song of all time. do not tell any song on mania i said that

'i will never ask you of anything except to dream sweet of me. tell me when the party ends, will you still love who i am?' heaven, iowa. never not thinking of this line. i have explained my thoughts on this.

'i got your love letters, corrected the grammar, and sent them back. its true romance is dead, i shot it in the chest and then the head' the music of the misery. i liked this lyric so much i drafted up an enamel pin design about it. hopefully coming this valentines. do not quote me on that.

'i am gods gift, but why would he bless me with such wit without a conscience equipped' fame<infamy. yesssss king you werk those clang associations. the cadence and rhythm and rhyme of this line is like a pinnacle of lyricism. on top of that i mentioned in fall out boy is for niggas that pete often used braggadocio but with a self deprecation as a spin on it. this song as a whole is a good example of that and i think i cited a different line in that essay but this is another really good one.

'spiritual revolt from the waist down' bishops knife trick. yeah yeah gay above the waist i dont care. this is a reference to 1984 and i like that. 'youre only a revolutionary from the waist down' like you only seek spiritual change so long as it brings you pleasure. feels like it fits with the theme of mania.

ran out of steam. take my list- please!

#dils declares #ive had this in my inbox for weeks now. weeks. #sorry to the person who asked this </3 #dils dissects #also ruminating on a pros and cons analysis

[glam-rock-boots]

i will never emotionally recover from seeing fall out boy on july 1st so here’s a compilation of my favorite show moments:

MIKEY FUCKING WAY PLAYING BASS DURING SATURDAY????? OUTTA NOWHERE UNANNOUNCED??? CANNOT BELIEVE I CAN LEGALLY SAY I SAW THAT HAPPEN

COFFEES FOR LOSERS 8BALL SONG (rewatching my concert vids is so fucking funny because you hear me straight up hyperventilating when pete mentions folie à deux then i get to ass shaking once i hear the drum intro)

moshing to dance dance and thanks for the memories

also just my first time in a mosh pit in general, i did some during bring me the horizon’s set before the actual fob show and although i got my shit rocked it was still fun

during the pre chorus in thanks for the memories, there was a short break and me and some random girl were just screaming the lyrics to each other (it was a vibe)

hitting the uma thurman dance when they played uma thurman

getting fucking jiggy to the take over the break’s over and this ain’t a scene it’s an arms race, what can i say, i’m an infinity on high girlie <3

pete talking to the dog puppet in between songs

joe and patrick actually getting it on their guitars

andy’s drumming was so good i felt my brain rattle in my skull

dancing and screaming/singing with my friends

those are all of the ones i could think of but if anything else comes to mind i’ll add it <3

#fall out boy #so much for (tour) dust #so much for stardust #infinity on high #from under the cork tree #folie à deux #patrick stump #pete wentz #joe trohman #andy hurley #fobchulavista #emo #2000s emo #punk #bring me the horizon

[legion1227]

Fall out Boy's presence has been sorely missed.

Since 2003, Fall out Boy has been serenading the ears of punk rock fans. I've always liked the band. As a kid, I remember hearing their big singles frequently on the radio, at parties, around the house, or otherwise. Foolishly and regrettably, as much as I liked them, I always considered them second to other pop-punk bands I enjoyed more. Panic! At the Disco, Paramore, and Green Day were all punk bands I found superior as a child, as a pre-teen, and even in high school. Every year I liked them a little bit more as I discovered more songs in their discography or as they released more albums, but I strongly preferred the previously mentioned bands over FOB.

But as Panic! dipped in quality and ultimately shit the bed with their last trainwreck of an album and Green Day not releasing a decent song in god knows how long, my perception of FOB and Paramore shot up exponentially. I consider Paramore my favorite band currently, and FOB might be second. I'm proud that both bands didn't let me down this year, putting out high-quality projects.

On March 24th, 2023, FOB released their 8th studio album, "So Much (For) Stardust." It's been five years since their last album, Mania, and it's a huge step up from that project, at least from what I recall. On Mania, there were about four decent or memorable songs out of the eleven tracks on the album. As they've gone more pop in recent years, there was an attempt to incorporate electronic or synth sounds into their songs. It worked for some songs like Church or The Last of The Real ones, but the majority of tracks were disjointed and didn't work.

In "So Much (For) Stardust," they returned to their pop-punk roots, and all the better for it. Here we have an album that's at least a little closer to their earlier works like Folie a Deux or Take This to Your Grave. And it's all the better for it. Consisting of 13 tracks, ten songs demonstrate FOB have learned from their previous mistakes and provided fans with a glorious return to form. To be fair, two tracks are skits or interludes, leaving one song that falls flat. Ten out of eleven certified bops is such a stellar ratio for the band.

The only stinker in the bunch, to me, is Heaven, Iowa. It's a low-energy, soulful ballad that fails to match the high energy reached in literally every other song. Heaven, Iowa does not fit with the rest of the tracks for Stardust. Every other song is addictive. It's not just the lack of FOB content over the years making this listener gravitate to anything the band drops, but the songs themselves are actually earworms.

"So Much (For) Stardust" starts powerfully with my favorite track and their first single, Love From The Other Side. Before lead singer Patrick Stump flexes his vocals, there's a minute spent with the band serenading listeners with instrumentals. First, what sounds like an orchestra to get the listener prepared before we hear the introduction to the rugged guitar, bass, and bombastic drums. The band proceeds to impress lyrically and instrumentally throughout. Verses, pre-choruses, choruses, and bridges, are all handled carefully.

"Model house life meltdown still a modern dream letdown, it kills me." The first lyrics to the first track, suggesting the life the band has built themselves is just for show, sets a standard that's followed throughout the rest of the project.

After Love From The Other Side, the second single, Heartbreak Feels So Good, keeps up the consistency, as the chorus is infectious. Hold Me Like a Grudge, So Good Right Now, I Am My Own Muse, Flu Game, and The Kintsugi Kid are all equally solid examples of eminent tracks. But it's the penultimate track, What A Time To Be Alive, that I adore as much as Love From The Other Side. What A Time To Be Alive has the band speak about how much the world has changed over the years since before COVID-19. But, the emphasis remains on living in the moment during good times even in trying times. It's possibly the most uplifting song on the album, and it's got some of my favorite lyrics strung throughout.

"Cause everything is lit except my serotonin," "But baby, please, I just need someone to hold me, even though you don't even know me," "They say that I should try meditation, They say that I should try meditation," "When, when, when I said, "Leave me alone", this isn't quite what I meant, I got the quarantine blues, bad news, what's left?" Just a handful of lyrics that are just…peak.

And the album ends nearly perfectly with the final song that shares the same name as the album: So Much (For) Stardust). A bit of nihilism and references to earlier tracks fuel the track, and as the project began with an orchestra, it finishes with a choir. It's meticulously crafted from start to end. It's such a great album, it's made me even more of a fan previously. Every year I tend to like them more, and this year empowered those feelings tenfold. 4/5.

#fall out boy #fob #so much for (tour) dust #punk #pop punk #review #music review #album review #album

[anonforlackofabettername]

Aight, here we go:

♤ honorable mention

♤ pretty in punk

♤ grand theft autumn

♤ homesick at space camp

♤ a little less sixteen candles

♤ the music or the misery

♤ golden

♤ don't you know who i think i am?

♤ disloyal order

♤ what a catch

♤ light em up

♤ save rock and roll

♤ the kids aren't alright

♤ twin skeleton's

♤ church

♤ heaven's gate

~ Lauren

FOB Asks

honorable mention: what would you title a movie of your life?

It would probably be a pun on my last name. I’m not sharing my last here name so I’m keeping this to myself

pretty in punk: punk, emo, scene or goth?

Punk for the values, emo for the mid-00s music, goth for the aesthetic (attraction). My personal style is unfortunately none of these. I’m very soft femme or sports gay. I’ve moved away from nerd girl chic thank god.

grand theft autumn/where is your boy: which was the first fall out boy song you heard and liked?

It’s either Dance Dance or Thnks fr th Mmrs way back when IOH first came out and FOB was a band my sister liked instead of anyone I listened to on my own. I know those were the only two songs I had on itunes before I got obsessed. My Songs was also getting a ton of radio play my senior year of high school that I liked but didn’t link that to the band. I think the first “Yes!” song when I was getting obsessed with them on my own was Phoenix. I’m still a lot obsessed with Phoenix.

homesick at space camp: what do you blast when you’re angry?

It really depends on what my mood is. I’m rarely ever just angry. If I’m angry and want to stew, usually I’m Not Okay (I Promise) is the right mood. If I’m angry and sad I’ve got a handful of playlists that help me deal with it. Most of the time I just put shuffle on and hit skip until the vibes are right.

little less sixteen candles, a little more “touch me”: favourite fall out boy mv?

Does the entirety of the Youngblood chronicles count? Does it? Am I going to have to pick a single song from that? You’re going to send me on a FOB MV YouTube binge after this aren’t you? (side-eyes you) (I’m finishing this and then I’ll go on the YouTube binge).

the music or the misery: favourite fall out boy bonus track?

I don’t know what counts as a bonus track. Are they the remixes? The live recordings? The random singles that aren’t one one of the main studio albums? All of the above? I’m going pick Dear Future Self (Hands Up) and Alpha Dog from the greatest hits albums (Believers Never Die Volume One and Two)(tho I’ve got them listed backwards DFS is on 2 and Alpha Dog is on 1).

golden: do you prefer fall out boy’s upbeat songs or the more emotional ones?

It depends on the mood I’m in tbh. Also what does this mean by upbeat? Some of their most emotional songs have the fastest tempos. The only ones I can think of that are emotional and slow are What A Catch Donnie and The Kids Aren’t Alright. The band is very good at being loud while hurting. So I guess upbeat.

don’t you know who i think i am?: which high school stereotype would you describe yourself with?

I was absolutely the only girl in the group of nerds. The wears science puns on her shirt and can’t get a date unless it’s a popular boy baiting her (jokes on them I’m queer and ace I don’t want a popular boy to date me and never did). Nowadays? Well I’m still a girl in stem so I guess that hasn’t changed even though my fashion sense has.

disloyal order of water buffaloes: which is your favourite fall out boy lyric?

So many. Fuck you for making me choose.

“I’m gonna change you like a remix/then I’ll raise you like a phoenix”

All of Miss Missing You but especially “Sometimes before it gets better/the darkness gets bigger/the person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger”

Cold open no music “Where is your boy tonight I hope he is a gentleman”

“The ribbon on my wrist says do not open before Christmas”

“I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me”

“Anything you say can and will be held against you/so only say my name”

My sister’s favorite opening to any song ever (it’s not relevant here but it came to mind when I was trying to choose): “Are you ready for another bad poem”

what a catch, donnie: favourite artist that features in a fob song?

Elton John (2008 Panic! is a close second - not whatever Brendon Urie is doing now as a solo act under the name P!atD, Panic! circa Folie a Deux and Pretty Odd). Everyone who featured on What A Catch Donnie gets a shout tho, they all rock

my songs know what you did in the dark (light em up): favourite single?

Lol of the songs I listened to as singles I’m gonna have to pick American Beauty/American Psycho with honorable mentions going to both My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark and Centuries.

save rock and roll: thoughts on elton john?

Yes. Absolutely yes. I don’t love all of his music and I never really listened to his discography in depth before the Rocket Man biopic a couple years ago but since then I’m yes. At this point he’s a flamboyant elder queer and I’m like rock on you funky little rocket man.

the kids aren’t alright: if you could send a message to yourself five years ago, what would it say?

God five years ago I was going into my senior year of college. I’d probably tell her that she has time to figure it all out. Shits going to be bad and good and everything in between but stressing ourselves out trying to fix it doesn’t actually change much. There is no way to make the one right decision that will make everything perfect from now until eternity and she shouldn’t try but for G-d’s sake do something nothing is not an acceptable choice. Also work harder on your senior project, talk to your counselor about ADHD, and be kinder to yourself but not too kind that you do nothing.

twin skeleton’s (hotel in nyc): describe your exact opposite.

A neurotypical cishet Christian who is already married with kids and thinks coding and modern technology is for heathens.

church: what do you associate with fall out boy?

I associate this specific song (Church) with oral sex lol. Now that that’s out of this way, idk I associate it a lot with my college years cause that was like the start and peak of my hyperfixation but also sitting in my living room while my sister had the music video channel on on the tv (not mtv lol a different channel) when I was like 12. I associate them with 1am youtube binges. I associate them with saying these motherfuckers (affectionate)(derogatory). I associate them with with rock and pop punk and a song for every mood. With broadening my horizons and also one of the things that helped me grow into liking shit whether or not it’s mainstream, niche, nerd, cringe, and anything or everything in between.

heaven’s gate: give one way fall out boy have helped you.

We’re friends because of FOB. I wanna be clear that we’d probably still be friendly without the shared special interest in FOB but we would be different friends. We were kind of tentative on the friendship/roommate front until we saw we had the same Fall Out Boy poster and from there we built the foundations of our friendship on that and ace shit.

Fall Out Boy Asks

#asks answered #anonymous #well sorta #but you sent it anonymously so I’m not gonna tag your blog #i hope to god this doesn’t show up in the main tags #fob

[randombubblegum]

maybe im like totally off the mark here but I see some similarities in the themes of the infamous drake problems lyric and the ‘perfect boys with their perfect lives/nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy’ fall out boy lyric in that they’re both about feeling unable to complain bc you’re wealthy and successful but the drake lyric is so cringe and bad and fob’s lyric is so good and also pretty relatable for people even if they’re not rich and famous they can still apply that line to their lives which no one can do with ‘my drake problems make problems’ lol.......I feel like there’s a way for awsten to express his emotions about fame that’s idk....better than what he’s doing rn? like obviously he doesn’t need to make everything he writes relatable and consumable and should be able to write about his problems but at a certain point nobody can relate to lyrics about not liking your record label and having too much money lol. and he’s such a big fall out boy fan so maybe he should take some songwriting tips from them.....

YESSSSS this is a rly good summary of how i feel about it too....... the fob lyric is expressing a very similar thing but in SUCH a better way thats both relatable and not stupidly self-aggrandizing. and ur exactly right he should write about what hes feeling and make it authentic blah blah but if he wants his art to be CONSUMED it needs to be RELATABLE to an audience and absolutely no one listening to parx is gonna relate to having too much money or being too famous and hating all THREE of your record lablels..........

and then he has the gall to be like “people who liked our old stuff or my blue hair era more arent REAL FANS” like dude shut the hell up lol...... i can relate to your feelings of fucked up longing i cant relate to you thinking youre drake like.............. go listen to some pete wentz lyrics and CALM DOWN

#not to mention that fob lyric is one of my all time favorites from anything..... #such a good lyric such a good expression of the sentiment #just shut up about the music industry and twitter LOL nobody cares!!! i dont care???!!! #mail time! #neg

[annoyingfobbie]

Oh no babe I got asks I got you here let me help okay x

What are your top five fob songs and why?

Note: The more in-depth you go, the cooler and sexier I will find it please indulge yourself! Smooches!

oh my god yes this is amazing thank you so much for this ask

okay, so, top five fob songs is gonna be DIFFICULT, and i hate like fully saying "this is my favorite thing" about anything at all bc i'm always like "but what if it changes????" so we'll just say these are my top five favorite fob songs AT THE MOMENT (and in no particular order bc thats too much pressure for my indecisive little brain):

1. Heavens Gate. this one is literally just bc patricks voice,,,, like. holy shit. oh my god. also the music is just exquisite. patrick really came through with that song like oh my god. his vocals but also just the sound??? amazing. it's one of the few fob songs where I don't particularly love the lyrics (just bc i find them to be like a little simple? still really beautiful and emotional though) and even though lyrics are often the main part of a song for me, it just has to go in my favorites because the rest of it is that good. the production and shit gets the emotions across way too well. like i cry listening to that song even when i dont relate to it at all.

2. Nobody Puts Baby In the Corner but SPECIFICALLY the My Heart EP version. That EP is actually one of my favorite pieces of art like of all time. and this is from someone who thoroughly enjoys so many forms of art and is going to art school. something about the lyrics and the sound of the EP and also the time in my life when i got back into FOB and listened to it for the first time ,,,,, the conditions were perfect to make me completely attached to it as an album. I relate to the lyrics of the first three tracks (also the third but since it's a joy division cover i won't mention that part yet) so fucking much, and in such a particular way??? also Love Will Tear Us Apart is like MY SONG, and the fob cover is so fucking perfect and patricks voice being so emotional is such a perfect contrast to the original being so flat and depressed??? anyways that whole EP is amazing but i wanted to choose one song specifically and NPBIC bc i guess it's my favorite out of them but it's a really tough call

3. Coffees for Closers. I didn't wanna pick more than one song from any album bc they go in categories in my brain, idk it's weird, so this one was really hard bc picking between this song, Disloyal Order, and What A Catch are all so fucking precious to me??? patricks voice just DOES stuff to me. but the lyrics in these songs,,,, CHEFS KISS. I chose Coffees for Closers because it wins in the lyrics department for me. "I will never believe in anything ever again" and "change will come, oh change will come" bring tears to my eyes and i could not for the life of me explain exactly why. sometimes some lyrics and the way patrick sings them and the music they're set to will just make me sob for no discernible reason.

4. I've Got a Dark Alley and a Bad Idea That Say You Should Shut Your Mouth. fuuuuuuuck. this SONG. the lyrics in this one really really really get me, man. and the way pete talks about it being like really personal and how he once said like he doesn't know why he ever released it because it feels too personal and he doesn't think he'd ever release something like THAT personal again or whatever it was he said? like, the way he feels about the song just gives it more context and makes it so relatable. I just relate to pete wentz's stupid fucking pretentious ass emo ass poetry so much and it's embarrassing but also there has literally never been an artist that i've felt more connected to, like I relate to the lyrics and shit. this song really gets that for me. also, as always, patricks goddamn voice.

5. The After Life of the Party. this was anothher really hard decision between this song, You're Crashing, and I'm Like a Lawyer, all of them bc of the lyrics. this one isn't even really that i relate or connect to the lyrics as it is my poetry obsessed mind going absolutely bonkers over petes amazing writing. Had to choose this song specifically because of the amazing, beautiful imagery. pete is honestly so good with words, it's unfair.

thank you so much for this ask omg you're the best

[earlgreytea68]

Hey!

So, I was wondering if you could help me out. I listened to FOB way back in 2005, specifically only one of their albums. I want to try getting into their music. Do you have a playlist or any recommendations or anything?

I've only ever heard their From Under The Cork Tree album. (These songs specifically 'Dance, Dance', 'Sugar, We're Goin Down', I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me', and 'A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me"')

Thanks EGT!

omggggggg. I had a friend ask me this once and I tried to pick one song from each album and...no, that didn’t work, I couldn’t whittle it down, OOPS, but HERE WE GO. Their sound evolves from album to album, so the songs off of Mania sound very different than the songs off TTTYG, and they get criticized for that sometimes, but maybe because I came to them late, they all sound like the same band, just people who aged from 20 to 40 in the past twenty years, you know, as people tend to do.

From Take This to Your Grave:

Saturday - The Pete & Patrick song! Also the final song at their concerts. Also enjoy the ridiculously homoerotic premise of the video.

Chicago Is So Two Years Ago - I especially love this live version of this song, it just makes me happy. Happy as I can be for a song where the girl says “boys like you are overrated” and so the boy says, “I wish to curse you so that your lips taste of me forever” lol

Grand Theft Autumn / Where Is Your Boy - Pete on this song: “When Patrick wrote it the lyric was ‘where is your man’ and I was like, ‘Patrick, you’re seventeen, change that to your boy’“ lolololololol I am paraphrasing but not much

From From Under the Cork Tree: (this album I actually struggled with what to rec, and I decided on just one from here, since it’s the one you know the most)

Our Lawyer Made Us Change the Name of This Song So We Wouldn’t Get Sued - “It’s just past eight, and I’m feeling young and reckless / The ribbon on my wrist says, ‘Do not open before Christmas’“

From Infinity on High (ugh love THERE ARE TOO MANY HERE OH WELL):

“The Take Over, The Breaks Over” - I read a description once of Patrick’s songwriting that said something like he overloads songs with hooks, and this song embodies that for me, there are so many melodies in here I love, especially “don’t pretend you ever forgot about me” ugh

Hum Hallelujah - Probably my favorite song of theirs lyrically, every single line of this song is stunning, and it’s got two of my all-time favorites: “One day we’ll get nostalgic for disaster” and “I can write it better than you ever felt it.” But really, EVERY line is perfect. “I love you in the same way there’s a chapel in a hospital?” Perfect. THE REFRAIN. Perfect. It’s just lyrically perfect ugh.

(After) Life of the Party - This is my favorite song on this album. Look, the official lyric sites will tell you the refrain is “cut it loose” but I choose to hear it as “could it last” and that makes this beautiful song the pining love song I think it should be lol. And THE END OF THIS SONG is just Patrick tour de force singing, that last held note ugh Also “put love on hold, young Hollywood is on the other line” is excellent but even better in the form it first appeared in on one of Pete’s blogs: “put the love on hold, anticipation is on the other line and excitement called while you were out.”

(honorable mention: You’re Crashing, But You’re No Wave - Just throwing a little bit of love toward the lawyer song. “Boys in three pieces dream of grandstanding and bravado / The city sleeps in a cell notwithstanding what we all know”)

From Folie a Deux: (I always think IOH is my favorite album and then I look at the tracklist for Folie and I’m like, UGH lol)

Disloyal Order of Water Buffaloes - Possibly my favorite FOB song ever (at least right now). Also, it’s their opener in recent tours, so that probably contributes to the fondness.

(Coffee’s for Closers) - Another “how many melodies does one song need” song lol

What a Catch, Donnie - THIS STUPID SONG OH MY GOD. The nostalgic self-indulgent medley at the end of this song KILLS ME EVERY SINGLE TIME STOPPPPPP

From Save Rock and Roll:

The Mighty Fall - The first time I teased out the lyric “your crooked love is just a pyramid scheme,” I think I uttered a little gasp in the car lol

Miss Missing You - Oh heyyyyyy the hot whiskey eyes song

Save Rock and Roll - I will never get over that Fall Out Boy titled a song (and album) Save Rock and Roll and the song (and album) is...actually fantastic ugh

From American Beauty / American Psycho:

The Kids Aren’t Alright - “And in the end, I’d do it all again, I think you’re my best friend”

Fourth of July - IN BETWEEN BEING YOUNG AND BEING RIGHT, YOU WERE MY VERSAILLES AT NIGHT sorry, just many hearts around that (also “I’m sorry every song’s about you” lololol)

Twin Skeleton’s (Hotel in NYC) - Okay, but the way Patrick snarls “I could just die laughing on your spiral of shame” -- and the fact that THIS SONG CLOSES OUT THE ALBUM ugh

From Mania:

Young and Menace - This might be a controversial pick??? But I LOVE this song, I think it is sheer genius, sometimes I listen to it on endless repeat.

The Last of the Real Ones - I think this is a great song that probably deserved more radio play than it got. And it’s got really great lyrics. “I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me” always gets me.

Wilson (Expensive Mistakes) - “When I say, ‘I'm sorry I'm late,’ I wasn't showing up at all / I really mean I didn't plan on showing up at all”

[prettyoddfever]

P!ATD in 2004

This post starts when the band members all met each other and ends right before they met Pete. I didn’t watch anything in this season unfold, so this is my best understanding compiled from quotes from hundreds of interviews and some comments in late 2005 from kids who knew the band during this season... 

MARCH / APRIL / MAY

I’m not sure exactly when Brendon joined the band, but Trevor was still in the band in early 2004 and Brendon was definitely there by early April.

Brent had gone to Ryan’s private Catholic high school, but then transferred to Brendon’s public school his junior year (I heard he got kicked out of Gorman).

Brendon was a junior in high school when he met Brent in their guitar class. Brendon later told Alt Press that the class had a lazy teacher: “He literally told me to teach the class! … One of us would take attendance and then they didn’t give a shit what happened in the next hour. We’d just hang out. Usually I’d play a couple covers and we’d sing along to Dashboard and Thrice… Brent showed up and he was totally alone, arms crossed. He just looked really shy, and being who I am, such an extrovert, I was like ‘Hey! What’s up!? Thrice is a really amazing band.’ … We started talking music immediately, and I knew he was going to be my friend.”

Fast forward to when Brent showed Brendon the demos that The Summer League had been working on. Brendon later explained that “[Brent] said, ‘Yeah, I have this band. Would you want to play guitar?’ I said sure, because I had been in bands before, but never seriously.”

It sounded like they initially needed a guitar player for a few shows in late spring & early summer.

Ryan talked to Q Magazine in 2008 about the first time he met Brendon at a band practice: “He was the most animated person I’d ever seen. He did an incredible Gollum impression. I thought he was out of his mind.” (Ryan’s nickname was Smeagol). He talked about the same moment to Rolling Stone at the end of 2006: “I remember thinking, ‘That’s the best impression of Gollum I’ve ever heard in my life!’”

Brendon later said that meeting Spencer, Ryan, & Brent was the first time he’d met other kids with his same sense of humor.

Brendon turned 17 in April.

Spencer’s grandma was moving, so they used her living room for a practice space this spring. The band’s first practice with Brendon was there, and he later told Steven on SURS that he was afraid of jumping with the guitar and breaking the nice coffee table. Idk why that became one of the more popular stories about the early band, but I’ll mention it then ha.

Ryan’s favorite band this season was Fall Out Boy (but blink-182 was still an all-time favorite). Brendon had never heard of FOB until after he met Ryan.

Ryan also started flirting with Jac on livejournal this spring, which was only slightly relevant to the band so I’m just going to gloss over her existence… 

Brendon attended seminary at church every morning before school.

It sounded like Ryan was living with Spencer’s family by the end of the school year because his dad was in rehab (I’m only mentioning that because it impacts lyrics a few months later).

someone who went to Ryan’s high school later shared this picture and said that their senior yearbook had asked them where they saw themselves in 10 years...

SUMMER

Brendon had replaced Trevor and was just the guitar player this summer. Ryan was the singer. They technically hadn’t formed Panic! at the Disco yet... I’ll come back to that later.

One of The Summer League’s first shows after Brendon joined was in early June (I think Paulina was the merch girl). There might have been one earlier show, but they definitely played a few shows this summer before starting P!ATD. 

They had tshirts for sale that said “The Summer League: Adult Contemporary” (some Vegas kids shared pics of those in the very early Fever era but idk where that went).

The guys also played a couple songs at Brendon’s church: "My mom said we could play because there was this youth dance. I grew up Mormon, and there's a dress code -- you have to wear nice clothing. So I told the guys, 'It'll be really fun, a lot of cute girls, and a lot of people our age, but we have to dress up. We have to wear suits and ties.’ That’s where it started… We were super into Louis XIV, and they were dressing so cool. We were fans of Vaudeville, Victorian-era dress and all that dapper stuff… We were showing up, like, ‘Look at this blazer I bought!’”

They were still using the name The Summer League at the show around July 18th or 19th at Brendon’s church.

The band got their practice space around July. The guys were all under 18, so they needed parents to help sign for the space. I think Brent’s parents initially helped pay for part of it. 

I’m pretty sure that it was Brent’s parents’ animal clinic where Ryan worked. It sounded like he was working there to pay something off & didn’t get a paycheck. Ryan also got his next dog Shotgun there at the end of summer (his dog at the start of the year had been named something like Cheyenne).

Spencer filed charts & paperwork at the ear, nose, & throat clinic where his mom worked.

Brendon worked with his dad as a land surveyor and was super tan ha. 

Ryan went to a Fall Out Boy show in July and Warped Tour too. 

The guys later mentioned in several interviews how the biggest shows they’d played before getting signed were at a waterpark, a hot dog place called Doggy Style, a bowling alley, and a battle of the bands. I’m not sure which ones were in summer 2004 and which were earlier (they definitely played The Punks Who Saved Christmas at the Huntridge in December 2003). The guys also mentioned playing in someone’s backyard & at a party this summer. It’s not like these shows were super legit or gave them much experience, but it’s also not like the first time the guys ever played their instruments in public was at their first show as Panic! at the Disco on August 12, 2005 (which is how the media often made it seem).  

The guys didn’t play any more shows this year after they formed P!ATD, so they were telling the truth that they never played a show in that band before they were signed & made their first record. The phrasing there is important.

I don’t actually know if they were technically considering themselves The Summer League this entire summer since they stopped updating that band’s livejournal account. This summer was kind of a vague in-between period. We know for sure that they played at a few small places with Ryan as the singer, and then formed P!ATD after getting their practice space. This post goes more into journalists’ confusion over exactly when P!ATD started. 

FORMING PANIC! AT THE DISCO

The guys wanted to do something different & more original than what every other band was doing. They talked so much in future interviews about how most bands sounded the same, the Vegas scene sucked, and there was nowhere local for newer bands to play (especially if they were under 21). Several other Vegas bands got signed after P!ATD started becoming big because for whatever reason people were like omg The Killers and Panic came from the same city so we better scour that town asap. Those bands said very similar things as Panic: the Vegas scene was not great for newer young bands.

Spencer told MTV in 2006: "In our practice space, there were something like 30 bands, and every day we'd walk into that room and hear the exact same death-metal bands. So it kind of influenced us to be different. And to get out of Las Vegas.” 

Ryan said “Walking through our practice space, we heard every band playing essentially the same thing – it started to drive us insane. But I’m kind of thankful we had to share a building with those bands, because we probably wouldn’t have realized that we wanted to do something different nearly as quick.”

Brendon was a solid part of the group when they all made the decision to start a new direction as Panic! at the Disco. He’s telling the truth when he says that P!ATD didn’t start as a blink-182 cover band (The Summer League wasn’t one either). All four guys started P!ATD together that summer, so idk where the current idea formed that P!ATD was somehow “Ryan’s band” (especially since that completely ignores Spencer’s massive role from the beginning, buuuut that’s another tangent). 

Brendon later said in November 2006: “that was the idea behind the band is that we wanted to just be original – challenge ourselves to write something creative & unique.”

They stopped trying to find places to play in Vegas and just started to focus on their music & reaching out to people online. Journalists later made such an obnoxiously big deal about how a band made it solely through the newfangled internet, so I’m going to just say that it was considered groundbreaking at the time. end of story.

Brendon said in June 2008: "We didn’t have any place to play in, so the four of us said, ‘Why don’t we play on the internet?’ It was a group decision.”

A ton of early interviews made it sound like they had been a band for about 3-4 months by the end of November… they also used the phrasing that they’d only been a band for a couple months before meeting Pete. I’m going to guess that P!ATD existed in August (for several different reasons) but idk exactly when to say they started. 

Brendon told Las Vegas Weekly in late 2006 that “I feel like the Vegas scene isn't very strong, if at all existent... venues were constantly opening and closing all the time, every two or three months. So it's hard for a band to survive unless you're putting your stuff on the Internet. It seems like the music scene isn't strong enough where we can keep venues around. Either you play your friend's backyard or you play a sold-out show at House of Blues to 2,000 people. There's no middle ground for bands.”

BRENDON BECOMES THE SINGER

Brendon said he’d never sung someone else’s lyrics before or played shows with a band.

He was usually way off when estimating dates off the top of his head in interviews, and Ryan sometimes gave answers that were just plain inaccurate… which is completely understandable when they were in the middle of a whirlwind of touring and were suddenly expected to reach back for some tiny detail that probably felt like it happened a lifetime ago. So the detail of when Brendon became the singer has the most inconsistent and/or vague answers surrounding it. I compared quotes from a ton of interviews and several different people to get the general idea that Brendon became the singer sometime around early fall 2004. That is such a shaky estimate, though.

I think it’s helpful to ignore the specific numbers that Brendon shares and just look at what they show about how he feels about the memory. He said in a 2006 LiveDaily interview that he became the singer “like two weeks” before they met Pete and that he’d been in the band for about 4 months by then. Those numbers are way off no matter what, but it does show that he remembers being the guitar player for a decent chunk of time before he became the singer. 

Ryan told Rolling Stone in late 2006: “I think I was sick one day or something and said to him, ‘Why don’t you sing the song?’ He started singing, and we were like ‘Why didn’t you tell us you could sing?’ He said ‘I didn’t know I could.’”

Q Magazine said in 2008: “Urie was initially Summer League’s second guitarist, while Ross sang lead vocals as well as playing guitar. The band played some local keg parties but then realized Brendon had the strongest voice. At this point, Ryan was glad to step back from singing and said ‘I’d rather be in the corner onstage. It feels safest.’”

Even people who were friends with Ryan during The Summer League days admitted he wasn’t a very good singer. (He definitely was a good singer by the time the band had been touring for a bit, though! He worked SO hard... he said he was taking voice lessons in 2005-2006 and that Brendon coached him too. So the improvement in his vocals is another example of how much work he invested in his band).

Ryan’s lyrics were a big part of why P!ATD got signed. Brendon had the talent, confidence, and stage presence that was needed to actually deliver the songs. Ryan talked about this a lot in future interviews (here’s one example). 

Rolling Stone wrote: “Whereas Ross was never comfortable as a frontman, Urie relishes the role… ‘I’ve always been very outgoing,’ says the spindly singer. ‘I don’t have a problem performing in front of 5,000 people.’”

here’s more info on this switch + the Brendon/Ryan setup.

Brendon told Designer Magazine in spring 2006: “Before I was in the band and even when I've been a the band I tried to take vocal lessons because I wasn't a singer. At the time I was doing backing vocals but I thought I might as well take vocal lessons. When I used to sing it was really nasally and sounded like shit. I guess I always used to sing along to the Beatles and stuff like that but I never tried to sound like that. I still do a few of the vocal lessons each night before I go on.”

AUGUST – NOVEMBER

Ryan shared some early Time To Dance lyrics in August after he returned from a trip with his dad & brother. (They weren’t called anything yet – I’m just using the song name because that’s what it eventually became). 

Ryan did not write AFYCSO while he was in high school lol.

I’m guessing that P!ATD existed in August because of Ryan’s spike in affection for his 3 friends and his enthusiasm about their band. Apparently he posted on lj on August 8th: “i love my 3 friends to death. we're going to move out and see the country together playing music. i know it.”

Ryan turned 18. People later said that the Tarah he went to the Cheesecake Factory to celebrate with was the same girl who eventually cheated on him in spring 2005 and inspired a good chunk of AFYCSO. Idk if that’s true, but some fans seemed to consider this a significant moment so I’ll include it with the disclaimer. (update: obviously Jac Vanek did not inspire that song lol. She started dating Ryan in fall 2005 after AFYCSO was released. That was like a whole other era).

Ryan’s dad gave him a laptop for his birthday.

Ryan started studying creative writing at UNLV on a scholarship but was living at home with his dad, who was drinking again. Ryan said he was going to move into the band’s practice space, but it wasn’t clear if he actually did. Nails For Breakfast was one of the earlier songs he wrote. update: Ryan was only in college for a semester, and his answers about what he was studying changed. So in 2008 he said he was studying music production & engineering.

Spencer turned 17 on September 2nd. 

Spencer also had a laptop. He and Brendon were messing around with Garageband trying to figure out new ideas. Brendon later said “We were pretty skeptical to the idea that kids would be into what we were doing. Four kids playing rock music, mixing it with techno beats and synthesizers wasn’t exactly the cool thing to be doing then.”

Brent said “We had a different idea for the band when we first started. We wanted to do a real electronic rock thing and we played around with that for a while but it felt like a dead end for us. When we started, all these dance rock bands weren't around.”

They later considered Time To Dance to be the first song they wrote together as a band… they were all 17 at some point while working on it. 

They recorded their first demo on a laptop as a bunch of separate parts. Ryan told Big Cheese Magazine that it was recorded at Brent’s house (although Spencer said that the general demos this fall were recorded on Ryan’s laptop in their practice space).

The first demo of It’s Time To Dance was posted to purevolume around October 24th, followed by Ryan’s lj post with the lyrics. (the It’s Time to Dance demo that people sometimes share as “the demo Pete heard” is actually the second version that Pete had them record in early 2005 to put on samplers & sites btw).

Ryan proceeded to spam the internet around October 24th telling people to go check out his band’s song. A lot of his bathroom selfies that are still around were basically done as promotion for his band this fall… he worked himself into various lj communities trying to get some attention – here are some highlights from tightpants. He’d been around online for a while, though. (I know the masterpost of his lj posts that was generated through ljseek only goes back to like fall 2004, but that’s def not the full picture. It’s missing a lot – even from the time period it includes). Someone later saved part of Ryan’s other lj comments – this is the only version I can find that’s still up.

update: just because Ryan’s remaining livejournal posts are getting a lot of attention these days does not mean that Ryan got a lot of attention back then lol. he was just a normal guy on livejournal in 2004 before his band got going.

Brendon’s nickname in the band was Yuri.

Ryan later talked about how Brendon would blow off band practice to go to church.

The guys started to record the “Nails for breakfast and tacks for snacks” demo in early November. The untitled demo was posted on purevolume in mid-November. Ryan posted the lyrics on his lj too (here’s that tightpants post too just because).

Spencer talked about November 2004 (in an August 2006 interview): “The band, uh, with the four people that are in it now I mean, had probably been together for about six months and written like 2-3 songs because we were still in school, we were still having jobs, we could only practice a couple times a week. We wrote a couple songs and just recorded them on Ryan’s laptop in our practice place and we posted two demos online.”

Brendon got his livejournal in November (update: his lj was part_time_lovah, not punkjunker. “punkjunker” was in his email).

P!ATD made it past 1,000 listens on purevolume on November 17th and Ryan asked people to keep telling their friends.

Their purevolume said they were a dance rock group.

The guys were balancing school & work while trying to create a legit band. Ryan would work mornings (maybe for Brent’s parents?), go to class in the afternoon, and then practice in the evenings.

Ryan was having a harder time commuting to school and posted about a parking ticket, a speeding ticket, and getting his car towed while he was in class… but his luck was about to get pretty awesome.

Brendon later said that the band had been on the verge of breaking up in November because of pressure from their parents.

Spencer said they had all told their parents they were planning on going to college in Las Vegas in order to appease them.

THE THIRD DEMO FROM FALL 2004 ???

So the two demos I mentioned are the ones that were on purevolume when Pete went to listen. They guys all consistently said that there were 2 demos online, but that they had 2-3 songs written. It sounded like they had another demo they never used (I’m not talking about the Relax Relapse demo).

Brendon later said that “Pretty much all the songs we ever wrote were on the album.”

In August 2006 Spencer mentioned “...one song that was the first song we ever wrote. That wasn’t on the album – it didn’t even have a name I don’t think. We never recorded it after the demo.” He was talking about fall 2004.

Spencer also said in another interview that they spent almost 2 months recording 3 demos this fall. But often the band would only mention having the two demos that were posted and leave it at that.

Every time some mention of it came up I would be like ???? so that is all I know about that.

one last thing: Yes, Ryan did a lot of key things that led to the success of P!ATD – they absolutely wouldn’t have been in the same position without him. But I’m not diminishing his part when I point out that Spencer & Brendon each played crucial roles in 2004-2006 in their own way too. I don’t see how P!ATD as we knew it could have ever existed without all four guys (yes, even Brent – his parent’s $$ and support did make a difference, plus he brought in Brendon). Just because each guy was very important in certain aspects doesn’t mean that one of them carried the early band. They all mattered. 

THE MAIN POST

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30. your all-time favorite song

fuck. i absolutely can’t pick???? i go through phases of songs where i really like one and listen to it on repeat but i always find another? I couldn’t even give you my favourite album…

for now i’m gonna say:

holding onto you - tøp

I don’t know what it is about this song. I couldn’t pinpoint a specific thing but i just love it so much… it’s positive but also blatantly sad and it has rapping and an upbeat feel while also having an emotional piano driven bridge. Every. Single. Fucking. Line. resonates with me. I couldn’t pick my favourite lyric out of it if i tried. It’s all i would want from my own music and more. I just love it so much?????

miss missing you - fob

the rolling bass is just so amazing and the guitar just works so well and i don’t know how? the lyrics mightn’t relate directly to me but there’s something there that makes me always come back to it. once again, gang/choral vocals? maybe i like those??? “sometimes before it gets better the darkness gets bigger/ the person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger” don’t you dare tell me pete can’t write a damn good song! just ugh

miracle drug - u2

ayy dad music! in all seriousness though i was raised on this song and it has so much meaning to me. it’s about wanting someone you love to be happy and desperately wanting everything to be ok. “I want to hear you when you call/ do you feel anything at all/ I want to see your thoughts take shape and walk right out” just,,, i really like the lyrics. the quiet strings but piercing lead guitar??? yes?!?! i just love it a lot

kids aren’t alright/sophomore slump or comeback of the year - fob

i don’t know whether this is my brain being weird, but i almost interpret these as being the same song, but from different persepctives. one’s not a sure “it’s just a matter of time until we’re all found out” while one’s more assured, but there’s the same feeling of platonic love and companionship - “i swear i’d burn this city down to show you the light” “i think you’re my best friend”. one is a group of yound guys trying their best to cope and manage desperately hoping everything will be okay, and the other is the same guys slightly older realising that sometimes everything isn’t okay, and they went through it but inevitably found their way back to each other. they’re message to the kids - one saying “we’re just the same as you are” and another saying “we were the same as you are and we know what it’s like”.

honourable mentions:

champagne supernova - oasis

disloyal order of water buffaloes, city in a garden - fob

oh ms believer, slowtown - tøp

i’m not okay (i promise), summertime, AMBULANCE - mcr

brother - gerard way

searching for you - i the victor

this was unecessarily long (my speciality) but i hope you like this??? 

thank you so much for sending in an ask :)

[kpopgerapitico]

Song of the Week

I’m in a better mood/place this week, so hopefully this goes better. I am excited for possibly good music.

Honorable Mentions:

If you want something short and atmospheric, there is a really cool collab between OLNL and Hippy Was Gipsy called Summer Rain. My only complaint is that it is too short.

I have never heard of Rothy, and I am still on the fence after this week’s releases. On the one hand is Burning, which is solid. The vocals fit pretty well into my favorite style, and most importantly go with the song well. The chorus is a bit too tropical house for my taste, but otherwise it is musically pretty on point too. But then there is the jazzy Lost Time, which is . . . fine. If you like the style, you will most likely like it. I don’t. Hence the indecision.

I am surprised by how much I like NCT Dream’s We Go Up. It is cute and a little bit . . . young for my usual now, but I can look past it when it is so fun. The hook is easily my favorite part, leading to a chorus that is not tropical house, so is great in my current mindset. It is nowhere near my favorite NCT songs (and I don’t think Dream will ever get there), but it is a solid release.

At first I was distracted from the music in Baekhyun and Loco’s Young by the fact that Baekhyun is trying real hard to look cool, while Loco seems to a combination of bored and confused (or, you know, his neutral face). The song though is interesting. Baekhyun doesn’t do anything particularly out of his EXO wheelhouse, and the verses for Loco fit him well. I think it is an effective collab, I’m just not sure that I will remember anything about this song in a month.

I really want to like Gree’s Doves. And the flow is good,  the beat is good, the song is good. I can’t handle the skrt’s at the beginning, because I can’t take anyone seriously that says that, but if I let myself get past it, the chorus is a least a little bit interesting. I think the only thing bothering me is that his pitch is just a bit high, which started to wear on my ears by the end.

Sidenote: my favorite label put out a pair of live performances from combos of their artists. The first is a duet between Gaho and Jung Jin Woo. The second is from June, Moti and Villain. Both are great because of course they are, Planetarium Records is amazing. Also, Villain is still unfair.

I felt obliged to listen to all of Biya’s Seattle, on account of it’s where I grew up, and where I live now. And while it feels like it would fit in on the soundtrack of any of the thousands of coffee shops across the city, I was underwhelmed. My preference in songs named Seattle from Korean (or Korean American) artists is Sam Kim’s Seattle from 2016, which is half English and more of the feeling of Seattle in the fall and spring and sometimes winter. Oh, and also it is amazing, so there is that.

Sometimes you are in a rock mood. This week, Jung Joon Young has you covered, with his band, Drug Restaurant with 403. I am a sucker for a strong guitar and impressive vocals. I am getting FOB or Panic nostalgia, mixed with a bit of Green Day and maybe Radiohead. And the nostalgia alone is enough to make me like it, but the vocals are great as per usual with Jung Joon Young, so that obviously helps. Also, it’s all in English and I still don’t know why it is called 403. Any ideas?

It finally happened. Jooheon pulled a Zico, and put out a solo track that I can’t help but like. And it is even for a similar reason: with Zico’s Eureka, he proved he was comfortable in his skin and his image enough to have fun with it. And that is what came off the most for me in Jooheon’s Red Carpet. He isn’t fitting the cute image, and he has decided that it isn’t the opposite of his rapper image, but that they can coexist in the same track and same space. I would have been happy with just that, but of course Jooheon had to go all the way with great rhythm and style as always. Now I just need the translated lyrics so I understand what is happening. It was an easy choice for the win this week (maybe not easy, but obvious).

#sotw #jooheon #red carpet

[frogsagainandagain]

favorite lyric from every fob song

i’m so sorry this is so long please skip this is mainly for me to be able to reference

*songs with incredible lyrics throughout that it was extra hard to choose one or two

honorable mention:  and maybe next time/i’ll remember not to tell you something stupid like I’ll never leave your side

calm before the storm:  you said, between your smiles and regrets: “don’t say it’s over.”

switchblades and infidelity:  walking out on the show is walking out on you/and walking out on you’s still the best thing that I ever did.

pretty in punk:  well I’ve seen your boyfriend/and i don’t think he treats you right/but that’s none of my business is it?

growing up*:  i’ve dried my eyes, now it’s “rushmore”/i’m deep with futures like chicago/no, glenview never meant a thing to me/she never meant a thing to me

the world’s not waiting (for five tired boys in a broken down van):  we’re all “hasbeens” and “never-were’s”

short, fast and loud: good god i wish i was tall

moving pictures:  where can I go when I want you around/but I can’t stand to be around you

parker lewis can’t lose (but i’m gonna give it my best shot): in the meantime just talking with my shoes/converse with my converse

tell that mick:  stop burning bridges and drive off of them

dead on arrival:  i know I’m not your favorite record/but the songs you grow to like never stick at first

grand theft autumn: you need him/i could be him

saturday:  and i read about the afterlife/but I never really lived

homesick at space camp:  landing on a runway in chicago and I’m grounding all my dreams/of ever really seeing california

sending postcards:  when you go i will forget everything about you

chicago is so two years ago*:  she took me down and said:/“boys like you are overrated. so save your breath."          bonus:  with every breath i wish your body will be broken again

the pros and cons of breathing:  i want to hate you half as much as i hate myself

grenade jumper:  living like life’s going out of style.

reinventing the wheel:  i can’t wake up to these reminders of who i am:/a failure at everything… 18 going on extinct.

patron saint*:  and when it all goes to hell/and when it all goes.

my heart is the worst kind of weapon:  we are salt - you are the wound

it’s not a side effect:  and think of all the places/where you’ve been lost/and then found…out/in between my sheets/in between the rights and the wrongs

our lawyer:  we’re only good cause you can have almost famous friends

gin joints:  i used to waste my time dreaming of being alive (now i only waste it dreaming of you)

dance, dance: joe trohman is lame

sugar:  isn’t it messed up how i’m just dying to be him?

nobody puts baby in the corner: you look so good in blue

dark alley: joke me something awful just like kisses on the necks of "best friends”

atavan halen:  i’ll be stuck fixated on one star/when the world is crashing down

sophomore slump*:  cause i swear i’d burn this city down to show you the light

champagne:  they say, “you want a war? you’ve got a war.”/but who are you fighting for?

i slept with:  douse yourself in cheap perfume it’s/so fitting, so fitting of the way you are

sixteen candles*:  she said, she said, she said, “why don’t you just drop dead?"       bonus:  so say what are you waiting for?/kiss her, kiss her

get busy*:  i used to obsess over living,/now I only obsess over you

XO:  to the "love”, i left my conscience pressed/between the pages of the bible in the drawer

snitches and walkers:  show me a starry-eyed kid/i will break his jaw

the music or the misery*:  it’s true romance is dead, i shot it in the chest then in the head.      bonus:   and if you wanna go down in history then i’m your prince      bonus bonus:  i went to sleep a poet, and i woke up a fraud

thriller:  i can take your problems away with a nod and a wave/of my hand, ‘cause that’s just the kind of boy that i am

take over, breaks over:  don’t pretend you ever forgot about me.

arms race:  i wrote the gospel on giving up/(you look pretty sinking)

me & you:  the best way/to make it through/with hearts and wrists intact/is to realize/two out of three ain’t bad/ain’t bad

hum hallelujah*:  i thought I loved you/it was just how you looked in the light.

golden:  and i knew that the lights of the city were too heavy for me

thnks fr th mmrs:  get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes

don’t you know:  i could learn to pity fools as I’m the worst of all/and i can’t stop feeling sorry for myself

the after life of the party:  put love on hold,/young hollywood is on the other line

tunnel of love:  got postcards from my former selves saying: “how’ve you been?”

doldrums:  you’re wrong/are we all wrong?

fame > infamy:  “there’s too much green to feel blue”

you’re crashing*:  the headline reads “the man hangs”, but the jury doesn't                bonus:  baby boy can’t lift his headache head

ringing in my ears: new york eyes, chicago thighs

ginasfs:  threw caution to the wind,/but i’ve got a lousy arm

hard to say:  but don’t get the wrong idea/we’re gonna shoot you

lullabye:  when you wake up the world will come around

disloyal order*:  what a match, i’m half doomed and you’re semi-sweet        bonus: boycott love/ detox just to retox 

i don’t care:  say my name and his in the same breath/i dare you to say they taste the same

winona:  bop bop ba dop

america’s suitehearts: why won’t the world revolve around me?

headfirst slide:  i don’t just want to be a footnote in someone else’s happiness

(shipped) gold standard:  plant palm trees on lake michigan before it gets cold/i gotta feel the wind chill again before i get old

(coffee’s for closers)*: i will never believe in anything again/though change will come

donnie: i’m the one/who charmed the one/who gave up on you

27:  you’re a bottled star/the planets align/you’re just like mars/you shine in the sky

tiffany blews: dear gravity, you held me down in this starless city

wams*:  what makes you so special?/i’m gonna leave you/i’m gonna teach you/how we’re all alone

nosebleed:  goes to the desert the same war his dad rehearsed/came back with flags on coffins and said,/”we won, oh we won.“

west coast smoker:  got my degree in the gutter,/my heart broken in the dorms of the ivy league

pavlove:  i want to make you as lonely as me/so you can get, get addicted to this

the phoenix:  wearing our vintage misery/no, i think it looked a little better on me

light em up:  a constellation of tears on your lashes/burn everything you love, then burn the ashes

alone together:  but i don’t think i’m coming home and i said/i’ll check in tomorrow if i don’t wake up dead

where did the party go:  my old aches become new again/my old friends become exes again

just one yesterday:  letting people down is my thing, baby/find yourself a new gig/this town ain’t big enough for two of us

the mighty fall:  two’s a whole lot lonelier than one

miss missing you*:  baby, you were my picket fence           bonus:  i will sing to you every day/if it will take away the pain

death valley:  undress to impress/you can wear the crown but you’re no princess 

young volcanoes:  come on make it easy/say i never mattered  (basic ik)

rat a tat*:  i’m the lonelier version of you/i just don’t know where it went wrong \

srar:  how’d it get to be only me?/like i’m the last damn kid still kicking/that still believes 

the king is dead:  the may never think and wonder why, dear christ/every time i see you i just want to paint the walls white

art of keeping up disappearances: erase the conclusion/but never meant to clear up/any of the confusion

hot to the touch:  if it’s never been broken/can’t believe in it/now you’re just a problem/for someone else to fix

love, sex, death:  but out of every pretty pretty miscalculation/you have got to be my all-time favorite

eternal summer:  i can’t do this again/i need more oxygen

demigods:  what if we were demigods?/they’d take to our knees/raging at the half of our sins

american made:  when i was younger i couldn’t wait for the days to pass/now i know they’ll never last/and i just want my childhood back

caffeine cold:  don’t breathe life into a monster then/complain when he destroys it all again

irresistible:  too many war wounds and not enough wars/too few rounds in the ring and not enough settled scores/too many sharks, not enough blood in the waves

ab/ap:  i think i. i fell in love again/maybe i just took too much cough medicine

centuries: heavy metal broke my heart       bonus: we are the poisoned youth

the kids aren’t alright*:  and i still feel that rush in my veins./it twists my head just a bit too thin./all those people in those old photographs I’ve seen are dead.

uma thurman: the end of the fucking song

jet pack blues*:  did you ever love her? do you know?/or did you never want to be alone?

novocaine:  if you knew, knew what the bluebirds sang at you,/you would never sing along

4th of july:  you are my favorite "what if”/you are my best “I’ll never know”

favorite record:  and i confessed, confessed to you/riding shotgun underneath the purple skies

immortals:  i try to picture me without you but i can’t

hotel in nyc:  a birth and a death on the same day/and honey I only appeared so i can fade away/i wanna throw my hands in the air and scream/and i could just die laughing on your spiral of shame

young and menace?? champion?? i’m sorry who?? what?? huh???

hold me tight or don’t:  i got too high again/when i realized i can’t not be with you/or be just your friend/i love you to death but i just can’t/i just can’t pretend/we were lovers first/confidants but never friends/were we ever friends?

the last of the real ones:  'cause you’re the last of a dying breed/write our names in the wet concrete

7-9 legendary:  i want to choke (u)/and get sick off of you/like secondhand smoke

alpha dog:  i want to put the midwest home again

austin we have a problem:  i gave you pretentious./i gave you indifference, but you only wanted undressed and defenseless.           bonus: hey! everyone’s an underdog.

catch me if you can:  oh dear lord,/please let me into heaven, for just an afternoon.

from now on we are enemies:  a composer but never composed/singing the symphonies of the overdosed

guilty as charged:  i got greater expectations than oliver twist

hand of god*:  it’s not gossip if it’s the truth/i’m sick of always writing songs for you to slit your wrists to

lake effect kid*:  i’ve got the skyline in my veins/forget your night times/summer love on a gurney with a squeaky wheel/and joke us, joke us/till lakeshore drive comes back into focus

mskwyditd (demo)*:  we sold our souls in dark hotel rooms/we slip tongues and lie like “i will see you soon”

star 67:  maybe we could talk this over/but i swear to god/and i’ll have this phone to my head.

we don’t take hits, we write them:  and my life is holding our heads to this gun/you and your new boy think you can come in and keep me off, but you’re wrong

yule shoot your eye out:  and all i want this year is for you to dedicate your last breath to me/before you bury yourself alive

#fall out boy #fob #fall out boy lyrics #fob lyrics #evening out with your girlfriend #take this to your grave #from under the cork tree #infinity on high #folie a deux #save rock and roll #american beauty/ american psycho #mania #reference #mine

[petewentzisblack1312]

would u ever analyze disloyal order? it is my favorite fob song but much of the verses honestly confuse tf outta me, particularly the second one. lol

of course! ill do that for you now. fun fact: disloyal order is the song that 100% sold me on fob

to begin with the title, it is a reference i am far too young to get and have just figured out after years of puzzling. its a reference to an elite boys club in the flinstones. disloyal order of water buffaloes as a title is just saying "society is made for a certain kind of people to succeed and its fucked up" and that makes all of the lyrics make so much more sense. its been so long.

the prelude describes the persona coming undone, and turning themself into someone elses ideal. trying to do so leaves them feeling empty inside, since this isnt what they want, this is whats expected of them. this fits nicely into the overarching theme of the album, which is [joker voice] society and how it shapes us for better or (more often), for worse. in fact, disloyal order, as an opener, is an introduction on the essay that is folie à deux, painting broad strokes of a lot of what it covers. the prechorus also touches on this, painting the persona as just a single malfunctioning part of a whole intricate system.

the first verse points to the persona waking up, dazed and covered in wounds, and covincing themself this is normal, and that they wouldnt remember it even if they tried. it goes on to talk about them bein arrested, and them needing medical attention, and that theyre certifiably insane, but also taking care to mention how sensational their story is. this verse tells us about the exploitation of sick people, and about people running themselves into the ground for fame or money. they dont need to be sold as a story, they need to be helped as a person.

the second verse gestures to themes of sex and romance. theres a moment where the persona misinterprets something innocuous as an advance (little girl got me staring odd/or is that just a telescopic camera nod). they then goes on to talk about soliciting sex workers– they can only really interpret woman in the context of being attracted to them. one could argue the line "all the rookies leave your badge and your gun on the desk when you leave the room" could be about inexperienced young lovers being told to sit this one out.

and then, the chorus, which asks people to embrace apathy (boycott love) and to stay ignorant and repeat the same old mistakes (detox just to retox). the line "id promise you anything for another shot at life" implies someone promising to fix everything in exchange for another chance. the last two lines, however, i think are most interestingly read from a meta perspective, ie its the band saying 'no one wants to hear celebrities sing about peoples problems'

i think disloyal order points to one of the main problems i have with folie, which is that its way too ambitious. they wanted to do so much, musically and lyrically, gave themselves too little time to do it, did the whole citizens fob thing, they stuffed a lot onto every song, and i think the albums is worse off for it. dont misconstrue me, folie is a beautiful album that explores a lot of ideas in a genuinely thought provoking manner, and musically i think its extremely well put together. truly its an experience of sound. but i think the concepts dont work together in the way they could. lyrically i think its among the weakest fall out boy albums, because unlike ioh, which is specifically about fame, or mania, which is just about mental health, or futct, which is about a specific relationship and the feelings it evoked, this album is about everything, and it gets that across really well sometimes but just as often it gets that across really okay-ly.

like, in this song alone, which summarises the album, we have 3 very distinct themes– exploitation of vulnerable people, sex and relationships, and apathy being exploited for power. theyre definitely connected, but this one album feels like it shouldve been a triptych, or that one of these themes shouldve been dropped completely (i think number 2 wasnt that necessary). i love it, i really do, its genuinely amazing and its a masterpiece and is so worthy of being anyones favorite. this is just my purely technical (as in based in technique and execution) criticism.

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#dils declares #dils dissects #if youd like my longer analysis of folie please feel free to ask! #i really cant stress its very much a good album! #i just think it really couldve been better in a few places #disloyal order of water buffaloes #folie

[hum-my-name2]

Annual Writing Self-Evaluation

Tagged by  @poorapothecaries ! Thanks! 

List of works published this year (from oldest to latest):

There is so much here than I thought there would be!

It’s Just So Typically Us: “You can’t slow dance to Britney Spears!”

Bonus Features and Bonus Tracks: Bonus pieces of Until We Die or Forever Ends (Whichever One Comes First)

Spooky Scary Peterick Moments: An attempt to write an October based one-shot every day of the month (it didn’t work out)

Four Times FOB Quoted Wednesday Addams (And One Time They Might Not Have): Written for the October FOBCC

The Boy With The Yellow Guitar: An America’s Suiteheart AU written for Halloween

The Best Gift I Will Ever Ask For: Christmas Fic consisting of Patrick’s attempt to find Pete’s perfect present

Honorable Mention: I’m [not] Supposed To Love You, an ongoing fic that began a few years back. I’m including it in the list since it’s been updated throughout this year, too.

Work you are most proud of (and why):

Oh goodness... Um, The Boy With The Yellow Guitar is really different from what I usually write but, looking back on it, I love some of the poetic twists that I think I see in there, haha. I mean, I read it to some friends and family members because I loved how some parts sounded so I guess I was proud of it, haha. 

Work you are least proud of (and why):

Look, I know some people might disagree with me but I’m [not] Supposed To Love You will always be a sore spot for me. I started it without a plan or outline and before I even established my writing style for myself. I don’t know. Some singular scenes feel really good but, as a whole, I just see it as really weak and disjointed.

A favorite excerpt from your writing:

Of course, I had to choose something from The Boy With The Yellow Guitar! Here’s the introduction (I guess?) between Pete and Patrick’s characters.

The Boy with the Golden Smile.

Golden. Stunning. Brilliant. He was everything The Boy with the Yellow Guitar thought he would never find in this life— or any life at all.

He didn’t appear golden at first, not with that temper or oversized hat. He hung around the library, fingers flying through pages of myths and legends at any given hour. He’d claimed it was for a class project, that he went to the nearby college. The Boy with the Yellow Guitar had claimed that it was fate, smiling like a Cheshire cat. This boy, this Boy with the Golden Smile, held himself with the subtle fury of the universe; he stood out like a lover’s moan at midnight. He was like the guitar in every way. He was light hair and pale skin, soft eyes and softer edges.

He was perfect and the Boy with the Yellow Guitar needed him in a way he never needed anyone else before. He needed him like a key needed a lock; he needed him like a pick needed a guitar.

He needed him because, once he had him, he knew he’d be able to control him in every way. He’d be his new guitar, one he could touch and play any time he wanted. One that people would stare at for twice as long; one he could claim in ways one never could with an instrument.

He needed him and he never doubted he would get him. The Boy with the Golden Smile was made to be found by The Boy with the Yellow Guitar, he was sure.

They never took the step from friends to lovers, never had time to waste with games of crushes or flirtations. The Boy with the Yellow Guitar made sure of that. He ran his hands over The Boy with the Golden Smile, marking him with fingerprint smudges and dented strings. He held him like a lullaby; he played him like a wrinkled page of lyrics.

Share or describe a favorite comment you received:

@the-chaotic-panda always leaves such lovely comments that have me smiling for ages, haha. The most recent one, on my Christmas fic, is so much kinder than I deserved! (I still haven’t probably responded to it yet, oops, but I do love and appreciate it so much!)

Of course, any comment I receive is instantly a favorite because comments are so wonderful, haha. So thank you to anyone who’s left one!

A time when writing was really, really hard:

That freaking double update I did a few nights ago for I’m [not] Supposed To Love You. Oh my actual God. I was up all night finishing and trying to perfect both chapters because I was too stubborn to wait any longer. And I know 5am isn’t too late for most people but when I’m already running on a handful of hours and falling asleep each second, trying to edit or post a document is nothing but pain.

A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

Not really a scene or character, but the fluffy attempts in Spooky Scary Peterick Moments are all scenes I wouldn’t have seen myself writing. Namely, because fluff has never been my forte, though I like to think I’m getting better at it!

How did you grow as a writer this year?:

Hmm, well, I certainly wrote so much more than last year! I’m proud of how many works fill my page now. I’ve also become much more open to feedback and criticism, something my creative writing class helped a bit with.

How do you hope to grow next year?:

I just want to continue writing as much as I have-- if not more. And I’m going to take writing so much more seriously and try to learn more about how to perfect the art, in a sense. So, that means reading more-- both fictional and non-fictional. Time to get serious about this, haha

Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

Shout out to my girl, Era!! She doesn’t have a tumblr but she’s a total muse. Honesty, I wouldn’t be able to write a thing without her.

Also, @the-chaotic-panda‘s comments and thoughts on my updates always keep me going. Nothing makes feel better about a chapter I’m uncertain about :)

And another shout out to @sn1tchesandtalkers. Your Halloween and Christmas Peterick events are entirely a huge reason why I’ve been inspired/pushed to write so much this year!

Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

The most real life thing is the fact that I used both of my younger sisters’ homecoming experiences as inspiration for a piece in Spooky Scary Peterick Moments. It was great.

Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

Write for yourself! I have a bad habit of wanting to write what I think people want or expect but that just stifles so many options. Also, having someone else to talk about ideas with or to read through your works is so magnificently helpful. I had a few critiquing workshops in my creative writing class and I fell in love with the process.

Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

Yes!! After I’m [not] Supposed To Love You is finished, I have two very different works I’ve been outlining for a while. I won’t spill too much of the plots but I finally have their (tentative) titles and I’ll share those: Trickster’s Wave and Victims of Superstition. 

And, if I’m lucky enough to finish those, I have a whole document of works I want to start! I’m praying for 2018 to be a successful year for writing :)

Tag three writers whose answers you’d like to read. ;)

Umm, I’m sure some of you have already been tagged but how about @das-verlorene-kind, @the-chaotic-panda, and @juuna-won :)

Thanks against for tagging me and kudos to anyone who read this all the way through :)

#charlotte says something #long post #tagged #this was fun to do! #thank you for tagging me!

[the-heat-of-the-moment-gabe]

Tagging game

ASDFGHJK Thank you so much @oftrickstersandmoose for tagging me and saying that about my blog!! That’s sooo sweet <333

I am going to do this thing, even though no one probably cares that much... Still, I will use this opportunity to tell everyone that reads this that THEY ARE AWESOME AND SIMPLY SOME ADORABLE CUTE LITTLE ANGELS ^-^

Nickname: Riri (no one actually calls me like that, but I found out it’s another abbreviation of my name so I love it =)) ) Gender: Fangirl (that’s it. That’s my gender. Forget about female, I am a fan-femme ❤︎)    Star Sign: Libra ^^ (the most indecisive person ever, I admit it)  Height: a bit more than 5ft 1′ I think? (I know, I know... I am literally a shrimp! But at least I get to stay in front of tall people and watch better everything XD) Time: time...time is irreversible.. the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole... But, yeah, it’s about midnight here, if that’s the question =)   Birthday: Oct 1st  ❤︎ Favourite Bands: *pulls out powerpoint project* Are you sure of this?? *brings pictures and merchandise* jk XD My favorite band EVER will forever be Fall out boy I love them SO much,my wonderful adorable obsession!! <333 I also love mcr (my babies asdfghjk), p!atd, bvb, Green Day, AC/DC, Def Leppard, Rolling stones, Led Zeppelin, Bon Jovi, Aerosmith, Skid Row, The Offspring, The Beatles, Journey, Metallica, Gnr, Whitesnake, Foreigner, Boston,CCR, Van Halen, BOC, Asia, lynyrd skynyrd, alice cooper, Eagles... The list can go on till tomorrow :)) Also, a special mentioning would be Abba and Modern Talking <333 and, of course, my second favorite band (I shamelessly admit I have 90 songs of them on my phone device), QUEEN XD Favourite Solo Artists: hard to choose, uggh... My favorite singer used to be Celine Dion, so... I also love Kylie Minogue, Michael Bolton, Cyndi Lauper, Bryan Adams, Barbra streisand, Amy Grant, Bob Dylan, Elvis, too many to think of right now... Could I add Richard too?? =)) (even though he always says he is NOT a musician, his voice is wonderful aaaahh *sighs*)  Song Stuck in My Head: “All star” by Smash Mouth! It’s kind of making me feel more confident though, but it’s annoyingly catchy... Oh and yeah, how could I forget about “anyway you want it” by Journey, it got stuck in my mind for a whole week, I am so glad I got over it  Last Movie I Watched: Forrest Gump =) (watched it today, I admit I have cried a lot to it, and now I have only southern accents stuck in my head heeelp) Last Show I Watched: Big Bang Theory <33 (I adore sitcoms) I was trying to see if I can get to watch more Star Trek on tv, but instead I saw this :) When did I create my blog?: umm...My main one, I think around October last year?? And this secondary little thing that made my life better, I think sometime in May :)) What do I post? Post or reblog?: Both? =)) I reblog brilliant posts and I write anything that comes into my mind about Gabe <3 Also, I just simply adore making photo edits, gifs and stuff like that with him, so... Last Thing I Googled: it’s actually “sunburnt” because I got one during hiking yesterday, so I needed to know how to treat it better XD (I am so glad I didn’t have to do this game earlier, when my last thing was “how to burn people”, I assure you I am not a psychopath hehhe... Even though it was annoying that google was showing results for “good comebacks”, not actually burning people alive...) Any other blogs?: Hells yeah. Not many though. My main one where I haven’t posted anything for six months, a side blog with nice book quotes and nature landscapes that finally turned into a fandom one (oops!!) and one with song lyrics where I make photo edits and post mostly fob and mcr lyrics because when I don’t find them on google I must make them by myself :D  But here I have most of my followers <33 Do you get asks?: Umm...Nope, never got one, only messages, but happily waiting for some =)  The Story Behind My Username: *coughs*......it was, my darlings, the summer of 2017 when me meets the other inner me and I’m like “yo, I know about music” and the other me is like “yo, I know more about music!! ”, “that’s impossible! Do you wanna start a side blog? We’ll call it after your new favorite song ever that makes your heart sing and melt in the same time because of the most adorable mellow sweet feathered golden angel, that small tiny muffin who ruined your life” and I was like “yeah that’s cool” and that’s it XD Actually, I came up with the idea of this blog when I realized how obsessed I was with Gabe and at 2 AM I was creating gifs just to post them here, and the only logical username that came in my mind was this, I just love the heat of the moment!!! <33 *starts humming while eating a candy bar and sobbing in a corner* Following: 155! ;D Followers: 563 AAAHHH MY BEAUTIFUL RAYS OF SUNSHINE I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR BRIGHTENING MY LIFE EVERY TIME YOU PRESS THAT “follow” button I JUST WANT TO WRAP YOU ALL IN WARM BLANKETS  ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ *hug attack to everyone who reads this* Favourite Color: GREEN! Grass green, cyclam, turquoise, that coral red-orange wonderful thing, blue violet, sunflower bright yellow (guess why ;)))... Average Hours of Sleep: probably eight hours. Sometimes 6, sometimes 11... Two weeks ago I slept only one hour, yesterday 12, so it depends XD Lucky Number: 111 <3 Not lucky, but favorite one I guess :)) But usually all my lucky numbers contain “1” so... I also love 21, dunno why Instruments: Fountain pen. JUST KIDDING! If it means musical instruments, I used to play piano and violin, but now I only know a bit to play the national anthem, that’s all... Currently I am into guitar, I have been trying for six months to learn how to play it from youtube tutorials, I can play couple of chords ;D What I’m wearing right now: whoa easy there, tagging game! (just a joke again, sorry ^-^) It’s actually only a dress with green and pink floral print because summer nights when you don’t want to go to sleep, just to stare at the stars, hum songs and spend time on tumblr, that’s why :) I just find dresses easier to wear when the heat outside overwhelms you How many blankets do I sleep with?: umm... Like now, during summer? Only a white sheet, it’s too hot (even though I sometimes want to go back to my warm blanket in case of monster night attacks). But on winter I can sleep with two wool blankets or even more... :)  Dream Job: Cardiothoracic Surgeon or any kind of doctor in general :)) It’s been my dream since I was two, I just love anatomy...<3 (probably I shouldn’t add my temporary dreams too, like becoming an actress, a Broadway singer, a detective or a novel writer and artist, should I?^^)  Dream Trip: aaah hard to say, but I think it would be a road trip in Arizona or any western desert part in general, while driving an old rusty convertible car (preferably an impala, of course), watching the ruby sun going down into the lakes painted on the azure sky and the stars sparkling brightly at night, feeling the freedom air and humming old rock songs (and singing “take it easy” when I get to Winslow, AZ :D)... Also, another dream trip would be in my favorite cities: NYC (to see Tiffany’s and Broadway :)), Paris (mainly the opera house and get to sing “bonjour Paris” like in Funny Face) and Rome (driving  a scouter or riding a vintage bike on the old streets, while picking ruby geraniums and singing Dean Martin songs aahh). Also, a trip to provence where I can dance through the lavender fields, the Alpes with warm small cottages or Greece would be wonderful (as long as I can admire the landscapes and the local culture with not so many people around... ^^) Favourite Food: grilled chicken with french fries and any kind of dessert (chocolate especially)<33 Also a bunch of sour soups, pasta, fish, meat, pizza and hamburgers, jam with butter and honey, cereals with milk, bacon and eggs, meatballs, chicken soup with dumplings, boiled potatoes with butter and parsley, pancakes, and this list could go on and on.... (now I got hungry ugh...) Nationality: Romanian :) (this should explain the “sour soup” thing)  Favourite Song Right Now: umm...*trying to make up my mind while sweating nervously* Probably still the heat of the moment, or Tiffany Blews by fob... But right now, I mean really RIGHT NOW, I think it would be “don’t stop believing” it’s so uplifting and purely...gorgeous :)

Sorry for the long post, in real life I never speak up, yet, here, I am a chatter box oops >.<

Now, the ceremony of tagging people! *drums beating*... Aaaand the nominees are....LEONARDO DiCAPRIO!! (SOORY just a silly joke ^^) Now, for real, I am tagging :  @scarlettwinchester23  ( ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎ ) , @sabriel-fanboy-83, @akhuna01, @hunters-hiraeth, @tricksterxangel, @lisiblack, @chaotictrickster, @quaker-wtf-lass and any other cinnamon roll that wants to do this, but I know you won’t do it unless I tag you, so, here you are : @that-sweet-person-who-read-my-ramblings-and-wants-to-do-this-game-too  ❤︎  You have been officially tagged ;) 

I love you all so much!! <3

#tagging game #i talk so much #sorry #geez its 2 am right now #probably tomorrow i will question my answers #especially that burning thing #no more internet for me #:)))

[futctvevo]

Infinity On “Hi, There”

Summary: A girl walks into a record store, where she finds a confident and sly stranger, and they strike up a convo over Fall Out Boy.

Word count: 1,168

A/N: thanks for 500 followers!! a few days ago, i wrote a cute lil story that happened to mention FOB, and i thought i might as well share it with you guys! it’s also one of my goals to practice writing this summer, so i worked hard on this one. constructive criticism is welcome, i hope you guys enjoy it!

The vintage smell of old cardboard and vinyls surrounded me, but I didn’t recoil. The scent was familiar; I frequented this record store at least once a week. “Mr. Brightside” by The Killers buzzed softly from overhead speakers as a couple of teens milled through the vinyl section, stuck with the tedious task of reorganizing records just so they could get cluttered again hours later. As I walked deeper into the store, I realized there was only one other customer in the entire shop. The near solitude created an increased intimacy between the music and I as I swept my eyes fondly over the CDs, which were arranged in disorganized rows, stretching from one end of the shop to the other in a long line of shelves.

Everything from pop, to indie, to metal was laid out on those shelves, but all of my favorites resided in one section - punk. I loved the complicated guitar and heavy drums that smashed together with beautiful harmonies and lyrics that mattered. It was a wall of sound, something meant to be blasted with the car windows down, or through earbuds late at night. It was intensely personal, yet it had the power to connect so many people together. It turned outsiders into members of a community that just got you. Punk rock was the type of music that listened to you without you saying a word. It voiced everything you couldn’t admit to anyone else, or even yourself.

It was there that I was pondering the importance of punk (go figure) while blankly staring at the cover art of Fall Out Boy’s Infinity On High, when I felt someone's presence behind me. Before I could turn around, a guy my age stepped beside me and asked, “You like Fall Out Boy?” The way he spoke made it seem more like a statement, and less of a question. His voice was rough and a bit higher pitched, but it wasn’t unpleasant. When I spun to look at him, I met pale blue eyes and a small smirk on a confident face. His hair flopped carelessly on his head - light, curly and thick with closely shaved sides. He had a tall frame, which made him seem thinner than he already was.

I rested my hand on one of the shelves and leaned. “Yeah, they’re one of my favorites.” I couldn’t decide if I should maintain eye contact or not, so I just glanced down at my grey converses. They had definitely seen better days, but I was determined to wear them until they were completely spent - these babies had been with me since freshman year. It’d be easier for me to part with a first-born child.

“Same here,” he replied, glancing to the album I was staring at earlier, then bringing his icy eyes back to mine, practically forcing them up from my shoes. It made me want to see if I could melt them a little. “Infinity On High was such a game-changer for them.”

“I know, right?” My heart lept at the opportunity to have an educated discussion about music. “I suppose it was kind of risky for them to step away from the Take This To Your Grave sound, but I think it really paved the way for the rest of their music.” I really couldn’t help but spill everything my friends didn’t care enough to hear about; when else would I get a chance to discuss one of the best bands ever with someone who just got it? “It was kind of the first big push for their style experimentation, in my opinion.” I was standing upright now so I could use my hands while I spoke. “Plus, there’s some really good jams in there.”

“Oh yeah, definitely.” The boy’s eyes lit up, wide and excited, and the corners of his lips turned up minutely. His pupils seemed to dilate, but maybe I was just imagining things. “Hearing them play ‘Hum Hallelujah’ live is such a cool experience. It gets me dancing every single time.” He chuckled a bit, almost seeming embarrassed, like he didn’t mean to share that. A couple beats passed before either of us said anything. He broke the silence by finally asking, “So, uh, do you have a name?”

“Yes,” I laughed, breathy and light. “Most people do. It’s Alex.” I offered my hand out to him, not caring if it seemed a tad old-fashioned. It wouldn’t have been the strangest thing to happen today. “What about you? Are you nameless?”

The boy shook his head at the ground, a small smile daring to glance across his face for a fraction of a second. “Jamie,” he responded, taking my hand in a solid shake, holding his head high, and letting go after an extended moment. “Cool to meet you, Alex. May I?” Jamie offered, as he reached over my arm, causing my hair to stand on end. He plucked Infinity On High off of the shelf, and glanced towards the register.

My stomach flipped, and my cheeks flushed with pink. “Are you sure?”

Jamie smiled wide. “I wouldn’t have offered if I wasn’t,” he countered, taking steps towards the front of the store. His strides were long and even, and hard for me to match.

“Thank you,” I said to the back of his Boyz of Zummer tour shirt, following behind him. The garment stretched across his surprisingly broad shoulders, which I definitely didn’t notice. Strong. It made me wonder if he lifted boxes for a living or something. “I really appreciate it; it’s the only album I don’t own.”

“Glad to complete your collection,” he winked. He paused, and with a smidge of hesitation in his voice, he asked, “Can we grab a coffee sometime?”

“Maybe-” It was my turn to smirk. I could play this game too, you know? “-if I can get your number.”

That was definitely the right thing to say. Once we reached the register, he set the CD down on the counter, and he held out his hand expectantly. I reached into my back pocket and handed him my old iPhone 4S, but he (thankfully) didn’t mention how lame it was. He punched in his number and handed it back to me, purposefully grazing my hand for a brief second.

My cheeks were on fire.

The cashier finished ringing up the purchase, handing it to Jamie, who offered it out to me. I accepted it gratefully. He held my eyes for a moment, and I was forced to stare in wonder at the sincerity in them. He seemed serious, but hopeful, too. “You’ll text me, right?”

I was surprised to see this side of him; was he actually a bit nervous? I smiled, looking down at the ground. “Yeah, of course. How could I not?”

He looked relieved, a smile practically cracking his face in two. “So, I’ll see you around?”

I looked back up into his eager face, and promised, “Yeah. This won’t be the last you see of me.”

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