#not tw

[isthatbloodonhisshirt]

The AI Situation

So I am getting genuinely worried about people who are posting the whole "if you reblog AI I am blocking you" not because of the post (because honestly, fuck AI, there are thousands of people producing art for free on the daily, how about supporting them instead?) but because sometimes I literally cannot tell!

I'm not an artist. Sometimes I can look at one and even to my untrained eye I'm like "Oh yeah, that whole thing is weird, that's AI," and other times I follow @batwynn's really good post about spotting AI.

The problem comes in when you literally can't tell. I had an artist in another fandom post a complaint about AI art and showed what the art looked like, and I spent literally 5 minutes staring at it trying to figure out how they knew it was AI because they didn't explain it, but a whole bunch of other artists in the replies confirmed it absolutely looked AI-generated and for the life of me, I couldn't see it. And I still can't.

So I guess this is my ask to artists to please be patient with non-artists as some of us legitimately care and do NOT want to reblog AI art, but it's not always evident to us. So if you see us reblog AI art, feel free to let us know. If someone clearly shows they don't care, or they don't delete the AI art once notified it is AI, then obviously have at it. But for some of us, if we reblog AI art because we literally cannot tell because all the things we're looking for to notice they are AI are not there, please just tell us and we'll delete the art.

I don't want to start avoiding traditional art because I'm worried about being blocked for reblogging something that was AI generated. The fandom oldies are safe because most people know their style, but it's upsetting for the new artists and I don't want to stop supporting people because I'm worried about being blocked because I have an untrained eye and am doing my best :(

Thanks for coming to my TED Talk.

#Not TW #AI #Fuck AI #I hope I am no longer here when Terminator comes true

[chasing-chimeras]

my bf watches two seasons of teen wolf and now he’s suggesting me songs for my theo playlist 😭

#istg i love this man so much he’s incredible #if you’d told me two years ago that 1. he’d know about my writing 2. he’d watch tw w me and 3. he’d be sending me song recs #i’d probably think i was losing it 💀💀 #anyway #not tw #personal #🤡

[aurevell]

so excited about whatever's happening in the 911 fandom right now.

one of the cute guys is injured and/or in a coma? the other cute guy will dramatically scream his name and do a bedside vigil? after which they're gonna make out??? can't wait

#not tw #911 #911 spoilers #i don't even go here #it's just my favorite show to watch via tumblr osmosis

[beacon-hills]

my perception from a young age was that love was contingent on meeting expectations. it was not unconditional from my family, as i saw it, but i had interwoven the definitions of “happy” and “love” together so tightly i couldn’t tell them apart. so, my perception was actually from a young age that happiness dictated the presence of love, and that happiness was contingent on meeting expectations. expectations for manners, cleanliness, good grades, and all the other things a child learns quickly makes their parents happy, and thus earns love, not knowing if those things make the child itself happy or not.

this was compounded when in my teens i had my first romantic relationship. firstly compounded not by him, but the friends who were unhappy with me for liking him, because they liked him too, though i could not decide for him who he returned feelings for. i learned their love for me was tied to the expected happiness i brought them and robbed them of.

secondly, that same boy taught me love’s expectations in all the wrong ways: “if you love me, you’ll try this” and “if you love me you want to make me happy”. it took me months to end that relationship, and at the time it wasn’t because i didn’t want to love him, but because i couldn’t make him happy. i didn’t discuss this with him, as i had already failed to meet his expectations and thus failed at my ability to love him. it was the first time i considered i didn’t know what love meant.

again in my late teens i fell in love. though now the overbearing weight of my guilt, my inadequacy, my shame for not meeting expectations to earn love had solidified and pressed into me, leaving impressions that i was correct all my life: love is contingent on meeting expectations and this time… this time i won’t fail at love again. his love was kind, patient, and overflowing - a true opposite of what i previously knew. rather than months, it endured years, including me starting college.

but soon the expectations came back like whispers of ghosts. i believed he needed me to be his everything. girlfriend, lover, best friend, mother, sister… the biggest expectation of all is to be everything to someone. i could never be that. i could never give him that. i could not talk with him about this because i had already failed to love him by not meeting my own preconceived expectations. so i ended it and he agreed if it was what i wanted to be happy. because in truth, where i thought he held expectations, he only held unconditional love that i could not recognize. years later, with reflection, that was his final gift to me: i did not know what love meant.

speaking to my therapist, i once compared this to taking all the missing, broken pieces of myself and filling them with gold so that i could reflect others’ expectations back to them rather than let them see the void inside of me. to make myself seem okay, to make them happy, to receive love. though now i realize a wound gilded in gold cannot heal. i still struggle to this day that if i make someone unhappy they will no longer love me, but i know that means it wasn’t really love. today, i know what love means to me. all i can hope is to learn to live by that.

#‘sam this is a teen wolf blog’ yeah i know #pretend im whispering it to you under the stars #a bittersweet smile and misty eyes #this is personal but i just wanted it to exist somewhere #other than inside me #its okay to reblog if it speaks to you too #im not sure if what i feel is a common thing or not #or even if its the ‘right’ thing #but its where i am now #not tw #about me #long post

[thesewordsareallihavetogive]

reblogged a post to the wrong side blog 2 dead 11 injured

#ignore me #not tw

[sailing-ever-west]

graph of what being hungry is like with adhd

#i still havent eaten i made this graph instead #adhd #audhd #tw food #time blindness #executive dysfunction

[everlastingrandom]

got blood work done today and i just remembered a time i got blood work done as a teen. after the nurse drew like 6 vials of the stuff, i asked him “is all that mine?” and he said “not anymore” and walked off

#blood tw #I was so shook that he just up and left with my blood

[blimbo-buddy]

got my hands on a field guide of californian bugs and i found that there's this one bee species in southern california that looks like this

(Actual bugs under the cut, CW for insects)

#blimmy art #cw insects #cw bugs #scopophobia tw #eye contact

[elfguys]

this is the best video ive seen in my goddamn life

#flashing tw

[mostly-funnytwittertweets]

#tw alcohol #resident evil #twitter #meme #memes #tweets #tweet #funny #lol #humor

[isthatbloodonhisshirt]

Hello.

I’m not dead, I just haven’t been on Tumblr since September 2022 except to post I think two links. Maybe three. My queue is probably empty.

I just saw a recap of the TW movie.  

Trash fic incoming in T-minus however many hours it takes me to write it, but it will be quick because I am offended. 

That is all. Enjoy your day. 

- Blood

#not tw #but also kind of #Blood's yakkity yaks

[skipppppy]

Something about FNAF 3 and Fazbear Frights taking place in 2023 in our current social media landscape

(part 2)

#five nights at freddy's #fnaf #fnaf 3 #fazbear frights #william afton #springtrap #unreality tw

[dumpsterf11re]

#dungeon meshi #tw blood #july says things #july draws things #my art #marcille #chilchuck #fanart

[miss-galaxy-turtle]

Jew here with a friendly reminder that:

Criticizing Isreal ≠ antisemetic

Supporting Palestine ≠ antisemitic

Believing in the Free Palestine cause ≠ antisemitic

BUT ALSO

A random ass Jew just living their life oceans away has nothing to do with the Isreal-Palestine conflict

Palestinian Jews exist

Jews that support Palestine exist (I am one of them)

Calling out ACTUAL antisemitism ≠ supporting Isreal

#can't believe i still have to say this #isreal #palestine #free palestine #isreal palestine conflict #jewish #jewblr #antisemitism tw

[powdermelonkeg]

Important rules/tips I've learned as an adult that helped with anxiety

If people are mad at you, it's their responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

If they're mad at you in secret anyways, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

If people don't like what you're doing, it's their responsibility to tell you

If they say it's fine when it's really not, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

People are allowed to be wrong about you

If they are wrong about you, wait for them to bring it up, because if you try to, you will inevitably overcorrect

Some people are committed to misunderstanding you. You will not win arguments against them. Yes, even if you explain your point of view. They do not care. Drop it

The worst thing that will happen from a first-time offense is being told not to do it again. Maybe with a replacement if you broke something

You can improve relationships and gauge willingness to talk to you by giving compliments. It's like a daily log-in bonus and nobody thinks twice about it

Most things are better after you sleep on them

Most things are better after you have a meal

Most things are better after you shower

Your brain makes up consequences that are irrational. If the worst DOES come to pass and someone acts like they do in your head, they are overreacting, and you are entitled to say "what the fuck"

If your chest hurts after you feel like you've made a social error, that's called rejection-sensitive dysphoria. It means your anxiety is so bad that it's causing you physical pain, which is a good indicator that you're overreacting. Tense yourself, hold it for 20 seconds, let it go, then find a distraction

If you're suddenly angry at someone after you feel like you made a social error, that's also rejection-sensitive dysphoria. You are going to feel annoyed about it for awhile, but being genuinely pissed off is your anxiety trying to find something to blame to take the responsibility off your shoulders, and getting scared because it can't justify itself. Deep breaths, ask yourself how much you ACTUALLY want to be angry at that person, then find a distraction

"Sour grapes" is more healthy for you than stewing. Deciding you don't like someone who's perpetually annoyed with you, won't talk to you, etc. makes letting go of anxiety over them easier

If people don't like you, they will find reasons to be annoyed with you when they otherwise wouldn't. If people do like you, they will find reasons NOT to be annoyed with you when they otherwise would. People do not ping-pong between the two

You DO have to make a conscious choice not to think about something. If you're having trouble circling back to it, say out loud that you're done thinking about it and why. Then find a distraction

When you're upset, part of you is going to want to make false bids for attention (suddenly texting differently, heavy sighs, etc. but when someone asks you about it, you tell them it's nothing). Do not listen to it. You gain nothing from it except more misery

People like to help people they care about. It makes them feel good about themselves

If you think you're insufferable for needing help, see above. Yes, really. They get a serotonin kick from it

If you think you're insufferable for mannerisms you have, you either have to consciously choose not to do them, or accept that they're part of the package that comes with you. Being apologetic about existing does nothing except make you more miserable

If you do things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it makes it easier to do them when you hate it

If you avoid things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it reinforces and magnifies how bad it feels when you hate it

Seriously. Read those last two points again. If you can make yourself make a phone call when you've got nothing to lose, you will slowly lose that panic you get when you have to make a phone call you haven't prepared for. You do have to CONSCIOUSLY take that step

Hobbies that make you care for something get rid of that nagging feeling that you're not doing enough. Go grow some rosemary

If you don't engage with your hobbies regularly, you will feel miserable, and anxiety will spike

Hobbies are things that give you a bit of happiness. They do not have to be organized or named to do that. Go be creative in something. Play with coins. Make up lists. Start a new WIP

No one cares what you look like

If people point out things they don't like about how you look unprompted, they are being rude. You are entitled to say "what the fuck"

People who like you will find you pretty to some degree. Minor things about your appearance go completely unnoticed. Literally, scars and dots and blemishes do not register to someone who likes your company

You looking at yourself in the mirror is 10x more closely than anyone is going to look at you

If you're anxious about your body type, and you're creatively inclined, make/write an oc with that same shape. Give them nice things and make other characters love them. Put them on adventures. You'll start to see yourself in the mirror more kindly

You care about wording and perfect lines/colors way more than anyone who views your work ever will

Sometimes when you're upset, you're going to feel like not eating. Do not do that. Not eating makes you more miserable

Same with things you normally enjoy. Denying yourself helps no one. You are punishing yourself for being sad. Stop it

Both of these will take conscious decision to break the habit of. Make yourself do it anyways, and it will slowly get easier

And again, to reiterate: If someone is mad at you, it is THEIR responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

#anxiety #long post #i have been an adult for the better part of a decade and it has gotten SO much easier as i internalized these #swearing tw

[feefal]

Baked with love, doomed for compost :’(

#drawing #artists on tumblr #illustration #digital art #procreate #character design #mold tw #I got sad after drawing this wtf #he just wants to be sandwich….