#not worth

[levia-san]

brainstorming for late qijiu week and my brain just came up with pelican SJ

yeah

#qijiu #shen jiu #yue qingyuan #tried to glaze it but it failed a couple times so im like eh whatever #not worth #not sure if i wanna psot on twitter cuz #fuck musk #also been thinking about bsky but eehe not so keen on making a new sns when its closed inv too? #so im just settlign for tumblr and discord i guess.... #alas

[digitus-medius]

I miss my long hair, but I also don’t at all. You know?

#looks good in pic #but it was so thin and stringy #not worth #also I look great here #idc if it’s too much #I’m posting on main #me #selfie #mine #cute

[kootiepatra]

This is Keimwyda’s preferred method for handling the Moonfire Faire jumping puzzle

#keimwyda sylbdhemwyn #roegadyn wol #femroe #tataru taru #effort vs reward #not worth

[jerichoes]

agh, whatever, i’m gonna go walk around the block in the sun for 30 minutes

#not worth

[jovalencia]

don’t read any of that btw

#not worth #carmen.txt

[coldcrypt]

i'm starting to get the appeal of restricting & fasting tbh. Idk which I prefer yet. I dont know which would be better for avoiding binges. It feels nice to not be on a constant sugar rollercoaster tho. I feel crummy sometimes, kinda tired, and theres a lot of food noise in my head, but I just keep distracted, give it time, and then when I can feel the cravings getting too loud to do things I eat a bit but not much... its kinda working. It feels nice tho to be kinda more empty. Even tho the food noise is really loud, I like the fog that comes with it. The hunger isnt even that uncomfortable. Imaging the fat bubbling and dissolving is enough

#cool #inb4 i binge now lol #i think rezzing > fasting for me but I wanna practise fasting more #I like being able to eat bits of things to kind of appease the body without refilling glycogen stores to the point of not getting a deficit #that doesnt result in lipolysis each day. I'm finally figuring out which foods tick my satiety and scarcity boxes so I caan just have #a bit of them and be good. Alc cravings got me wanting chocolate tho :/ idk if its worth getting a small chocolate bar. I feel like #sugar would just trigger a binge and the masssive swing in blood sugar is not worth it. It wouldnt even taste that goodd #It would just feel shit for the next 4 hours being way hungrier than before and feeling shit about it wanting more #not worth #i love courgette. i love cabbage... I love cream cheese. I love feta.. #kinda fancy a chicken nugget sandwich with loads of ketchup and salt. But also just not even hungry at all

[heartofaspen]

What if you edit the sans post to c!Tubbo for las nevadas finale

i already deleted it sadge. i considered something like that but it would Still Be In My Notes

#not worth #asks

[jaes-last-words]

i’m sorry….

i’m sorry that i talk too much or talk too loud when i’m excited or happy.

i’m sorry that i don’t hear everything the first time you say it.

i’m sorry that i’m clingy, it’s not intentional.

i’m sorry that i seem desperate. i probably am and just don’t want to admit it to myself.

i’m sorry that i’m annoying.

i’m sorry that i don’t get everything right on the first try.

i’m sorry i’m not good at anything even though i try.

i’m sorry that when you asks me to hang out or do something i jump at the opportunity since i never get that from anyone.

i’m sorry that i feel like i’m closer with you than you feel we are.

i’m sorry that i’m clumsy.

i’m sorry if you feel like you always have to keep an eye on me.

i’m sorry if i’m a drag.

i’m sorry if i’m a pain in the ass to be around.

i’m sorry that i am too stubborn to admit the way that thing are.

i’m sorry that i’m so alone that i cling to the people that i care about even when the don’t care about me as much or even care at all.

i’m sorry that i overthink anything and everything.

i’m sorry i laugh too loud.

i’m sorry that i’m quiet and distant at times.

i’m sorry that i’m scared to let anyone in.

i’m sorry that overshare.

i’m sorry that i’m pretty much incapable of anything.

i’m sorry that i hide my emotions.

i’m sorry that i have no one to go to with my pent up emotions/feelings.

i’m sorry that i’m more of a chore to deal with than a friend.

i’m sorry for the way i act

i’m sorry that i never had a best friend or anyone close growing up that as soon as i can relate to someone or share specific stuff with them i consider them one of my best friends.

i’m sorry that i’m constantly a burden.

i’m sorry when i interrupt something that have something to do with me.

i’m sorry that i just want to be included because i have nothing else.

i’m sorry that i complain so much.

i’m sorry that i feel that my feelings are a weight that you shouldn’t have to bare so i never say anything.

i’m sorry that i never acknowledge my problems for what they really are.

i’m sorry that you hate me so much or feel/think that you do.

i’m sorry that i always ask for help from you since there’s no one else i can ask.

i’m sorry that i ask for help.

i’m sorry that i nag.

i’m sorry i try to get people to like me more when it really makes them hate me more.

i’m sorry i don’t want to eat anymore.

i’m sorry that i do all of this shit to myself.

i’m sorry that i follow you around because i don’t know what to do with myself.

i’m sorry that i don’t know how to handle being alone even though i constantly am.

i’m sorry that i think you like me and we’re good friends when really you don’t like me.

i’m sorry that you feel the need to pretend to be friend with me.

i’m sorry that your friends with me out of pity

i’m sorry that i try to join in when you already have all of your friends and i could never be a part of that.

i’m sorry that i’m not as good as your other friends.

i’m sorry i don’t understand everything since you only told your other friends about that and i don’t know what’s going on.

i’m sorry that i’m such an inconvenience.

i’m sorry that i’m not good enough.

i’m sorry for my unwanted presence.

i’m sorry that you won’t tell me the truth about how you really feel about me.

i’m sorry that when you act distant from me i think the worst and think you hate me or i did something wrong.

i’m sorry that i’m ugly and that you have to deal with seeing me.

i’m sorry that you dread the moment when i open my mouth to say something.

i’m sorry that i’m afraid to open up.

i’m sorry that i’m too scared to tell you the truth.

i’m sorry i put up a facade on a daily basis to get through and once i get home i shatter.

i’m sorry that i’m constantly moving or fidgeting.

i’m sorry that i can’t sit still.

i’m sorry that i look and act like a fucking idiot when i’m around you.

i’m sorry that i am so sensitive to everything.

i’m sorry that i make you look like a fool.

i’m sorry that i make you look bad for being friends with me.

i’m sorry that i care too much.

i’m sorry that i’m scared to loose you.

i’m sorry that i’m afraid that i’ll finally get tired of me.

i’m sorry that i’m worthless.

i’m sorry that i’m a constant failure.

i’m sorry that i’m not good enough.

i’m sorry you wish i was different.

i’m sorry i run away.

i’m sorry that when it comes to fight for flight i’m probably too much of a coward to stay and fight.

i’m sorry that i bother you so much.

i’m sorry that i do nothing but make you hate me.

i’m sorry that i always end up doing the wrong thing.

i’m sorry that i’m easily replaceable.

i’m sorry that i made you not care about me.

i’m sorry that i worry about others well-being’s when they couldn’t give even half about mine.

i’m sorry that don’t want to be alone anymore.

i’m sorry that i’m dependent on others and not self sufficient.

i’m sorry that i can’t do anything right.

i’m sorry i can’t come to you with my problems.

i’m sorry that i’m boring.

i’m sorry that you hate the things i like.

i’m sorry that if we didn’t meet when we did you never would have even noticed me.

i’m sorry that i try to do something as much as i can and still fail.

i’m sorry that my best isn’t enough.

i’m sorry for everything that i have put you through.

i’m sorry that your a better person than i ever could be.

i’m sorry that i have a hard time speaking to people.

i’m sorry that my social anxiety stops me from starting a conversation with a stranger.

i’m sorry that i am incapable of the kind of love that i want/need from someone else.

i’m sorry, i just don’t want to bother you in the way i feel that i already do.

i’m sorry that i got you into this.

i’m sorry that i’m nothing but flesh and bone.

i’m sorry that i let you walk all over me.

i’m sorry that i’m not what you wanted when it comes to a friend.

i’m sorry that my sensory issues annoy you and make you feel like you have to deal with my.

i’m sorry that i’m scared of anything and everything.

i’m sorry that i’m constantly having panic and anxiety attacks.

i’m sorry that i get anxiety when it comes to the thought of me having to keep living like this because i don’t know how much longer i can do it for.

i’m sorry that i constantly fear you just getting up and leaving, never coming back or giving a second glance.

i’m sorry that i’m always in pain. mentally, physically, emotionally.

i’m sorry that i keep getting more and more depressed as each day goes on the same way or worse.

i’m sorry that i’m so alone.

i’m sorry that you only talk to me in school and the only other thing i get from you is the occasional snap.

i’m sorry that i feel like there’s some reason you hate me because you did something similar to someone else that you didn’t like and did something morally wrong and lied to their face about it. that you stopped inviting them and stopped hanging out with them even though you’ve never invited me in the first place.

i’m sorry that i don’t get to have to experiences that everyone else gets to have at my age.

i’m sorry that my rice purity score is still 91 for fucks sake.

i’m sorry that you don’t care enough to ask me if i’m alright.

i’m sorry that i’m not important enough for you to give a shit about my well-being.

i’m sorry if i’m still suicidal at times.

i’m sorry that me realizing everything makes me more suicidal.

i’m sorry that i’m even making this because i know you won’t care enough to read it.

i’m sorry that i’m not as good as the friend that i came along with that you hang out with them but not me.

i’m sorry. i don’t know how many time i can say it and the more that i do, the less that it probably means to anyone. each i’m sorry is different from the last and meant just as much as the first. the i’m sorry’s aren’t even close to everything i’m sorry for and there’s no way i can make a list that long without hurt myself even more and relive with each and every one that joins the list a thousand times over.

i’m sorry that i’m not worth it. not even worth it for you to read all i’ve these.

i’m sorry that i’m sorry.

#i’m sorry #apology #we do not forgive #forgive me #mental illness #depressing post #tw depressing stuff #suicudal #awareness #to my friends #to your eternity #not worth #know your worth #self improvement #self deprecation

[cherumie]

every time I cut my hair I go ever so slightly shorter than I wanted

#but my hair grows fast so its not a big deal #i could go to a barber i totally could #but good god i hate getting my hair cut by other people #having to avoid my own reflection thats right in front of me for an hour #trying to skirt past the barbers polite questions without looking like an asshole #its just scary man i hate it #not worth #id rather have a slightly shit homemade haircut than go to a salon

[tariah23]

Oh…. Well, it’s over for Crunchyroll I guess

#Crunchyroll #piracy #funimation #money hungry ass streaming service #rambling #I’ve never paid for a streaming service in my life thank god #I appreciated using others accounts but I personally cannot see myself paying this much for a service if I had the funds 😭! #get back to pirating kings!!! #anime has always been one of the easiest forms of media to pirate anyway so y’all got this #CR is definitely not worth paying for though #CR is certainly not worth paying this much for even if it’s a yearly one time fee #capitalism #the fact that CR has always had pretty bad quality as a streaming service anyway #it buffers every time you pause or rewind anything

[assumptionprime]

Sometimes we could all use a reminder. (source)

#it's truly never worth it #block them #block their followers #banish them to the shadow realm and go enjoy your day

[recomvery]

One of the most dangerous things in the world is not being able to say no to people because you don't want to upset them or dissapoint them. This will completely ruin your life in every way possible, at work, in your private life, your sex life and your friendships. It's a way of removing your own consent in your own decisions and go against your wishes, it is always a crime against yourself. Let yourself have a say. Upsetting people is better than traumatizing yourself.

#healing #positivity #self growth #self healing #self improvement #self love #self worth #selflove #recovery

[cicadaart]

I can’t get him out of my head

#I drew this on a whim #worth every second #revolution cat Alastor seemed a bit more cursed than cursed cat Alastor lmaoo #ponyo #hazbin hotel #cursed alastor cat #cursed cat alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor #hazbin hotel rosie #rosie #hazbin hotel lucifer #lucifer morningstar #lucifer magne #hazbin hotel comic #hazbin hotel fanart #art #cicadaart

[krembruleed]

astarion is cheating

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale of waterdeep #wyll ravengard #karlach #astarion #shadowheart #lae'zel #halsin #half these fools cant lie worth fuck. terrible at cards smh #krem scribbles

[borgevino]

the allergy i am seeing grow up around small talk in any form is troubling to me. do you know how to make friends with people in your physical environment? it typically starts with small talk. do you want to live in community? small talk. do you want to have the type of relationship with your neighbors where you can run over and borrow a battery for your smoke detector when it starts beeping at 10pm? small talk!! do you want leeway from your coworkers when you fuck up something small? you gotta be able to build a relationship and that's small talk, baybeee.

"but i don't need friends and i don't care about community!" okay, lone ranger, what about the people in your community who need you? "but i have social anxiety!" me too, bud! we simply must soldier on. making up lists of questions to ask people helps. and people are predisposed to be generous, i've found. even if you make some kind of mistake, what is this but the natural give and take of human interaction? nobody is perfect.

you were not put on this earth to live by yourself and then die. you need people and people need you. treat those around you with curiosity and generousness of spirit and you will gain so much goodwill in return.

#my pharmacist spotted me a weeks worth of meds once when mine were in a building closed for asbestos #because we'd been doing small talk for a couple of months and had a rapport #this is not emotional labor btw. in no way is 'doing small talk' emotional labor. dont say that. #edification #community is a garden

[qiinamii]

we'll do fine.

#fionna and cake spoilers #what hits me a little is how similar fionna and simon's stories are in the case of finding nuance in their lives #when both have gone through their separate but still valid pain no matter the extent it had been #and its that they met each other they get to see how it compares and they're no less worth of the peace and fun they dreamed of #even in the form of simplicity and just being normal #“i wouldn't have met THE fionna and cake” “we wouldn't have met THE simon petrikov” #it hits me harder that after the dandelion scene would've been their last time seeing each other physically #and how assuring simon sounded when fionna didn't know what to do with the literal world in her hands #tho im sure prismo isnt that much of a rule jerk lol i still drew out the revelation anyway with this tiniest addition #also the fact fionna's world is influenced by simon's thought processes and conditions so now things are a little better for both of them #fionna the human #fionna campbell #simon petrikov #qiiarts #the lil flashback of #betty grof #fionna and cake #adventure time