#nothing happens but. just in case

[geezmarty]

happy wyllstarion wednesday! here's a short comic I drew for a server gift exchange 🤍❤️

#baldur's gate 3 #wyllstarion #this was very fun to write/draw and I hope you can catch all of the like. subtleties I tried to put in the dialogue and expressions #also let me know if you need anything tagged? #needles cw #just in case but absolutely nothing graphic shown #f #also no one @ me if any of this is medically inaccurate there’s yaoi happening on screen. focus

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 143

You know what I think would be hilarious. The batfamily (or even all of Gotham but it’s dismissed as just another Gotham tale by Outsiders) being able to turn into cats. Not big cats either but like, housecats. And none of their teams know. 

They think that the cats must be their local bat’s, because the collars have their symbols on them. And honestly how else would this giant fluffball get onto the Watchtower? Now of course they would have told the teams all eventually, but well, it’s become a competition now. How long can they keep this under wraps, and which of them will win in keeping it hidden. 

#batman au #batman #dc #dcu #prompts #justice league #cats #shifters #No embarrassment has nothing to do with their decision to turn it into a competition #What was Bruce supposed to do when Clark suddenly scooped him up and started peppering his furry face with kisses?! #He couldn’t just change back to human form and he was supposed to be the only one in the Watchtower at the time #He’d be teased more if the others haven’t all had similar situations happen to them #Titans Tower was Tim getting crushed under big fluffball Jason as revenge #I have no idea about what breeds they'd be if they are any #but I just need you to know that Damian is at that kitten stage where their tails stick straight up #and i need everyone to know that bruce gives off maine coon vibes when it comes to how thick his fur is #in case it wasn't obvious their gear & clothing shift into collars #usually with their respective symbols instead of a tag or anything

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

dnkinktober day 17: brat (taming)

….except i cannot use a normal color palate for the life of me

#death note #light yagami #and technically if but only a hand: #l lawliet #lawlight #dnkinktober #my art #choking #<-tagging just in case even though he’s technically just holding his face #so yeah no normal colors for me today i’m in the mood for bright things #i should probably tag this as #bright colors #bc i just looked at it w true-tone and it is Bright #since i always seem to do so on artworks i shall tell you about my day #uhhhh nothing much happened but i did plan out a tentative schedule for the spring summer and fall semesters #according to my plan i will be able to graduate at the end of next fall (yay) #and then i will have to figure out where i want to do my masters (not yay) #hmmm other than that i skipped class bc it was on a topic i was going to low-key freak out about and did schoolwork instead #and now i'm tired bc i've gotten ~7 hours of sleep in total these last few nights bc my brain's been v panicky which is stupid but whatever #and it's been so cold. so so cold. i hate the cold #if i have to wake up and get out of bed and i start trembling and shivering i will be v upset the weather should accommodate my tastes imo #but i do get up before sunrise (booo) so i'm like really tired and miserable so it's probably not that bad but i'm a complainer #and complaining is good for u i promise. it's okay to curse the weather for wronging you and being upset that you have too much to do #back to the artwork i didn't know how to show brat(taming) visually but i wanted to do either hair-pulling of some type #like hair pulled neck exposed shirt unbuttoned sexy style w light smirking (<-will still do this btw just for something else) #but to get inspo i went to the first fic that popped up when i searched brat taming and they had someone grab someone's face #and tell them they were a very bad girl or whatever and i was like. hey light yagami is also a very bad girl so this works

[marblerose-rue]

click for better quality!

the planes of existence

#my art #do not copy trace or steal #dovewing #lionblaze #jayfeather #wc #wc art #waca #warriors #warrior cats #this is more experimental than anything . very silly very fun #whenever i used to draw dove lion and jay i always drew dove upset . for whatever reason #and i didnt really understand what shes going through but now that im older and now that more has happened to her . yeah . i get it #i also had a phase where i didnt like dove and that was part of the reason xd i promise thats not the case anymore i lovewing dovewing #i kin her i project onto her sm . im so normal about her #i know the planes of existence is a dnd thing but if we think abt it . dovewing earth jayfeather heaven lionblaze hell #that has nothing to do with personal opinions its literally parts of their story unless im remembering wrong #i just dont have a good title without sounding corny x_x #anyway goodnight tumblr im gonna shower and go to bed happy super bowl (did not do a single football related thing)

[sergle]

I turned off rbs on that earlier post abt the AU that thin people live in because I could feel it wanting to grow legs. and. contrary to popular belief, I do Actually value my sanity. a snippet before I go finish making my stew: what's unsaid here, but should be EXTREMELY OBVIOUS. Is that nobody takes issue with someone who is thin, making their own post or talking to a friend, bringing up a time someone made unsolicited comments about their body. and complaining, bc who isn't going to complain abt someone being shitty at you. (that's not "skinnyphobia" btw it's usually just misogyny) but that's not what happens, bc what happens is that someone uses the time Jimmy called them emaciated in high school as a REBUTTAL, AGAINST a fat person who was already talking about their own bad experience. and that one time the dress shop didn't carry XXXS is Proof that fatphobia isn't real and that thin people suffer just as much. check and mate. your thing can't be true, because someone was mean to me Once.

#A COMPLAINT ON ITS OWN... #is a complaint on its own. in public or private whatever #but specifically going to spaces where fat people are venting about some horrible shit that's happening to us #and the unbelievably dehumanizing way that we were treated #and replying to THOSE people. with your thing. about jimmy calling you names. #as if that is an argument for any kind of case. #sergle.txt #like. it. is nothing. it's literally nothing. you're just establishing how little you understand abt the topic #and how desperately you want it to be about you. when a fat person was not even talking To You. you just jumped in?

[cryptiduni]

“white mourning.”

#‘‘A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.’’ #jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesn’t make for a good practice #judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you don’t see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice. #she’s polite yes but she doesn’t care as much as jean cares for harry #he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harry’s as #he put up with du bois’ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back. #he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb. #planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasn’t the who started the whole fiasco #you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen #his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but #jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control #i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation. #but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse. #i relate to ​jv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late #my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone. #kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon #disco elysium #de fanart #jean vicquemare #disco elysium fanart #jean heron vicquemare #jean posting #illustration #de #artists on tumblr #my art #I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!! #i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings #my little maiu maiu

[chirpsythismorning]

Why I Don’t Experience Byler Doubt

It’s simple. One of the most essential techniques in storytelling: Show, don’t tell.

Show, don't tell is a technique that allows the audience to experience the story through actions, words, subtext, thoughts, senses, and feelings rather than exclusively through the creators' exposition, summarization, and description.

Even more importantly (assuming we want to enjoy ourselves bc this is supposed to be high quality entertainment), it adds drama. Rather than telling viewers what's happening, a filmmaker will use this technique to show drama unfold. 'Telling' is factual and avoids detail; while 'showing,' is detailed and places the human subject at the centre of the drama.

This technique is literally playing out in the narrative when it comes to Mike’s inability to tell El he loves her (or even simply write love Mike in his letters), which he never would have had to tell her (spell out) in the first place, if he had just shown her that he loved her.

It’s no fun having to spoon feed your audience. Instead, it's much more enjoyable for the storyteller to present the truth in the details, even sometimes contradicting very basic assumptions that are being outright told. Hence why, for example, when the Duffers were asked about the Vecna reveal, Ross used the opportunity to go on a mini tangent: 'the best twists are ones that you go, “Oh, I should have seen that coming.” As opposed to the twists that go, “Oh, well that just came out of nowhere.” So, “Oh, I missed these clues along the way.” But you get nervous when you’re writing it because you go, “Well, to me it seems obvious--'.

In fact, Show, don't tell is what largely allows surprise revelations to hide in plain sight. Because obviously, if a writer just tells their audience everything that's happening while it's happening, we would always see what's coming next.

And so the problem I have with downplaying or even completely refusing to acknowledge the importance of Show, don't tell, in the case of Stranger Things especially, is that, in order to comfortably subscribe to what is being told, I have to ignore what is being shown.

We see this play out all the time on Reddit in particular, which if I'm being honest is the only platform at this point that treats mere speculation about Will and Mike's relationship as if it is the end of the world. On the rare occasion the mods don't remove a byler related post, the post is either already negative towards byler or the comments are filled with fury over the poster simply thinking critically by speculating about byler. Even if you manage to get a fan over there in the comments to consider certain evidence pointing towards byler as incriminating, they'll still manage to end it by downplaying the Duffers and their abilities, because 'They're not that smart!'...

They'll ask for evidence, be presented with it, only to insist that it's all reaching because details mean nothing and everything about the show is actually just surface level, ie. it's not that deep.

Without even realizing it, they're low-key admitting that going the byler route would be smart, and yet here they are tirelessly defending a show that, according to them, has shit writers and no deeper purpose. All this does is prove that they are hoping this is the case. Because even despite being presented with strong evidence that the show might very well be epic, they would rather reject it altogether.

They would rather have one of their favorite shows suck and defend it religiously, then consider the possibility that it's good and gay...

Don't get me wrong, there are definitely fans on reddit that don't hate byler. I imagine out of the million in that sub, there's a silent majority that would be open to it. Keep in mind, most fans still active at this point in hiatus are hardcore fans, and so they're obviously opinionated, that goes for everyone on most platforms rn. And yet, I know there are very likely casual fans who are popping in there every now and then, the same people in the majority when after s4 dropped, saw that monologue and said What the actual fuck was that?

There’s a reason no other couple on the show has needed to hear the words I love you to believe it. Well, besides Steve and Nancy…

Because SHOW, DON'T TELL. That's why!

So, what do I mean when I say that Show, don't tell is why I no longer have byler doubt?

It's actually pretty ironic, but basically the moment Mike told El he loved her, that's the moment they showed us that he didn't.

I mean, for starters, how does one go about filming a romantic love confession? Because if we're being entirely serious right now, they made just about every artistic and creative choice possible to go against what a romantic love confession should look like to feel satisfying.

I mean, you'd probably want the atmosphere to be intimate, right? Make the audience feel like these two are the only two people in the room (world) for this moment?

Well, that's not the case for Mike and El, nor is it the case for literally any of their scenes in s4 (arguably a lot of their scenes in the series; Will the wise drawing in El's room, I'm looking at you). Almost all of the scenes with them together in s4 had Will in the background, often times in the literal frame between them. That is NOT how you film scenes for a romantic pairing that you want the audience to root for, from beginning to end.

You guys gotta understand, rewatch value is one of the most important aspects to this story for the Duffers. When talking about the prospects of s5, they mentioned that they rewatched all the Lord of the Rings, saying how important it was, despite what some fans might say about the ending being too long, or this or that, bc to them, it was necessary to watch it all, and to rewatch it and rewatch it, in order to appreciate the entire story as a whole, aka the way it was intended.

If you're a serious about Mike and El as a romantic pairing, but because of the way the show has set up their relationship over the seasons, you can't sit down and enjoy more than a quarter of each season bc they're either separated, broken up, or on the rare occasion they are together and happy, they're accompanied by a kicked puppy in every shot, maybe all of that's for a reason.

And that applies to the scene in Surfer Boy more than any other scene in the show, a scene that is supposed to be Mike's monologue to El... You mean a scene that directly parallels Mike's monologue to Will in s2?

When planning the end of s4, do we think the Duffers just decided they wanted this intimate moment between Mike and El to have Will in the frame behind Mike (visually piggybacking off of him, in an episode titled The Piggyback...) in almost every shot, including when he said I love you for the first time, for no reason at all? Or is it possible there was a reason for it? Just like there's been a greater reason for everything?

Like bro, I'm sorry, but even if what's being told in that scene is relevant, all of it still reads as either a lie, a partial lie, a lie of omission or a platonic truth hiding behind romantic phrasing: I don't know how to live without you = platonic (trauma bond), whereas I can't live without you/I don't want to live without you = romantic. The later is out of desire/want, the former is out of fear of the unknown.

The entire scene the lighting is blinking rapidly. And so the vibe they're going for here is uncertainty, which is quite odd for a love confession that's supposed to feel certain? Then we have El seeing all red the entire time. She's literally choking, hearing Mike struggle to muster up anything that could help her pull through, only to overhear Will calling Mike the heart, followed by Mike finally saying I love you????

And I guess according to the Duffers, nothing says true love like a love confession ending abruptly by a two day time jump...

Oh and how about, instead of them taking the time at the end of the season for El and Mike to have a private moment, where they could finally address their love for one another, let’s have them barely on speaking terms, and the one time they do talk, let’s have it be offscreen and mentioned in a private moment between Will and Mike, who in contrast to Mike and El, we're going to prioritize having a scene with them alone together at the end of this season...

In the last minutes, let’s have El look at Mike and Will, only to avoid them with visible annoyance. And THEN let’s show Mike visibly defeated by El's annoyance, instead prioritizing reassuring Will, aka his friend with whom he shares an I didn’t say it/ You didn’t have to bond...

I mean? Are we just not going to talk about it? The fact that I didn't say it/You didn't have to could pass off as a literal synonym for Show, don't tell...

It just kills me that even with all of that, the Duffers were like, You know what? Fuck it. Let's show them all the endgame couples lined up next to each other, with Will and Mike in the middle and El standing on her own in front of them. If by now they still refuse to consider it, after everything, this ending probably wont convince them anyways, but it makes for great rewatch value...

Seriously, if you're subscribing fully to the belief that what is being told is the whole truth and nothing but the truth (so help you god), then you're having to ignore all of that. And I can't ignore all of that, I just can't. Which makes it impossible for me to experience doubt anymore.

#byler #stranger things #byler doubt #not really #quite the opposite #but i'll tag in case #show don't tell allows you to acknowledge what is being shown AND told bc the truth of what's being told is hiding in the details #that's not the case for people only wanting to believe what's being told bc they're having to completely ignore the details to believe it #like i know for milkvans... byler scenes do NOT work in their favor #whereas for bylers... pretty much all milkvan scenes do work in our favor #and so genuinely i just can't experience doubt anymore #arguing with antis is fun to me #looking at reddit posts is peak entertainment #ppl praying to the gods that ST sucks bc they would rather have that be the case than it be an intricate story with deeper meaning #bc then that would mean all the queer-coding that's been hiding in the details all along was intentional... #there's nothing I can do for ya'll except sit here and watch you unpack that #reddit is going to be quite the spectacle over the next couple years #once byler happens there's probably going to be instant denial #then mourning #then acceptance #or whatever the 4(?) stages of grief are #then they'll eventually get to a point where they will allow themselves to look at the evidence instead of avoiding it out of fear #and that's when it's finally going to hit them #oh my god #it's me #i'm part of the reason they had to water it down #bc even upon being presented with evidence #they rejected it #and now they gotta give credit to tumblr bylers who discovered most of the evidence they've been shitting on for the last few years #honestly i'm looking forward to it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

more Rogers <3

#hasty scribble but one i like nonetheless! #nothing but the best for my girl smh #i like to think that she plays golf in asteroid fields #smack space rocks into each other with her tail. see what chain reaction happens #scribble salad #dragons #oc #original character #dragon oc #not-fish <3 #eyestrain #< just in case! she's very Pink

[chuthulhu-reads]

[ID: five panels from Trigun Maximum. The first shows Rem looking angrt, her teeth gritted as she looks down and says, "I will never make that mistake again." The second panel shows Vash yelling furiously, his face mostly hidden under his jagged speech bubble as he screams, "are you so sure?!" He's also partially obscured by Rem yelling, "Yes I am! Don't belittle what I went through!", leading into the third panel of Rem screaming with a furious expression. The fourth panel is a quiet beat, showing Vash lying in bed, one hand clenched into a fist and grimacing as he looks up at Rem, whose expression is unseen from behind. The fifth panel shows Rem looking frustrated, rubbing the top of her own head as she says, "I never want to go through that again... being so powerless..." End ID.]

Perfect Kind Angel Rem is just SUCH a disservice to manga!Rem. She's frantic and messy and yells at her son in a moment of passion! She's grieving and furious at herself and devoted to her own atonement! I also cannot emphasize enough that "Killing Is Always Wrong" is not a thing that comes up from manga!Rem, like, ever. The spider-and-the-butterfly conversation is really good character stuff, but is 98!anime only. In the manga, Rem never really talks about violence, or Christian theology; the only person she asks Vash not to hurt is himself. The idea of the boys purposefully harming a human straight up never crosses her radar, so she never talks to them about it. I think this is a valuable choice because it means Vash's dedicated pacifism is a decision he's come to through his own experiences and values, not because he's parroting a dead woman's words. Also, I 200% believe that manga!Rem would have killed a bitch had anyone discovered the boys who wasn't as friendly as Conrad. She has this much regret over the torture and death of a child she barely got to know; I don't see this Rem as the kind of woman to just stand back and beg if anybody wanted to cut up her sons.

#Trigun #I am deeply passionate about manga Rem #I am deeply passionate about nice characters who are angry #she's angry BECAUSE she's kind #she's kind and compassionate and she was powerless and she will NOT let it happen again #did you see her ice-cold expression when lying to her crewmates that nothing had happened? #There was a space pistol down the back of those mom jeans in case anybody spotted the boys #you just KNOW it

[yuriiofthevalley]

do i stop this madness by getting a hysterectomy or do i sell my uterus on the black market so i can at least be fairly compensated for what it's put me through

#nothing even happened i'm just being dramatic rn #like i was changing my pad and inspiration for this post struck me directly in the forehead #also a hysterectomy is a procedure to get your uterus removed in case anyone was wondering 🙏🏼 #girlblogging #this is what makes us girls #just girly things #this is a girlblog #just girly thoughts #just girly posts #girlhood #i'm just a girl #hyper feminine #girly things #pinterest girl #it girl #dream girl #femcore #femcel #the female gaze #girl blogger #gaslight gatekeep girlboss

[bugtoast]

guys what the fuck what the fuck a (kinda big??? idk???) youtuber just made a video about that one tumblr myth analysis that i chimed in on awhile ago and the video ended the video on my little analysis part?????? what???? anyways uh??? hi!!!! if you're coming from the Bettina Levy video, hi!!!! if you're looking for more analysis of things like that you're probably not gonna get it, cause I only really post random shit about my hyperfixations on here!!! i mean i might do more things like that if i get hyperfixated on something but like!!! hi!!!

idk im just??? im so surprised that im now in a video with (as of the time of writing this) 8.7k views????

#Btw im only posting this as a ' ' just in case ' ' scenario #like if i randomly get a bunch of attention n all that #if nothing happens then i'll probably delete this #anyways i am like??? im so nervous right now?? not in a totally bad way but in a ' ' oh my god what is happening right now? ' ' sorta way? #im just not used to having this much attention on me #even if its from a secondhand source? #like?? what?? #anyways this post is meant to be taken /positively!!! #textpost #might delete this later #rambles

[nat-without-a-g]

I made the mistake of scrolling around on tumblr KNOWING I follow people who post about the new episodes soon after they come out and lemme just say.

#putting my prediction in the tags to hide them from people who also haven’t seen the whole episode yet in case I’m right #just gotta drown it out first so all the Dndads tags are after this I really wanna make sure it’s all hidden gjdhdjg #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndads spoilers #dndads season 2 #dungeons and daddies season 2 #I have seen not one but TWO PEOPLE posting about Rebecca and one of them included me and my husband and the other said they were grieving #i may be worried about the wrong person here but as an oak family enjoyer #who has said VERY RECENTLY that I am going to commit hand to hand combat with Anthony Burch if he kills One of the twins #I’m terrified Sparrow Specifically is about to kick the bucket and I’m going to have to go about my day like nothing happened #MY BEAUTIFUL BOY!! #I stand by that he might have a homunculus/his real body is in Oakvale #you can not go missing in Oakvale and tell me it’s o-a-Kay it’s fucking OAKVALE #edit: it was worse than expected ;0;

[ask-the-totally-real-peppino]

Ovd mhzjpuhapun. Aopunz zbylsf zllt av il ahrpun h abyu dpao aol spaasl vul. Dl hdhpa fvby lhnly ylzwvuzl, klhylza “Pep”. Hz fvb ohcl Uhtlk fvbyzlsm.

Ho, dhpa h tvtlua, Fvb hyl uva opt. Hyl fvb? Uv thaaly, dl hyl zbyl vby tlzzhnl pz yljlpclk lpaoly dhf.

[Amusement, curiosity]

-Dark Anon

Peppino: "Is this thing busted...? I guess Pep did-a find it in the garbage..."

Gustavo: "Maybe Theodore could look at it! He's pretty good with gadgets."

Peppino: "Ugh, like I'd-a willingly go to him! He'd hold it over me for the rest of time!"

Gustavo: "Aw, c'mon, Peppino! Y'know, he's much more tolerable out of costume. And if this is broken, wouldn't you want it fixed for Pep and our new friends?"

Peppino: "Ugh, fine... I'll at least talk to Hazel tomorrow morning. If anyone can convince him not to be a little shit, it's her."

#pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #gustavo #story post #didn't mean to make Peppino look quite so fruity #but... Y'know... #also Theodore = Noise and Hazel = Noisette just in case you didn't know! #phone seems to be acting up huh! #hopefully nothing nefarious is happening in there!!! #also cipher decoded down here so stop reading if you wanna figure it out!!! #is 7 to the right #“How fascinating. Things surely seem to be taking a turn with the little one.” #“We await your eager response dearest 'Pep'. As you have Named yourself” #“Ah wait a moment” #“You are not him. Are you? No matter” #“we are sure our message is received either way.” #wonder who that was!!! (genuinely do not know) #also interestingly Pep encoded is 'Ixi' #and that's one of my fave neopets asdghjddg

[universe-of-peoples]

I’m sad that Annabeth wasn’t there for the second half of ep 7. But you know what? They had to do something to get her out of the picture for the second part because with how they’ve set her character up, knowing everything that they’ll run into before they even get there, there’s no way she would have gone through everything (from Grover almost getting sucked into Tartarus to finding the bolt to talking with Hades) without putting everything together herself long before Percy did. Honestly, she probably would have figured out even more details than he did. I mean, there’s evidence right there for who the true lightning thief is.

#I’m not gonna type it though just in case there are non-book readers here #hi non-book readers #how’s your day going #nothing happening here I swear #pjo #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo hoo toa #percy jackson disney+ #percy jackson spoilers #percy pjo #rick riordan #percy jackson disney+ spoilers #pjo spoilers #pjo annabeth #annabeth pjo #annabeth chase #the lightning thief

[sonknuxadow]

please tell me people are joking when they say sonic prime is queerbaiting with sonic and shadow. that is not whats going on here please be serious you guys just see sonic and shadow interact in any way and become unable to turn your shipping brains off

#and even if it is a joke its still kinda annoying because people get the definition wrong all the time and this sort of thing isnt helping #queerbaiting is when they On Purpose hint at characters being gay just to appeal to gay viewers with no intention of making it official #NOT ''these characters read as gay to me but thats not what the writers were actually going for'' #NOT ''my favorite ship didnt become canon'' #(whatever happened to just liking a ship without expecting for it to become canon anyway) #you can think sonic and shadow are gay if you want to i literally do not care #unlike most other sonic and shadow interactions i can definitely see why people think some of their scenes in sonic prime are gay #but i highly doubt the writers were intentionally trying to hint that theyre in love like . come on. #nothing they do is inherently romantic whatsoever some of the sonic and shadow moments that get labelled as gay #are things sonic does with his other friends too and people dont freak out nearly as much in those cases #why is it always the so/nadow obsessed people who are annoying about this stuff #like sonic and knuckles are gay as hell but i never see people accuse sega of queerbaiting with them

[why-the-heck-not]

Starting to almost wish I could just go do this fucking presentation today solely bc I’m getting mad and tired of the anxiety, how is it physically possible to be this anxious for so many days straight. There has to be a limit how long u can be on the verge of an anxiety attack like ????

#it’s stupid #cant sleep cant eat over ’’ppl are paying attention to me for 20minutes or so’’ #i hate this so so much #bc like I KNOW it’s overreacting and unreasonable and it never is as bad as I think but knowing that won’t do shit for the anxiety #like it will he here until I’m back home tmrw after having presented it #at least it’s only like a day of this anymore but I don’t have the energy for this for even one more goddamn minute #literally what could happen in that presentation that would be worse than feeling like this?? #the realistic worst case possible is that I lose my train of thought or have a ’’brain doesnt work’’ moment and have to take like 20secs to #gather myself and like maybe if someone asks a question I don’t have an answer to #but like I won’t die or anything #even if it’d be awkward (it will be awkward) that’s legit nothing #I’m ’’just some guy’’ to the ppl and after leaving the building they’ll never think abt my stupid ass presentation again #so wHY cant I fucking chill #april 2024 #2024