#nothing to dwell on

[theminecraftbox]

I find myself reflecting upon the attitude that the only “acceptable” redemption for c!Dream requires violent coercive action. It’s a startlingly common take even among those who agree in general terms that retributive justice is broadly a bad idea and that Pandora’s Vault/torture in particular is either immoral, ineffective, or both.

If a “redemption arc” always requires violence or the threat of it, what exactly is being communicated?

#c!dream #dreblr #pandora’s vault #this is sort of apropos of nothing #I just find myself dwelling on specific attitudes that I’ve encountered #dsmp

[pansyfemme]

anyone done with experiencing traumatic events. ive have enough i think

#nothing new just dwelling on the past few months and its been painful #but its like. man after everything ive been through . it never ends #i already have diagnosed cptsd can we stop

[twilightarcade]

I HATE finding beauty in the mundane is there a way to turn this off or something. I will be sitting there living like wow guys are you seeing this shit. The sky is blue. Yeah I know it's always blue. Isn't it pretty though? Come look at this cool Crack in the sidewalk. I think it's new.

#wordstag #ddude sometimes the way the light falls on stuff is so pretty. Like literally nothing special it will just be sitting there. #most radiant discarded can on planet eartg. also pencils ill never get over pencils they're so nuts have you seen one of those #like the way they mmark on paper in such like a distinctive way. It's so magical is anyone else se eing this #fabric is crazy too there's just folds in there! I bet you don't wven care about the Folds #don't eve n get me started on animald those are so crazy.... people r just out here existing w all this other stuff going on #how Do They Do It? How do they not dwell on how a certain tree swayed in the breeze? Wish to capture the insignificant? #idk maybe i'm just screwed . Perhaps it's entirely over for me. Perhaps I'm terribly romantic. #tthere is a little beauty in everything i think thoug. God forbid I call oil spills beautiful but even those are iridescent

[kyouka-supremacy]

It's actually quite curious that I've never found a sskk fic where Atsushi was jealous of the attentions Akutagwa gives Dazai

IMHO, I think it’s bc jealousy like that would mean Atsushi wanted Akutagawa to feel about him the way Akutagawa feels about Dazai, and I don’t think that’s the kind of connection Atsushi would envy anyone having with anyone

That's... A very good point

#I didn't think about it. It makes a lot of sense #atsushi nakajima #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #osamu dazai #bsd #people asks me stuff #Like one possible counterpoint I can think is that jealousy is irrational and wouldn't look at the nature of the attention– #beyond the simple fact that such attention direct to another person exists #But then again I hate jealousy tropes in general so it's really not an issue with me pfftt #It's just that. In t/pn I used to hate them because it didn't make any sense. #All the characters grew up with 30+ siblings you CAN'T grow up to be a jealous person when you were raised in that environment #Besides to me jealousy is inherently toxic and... t/pn ships aren't toxic. The slightest. #Like yeah nothing is perfectly pure everything is problematic etc etc but t/pn sure goes as close as being pure as you can get #But ss/kk IS toxic. Or at least a big component of it is. So I guess... It might happen? #But really I don't like the trope either way so I won't dwell on it further. #It was just a random thought and Anon is making a good counterpoint

[vse-kar-vem]

weekly breakdown post 😁 none of you hate me right !

#feeling a bit down ☹️ idk i just feel like #am i not social enough am i just annoying ☹️ i dont post a lot so idk what people follow me for but if i post too much am i being annoying ? #oueagh #vee rambles #like i know everyone has their own niches whatever but i don't know how you just establish connections with people so easily 💔💔 #am i brushjng people off without knowing ???? am i just prickly?????? #also as a conversationalist i know i dont have much to offer ☹️☹️ im not very funny or capable of very clever adult insights #so really im just kinda there 😞 and like i HAVE real life friends i HAVE a social circle theres no need to base my fulfilment socially on #online interactions 😭 #idk maybe its because its harder or its something i feel i cant get that makes it such like a thing that bothers me #like 7 times out of 10 if im sadposting because of that #and its really embarrassing to say that the reason all these like moments of insecurity happen is because my mutuals. have friends #NOTHING AGAINST ANYONE OBVS THIS IS 100% A ME PROBLEM AND NOT EVERY INTERACTION SENDS ME INTO A TAILSPIN ITS JUST SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS #i thjnk it says something about me idk i dont like to think of myself as very jealous but i am i just dont like dwelling on it #trying to figure out if what makes me upset is other people not liking me or my own personal inadequacies #anyways if anyones reading this pretend they didnt i will be over this tomorrow i just #ugh 🥹🥹🥹 #i wish i could wake up funnier #or smarter #maybe better at art #🙏 god bless #IVE FIGURED IT OUT #being in such a tight knit fandom reminds me of being in 8th grade again 🥹 not to tragic backstory everyone but like i had no friends #i think it kind of dredges up that kinda loneliness and insecurity in me #wow i should be a psychologist #anyways i still love fandom im not gonna stop it just. sigh. gets to me sometimes

[hmm-ctrl]

zero self preservation instinct

#hoohooheeheheah. me when i finally draw my OC!!!!!!!!!!! mwhahah #and technically. ig this is the beginning. 4 now. nothing serious yet but well see what happens yaknow #anyways i LOVE drawing scavengers and the likes. they are very silly and wont shut up about them. #also 4 those of u who forgor (i dont blame u lol) this is ZEDD (Zealous Embrace; Divine Dwelling) and TAMBRO (the scavenger) #rainworld #rain world #soeepy #the curse of man (talking about my ocs) #rain world fanart #rainworld fanart

[adhd-merlin]

unpopular opinion: arthur (as much as i like him as a character) was useless in terms of prophecy and liberation of the magic people. not just bc he never ended up lifting the magic ban but bc literally anyone sitting on the throne could have done that. i see no reason why it had to be arthur specifically. but the show liked to pretend like he was the only way to achieve a positive future bc the opprressed community cant simply help themselves that would be silly ig? no no they need to patiently wait that maybe one day their oppressor (whos literally continuing his fathers genocide even if less zealously) has a change of heart and they wont be hunted down like animals anymore. never mind the countless people that will have to die in the mean time. merlin can kill a bajillion people on screen and thats fine and for the greater good but if someone tries to kill One guy sitting on a fancy chair with a fancy hat suddenly thats too extreme. half the time it felt like the show was pointing to merlin as a poster child of how to act when oppressed. the fact that morgana growing bitter about uthers reign is framed as inherently bad and what directly lead to her becoming evil tm is particularly infuriating to me. the choice to create this very ya dystopian setting and then cast the oppressors as part of the main cast and the final solution is just very weird to me. i think it wouldve been objectively for the best if the magic community had overthrown arthur (or uther really but thats not really contested.. unless youre the bbc. this show is so british (derogatory))

in that vein: mordred has never done anything wrong in his entire life and that includes killing arthur

one more for the "arthur was a loser" folder

[ok but about the rest!! I have many thoughts about it. merlin as a member of an Oppressed Minority. his betrayal of his own kin. I'm putting it all under a cut bc you guys don't need to see me rambling about this and the disir again]

you make a good point — the way in which a story is framed, even the moment we choose as a "beginning", determines what characters we'll feel sympathy for, even when the facts at our disposal are the same.

I don't think the writers were trying to create any kind of deep social commentary btw. just so we're clear. merlin is the hero of the story and his mission is to keep arthur safe. we've got to root for them both.

to have a king with a hatred (fear) of magic gives us a convenient antagonist within the court. merlin having to defend the men that would have him killed for his magic is a great source of dramatic tension. it sort of follows that the people he has to fight against to defend the king/prince are other magic users, or magical threats. (it also keeps things interesting because there would be no challenge for merlin otherwise).

there isn't much of a point in exploring the motives and backstories of other characters with magic (with the exception of morgana, perhaps). They are only briefly touched upon — so these characters remain vaguely antagonistic for the most part. Neutrally aligned at best (see mordred).

We are shown that the druids are (mostly) aware of the prophecy that marks merlin/emrys as the saviour of their kind.

what I find fascinating are merlin's interactions with magic people who are either not aware of this prophecy (gilli) or have no faith in it (kara, possibly?) Because we're never given the chance or the time to see things from their perspective. To see merlin through their eyes.

When gilli says:

"It is time that someone struck a blow for the likes of you and me. And if you're too weak, then I will." (!!!)

It makes him sound like some kind of extremist, but really, when you think about it. isn't his anger kind of justified? I'm not condoning his violence, I'm just saying — it's understandable. uther has killed so many innocent people. literally drowned innocent children. and merlin's like "violence isn't the answer!" — and I can see his point!! but I can see gilli's just as well. and I find it so interesting that he's still addressing merlin as a brother ("the likes of you and me"), even when expressing disappointment in his actions and calling him weak. because they are the same. he's saying "you're deluded, and cozying up to the enemy won't save you"

this episode also contains what is (probably) my favourite dragon call. when merlin summons kilgharrah in other episodes, he's usually in the middle of some Urgent Situation. matters of life or death. there is nothing urgent here, really. yeah, it is arguably a matter of life or death, but nothing merlin couldn’t have stopped on his own. he really just called on kilgharrah to have a heart to heart with a friend — a member of his class.

("You are a creature of magic, and only a creature of magic could hope to understand.")

this episode is about merlin looking for kinship and still feeling isolated from his magic brethren. there's something tragic about the way the prophecy makes him unable to connect to some of the people who would be best placed to understand him.

and gilli plants a small seed of doubt in merlin's mind. "You've been pretending for so long now that you've actually forgotten who you are" (!!)

but kilgharrah reassures merlin that there's a golden age coming. so merlin does what he has to do — he saves uther once again. before gilli leaves, merlin reassures him that one day they will be free.

he tells mordred the same:

"It won't always be like this. One day we will live in freedom again."

and then, when he has the unique opportunity to use his influence on arthur to sway his opinion in the right direction. he fails.

he condemns himself, and the people he spoke to of freedom, to keep living in fear and in hiding — and what's even more upsetting, he does so while talking of a "just and fair kingdom"!

("You must protect the world you spent your life building, a just and fair kingdom for all." What an interesting choice of words. camelot isn't just and fair to all — as merlin knows well. he's lying to arthur, and possibly to himself.)

imagine being gilli or mordred and hearing him say that "there can be no place for magic in camelot." (!) What a slap in the face.

I've read meta suggesting that the disir were testing merlin just as much as arthur (or even more so than him). I'm inclined to believe it — I want to believe it. If anything because it makes the story all the more interesting and tragic. (I know what some are going to say — if mordred's destiny was to kill arthur, it would've happened anyway. but remember what else kilgharrah said — the future is never clear. there are many paths).

I understand why merlin did what he did, I really do. but for a moment, the fair and just kingdom he spoke of was within reach, and he failed to grasp it.

so was gilli wrong after all?

[and kara. I feel quite sympathetic towards her. we know arthur. she can't see him from our (merlin's) perspective. for her, he might as well be uther. magic people are still persecuted under camelot's law. she has spent her life on the run, she has seen people she loved be killed. and from our (arthur's) perspective, she looks like some kind of fanatic. but in reality. put yourself in her shoes. when arthur offers her a chance to save herself by "repenting" for her crime, she says she has nothing to repent for. "it is not a crime to fight for your freedom". that's the belief she's willing to die for. did she deserve to die for it?

(I also think there's an interesting parallel in merlin failing his kin in the disir, and arthur failing mordred in ep 5x11 by condemning kara to death. something about pinning all your hopes on someone who's going to fail you, and doom you both. idk idk.)]

sorry anon. you were saying

#merlin meta #more like brain vomit really #there is nothing particularly insightful in here #do you have an episode or a scene that makes you lose it #for me its that scene in the disir probably #I just [insert stick figure violence meme] when I think about it #many thoughts about merlin and the druids and those who knew him as 'emrys' #you have people like alator and finna - with an almost fanatic level of faith #but surely there must have been skeptics #druids who were like “what is he even doing. he's been in camelot for years” #“are we sure he's the right one” #it's just... from an outsider & skeptic perspective. merlin is a race traitor #defending uther and arthur like that #merlin iscariot #betrayal is such an interesting concept #but yeah I love it when he talks of freedom to his fellow oppressed sorcerers #bc it's easy to forget how much he suffers because of camelot's stance on magic #even merlin is so busy looking after arthur that he doesn't seem to have much time to dwell on his own oppression. if that makes sense #and meeting other sorcerers. it brings it back to the forefront #these are the people he's fighting for. brothers and sisters. #asks

[goatfactsofficial]

Oh man So fucking done with Goyische bullshit as of today. I'm taking off the kid gloves. I am done being kind or biting my tongue. If people wanna spout horrific nonsense about me and my people, I will not hesitate to tell them exactly what I think of them.

#Jumblr #I/P #Antisemitism #Goyische bullshit #106 days and I am losing my fucking patience #I am ON YOUR SIDE you fucking idiot gentiles #But because I'm a Jew #Because I'm Israeli #Nothing I say about peace or war can be taken with a grain of salt #we're all baby killers and usurists and tunnel dwelling lizard people to you fuckers #You made that fucking clear enough

[paperbooart]

I just went thru the whole Moondroid AU tag and wow I LOVE this AU SOOOO MUCH dude it's SO cool !!!!!!!! I hope u have more to say ab it bc its REALLY cool dude!!!

ACK THANK YOU SM.. it's just been kind of rumbling again in my brain after all these years (ironically only a few months after i FINALLY changed this blog's header from moondroid zane to the current image)

i don't know how much of what i wrote/drew for it in 2018 i would change in my current era.. it's one of those aus that is less about a strict story and more like another iteration of the 'zane ninjago somehow ends up horribly isolated' trope that keeps happening in ninjago. like i originally came up with the au because i thought 'what if dr julien lived on the moon instead of alone in the woods/alone in a lighthouse when he built his two sons' and since then it's kind of just been an excuse to draw zane in space becuase he is a space aesthetic kinda guy yknow. and also an excuse to give echo a happier story.

#and also an excuse for a really specific kind of technoshipping #and to dwell on loneliness as a concept because nothing embodies loneliness like being stranded on the moon #moondroid au #ask #legogeek33

[cube-cumb3r]

no but the bigeneration is truely only fun if its actually just the One doctor looping back around and that 15 does actually retain all the memories and experiences of 14, even ones that 14 hasnt yet. and there isnt ACTULLY 2 doctors theyre still the one guy at different points in their life.

coz the things that rtd is saying in some commentary things concern me...

#ohh every doctor gets their own tardis and gets to travel around <- what? heh ? huh? #like you cant just keep splintering off doctors just so you can bring back the one you like?? its only fun if theyre all ONE GUY. JUST OJNE #LIKE isnt the fun of the show that its everchanging and keeps moving forward and and and #like we cant just dwell on nostalgia forever. ONWARDS? #coz any take on it that Isnt this will make me megamad #see this is the trouble too with the bigeneration thing coz ideally atp id be like #excited abt ncutis run #i dont wanna be stuck here discoursing about this shit #swagever. #doctor who #doctor who spoilers #fourteenth doctor #fifteenth doctor #coz if 15 retains nothing of 14 happy ending with donna arc then whats the point. what if i dug myself into a hole

[moongothic]

I see some people often wonder out loud if Luffy might get a weapon or something to wield eventually, for no other reason than Roger and Shanks (and even Kaidou) also use(d) weapons, and it'd give Luffy some "extra strenght" in combat so he wouldn't have to rely on his Devil Fruit so much (and the Awakening especially, since it drains him so badly)

And the thing is, as most would probably agree, most weapons and blades especially just would not fit into Luffy's combat style. He, much like his grandpappy, fights with his fists, so it's hard to imagine him using any kind of weapons to fight

But that just made me wonder... Like...

Okay so people have been speculating for ages that Luffy might die at the end of the story or something, right. I do not buy that for a second, but it is true that Luffy is willing to throw himself into a lot of danger and has sacrificed literal years off his lifespan to protect those around him. And that has been escalating. It'd be natural for Luffy's self-endangerment to escalate to a point where there'd be actual, severe and tangible concequences for it. Aside from death.

And you know.

There's been some allusions to Luffy losing his hands, right

And you might wonder

How would Luffy losing a hand translate to him gaining a weapon

Well

You know

And the funny thing is

Luffy might not be one to use a HOOK, per se

But we have seen him wield a giant ball of gold to smash Enel's face in. So a metal mace/morning star/etc could actually work

(Also since his Awakening can mess with the fabric of reality itself, even if one of Luffy's fists was replaced with a solid ORB of metal, he could probably/totally reshape it during combat to fit his needs, into an axe or a morning star or knife etc)

Also.

There would be something poetic about Luffy sacrificing a hand to protect someone dear to him, much like how Shanks sacrificed his entire arm to protect Luffy in Chapter 1.

Like you'd get the pay-off/concequences to the escalation of Luffy's constant self-sacrificing, but nobody dies. Luffy gets a weapon to add to his arsenal, but it fits into his pre-existing fighting style and character. And we could get that poetic full-circle.

That all said, if Luffy did somehow lose a hand.

I'm sure Franky would HAPPILY give Luffy a prosthetic hand with a ✨BEAM✨ Can not imagine Luffy turning such an offer down lmao

#Moon posting #OP Meta #OP Spoilers #This isn't meant to be Crocodad Propaganda I swear #But also this is Crocodad Propaganda. Like Father Like Son. #Just to re-iterate. I don't think Luffy needs or will get a weapon. But if he had to this is where I'd put my money in #Especially because of Shanks and the narrative themes #Not to mention like. OP hasn't actually dwelled too deep into the idea of what it's like to become disabled/an amputee #Like. Kind of the most we get is Crocodile wearing cravats and shoes with buckles and using a lighter etc #And having to punch his hook through his newspapers because. Dude only has one hand. #But all of that is very subtle. It's good visual storytelling but it's subtle #And while I'm sure Luffy *understands* what Shanks sacrificed to save him and all #If Luffy become an amputee too it would force him to essentially live in Shanks shoes to some degree #I just think there's some great storytelling potential there #(Also hey if Croc lost his hand to Whitebeard it'd also maybe reframe why Croc wanted revenge on WB in Luffy's mind) #ALSO FOR THE RECORD I fully realize the Golden Rifle was foreshadowing for Gear Third and nothing else #I UNDERSTAND THAT

[shirkers2018dirsanditan]

i think that talking to a person who is not really listening to you or talking to a person who doesn’t actually care about listening to you too often has a negative affect on your brain. probably physically. i’ve decided. and not like, small talk or polite chit chat. like, whenever i speak out loud and in person it’s either polite small talk with patrons, friendly chit chat with coworkers, or to my parents or a friend. the first two are nice and fine, but they’re inherently surface. with my parents, most of the time i’m talking to them, they don’t care about listening to me OR i’m really just talking to myself. that sucks. with the friend, most of the time honestly, she’s not listening. and i know this about both of these situations, but what can i do? stop talking? of course not. and then. the reason i never should have been dating is because it put me in another bad situation - in a scenario in which the entire purpose is to get to know someone, where the other person in question did not actually care to get to know me, or actually like me, or was not actually interested in me as a person. and that’s the bouts of conversation that went on, that doesn’t even count all the ghosting (though most of these spurts of conversation ended with an eventual ghosting). it’s frustrating and hurtful and i don’t even have a solution

#i don’t like that the best conversations i have are literally with myself #but if i don’t literally talk to myself #i would go insane #because then i would have nothing #it’s just very hard #because in my situation all i can really do is cope and let it pass over me #but its hard not to dwell #and in turn i’m a very bitter person #because then above everything its not fair

[inkedferngus]

The showrunners/writers want to get philosophical about whether the infected are themselves and for how long but for me it's pretty simple. They stop being themselves the moment something acts that isn't them. This philosophy shit is easy. I'm not going to waffle about souls and being locked inside yourself instead of dying and all of that, no thanks.

#'oh he still couldn't hear so it was still Sam' no whatever made Sam himself died in the night #This is a thing that has hijacked the muscle memory of Sam and is overwriting it #This thing has an impression left behind of what a Sam was because it has his brain but that boy is already gone #I will accept nothing else and this is not a useful or productive possibility for me to dwell on #Horror is easy to watch when you refuse to let it be horrible #Tlou spoilers #(I am half joking but only half)

[leonsliga]

Thanks for everything!! You are a legend, dear @SergioRamos!! 🫡🇪🇸

#seriker #it still feels surreal that Sergio retired from international football #it just feels like another reminder that we’re nearing the end and I don’t quite know how to handle that #but I’ll try not to dwell on the heartbreak too much here #us Sergio fans are feeling plenty of that anyway #if nothing else #at least we got this light at the end of the tunnel #and I got a chance to dust off my seriker tag

[nintendont2502]

okay but the first few days of the three year trip must have been *rough*

like imagine your planet is destroyed, your guardian dies, *you* die at least once and you have to destroy your entire universe because a ridiculously powerful dog-man tried to kill you and everyone in it - all in the span of 24 hours*

and then you go from literally fighting for your life to just. sitting there. waiting. three years with nothing to do but think about how fucked up all that was

(*more if youre dave)

#and thats not even getting into all the kid specfic shit! #dave saw his own dead body!! multiple times! #john rose and dave all saw their own dead guardians! #rose got corrupted by the horrorterrors and went grimdark #rose and dave went on what they thought was a suicide mission where (as far as they knew) theyd never make it out #jade shot her friends right after meeting him (or anyone) irl for the first time #and all this shit happened *on johns birthday* #like. jesus #what do you do when you go from having the most traumatic day of your life to having nothing to do for three years but dwell on that #this isnt even mentioning davesprite #dont fucking get me started on davesprite #me.txt #john egbert #rose lalonde #dave strider #jade harley

[geekeryisafoot]

I did it. I reached chapter 1,000. And now I am going to put my phone down and go lay in the woods and stare at the sky while I absorb the sheer volume of that

#1000 chapters. Jesus fucking christ. Nothing gets to be a fraction that long anymore. There will never be a story I get to do this with agai #The sheer scale of the story puts One Piece in a tier of its own #And I'm still like actually I wish the story would slow down a bit. Dwell on the interpersonal moments more. Breathe. #Anyway now to pause reading to go watch all of Wano #Or at least the highlights. Which is all of it #one piece #mineminemine