#now I’m going to bed immediately

[crybaby-bkg]

Dabi is surprisingly a lightweight. You honestly would’ve never figured by looking at him, but as you think back on it, you’ve never really seen him drink a lot. Not when there were celebratory parties, or when things didn’t go right for him. It’s why you’re so shocked when you convince two shots into his system, why he suddenly looks so loose, why his grin splits so wide.

He’s a clinger, you’ve also learned as you’ve started observing the blue eyed man where he shoves his face into the crook of your neck. His body bends over almost uncomfortably to fit into the position, and you can’t help but flinch a little when his damp breath blows a quiet little raspberry on your flesh.

omg wait my favorite thought is of you not even necessarily being a heavyweight, you can just handle your liquor a little better than anyone expects. you love to knock back drink after drink, convince Dabi into some stupid competition that he falls for because he’s such a little nerd and secretly wants to impress you. he does it thinking you’ll be the drunk one first, the one hanging off of his arm and hopefully his dick by the end of the night.

it belatedly shocks him when it’s the exact opposite. when he’s slurring a little and smiling at you, when you watch him through low eyes with a wide grin, when he wraps himself around you like a python, when you shake his face gently as you squish his cheeks together in hand. he’s just so utterly obsessed with you in these moments, and maybe it’s the liquor in him, but he knows his lowered inhibitions are only bringing forth the feelings he’s always suppressed.

drunk sex with Dabi where he’s the one too loose limbed and limp and weak. he flops onto bed like some rag doll with his arms and legs spread wide, but he musters up enough strength to release the heavy weight of his cock from its confinements. doesn’t do much besides lift his head from the pillows with a point to his crotch and a lazy grin, an announcement of, go ahead and hop on already before he’s flopping back down again, ready to lay back and get fucked like how he knows he deserves.

#at first I wrote about him getting whisky dick and not even realizing it and being so embarrassed about it the next morning #but it made me laugh too hard and I was like #no one will enjoy that dude shut up AJSHDKDJDJD #but omg lightweight baby that can only cling to you and whine to go back to your room to fuck #only to pass out immediately on the bed lmfao #I love him I’m gonna str*ngle him so bad #anyway I finished all my work for the week and now I feel empty so I will be moving onto next weeks work tomorrow LOL NERD #but everything next week is simple too so why not get it out the way ya know???? #after that I might sit down and actually write another fic since it’s been a little minute #everyone voted for therapist obsessed bkg next but I kinda wanna write something emotional for touya now lmfao #I’m becoming so obsessed with him and it HURTS!!!!! #I can only handle one ☝🏻 at a time or else I start getting the shakes #also omg my regular dr is making me go to the heart dr bc she said my anxiety worries her for my physical condition aksjdj embarrassing #okay bye I’m gonna read a little and sleep #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dabi treats! 🍬 #tw: alchohol mention

[tuituipupu]

being up at 6:30 on a sunday bc of nightmares brain leave me ALONE

#going to bed early like my New Year’s resolution is great and all until it gives more scope for ur brain to be an ass 🫠 #first that me and others were drowning in quick sand on a boat #then that the boat HIT something (i felt a jolt) and immediately started sinking rapidly #fun. #well i’m awake now 🤠 #personal

[buck-yyyy]

after two weeks of relative freedom regarding what i eat, when i eat, when i shower, when i go to bed, what i want to do with my time, etc etc, spending this next week in a hotel room with my parents is going to be fucking Rough

#they’ve already gotten nitpicky about my eating habits and how much time i spend in bed and how much i’ve been sleeping andoh my fucking god #like. we got out of the car and went up to the hotel and i immediately got in bed because i was cold as shit #and my mom immediately started fretting about how i’ll spend too much time in bed in college and how she worries about me taking care of #myself on my own despite my repeated explanation that i was literally just cold and looking for somewhere to pass the time #like. it’s appreciated but mom. mother. madre. it is slightly overbearing please ;-; #and goddd the fuckin comments about food are NOT helping #like hi mom! please for the love of god stop saying you’re terrified about what i’m going to eat when you’re not there to supervise! #i already managed to halfway starve myself UNDER your supervision without you knowing and i’m fine now but jesus christ it is not helping #when you’re constantly telling me that i can’t go eat something ‘because you don’t need it’ even though it’s my time money and body #just. AGH #i sound like a whiney teenager i know but god i am. just. two days back with them and i already need a break #tw ed #tw ed mention

[nat-seal-well]

I know I made this post before but I’m doing it again because it still puts me to sleep every fucking time

#redacted asmr #redacted asher #okay now i’m going to bed #for real this time #I hear ash say ‘baaabe’ and I’m like immediately out lmao #I’ve made it all the way through this video maybe one or two times just to say I listened to it all

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[tirednotflirting]

like i am aware that i’m insane for starting it rn and i’m too tired to read past this first chap but MAGIC BEANS is absolutely sending me. no notes, this is gonna be a blast

#hofas #house of flame and shadow #hofas spoilers #but like we were calling amren fixing the language issue in like ten seconds #but MAGIC BEAN #that’s hilarious #azriel immediately threatening murder i love him sm #i’m going to bed now but the way i’m about to get Nothing done at work tomorrow oh BOY

[shima-draws]

Actually you know what forget all of my complaining about PokeMas giving N another sync pair unit. I was such a fool. I forgot my true values and beliefs. My CORE. One of my defining personality traits which is: I am a hardcore Unova/Gen 5 stan. So YOU KNOW WHAT?? You GO, N, you funky little gay man. Bring Unova more rep by having all of the epic dragon legendaries and showing up in fine-ass looking suits. UNOVA SUPREMACY

#Insert fire elmo meme #Shima speaks #I’M SORRY N I WAS SO CARELESS……. #I’m so ashamed I can’t believe I didn’t immediately cheer them on for giving N another outfit #Okay also Hilda and Hilbert too. #Hilbert’s especially his looks so goddamn CUTE #Me every time Nintendo even mentions Gen 5: Remake?? BW remake??? #I’ll take any sign as a sign. Even this. Even them giving N another sync pair. LMAO #Pokemon #PokeMas #Pokemon Masters #Pokemon Masters EX #Me @ me: Shima you dumbass!! You forgot that you’re supposed to be a Gen 5 stan! #You know what this is fine. I’m fine with this #I think this is Hilda’s fourth? Sync pair but it’s Hilbert’s third so #And N I think is also at 4. 5 if you count the extra one from raising his friendship levels #Anyway shut up Shima I’m going to bed now

[zainmalik]

i still believe in larry and probably always will but what if i become just a fan of louis whar then

#everything feels fuzzy right now but im thinking #some of you are soooooooo far up harry’s ass it’s so funny #probably revret thkz in the morning but i don’t care that’s a problem for future me #you would immediately forgive his fuck ups #whatever it doesn’t fucking matter #i’m too high i need to go to bed

[sluttyten]

I still have 5 hours left in my shift 😭😭😭

#I just…. #really wanna go home today #not having a good day. I started my period this morning and then I got to work and found out only me and one other opener were there but our #opening manager wasn’t here yet so she was late and we spent the next 20 minutes rushing to get everything set up before we opened #and then we immediately started getting customers and it’s just been busy and I’m tired and just don’t feel good bc of my period #and then so far I’ve had 2 of my least favorite customers come through the drive thru where I’m working #one is this dude who’s just fucking annoying another is the guy that asked for my number a few months ago who I haven’t seen since I turned #him down so I took his order and then made someone else deal with him at the window #and then it got busy with everyone ordering drinks like hot coffees which meant I had to walk from our drive thru out to the lobby bc my #coffees were out bc everyone wants coffee today but when I would do that I would still have to be taking orders #and then someone cleared a few specialty coffees off the barista screen without making them while the person was sitting in the drive thru #so I had to make those while doing other stuff too and people were asking me questions #and I was just getting very overstimulated and annoyed plus I’m hungry #and I just want to leave and go home and sleep but it’s my best friend’s birthday so she’s probably gonna want to do something later but I #just don’t feel up to it and I know she’s probably ready to hang out because she’s been off for 10 days with Covid so she’s well rested now #for her birthday but 😭😭😭 I just want to crash into my bed so hard and not wake up until noon tomorrow #also the coworker I work with every day and don’t like is here today unfortunately #and also all of the speakers we use to play music in the back are dead right now and I just want to play music #first world problems but I have so little patience today

[chronically-peach]

Tonight a friend of mine made a snide comment that stung and I so badly wish I acted like a Neil or an Andrew but I realized in that moment I’m truly a Kevin. I take the jabs until I can’t anymore and then I snap and everyone thinks I’m an asshole. I let everything marinate until it’s late at night and it’s consuming me and I hate myself for being this way and I wanna down a bottle of vodka. Not me finally getting clarity on why I love Kevin so much. I love Kevin Day because I am him. From one sad bitch to another, I get you Kevin. Please tell me there are more of us out there.

#I was also a bit of an Aaron #I made a snarky comment back later on #but immediately felt bad about it #and now I’m spiralling at home #also this just makes my ‘Kevin has bpd’ headcanon even more relevant #not me comparing myself to aftg characters #so I can feel better about being mentally unstable #also much like Kevin vodka and I aren’t friends #and I’m sober so I will not be drinking vodka #I will be going to bed though #kevin day

[nightly-ruse]

Learning Spanish and French atm has taught me I really like words that come out nicely. Like Spanish I’m having a lot more fun with even if I’m still pretty bad purely bc I like the words more while French is harder for me to get attached to

#anyways I love the word huevo and soy #idk they both just make my brain itchy in a good way #tho I do specifically like cheval in french it’s just a good word for horse #going to bed time now :] #they both I guess have more seamless words then English does #esp the English where I’m from in Florida where it’s very blunt and harsh if that makes sense #but Spanish has easy to grasp shorter words for most things as well as sound that are nice to say #the main thing I’m having issue with is deferentiating certain words and ‘Ella’ since amerabrain reads it like the name immediately #bebos and bebe both keep getting me I need to practice more #ruse rambles #dang I really rambled sorry lol I just like learning languages a lot #and it’s kinda fun to contrast them

[starbuck]

something about me is that i am SO tired.

#i need to SLEEP #i need to go to bed RIGHT NOW IMMEDIATELY so that i can get up in the morning #luckily i am In Bed and everything i had to do is DONE - so we are well on our way #i’m just gonna do One Last Thing and then it’s Sleepytime!!!! :))

[nataliewaitegf]

going 2 get wayyy too personal in the tags have fun if u decide 2 read 👍

#mourning the life i could have lived tonight besties 👍 what if everything had been different #like realistically it isn’t possible . I couldn’t have changed things even if I tried #but what if i didn’t have so many mental illnesses and what if I hadn’t moved here and what if I hadn’t kept dropping out of college #and what if i wasn’t sick #and i hate that term bc sick sounds like something that will get better but I think whatever is up with my body is probably forever #what if I wasn’t me <3 what then . maybe things would’ve been better #it isn’t Possible and it’s not worth thinking about but . so many things could have been different and better #im trying to be grateful for what I have and rmr how lucky I am but like #at the end of the day I’m a girl stuck in bed because everything hurts so bad #no real life goals just a shitty job that I have to go back to in the morning that will keep making my body worse #and ive pushed so many people out of my life for stupid reasons and what if i do it again and have no one left . #god . #okay focusing my mind on a single image now (nostalgia is a liar ex friends are bitches etc) im being NORMAL. #probably going to delete this immediately but who can say 👍 going to rot in bed some more I guess

[fawnoir]

Alcohol is a menace. Yes I get to exist without anxiety. It’s delicious. I form coherent words and sentences. I hold people’s attention and earn an A+ in conversations. But god forbid I’m left alone after drinking. It’s like all the depression I temporarily abate comes back ten fold. Love that!!!! Goodnight.

#literally need to go to bed w someone if I drink lmfaooo how dumb #will never not love drinking tho and I wish I could drink more rn to help me feel less bad ://// #or consume enough to cause me to sleep immediately #I’ll feel better in the am #found someone who is essentially me but in a different font #esp wrt to social anxiety and going out #she got trashed tn tho and we just met but I want to ask her if she also feels like this after drinking #but I literally just met her and that’s be weird…so I’m just gonna assume that other ppl also feel like this to some degree #anyways I’m gonna stop drunk blogging now :)

[firekick]

can’t sleep and i’m still thinking about the scene where liu tells cole abt how he got his arcana

#uhhh brief tw for brief and vague mention of implied sa in the tags #idk if anyone here needs that but just in case #still thinking about the ‘i chose to take [his mark] from him’ #also thinking abt how he was found ‘half dead’ before being brought to the wu shi academy #ALSO the phrasing ‘[the man) was a purveyor of rare things. children. orphans. Like Me’ #movie are you trying to fuckin imply something #i still stand by my thought of liu being sent to bring the man back to the temple bc he had a mark but liu chose to kill him when he found- #-out who he is and the fact that he trafficked children #but was it personal??? am i overthinking it???? #i mean liu got his arcana Immediately after he got his mark so clearly he was emotional (as a young adult would be after killing a man) but #I JUST KEEP THINKING ABOUT THE CAREFUL PHRASING AND THE LOOK ON HIS FACE AND I JUST #MOVIE ARE YOU TRYING TO IMPLY THAT LIU WAS A VICTIM BEFORE HE WAS FOUND??? #FUCKED UP IF TRUE I DIDNT EXPECT THIS DOGSHIT MOVIE TO MAKE ME SAD?? #anyway i’m going to bed now i’m just like. //holy shit????// #i hate this movie but fuck it if they’re not gonna give us more than vague and flat backstories then ig i have to put in the work huh #the staggering difference between liu in mk95 and liu in mk21 continues

[heeheehooho0]

im the vomiter, why so keep it all down?

#emeto #whump art #my stuff #hehe diary esque comic except I’ve also got some teeth out so I’m swollen as fuck. This sucked a little but I was so funny comments at tv #and also it’s great no longer being nauseous after did u know. This happens too much to me I think. #Im still working on the comic it’s going it’s all thumbed I’ve got 3 pages left I’ve been busy :( but it’s going. #I’ll try to finish. At least 2 pgs tomorrow. #This was quick bf bed immediately after this situation thing. I thought it’d be a fun quick doodly comic and it was. Good night now.