It sounds super weird to say that but like. I know what happens when I cant draw for long periods. Traditional art hurts my hand too much. If I cant draw, I get super depressed, and surprise surprise I am also out of my antidepressants so this is just a big fat fucking recipe for disaster
Guess who finally has energy lmao
Anon you literally BLEW MY MIND bc of how right you are and I just. I had. I had to make this it’s so god awful and I spent no time on it and GOD it’s great pls enjoy
It actually wasn’t too long ago (and I wouldn’t think such a lovely message is creepy regardless)! I’m still quite new to Xillia in general, since I had skipped the PS3 generation while it was out, but my summer teaching gave me a nice salary and quarantine stress was just like… time to get a ps3 and play the Tales games I missed. Admittedly not the first time I’ve bought a console just for Tales.
I’m glad a few people seem to have liked it at least. I actually see him as more Aro/Bisexual (though I imagine Elympios had a lot more prejudices against that sort of thing and Rieze Maxia does not, because Jade is just much more open about being bi) than Aro/Ace (Milla on the other hand, is definitely ace while her sister and Aska prove that spirits may have a different concept of sexuality, Milla reads way more ace than them). I think Jude may have actually given Alvin the words that, which again, is a lot of self-projection and wish fulfillment (it would have been so nice to have someone sit me down and explain Everything) and a lot of fun to think of angst-wise. I have, admittedly, been thinking a lot about this asshole and his stupid scarf (which I love), because a large part of his whump is just So Frickin’ Queer-Coded that I just can’t help but dump all my self-projection onto him. Then his attempts to be better, along with some backsliding in Xillia 2, and I was just kind of hopeless about him too. XD
Hopefully soon I’ll get around to editing my short Jude and Alvin fic and typing my short Milla and Alvin fic that are loosely connected, though Jude’s side leans more towards angst with bittersweet and Milla’s is angst and silliness combined, so I’m not sure how well they work together tonally, but oh well. I’ve just been rather swamped with grading video homework lately so I’ve been writing but not much typing. That’s a bit of a lie (not for the past weekend at least, since all I’ve been doing was grading for the past two and a half days, but I’ve had some of these things finished for a while), I’ve just been incredibly lazy with typing anything for a while now (though many thoughts of Alvin have pushed through a bit of that), but messages like these do help with motivation, so thank you!
it is taking all my willpower to not just drop hundreds of dollars on commissions right now
i will try to make this my last post in a while abt antisemitism in the hlvrai fandom bc even i get tired of it but i do think its so funny when goyim are like “oh if i make a shit design please tell me 🥺🥺🥺 i dont want to make someone uncomfortable 😔😔😔” like if someone needs to tell you that your design is a caricature then guess what! you’ve already made someone uncomfortable. you’ve already made someone nauseous and upset. you’ve already made someone feel unsafe. and fun fact: usually that ‘someone’ is actually multiple people!
and if multiple people already feel unsafe, nauseous and upset at your art, what the fuck makes you think they would ever feel comfortable talking to you about it? this is why we spread posts educating about antisemitic caricatures– not so you can be like ‘please tell me if i do this!’ but so YOU can look at YOUR art BEFORE you draw or post it and realize that you’re making something harmful.
it shouldn’t be jews jobs to clean up after you shit on us.
hmmm. yeah you know what, im gotta invest myself in cyberverse neets more now :/
feeling what I can only describe as quiet rn, quietly contemplative I suppose, and I wish I had the language or art skills or something to fully express that.
had a moment of feeling good about my body when I was getting into the shower this morning, which is astounding considering my history and also the fact that I’m at my highest weight (thanks, depression and also my sister who buys an obscene amount of oreos lmao) and idk I was just thinking about it and some stuff my sister and friend and I talked about this evening. I drew one of my OCs nude, it was half a self portrait tbh because I’ve wanted to practice drawing fat for some time now but never get around to drawing much anymore, and I wanted to capture this moment and portray my exact body shape as something that someone wouldn’t be ashamed of. I wanted the image to be of someone standing around calmly, just quietly thinking about stuff, and I think I pulled it off pretty well? (it’s just too bad I can’t show it off to anyone since it is literally a sketch of my own half naked body and that’s weird to show people LOL)
I have a lot of thoughts, mostly now I’m thinking about my various OCs over the years and how they’ve represented me at the various stages of my life whether I intended for them to or not, and I’m also thinking about how confusing navigating an adult world is, and it is 2:30am so I’m becoming less comprehensible and I do have work today and for the next three days so I really need to go to sleep.
child and duck mock your vengeance plans fancam
one thought, head full
don’t get me wrong i love hetalia dearly and i’m excited for new content but also i want to go back to a week ago when nobody gave a fuck about anything
Me wandering though the hardware store: Chicken wing chicken wing hot dog and bologna-
My brain: Y’know a significant portion of the plot and character issues in the core star wars films could have been solved if the people making executive decisions weren’t racist misogynists.
Me: U right
My Brain: Chicken and Macaroni chillen with my homies
Zagreus or whatever
Wow okay Alicization is really bloody