Tumgik
#now i live blog my existential crisises
milesthecryptid · 4 years
Text
I don't think I've ever hallucinated. But what if my whole life is a hallucination and I'm still inside my own head?
2 notes · View notes
noperopesaredope · 3 years
Text
Ok, so, new (actually pretty old, but I revamped most of it) fic idea!
I remembered this bad boy sitting way in the back of my pile of old fic ideas I nearly went through with, touched it up, and shall now pitch it to all my fellow Varian fans out there! (most of it was original, but then I changed it up because I was inspired by shows like “What If...” and “Loki”, so you may see some similarities, but those ideas were already there a few years before those shows, they just looked a bit different)
This post is long, so if you want to hear about it, just click the read more button.
Plot
So, this fic starts post-series, about 4 months after the finale (maybe more). Varian finds some old Demanitus designs (or maybe a hidden room full of weird equipment), and Varian being Varian decides to build it. He ends up making a weird mask and glove (the glove has a weird circle symbol on it with a couple of runes). He ends up somehow pricking his finger and some of his blood drips on the center of the circle. Varian thinks nothing of it and moves on, trying to figure out what the glove/mask can do and how he can activate them.
Suddenly, (while he’s wearing them) they start working, and a smallish portal opens up from underneath him, which he falls through. Suddenly, he’s in a whole new place, very different from anywhere he had ever seen. He begins walking around, exploring, and sees amazing things, like dragons and magic and stuff, just out and about. It’s straight up HIGH fantasy. He’s like an isekai protagonist in a fantasy world.
While Varian’s walking around, he is suddenly attacked by a group of generic monsters, but a mysterious stranger saves him. He thanks the stranger, whose face is covered, and asks if they can tell him where he is. The stranger looks him up and down before saying “far away from your home, Varian. Very far away.” Varian, surprised and a little bit suspicious, asks how this stranger knows his name, and then who they are. The stranger simply says that they are someone who can help him. They introduce themselves as “One”, and request that Varian follow them to safety.
Varian, looking around him, decides that he’d rather just trust One than get stranded, so he follows them. They find a good place to stay for the night, and One asks if they can see Varian’s glove. Varian cauciously hands it over, and One looks it over before handing it back, then decides to explain the situation.
“Varian, have you ever heard of the multiverse theory?”
“Yeah, I read about it in Demanitus’ book. It talks a bit about how there could be infinite universes parallel to our own and each other, each event creating new universes based on the alternate versions of those events. Some universes also work entirely differently from others, or the flow of time is different, so there might be a universe where everyone is a chicken, or a universe where everyone that exists now is living 100 years in the future compared to us. But everything also moves at the same pace. It’s like a time paradox. Sorry, I’m rambling. Why are we talking about the multiverse theory?”
“Well, my young alchemist, what you have there is called a thread jumper. It allows you to jump between universes, and travel the multiverse.”
“Wait, so what you’re saying is, I’m in another universe?”
“Precisely.”
After a small panic attack, One explains that they know all about this kind of stuff, since they have a jumper too, and can help get Varian home. The only problem is, Varian’s jumper isn’t working. One says they know someone who might know how to help, and they walk to a strange hut. One barges into it without knocking, shouting “what’s up Science Bitch” as they entered.
Inside is a guy reading a book, who immediately puts it down to yell at One, shouting “I’M A WIZARD YOU-” before noticing Varian. They stare at each other for a long moment, due to the fact that they are both Varian.
So, introductions are made, short existential crisises are had, and Wizard!Varian sits down to look at OG!Varian’s (That’s what I’m calling our Varian) jumper.
Turns out, Varian’s jumper is a bit weird, and requires a day or two to recharge after a jump, so they have to wait a while for it to charge (it seems that Varian can only travel using his own jumper, and can’t just hold onto One or anything). They all groan at this, but decide to take advantage of this by getting to know each other a bit. Wizard!Varian and One already know each other very well, and have a history with the multiverse stuff, but they don’t want to talk about it much with OG!Varian. Instead, they tell him a tad bit more about how some of the stuff works, and ask about his world.
After a few hours of conversation, Wizard!Varian decides to observe the jumper a little more, and finds some more bad news. So, he doesn’t know why, but it doesn’t have settings, so they have no control over where OG!Varian might end up when he teleports. Uh oh. So they might have to do a slightly more old fashioned way; just keep teleporting until they get to the right world. OG!Varian will be able to tell when he’s in the right universe though, so it should be okay! Besides, they can probably find someone to help them fix it since Wizard!Varian can’t.
So, One vows to help get Varian home, and they soon (after it finishes charging) head off. The fic will start out slightly episodic, with a bit of a “universe of the week” type format. In each one, they will meet a different Varian (since this fic is centered around the different Varian AUs. Some crossovers may happen occasionally, but there will always be a Varian there). While they are in each universe, they may end up helping the Varian there in some way or another, and later on in the story, one or two may end up joining the duo.
Eventually, the plot will pick up, and become something a bit bigger, with plenty of lore and character development for the Varians. I already have the bigger idea for the plot and most backstories already planned out in my head, but don’t want to give it away in case I starting making this proper.
Anyways, that’s my fic idea. I call it “Varian!AU” and nobody can make me change the title.
I’m probably gonna add more info and ideas in a reblogged version of this post, so look out for that on my blog!
Hope you guys think this is interesting! I’d like to hear some suggestions for AUs I could include (I already have a long list, but I want to see some other stuff people come up with)!
10 notes · View notes
zoesmcsmstuff · 6 years
Note
ivor for the character question thing
Do I like them?I run an RP blog for him and lost sleep for a month over being worried he was going to be axed off I love him VERY VERY MUCH and would die for him and my friends get to hear this several times a day it’s a wonder I still have any friends
5 Good QualitiesI like his hair and general design he’s adorable ᵃˡˢᵒ ʰᵉˢ ʰᵒᵗI love his voice a lot it’s perfect and greatI really love how he’s an angry loner but he’s still so lovableHe always makes me smile tbhI love how his moral compass is like kind of nonexistent
3 Bad QualitiesI’m sorry but I still can’t get behind some of what he does in ep1 like the “NOTHING BUILT CAN LAST FOREVER GABRIEL” and the “and i DON’T LIKE SURPRISES” lines seem weird and awkward to me that and evilly laughing towards the camera like yeah some of his dialogue makes sense once you know the Order were frauds but some of it is still ehIt’s not his fault but I feel like having him respawn in his underwear is pointless and doesn’t make any sense except for just having a quick joke which isn’t consistent with everyone else like cmon everyone else spawns with their clothes? I guess the point is I love how cute and lovable he is in the adventure pass but I wish ep8 didn’t degrade him to nothing more but comic reliefI literally cannot think of a third quality I love him so much
Favourite EpisodeEpisode 5 gives him a lot of time in the spotlight and he’s super precious and we get to see him when he isn’t super weighed down by the Order and the Witherstorm and stuff and it’s a breath of fresh air and always brings a smile to my face without fail, Episode 6 he doesn’t get as much screentime, Episode 7 I don’t really like him that much there, Episode 8 is nice, Episodes 1-4 eh we don’t really get to see him when he’s not being angry so episode 5 is definitely my favourite episode for him
OTPIsor hits me with those good old married couple vibes and I lov it so much
BROTPI don’t like romantic ivarper at all but I REALLY like them being friends and adventuring buddies
OT3I don’t really have an OT3 but back when only the first for episodes of season 1 was a thing I liked the idea of Gabriel + Soren + Ivor
NOTPdon’t wanna kick up shit so
Best QuoteWhy are you making me choose now I have to grab loads there’s probably more that I left out because I don’t want too many
“And sometimes, strange old men just like tricking people into doing all their housework!““Now go away! All this opening up is making me grossly uncomfortable.”“But that clucking thing is what we came for!”“So I’m guessing calling dibs on his inventory would be...““You’d better not be toying with me.”“HAHA, ADVENTURE!”“This one’s on you, you puffed-up-fool!”“I was hoping for a chance to observe their behaviour--““Jesse, all I wanted was what any man wants: a little house of my own... with loads of lava pouring off it.““Don’t go getting any funny ideas BLOND GUY! This isn’t because I like you or anything.”“Endless research into the cracks in reality... The artifacts that shape and bend the “rules” as we know them.““They’re just jealous that I’ve got VISION while they’ve got, they’ve got... ...“Community planning.” Blech.““HELLO!! IT IS NICE TO MEET YOU!!”“Long live my lava house! LONG LIVE LAVA!”“Keeep walking! Keeeeeep WALKING!”
A HeadcanonA big general headcanon I have is that Ivor probably questions reality a lot and wonders why the world works like it does (why do the trees grow suddenly?? why do the clouds exist?? why do structures exist that no one built?? why do you find really fucked up villages??) 
I like to think he’d have existential crisises a lot especially when in the Far Lands because he’s got the biggest piece of evidence that his life and nothing else is real is right there in his face 
He asks himself existential questions a lot and is kind of resigned to the idea that he’ll probably never find the answers because no one can answer them only comfort him
I feel like he’ll discover that he’s in a game at some point and just feel satisfied knowing he was right but also a sense of hopelessness because He Doesn’t Exist and his actions and life depend on the actions of someone 
yeah big headcanon but I LOVE IVOR 10/10
7 notes · View notes
milesthecryptid · 4 years
Text
Someone just tried to steal a straightener from my wife's work. What if this is the point people start to loot and riot? What if this is the tipping point for all stores to close their doors, making people fight for food and their existence?
This could be the collapse of our society... and it is terrifying...
2 notes · View notes
milesthecryptid · 4 years
Text
I don't know if it is just my tinnitus or I'm having an existential crisis about my actions being controlled by the chemicals being released inside my brain. Like organisms are just a means to an end for the chemicals to feel things, for each individual atom to interact on a molecular level. We're all just a product of atoms wanting to wiggle near each other
1 note · View note
milesthecryptid · 4 years
Text
I wonder how much of my niceness is just a offensive defence method, where I make people happy so that they're less likely to be mad later
1 note · View note
milesthecryptid · 4 years
Text
Is there a right reason to find things funny? Flooring and thinking existential
0 notes
milesthecryptid · 4 years
Text
I just saw a mink for the first time. They were just an abstract concept in my mind before. I knew they existed, but not what they looked like.
And they look exactly like a mink stole. It stands to reason, but it is never been a question in my mind. My brain did not have the space left to process something so world changing!
0 notes
milesthecryptid · 4 years
Text
Do I think the right thing in reaction to my experiences?
0 notes
milesthecryptid · 4 years
Text
How many people have started a blog on here and thought they were going to show off some art and maybe reblog something funny, but are now just spilling out whatever nonsense their brain feels like. Because, same.
0 notes