#now i’m sad about both of them

[goldensunset]

surprise art attack!!! here’s @deityofhearts ‘s cashmere, everyone’s favorite whimsical tiefling

#pose taken directly from the kikuomiku4 album cover bc i’ve been listening to UFO on repeat for idk how many days now #finally gave me the inspiration i needed to do something like this it’s like both sad and super whimsical #actually tbh it gives me more wishful vibes now that i think about it but 1. idk what wishful looks like and 2. cashmere design my beloved #kikuo just in general has a lot of whimsysad and/or fundark which is why i love him #tbh ufo has quickly shot up to one of my fave songs it’s the iconic accordion and the tempo being unstable in places #uh anyway ignore me being a kikuo nerd again #wahhh this was fun to work on it has consumed me these past three days #jumping up and down hehehehehe #glad i finally cut to the ‘it’s done *collapses*’ stage of the arting process bc i’ve been having trouble finishing pieces lately #man i WISH i could come up with poses this good on my own. idc i’m still proud of this #my art #ok yeah i just got the time total. 12 hours #i knew it would be a long time but i didn’t think that long #tbh a lot of that was spent inefficiently bc i kept having to resize the image up when i realized the pixels were too crunchy #and when you make an image bigger the lines get blurry so then you have to redo them. yeah i had to do that TWICE. like a dummy. #12 hours used to be like par for the course for me but i’ve finally gotten faster. or maybe i’ve just stopped doing as many full figures #lol

[olisephart]

I’m rewatching @jelloapocalypse ‘s Tellius playthroughs once more and man. I simply adore the character quirks Yam gives Soren. Gay little mage boy my beloved

#ikesoren #fire emblem path of radiance #fire emblem radiant dawn #ike fire emblem #soren fire emblem #olisephart #tellius #fe9/10 #the sing song yelling of summary is so cute. couldn’t get the visual out of my head #there’s so many other running jokes I want to draw #goldoa being the most obvious but #there was something else in ep 6 of por I think. I’ll have to check #anyway it cracks me up so much. made me love the tellius games in the first place #it’s so sad rd is missing a good chunk of episodes #I somehow remembered that they were uploaded somewhere after all but that was sadly just wishful thinking #oh well. still a couple (many) hours to go until I have to face that problem again #I’m not deleting tags now but ON THE NOTE OF THE COOL VOICE ACTING AGAIN #I adore will’s Titania voice as well as jello’s ike #like. I have heard both characters’ voices in heroes but whenever I think about them it’s these guys not their heroes va’s I hear #it’s so sad Titania (and soren) are virtually unusable in heroes in their base form. too old and bad refines #okay that’s enough now if anyone is still reading this go watch the playthrough on twitch

[itspileofgoodthings]

the thing is life continues to be hard and brutal and test me in some really painful ways but also I’m doing soooooooooo much better than I was a year ago because so many things have changed that needed to change and my coping skills are better, my sense of self is more stable, my relationships are more stable. so like so much to be thankful about every day even though I almost never am because I’m ungrateful and self-absorbed in the moment.

#all of last year was just everything being upended #change on change on change #and so of course I was like ‘it’s been a year aren’t I DONE now’ #and of course that is not life lol #(The best moment in the Barbie movie really was the ‘life IS change’ line) #but also sometimes you reap the fruit of hard things #and moving out and starting counseling #have both been huge #as things I needed and NEVER wanted #but I feel so glad for them now #and also just some of the stuff both of those changes have pushed me to examine #has led me to be so much more stable #overall I think #and like/ I’m still not happy all the time lol #there are things that are breaking my heart #and because I’m me there’s things that are breaking my heart that I know and things I’m probably not aware of #but I really do think some of the biggest things are settling #anyway will I feel terribly horribly sad soon? Yes probably. #But they are countered by these moments where my life feels for the first time like something I want to think about with my whole brain #and something that is enough to fill my whole heart #and it never did before. I was always like ‘yes yes my life that’s so good’ but also I was always trying to look away from it #and lose myself in endless distractions #and even sometimes the most beautiful side quests of my brain were still side quests #because I didn’t want to look at my life straight on #and somehow some equation has flipped and I don’t think of my life last now #or only out of the corner of my eye between my obsessions #out of fear and anxiety. Like I’m on my own kid I can face this! Etc. #and what I see is a life that IS good and has so much for me to do and there is so much to love and I DO have what I need #even if not’s what I ordered from the menu of life ANYWAY this is way more detail than you needed lolllll BUT YEah #just wanted to say it. thank you for listening

[sweetandglovelyart]

Might be showing my age a little bit here, but did any of you guys also play Super Princess Peach on the DS when you were kids? It was one of my favorite DS games when I was younger, and the impending release of Princess Peach Showtime has gotten me thinking about it again. I still have my cartridge for it, and I also still have the original case and instruction booklet that came with it.

Even after all these years it still works too! Can’t believe that this game is almost twenty years old!

#text post #not Kirby #I’m going to be really sad if Princess Peach Showtime ends up being bad #I don’t want to have waited almost two decades for another Peach game only for it to be terrible #I loved Super Princess Peach when I was a kid it was one of my favorite DS games #I think it was also one of my first DS games #the very first ones I remember playing on my DS are this Nintendogs New Super Mario Bros DS and Sonic Rush #I also played Kirby Squeak Squad and Super Star Ultra a lot as a kid Squeak Squad was my first Kirby game #I know people tend to not like Squeak Squad that much in the fandom but I like it even if the whole cake storyline is kind of silly #I played it so much as a kid that I think the soundtrack is permanently embedded into my brain lmao #I have a lot of nostalgia for the DS as a console and also for the Wii #those were like the two main consoles I played games on as a kid they were a big part of my childhood #I have a lot of happy memories of playing games on these consoles they both had a really good selection of games #not sure if anyone else gets this feeling when they revisit games from their childhood #but for me playing through my old childhood games again feels a little like visiting an old friend you haven’t seen in a while #there’s something comforting about it like it’s familiar and it brings back happy memories #I’m glad that I still have all of my old DS games it’s nice to revisit them now and then

[justinefrischmanngf]

it’s not that it makes me sad per se but i really could’ve been dating someone i did actually kind of really want to date since JULY. and now the moment is literally so far gone and i didn’t realise until the moment was so far gone !!!

#like it actually doesnt make me sad because there wouldve been major complications Had we dated #and the person who i trust most in this world has told me theyre glad it didnt happen #and i think in the long run he’s not the First person i should date anyway like in an ideal world we’d date like. 2-3 years on from now when #i’d been in at least one relationship to work out how i operate in a relationship #but it’s also like i wish i had known that the opportunity was there and i wish i had taken it #and part of me goes well maybe in 2-3 years it COULD happen #but i think that does a disservice to the person he’s dating now like . i do hope they’re happy and it goes well for the both of them #AND ALSO ITS WEIRD AS FUCK TO BE LIKE OH WELL MAYBE IN A FEW YEARS ILL DATE THIS PERSON *AFTER* another person?????? #like bitch who do you think u are that you’ll have managed to date ANYONE in that time and also why the fuck would u date someone without #hoping it would last???????? #but thoughts ≠ action nor are they inherently moralistic #but also that’s a weird way 2 think about relationships #it’d be funny if it happened though #idk i just think that if the timing was different he and i could have so much fun dating like genuinely i think it’d be a really good time #but it’s really weird because i’m not pining away after him or anything like ik it sounds like i am #but it’s not like that it’s more just that it’s opened up all these thoughts that i hadn’t really thought possible before ? #and they’re not possible NOW bc he’s dating someone else so i’m in exactly the same position but idk #i think i’m getting too settled. i’m TOO SETTLED. #because it’s literally not normal to think oh maybe in three years we could date and it’d be better timing for both of us ??????????? #unhinged behaviour. what the fuck is that. #it’d be fucking hilarious if it happened tho

[forgetme-eternally-blissfully]

Me reading a cool new novel: hah wow this is cool it has a neat premise and a promising plot line let’s see our protagonist level up and learn how to use his new power in interesting and cool ways—

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and impresses her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and rescues her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her PT 2

Me: Ah nvm it’s a harem novel god damn it

#it was cool at first but now I’m grinding my teeth like wtf #I was okay with it at first bc like. he defeats the beautiful cold hearted prodigy by a hairs breadth and we get this sad backstory for her #which could be better’d by the MC who doesn’t fear her and can teach her how to socialize and become a brighter happier person through their #developing friendship and potentially romantic relationship and it could have led to character development for both of them as they struggle #through the feeling of being cast aside as an ‘other’ by society and learning how to stumble through a relationship that involves #communication and admittance and honesty #something our MC and FL can’t get through their mentors #instead we get her genuine attempts at becoming friends being brushed off by him who assumes she’s going to eventually want a romantic #relationship by the end of it and ARGHHXHHD she’s a shy person!! she’s trying her best!!! you asshole!!!! and then the author has the #AUDACITY #to make her continue yearning after this guy who doesn’t give 2 shits about her and she’s only used as a support character for the #ensuing battle and then he promptly leaves her behind for his own adventure #and don’t even get me STARTED on the lack of compatibility with the other women in this story #they aren’t even being used as potential love interests they’re just there so the author can say he added strong female characters and then #IMMEDIATELY turns around and makes them fawn over this 19 yr guy who cAn pRoTeCt ThEM AnD HEs sO cOoL FUCK #I was holding out but now he just annoys me dude this is why I don’t like reading male lead perspectives if there’s a DROP of romance #it ruins it! romance is dead no one knows what chemistry is they only want to be fawned over by women to stroke their egos #not a reblog

[rosicheeks]

😓🤬

#I fucking hate doctors and the medical field so much #I was FINALLY starting to get on the right path #called a php place and think I know where I’m going #have a therapist I’ve been talking to here and there #I’ve been trying to get into a psych evaluation right? #called 5+ places the other day and they all had 5-8 month long waitlists #I need to get most of this shit done before June #so that ain’t gonna work #called the psych place my doctor referred me to #(would like to add that I did call this same place right after my doctor visit a few months ago and they never called me back) #so I had no hope they were even going to pick up #I was shocked when I heard someone picked up and even more shocked when they said they had an opening for fucking Wednesday #literally I felt like everything was finally aligning #I scheduled the appt for a zoom meeting at 10am #then I get a bunch of random emails saying my appointment was changed #now I have two different appointments- Wednesday and Thursday both at 9am and with a totally different doctor #so I was like???? ok guessing something happened but I didn’t think much of it - called to figure out what day it actually is #when I called to confirm they told me that I can’t be tested until I get an internal referral #I told them I did get a referral??? #they looked at it and it was just a referral for depression not adhd or anything else #but then when they looked more into it they found in the notes she wanted me to get adhd testing #SO she just forgot to add it to my referral #I get people make mistakes #but this is like the 4th time something like this has happened lately #I’m just trying to be healthy #and it is fucking RIDICULOUS how incredibly hard it is to find the proper help #also the girl yesterday when I made the appointment said yes to all my questions but sounds like she doesn’t know what she’s talking about #was like ‘does this test for adhd and autism?’ ‘yeah for sure’ and then I find out they don’t even test for autism #so now I have to find a totally different person to either do both or just test for autism #either way I feel incredibly disheartened and overwhelmed and sad

[killsaki]

i feel bad for jjk and mha readers .. those mangaka’s hate us fr

#star speaks. #i give up on both. i’m so done #gege doesn’t even like his own characters enough to give them ANY filler #there’s NO breathing room after a shitty ‘game’ arc he dragged us through for no reason #and now he’s gonna kill off gojo. which we know he doesn’t care about because he’s SAID he hates gojo #and horikoshi… just fucking sucks i hate that guy #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #mha spoilers #mha manga spoilers #everything i learn about these mangas is against my will. i didn’t want to know that megumi is sukuna’s vessel now #i didn’t want to know that gojo got unsealed is getting set up to die #i didn’t want to know that dabi lost an arm and is going to die. #i didn’t want to know because it hurts. fuck those guys smh #FUCK WAKUI TOO ! for that bullshit ass ending #omg all these guys suck #fucking kny was sad as hell but it MADE SENSE!

[mars-ipan]

ooobgh the lonelyfulness persists

#marzi speaks #that ‘the scaryfulness persists’ post wormed its way into my brain if u can’t tell #anyways. my close roommate n probs bestie here is abt to get a boyfriend #(albiet in the world’s most stressful manner it is some telenovela shit) #so now she’s gonna sleep in here even LESS than usual #and it’s making me sad. i like sleeping near the people i care about #i like that proximity a lot. #AND bc she’s gonna start dating this guy she’ll have less time for me. :( #ok that one’s irrational i’m friends with them both but STILL i’ve NEVER had that insecurity before #this is coupling with the I Am Single loneliness and the I Am Homesick loneliness #and forming a trifecta of I Need Emotional Intimacy So Bad loneliness #touch starved? yes a bit. but mostly just proximity to loved ones starved

[jimmyandthegiraffes]

Absolutely weeping over a 60s tv show nobody else cares about

#I don’t know. there’s a lot to unpack #I just watched the one with the aviary #and I’m just rly emo abt jeannie/marty #they are both so fucking unhappy sometimes #I feel like sometimes it’s easy for the audience and for Jeff to forget that like #he’s dead. to Jeannie he’s dead!! #esp since in the last couple of eps Marty has been so serious and not in like. his usual panic-at-everything way #but in a way that to me suggests that he’s just. really unhappy #him being excited to show Jeff he can move a cup and then Jeff dismissing it #and I feel like it discourages Marty bc he ends up thinking yea whatever he’s right it is a stupid thing to be proud of #and then obvs Jeff is like okay now I’m gonna have ur wife flirt with some other guy like #nooo stop that’s the thing he’s SENSITIVE about lol #even tho I firmly believe that Jeff is right when he says that Jeannie should move on #I just don’t think it’s time yet #idk I should channel this energy into fanfic lol but I don’t have time rn #so I’m just. spilling thoughts everywhere #the fact that Jean is consistently SO vulnerable to manipulation when it comes to Marty #and the fact that Pete and her other friends either are oblivious to that or just don’t care #like in that fucking party where she’s sat on her own and she’s So fucking sad #and none of them go to see if she’s okay #and when she’s like hey I’d Really rather not do any kind of seance shit #they’re just like whatever come on don’t wimp out #like. they know of course they know. they KNOW she was bereaved recently #why don’t they listen to her when she expresses discomfort #like obviously it’s good for Marty that she goes along with it in the end #but they still shouldn’t be pressing her on something which is CLEARLY an upsetting subject for her #idek!! #anyway whatever #this is merely a FRACTION of my thoughts. I am thinking abt this show SO hard lol #randall and hopkirk deceased

[releaseholiday]

#fell asleep feeling sad woke up feeling sad sigh #the way tour was the opposite of what I hoped it’d be for Louis #the way nothing has changed and he still has his label telling him what to do even tho he doesn’t see any sense in it #he says he’s the most confident and open he’s ever been and all I see is him grasping at what he has now bc he finally got what he wanted #and now hes scared he might lose it if he does something wrong #that’s both hl btw #it just feels like all these people who told them this is the only way they’ll be successful are winning bc hl are believing them now #and it sucks so much #☹️ #and on top of everything you have the fandom turning a blind eye on everything and acting like everything is normal #Louis is talking about a 7 yo random child at every interview #Harry is associating himself with a narcissistic piece of shit #they’re both laughing about people making them uncomfortable and glorifying drugs #and people think they have their lives under control lol #and like I know it’s not their fault bc none of this would be happening if they hadn’t been manipulated and treated like shit #when they were children #but I’m just thinking about younger them and feeling so sad bc that’s so not the life they wanted for themselves #even with all the tours and awards and everything #anyway I’m gonna try to dissociate now lol

[alypagemage]

Oh my god, I just had a thought…

…what if, when Raist finally visits the Inn after all those years and of course Tika and Caramon are pissed and there’s tons of fighting

And then Tas is like, “I know what’ll solve this - a wedding!”

And everyone stares at Tas until he explains that he meant that Tika and Caramon should have a second wedding, one that includes Raistlin. That way they can reconcile because, in Tas’s view, ‘weddings are a beautiful and joyous occasion that bring family together!’

Awww I can just imagine Raist standing by Caramons side. He’s still wearing his wizard robes of course but he’s jazzed them up with a scarf draped over his shoulders (kinda like the look Loki wore in the museum scene in Avengers, you know the one) and trying his best to look grumpy but there’s a hint of a smile on his face but he’s half hiding it in the shadow of his hood and also his hair). And of course Tas has to be the ring bearer.

…yeah I’m probably definitely gonna draw this later.

#dragonlance #the last trial #this is the stuff I daydream about folks #don’t judge me XD #I’ve only just read Autumn Twilight #but I have read other bits and pieces too #so besides Tanis and Sturm I don’t know who else would be in the wedding #maybe Flint? #maybe Otis too? #idk #I don’t really mind spoilers so I’m okay with talking about them just so you know #doesn’t mean the character deaths don’t make me sad #I’ve already learned about the whole ‘look Raist bunnies’ thing #and trust me if it makes me just a little bit sad now just wait til I get through all the parts leading up to it #THEN it’ll definitely break my heart #you just watch #poor boys they have such issues TM #*gives them both big bear hugs*

[minakoainosupremacy]

I’m sad, I’ve had a bunch of fun cool ideas sitting in the back of my head since like new years which I wanted to use for rare pair week, but like life has been kicking my ass so I didn’t have time to even start anything and now it’s over :( guess they will just keep living in my head until next year

#this is if I’m also not dying next year… which is unlikely #don’t do what I do. don’t work full time and do school full time. especially when you’re doing a dual graduate degree program. I’m in hell #brain screams #it especially makes me sad cause when I started writing fics in the summer it made me SO happy to be writing again!!! #especially about sailor moon!!! one of my special intrests and fav shows of all time!! it makes my brain SO HAPPY!!! #as I keep telling myself - just cause I don’t make these things now doesn’t mean I can do them in the future. my ideas will still be there #I can write the fics I want and finish the YouRube videos I’ve started. I can make silly little doodles and comics and short animations #I can take my Venus plus on hikes and exploring and to wonderful places!! we can go to museums and cafes and concerts!! #we can go to the ocean and climb mountains and get lost in the forest and get muddy and wet and cold and sit by campfires and climb on logs #I can take my not fully fleshed out idea of using her and my other plushes to make a sort of live action stop motion skit video!! #I want to be creative and free and have fun and live my life and pursue my passions!! #but rn… all i do is work. work and homework and class and homework. until I’m so fatigued I can’t walk and I can’t sleep and I can’t think #to be real watching the anime and having the codename: sailor v and stars arc of the manga is like one of the few things getting me through #when I’m so tired I can’t think I have those as comforts so I’m not sitting on the couch wanting to die #I find so much comfort in existing in the space of this fictional universe and I draw strength from the characters #like sailor moon helping me get through some of the hardest fucking shit I’ve ever done in my life. and helping me remember to love myself #also lowkey helping me fight off my depression and ed and substance abuse issues #I just both get so much joy and comfort from this space but also I feel I owe it so much gratitude for kinda helping me from crumbling #I want to also contribute to this space cause it gives me joy to do so and cause i want to give back and contribute to others joy as well #like it’s a combo of I love this and want to and also as a form of gratitude i want to and also to help others experience joy I want to #but… I don’t have the time or energy now. and if my life keeps going on like this. will I ever? I’ve never let myself slow down. #idk if I ever will :( oh well

[peapod20001]

Anyways before I forget again,

Does anyone else have meanings behind oc color pallets? Both for an individual character and when they’re part of a group??

#random post #I can name a couple I think #not in these tags lol I can’t #and I don’t mean like!! ‘they’re all pink cus it means they’re family :>’ I mean like #they all have a certain aesthetic and colors that both 1. fit together nicely and 2. give an idea of their character #hmgmgmhgfjn someone ask about it so I can fucking. talk about it not in tags I am *claws wall* my mind is very active and I need to tone it #the FUCK down fhiddbd #anyways I’m thinking about the blandamores..and fruit dads..poly boyfriends (August) #thinking about the Grimm fam (al and beauty and the rest) al and his triad friend thing #uhm. kinda Séb and fam a bit #god now I’m. thinking about design choices as well as colors #I have thoughts I swear I just. I need you to eat my brain to understand #I need you to ‘warm bodies’ open my skull and slurp my brain meats to pick up what I’m trying to put down #lmao now I’m thinking about how Ozzie. Goose & Blondee (and some of their kids) are practically my only ocs with like. legit clown paint on #well it’s not PAINT it’s their faces but like!! OH THERES CHINTZY THEY HAVE A WHITE FACE #and!!! I can’t think of any more of the top of my head they’re all kinda just. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ solid colored (sad) #lmao where was I uhmmhhg uh #anyways uhm. if I’ve colored an oc before pls ask why I colored them how I did I promise it’s not entirely ‘cus it looks nice :>’ I had at #least some thoughts about it 😭 #oh and maybe 👉👈 design bits too perhaps #god watch me creatively crash in the next ten minutes lmao ah

[cloneboywonder]

im so CWCcoded

#anyway my apologies for gaslighting you all about not personal diary posting bc my dad just texted me goodnight and it made me sad #him and my mom both tried to call me all day I feel bad when I ignore them #bc I know they’ll be dead someday and they won’t be able to call me and I won’t be able to answer #and my brothers both tried to call me I know my mom narced that I was weird yesterday and now everyones scrambling to keep track of me #it’s very nice of them but I really do hate being reminded that I’m the family member that like #they’ve all quietly agreed is always going to have to be monitored and taken care of #I wouldn’t be surprised if Andy and Alex haven’t talked about who I’m going to going to live by when our parents are both gone #it was kind of funny Andy invited me to like go install a security camera with him today #I said no but I do think it could’ve been a fun experince #I was gonna see my mom but she didn’t want to go out again so I waited around until my dad tried to call me again #so then be brought me with him to a hardware store where he tried (and failed) to return paint or something #we love a schemer #and then we picked up Andy and got milkshakes but I was ill so he got me real food on the way home #but I’m going to have to find a way to throw it out tomorrow bc I didn’t eat that much of it and I don’t want him to be sad about it #and I have to clean my room bc Lydia will be here soon #I was weepy in the car and my dad kept saying it’s nice you’ll get a few days with her before the concert #I know :-( #to some extent I love that he’s so incapable of handling emotional moods bc he just puts on songs and complains about them #bc he knows I like to complain and I think he gets scared when I don’t talk and that’s his attempt at getting me to #I need to finish my costume and make bracelets and clean my room these seem doable #okay bye please don’t unfollow me #also I love the name doxing bc these are for me and me only and maybe burke when he logs on I love you #my posts

[justinefrischmanngf]

HAVE SHIFTS FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS AND BY GOD ARE THEY SEXY!!!!!!!!!!

#got my shifts for next week a couple days ago but now having them both is like #fuck we might be onto something here !!!!!! #guysssss this is good this is really really good #it’s not perfect but it’s very good #i may no longer be teaching one student i really like though and if that’s the case it’ll be rly sad but it might not be the case so fingers #crossed !!!!!!! but my hours r very good out of what could reasonably be asked for #like if i could get slightly more that’d be even better but what this is is fantastic i cannot lie #very very very happy about this and also very relieved #bc if they’re scheduling me in this way then they clearly think i’m doing a good job AND it means there’s less immediate worry abt me #getting another job which is amazing #like i was rly worried that as the term started my hours would take a dip bc people might be more available/they’ve got a better idea of me #so how much do they rly want me around but it hasn’t !!!!! and touch wood everything keeps going smoothly bc i’ve got More hours than ladt #term and that is exactly what i need and have been hoping for #🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿 i dont want to jinx this but my god this is good news