#now i'm self-conscious about it

[tastycitrus]

so i've seen multiple AU stories where cass comes to gotham early, meets one of the other batkids and bonds with them. i've seen several with either jason or tim, and one with steph.

i want to put them all together. an alternate universe where cass comes to gotham early and runs into a bunch of kids who promptly imprint on her like lost ducklings. she doesn't know why they've attached themselves to her; she still can't comprehend language let alone communicate.

#batfamily #batfam #cassandra cain #jason todd #tim drake #stephanie brown #i don't think i've seen anything where cass meets harper or duke early since uh. new continuity hu dis probably #but the scenario i was imagining included them too #cass: *exists* #like half of gotham's child population for some reason: this is my big sister now. #cass (patrick voice): WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE #this has been sitting in my drafts for months and i had a lot more written up #but i'm self-conscious about it so i will not post it.

[manasurge]

Got Mourynn's first fullbody ref done! (I mean first as in chronologically). Not much to say here, just getting some early year fullbody refs done so I can have them to start on some scenes and lore stuff (just gotta finish her Orchid outfit next since that's her main Sapling outfit before she makes her own custom one). I'm also not used to drawing this small so I messed up the face a bit, on the side there, but oh well.

Below the cut is just the line art and the transparent that I'm hoping will work properly on her Hero Panel profile on Toyhouse:

#Mourynn #Mourynn art #sylvari #sylvari OC #gw2 #gw2 OC #gw2 fan submission #the side of her face still bothers the hell out of me; I am so used to drawing on a larger scale and might have to again to avoid this #ugh it looks so awkward and bad; but oh well. Not much I can do about it now. #also I know all i've really been doing lately is refs but #i'll chip away at them slowly. I'm just really self conscious about things I guess lasjkdf #I just kinda have no choice since I can't properly make her in game klasjdf #but I wanna get to actual lore stuff soon so hopefully I can make that happen soon too #I'm also updating her other look to add the Orchid wings back onto it once I get to her custom outfit #I also wanna update that one a bit anyways (I know it'll be the 3rd time of me updating it - #- but these will be my solid refs bc I'll be using them for Toyhouse (just gotta check the sizing). I'll update that a bit later lol.

[sandradoodles]

Part eleven, in which numerous miscalculations are made.

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#miraculous ladybug #marinette dupain-cheng #chat noir #marichat #lovesquare #confessions comic #sandra draws #sometimes I really can't help drawing them like this is a shoujo manga #good job Marinette you made the boy self-conscious #also a note about the update schedule (such as it is) #I've been trying to finish at least two updates per week but the eyestrain is real y'all and I am suffering #especially since my art process means it takes me hours to finish one of these #so I'm lowering my expectations to one update per week for now #and we'll see where that gets us #:( #thanks for your patience

[nimudae]

Some more Lawlu Sky Family ft. stackable Hoshio, using a personal twitter follower milestone as an excuse to draw my son in a hoodie of my favorite pokemon and baby murder bird's emergency pillow ⭐

[Torao stack idea by @law69me]

#one piece #one piece fantart #one piece spoilers #lawlu #lulaw #monkey d. luffy #trafalgar law #one piece oc #lawlu sky family au #nimud.art #to me Law's hat looks soft and fluffy enough to be a pillow ok #currently have a comic prologue for this au halfway done but it's so old now that I'm self conscious about the quality...

[rossithepixie]

There was talk about Suguru having the best ass in jjk on my dash the otherday and since i was already planning on doing pin ups for jjk this is the result. Originally i was gonna draw Satoru first but here we are. Drawing that lace pattern by hand was an act of love for Suguru. There’s no other explanation why i’d do that to myself. (oh god what nonsense am i going to draw for Satoru...)

I feel like my digital art has already come a long way in the last couple months and i think I can confidently say i’ve made the transition from traditional art.

I do commissions!

#rossi art #now i can stop feeling self conscious about my roommate walking in while i'm drawing #there's also a nude version but i don't know where to post it #Suguru geto #geto suguru fanart #geto fanart #jjk fanart #suguru geto fanart

[literallyjusttoa]

How can I stop thinking about him when he is so he shaped.

#I'm not gonna lie I feel like I haven't put enough detail into Lester's acne when I draw him #tbh it's bc I have had really bad acne for years and I didn't like seeing it reflected in my art bc I was so self conscious about it #but I'm trying to accept stuff like that so now Lester gets to have red cheeks all the time just like me #which is actually just caused by rosacea but that just means that Lester totally has rosacea in canon /j #anyways- #trials of apollo #apollart #toa apollo #lester papadopoulos

[heart-forge]

so you're playing an IF an you come across a food choice and you see [food with veggies] and then [same food but with meat]. There's a variety of these options, but they always specify whether it has meat or not.

#talkForge #I'm getting self conscious about the vegetarian choices ;; #idrk why because I generally won't make it a choice between like pork or being a vegetarian #because that one's the lowball of a bad choice set #but that's what I have stuck in my head right now that someone might just choose the veg option because they don't #prefer the listed meat and then up making themselves a vegetarian #not that it even comes up at all but once I think about that #then it becomes kind of existential and we lose the plot a bit dsfkjhdsjkf

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

four walls playlist

#wow i feel weirdly self conscious about sharing this actually 😅 #it's such a random assortment of songs lol #i would like to note that often the music i write to isn’t the same as the music i listen to for me #idk if any other writers here are the same about this?? #but yeah the stuff on this playlist is really just whatever has helped me get into the right mood or headspace for the fic #for example #inhaler is on that list and i find them weirdly good to write to for this fic but also i literally never listen to them in my own time #same goes for coldplay #but then also there are obviously some artists i ADORE with all my heart on that list too (hello mansions and qotsa) #also maybe this is weird but i don't actually listen to a lot of miles/am stuff while i'm writing this fic #the stuff i do is all from just before/after the time period the fic is set #which i find SUPER helpful for getting into their headspaces #and i don't like to muddle it much with things they wrote later if that makes any sense?? #anyway #i'll stop rambling about it now #hope anyone who checks it out enjoys!! 😘 #ps #new chapter of four walls is coming very sooooooooooon! #milex #milex fic #four walls #lulu posts

[ramblesbiab]

hazbin hotel is so weird to me.

When I was an edgy, newly queer teenager and the pilot came out, it was literally fucking everything to me. I rewatched it on a near daily basis. I thought every joke landed, that the animation was amazing, and I had a weird sense of pride that a YouTuber could produce something as amazing as a 30 minute, high quality animation.

Then a few years passed as I watched Helluva Boss excitedly every time it came out. I thought it was great, for a while. Then over time, I was semi-conscious of a decline in quality, that finally set in around when season 2 came out. I stopped watching at that point because I was so bored of it, I missed what it could've been, what it used to be.

At that point, I started seeing more information about the actual Hazbin Hotel show coming soon. On it's own it would have been strange, the lack of excitement about what was my entire personality at one point. Then I started seeing how a lot of accounts on here who I respect and look up to talk about the show.

The true scope of the issues with the show really set in at that point. How unoriginal and childish the jokes were. How their was barely an audience anywhere for it because it didn't know what it was trying to be. It was clear to me that something I once idolized is a wreck.

Then, one of my closest friends with media opinions I heavily respect starts watching the show and talking about how great it is. It's hard to describe the level of whiplash I felt. It felt like I was missing something, y'know? Like there was an inside joke I didn't understand, how could anyone like the bad show. It's bad.

I... still haven't watched the show. I don't have means to watch it except pirating and I genuinely don't feel like putting in the effort to pirate it. Honestly, the greater point of this post is just like - how bad I am at forming my own opinions, because I feel a constant need to be with the crowd.

I know that's a problem. It shouldn't matter how people I respect feel about the show, because if I enjoy it and it's not genuinely problematic, then there's nothing wrong with that. So maybe I would like the show. Maybe I'm in the small audience which I've repeatedly seen referred to as dumb, overly edgy, etc. And maybe I don't want to admit that because I'm hoping I'm not in the minority.

Anyway, that's the end of this long post. Have a nice day.

#hazbin hotel #helluva boss #i know the internet will just #keep being the way it is #but do we have to make such sweeping generalizations #about the audience of things #especially if it's not something genuinely problematic #like I know the show is trashy #I sometimes enjoy trashy things #but I can't now #because I'd feel too self-conscious #and hell #maybe it's for the best that I've been persuaded not to watch it #it could be the worst thing I'd ever see #and now I know to avoid it #the world is complex #and I'm far too simple for it #that's probably my problem #i'll stop writing tags now

[cicadidae-tm9899]

This marks night 7 of staying up until at least 3am reading disco elysium fanfiction. I am so fucking normal right now

#disco elysium #i genuinely feel so fucked up right now #but in a completely different way than usual #like there's the usual pining and loneliness #but there's something else with it too? #idk what I'm talking about #personal..? #i am positive nobody ever reads my tags bc i always end up writing full essays #but i still get self-conscious ab it.. #anyways #i have to sleep #goobnight

[blazingblorbos]

oh god. oh god. oh.. oh gosh. I didn't expect this so soon. I didn't expect this today, I've been busy with life related things so the HYV calendar is really unbeknownst to me, is this update really next week already?? where can I rant about this- whERe can I rant about this-

oh. I made a blog for that exact purpose ! OKAY—!

fuck. fuck me, dude holy-

FUCK.

the slightly worried look on Arle's face as Snezhevna is reaching out her hand, only for her face to seemingly revert back to cold and neutral once the camera actually focuses in on her. Her tone is cold but her words are reassuring,,,,,,,,

ALSO GOD FUCKING DAMN IT. HOW GENTLY SHE HOLDS HER HAND.

the d o o r. the DOOR. THE FUCKING DOOR, CHAT. the slow opening at first, and once you can make out that it's certainly Arle's silhouette she shoves it fully open - both doors, both hands. incredibly attractive—. the FEAR in that man's eyes.

The crossed hands. We can't see her face but you know what expression she's making (it's not really an expression. it's neutral but you can feel it). THE FUCKING F E A R ON THAT MAN'S FACE.

Oh- she literally just grabbed him by the throat. Just like that- ! There's the expression. Oh, you feel it, alright. If you go frame by frame, you'll notice her eyes narrow in the slightest right before ->

POV: you're getting chocked out by Arlecchino, and that's actually the least of your worries. (my god she is beautiful).

I did not expect him to simply be thrown down to the ground and I ... d i d not expect her to step on his FACE. [insert gay masochistic joke here. you know the one]. Did not expect her to smile (this is the ONLY scene wherein we see her smile even slightly... huh...) *And the reason I say "I did not expect her to smile", is because with the momentum we were getting I thought she was straight up going to crush his throat, or stab him (hand, weapon or otherwise). It looked like she was digging the forefoot of her shoe into the guys head and not the... .. y'know deadly fucking heel, so that.. confused me. (and the sound when she supposedly stomped his head in did NOT sound all that impactful) but ANYWAYS I digress-

I'm of course assuming more happened after the cut to black because . madam where did you get that bloodstain on you—

BLOODSTAIN ON HER FACE!?!?!? (more on this in a second)

Freminet??? Freminet feature ! (not Lyney or Lynette.. interesting). :(((( the poor boy sounds so,, desensitized. His father

holy shit quick intermission. After the mental chronological fuckfest that was "The Song Burning in the Embers" I don't think I can look at Arle and the HotH the same anymore because she's.. she's like not even 10 years older than them (?) it's insane this doesn't make any sense- ANYWAYS.

HIS FATHER comes back with what we later see to be real blood on her face. Tells him "I've acquired new funds". We know what that means... HE knows what that means!!, and the way WE - THE AUDIENCE - know that Freminet knows what it means is because the boy replies "Oh.. Okay.."

LIKE-! chat omg this is truly just routine for them,,,, Like out of the 3 siblings, Freminet always gave off the biggest child assassin vibe, but wow. To see that routine and desensitized nature of the HotH's line of work just,, splayed out in a Character Trailer is . wow. and the look in his eyes as he says it is- wow.

YEAH UHH BLOODSTAIN ON HER FACE??/ The lighting in this scene now is evidently less saturated. And it's just- oh my FUCKING GOD it does so many things:

the blood on Arle's face looks... dry. it doesn't look as fresh as you may expect which could mean many things. It could mean she spent,,, hella long in there with that guy doing what needed to be done. It could mean she took care to something else immediately after dealing with the guy (perhaps smth related to the children Snezhevna wanted to save). But regardless it means she didn't put in the effort to clean her face and hide what happened. OBVIOUSLY !!! that is so . obviously her style but to S E E IT IN MY GENSHIN IMPACT CHARACTER TRAILER it's- oh my god

it serves to highlight the really, truly, bleak nature of the scene now that we know plain and simple Arlecchino just killed a man. There's no subtext, there's no reading between the lines. The only thing that didn't happen is that we didn't see contact nor see a body. But, no sugarcoating, Arlecchino killed a man. No one is hiding it. You are not surprised. No one should be but damn.

and ofc it acts as a representation of Snezhevna dying...

because it seems like the saturation is back once the camera switches to looking at Snezhevna laying in bed.

And is it me, or does it look like Arle's allowing herself to actually display a tinge of worry in her expression this time? And also, EVER so slightly in her tone as well. You can feel it, it's gentler.

"Once I'm better I'll start my next mission.."

THIS. THIS!! IN SO MANY WAYS THIS!

OKAY. so bear with me. I haven't actually read any of the sibling's character stories yet, so there could be a LOT of info I'm missing but:

There's still a pretty thought-provoking conversation going on (in MY mind, at least) about just how intensely these children are being trailed to be soldiers for the Fatui. They're obviously in an environment that indoctrinates them into being soldiers of SOME kind, but I still don't know what kind of soldier that's supposed to be. Are they all ALWAYS extensions of the Fatui? Or are they more-so extensions of Arlecchino specifically..? Snezhevna was obviously trying to help those children she came across, and I'm assuming that happened on her latest mission, so was the mission for a charitable cause?? What was her next mission supposed to be?? Same line of work? Saving people? Or would it switch up and was she going to be sent to "take care of" (kill .) someone???

So I don't know whether to interpret that line as a hint of them being overworked and 1) feeling like they need to continue their work out of pure fear that they'll be deemed ineffective and useless... or 2) feeling like they need to continue their work out of a sense of loyalty and duty to the place that took them in and raised them. Or both..

and ofc the funeral scene. I can't say much more than what's already shown right on the screen.

and am I bugging? Or is the location of the grave....

#LONG post #first of all. I am kissing Genshin Impact's (HoYovere's entire) artstyle on the mouth. #second of all #Erin Yvette #oh my god Erin Yvette. #the 'My child...' line.. what if I literally blow up the world I'm going to explode #Arlecchino is drop dead gorgeous in this. That's a given but what kind of gay person would I be if I didn't say it anyway #it's always a given with their trailers. A l w a y s. #she's so drop dead handsome oh my god I fucking hate gender #blazingramble #holy shit new tag wtf #I try not to do these on here often but... #meh. my blog #I needed a place to write it down and I'm honestly getting self-conscious abt using my discord server #I say the kids at the HotH are desensitized 'cause like.. it's FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE that they DON'T know!!!! #they can ACT like they don't !!! sure! repression is very real and these kids are exposed to a LOT of trauma. Yes #but they are NOT FUCKING IGNORANT about it #the older ones at least; of course the younger they are the more likely they're sheltered from the Fatui's violent practices #like Lyney Lynette Freminet and other kids their age are child assassins. Now I'm PRETTY FUCKIN CONFIDENT they've killed people #like it wasn't hard to believe before but (and remember I haven't read their character stories) before it was mostly believable conjecture #I can't get over the scene where she returns to the bed #Arlecchino #genshin impact #genshin #genshin arlecchino #the knave #Genshin the knave #blazingshitpost genshin edition #blazingshitpost #Youtube

[hikarinokusari]

WIP.

I’m feeling low, so polishing this one will take a while as well. I still need to fix things and figure out the palette. I like dancing. Dancing is good. Mirroring scenes between Strahd and Vasili is fun to me, even if things go unnoticed by like 2/3 of the party.

Ft :@xyanmajor’s character. Again. I’m sorry, I’ll stop bothering you after this one.

Credit : I used a base by @Rom_romi00 I found on pinterest because I didn't want to fight anatomy. But, I couldn't trace back an account with this @ on twitter so if any of you happens to know if the owner changed url, I'll gladly add the link to their account n_n

#art #not my character #vasili von holtz #khal corvara #vasili still is not my character he is an NPC lol #sad DM life #my art #wip #to polish later #not tagging curse of strahd because I feel self conscious about being a bother in the tag whenever I post #not their canonic clothes but it is fun to change clothes and not to give a fuck from times to times #now i'm crawling back to listening to audio book and stare at myst sleeping in his little cozy bed

[masteraqua]

i just rewatched puss in boots the last wish after seeing wish yesterday and just. like.

it's insane to me how similar they are in terms of themes and subject matter (wishes, fairytales, etc.) but where one of them is realized with groundbreaking visual artistry and a gripping story rooted in potent human experiences, the other rings hollow and flat, both visually and narratively, in its cynical, weak-willed pursuit of corporatized nostalgia.

#i'm so exhausted with disney trying to simultaneously manufacture nostalgia for their beloved animated films #while also trying to undermine the themes that make those stories so enduring #it reads as pathetically self-conscious and i hate it #making fun of the disney princess trope in moana #making fun of the princesses themselves in ralph breaks the internet #and now whatever the hell was going on in wish #every single story about dreams and wishes is wrapped in ten layers of cynical irony lest anyone develop a sincere connection with it #we've reached critical cynicism for the love of god someone people push the pendulum back in the other direction

[prolibytherium]

Writing and suddenly realizing I have unwittingly established a coherent metaphor that ties several plotlines together thematically COMPLETELY by accident

#That's pretty much always how it is for me like any metaphors/other symbolic structures I set out with INTENTIONALLY usually end up being #shitty or irrelevant meanwhile stuff that just manifests on its own is actually coherent and solid #It's awesome. Love to share someday if I were not terminally self-conscious about writing #I think I'm like.... technically competent (not great but not bad) and maybe notably decent at being funny but any time I have to share #anything publicly it's like DON'T FUCKING LOOK AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #Creative writing classes were hell for me #I did share some stuff here on my prev account but it was straight up bad I'm better now

[campwillowpeak]

I like how all the other Yan boys have their own gimmicks like

Ren: Self aware hacker boy that can change the code of his own game

Alan: Assassin unable to feel pain

Ezra: Access to all kinds of government perks with his job

SDJ: An actual ghost

Casanova: An actual demon

Friend: Whatever the heck is going on with him

And then there's Harper

Just a kind of tall, fire loving, gremlin man who plays video games and cooks

In all fairness Harper is also pretty strong and hella durable himself so there's that?

And I think his pyromania could also count as kinda a gimmick yeah?

Idk... I just think he's neat .w.

#Lol now I'm feelin self conscious about my yan boi compared to the others XD

[mookybear12404]

There's a deaf guy that works at my university's cafeteria, and I've been dying to try and have a conversation with him with years, but he's almost always at the dishwashing station and turned away from me, so I've never gotten a chance to. This semester I've seen him more frequently at food service, so I've had the chance to have a few very brief interactions, (using ASL to order instead of pointing like most students do) but today I ran into him at dishwashing again and he recognized me, and I had my first ever full conversation in ASL 😭 I got to ask his name, found out he'd been working there six year and that his son worked there too. He taught me some more ASL (like how to say "Happy Friday!") and I'm SO happy AHHH

#I'm super self conscious about my sign #but he's always been so nice about it #its the longest conversation I've ever had and now I feel so much more confident #mooky talks