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giverofempathy · 1 year
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watching the muppets (2011) and drawing patterns for my new costume :) a great and peaceful sunday afternoon! i hope you are all well 🌲🕯️🩷🫂🪡
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muirneach · 2 years
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lets hear it for sleeping straight through period one and half of period two 😵‍💫😵‍💫
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lilirari · 4 months
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🏍️ everyone's favourite biker couple is out on a nye bike date
💌 biker! oscar piastri x biker! fem! reader (social media au)
💭 author's note : this is very short but i've been having oscar brainrot again (don't i always ?) and idk how but i'm always on the biker side of instagram these days so i just decided to put these two together and feed my own delusions hehe. anyways this is my last smau for this year ! thank you all for making 2023 fun and memorable <3 see you next year ;)
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🎶 slow down : chase atlantic
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yourinstagram i ❤️ bikers (oscar)
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yourinstagram we don't slow down though we like the fast life 😋
-> oscarpiastri we are speed
-> liamlawson30 the lightning mcqueen dialogue summoned me
yourinstagram also LS2 helmets in the last slide for logansargeant 🤭
-> logansargeant glad to know that y'all still remember me 😐
oscarpiastri my pretty girl
oscarpiastri step on me
-> yourinstagram what
-> oscarpiastri what
-> user81 LMAO HE'S WILDINNNN
oscarpiastri mine mine mine
oscarpiastri god you look so fine in that first picture
oscarpiastri did you have to include that picture of me swinging though 😞
-> yourinstagram ofc ! you look so cute 🥹
-> yourinstagram (he fell down right after this picture was taken btw)
-> oscarpiastri hey now you don't have to mention that
-> user44 NOT Y/N SNITCHING ON HIM LMAO
yourbestie GIRL YOU LOOK SO FINEEEE SO SLAYFUL
yourbestie ABSOLUTELY ATE !!!!
-> yourinstagram I LOVE YOUUUUU my hype girl 🫶
yourbestie THAT'S MY GF Y'ALL
-> oscarpiastri that's MY gf 🤨
-> yourinstagram chill guys there's enough y/n for everyone
-> oscarpiastri yeah well i don't share though 💁🏻‍♂️
-> yourinstagram why did i find that extremely hot
-> oscarpiastri you're extremely hot
-> yourbestie oh no nvm guys please don't start making out in the comments
logansargeant not giving this post a like because i'm a hater !!!!
-> yourinstagram is it bc we didn't invite you
-> logansargeant what else do you think it is 😒
-> yourinstagram logan pookie we're sorry 😭 but it was just meant to be an us thing today
-> yourinstagram we even wore the helmets with your initials man
-> yourinstagram we'll call you on our next ride, aight ?
-> logansargeant fine 😐
user16 ughhh y/n's an absolute goddess
user55 THAT OUTFIT THOUGH ??? SLAY QUEEN
user02 the LS2 helmets are so cute :(
user20 OMG SLOW DOWN AS THE SONG ARGGHHH
user22 YNOSCAR ARE SO CHASE ATLANTIC CODED 😩😩
user23 OSCAR LOOKS SO HOT IN THAT FOURTH SLIDE WHAT
user63 SHE SAID FVCK ME LIKE I'M FAMOUS I SAID OKAY 🗣️🗣️🗣️
user24 Y/N ARE YOU A CHASE ATLANTIC FAN
-> yourinstagram YEAHHHHH OFC BRO CHASE ATLANTIC >>>>>>
-> user27 i think i've fallen in love with y/n all over again
-> oscarpiastri user27 same
user04 why's oscar kinda fine..
-> user01 WDYM KINDA HE'S ALWAYS BEEN FINE
-> yourinstagram facts user01 !!!
user03 GOD WHEN IS MY TURN GOING TO COME
user10 MY FAVOURITE BIKER COUPLE 🫶
user11 icb the two hottest people on the planet are dating it all feels surreal
user14 WHERE'S MY BIKER BF 😭😠
user18 i love you both so much 🥹
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oscarpiastri
🎶 ohmami : chase atlantic
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oscarpiastri nye with my baby 🖤
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yourinstagram thank you for making my 2023 worthwhile, oz 🫶
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yourinstagram can't wait to spend another whole year with you <3
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yourinstagram i love you, my favourite boy🤍
-> oscarpiastri i love you, my favourite girl 🖤
logansargeant 🤢🤢👎🏻👎🏻
-> yourinstagram this is the reason why you're still single and why you didn't have anyone to kiss you on nye you HATER
-> user77 HELP Y/N THAT'S SO FOUL
-> logansargeant you didn't have to call me out like this 😧
landonorris that guy on the second slide looks kinda cute
-> oscarpiastri he's taken
-> landonorris aww that's too bad 😞 does his girlfriend want to share him with me ?
-> yourinstagram no his gf does not share 🤍
landonorris questionable hand placement on that third slide though 🤨
-> logansargeant no seriously why is she grabbing him like that 😧
-> yourinstagram it's comfortable 🤭
-> oscarpiastri your single arses won't know how it feels like to be touched by a woman
-> landonorris ok foul 💀
-> logansargeant you guys are such haters #ynoscarsinglephobic
-> user30 SINGLEPHOBIC PLEASE IM CRYING
-> user05 nah fr they're giving us singles too much pain it's time to cancel ynoscar
user08 I WANT WHAT THEY HAVEEEE 😭😭
user14 again... WHERE THE FRICK IS MY BIKER BF HUHHH
user06 God i see what you've done for others
user47 THE HAND PLACEMENT ON THE THIRD SLIDE GAWDDAMN
user66 i so badly want to be y/n in the third slide
user58 ynoscar do you want a dog i can bark
user49 i feel faint after seeing these pictures
user07 dayummm oscahhhhh
user56 that fourth picture 😩😩😩😩😩 (aggresive slamming on the desk)
user84 i too want to be carried around by oscar
user34 THE KING AND QUEEN OF BIKERTOK AND BIKESTAGRAM
user09 he's such a cutie patootie look at his bread cheeks in the 2nd slide ☹️
user21 the way they're looking into each other's eyes in the last slide 🥹🥹🥹
user95 ynoscar >>>>>>>> any other couple
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kissitbttr · 4 months
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ANA! ANA MY LUV!! idk much about miguel (a travesty i knoeww) but i saw ur fratboy post n now i cant stop drooling at the idea of fratboy!miguel introducing u to his frat buddies!! being so possessive: holding ur waist or pulling u to his lap; kissing ur neck even when his friends are right there. oh my goddd im gonna sob hes so!!!
SUNNY?! I AM BITING MY FIST OMG HE’D SOOO FREAKING POSSESSIVE UGH I LOVE IT WHEN YOU ARE RIGHT
bby you HAVE to hop on the miguel simp train!! HE IS SO FINEEEE😩😩
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it was around after the third date when miguel nervously asked you to come to the frat house to meet his brothers. he didn’t want to overwhelm you of course, he knew how annoying and pushy his brothers could be but still, he would love for them to get to know you just as he had when he was with you,
you saw how nervous he got, but you assured him by squeezing his hand and telling him that you were okay with that. he smiled in return, kissing you softly on the lips as a thank you,
“i never express any gratitude towards anyone in my life except my parents but i want to thank you so much for finally saying yes, it was fucking annoying to hear him yapping about you non-stop. all of us had enough of his corny shit”
one of his frat brothers, glen had mentioned. feigning a relief expression while he smirked at miguel who gave him the finger,
“i literally thanked Jesus when i heard him going on a date with you, y/n! you are our life savior”
miguel threw his head back in annoyance, groaning at how his frat brothers continued to spill his secrets. but you giggled instead, looking over at him who avoided your gaze out of pure embarrassment.
“what else did he do?”
miguel shot you a warning look, “don’t encourage them, muñeca! they’d go all the way out!”
“oh believe me, we have many” beck had answered, playfully snickering at the amount of times miguel had ranted about you. “which one do you want to hear? one where he talked about you while he was high? or one where it was late at night—“
“fuck off, kingsley!” miguel had interrupted before he got too far, in which beck put his hands up in defense.
miguel snaked his arm around your waist, giving your hip three taps to prompt you to sit on his lap which you obliged.
you happily plopped yourself down on one of his thick thighs. he helped you with shifting your body into a comfortable position with your legs crossed.
the rest of the boys sat in the living room, piling in the same area as they all stared at the two of you. millions of questions running through their minds, desperate to know if miguel somehow blackmailed you into agreeing to go out on a date with him or something worse,
miguel sensed the stares from his brothers and, to be frank, it was quite uncomfortable. though he knew for sure they wanted to know the same thing.
“are you guys wondering how i got to take her out or what?”
they all responded with a ‘yes’ in unison, making him rub his temple and you smiled
“so? what did he do, y/n? because i’m starting to think this is a joke”
“could be. i mean, carlos went all 110% for a girl when she rejected his offer the first time” glen shrugged, earning a frown from carlos himself,
“i did not—“
“yes you did. you stood outside of the campus library with a boombox over your head” one boy chimed in while sipping his beer,
“okay see, i was—“
“oh! and remember when he threatened to pull his—“
“shut the fuck up! focus! we’re not here for me but for them!” carlos gestured his hand at both miguel and you. “can we leave my shit behind? that would be great”
carlos's cheeks went beet red as the other guys teased him for it, beck patted him on the back and told him that it was nothing to be ashamed of but carlos only swatted his hand away,
you found it so endearing at how the frat guys were so playful and funny with each other. typical boys will be boys type of thing. they were definitely far more different than when you see them during parties,
“well to be honest, he really didn’t have to do anything” you simply replied, tucking a hair behind your ear. “but definitely persistent, in the most politest way and less creepier though”
“you saying what i did was creepy?” carlos pointed at himself with a defeated look,
“i mean, if you had to ask then yeah”
the rest erupted in a peal of loud laughter while carlos’s shoulders slouched. propping his back against the chair with his arms crossed, a chorus of ‘see?’ and ‘i told you so’s’ made you laugh,
miguel settled his elbow on the armrest, eyes glinted with adoration whilst his mouth stretched into a lovesick grin. he watched how you managed to pull joy out of them and there’s nothing he’s appreciated more than that,
the way you threw your head back as another cute giggle escaped you while holding onto his shoulder for balance was enough to make his heart ponder,
“man, you’ve got wicked sense of humor, y/n—say if shit went sideways between the two of you, just know I’m available”
miguel frowned upon hearing that as his nose scrunched up in disgust as he leapt the nearest pillow at his brother’s direction for that comment. he wrapped his arm around your waist far more protectively,
“watch it” he warned, glaring at him. he knew it was a joke but he still didn’t like how that sounded, “i’ll kick your fucking ass, monty”
upon seeing that, your hand moved to find his cheek, lightly tapping his chin with your finger to get him to look at you,
“easy there, big boy” your words soothed him in seconds, especially when he heard his favorite nickname leaving your mouth, "I'm with you"
the confirmation made him giddy and his heart blossomed,
he moved dangerously close to your ear to whisper before kissing the back of it making you giggle. “you look so pretty tonight, muñeca” miguel dragged his fingertips up and down your exposed thigh, then squeezed the soft flesh. “so so pretty— do i get to see you in this dress more often?”
the question came off too excited despite his best trying to hide it, again, if there was nobody around, he'd actually take you right there and then.
you smiled, wrapping your arms around his neck. “but I thought you like me better when i’m naked?”
“oh there’s no doubt about that, mi amor” he winked with a chuckle, “am i… about to get lucky tonight?”
“you might” a seductive response laced on your tone, winking at him as he squeezed your waist before
the boys let out a couple of groans and fake puking sounds at the sight, but the two of you remained still in your element,
''you guys make me sick" glen protested, shaking his head before getting up from the chair to walk away but you caught a small smile on his face,
"jealous you don't have a girlfriend, mayback?" miguel teased at him, glen only threw him the middle finger before cracking another can of beer from the kitchen,
the rest of the boys followed his actions after, not before congratulating miguel on scoring with you.
the word girlfriend made you bulldozed, eyes darted toward his smiling proud face before yours stretched into one as well,
"i'm your girlfriend?"
his smile faltered after he soon realized what he had just called you, he swallowed a nervous gulp. opening and closing his mouth because he was unsure what to say
you must admit you enjoyed seeing him like that.
"well i-i mean--i wasn't--surely you were--uh--what was the question again?"
you tucked your lower lip in between your teeth, head tilting to the side as the adorable man in front of you became a stuttering mess.
realizing that he is on the edge of a nervous breakdown, you leaned closer to his face before smashing your lips against his. his body went still by your action, but soon found himself lost in your kiss and sighed out of contentment,
you pulled away after a few seconds, tousling his soft chocolate hair before replying,
''i would love to be your girl, o'hara''
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please please PLEASE tell me this is good!! i was writing this in the car and I couldn’t concentrate for a second because people were honking too much!! bhhshshs
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biibini · 2 months
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Its okay if you dont wanna do this but i really wanna know what you think mizu would do when reader gets her period
modern!mizu x reader gets her period (request)
tags: period, cuddling, fluff, kissing, modern au, modern mizu, mizu being best girl
a/n: ok midterms r coming up so soon HAHAHAHAH (im so nervous)
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modern!mizu would def have the supplies
but i’d feel like she’d carry the lighter, smaller pads
but on most days, mizu would be a tampon used
to ur surprise, she typically uses panty liners for the majority of her period
and even if she does get a heavy period, she can handle it on most days
(yeah im fucking jealous i wish that was me)
like perfect silky hair and thin pads???
mizu my girl
hand those genes over
anyways
she would have aspirin and a hot pack on hand if u need it
when she was growing up, they used to be super heavy but now they've become lighter
if ur a heavy flow typa gal,
oh lord its extra packs for mizu to buy
at first, she would be rlly confused at the sizing and the number of flaps/extensions the pads would have
and what specific color to buy
(iykyk my heavy flow girls will know)
but she doesnt mind, u need them
as long as her girl is covered and safe and sound
if ur a tampon girl, mizu would double check to make sure she got ur brand when she goes shopping
modern!mizu would notice ur cycles, especially the week beforehand when ur rlly moody
whether its u being acting more impatient or upset than usual
she checks and makes sure that she has the necessities at hand
if she doesnt, she’ll say she’s just gonna run some errands
technically its not a lie
she does go to the closest convenience store
but the errands in question: pads/tampons and something sweet
(personally im a chocolate sweets girlie)
she’ll get u a lil sweet treat that’ll last u for a week or two
modern!mizu would also pour an extra cup of tea for u before bed
she just wants u to be as comfortable as u can be during ur period
and if u guys are cuddling and watching something before bed
she’ll make sure to keep u comfortable
“Mizu, pleaseeee. Just one more episode?”, you plead. You guys had just finished the second to last episode of the show. Sure, you felt a little tired. But the thought of moving and crawling off of Mizu’s chest didn’t outweigh the comfort of the couch.
Mizu sighs.
“You always do this and then you end up falling asleep.”, Mizu states as she grabs the remote control.
“Not necessarily-“, you rebute. Technically, she wasn’t wrong with your history of falling asleep. But not this time.
“Mmhmm. Right…”, she responds, a little sass in her tone.
You pout. “Please. I promise, I’ll stay up.”
You place your warm cup of tea aside, allowing you to wrap your arms around Mizu’s neck. You feel the heat of her neck against your forearms.
“Besides, it’s the final episode.”, you smile. You look at Mizu for sign of defeat.
“Ok fineeee,” she clicks on the next episode button, “Stay awake now. I’m not summarizing it this time.”
You plant a kiss on her cheek, pulling her closer to your body. She places her mug next to yours and letting her arms wrap around your body. You feel the warmth of her hands press against your body, almost burning from the hot tea.
“I promise I won’t.”, you assure as you sit back against Mizu’s chest again. You feel Mizu’s arms relax and allow you to prep yourself before watching the finale.
Mizu smiles as she felt your body lay back on hers. Your weight alongside the blanket you’re sharing relaxes her. You feel her arms gently wrap around you again as you hear the intro to the episode play.
Her hands start to drag along your sides to your stomach. You feel her burning palm place itself on the top of your lower stomach. Its presence shared a similarity to a heat pad.
You hum in response. While her right hand is busy drawing attention to your lower stomach, you feel her other hand wrap around you and pull you closer. You feel her lips lightly graze your shoulder.
“Mizu, it feels good but-”, you say as her right hand starts to gently massage your stomach.
Fuck. That feels so nice.
You hold back a groan. “Not here, hon.”, you say as you nod your head towards Ringo’s bedroom door.
“I know, don’t worry.”, Mizu responds as she places a soft kiss near your neck. “I just want you to feel comfortable now. You’re on your period, right?”
You nod in response.
“So c’mere. I’ll keep you nice and warm.”
modern!mizu would put ur towel in the dryer while u shower
ik its oddly specific
but i feel like she would make sure to make u feel warm in any way possible
with or without heat pad
same concept applies for the blanket
shes always so thankful her and ringo got an apartment with an in-unit washer dryer
when ur washing up, she’ll typically be doing some light studying with some tea before bed
a break inbetween would be the pop the towel in the dryer
next break is swapping out the towel for the blanket
final break is bringing back the blanket right before u get into bed
its a strange strategy but it helps her stay focused and paces herself while synonymously taking care of u
modern!mizu would make sure she’s wrapping her arms around ur lower stomach when ur cuddling at night
the heating pad gets annoying to sleep with
especially if u tend to toss and turn at night
but having her hands warm u helps u relax at night
when ur trying to sleep, she’ll gently caress and massage ur stomach to help release any tension
at first, u thought it wouldnt have an effect on u
but the more she did it, the more relieved u felt at night
mizu would also feel relaxed knowing that u r relaxed as well
when she heard ur snores, she knows shes done a job well done
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facefullofsadness · 2 months
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Can I ask Dom!jealous!Kazuha, insult the reader because the reader hugs someone else?
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content - jealous dom!kazuha x reader, smut (forceful aggressive sex, degradation, biting, fingering, sadistic themes), mentions of aespa winter, OVERLY POSSESSIVE KAZUHA, zuha's like actually mean and insults you :((, fluff at the end
wc - 1444
a/n - maybe too harsh? realizing after writing it's a little (pretty) aggressive... but it's fineeee, wk kazuha's a sweetheart!
it's not that kazuha DOESN'T trust you.
but it's moreso that she's just possessive! seeing you hangout with winter a lil more than usual these days rubs her the wrong way. it gradually boils her blood, knowing you were friends with minjeong before you even met zuha. she's just worried she might lose her precious gf!
it comes to a breaking point when you come home late one night. you panicked, you were supposed to be home an hour ago but couldn't tell ur gf because your phone died! and you were out late bc traffic at this hour was insane, so as best as minjeong tried to drop you off at home, it was hard to do so.
eventually, you both made it to your place. minjeong walked you to your door as you fumbled with your keys. it swung open before you could even put the right key into the door, a grumpy kazuha behind it. you and minjeong both sighing in relief to see that she was home already.
jeongie would excuse herself, but wouldn't be able to leave first without you pulling her into a tight hug, rubbing her back and thanking her repeatedly for her help. the sight made zuha's blood pressure skyrocket, the words you said processing in her mind maliciously. before you could even pull away completely from your best friend, ur gf calls for you to come in immediately, scowling at your short haired bestie.
you apologize and shrug, thanking minjeong again before entering your home, kazuha slamming the door behind you once you're inside.
"why the fuck were you late y/n?" her voice filled with authority.
her tone shocked you and you scoffed, "why do you sound like my mom? geez..."
this angered her already angry self, dragging you by the wrist and shoving you onto your couch. she climbed on top of your hips, straddling you and trapping your body under her.
"answer the fucking question. or are you too braindead to process it?"
kazuha didn't wanna be so mean to you, but she couldn't help herself. hearing the words leave her mouth, she knew it was wrong and she definitely was gonna apologize later. but right now, you were appalled by her behavior, it hurt you and you raised your voice back at her.
"what the fuck is wrong with you, zuha?! what are you ACTUALLY saying to me right now?"
"oh shit, are you deaf too? do your ears work? because apparently I didn't make myself clear."
you're gobsmacked. how could you not be? your usually sweet and gentle girlfriend was insulting you, being unnecessarily mean. you feel your mouth fall open at her words, in genuine shock as you prop yourself up on your elbows to face her. her jaw was clenching and you could see her temples throb, eyebrows furrowed as her hands gripped your shoulders.
"are you too much of a dumb whore not to process a simple question? just a bimbo, aren't you y/n?"
it wasn't funny, it was painful.
your hands shot up and clenched the material of her shirt's collar, "who are you right now, nakamura kazuha?"
you watch as her eyes darken and face changes, her pushing you to lay flat against the sofa, "the person that you belong to."
with that, she tears your hands off of her and rips your jacket and shirt off. she's quick, scurrying to remove your clothes. you feel your throat form a lump and your eyes water. you didn't like how she was treating you right now, kazuha wasn't herself, and you were gonna suffer because of it. she left you exposed in only your dark-colored lacy set lingerie, a bitter expression on her face.
"how badly do you wanna fuck kim minjeong, huh? why her and not me? why don't you love me anymore?"
her question confuses you and clashes in your mind, thoughts thrashing in your head of how much she was hurting you and how harshly she was treating you. her touches were aggressive, gripping and scratching at your body, her mouth biting all over you. you whimper out in pain and squirm under her, trying to push her away and get her to calm down.
"what do you mean zuha? of course I love you! who said I wanted to fuck minjeong?"
she ignores you, mouth nipping at your neck, down your chest, across your stomach, and through your thin underwear.
"you're mine y/n! no one else's! only mine!" she digs her nails into your hips before dragging your panties down to your ankles.
a pained expression crawls onto your face the more she proceeds. you feel her spit onto your entrance, her fingertips rolling to cover her digits in it. you bite your lip as kazuha forces the length of her fingers into your cunt, ramming them in and out of you at high speed, eliciting a scream to erupt from your choked throat.
"zuha please!" you sob, your hands gripping at the material of her clothes as she hovers above you.
she shoots her free hand to cup your cheek, using her thumb to pry your mouth open and putting her finger in, expecting you to suck on it. your gf coos when you do, sniffling as you swirl your tongue around her.
"is it that I have to force you into submission for you to listen? are you that much of a slut?"
you clamp your eyes shut, feeling tears roll down the sides of your face. despite all the emotional turmoil, you couldn't deny how well kazuha memorized your body, hitting spots inside of you that made your back arch and having her thumb in your mouth making your hands form fists.
her words hurt, but her fingers hurt better.
your eyes flutter open, vision blurry from your tears. the loud squelching of her digits ramming into you was all you heard. her intense gaze demanded your weak one, but you obliged, looking into her eyes, her stare wild. fire roared furiously in the kind and brown eyes you once fell for, but now you couldn't recognize who this was. she looked at you like a predator hunted prey, like you were food to fuel her, your eyebrows furrowed and tears running down your face. you looked perfect like this.
this is what I want. you to be ruined by only me. you to be only mine.
"fuck!" you moaned, back arching into her, feeling you get closer to the edge.
your hole clenched around her, zuha's fingers constantly hitting your g-spot repeatedly. your fists pulled your gf in closer and you popped her thumb out of your mouth, burying your face into her shoulder and screaming as you came. hips bucking wildly against kazuha's hand and sobs ripping from your mouth as pleasure overwhelmed you. her fingers stopped pummeling in you when your body relaxed onto the couch, pulling her hand away and cleaning it with her mouth.
kazuha blinked a few times and her sanity returned, immense guilt filling her body when she looked down at your limp figure, your arm covering your face as you silently cried. her heart dropped at the sight and chest tightened, bringing her hands gently up to caress your cheeks.
"m-my love, I... I don't know what came over me, I'm so sorry..."
you heard your girlfriend again, the version of your gf that you actually knew, her sweet voice apologizing to you. she pulled your arm from your face and you opened your eyes to meet the gentle brown ones you missed and you cried harder.
"kazuha, if you hate minjeong that much, just tell me! what's wrong with you?" your voice was weak and you felt broken.
she didn't like the way she acted and she knew you hated it even more.
"you're right, I'm so so so sorry y/n, I got too jealous and possessive because god, I'd rather die than lose you. you didn't deserve how I took it out on you," she whispers against your ear and plants kisses along your jaw.
she pulled you closely into her arms, holding you like you were the most prized possession in her world.
there was some work to do (like therapy goddamn), but you knew your girlfriend, she was better than this, and she was gonna prove it to you, so you accepted her apology.
sniffling your sobs into her shoulder, you laughed, "you owe me."
"I know I do, I promise you darling, I will."
you pull away from her and rest your forehead against her's, "you can start by getting me ice cream."
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asumofwords · 8 months
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The Sublet - Roommate!AU
Warnings: She/her pronouns, slow burn, angst. Tags will be added as the fic goes along.
Pairings: Modern!Aemond x Reader
Summary: Living with Helaena Targaryen was one of the best decisions you had ever made. Meeting at university, the two of you became thick as thieves and quickly best friends, moving into a flat together. But what will happen when Helaena has to leave, and her quiet, brooding, brother moves in?
Notes: Another day, another slay. Here is the next chapter of Sublet, hehe. I'm so excited for you all to read this, Aemond is such an asshole but god he is so FINEEEE <3 It's a long one... Enjoy! P.s Aemond is listening to this song: Lovers From the Past - Mareux
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Chapter 5: Sīkudi Nopāzmi (Seven Hells)
Cregan left yours after you had relaxed for a time, had some breakfast in the quiet of the apartment together, and yet another round of his fingers pressed into your core.
It was, all things considered, a perfect way to start your day. 
And whilst you basked in the afterglow of the evening and morning, and the content and joy that your not so subtle friend with benefits brought you, you decided to spend the rest of the day cleaning and tidying the apartment.
You turned on your speaker and let your music play through it loudly as you did a full clean down.
Usually, Helaena and you would spend your Sunday’s doing this together, glasses of wine in hands, or sometimes, if Aegon dropped it over, a nice spliff. 
It wasn’t until the late afternoon that Aemond returned. 
The kitchen was freshly wiped down, all cups and bowls put away in the cupboard. The lounge and dining you had spent a meticulous amount of time dusting and fluffing, not at all because you had nervous energy racing through you at the thought of his return. You had even had time to change and wash your sheets, putting on a nice smelling candle in the lounge room to really finish the job. 
And then, there he was, in all his lean fury, stood in the hallway that you just mopped and vacuumed in his stupid trainers, dressed head to toe in his jogging gear.
He still had his AirPods in. 
You were in the lounge room, dressed in an oversized shirt, probably looking crazed as you had been dashing about the apartment in intermittent song and dance as you cleaned, and there he was, back inside and watching you. 
You felt a blush spread across your cheeks but swallowed the feeling of shame. Why should you feel any shame at all? It’s your home. He is the one living here. Besides, it's not as though he doesn’t totally have sex himself. It would be complete-
“Wheres you friend?” Aemond asked, eye looking behind you. 
You blanched. 
So now he was talking to you?
“Went home.”
Aemond hummed, eyebrows lifting before he carried on through the hall, still with his stupid shoes on, and disappeared into Helaena’s room.
What the fuck?
“Take your shoes off at the door!” You called out to him, irritation pulsing through you.
You didn’t want his dirty outside soles all over your nice clean floorboards, and some nerve he had to ignore you and then come back asking questions.
No, ‘Hey, how are you?’
‘Wow, the house looks so clean! Thanks!’
‘How was your day?’
Nada.
You were almost in the right mind to call Helaena and bitch about her brother to her, and beg her to come back, or at least take him from your hands like an unwanted pet.
It was not long after he went to his room that you heard him enter the bathroom, the sound of the shower carrying through the door. You decided to go back into your room and fold your laundry that you had washed and put it away.
Each fold of your clothes you tried to rationalise his behaviour. Tried to make excuses for it even, or explain it all away. But eventually you came to the conclusion that perhaps Helaena just had a soft spot for her brother, and that he was just another breed of Aegon. 
Another douchebag. 
Your only hope was that there was only a few weeks to go. And if you could survive living in a hostile environment for that, you could survive anything. Besides, Helaena and Daeron seemed pretty keen for you to go to the Keep and see them for a few days, so that was always on the cards.
Or you could stay at Cregan’s if you really needed an out.
You hoped it didn’t come to that.
Gods, how long was he going to be in the bathroom?
You felt sticky from cleaning all day and wanted to shower yourself and get into some pj’s.
Making plans to order some pizza before your shower so that it would arrive when you got out, you walked to the bathroom door and knocked.
He better not have used all the fucking hot water.
To your surprise, Aemond didn’t call out from inside, instead, he opened the door wide, steam curling behind him as he stood in just a towel loosely wrapped around his hips. Water dripped from his wet hair down his bare chest and onto the floor below. 
Your mouth felt dry, and you could just see the barest imprint of his-
“Can I help you?” 
Your eyes snapped up to his, feeling a deep blush settle on your cheeks and a warmth in your gut.
No.
What the fuck?
He’s an asshole.
Down girl.
Making a point to keep your eyes on his, you stepped back, feeling all too close to the Targaryen man. 
“Are you going to be long? I want to take a shower.”
Aemond’s lips twitched in the barest of smirks, “Sure, bunny. I’m done.” And with that, he brushed past you, his damp arm sliding against yours as he made his way to his room and shut the door behind him.
You blinked at the door.
Bunny…
...
He had heard.
Embarrassment creeped through you as you rushed into the steam filled room, almost slipping on the wet tiles and slamming the door shut behind you. 
Aemond had heard you and Cregan.
But why did that make a spark of arousal bloom inside of you?
Something was seriously wrong with you.
You quickly ordered your pizza on your phone, paying for it and noting the estimated delivery time. 
Stripping off your clothes, you turned on the shower and jumped under the hot spray, letting the water cascade over your face and hair, scrubbing each and every inch of your body, spotting the small bruises that littered it from Cregan. Most of all, the mottling of purple across the flesh of your ass. 
You bit your lip as you washed it carefully, enjoying the sting and the memory of his hands. 
By the time you got out of the shower and had done your skincare routine, hair being pat dry with your towel, you trudged out of the bathroom in your pj’s and made your way to the kitchen to grab a drink. 
The pizza came not too long after, and you frowned at the delivery person as they handed you two boxes of pizza. You were so confused, checking your phone again to see the order, “But I only ordered one?” 
The teenager shifted on his feet impatiently, “It was a two for one deal today? You got a pizza for free.”
“Oh. Thank you.” You gave the boy a tip, and turned back inside with two boxes of pizza.
Aemond hadn’t come out of his room since he went in, and well, you had two pizzas, it would be a waste of food if you didn’t offer him some.
Even if he didn’t deserve it. 
You walked over to his door, and could hear music playing inside (Lovers From the Past - Mareux). With the pizza boxes balanced in one hand, you lifted the other to knock on the door. 
The door stayed unanswered, and so you knocked again, this time hearing a grumble from behind. It swung open, and Aemond stood, hair still slightly damp on his shoulders, clad in only grey sweat pants. He raised a brow at you, eye flicking to the pizza boxes and then back to your face.
You wished he would put on a shirt. 
“There was a two for one deal, so there’s a box if you want one.” You explained, then remembering how he thought the snack plate last night was for him, you didn’t want him to think you were going out of your way again, “I didn’t know the deal was a thing. They just dropped two boxes at the door.”
Aemond raised a brow as if to say he didn’t believe you.
You huffed, “Alright. I’ll put it in the fridge then.” You turned on your heel to walk away and heard a chuckle from behind you.
“So grumpy.” He breathed under his breath, just teasing enough for you to hear it. 
Your fingers tightened around the boxes as you refused to turn around and marched straight to the lounge room, dropping onto the couch and flicking on the television angrily. You looked at the second box of pizza, and thought about putting it in the fridge for him later.
Fuck it. 
He can starve.
At best, he gets salmonella.
Leaving the second box unopened, you curled up on the couch and turned on your favourite show, munching on the hot pizza, the cheese warm and stringy on your tongue. A weight settled beside you, and you turned your head slightly to find Aemond sitting on the couch next you, reaching out to grab his box of pizza to eat.
You tried to not give him any notice, or even sneak a glance at the man, who still sat shirtless beside you, one leg tucked up on the couch as he ate. You bet that if you looked down at his grey sweats you would be able to see the imprint of his-
“Did you clean the apartment?” His voice cut through the air.
You gave him a hum in response.
“You working tomorrow?”
Another question?
You turned to face him, “No. It’s a Sunday tomorrow.”
Aemond took another large bite of his pizza, a long string of cheese being pulled taut by his stretched hand, which he pulled into his mouth with his tongue.
You swallowed thickly. 
“How long have you and Craig been together?” Aemond asked, eye on you, tongue darting out to lick any remaining sauce that lingered on his plush lips. 
You let out a short huff of a laugh, “It’s Cregan. And we aren’t dating.”
“An ex then?”
Why was he so interested in Cregan?
“No.” You said slowly, “Just a friend. He’s Sara’s brother. Helaena used to date her.”
Aemond hummed in recognition of Sara’s name, but then his lips pursed forward, “Just a friend.” He parroted, a smirk pulled on his lips.
Turning to face the tv, you took another bite of your pizza before swallowing, “Yeah, friend. Do you have any of those?”
The silver haired man laughed quietly, “I have enough.”
You hummed back.
Gods, you sounded like him.
You both continued to eat slowly, letting the sound of the tv surround you for a while longer.
“Seems nice.”
There it was.
You snapped your head to your roommates brother, glaring at him, “He is. Why are you so interested in him?”
Aemond smirked deeply, closing the box of his finished pizza before he stood to put it in the kitchen recycling bin, not answering your question. 
You huffed, feeling entirely irritated by the whole scenario.
You watched as he came back out of the kitchen, his gaze on you. Your eyes roamed down his chest, spotting a tattoo on the side of his ribs, some sort of sword. And then your gaze went lower, spotting the tip of an inky black tattoo that sat on his hip bones, the muscles of his V leading down to-
Gods damn him.
Those grey sweats.
What was it about them that you made you so feral?
Sensing your sudden shift, Aemond poked his tongue in his cheek, as if he was debating the next words to come from his mouth. But then they came, and you were left to sit in the lounge room alone with the knowledge of what he knew. 
“Goodnight, bunny.”
Fuck.
The next day Aemond’s demeanour seemed to change completely. He left the house before you woke, going for his morning jog as always, and so you got the morning to yourself to have a quiet cup of tea and cigarette at the kitchen window.
The sun was rising to its peak by the time he got back, and you were seated on the bench next to the window, blowing the smoke outside and sipping on your tea. You had expected when you heard the door open that he would retreat to his room as he always did and hide away like a recluse. 
But this morning, Aemond surprised you. 
Instead of seeing a blur of silver and black down the hallway, Aemond turned to the kitchen, giving you a small purse of his lips in greeting. His hair was tied back in a low bun, though small strands of silver hung around his face. His t-shirt was stuck to his chest in patches from his sweat, and the small black nike shorts he wore revealed the toned muscles of his thighs and calves. 
“Morning.”
You blew a puff of smoke out the window, “Morning.”
Aemond stepped in front of you and you tensed, unsure, looking up at his face as he looked down at you. Then in one swift moment, he reached above your head, pulling down a glass from the shelf, hips brushing your knees as he moved to the sink to fill himself a glass of water. 
You watched as he brought the glass to his lips and drank deeply, watching the way his throat bobbed and his lips were slightly wet, the cup almost completely empty by the time he took it away, but his eye immediately found yours, catching your shameless appraisal.
“You’re staring, bunny.”
There it was again. 
That name. 
Something only Cregan called you when you were locked beneath him writhing in pleasure, or on top.
You felt heat rise up your chest, “Don’t call me that.” You frowned, and Aemond smirked, humming before leaving the kitchen.
You jumped off the sill, stubbing the cigarette out on the brickwork outside before dumping your mug in the sink. 
You needed to get out of the house. And so you opened your phone to call a friend who you knew you could vent to.
The phone rang three times before the melodic voice of Sara Snow came through the speaker, her Northern accent thick through the phone, “You right?”
“Hey to you too, Sar.”
Despite her and Helaena’s obvious love for each other, and the consistent on-again-off-again game of avoidance the two had, there was no denying that you felt safe and trusted around the woman. It had been a while since you had spent time with her, and the other day was just a reminder of all the good times you have had. 
Besides, the rest of your friends were away for the break. 
“What do you want?”
You laughed into the phone, “Charming. I don’t know what Helaena sees in you.”
Her chuckle was heard in the back, “It’s definitely not my glowing personality.” She said suggestively.
“Alright enough of that. I’m off limits.”
“Who said you were even on?”
You shook your head, “What are you doing today?”
You heard Sara shuffling in the background of the phone, “Obviously seeing you, considering you’ve called.”
Grinning, you made your way to your room and began to flick through your closet to choose an outfit, “I need a drink. Or three. Maybe five.”
“Trouble in paradise?” Sara teased, “Is my brother the cause of this need to see me? I don’t mind if it is, I love a good bitch.”
You pulled out a slinky black dress, chucking it on your bed as you found some knee high boots to match, “Not Cregan, no. I can’t say much right now about it,” You mumbled into the phone, “But I need to get out of here.”
Sara let out the highest of pitched squeals as she realised who it was that you were trying to escape, “Oh my god, I knew you two would go head to head. Helaena said I was being judgemental. But girl, have you heard their phone calls? The North is warmer than that man.”
“Tell me about it. Anyway, you gonna help me or what?” 
“Say less, babe. Meet me in the Silk Lanes.”
You sighed, “Sara we aren’t going to a strip club, it's the middle of the day.”
“You’re a buzz kill. But no, didn’t mean that. There's a new bar that’s opened up on the strip. They have live music sometimes. Cool crowd too.”
You hummed, looking down at the dress, “Fine. What time?”
“See you in an hour!”
She hung up before you could even respond. 
You dressed yourself and headed to the bathroom put on some light makeup, do your hair and pair the dress with some nice gold jewellery, including a pair of earrings Helaena had given you a Christmas or two ago.
Grabbing a small bag, you left, not sparing Helaena’s shut door a glance, swiping up your keys and making your way to the train station to go and meet Sara. 
The trip wasn’t a long one, and before you knew it you were making your way down to the Silk Lanes, passing strip clubs, brothels, and bars along the way.
It was a cool area that was sure, but at times, more male dominated.
You kept waking, unsure of where you were really going until a low whistle was heard behind you. Spinning around you spotted Sara, who stood in a short halter neck denim dress that hugged her curves, and brown cowboy boots. 
She looked hot.
“Damn, Sar. I can see now why Helaena keeps you around.”
Her green-grey eyes roamed over your body, taking in your dress. You spun on the spot, breezing your hands over your hips in a seductive way.
“My brother doesn’t deserve you. You ever get sick of him, I'm sure theres room for a third.” She smirked, looping your arm in hers as she started to lead you down an alleyway, a flickering red sign that read ‘Sīkudi Nopāzmi’ over an old brick wall, and busted green door. 
You would have walked straight past it.
You blinked up at the lettering, brows furrowed as you tried to use what basic High Valyrian you had learnt many years ago in High School.
“Seven Hells?” You looked at Sara.
The dark haired woman smirked. 
The inside of the bar was dark and dingy, exposed brick walls, low candle light and sultry music playing. The overall vibe was sensual, brooding, and mysterious.
You couldn’t help but think of a man who reminded you of it. 
Sara left you at the table to grab you drinks, coming back to place a Porn Star Martini in front of you, small shot of Prosecco placed beside it. You took the Prosecco and drank it back, not wanting it to mix with the sweetness of the martini.
Sara raised a brow as she watched, bringing her dirty martini to her lips to sip.
“So, what has your knickers in a twist?” She twirled the stick of olives with her black fingernails.
You glared at her, sipping the martini again, “I live with a recluse douchebag.”
“That bad, huh?”
You sighed aggressively, finishing your martini and standing to go get another, “I need another one of these before I begin this shit. And you’re going to need one too.”
By the time you had both drunk your fourth martini, you begun to feel the anger roll off of you in slates with every story you spat.
“Class A Asshole.” Sara nodded, laughing at your retelling of his reaction to thinking you had made your plate of snacks for him, “I can’t believe he heard Cregan fuck you.” She threw her head back laughing, and you let yourself laugh too.
“You should have seen him run out the door in the morning, didn’t come back the whole fucking day. But get this,” You leant forward, tipping the rest of your martini into your mouth. 
Sara leant on her elbows looking at you, eyes dancing in delight.
As you opened your mouth, two new drinks were placed on the table in front of you by the tall bartender. You both looked up at him confused.
You hadn’t ordered another drink.
The bartender was handsome, hair cut close to his scalp, dark skin, with bright golden eyes that smiled down at you before flicking his head to a table at the far back.
“From that table over there.”
You and Sara looked back, seeing two men who raised their drinks up to you in a salute. 
Sara burst into laughter, looking back at you, “Should I tell them they’re not my type?” 
You shook your head giggling, “No! I want more free drinks.”
Giving them a coy smile, you raised your drink in salute back.
“Anyway, get this.” You continued your story, sipping the drink as you winked at the men behind you.
Sara’s eyes lit up as she sipped her free martini.
“He keeps calling me bunny.”
Sara’s dark brows pulled at the centre of her forehead, “Bunny?”
You smirked, “It’s what your brother calls me.”
Her face scrunched up, sipping the drink, “Ugh. I don’t want to know.”
You chuckled, “Well its important to the story, so suck it up. Aemond must have heard it, because now he won’t stop calling me bunny. It’s driving me insane.”
Her red lips pulled into a knowing smirk, “Insane, huh?”
“Oh no.”
“I see what’s happening now.”
“Sara.”
“You want to fuck him.”
Shit.
You sipped your martini heavily, not answering the woman in front of you. You were definitely tipsy by now, borderline drunk. You picked up your phone, screen lighting up.
It was already 5pm.
Sara was leant back in her chair, cool smirk on her perfectly lined lips, “I mean, I can’t blame you. There’s a reason they have ancient rumours of the Targaryens being Gods.”
Your eyes widened.
“What? I love Helaena, don’t I?” The words slipped out of her lips before she could take them back, blush creeping on her cheeks.
Now it was your turn to grin.
“Oh no. No. Shut your mouth.” She warned you, skulling the rest of the drink.
Your smirk grew wider, “You love her.”
Sara looked around the bar, trying to find a way out or distraction.
She found none. 
“No. We are here to talk about you and your problems, not mine.”
You hummed, the noise reminding you of the silver haired nightmare waiting for you at home, “Fine. But I won’t forget that you just said that.”
Sara rolled her eyes, raising her hand to hail the tall bartender again, ordering the pair of you a final drink.
“We are going to have our last drink. Discuss how you want this hulking, smouldering man to fuck you silly, and then you are going to go home and jump his bones so I don’t have to hear your complaints ever again.”
You opened your mouth widely at her in shock, “You fucking bitch.”
“You love me for the honesty. Besides, Helaena wouldn’t tell you how it is.”
You smiled.
She was right.
Helaena definitely would put more fluff around the words and be sweeter about it, especially since it was her brother.
After finishing your drinks, laughing and talking about Aemond and how he irked you, whilst describing the ways you wished to shut him up by keeping his mouth busy, you both decided to call it a night early with time to have dinner.
You kissed Sara on her cheeks as you walked through the Silk Lanes together and back to the train station. You would be getting the same train, and off at different stations. When it came to yours, Sara was still sitting as you moved to get off.
“Give him Hell, bunny.” She smirked, and you rolled your eyes at her. 
The walk home was short, but as you walked, you couldn’t help but think on your friends encouragement. 
Why should you let him give you shit?
Why are you letting I’m proverbially piss on his territory?
You had a sudden urge, aided by the drinks, to do as Sara commanded.
The keys missed the door twice before you finally got it in the hole, twisting open the handle and throwing the keys unceremoniously into the dish at the door. You didn’t even bother to take off your shoes as you marched straight to his room. 
You didn’t even bother knocking, swinging the door open with a forceful shove, eyes meeting the shocked and almost alarmed one of Aemond. 
He sat laid back on the bed, those stupid grey sweats on his defined thighs, the subtle bulge there and prominent in the grey of the cotton. Your eyes roamed his body with no shame, oggling his bare chest again as you felt heat settle in your gut. 
There was a singular lamp on beside the bed, and Aemond had a book open in his hand as he looked up at you through his lashes.
He raised a singular brow.
Your hands sat on your hips, immediately feeling defensive, “What?”
Aemond scoffed, “You’re in my room. You tell me, bunny.”
You blushed, “I told you, don’t call me that.”
He sighed, shutting the book in his lap as he leant lazily into the pillows, one long finger stuck between the folds of the pages. Your eyes strayed on it a moment more than they should have.
“What do you want, Y/n?” He sounded bored, impatient, with undertones of annoyance. 
But the way he rolled your name off of his tongue sounded more like a purr.
Damn him.
“Come join me.”
Both brows shot up on his face, the scar on his eye crinkling, before they settled again, cool face watching you, “You’re drunk, aren’t you?”
“No.”
Aemond smirked.
“Forget it.” You snapped, turning around.
You heard the bed behind you shift and the soft padding of feet behind you. Aemond followed you into the lounge room and sat on the couch, legs stretching out onto the coffee table as you tried not to sneer down at him. 
“Is this a house meeting?” He joked.
“No. This is a ‘get to fucking know the person you’re living with’ meeting.”
You watched as Aemond’s lips twitched, battling with the smirk that was pulling at them. He pursed them at you instead, and you didn’t know whether or not you wanted to slap him, or bite them.
You crossed your arms against your chest, jutting a hip out, feeling the warmth of all those martinis flowing through your body, “Why do you hate me?”
It was Aemond’s turn to frown, “I don’t hate you.”
“Then why are you such a dick?”
“A dick?”
You hummed back at him, turning to bend over and get a large pot out of the cupboard in front of him. You had drank your fair share, and if you were being honest, you were drunk. Not tipsy like you had thought, and you knew that you had an early morning with work, and needed at least something in your stomach to sober you up.
You made quick work of filling the pot with water, turning your head back to look at Aemond who watched you under a hooded eye.
“What’s your deal anyway?” You twisted back, settling the pot on the stove to boil the water, grabbing a bowl from above.
“My deal?” He parroted again.
You sighed, pulling a packet of instant noodles from the pantry to put the sachet packet in the bowl, “Tall, brooding, ‘devil may care’ attitude. You have this general disdain for everyone around you.”
“Brooding.” Aemond hummed.
“More annoying than anything, really.”
“Hm.”
You rubbed your face roughly, pointing at your bag which had been thrown on the couch when you entered, “Pass me that will you?”
Aemond simply lifted a brow at you, staying in his spot, until you emphasised your pointed hand with a flick of your arm. The man stood, bringing it over to you as you waited for the water to boil.
Digging through your bag you pulled out your cigarettes and rolled one messily. It would do.
You leant out the window and lit the smoke, Aemond watching you amusedly from beside. You took the first drag of the cigarette, giving yourself an immediate head spin.
You shut your eyes and blew out the smoke, a small groan falling from your lips.
“I would like to live under a roof where my patience is not questioned at every moment, and I’m not faced with a living and breathing hermit. It’s hard to believe you’re Helaena’s brother.”
Aemond moved to look down at you, leaning on the opposite end of the window, his long fingers reaching out to you, asking for a drag wordlessly. You looked at his hand, eyes narrowed as you lifted the cigarette to your lips again, ignoring his request, his hand still held out to you. 
Persistent asshole.
Blowing the smoke out the window, you gave him the cig, watching as he slowly brought it to his own lips, wrapping around it gently as he inhaled, eye on you the entire time. 
You shifted where you stood.
“Maybe you should ask some questions, bunny.” He breathed, holding the smoke in his chest before blowing it out.
“Fuck off.” You snatched the cigarette back from him, your fingers brushing against his.
He was so warm. 
Aemond chuckled from deep in his chest, a quiet rumble that was as smooth as silk.
Fuck.
“Well,” He began, looking out the window, “I’m Helaena’s brother.”
“No shit.”
“Well if you’re not going to ask questions-“
“-Will you even answer them?”
He pushed his tongue into his cheek as he thought.
“That's what I thought.” You dumped the lit smoke on the window sill and moved to put the noodles in the pot, stirring it once over, “Can you at least pretend to be civil? If not for me, for Helaena?” 
You turned to face him again, your cigarette at his lips as he watched you. He gave you a curt nod.
“Why did you leave Harrenhal?”
The question caught the both of you off guard, and you watched as Aemond retreated into himself, face turning to stone and eye narrowing. He blew the smoke slowly out the window, taking his gaze from you to lean out the sill with both elbows.
The tension floated over the two of you, and you suddenly felt bad for asking. You knew about the break up. Helaena had told you it had been really bad, but still, he didn't need to take it out on you.
You stirred the noodles again, watching them swirl around in a circle before opening your mouth to apologise, but Aemond beat you to it. 
“You still got some of that wine?”
You blinked, slowly inhaling, “I have something stronger?”
“Hm.” Was all you got in response as Aemond leant over you, stretching a long arm up to grab a glass.
You ducked down to rifle through the cupboards.
There, at the back, was a bottle of whiskey your ex had left behind. Not at all something you would usually drink, but the bottle alone was worth a small fortune, and so you had kept it. 
Small mercy’s, you supposed. 
Aemond took the bottle from you, inspecting the label as the edges of his lips tugged down. 
“Didn’t take you for a top shelf whiskey girl.”
“You don’t know much about me.” You paused, watching as he uncorked it, grabbing a handful of ice from the freezer to dump into the glass before he poured the amber liquid on top, “It’s not mine.”
“Your friends?” He teased.
“My ex.”
Aemond flicked his eyebrows at you and stirred it once in his hand, moving back to the window to grab the forgotten smoke. The man didn’t reply, opening the floor to you if you wanted to elaborate, and you felt like if you told him a little bit about you, then maybe he would open up. 
You turned the stove off, straining the noodles into the bowl, chucking the fork inside, mixing it all together. Bringing the bowl to balance on the windowsill, you curled the fork around some strands, blowing air on it to cool it down. 
“Textbook narcissist.” You began, watching as Aemond tilted his head towards you to indicate he was listening, bringing the golden drink to his lips to sip deeply, muscles in his shoulders rippling. 
“Caught him cheating on me, and then he had the gall to blame me because I came home early.” You shook your head, “Should have seen him though, face like a smacked ass. Can’t have your cake and eat it too.” You huffed, eating some of your noodles.
“Sounds like a keeper.” Came his smooth reply, taking another sip.
“She thought so. They’re still together.”
You ate your noodles quietly, letting the silence wrap around the two of you. It wasn’t that it was uncomfortable, you just didn’t know what else to say at that time.
Aemond opened the floor again, “Does he have a name?”
“Jason Lannister.”
Aemond turned his whole body towards you, mouth agape, “You dated the ‘Knob from Casterly Rock’?”
You whined, “It was dark times, okay? Character development and all that shit. How do you know him?”
Aemond scoffed, flicking the finished cigarette out the window into the darkness, “Hard to not know him. Always on campus, flouting mummy and daddy’s money.”
You snorted, “That’s rich. You’re literally a descendant of royalty. You own a castle. If anyone has mummy and daddy’s money it’s you.”
It was obvious this was a topic that was a definite no-go-zone for Aemond by the way his face and posture tensed, stomach flexing in the shadows of the kitchen. He threw back the last dregs of the whiskey, putting the glass down harder than what was needed.
“I take it you are making it on your own like Helaena, then?” You treaded carefully, trying to circle away from your comment before.
“I'm sure you'd take it any way you'd like.” His eye was narrowed on you, and the way he spoke made it seem as though he wasn’t talking about your thoughts on the matter.
You swallowed dryly, leaving the last of the noodles to be forgotten.
And then he continued, “I take what is owed to me. But I am not Aegon.”
You hummed in agreement, nodding your head, feeling the pull of sobriety in the back of your mind. 
"You know Aegon tried to hit on me once?" You smirked.
Aemond made a noise to suggest he wasn't surprised, eyebrows raising in slight amusement.
"Called me a Gazelle." You mused, "Long legs apparently." You kicked a leg out in show, still clad in the long boots.
Aemond scoffed, "Aegon will say anything to anyone to try and fuck."
"And here I was thinking I was a catch." You teased back.
Aemond stood close to you, and you could smell his cologne, matched with the smell of whatever soap and conditioner that he used. But you couldn’t help but notice the undertones of just him.
Earthy.
Musky.
A large finger tapped on the glass as he looked at you in thought, gold ring on his pinky hitting the side with a tink.
“Harrenhal has nothing for me anymore.” His voice low and deep, as he watched you, “Kings Landing offers more. Finishing my degree. Friends.” His eye roamed up and down your body. Even in your boots, he towered over you, “More.”
You swallowed, feeling your heart begin to race in your chest, heat settling in your gut.
“How so?” It came out as almost a whisper.
Aemond’s eye became half hooded as he looked down at you, humming as his tongue flicked out of his lips as he watched you, wetting the already parted plump flesh, just begging for you to reach up and capture them with your own.
“What are you asking me, bunny?” He asked, voice gravelly, filled with something.
You blinked, “I told you, don’t call me that.” You breathed.
He smirked, “Then what should I call you?” His hand reached out to tuck a stray hair behind your ear, the contact sending sparks down your body.
You tried to steel yourself, suddenly sober, “My name.”
Aemond huffed, seeming to come closer to you, “Always so sharp.”
Your breath hitched in your throat.
The silver haired Targaryen hummed again, “I think… it’s all a show this defiance.”
You furrowed your brows, feeling anger begin to crackle in your chest.
“I think,” He leant forward, staring at you intently, “Under all this…” His hand caught the skirt of your dress, rubbing it between his fingers, “You just want to be a good girl, don’t you?”
Your core clenched, and you bit down on your lip to stop the small whimper that wanted to escape your mouth.
The corner of his lips quirked, another satisfied hum rumbling in his chest.
An affirmation that he was right.
And he knew it.
His face came closer to yours, tongue darting out to wet his lips again as he watched you, your thighs rubbing together subtly as you looked up at him. 
Heat travelled up and down your spine, his scent surrounding you as he looked at you. The violet of his eye slimmed as his pupil widened, his chest rising and falling jaggedly.
The change in demeanour made your head spin.
Your eyes dropped down to his lips as you breathed jaggedly, and it felt as though a rubber band had been pulled taut between you.
And then, it snapped.
Aemond pulled you forward, a clash of teeth and tongue, the taste of whiskey on his mouth as he curled his tongue to the inside of yours, one hand grabbing your waist to pull you against him, the other, tangling itself in your hair.
You moaned into his mouth, wrapping your hands around his shoulders as sparks of arousal lit up inside of you. A large hand skimmed down your waist and cupped your ass, squeezing it in his large palm as he groaned into your lips, teeth nipping your bottom lip roughly.
You ground against him and mewled, standing on your tiptoes to deepen the kiss, nails digging into the bare skin of his back as you pulled him to you. His hand delved lower, cupping just under your ass beneath your dress, fingers teasing against the line of your underwear. You rolled your hips forward feeling the hardness at the front of his sweats press into your stomach.
"Aemond." You sighed into his mouth.
He grunted, running a finger up your clothed folds, feeling the dampness that had begun to seep into the material. You pulled back, staring up at him, mouth agape and breathless as his finger pressed against your bud from behind, arms wrapping you against him. 
His violet eye was swallowed whole by his pupil, iris almost black with lust. His lips were swollen and pink, and a lone strand of hair had fallen away from the perfectly tucked manner he had it behind his ear.
His lips twitched as he looked at you, chest rising and falling, staring at you with nothing but animalistic lust. 
It was as if cold water had been doused over you. 
This was Helaena’s brother. 
What were you doing?
Shame and guilt flooded you in an instant. 
You couldn’t step back from where you were, pressed against the bench of the kitchen with him caging you in. All you could do was squeak a small ‘good night’ at the man, ducking beneath his arm who watched in confusion as you all but ran and hid in your room.
Fuck.
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moumouton4 · 3 months
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Dom Muichiro (Aged up) x Sub fem reader, I'm rewriting it to make it clearer. So she ends up flirting with other Slayers and ends up getting a 'punishment' where Muichiro won't let her cum until she learns her lesson? She whimpers and complains but he is simply cold and still won't let her cum until he realizes that she has really learned her lesson. (again I hope you don't feel uncomfortable as I'm very paranoiac)
Have Your Learned Your Lesson ? || Muichiro Tokito x fem!reader
Part 2 : Have Your Learned Your Lesson ?
A/n : Heyyy sweetie I can assure you it's fineeee ! Also since the "first" part of this seems very close to the one I've already written there ( That Day He Got Jealous Of One Of Your Student ) let's say this is the 2nd part of it
Part 1 : That Day He Got Jealous Of One Of Your Student ✨
Warnings : Muichiro is aged up ofc, dom Muichiro, edging, use of slut twice ( I don't unsually do this but it felt somehow right ), pussy slapping, jealousy, fingering, oral fem!receiver, overstimulation, bredding kink if you squint, 18+ READERS ONLY and wrap it before you tap it
Masterlist ⚜
I don’t give permission to repost my work, if you want to share it just reblogue it
Word count : 742
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Well you thought you were getting back at him, because as soon as your hand made contact with his bulge he swatted your hand away “No touching ! Unless you want me to tie you up” he said somehow dangerously, sending chills down your spine. Truth be told you wouldn’t have minded him tying you up but right now you wanted to tease him too.
Seeing the glint in your eyes, he figured that you weren’t going to be a good obedient slut girl today. Gripping both your hands, in his, by the wrists, he tugged you to your shared room. His eyes looked all around trying to spot the ribbon he used to tie you with. An evil smirk spread on his lips when he finally found it. And before you knew it he was already rolling it around your wrists, your hands safely placed behind your back.
Soon after he stripped you from your panties, that he slided from your legs. His fingers soon replaced the silky fabric, circling and rubbing your most delicate spots. From your inner thighs to your wet, needy core. His skilled fingers started to inch closer to your quivering hole, before giving in and beginning a slow and teasing fingering motion.
Seeing you starting to squirming he brought his face closer to your ear, whispering lowly “I can feel you tightening around my fingers. Are you going to cum for me so soon ?” again the smirk in his voice was palpable.
Speeding the movements of his fingers he mused “Come on, cum for me Y/n. I can feel you’re close, come one”
You moaned even louder “M-muichiro I’m-”
“Ah ah ah” he spoke nonchalantly, as if he didn’t just deprive you from a climax ( please don’t read this as a laugh 💀 ) “You were close, weren’t you ? I could feel you milking my fingers. So needy” he scoffed, before slapping your pussy.
You yelped, making his devilish smirk grow on his face “What ? You didn’t think I was going to let such a bad girl come after what she did today ?”
“M-Mui- mmmh” your plea was stopped by his fingers who restarted moving in your soaking cunt, squelching sounds filling the room as he continued torturing you.
He kept this little game going for about 30 minutes. Fingering and then rubbing your clit with his now pruned fingers, halting each time you were on the verge of cumming.
Your breath was shallow as you muttered “P-p-please… l-l-let m-me fin-finish… ngh” you whimpered, barely managing to get the words out. You thought that tying you up was your punishment, that he was preparing you to receive him, but no he had decided to edge you instead.
From between your legs, his face glistening with your essence - because yes after a while fingering you he decided it wasn’t enough torture for your to learn your lesson - “Please ?” he chuckled darkly, his tongue flicking your clit once more “If you’re so desperate to finish you can still leave and try your luck with him” he spat “I bet you wouldn’t mind, you slut”
Somehow the harsh words had you throbbing inside, fuck he really know what he was doing. You shook your head trying to get him to understand that you wanted him, only him “N-no ! M-muichiro… mpf I-I want… y-you”
The brat, he didn’t even let you get your words out in peace “Say it again” he demanded through gritted teeth, of course he didn’t stop his oral assaults.
“I-I want you… ah- on-only you” at this you could feel his lips curving upwards in some kind of smile.
“Only me ?” he repeated, your words had just boosted his ego.
“I-l love you Muichiro p-please” you begged.
“Fine” he relented, you had learned your lesson this time, he was sure about it… also the sheets were drenched, as in the hurry he forgot to put some towels to cover. His face inched once more closer to your core, and this time he didn’t lose any time to plunge his tongue inside your tight heat, making your hands struggle behind your back, you wanted to hold his hair so bad.
He seemed to feel it so, with a swift movement he untied them. since you had understood your lesson you were going to be rewarded like a good girl now. First with a long awaited orgasm, and then with a hot load of his cum in your stomach.
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ghostykapi · 2 months
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sugar ‘n spice, everything nice, turn on the lights
kim dahyun & idol!fem!reader // sapphics being sapphics + spicy so scram while you can
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"hi"
she’s the goofy one, the one with many tricks up her sleeve, the one who can spot the camera and make it fall in love with her
“hello my darling”
you’re the serious one, the one who’s always the looming presence behind her, the one who’s eyes can burn through a person’s soul if you wanted to
despite all that, there you both are, the “goofy” one sitting down on the couch reading through a novel and the “serious” one bothering the former by doing all kinds of possible distractions, giving up midway
“when will you give your girlfriend attention” you whine, almost distracting dahyun, who has dealt with your ass since you’ve both debuted “it’s been 4 hours!”
“just a few more pages my love” dahyun’s eyes don’t even leave the book, leaving you grow more desperate than ever “almost done”
you can’t even argue, not when her left hand is on your thigh, the light firm squeeze reminding you how much she can do if you don’t behave
“fineeee” you can’t even argue, not when she looks adorable while wearing her glasses. you’ve already have taken more pictures than you should and maybe a video or two of you poking her check while reading
so you wait, you wait for what feels like an eternity, when in reality it only took 5 minutes. afterall you have been waiting, not that patiently, on dahyun's lap for 2 out of the 4 hours she's been reading
it's when she closes the book and sets it down do you pounce, but not in a sexy let's go fuck! right now way. rather evertime she finishes reading for the day, she has to deal with you and your energy with activities that she knows you already planned the moment a day like this comes by
"darling darling darling!!" like a golden retriever, you seemingly become hyper when giving her affection in the comfort of your own home. the attack of kisses she receives makes her squeal, hands finding her way to your waist to make you slow down
"so much energy" she teases, but she makes you stay still so she can kiss you properly. the gentleness calming you down just a little bit “what do you want to do today?”
you’re beaming smile at the question makes her think that you might want to do a physical activity today, maybe go back to that pottery class or go to that favorite niche shopping district of yours.
“nothing!” is what you say, and it takes her by a bit of surprise “just want to cuddle”
“nothing?” she repeats, tilting her head to the side, her hands playing with your shirt “don’t you want to go out? didn’t you send me 10 other tiktoks of where we should go?”
“i did” you confirm, brushing the stray hair out of her face, and despite your height difference, you still look so ‘tiny’ on her lap like this “just wanted to stay in today, cuddling with you”
kissing her again, you take this one slow, savoring the way you melt further into her and the way she’s smiling, all giggly with her hands under your shirt, finding the skin of your lower back and rubbing circles
“i know we can go out” you reason with dahyun, kissing her in between every few words said “but i just wanted to have your full attention and to kiss you like this any time i like”
dahyun can feel these words make her heart into mush, her defense crumbling down as you keep on kissing her. her so call attempt to get you to calm down now floating away
of course, anything gentle can change to into something different if someone changes their movement, even in the slightest.
into something a bit heavier.
into desire.
need.
“hi” dahyun looks up at you, her blush reaching down her neck, while whatever lipgloss you’ve had that afternoon already smeared against her lips
“hi” you haven’t even begun, but with the desire swirling in her eyes you know what you both just need
so it barely takes a few minutes for you to drag her to your shared bedroom and for you to absolutely pin her down against the mattress and kiss her again.
“my girl” she’s out of breath but she doesn’t even stop you from taking her breath away with kisses “my pretty girl”
even if dahyun is pinned down on your shared bed by you, it’s her who has control. it is her impatient hands that are taking off your shirt, and her mouth find it’s way to your neck, absolutely marking it as bad as she can do
you can barely even stop her, your desires completely taking over you. your cravings haven’t been met for so long, you couldn’t let this opportunity slip away from you
“darling” before you let her take full control, you manage to pull her away, although the line of spit from her mouth to your neck making you want to pull her back in “wanna feel you”
dahyun is nothing but a doting girlfriend, but when you push her down to your thigh, she lets you take control just for a little bit. she lets you take off her clothes, her eyes admiring the way neck is now stained with marks
she lets her ego go up higher than it should be, all because you look too good marked up by her. it just sounds so tempting, makeup artist be damned, she wants to see the whole world lose it when they see the way you would display her love bites
“eyes up here” you snap her out of it by the time you manage to get rid of both your clothes, your entire body now ingrained in her mind, imagining which spots can she put more marks made by her mouth
“mhm” she’s distracted, which is perfect for you. so you gently guide her to your thigh once more and let her slowly grind on you. her wetness evident as she easily glides on your skin, her breath coming in short pants
“you ok there darling?” you observe her, as she finally takes over and grinds unto your thigh by herself. her eyes hazy with love and lust, hands gripping your shoulders, mouth watering just by looking at you admiring her, smirking at how much you’ve got each other so desperate
dahyun snaps when you giggle, bring one of her fingers to your mouth, give her a show by sucking on it all while flexing your thigh
she lets out a sound, somewhere between a growl and a moan, while she pulls her fingers away but pulls you close to kiss you. it’s driving her crazy feeling your tits right against hers and your whimpers fueling her up
“i love you” dahyun’s words match with her eyes, love pouring over as you hold her close, and her still grinding on your thigh “oh gosh i love you so much baby”
she doesn’t let you answer as she quickly kisses you again, your whimpering mingling in with her moans
“my woman” you manage to let out, your quickly growing desperation finally matching with her’s “my woman, mine. mine mine mine mine mine”
“yours” she already sounds breathless, her hands gripping your shoulders too tight you swear you’re going to end up with it red “i’m all yours baby–hngg ugh–‘m all yours!–hngg!–only yours”
“i can feel you” you’re own wetness already dripping down your legs, and you can’t even fathom waiting for another minute to attend to it. you need to feel dahyun cum, you need to feel her shake and explode before she ruins you into nothing but tears, broken moans and a sore body
“cum for me darling”
she does, with her eyes rolling back and her body shaking at bit. your name slipping out her lips like a prayer and you answer, yours arms wrapping around her body as she tips her head up for a kiss
you both slowly make out to help her come down from that high, her energy regaining with each whimper you make. her ambition to make you feel good coming in hot
“my turn” by the shift of her tone to a low and seductive one, she end up sounding so dominant, that it sends your brain into rethinking if this was the same dahyun who goofs off with you during practice
and you can barely keep up, that by the time you realize what is happening, she’s already lubed up your favorite strap and slowly pushing into you alf while your tits being sucked and pulled on
“look at you” she taunts, her strap already fully inside you by the time she pulls away “you look so gorgeous like this”
you let out a embarrassingly loud moan at how deep she is inside of you, her slowly pumping in and out with the occasional deeper hard thrust that sends your body twitching
“pretty woman” she lets her hips snap, your choked up moans only sending her brain to think of fucking you more “no one fucks you like this but me”
you moan at that, her tone sending you into a bit deeper into her spell. she barely talks like that, but when she does, it works too well on you
“yeah no one does” your voice is strained, mind already on the way to being broken “no one fucks me–hngg ah!–like you do!”
“yeah?” you’re feeding on her ego, her thrusts getting faster and harder, each one driving a moan or a whimper out from you “you’re all ruined by me, all fucked out by me. no one can make you feel like this but me sweetheart.”
she does not stop there
“aww getting desperate are we? here let me help with making you go dumb”
“keep saying my name just like that sweet girl and i’ll keep giving you want you need”
“who can fuck you like this huh? it’s only me right?”
you can barely respond to her, even when you can feel your thighs already shaking by the impending high that’s so close already
“that’s my girl” she’s sure that you’re so close, just a bit over the edge, needing that one final push to reach that peak. so she slides her fingers towards your clit, playing with the bundle of nerves with tight small circles
"cum" dahyun commands before you reach your peak. your vision that’s already so hazy gaining white spots, your hips snapping against the base of her strap, your screams that makes your neighbors wonder if you’re alright
it takes a few minutes for you to finally calm down, with the help of dahyun’s kisses and words of praise. she holds you close to her, skin to skin, as she calms you down from that intense high
"you know i'm like" you breathe out "completely obsessed with you right?"
she only giggles before kissing you, intent to spoil you all over again
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ind1c0lite · 9 months
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(Basic context is that AU of Duel Desinties where the phantom impersonates Phoenix to get him found guilty of Clay's murder, I talk more under the cut abt it jkhlj)
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-Basically meant to be a parallel to turnabout trump, cause if you can have ONE boss get found guilty of murder, why not a second one?
-OK basically: everything in DD happens normally until like- a day before clays murder, Phoenix gets yoinked by the phantom somehow (he is still alive, just being held captive), Phantom is still Fulbright, but they've decided to be silly goofy (target Phoenix and get him found guilty of murder, escape police custody and then murder phoenix and make it seem like Phoenix accidentally died while on the run, thats why they didn't kill phoenix right away unlike the real Fulbright) there is an imposter amo-
-I dont have the logistics as to how this affects solving Metis's murder, and how it effects what evidence is used n whatnot and turnabout for tomorrow as a whole, so im just going nuts HGJKHLJ
-Originally I was actually imagining this taking place during turnabout for tomorrow and I wanted that case to be apollo v klavier instead of phoenix and edgeworth and thats why klav is in here instead of Simon (I decided that Simon got badly injured and couldn't stand in court for the retrial, so klavier was asked to step in)
-The courtroom bombing still happens the same way it does normally, but Apollo decides to take up the case again instead of taking a leave, instead of like, you know, healing from the traumatic event that just happened, turnabout countdown still happens as well
-Apollo and Athena do not find out about the phantom's existence until well after this trial, so they have no idea that Phoenix could've possibly been replaced, though simon, after hearing about the trial, might be suspicious about whether or not that was the real Phoenix
-The Phantom had been not only keeping an eye on Simon for a while, but was also stalking Phoenix and Edgeworth after they both started looking into UR-1, so they were able to impersonate phoenix so well that not even his own daughter thought that anything was up (though while Trucy did find him a *little* bit off, but she figured that it might've been the bombing that caused him to act ever so slightly weird, so she didn't pay much mind to it until she heard about his confession in court and realized it might've been because he possibly, ya know, killed someone)
-it's pretty much just switching Athena being framed for murder with Phoenix, and instead of the trial ending on a cliffhanger, it continues on (probably with Klavier insisting on it) ending with soloman being found innocent and Phoenix being declared guilty
-There's a couple days inbetween the end of the cosmic turnabout and the start of turnabout for tomorrow, so Athena, Apollo and Trucy all get a little bit to process the fact that "oh god my boss/my dad killed someone" (simons execution date is pushed back a bit in this au) and they probably get to talk with Klavier and eventually a lil bit with Simon after he gets out
-Im not sure how it all winds down in turnabout for tomorrow (Phoenix escaping and being at large is basically the perfect cover for the phantom to resume being fulbright for that trial) but they do eventually realize that the phoenix who confessed wasn't the real one and now there's a search on going to find out where the real one is being held captive, hes fineeee just ready to take a week long nap and a good vacation (along with every other waa member)
-I dont have anything else to add on rn but if you want to add something or just throw in a scenario feel free to!! this idea has been bouncing around my head for like a month now and Im very happy to finally show yall it
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bad idea right? | L.B
Pairing: Slytherin Fem Reader X Lorenzo Berkshire
WC: 6k
Warnings/Notes: Mild language, heartbreak, angst, fluff, smut, alcohol, trust issues…
Summary: After your painful breakup with Lorenzo, it seems that he has regrets and he’s not ready to let you go. But, you’re unsure if he can be trusted once more.
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Hey
Haven't heard from you in a couple of months
But I'm out right now, and I'm all fucked up
And you're callin' my phone, you're all alone
And I'm sensin' some undertone
"Come onnnn! You need to let loose and have some fun." Pansy whines.
She had been trying to convince you for about an hour to come on the dance floor and dance with her, but you weren't quite sure how you felt about that. Granted, it had been months since you and Enzo broke up, but you'd be lying if you weren't torn up over it still. You weren't ready to get out there as Pansy put it. She was so desperately trying to get you to move on from Enzo, but you weren't ready for that.
"I don't want to. I just wanted to get out of that stuffy Common Room and I wanted to drink....and Mattheo stopped sharing his stash with me." You say, pouting at the end.
"Boo-hoo, your brother didn't want to support you drowning yourself in your sorrows. At least he cares about you." She says.
"Both of my brothers are being all weird about this. It isn't fair." You grumble.
"You guys have that weird triplet bond. They probably can feel how upset you are." She says, looking mildly disturbed.
You did have a bit of a strange bond with your brothers. You guys were always so close growing up, being able to sense when one was in trouble or if one was in pain or if maybe one was simply not feeling the greatest. It wasn't always the greatest thing because if you found yourself feeling sad, then your brothers were there demanding what was wrong.
"I just wanna have fun!" You whine, feeling that light buzz finally wash over you.
"And you can! On the dance floor, with me." She says.
   
"Fineeee." You grumble.
   
You take her hand, begrudgingly getting up as you walk with her to the dance floor. You were awkward, not really wanting to let loose. You tried your best to ignore that feeling of awkwardness as you tried to let loose and enjoy the music. You close your eyes, only to be met with flashes of you and Enzo at a party, dancing so sensually. You open your eyes, Pansy a little bit away as she dances with a random guy.
   
Your phone starts to buzz in your pocket, so you grab it and answer it, not bothering to glance at the caller ID.
   
"Y/n/n, love?" Enzo murmurs.
   
You freeze, unsure of what to do. You hadn't prepared yourself for this yet. You were already heading outside, hoping the cool air would be able to bring you back.
   
"Love? Are you there?" He asks again.
"Yeah." You say quietly.
   
"I was wondering if you would come over so we could talk." He says.
   
You could hear the nervousness in his voice. You could imagine he was pacing around at this very moment, playing with his family ring or running a hand through his hair.
   
"I...I don't know, Lorenzo." You murmur.
   
You heard his sharp intake and your own heart hurt. No one called him Lorenzo. But, calling him Enzo felt wrong if you weren't together anymore. Not to mention, you always called him Enz or Zo. He loved when you called him that.
   
"Enzo...call me Enzo, please...o-or Enz...or Zo...anything, but Lorenzo." He pleads.
   
Your eyes sting with tears, hating how hurt he sounded, all because you. You knew that despite everything that led to your guys' break-up, that he didn't deserve this. You knew Enzo was a follower, he always was. So, when his best mates joke around about him distancing himself because he spent too much time with you or to say something about your outfit or to joke around about you...it hurts, even if you knew he was a follower.
   
Maybe he regretted that now. But, even then, it wasn't okay. It hurt you and when you tried to talk to him about it, his friends laughed and he joined them. Granted, you saw that he didn't hang with those people anymore. He strictly hung with your brothers; Tom and Mattheo, and your close friends; Theodore, Blaise, and Draco.
   
"I...I don't know if I can." You admit quietly, your own voice cracking.
   
“Can you come to my dorm? Please...I just want to talk, love." He pleads.
   
"I...I don't know if that's a good idea." You mumble.
   
It was quiet and your heart was heavy with guilt. You take in a shaky breath, looking around for a moment. You almost thought he hung up when you heard a strangled noise from his side. A tear falls down your cheek, realizing that he was trying not to cry.
   
"I respect that...I hope you're taking care, love." He murmurs.
   
You open your mouth to respond, but you heard the line end. You pull the phone away from your ear and frown, another lone tear falling down your cheek.
And I'm right here with all my friends
But you're sendin' me your new address
And I know we're done, I know we're through
But, God, when I look at you
   
You tried to dance with Pansy, but you found yourself calling it a night early. On your way back to Hogwarts, you found yourself looking at old pictures of you and Enzo, a painful ache in your chest. But, you found yourself in front of Enzo's dorm door, softly knocking. He laid in bed when he heard it, but he wasn't so sure if it was a knock or if someone was walking down the hallway.
You knocked again, a little harder as your heart began to beat violently in your chest. You weren't ready for this in the slightest. But, at the same time...maybe this is what you needed...no, probably not...probably yes...you weren't sure. You just knew you missed Enzo.
My brain goes, "Ah"
Can't hear my thoughts (I cannot hear my thoughts)
Like blah-blah-blah (blah,blah,blah,blah,blah,blah)
Should probably not
I should probably, probably not
I should probably, probably not
   
The door opens to reveal Enzo. His eyes were puffy as if he'd be crying...you knew he had been. You try to give him a small smile, another way you tried to fight back your own tears, but really it just made a lone tear fall down your cheek. You quickly wipe it away, shuffling your feet awkwardly.
   
"I...after you called...I couldn't stop thinking...about us...so, I came to talk like...like you asked earlier...o-of course if you still want to. If not, I'll go." You murmur, your nerves getting the best of you.
   
"I still want to talk, love...I'm just surprised you came...after all...I hurt you. I don't deserve you giving me a chance to talk." He says, his face heating with his own embarrassment.
   
He moves aside, motioning you in. You step into the familiar dorm where you had spent most of your time. You take a seat on the edge of his bed, looking at him to ignore that he still had all of the pictures of you guys hung up. He sits beside you, leaving not much space between you both.
   
"Maybe...maybe not...but I feel like there is a lot being left unsaid." You say quietly, playing with the hem of your dress.
   
"I never should've attempted trying to impress them. If they were my friends, they'd be happy for me...for us. They'd treat you with the respect you deserve." He says.
   
"I'm glad you know that because it did really hurt me. I really thought we were going to be forever, Enzo." You say, smiling sadly.
   
"It's not too late for us to pick up the pieces, love. We can still be forever." He says.
   
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
Seein' you tonight, fuck it, it's fine
   
You knew things would never be how they were before. You weren't sure if you could ever trust him one hundred percent after everything. You were one who would protect themself with whatever it takes, even if that means keeping people at a distance.
   
You were trying to find the words to tell him your thoughts, but his lips were on yours, kissing you softly. You were frozen at first, before you were melting into the kiss. You found yourself straddling his lap as his hands found your hips as he slowly leaned back, your guys' lips never breaking apart.
Your hands slide up to his hair, gently pulling at the soft locks. He groans into your mouth, pulling you impossibly closer to him. Your hips roll against him, feeling the growing hardness beneath you. His hand sweeps your hair over your shoulder, unzipping your dress as the other hand held your head in place.
You pull back, your lungs burning for air. You shrug the straps off your shoulders, letting the dress pool around your waist. He groans, his eyes falling on your breasts. He rolls over, your back pressed against the soft bed. He sits up, gently pulling your dress down past your hips and down your legs.
          
"N-No panties either, love? This dress is so short, I might have to go beat up any guys that stared too long." He grumbles.
          
Your cheeks flush red, but nonetheless you roll over, crawling to the middle of his bed. You heard his pants unbuckle and you lay back, your heart beating against your chest like a drum.
Yes, I know he's my ex, but can't two people reconnect?
"I only see him as a friend," the biggest lie I ever said
Oh, yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two people reconnect?
I only see him as a friend, I just tripped and fell into his bed
      
"You are so beautiful, love." He murmurs, hovering above you, having had finally stripped from his clothes.
      
"And you're handsome, Enz." You whisper, looking into those brown eyes that were soft and warm, eyes that lured you in.
       
You moan softly as he sinks into you. The familiar hardness of him sinking inside of you, bit by bit, was tremendously overwhelming. You body still fit with his like a puzzle, yet you always struggled with the thickness of him. It was like your body refused to get use to his cock, but the familiar stretch and sting was pleasurable to you.
You finally felt as if you were at home. He sinks the rest of the way into you, leaning forward and pressing his forehead against yours. Your breaths mingled as you both tried to recover from a sensation you both missed. Being this close was something you both didn't see happening again after the breakup. And the both of you feared that this would still be the last time.
He slowly moves his hips, lifting his head and watching your face for any sign of discomfort. Your eyes were closed, but he desperately wanted to see y/e/c, his favorite. Your lips part as he picks up the pace, a soft moan leaving you.
"Open your eyes, love." He murmurs.
And you did.
Teary eyed as you looked up at him, unsure of what this meant for you both. His hips stutter as his own eyes gloss over. He leans down, kissing you softly as he tried to reassure you that it was okay, they everything would work out.
You hold him closer, afraid that if you let him go that you'd wake up and that this was a dream. You let him make love to you, something he made evidently clear and that this just wasn't sex or a fuck to him.
You went from being underneath him, to him behind you as you buried your face in his sheets, to being on top of him as your rolled your hips and watching him fall to pieces, to his head between your thighs, only for you to suck him off and you found yourself sitting on his face as his tongue did what it usually did when you guys were together.
All the while you sat on his face, rolling your hips and grinding against his face as you held onto the headboard, his hands holding onto to your hips, tears fell down your cheeks as his tongue traced out "I love you" over and over. He did it often when you guys were dating, trying to express how much he loved you.
You let him hold you closer after, your guys' bodies spent as you laid in silence. Your head was rested on his chest, listening to his rhythmic heartbeat. He had an arm wrapped around you, tracing a heart over and over on your hip, your legs entangled with his as his other hand ran through your hair. You had a hand rested on his abdomen, just wanting to be closer to him as your eyes began to close.
Now I'm gettin' in the car, wreckin' all my plans
I know I should stop—, but I can't
And I told my friends I was asleep
But I never said where or in whose sheets
You quietly slid your dress back on, trying not to wake Enzo and to beat everyone before they woke up. You rather do your walk of shame from his dorm in peace. You weren't so sure of where things stood between you and Enzo. You look back to see that he was stirring in his sleep, a hand reaching out to search for you in the empty side of his bed. Your heart ached and you were torn on climbing back into his bed or to leave.
"Stay, a little longer." He murmurs, almost as if he could hear your thoughts.
"This dress is uncomfortable and I'm not sure if being naked again in the best idea right now." You mumble, looking at the heels you held in hand.
"You can wear one of my shirts if you want. I think you still have some clothes in the drawer we put together for you. Although I doubt the shorts fit anymore." He mumbles.
"What?"  You whisper confused.
"Not a bad thing, love. You've been working out a lot from what I've seen and then Pans told me. Your bum has gotten bigger. You can wear a pair of my boxers if you want." He murmurs, eyes still closed.
You were standing there, unsure of what to do. You look at the time and know you should leave because people will be waking up soon.
"Enz, people are going to be waking up soon. I should go." You whisper.
"Just a few minutes and then you can go. But, can we please talk soon? If not now, can we find a time?" He asks as you crawl back into his bed and curl up beside him. 
"Look what talking led to last night, Enz." You whisper.
"Do you regret it?" He asks quietly, but you could hear the fear in his voice.
"No, I don't regret it, Enz. But, I just...I'm so confused and I'm unsure of what I should do." You admit.
"I know, I know you are, love...but please give us a chance to talk. We can go out for coffee if you'd like? That little shop we use to go to." He says.
"Okay...just text me the details you have in mind. I should go. I need to get showered." You murmur, sitting up some to look at his face.
He opens his eyes, watching you for a minute. He brushes a strand of hair behind your ear, his other hands cupping your cheek as his thumb ghosts over your bottom lip.
"If you don't go now, I'll probably end up kissing you and who knows where that will lead." He whispers.
"Go back to sleep, Enz. You look tired." You murmur, kissing his cheek before getting up.
You get to your dorm, letting a breath you didn't know you were holding out. You hurry to your en-suite bathroom, quickly getting in the shower. When you got out, you dressed in a white deep v-neck crop top. You pull on black leggings and a pair of converse. If you could take your last day of the weekend to be in comfy clothes before a torturous week of the formal wear, you'll take it. You dry your hair, but don't have the patience to style it. You put it up in a messy bun before applying mascara and lip gloss.
You meet up with Pansy who was regretting her choices of drinking so much. You guys stop at the bathroom because she felt like throwing up. You waited until she was done and she looked at you funny.
 "I thought you went back to your dorm last night? Did you bring someone back? You've got a hickey." She says.
You go to the mirror and curse when you see a hickey poking out from the collar. You remembered that you'll curse Enzo later before turning back to Pansy, shrugging with a smile.
 "I met someone on my way out. Nice guy." You murmur.
"Mhm...right." She murmurs, not believing you.
You see that Enzo was sitting with your brothers and your guys' shared friends. Pansy tugs at your hand.
"Can we please sit with them today? I know things are rough between you and Enzo, but I really miss all of them." She mumbles.
"Yeah, of course. Enzo and I talked a bit last night. He called me while we were dancing. We are both mature people and we can definitely be friends after everything." You say.
It wasn't a total lie, but you also felt like this was convincing you to be more comfortable with him and the possibility of either being friends or a couple again. You take a seat at the table, surprising the boys before Theodore hugs your tight, leaving a big wet kiss on your forehead.
"Ewww, Theo!" You whine, wiping your head on his shirt.
"I've missed having you around, baby Riddle." He admits.
"You've got to stop calling her that." Pansy laughs.
"She loves it, don't you?" He says.
"I love you." You say, grimacing and he laughs, pulling you into a hug.
"I'll start calling you, bella ragazza." He says, and your lips part at his Italian accent being so thick which only seems to show with him speaking his first language.
 
"What's it mean?" You ask curiously.
"Pretty girl."  He says, smirking.
Enzo's hand tightens around his fork before tensing as a foot plops on his lap. He relaxes when he sees your familiar converse.
       
"No dating you two." Tom grumbles.
       
"Ew, no. She's like a sister to me. But, she hates being called princess, flower, rose, baby riddle, cutie, sunshine, and hun. So, it's pretty girl, but in Italian. It sounds cuter." He says.
       
"I'll try not to be offended that you said we about dating me." You pout.
        
"Oh, you know I love you, but I grew up with you and you were always like that annoying little sister I didn't  realize I wanted. Hey! I was kidding, no need to get violent. Sure, you're pretty and all, but you're not feisty enough for me. Nor, as badass as I prefer." He says.
       
"She is literally the feistiest person ever. And she's scarier than Tom...and our dad. You just have to push the right buttons." Mattheo deadpans.
        
"Hey! Making me grumpy like that makes me feel icky for days! No making me grumpy or you'll all suffer the merciless wrath and you'll understand why our dad fears me. There is a reason our mother is nameless." You say, grinning.
        
"You are the freaking devil." Mattheo grumbles.
You glare at him, making the guys laugh. You pout and Enzo smile slightly at you. Things were starting to feel normal now and it felt nice to be surrounded by your friends and your brothers.
An owl swoops in, dropping a bouquet of flowers in front of you. Your lips part in surprise and your eyes widen briefly before you reach out and grab ahold of the bouquet. You could feel the eyes of your friends on you, the nervousness rising as their gazes flicker from you to Enzo. Enzo's face had flushed red from anger, his eyes darker than normal, his lips in a thin line and his fork was severely bent.
You slide the letter out and carefully open it. You flick open the letter, seeing it was from Tevon Long. He was a Ravenclaw, a year ahead of you. He was asking you out to Hogsmeade because he thought you were pretty.
"Who is it from?" Mattheo asks.
"Tevon Long." You mumble, tucking the note back in the envelope.
"What's he want?" He asks, popping his knuckles.
"Mattheo, you aren't hurting him. He hasn't even done anything. He just want to go out to Hogsmeade. But, I'll just tell him in not interested. See, simple? Sometimes conversations are better than fighting." You say, quirking an eyebrow at him.
"Tevon has a bad temper. It's probably best to take one of us guys when you decide to tell him you're not interested. He gets a little...violent. Unless, of course, you want me to handle him." Mattheo says.
"I can handle it. If he even raises a hand, no promises there'll be a Tevon Long anymore." You say, smiling at him.
"See, the devil." He laughs.
You shake your head, seeing Luna Lovegood walking towards your table.
"Nice flowers, Y/n. I was wondering if you are okay? You seem to be glowing today." She says with confusion.
"Glowing is a good thing, Lu." Pansy says softly, a smile on her face.
"Oh! Okay, that makes sense." She mumbles.
"Here." You murmur, taking a flower from the bouquet and tucking it behind her ear once you broke the stem.
"Thank you, have a good day." She says before walking away while mumbling to herself.
"I've gotta go, see you later." You mumble, deciding to get to class and avoid Tevon.
And I pull up to your place, on the second floor
And you're standin', smiling at the door
And I'm sure I've seen much hotter men
But I really can't remember when
"So, Tevon, huh." Lorenzo says, falling into step beside you.
"I told him off. He didn't like it very much. Theo stepped in because as Mattheo said, he went to get physical. Don't tell Mattheo he's right though. It'll go to his head and that's all we need," you say as you roll your eyes before glancing at him and smirking, "jealous, Berkshire? Green doesn't suit you."
"Jealous? I'm not jealous." He says quickly, his cheeks flushing red.
"Mhm...sure. It seems all the guys have decided it's been long enough since we broke up and now I keep receiving bouquets of flowers and chocolates. I've given most to Luna." You say, deciding to test the waters.
"Most? What about the others?" He asks.
"I kept one...he's a rather sweet guy...shouldn't I open myself up and give them a chance?" You ponder aloud.
You gasp, dropping your books and bag to the floor as your pressed against a nearby wall in the empty corridor. You look up at Enzo in surprise to see dark eyes, ones you didn't quite see often, but you knew he was in fact jealous.
"Okay, you win, love. I'm jealous, but please...do not go out with them. Give me a chance. Let me make things right." He pleads.
"And how do I know you won't just break my heart again?" You murmur, your eyes flickering to his lips.
"Because it's been hell since I fucked things up. Please...just give me a chance. I'm begging you. I'll make it right this time. We can be forever just like we imagined. Please, love." He begs.
"I love it when you beg, Enz. Such a pretty boy. But, I can't just give in to your pleas...not yet. You'll need to prove your worthiness as to why you deserve a chance after the shit you put me through." You say matter-a-factly.
"God, you really are a Riddle." He chuckles, leaning down to kiss your cheeks before bending down to grab your school items.
"Yes, and don't forget that for your own sake." You say, walking away from him with your stuff as he gapes at you.
My brain goes, "Ah"
Can't hear my thoughts (I cannot hear my thoughts)
Like blah-blah-blah (blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah)
Should probably not
I should probably, probably not
I should probably, probably not
The music was loud in the Common Room and it was impossible to hear anyone. You were determined to have a good time though. It was a long week of testing and trying to continue to be stubborn to Lorenzo's attempts to prove he is a worthy of another chance. You were painfully afraid of him breaking your heart again. You weren't sure if you could handle it a second time. You wanted to be sure before making a mistake.
However, you might've forgotten to slow down on the drinks. Now you were dancing on a table with Pansy, a group of guys surrounding the table as they cheered you on.
The guys had assumed you two would be okay while they all went out for some fresh air, some of them just needing a smoke. However, none of them paid attention to the drinks the two of you downed before and during the party. Now you guys were drunk and the only thought on your mind was Lorenzo.
You couldn't stop thinking about his lips—god, his pillow soft pink lips, and not to mention his pretty brown eyes. You loved the way they were so soft, but there were the times you went crazy for those dark eyes staring down at you with desire as he fucked you.
You wanted his hands on your hips, loving how they were large and they were slightly veiny—something you were unaware you were attracted to.
At that very moment, Lorenzo walked in the Common Room first, the guys in tow before they all froze as they watched both you and Pansy in shock.
"Fuck, are they throwing money at us?" Pansy slurs, her lips brushing your ear as this was the only way to listen.
"Mmm, yeah I think so. Are we naked?" You mumble confused.
"No, no..." She mumbles.
"Do you think they can see up our dresses?" You whisper with wide eyes.
"Oh fudge nuggets." Pansy whispers.
They couldn't as the room was fairly dark, the green lights flashing amongst the dark room, but you guys wouldn't know that. The thought was gone soon after and you both were dancing sensually once more on the table as the guys pushes through the crowd.
Tom wraps a hand around your ankle, grasping your attention. He holds a hand out as Draco scoops Pansy off the table, handing her down to Blaise who gently sets her on the floor.
You wobble slightly, reaching a hand out and grabbing Toms hand. Mattheo appeared, taking your other one as you looked at the moving ground with a pale face. Lorenzo steps forward, his hands on your hips as he lifts you off the table and gently sets you on the floor. Your hands held your brothers tightly as you sway.
"Oh no, why's the floor moving...why's the room moving?" You mumble, looking around quickly which didn't help you.
"I can take her to her dorm." Lorenzo offers.
Your brothers accept the offer hesitantly, but they both knew he wouldn't ever hurt you. No, they knew it was eating him alive for what he did to you months ago. It was clear to everyone that he loved you desperately and he'd do anything to prove that to you.
He winds an arm around your waist, throwing your arm over his shoulder as he slowly makes the destination to your room. You finally felt like you could breathe.
"Drink this, love." He says softly, handing you a glass of water.
"You're so pretty, Enz. I've always wondered how someone could be so perfect. I love your lips, they are so pink and so soft. And your eyes, so warm and welcoming, yet I've gotten to see how dark and desperate filled they could be. And your hands...did I ever tell you how much I love your hands? They are so, so, sexy." You mumble as you grab his hand and look at it.
"Darling, drink the water." He urges softly, his cheeks red as he felt flustered.
You drink the water, unaware of the potion he'd put in to help sober you up faster. He sifts through your closet before finding one of his shirts you had stolen. He walks over to you, coaxing you to sit on the bed.
He gently starts to take your shoes off as you became more sober, but it didn't help with the feeling between your legs. He gasps lightly as your fingers tangle in his hair, lifting his head to look at you.
"I need you, Enz. Right the fuck now." You say, before gasping as he pins you to the bed, kissing you feverishly.
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
Seein' you tonight, fuck it, it's fine
"So...these mysterious hickeys?" Pansy asks as you both get ready for classes.
"Just having fun." You mumble tiredly.
"Whatever. Are you and Enzo back together?" She asks.
"I know he's my ex, but we are just friends trying to reconnect." You say defensively.
"Right, and that's exactly why when I went to sneak in this morning, you both were lying in your bed naked." She says sarcastically.
You sigh, knowing that it was eventually going to be found out. You just wished you had more time. You focus on your eyeliner for the time being as you tried to find words.
"Okay...I don't know what's going on between Enz and I. I love him...that never went away, but I don't quite trust him. Or maybe I do. But, I'm so scared he'll break my heart again. I'm suppose to be making him prove he's worthy of even having a chance, but we ended up having sex again last night. I just don't need judged or told what to do. I don't know what I want or what I want to do." You admit.
"Y/n/n, I'd never judge you. I think you need to do what's right for you. No matter what you do, I'm in full support if you and Enz end up back together, that's great! You guys were amazing the first time around, it was just his shitty friends. But, they are out of the picture now and he has better friends. But, if you decide that you need to move on from Enz and be just friends, I got you. I'll set you up, I could probably set him up so it isn't so hard to be friends." She says and you laugh softly.
"Gosh, I love you Pans." You murmur.
"Oh I know." She laughs.
Yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two people reconnect?
"I only see him as a friend," the biggest lie I ever said,
Oh, yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two people reconnect?
I only see him as a friend, I just tripped and fell into his bed
You continue walking to the Black Lake. Your eyes on the figure who sat right at the shore. Pansy told you he was being odd today—skipping classes, being quiet, being distant and not his normal self at all.
You take a seat next to him, looking out over the Black Lake that glistened under the suns beacon. You look at your knees and sigh.
"Enz, what's going on?" You ask.
He's quiet, unsure of what to say and if he should even say it. You wait patiently, looking back over the lake as you rest your chin on your knees.
"What am I to you?" He asks quietly.
"What do you mean?" You ask confused.
"I've been trying for close to two or three months since we started talking to get back in your good graces. When I think things are going good, we end up sleeping together and then you push me away again." He says confused.
You were quiet, knowing you couldn't be mad that he was growing impatient and upset. It wasn't really fair of you to keep pushing him away after you guys have a very intimate moment. You haven't been the most communicative with him, and you know that.
"Look...I'm sorry. You're right, and I understand your feelings there. I should've been more communicative of my feelings." You explain slowly.
Oh, yes, I know that he's my ex
Can't two people reconnect?
"What's bothering you then? Talk to me, love. I need to understand where your head is in all this." He pleads.
"Enz...I love you and I'll probably always love you if we are being one hundred percent honest. Yes, when we were together I thought we were forever. And yes, I want to give you this chance, but I'm...I'm scared. I hate saying that, but I am. It has been so hard for me to vulnerable and to be able to open up and trust someone enough to love them my entire life...until you. Then...things happened and you hurt me. I want to give you the chance, but I'm so terrified of letting you back in and you hurting me again." You admits quietly.
You close your eyes, hating this sense of vulnerability and emotion. You always tried to keep your emotions at bay and your head on right in order to protect yourself, but it never seemed to quite work out that way when you were with Enzo. He was staring at you, trying to find words of his own and you couldn't bare to look in his deep brown eyes.
You weren't sure if you could handle what his eyes had to say. Instead, your eyes were closed as you tried to ground yourself.
The biggest lie I ever said
"Love...I know I screwed up the first time around, but trust me when I say I regret it. I don't even talk to those people anymore. I realized that if they couldn't accept that I was happy with you and that you were utterly amazing and beautiful, that they didn't deserve to be apart of our lives. I however, realized that too late. But, I learned from my mistakes and I don't want to ever hurt you again, love. Nor, lose you. I realized how much I need you in my life. My heart is yours just as my body and soul and I couldn't have it any other way." He says.
Flashes of the past few months of him trying goes through your head and you smile slightly. He's bought you countless bouquets of flowers, your favorite chocolates, writing handwritten notes, taking you out for a date, giving you his jumper or sweater when your cold, sweet little kisses on your cheek or hand to make you less anxious...and you realize that he's serious.
I just tripped and fell into his bed
"Would you be my boyfriend?" You ask.
You open your eyes, looking at him to see his cheeks flushing red as embarrassment and shyness creep up. You were always direct and he wasn't as direct. It somehow still managed to catch him off guard, even now.
"Yes." He whispers and you smile softly at him.
"You're so pretty." You murmur.
My brain goes, "Ah"
You walk into the Great Hall, hand-in-hand with Enzo as you laugh softly at his story. He was always a brilliant story-teller and he had a lot to fill you in on. Your brothers and friends look at the two of you with dropped jaws as you both sit across from each other. You rest a foot in his lap as you ignore the quietness from your table.
"A-Are you two dating?" Mattheo asks.
"Again?" Tom adds.
"I thought you both were just friends." Pansy whispers confused.
"Yes, we are dating...again. This time will be forever though." You say, smiling softly at Enzo who grins and agrees.
If only you knew the plans of this boys dreams for the two of you.
Can't hear my thoughts
The biggest lie I ever said
My brain goes, "Ah"
Can't hear my thoughts
I just tripped and fell into his bed
Thoughts
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can you do a part 3 with Hughes sister and Matt Rempe?
"Together!?" pt3 Pairing: Matt Rempe x Twin Hughes Sister!Reader
YOUR POV
April third. The day you've been dreading. Luke promised to try and talk Kurtis out of trying to fight Matt, but Luke said it doesn't seem like he is budging.
You sit on Matt's bed and watch him tie his tie in the mirror.
"Please be careful." You say for what feels like the thousandth time for Matt.
"I will. You have nothing to worry about, babe."
"I just know he's going to try something. He won't let the idea leave his head."
"I'll be ready for whatever happens. If he does decide to start something it will probably be during a face off."
Matt fixes his collar and turns around to face you. "I got to get going. Good luck kiss?"
You nod and stand up from the bed, making your way over to him. He pulls you into a hug and lifts you off the ground a little bit to kiss you. "You have nothing to worry about. I promise everything will be fine."
You kiss him again and he puts you back down. "I love you."
"I love you too."
MATT REMPE POV Putting the both of us in the starting line up was definitely a set up.
We weren't even lined up for the face off yet and he was already trying to start shit.
"You want it?"
"No."
We lined up for face off and I could see him look over at me out of the corner of my eye.
"Your girlfriend will eventually realize how big of a pussy you are and dump your ass. Enjoy it while it lasts, Rempe."
The puck hit the ice my gloves were off and I went straight for him. We started throwing punches and the rest of the players started fighting as well.
After what felt like forever, we were all finally separated and escorted off the ice.
I could still feel the adrenaline coursing through my veins as I ripped off my gear.
"You think your girl is going to be pissed, Remps?" Jacob asks.
"At me? No. At her brothers' teammates? Definitely. She already knew he was going to try and fight me. I turned it down at first and then he kept running his mouth."
YOUR POV The game ends and you go to meet Matt.
K'Andre notices you and bumps into Matt, making him look up from his phone. "Catch ya later."
"Yeah, later. Hey." Matt tells you as you walk up to him.
"What the hell happened?! I saw you tell him no at first."
"He couldn't keep his fucking mouth shut and it pissed me off." he replies.
"What did he say?" You ask, grabbing his hand as you guys walk towards the exit.
"We'll talk about it when we get back to my apartment, okay."
"Alright."
Back at the apartment you let Matt unwind a little bit before bringing it up again. "Can you tell me what he said?"
"He basically just called me a pussy and said that you'll eventually realize and leave, to enjoy it while it lasts. Which yeah, I shouldn't have gave into him, but part of me started to wonder if it was true."
You shake your head no and lean into him. "It's not true. You're not a pussy and I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me now."
Matt slightly smiles and pulls you in for a kiss. "I love you. Way more than you know."
"I love you too."
-
You're back in Newark and Jack and Luke have some of the guys over.
They've been trying to get you to come be social for the last ten minutes.
"Y/N!!!!" You hear Nico yell, probably from his usual spot on the couch.
"They aren't going to leave you alone until you go out there." Matt laughs.
"But I want to talk to you."
"We can talk later. Go hangout with them."
"But my bed is so cozy."
"Now I know you're just making up excuses, babe. Your bed is the most uncomfortable thing ever."
"Okay, you caught me, but I don't know who all is here."
"So go see. I need to go to the gym anyway. It will give you something to do while I'm gone."
"Fineeee. I'll talk to you later. I love you."
"I love you too."
You end the call and make your way out of your room.
Dawson and Nico look away from the tv when they notice you walk in.
"Sorry, I was busy."
"Doing what?"
"Ignoring you guys like usual. Where's Rowdy and Luke?"
"They went to get food and the three of us didn't want to go." Dawson answers.
"Three…?"
"Yeah. I'm here too." You hear Kurtis behind you and you turn around to see him leaning against the doorway, arms crossed.
"How's your face feeling?" You ask, earning laughs from Dawson and Nico.
"Fine. Just a little sore. You know, after your boyfriend decided to take a swing at me."
"He wouldn't have if you hadn't provoked him."
"Provoked him? Please, he's just a hothead with no self-control."
You roll your eyes. "Whatever helps you sleep at night, Kurtis."
Kurtis scoffs and pushes off the doorway. "You know, he's not the knight in shining armor you think he is. Eventually, you'll see that. But hey, don't let me ruin your fairy tale romance."
With that, Kurtis walks away, leaving you pissed off.
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drewsbuzzcut · 8 months
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Mine
mat barzal x model!fem!reader
a visceral in doses blurb
warnings: none that I can think of
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Mat walks up to you, a little smirk decorating his face, and lays a big kiss on your lips. It’s sweet and borderline messy, it makes you let out a soft giggle. Your hands settle on his sides, softly feeling the hard muscle of his torso.
“What was that for?” You ask, eyes closed in bliss.
“Just because I can kiss my wife whenever I want to,” he answers back, kissing your lips once again.
This time the kiss is a little more sensual, one hand cupping your cheek and the other holding onto your neck. You part your lips to let his tongue explore your mouth, your hands start to wander the expanse of his back, softly pulling on his shirt.
In the midst of your hot makeout, you hear little feet pounding against the floor followed by, “daddy no!”
You pull away from Mat to see your 4 year old son, Nolan, glaring at Mat. Mat bursts out laughing, pulling you closer to him to get Nolan to react the same way. Nolan’s eyebrows furrow and his usual smile is now a scowl. Nolan stomps over to you, reaching his arms out for you to hold him and you do.
Mat pulls you in for another kiss, making Nolan let out a low growl and push his face away from yours. You push down the urge to laugh, but Mat finds it too amusing to hold it in.
“She’s my wife, buddy. I can kiss her all i want,” he says and you raise your eyebrows at him, challenging him without Mat even realizing.
“She’s my mommy. Only I can kiss her,” to prove his point, Nolan kisses your cheek and lips before stuffing his head in your neck, and securely wrapping his arms around you.
“She was mine first,” your husband rebuttals. He tries to prove his point by kissing you, but before Nolan can push him away, you move your face out of Mat’s reach. Since he found it funny to tease Nolan, you were going to tease him.
Now it’s Mat’s turn to glare at you. The same glare that Nolan was just sporting. Nolan giggles at you moving away from his daddy, causing you to finally let out your laughter.
“Babe, c’mon. Kiss me.”
“I don’t know, barzy. I’m Nolan’s mommy, so I don’t think I can kiss you. Isn’t that right Nolie bear?”
“Right! My mommy, my kisses,” he chants.
“That makes daddy sad,” Mat says with a fake frown.
“You can only kiss mommy one time,” Nolan says.
“One time?” Mat shouts, dramatically falling to the floor with a hand over his heart.
You smile at their theatrics, noting how similar they are.
“Fineeee. You can kiss mommy whenever you want, but I get to give her more kisses,” Nolan suggests, in an annoyance that is too cute for a toddler to have.
“I like that idea.”
“Me too, now give mommy kisses,” you say, smiling when Nolan gives you kisses all over your face.
After Nolan runs off back to his toys, Mat pulls you into his body again, letting his hands grip your ass.
“Kiss me,” you whisper to him.
Well, who is he to not answer to your commands?
a/n: Hope y’all enjoy!
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lcandothisallday · 11 months
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Hiiii. I wanted to know if you would write about Jeremy coming out of ACL surgery and confessing his love while he wakes up from anesthesia. I just love the caretaker/lovey aspect!
Jeremy (WMCJ) x f!reader
hmm idk how i feel about this lol
You had only been dating Jeremy for a few months when he told you he had to go into surgery for his ACL. The only issue being he had known for a bit now and only decided to tell you the night before.
“How come you’re only telling me now!” you exclaim in question. “I could’ve tried to book off of work to join you—”
Jeremy sighed. “That’s exactly why I didn’t tell you until now. You can’t afford skipping a day of work just for me. I’ll be fine,” he shrugged nonchalantly.
“I don’t think you know the lengths that I would go for you, J,” you state matter of factly, swiftly moving to straddle his hips, careful of putting your weight anywhere near his knees before you wrap your arms around neck. “I’ll be there when you wake up. I promise. And best believe I’ll be there for every step of your recovery. Okay?” you whisper sweetly against his lips, before you kiss him, not giving him the chance to object.
The next day comes around and to say you were anxious the entire day was an extreme understatement. You couldn’t believe your boyfriend put you in this position—forced to go to work worried for him. By the time it hit 2:00 pm, you knew you had to find any excuse to leave.
“Please Anna—he’s in surgery as we speak,” you plead to your boss. “If I had known earlier I would’ve asked to have the day off sooner.”
“I told you before— that white man is gonna be the death of you,” she tsked. “Y’all only been dating for what? 3 months and he has you missing half of your work weeks. You needa set your priorities straight,” she stated sassily.
At that, you can’t help but sigh. “Anna I’m in love with him…” you admit quietly, the first time you say it out loud. You had contemplated the feeling, thinking it was entirely too soon to know. But in that moment you knew—and if it meant risking your job, you’d allow it. “I don’t want him waking up in that hospital room alone.”
Anna shook her head and let out a dramatic sigh. “Fineeee. You may leave early…but I expect you to pull extra hours when he’s recovered because lord knows you’re gonna baby that man child.”
You can’t help the smile that overtakes your features. “Thank you so much!” you say, feeling relief.
Without hesitation, you speed out. You make it to the hospital in record time, even before Jeremy is out of the surgery. You wait in his room, scrolling through your phone with your leg bouncing anxiously to desperately try to kill time.
Finally, after what felt like forever, your head snaps up when you hear and see the nurses roll him into the room. Despite his relaxed features, seeing him still unconscious made your heart sink. You stand up to your feet quickly and rush to his side, taking his hand in yours.
“Did the surgery go well?” you ask one of the nurses. She nods and smiles. “Yes it did. He should wake up in the next hour—he’ll probably be a bit loopy from the anesthesia and meds.”
You nod in understanding, your hand giving his a light squeeze which the nurse noticed. “He told me about you,” she started, piquing your interest. “Your name’s Y/N right?” You nod again.
“What did he say?” you ask curiously. She chuckled. “Well we noticed that he came in alone and asked if there’d be anyone to help him with recovery…and he mentioned you reluctantly. Said he felt guilty for dragging you in but knows you’re too stubborn to let him do anything alone.”
“Damn right,” you breathed out.
She chuckled again. “He’s lucky to have you…although I feel sorry for you. He seems like a handful. Kept going on about some detox drink,” she teased, causing you to let out a laugh.
“He definitely is at times. Wouldn’t change it for the world.”
The nurse and you exchanged a few more words before she told you that she’d be back when he’s awake to explain recovery.
You watch the nurse leave before you pull a chair closer to sit on. In the meantime, you take the time to admire your sleeping boyfriend. His eyelashes laid against his cheeks and little specks of his freckles littered his nose. He truly was such a handsome man—if only he just dressed a bit better you thought. But as he says, he didn’t choose the hippy life, the hippy life chose him.
About 20 minutes later is when Jeremy started to wake. He groaned and shifted slightly before you saw his eyebrows furrow. You quickly call for the nurse before you’re rushing back to his side, his hand back in yours. Eventually, his eyes blinked open and it took him a moment to focus on you.
“Hey,” you begin softly with a smile. “How you feeling?”
An adorable toothy grin widened on Jeremy’s face. “Hey baby,” he replied back. “I’m feeling good…I think? I don’t know—I’m hella drugged up.”
You giggled at his response. “Yeah—the nurses said you’d be loopy," you explain, as you brushed a strand of his curls away from his face.
He hummed. With a drowsy smile, he looked at you again, his words slightly slurred. "You know, you're like... the most amazing person in the universe," he mumbled, his eyes struggling to focus.
You chuckled softly. "Baby that's just the anesthesia talking," you replied playfully. "But I'll take the compliment."
"Good," he hummed in satisfaction, resting his head back on the pillow comfortably. “You’re also like super hot,” he murmured, causing you to keep giggling.
“I’m lucky to have you,” he continued. “No one has ever cared this much about me…and I love you.”
Your heart melted at his words, your hands moving up to cup his face. Whether he truly meant it or not, you weren’t sure but it didn’t matter because you felt the same.
“Oh J I love you too,” you hum, leaning down to press a kiss to his lips. “But I fully expect you to say it again when you’re alert and sober,” you giggle.
Jeremy grinned. “Deal…now can you kiss me again? I hear it’s part of the recovery,” he mused cheekily.
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wonysugar · 10 months
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hellooo I loved ur yunjin and yeji fics they were so smfhfhfh <333 if u don't mind could I request a chaewonxfem!reader where they've both been crushing on each other for months and have their first kiss on the floor of their friends house (and it escalates from there) this has literally been on my mind this whole day I just need someone to put it into words
also sorry if I'm not doing this right it's like my second time making a request 🥲
hello anon!! thank you so much for the kind words, it’s so appreciated<3 also OHMY GOD? i’m in love with this idea thank you for the request
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“god where are they? it’s already 9pm, they were supposed to show up ages ago.” you groan as you frustratingly put your phone back in your pocket, earning a slight giggle from chaewon.
“it’s okay y/n, we can wait out here if we have to, it’s not that cold.” she pulls out her phone to check the time. “or…”
you look at her, curiosity painted all over your face, “or?”
“…we can go to the convenience store to pass time and potentially get something to drink.” she suggests, standing up from the bench and pointing one that’s walking distance from where we are.
“i mean, it’s not like they’re coming anytime soon, so..” you grab your bag, walking towards a smiley chaewon and reaching out for her hand, grabbing it.
you knew exactly what going to the convenience store entailed; you, accidentally dropping a bunch of things, an employee getting on your ass and her, laughing loudly about it. it was basically a routine that happened every time you two hung out and you are more than happy to live it again today.
just hanging out with chaewon, talking to chaewon, holding hands with chaewon, is a serotonin boost of its own. she has a way of making people feel good, happy. she also has a way of making people fall for her, which you would know very well. ever since a few months ago, you’ve been infatuated by her. you guys met a while ago, but you’ve only started considering her a ‘crush’ up until recently. none of your guys’ mutual friends know, considering they could very well tell her at any point in time. not that you don’t trust them, they’re just very impulsive and don’t think before speaking.
speaking of mutual friends, right before you set foot in the store, you hear a loud and long ‘HONK’ behind you, causing both of you to turn around.
“now you guys think about grocery shopping?! come on, get in!” yunjin screams from behind the steering wheel.
you and chae look at each other, grinning, then run up to the car. chaewon sits next to yunjin in the passenger seat as you, sit in the back next to kazuha and sakura. you greet them as chaewon and yunjin bicker, making you guys giggle at their loudness (mostly on yunjin’s part).
*
lots of things happened when you guys arrived, first of all, yunjin had to check if her younger sister, eunchae, was sleeping. (which, she was, thankfully.)
then, kazuha thought she lost her phone somewhere. panicking, you all started looking everywhere in the living room. (turns out that the phone was literally on the dining table.)
lastly, you had to knock some sense into sakura for bringing a whole bottle of alcohol (you all assumed yunjin and kazuha were gonna end up blacked out by the end of the night.)
proving you right, yunjin and kazuha end up getting severely drunk, giggling at each other and confessing how much they love each other all whilst cuddling. sakura, on the other hand, is getting insanely tired from all the alcohol and can barely keep her eyes open.
as she drunkly glares at jin and zuha being insufferable, she says, “yeahhh, i’m going to bed. goodnight friendsss.” she stands up in a wobbly manner, then walks to the guest room, running her hand through her messy hair, causing chaewon and i to look at each other and laugh.
“you guys should go to sleep too, it’s already 2 am.” you say, gently poking kazuha’s shoulder as she giggles.
“fineeee.” yunjin gets up, dragging a groaning kazuha along with her. god, they become complete children when they drink..
you lay down on you back, enjoying the feeling of the cold hard floor on your head and arms. chaewon follows. “finally alone, huh?” she says. you respond with an enthusiastic “mhm.” she rolls over to her side, facing you. you can feel her gaze on you, so you turn your head to look at her back, taking in all of her beauty.
“you’re so pretty.”
“are you flirting with me, l/n y/n?” she jokes, giggling as she sneakily glances at your lips.
“maybe i am, kim chaewon.” you look down to your pocket and pull out your phone to scroll on instagram, concentrated on your screen. so much so, that you can’t notice chaewon still staring at your lips.
without warning, she gets on top of you and presses her lips against hers, making you whimper out of surprise. was she drunk?? but you two didn’t drink. her lips are plump and taste sweet, did she put on cherry chapstick before this? why is she doing this? your thoughts are all over the place, until she pulls away from you and interrupts your train of thought, “fuck, i love you y/n.” she pulls back in for a quick second, then, “i’ve always loved you, y/n. do you love me?”
you eagerly nod in response, still panting in confusion from the hungry kisses she stole from you.
“say it.”
“i-i love you chaewon.” you confess, looking into your eyes.
“you have no idea how long i’ve been wanting to do this.” smirking, she grabs your face and goes back for another kiss, much hungrier than the one before. as you kiss her back with the same passion, you work your hands around her body, but you slightly jump when her hand starts gripping one of your wrists as she pulls back from you.
“no touching unless i say so. got it?” she firmly says, her gaze cold. you can only nod in response, but she, apparently won’t take that as an answer.
“come on baby, use your words.”
you subconsciously gulp. you never knew she was into this whole dominant thing? i mean, you guys did talk about it once, but it was mostly on your part. either way, you were already soaking wet by this point, so you had no choice but to obey, oh woe is you.
“y-yes ma’am. no touching.” you hesitantly say. it’s not that you didn’t have sex before, you did! it’s just that you’ve never had any form other than vanilla. and despite being very into this dominant side of hers, you’ve only really watched porn about bdsm stuff, it’s not like you’ve ever lived it yourself!
“fuck, you’re so cute.” she giggles as she stands up, taking off her top followed by her sweatpants, revealing her lacy black underwear.
oh my god???
you stare at it in awe, you stare at her in awe. how can someone be so hot?? then, as if to snap you out of your very visible yearning, she grabs your hand to stand you up.
“take it off.”
“h-huh?” you say, still not fully over how gorgeous chaewon is.
“my underwear, take it off.”
almost immediately, you oblige. you unhook the clip of her bra, making her tits slightly fall in the most perfect way you’ve ever seen. then, you head for the band of her panties, pulling those down.
there she was, completely naked. fuck she looks so pretty like this.
“now, lie back down, baby.” she says, with such a lustful smile that you can’t help but feel nervous. despite that, you quite obviously do as you’re told.
“i’m gonna sit on your face, okay y/n?” she teasingly says, making you nod eagerly.
“o-okay.” you stutter.
she settles herself right on top of your mouth, teasing you, causing you to smell how dripping wet she is for a quick moment. you remember that you can’t touch her, but god do you want to right now.
thankfully for you though, soon enough, she’s riding your face, letting out some sweet noises as she grinds on your tongue. you can’t help but let out moans as you lick and suck on her gorgeous, perfect pussy while gripping on her thighs, keeping her in place. it is a little hard to breathe, but you honestly couldn’t care less.
“f-fuck.. such a good girl..” she moans out, violently grabbing on your hair and pulling you closer to her all whilst looking down at you with hooded eyes. the nickname made your heart skip a beat, so much so that you didn’t even mind the pain on your scalp, hell, you liked it. the view just made it all so much better.
as time passes, you feel chaewon get rougher and faster and notice her noises getting shorter and louder, implying that she’s close to finishing. a little bit more time passes, she grips your hair, then
“a-ah y/n, baby keep going..!” as she keeps you in place, making sure you’re staying in the same spot and working your tongue at the same speed you originally were. then, after not moving for a moment, she lets out a loud and long moan as she cums against your mouth. she’s slightly grinding on your tongue some more, her hand still gripping your hair.
and to be honest? that was the hottest thing ever.
she gets up from her seat, then scoots a little to the side, now laying down next to you sideways.
“w-was i good?” you ask, nervously giggling as she looks at you. quickly, her eyes playfully widen as she lets out a chuckle.
“are you seriously asking me that right now? of course you were good!” she laughs. you let out a sigh of relief as you laugh along with her.
“we should probably shower.” she adds.
“together?” you ask after gathering all of your courage.
she nods, smirking, “that’s what i was implying, plus, i still need to take care of your situation.”
you giggle, mostly out of nervousness and excitement. as you stand up from the floor, you remember that you guys were at yunjin’s house. what if they heard? what if eunchae heard?? panic visibly takes over you before chaewon holds a finger up to your mouth, shutting you up quickly.
“they’re all dead asleep, y/n. plus, they all locked their doors, we’re fine.” she playfully winks at you.
all you could do was believe her, besides,
you guys still weren’t done, so you could only hope that they were knocked out asleep.
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ps: sorry this took so long! i tried posting it asap, the ending is kinda rushed so i’m not exactly proud of this, i hope you like it though :< i’ll do better next time
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jacarandaaaas · 9 months
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why waiting on a miracle is one of my favorite (and one of the most underrated) encanto songs:
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So this song in my humble opinion is one of the most under appreciated songs from the movie so I’m here to give it some appreciation! (Also the irony of the song being about being ignored and overlooked and that’s exactly what happened)
So waiting on a miracle is the classic “disney I want song” but to me this song is so much more than that. One thing that sticks out to me immediately is the fact unlike most I want songs, mirabel isn’t singing about wanting more than she already has shes singing about something she lacks but SHOULD have already. From the title most people gathered that she wants a magical gift like the rest of her family and whilst that is true I find it profound that it’s not the magic for the sake of magic she wants. It’s the appreciation from her family. All she wants is to contribute and fit in and she feels the only way she can do that is if she gets a gift. It’s also important to note unlike most I want songs mirabel doesn’t get *exactly* what she wants at the end which she mentions is a miracle. She does however end up getting her ultimate goal which is the acceptance and she doesn’t need a miracle to do that. Also with the title being “waiting on a miracle” a miracle is rare it’s thought to be something almost impossible or not even real. So for mirabels I want song to be about this shows that even she herself is aware it’s literally an impossible ask but she’s just dreaming of the possibilities if she got something as rare as a miracle.
I also found the instrumental quite genius as some have already pointed out all the madrigal songs are in 4/4 time… except this one. Waiting on a miracle is in 3/4 time as yet another subtle way to show she’s out of place. as lin manuel himself said “she’s literally out of beat with the rest of her family” so thanks for that lin the song was already sad enough but you just had to do that👍
also congratulations to mirabel for being one of the few disney characters to actually say when they aren’t ok “I’m not fineeee” I know that seems minuscule but it’s so refreshing to hear a character actually express that they are feeling negative emotions and it’s ok to express that. Especially since bottling up emotions is so common nowadays it’s a good message for the next generation <3
also waiting on a miracle kinda sorta predicts the whole movie? “I would move the mountains, make new trees and flowers grow” “I would heal whats broken show this family something new” she ended up achieving all of that in the movie’ 1. The mountains split when the house was collapsing. 2. She helped isabela discover what else she could do thus making new trees and flowers grow. 3. She basically healed the entire family which is what was broken and she showed them all they are enough without gifts! So that’s just a nice little bit of foreshadowing.
Ok now back to the sad stuff! in the lyric “I would heal whats broken” turns out she’s not referring to the entire family but herself. She views herself as broken because she didn’t get a gift and she wants to fix herself 💔 another lyric to note is “cant keep down the unspoken invisible pain” a lot of people talk about how inconsiderate the madrigals are towards mirabel but the thing is they don’t realize how it effects her. We know she can put on a hell of an act (see family madrigal song) and she herself refers to her pain as “invisible” she’s hiding it from everyone so they don’t realize how badly she’s hurting because she puts on the whole optimistic act. So another way the movie demonstrates the communication issues within the family.
And how can I forget mirabel literally telling herself at the beginning “dont be upset or mad at all” she’s quite literally telling herself to not feel those things that she’s “totally fine” I also love the fact the music is in the tune of “the family madrigal” up until she says “I’m not fine” I just thought that was a cool detail!
I’ve seen people complain about “open your eyes” x3 because it doesn’t get any louder or higher it just stays the same. Well there’s actually a reason for that! the song is called waiting on a miracle, mirabel is stuck in that position. She’s stuck waiting. It’s also important to note that the visual of her begging to her abuela to “open her eyes” and not being noticed implies that she’s been trying for a long time to be noticed but she keeps being stuck.
Also shoutout to Stephanie beatriz for the amazing acting because I could FEEL the emotion and the passion. and yes I know it’s because she’s in labour but I also believe even if she wasn’t in labour the song would still sound emotional as stephanie is a really great actress! I believe in an interview she stated she wanted to perform this song like it’s the first time mirabel is expressing these feelings to herself. Basically yeah that’s true she had been lying to herself for a decade and finally she decides to admit to herself she’s not fine she’s not happy and she wants a change. The voice crack on “I’m not fine” is actually heartbreaking and this is the moment her facade breaks entirely, and I love the vocal cry she does on “longing to shine like all of you shine” it’s just these little vocal details that add so much to the song and make it so powerful
I’ve also seen people complaining this song isn’t “belty” enough but it’s just not that type of song! mirabel is stuck in her position and if you notice in a lot of Disney movies once it reaches the climax of the i want song the protagonist comes to a decision of sorts. Take “how far I’ll go for example” she decides she’s going to sail beyond the reef and the music climaxes, she also has the triumphant high note at the end. Waiting on a miracle unlike how far I’ll go is NOT a triumphant song. The music does climax but only to emphasize mirabels false hope as she’s saying all the things she would do.
with the high note I firmly believe that there’s only one significant high note at the end for a particular reason. Like I said above usually high notes in Disney songs symbolize achievement or a sense of strength found. Mirabels high note has the opposite effect. She’s quite literally begging for a miracle in desperation only to realize she’s wishing for a fantasy. “Am I too late for a miracle” is the line the song ends on and the visual is important here too. We see the fireworks fade away and mirabel is left standing alone in the dark because it was all in her mind. (Looking at you “mirabels gift is time stopping” theorists)
So yeah I find this song to be quite unique and raw for an I want song and I think the “vent” aspect of it is what makes me appreciate it even more. It’s not sugar coated. To quote stephanie beatriz herself: “real, human, imperfect, yearning to belong and hoping for something beyond what she sees in herself: an expression of hope and fear, all wrapped in teen angst.”
So uh go stream waiting on a miracle because it’s a great song 👍(also yes this rant is a mess I’m terrible at articulating my feelings on songs but it’s also just for fun I’m like not a professional lmao)
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