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Wakana - magic moment (2020) Album Review

My girl releases another album less than a year after her first. What a hardworking woman! First, let’s do some overall thoughts:

I really love the title of this album, it’s a happy title for a mostly happy sounding album

I also love the cover, maybe even more than the ‘Wakana’ Album

Are those shoes the same ones from the Aki no Sakura EP?

I really love the diversity of sound in this album. One of my complaints of the first album was the lack of variety. I love me some ballads (70% of my playlist of all the music I listen to are sad songs) but it felt a bit stale after a while.

My complaints with Wakana’s singing is always going to be the same thing since her vocal delivery has not really changed technically that much. Her vibrato is actually quite nice as opposed to what some people would say as ‘Goat Wakana’ (great criticism I must say), especially at the end of 442, her lower register is gorgeous but has no support (as expected of a soprano) and her higher notes in her chest voice are quite nasally. Her falsetto however is quite grating on the ears (I’ll elaborate later)

Why is Orange on the album? To fill up space, that’s why (I get it, making an album is hard, but why not just leave it out? There’d still be 10 songs) And Wakana wrote the lyrics, I guess?

I’m really interested to see how some songs will be performed live with some overlapping vocals (in 442) and strings being in many of the songs (without a violinist for the upcoming live)

I listened to the album first when I was in a bit of a bad mood so everything seemed super average. I’m feeling a bit better about most of the songs. Also after reading the self-liner notes for the album and listening to the lyrics, I was able to appreciate some of the songs more.

Okay, now for the individual songs:

breathing 

(Lyrics: Wakana | Arrangement/Composition: Yumemi Kujira)

The orchestra sound is so gorgeous. At first it was weird hearing the japanese lyrics though lol. I like how they added different instruments for variety’s sake. The choir in the background was more hit or miss for me. During the first chorus is was really distracting but it was great for the rest of the song. My main problem is not the song itself but Wakana’s delivery of the falsetto; it’s very disconnected and screechy. It’s very hard to listen to and since the same chorus is repeated 4 times? It makes it a bit of a hard song to listen to overall. Wakana needs to develop better placement, breathing techniques and support when hitting notes in her head voice.

揺れる春 (Yureru Haru) 

Lyrics: Wakana |  Arrangement/Composition: Miki Sakurai

I don’t really like this song? The lyrics are quite nice, but it just feels like a plain upbeat song about being happy and reaching for goals and all that fun generic stuff. But what Wakana said in the self liner notes made me feel a bit better about the song:

“The hook’s 駆け出した (run off) and 君の叫び (your scream) are connected, right?”

“The urge to run off and shout. It’s exhilarating, and the canvas that you have now is white so you can draw freely and go with the urge. And the second verse’s 睫毛に触れたのは 昨日の自分の欠片 (What touched my eyelashes was the pieces of yesterday’s me) are about tears. The tears hit my eyelashes and one part stops there. The fragments that came out of itself include those that you pick up yourself (I had a hard time translating that sentence so I used google translate hehe). 

where 

Lyrics/Composition: AlbatoLuce | Arrangement: Akihito Takashi

I LOVE Wakana’s low register in this song and the verses. I also really like the acoustic guitar, it provides a really contrast to the more dance-centric feeling of the song. The first chorus still lacks the appropriate punch, but the key change for the second half of the song makes up for it. Also those ‘wooah’s’ are really awesome. Wakana’s voice during the 3rd verse (after the key change) is just gorgeous. 

442 

Lyrics: Wakana, Airi Okamoto | Arrangement/Composition: Koichi Ikekubo

I really wanted to know the meaning of the title, and apparently it’s the hertz sound of a baby crying for the first time!

“The lyrics are co-authored. First we talked about the subject (of the lyrics), we said “When we plan the song, let’s make the theme the reason why you started singing”. So when looking at the lyrics given to me, words came out from inside of me. In particular, the phrase 愛の声が聴こえた (I heard the voice of love) that Okamoto-san produced for us for the hook. [...] I thought that I was born to listen to the “voice of love”. And so, that singing voice is echoing throughout my whole body. It’s strange to cry with the same sound of when we were born. I wonder why? I thought about it, I was born to do something and I thought that your first cry was a singing voice that expressed it.”

I love the melody and instrumentation of this song, especially the chorus. The chorus holds an incredible amount of weight. Apart from her nasality, Wakana’s singing is quite solid throughout this song. I love Wakana’s ‘ai no’ at the last chorus. So much power! I also really like the violin and am disappointed that there won’t be any in the live... Also I love the last line 響き渡る歌声 (resounding singing voice) and the music stops when Wakana sings ‘singing voice’. I don’t have anything objective to say about it, I just adore that part.

ひらり ひらり (Hirari Hirari) 

Lyrics/Composition: Silence! | Arrangement: Mamoru Kuge

Bland... It might take me a few listens but I don’t know if I’ll like this song. Wakana’s singing during the verses is gorgeous, very clear and the melody of the verses and pre-choruses are lovely, but the chorus is really bland and forgettable. I like what Wakana said about the song though.

“It's a song for people who want to meet but can't meet, whether it’s because you can't meet because you're away or because you don't have the courage.”   

I’m in a long-distance relationship, so this song hits home a little bit. The lyrics are actually quite sad. If the whole song was like the verses I’d like it a lot more but the chorus is so uplifting...

アキノサクラ (Aki no Sakura) (Acoustic ver.)

Lyrics: Kei Saito, Yoshitaka Taira | Composition: Kei Saito | Arrangement: Toshio Uchida

I love the combo of bongos and accordion! There isn’t much to say about this song apart from the new instrumentation and the tempo. I really like the former but not really the latter. I don’t think I like it more than the original, but it’s a very nice song. The vocalisations during the bridge is also a pretty touch, especially when Wakana sings along with the music. and that ‘naite’ at the end was so emotional

myself

Lyrics/Composition: AlbatoLuce | Arrangement: Yoshifumi Ise

When I first heard this song, I thought it was BORING. On the second listen, I really liked it. Wakana’s voice is so gorgeous on this song. I love the melody of the line 壊れぬように抱きしめてた (I embraced it so it wouldn’t break). Her vibrato is a bit shaky with the delivery and her low register is not as clear as other tracks (but maybe that’s because of the mixing). Some of the strings sound synth, especially during the bridge but I’m not very sure. The parts with just the one violin instead of the quartet are my favourite bits of the instrumentation; it sounds really lonely. There’s nothing much else to say about it, a very solid song.

君だけのステージ

Lyrics: Wakana | Composition/Arrangement: Satoshi Takebe

I was disappointed. I really like this song and in my review of the live version I mentioned that her high register suits a song like this. But the way Wakana’s singing in the recorded version sounds different to me. The vowels are shaped in a way that sounds like a sadder song. Maybe this me being picky, but it took away from the happier experience. The nasality in her voice is the worst in this song, it literally sounds like she needs to sneeze and drink some water. Also the added noises (synth bells?) during the pre-chorus is very distracting. My review sounds very negative, but I really like this song and the lyrics are gorgeous. 

Happy Hello Day

Lyrics: Wakana | Composer: Akihiro Kasuga | Arrangement: Shu Kanematsu

At this point, the strings are really nice, even if they’re getting a bit old. But the piano during the verses is very cool... I really like the strings in the chorus and the melody of it too. The message of the song is quite sweet and easily applicable to anyone in every day life. These lyrics in particular:

手を叩き軽やかに Clap your hands lightly, 口笛吹いて whistling. ありふれた幸せで僕らはできてる We are made of ordinary happiness.

君が空を仰いで涙流し You look up at the sky, shedding tears. 息を詰まらせて動けなくなったら If you get short of breath and can't move, 此処に僕が居る I'm here.

These lyrics (for like the first 2 lines) are about a performer and the audience. Creating the atmosphere of a happy and chill live (clapping lightly, still listening to the music) and everyone being the same, even the performer. The second section reflects the way some people view performers and music to be an escape from their life. But it can also be interpreted as just an everyday person being happy to have met someone they like. I love how it’s so interchangeable and up for interpretation. 

magic moment

Lyrics: Wakana | Composer: SIRA | Arrangement: Shu Kanematsu

The strings are gorgeous (why no strings for the live????!!!!) and so are the verses. I particularly love the pre-chorus. The chorus however is quite bland and boring and the changing rhythm is a bit hard to grasp. The lyrics are lovely as well. I mean, I’m biased because Wakana wrote them. But I love these ones:

いつから夢も見ない大人になったの？ Since when did I become an adult that never dreamed? 最後の場所は決めたよ　さあ行こう I've decided on the last place. So, let's go!

The song is actually quite growing on me. I’m sure I’ll keep liking it but the chorus is still weighing it down. 

OVERALL:

I really like this album. An unimpressive first impression followed by a very nice second and third one. I’m impressed with the amount of variety in the songs and her singing is mostly solid. I just wish she would improve on different places and I’ll probably keep complaining about them. I think Wakana is liking the independence when it comes to helping the creation of these songs and I’m very happy for me. 

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THE WAY OF THE ORGANIZER OF THE EVENT

Want to be a part of the global trillion turnover industry? If you can get along well with a lot of people, if you are detailed, cost-conscious and creative, then

Want to be a part of the global trillion turnover industry? If you can get along well with a lot of people, be detailed, cost-conscious, and creative, then you want to start your career as an event planner. Read on to learn how to translate it directly into the field.

Step

Method 1 of 4: Experience building and training

1.     Get a degree of hospitality. A bachelor's degree in hospitality will take you on a career as an event planner. In fact, some hospitality programs focus on event planning, so research every school that offers such a program.

o    Other levels, such as Liaison or Community Liaison, provide a good foundation for a career in event planning. One of the strongest storytelling skills is communication, so such backgrounds are a good basis.

o    Although it takes four years to complete a bachelor's degree, there are short, two-year collaboration programs in hospitality, travel, and tourism, and event planning can be a great start to your training.

o    Even if you do not have a degree directly related to this field, you can complete the Certificate of Event Planning and Management by completing the program. Some of these programs allow students to choose majors such as marriage, sports, or entertainment planning.

o    Types of classes you want to study as part of your training include event marketing, job opportunities, media relations, budget planning strategies, event coordinators, risk management, economics, and professional ethics.

2.     I am looking for a teacher. A mentor is someone who will teach and inspire you in your career. Coaching often comes from a relationship with someone you admire.

o    Think about what you want from a teacher or mentor. Do you need someone to imitate you professionally? Need to improve your management skills? Are you looking for effective ways to communicate? Get to know people who can share their experiences with you. He doesn’t have to be someone from your field; Most importantly, you can get what you need from your relationship

o    You choose someone as a mentor because that person is successful and therefore busy. Before asking for time to help someone, think about how you can help him. Help them work on the project, organize their calendar, do the work - if you get something valuable, give something valuable.

o    Take a look at the accompanying instructions. You will find support and encouragement from other people who share your goals. Start with a group meeting or start a club on campus where you can join like-minded people to share information, responsibilities and success.

o    Expand your search. Alumni groups, networking events, and professional organization meetings are great places to meet potential mentors.

3.     Practice your skills. Your interest in this field may stem from your ability to form party mixes and organize events. Get up now and plan birthdays, home communities, weddings and other groups.

o    Most volunteer organizations hold annual events - running, walking, fundraising dinners - that require planning. Contact community volunteer agencies to find out their needs and suggest a key role in holding their meetings.

o    Document your practice. Take pictures of the spaces and decorations for later placement in your portfolio. Make copies of budgets and time, menus and invoices. Keep track of the miles you have and if and when they expire.

4.     Get feedback. After the event, complete a short survey and ask participants for feedback.

o    Make your survey part of the original contract. You should consider your client's feedback as compensation for the hard work you put in, and agree to answer some questions at the end of the event. Their comments are both positive and negative and can be a valuable part of the learning process.

o    To the Twitter page. In conversation, listen to what people have to say as the events unfold. Focus on what you like ("This dish is so delicious." "The flowers are amazing.")

2 of 4 methods: Find a job

1.     Gather all the portfolios. Giving real-life examples of your work to show the future of employers can give you confidence and support, which makes you feel like someone with knowledge and experience.

o    Keep notes of what you learned from the process. Keep photos, invitations, and professional references from customers and suppliers that confirm your beliefs and experience. Put it in a container that you can transport or look for professionally. If possible, always be prepared to scan all of these items and email them to future companies.

o    Prepare a professional resume that incorporates your experience and knowledge. List the volunteer and professional assignments and student organizations in which you participated.

o    Write a personal letter for each job application. There is no such thing as "all in one letter." Indicate in your letter the specific needs of the organization and how to meet them.

2.     Start the network. Tell everyone you know that you are looking for a job and ask them to share some information. You never know if someone might know or hear about starting a business.

o    Create an account on LinkedIn. This social media platform allows you to write your resume, create an account to subscribe to online groups and other people in the network.

o    Traces of my classmates. If someone in your course is creating new jobs, ask them how to get them and if there are vacancies in the new job.

o    There is a business card and always carry it with you. Business cards are very cheap and you should always take them with you, because when and where you meet someone who will help you get a job.

3.     Open the Internet. Today, many job postings open online, it is important that you visit a specific job site. Also, some professional organizations or some sites have registered advertising influences in the management of events, which allows you to use the focus of job search activities.

o    Monster.com, HotJobs.com and CareerBuilder.com are the most popular employment sites; Weigh your search using keywords such as "event planner", "event management", "wedding planner", "event coordinator" or "hospitality".

o    There is an online career center on the website of the international professional meeting, where you can find vacancies (career.mpiweb.org). See also specialeventsite.com and careers.nace.net (National Catering Association Jobs).

4.     Measure the path you are walking. Do a little research on the companies that are planning activities in your area and stop leaving your resume. In some cases, personal relationships are worthwhile, especially in a person-centered environment.

o    When you arrive, look your best and be professional. Find out the name of the person in charge so you can ask to see that person immediately. If the meeting cannot be held immediately, write your resume to a polite recipient and schedule a phone call within a few days.

o    The next time you meet someone who will hire you, take your portfolio with you.

5.     Consider freelancing or starting your own business. This can be a step after years of working in the field, or you may want to be someone who likes to work for you.

o    Competition research. Find out what companies are planning activities in your area and their specialties. If you can make changes in any way, it will have an advantage in customer development and acquisition.

o    Talk to other hunters or business owners. You do not have to learn everything in a difficult way. Take a look at other practices that can help you overcome the obstacles that come with starting a business.

6.     Try it. It is difficult to find a job in any field. Never give up, so keep thinking positive and keep moving forward.

o    Create a support group with friends who are looking for work. Staying around your armed comrades can help you overcome feelings of isolation and frustration.

o    Celebrates small victories. Interviews, questions, phone calls - all this is positive. Even if your current job isn't over, find out if you're on the right track and who you are and what you have to offer.

Method 4 3: Obtain a certificate

1.     Registration for certification with a reputable event planning association. If you want to plan event activities, it is not confirmed. However, having them can open up opportunities for you and help you connect with other professionals who value high standards in the industry.

o    The certificate is a professional award issued by this organization and you will receive it only after you have confirmed your professional experience and successfully passed the tests of that organization.

o    The most recognized certificates are issued by the Special Event Professional Certificates (SPES) recommended by ISES; Certificate of Professional Meeting (SPP) and Certificate of Meeting Planner (SPP).

o    Each program varies depending on the level of professional experience required, so contact the organization individually to find out if it meets the requirements.

2.     Consider joining more relevant organizations; The advantage of joining an organization is that you can later meet many contacts and find employment opportunities through networks and resources associated with many members.

o    If you plan to be specific, look for commercial organizations that pay more attention to your environment. For example, a wedding planner may want to try a group like the World Bride and Beautiful Wedding Consulting Association.

o    If you have studied at one of the familiar Event Organizing schools, ask if there is a discount on membership, as membership can be very expensive when joining a new one.

Method 4 4: Identify the label

1.     Decide what you want to know. If you want to make a name for yourself, then you have to choose what your image will look like in the business world. The label combines your strengths and who you are.

o    Find a list of words that describe you - your character, your point of view, your experience. Use these words to form the basis of your marketing and advertising program.

o    Improve participation in cyberspace. People will start looking for the type of service you offer, so you want to make sure you are professional and useful online.

§  Create a Facebook page for your business. Show your professional photo and show your current projects from time to time. Contains photos of the event. (Permission must be obtained before photos of customers or guests can be published.)

§  Start a blog. A blog can help you grow as an expert in your field. Publish a short "how" article to help readers, the events you're working on, the trends you like, and what's new in your industry.

§  Open a Twitter account. Start a discussion, give your expert opinion, predict what will happen this season - make it fun and exciting.

2.     К. If you want to know who people are and what you are doing, you have to get yourself out of there. Join professional organizations, participate in exhibitions and educational seminars. These are great ways to spread the word about your services.

o    Consider establishing partners in relevant fields. Looking for the best florist? Did you meet a great photographer? Make sure you know what they are doing and keep in touch with each other - they may have a business that will push you, and vice versa.

3.     Keep chasing new ideas. Some of the basics of event planning do not change - you need to be a good communicator, experienced in budget planning and perfect in detail. But you need to keep the styles and trends in order to keep the look of your new and emerging projects.

o    Keep updating. Read trade magazines to see the obvious, and take courses and training to refresh your skills.

o    Follow fashion styles. Browse fashion, decor and food magazines to find out what’s trending. Take a look at Pinterst trends. Maintaining your style will help you avoid things that seem outdated or outdated.

Conditions

·         Ask for help joining a legal event planning course. Before joining the official program, get acquainted with the meetings of International Professionals. If they offer you a type of program education and training, you need to get a certificate.

·         The dining experience is also very useful and rewarding to enter the world of event planners.

·         The United States Agency for Labor Statistics suggests that planners with diplomas and certificates work better than those without certificates. In 2008, the agency earned an average annual salary of $ 44,260 for event planners, including high-income areas in business and government-centered areas such as New York, Columbia and Maryland.

·         This is useful if you speak two languages, such as English and Spanish. If you are planning a diplomatic event, speaking several languages ​​is a great advantage.

To warn

·         Be careful with online certifications. Some of them are nothing more than “creating a certificate” that will give you a little lesson and reward you with certificates that are unproven or less useful in the world of event planning. Do previous research to verify the authenticity and reputation of online learning.

·         This is not hard work; You have to be very flexible and be there on weekdays, weekdays and weekends. Especially if you are raising a small family or do not like to stay up late.

·         Learn how to create a backup plan early. When you make plans B and C, it saves you a lot of embarrassment and resentment when things don't go according to plan. Use the “Think for a Moment” exercise regularly.

Courtesy:event planner in Lahore

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The Empowered Empath: Mastering Boundaries, Emotions & More!

  Boundaries are everything – especially if you are an Empath!

Being an Empowered Empath means that you care for yourself and others enough, to be honest. You do this to stop enabling poor behaviour and to invite people into more evolved ways of being with you.

The connection between boundaries and emotions can lead to a Thriver’s life full of prosperity and fulfillment through self and others.

Discover in this Thriver’s Life episode, Quantum Understandings and empowered ways to deal with your emotions AND do boundaries at the same time.

    Video Transcript

Welcome to the Thriver’s Life series … the creation of your highest and best life after narcissistic abuse.

I can’t tell you how vital boundaries are.

They are everything.

Especially for Empaths.

When coupled with emotional alignment they literally carve out the life that you desire – piece by piece, and in no way do you have to compromise the health, wellbeing, and lives of others.

In fact, you offer people, through your boundaries, the opportunity to claim their own evolution and happiness.

In today’s episode, I want to talk to you about the connection with boundaries and emotions and getting clear on how to be in the driver’s seat steering towards your most prosperous, fulfilling and healthily contributing to self, life and other’s lives.

Okay, before we get started, thank you, everyone, who has subscribed to my channel and for supporting the Thriver Mission. And if you haven’t yet subscribed, I want to remind you to please do. And if you like this video, please make sure you hit the like button.

Okay, let’s dive in.

What Are Our Emotions?

Our emotions are our personal GPS signal that is letting us know what IS or ISN’T the path to our super conscious/Source intended life (true flourishing, wellbeing, love, and prosperity).

Now here is the thing – we may think that our highest super conscious life consists of ‘stuff’.

That’s not accurate at all. Our highest life is the feeling of fullness and being whole.

Then stuff can come. Stuff that is genuine and which genuinely adds more to what we are already feeling.

When you have the fullness, ‘stuff’ is an awesome bonus that we can be so grateful for, but we actually had no need for anyway.

Why am I telling you this?

Because it’s a foundational understanding that you need to know regarding boundaries and your emotions.

This is what took me a long time to realise about my emotions. I thought they were being controlled by everything outside of me and were letting me know about the state of ‘out there’. Now I know a different truth. Our emotions fundamentally are telling us how ‘whole’ we are ‘in there’.

There is no real independent ‘out there’. It’s not separated from ‘in there’.

Your greatest mission in life – number 1 – is to have whole, balanced internal emotions.

Quantumly, emotions are king or queen.

They dictate and unfold our outer experiences from in there, and as such, I discovered that with any troublesome, missing or desired issue in my life, the most powerful place I could ever create was from solidness and calm on that topic. Unconditionally – not dependent on any external evidence being presented.

Some people may call this faith.

Others may call this surrender.

I believe is it Quantum Just Isness – meaning this is your natural state.

You may think it isn’t, but it is.

What has thrown all of us off of having this as our natural state is the trauma that has been inflicted on us by the human condition – and the beliefs that we are damaged, defective and unworthy (somehow separated from God, ourselves and others).

It may feel normal to feel this trauma of separation, but in no way is it natural. It is also unnatural to have to spend your whole life trying to manage your emotions, as a result of taking on the trauma of the human condition.

Without trauma, your emotions simply balance themselves.

I promise you that once enough trauma is released, wholeness and calm just ‘is’ and you will know it as a natural state.

Then everything else becomes easy to ‘add’ onto that.

When we have dishevelled emotions and often feel sad, let down, broken, anxious and the like – it DOESN’T mean that we are defective.

It means we have internal trauma generating these emotions.

  Methods of Dealing With Our Emotions

There are four ways we can deal with the traumas generating negative emotions.

1) Face and release the trauma and move forward into a healthy Thriver’s Life. 2) Try to manage it with ways that will quieten it down. 3) Ignore it and attempt to get on with it, or 4) Blame someone or something outside of ourselves for these emotions.

All of these things are perfectly okay, and understandable because where you are at is where you are at.

Nothing is ‘right’ or ‘wrong’. The only effective Quantum question – meaning the REAL truth that we need to be interested in is: ‘What works and what doesn’t work, regarding what I want to create in my life?’

Regarding the effectiveness of generating the true power and success of your life, the second option will cause you to feel stuck and dependent on trauma management, the third example will worsen the experience of painful emotions hijacking you randomly, and the fourth will cause more and more traumatic experiences to enter your life, compounding the original ones.

Universes away from these outcomes, the first example gives you a way out into the inner transformation and then the outer transformation of your life.

I want you to understand this more than anything – your inner emotional state needs to shift before your outer life can follow. Your life is never about changing the outer to feel different on the inner.

Because it doesn’t work.

Please know that.

Now we can move on.

How To Understand Working With Emotions PLUS Your Outer World

People ask this question, ‘So do I just work with my inner emotions and NOT do boundaries and try to change things in my outer real life?’

This is SUCH a great question.

And it’s one that took me a long time to really understand, balance out and formulate.

The truth is you do BOTH simultaneously.

But let’s dissect this with a useful example.

Let’s say that someone in your life is being abusive. Now let’s get very honest about this – ‘abusive’ is subjective. When we are on the journey of taking responsibility for our own wounds, we know that people are allowed to have opinions and their own lives and choices. These may not agree with us – yet there are things of course that are abusive, and that is what I am talking about here.

Maybe this person in your life is someone that you would love to continue a relationship with, yet there are things they do that are not okay for your health.

Here are your choices with a situation like that:

1) Make emotional peace with the way they are (of course this may not be possible or healthy if they are blatantly abusing you).

2) Invite them into a higher relationship with you, whereby you are both honest about how you feel, what you need and what is going on for you both emotionally, granting the opportunity for more communion, trust and love together.

3) After inviting them into this higher relationship with you, if they still project abuse at you and don’t have the desire or the resources to meet you there, walk away from the relationship, knowing you granted it and them an opportunity to heal and evolve.

All of these choices, 1 to 3, are intended to generate emotional peace, strength and solidness and the resolution of your troubled emotions.

If we were to consider another option, option 4, which would be to try to lecture and prescribe to this person … or, give them what you think will make them love you better … or, just continue on the same, feeling victimised, hurt and resentful – you can see how these would all be powerless acts. They are about trying to get something else to change outside of you, for you to feel better.

This only enables someone to stay stuck in their poor behaviour abusing you.

It also makes them able to sidestep personal responsibility and keep blaming you for the way they feel.

No-one gets well.

Whereas, when you take your power back and create THIS ultimate boundary with yourself, ‘I am responsible for my emotions and the choices I implement in my life to take care of my emotions healthfully’ then you truly do understand how boundaries and emotions interconnect and work.

In choices 1 to 3 it does not matter what someone else is or isn’t doing – it is ONLY important what you are choosing to do.

Now here is the other important connection between your emotional inner world and your outer choices and actions.

No amount of doing is a substitute for being.

If you were to try to just ‘forget it’ (choice 1) and get on with it with this person, then you haven’t done the inner work on what is triggering you with them and this means you are going to continue to be hurt and triggered no matter what you try to disconnect from.

With choice 2 if you haven’t done the inner work to lose the personalised feelings of being mistreated and unloved by this person, then it will be very hard to show up as calm, loving and honest with them. Rather, your words may come across as a victimised attack, or some other funky energy that is not going to generate a healthy response.

Also, you will still be attached to the outcome of ‘them getting it’ and may be deeply distressed when they don’t.

Whereas, if you do the inner work and then show up in a space of authenticity and love, this person is granted a beautiful opportunity to choose love and evolution, and if they don’t – well then you will feel no guilt and shame, rather clarity and relief in the knowing that this relationship is not your truth anymore – and that you did the right loving thing.

In choice 3 – the real letting go, if you have not done the inner work, you may be traumatised at the thought of this, and susceptible to guilt trips, smearing, hoovering and the transition out of this persons’ life may not be smooth, empowered or lasting, and could bring a host of other issues, still leaving you with unresolved emotions.

  Simplifying Life To Make It Powerful

I want to grant you these Quantum Understandings that changed everything for me.

1) My emotional wholeness is always the first necessary ‘go-to’.

2) I am completely responsible for living my values, truths and real life, to generate my emotional wholeness. It isn’t anyone else’s job.

3) By being honest and lovingly authentic with others, I grant them the ability to awaken, heal and evolve.

4) If I blame others for how I feel, I am being a victim, forfeiting my power and will stay stuck at this point.

5) If anything or anyone hurts me, I always have the choice to a) make peace with it internally, b) invite the situation or person into a higher relationship with me and c) walk away if there is not the desire or the resources to meet me at my truth.

6) Any problems with implementing ANY of the former, means I have more inner work to do so that I do show up EMOTIONALLY authentically and powerfully, whilst DOING what I need to do.

Being Connected To All Of It

So many people may think that defining our values and truth, and being willing to walk away from people and situations that are not our truth, means that we will be isolated, alone and an island to ourselves.

That, I promise you, is so NOT true.

You are at one with ‘The All’.

Who You Really Are, is bigger than you can imagine.

If you stop living in lack, limitation and trying to ‘turn crumbs into cookies’ and instead keep generating the truth and deservedness of your expansive self, then you will enter into The Field of expanded and connected support, opportunities, love and miracles that IS your super conscious self.

I hope this inspires you.

If you’d like more help with mastering your emotions, boundaries (and so much more) then I highly recommend taking a look at my Empowered Self Course, which you can do by clicking this link.

I also have a really exciting update just around the corner which all ES course purchasers will receive for free as well… More information on this coming soon!

Okay, so after narcissistic abuse recovery, let’s evolve as far as we can, with grace and grit.

Why?

Because we CAN!

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Statistical Physics: an introduction in two parts

Statistical physics has deep connections to many computational problems, including statistical inference, counting and sampling, and optimization. Perhaps especially compelling are the field’s insights and intuitions regarding “average-case complexity” and information-computation gaps. These are topics for which the traditional theoretical CS approaches seem ill-suited, while on the other hand statistical physics has supplied a rich (albeit not always mathematically rigorous) theory.

Statistical physics is the first topic in the seminar course I am co-teaching with Boaz this fall, and one of our primary goals is to explore this theory. This blog post is a re-working of a lecture I gave in class this past Friday. It is meant to serve as an introduction to statistical physics, and is composed of two parts: in the first part, I introduce the basic concepts from statistical physics in a hands-on manner, by demonstrating a phase transition for the Ising model on the complete graph. In the second part, I introduce random k-SAT and the satisfiability conjecture, and give some moment-method based proofs of bounds on the satisfiability threshold.

I. From particle interactions to macroscopic behaviors

In statistical physics, the goal is to understand how materials behave on a macroscopic scale based on a simple model of particle-particle interactions.

For example, consider a block of iron. In a block of iron, we have many iron particles, and each has a net -polarization or “spin” which is induced by the quantum spins of its unpaired electrons. On the microscopic scale, nearby iron atoms “want” to have the same spin. From what I was able to gather on Wikipedia, this is because the unpaired electrons in the distinct iron atoms repel each other, and if two nearby iron atoms have the same spins, then this allows them to be in a physical configuration where the atoms are further apart in space, which results in a lower energy state (because of the repulsion between electrons).

When most of the particles in a block of iron have correlated spins, then on a macroscopic scale we observe this correlation as the phenomenon of magnetism (or ferromagnetism if we want to be technically correct).

In the 1890’s, Pierre Curie showed that if you heat up a block of iron (introducing energy into the system), it eventually loses its magnetization. In fact, magnetization exhibits a phase transition: there is a critical temperature, , below which a block of iron will act as a magnet, and above which it will suddenly lose its magnetism. This phase transition is in contrast to the alternative, in which the iron would gradually lose its magnetization as it is heated. This is called the “Curie temperature”.

The Ising Model

We’ll now set up a simple model of the microscopic particle-particle interactions, and see how the global phenomenon of the magnetization phase transition emerges. This is called the Ising model, and it is one of the more canonical models in statistical physics.

Suppse that we have iron atoms, and that their interactions are described by the (for simplicity unweighted) graph with adjacency matrix . For example, we may think of the atoms as being arranged in a 3D cubic lattice, and then would be the 3D cubic lattice graph. We give each atom a label in , and we associate with each atom a spin .

For each choice of spins or state we associate the total energy

.

If two interacting particles have the same spin, then they are in a “lower energy” configuration, and then they contribute to the total enery. If two neighboring particles have opposite spins, then they are in a “higher energy” configuration, and they contribute to the total energy.

We also introduce a temperature parameter . At each , we want to describe what a “typical” configuration for our block of iron looks like. When , there is no kinetic energy in the system, so we expect the system to be in the lowest-energy state, i.e. all atoms have the same spin. As the temperature increases, the kinetic energy also increases, and we will begin to see more anomalies.

In statistical physics, the “description” takes the form of a probability distribution over states . To this end we define the Boltzmann distribution, with density function :

As , , becomes supported entirely on the that minimize ; we call these the ground states (for connected these are exactly ). On the other hand as , all are weighted equally according to .

Above we have defined the Boltzmann distribution to be proportional to . To spell it out,

The normalizing quantity is referred to as the partition function, and is interesting in its own right. For example, from we can compute the free energy of the system, as well as the internal energy and the entropy :

Using some straightforward calculus, we can then see that is the Shannon entropy,

that is the average energy in the system,

and that the free energy is the difference of the internal energy and the product of the temperature and the entropy,

just like the classical thermodynamic definitions!

Why these functions?

The free energy, internal energy, and entropy encode information about the typical behavior of the system at temperature . We can get some intuition by considering the extremes, and .

In cold systems with , if we let be the energy of the ground state, be the number of ground state configurations, and be the energy gap, then

where the notation hides factors that do not depend on . From this it isn’t hard to work out that

We can see that the behavior of the system is dominated by the few ground states.

On the other hand, as ,

and the behavior of the system is chaotic, with all of the free energy coming from the entropy term.

Phase transition at the critical temperature.

We say that the system undergoes a phase transition at if the energy density is not analytic at . Phase transitions are often associated as well with a qualitative change in system behavior.

For example, we’ll now show that for the Ising model with the complete graph with self loops, the system has a phase transition at (the self-loops don’t make much physical sense, but are convenient to work with). Furthermore, we’ll show that this phase transition corresponds to a qualitative change in the system, i.e. the loss of magnetism.

Define the magnetization of the system with spins to be . If , then we say the system is magnetized.

In the complete graph, normalized so that the total interaction of each particle is , there is a direct relationship between the energy and the magnetization:

Computing the energy density.

The magnetization takes values for . So, letting be the number of states with magnetization , we have that

now, is just the number of strings with Hamming weight , so . By Stirling’s approximation , where is the binary entropy function, so up to lower-order terms

Now we apply the following simplification: for , , and then . Treating our summands as the entries of the vector , from this we have,

By definition of the energy density,

and since independently of , we also have

because the error from rounding to the nearest factor of is .

We can see that the first term in the expression for corresponds to the square of the magnetization (and therefore the energy); the more magnetized the system is, the larger the contribution from the first term. The second term corresponds to the entropy, or the number of configurations in the support; the larger the support, the larger the contribution of the second term. As , the contribution of the entropy term overwhelms the contribution of the energy term; this is consistent with our physical intuition.

A phase transition.

We’ll now demonstrate that there is indeed a phase transition in . To do so, we solve for this maximum. Taking the derivative with respect to , we have that

so the derivative is whenever . From this, we can check the maxima. When , there are two maxima equidistant from the origin, corresponding to negatively or positively-magnetized states. When , the maximizer is , corresponding to an unmagnetized state.

Given the maximizers, we now have the energy density. When we plot the energy density, the phase transition at is readily apparent:

Qualitatively, it is convincing that this phase transition in the energy density is related to a transition in the magnetization. One can make this formal by performing a similar calculation to show that the internal energy undergoes a phase transition, which in this case is proportional to the expected squared magnetization, .

Beyond the complete graph

The Ising model on the complete graph (also called the Curie-Weiss model) is perhaps not a very convincing model for a physical block of iron; we expect that locality should govern the strength of the interactions. But because the energy and the magnetization are related so simply, it is easy to solve.

Solutions are also known for the 1D and 2D grids; solving it on higher-dimensional lattices, as well as in many other interesting settings, remains open. Interestingly, the conformal bootstrap method that Boaz mentioned has been used towards solving the Ising model on higher-dimensional grids.

II. Constraint Satisfaction Problems

For those familiar with constraint satisfaction problems (CSPs), it may have already been clear that the Ising model is a CSP. The spins are Boolean variables, and the energy function is an objective function corresponding to the EQUALITY CSP on (a pretty boring CSP, when taken without negations). The Boltzmann distribution gives a probability distribution over assignments to the variables , and the temperature determines the objective value of a typical .

We can similarly define the energy, Boltzmann distribution, and free energy/entropy for any CSP (and even to continuous domains such as ). Especially popular with statistical physicists are:

CSPs (such as the Ising model) over grids and other lattices.

Gaussian spin glasses: CSPs over or where the energy function is proportional to , where is an order- symmetric tensor with entries sampled i.i.d. from . The Ising model on a graph with random Gaussian weights is an example for .

Random instances of -SAT: Of the possible clauses (with negations) on variables, clauses are sampled uniformly at random, and the energy function is the number of satisfied clauses, .

Random instances of other Boolean and larger-alphabet CSPs.

In some cases, these CSPs are reasonable models for physical systems; in other cases, they are primarily of theoretical interest.

Algorithmic questions

As theoretical computer scientists, we are used to seeing CSPs in the contex of optimization. In statistical physics, the goal is to understand the qualitative behavior of the system as described by the Boltzmann distribution. They ask algorithmic questions such as:

Can we estimate the free energy ? The partition function ? And, relatedly,

Can we sample from ?

But these tasks are not so different from optimization. For example, if our system is an instance of 3SAT, when , the Boltzmann distribution is the uniform distribution over maximally satisfying assignments, and so estimating is equivalent to deciding the SAT formula, and sampling from is equivalent to solving the SAT formula. As increases, sampling from corresponds to sampling an approximate solution.

Clearly in the worst case, these tasks are NP-Hard (and even #P-hard). But even for random instances these algorithmic questions are interesting.

Phase transitions in satisfiability

In random -SAT, the system is controlled not only by the temperature but also by the clause density . For the remainder of the post, we will focus on the zero-temperature regime , and we will see that -SAT exhibits phase transitions in as well.

The most natural “physical” trait to track in a -SAT formula is whether or not it is satisfiable. When , -SAT instances are clearly satisfiable, because they have no constraints. Similarly when , random -SAT instances cannot be satisfiable, because for any set of variables they will contain all possible -SAT constraints (clearly unsatisfiable). It is natural to ask: is there a satisfiability phase transition in ?

For , one can show that the answer is yes. For , numerical evidence strongly points to this being the case; further, the following theorem of Friedgut gives a partial answer:

Theorem: For there exists a function such that for any , if is a random -SAT formula on variables with clauses, then

However, this theorem allows for the possibility that the threshold depends on . From a statistical physics standpoint, this would be ridiculous, as it suggests that the behavior of the system depends on the number of particles that participate in it. We state the commonly held stronger conjecture:

Conjecture: for all , there exists a constant depending only on such that if is a random -SAT instance in variables and clauses, then

In 2015, Jian Ding, Allan Sly, and nike Sun established the -SAT conjecture all larger than some fixed constant , and we will be hearing about the proof from Nike later on in the course.

Bounds on via the method of moments

Let us move to a simpler model of random -SAT formulas, which is a bit easier to work with and is a close approximation to our original model. Instead of sampling -SAT clauses without replacement, we will sample them with replacement and also allow variables to appear multiple times in the same clause (so each literal is chosen uniformly at random). The independence of the clauses makes computations in this model simpler.

We’ll prove the following bounds. The upper bound is a fairly straightforward computation, and the lower bound is given by an elegant argument due to Achlioptas and Peres.

Theorem: For every , .

Let be a random -SAT formula with clauses, . For an assignment , let be the indicator that satisfies . Finally, let be the number of satisfying assignments of .

Upper bound via the first moment method.

We have by Markov’s inequality that

Fix an assignment . Then by the independence of the clauses,

since each clause has satisfying assignments. Summing over all ,

We can see that if , this quantity will go to with . So we have:

Lower bound via the second moment method.

To lower bound , we can use the second moment method. We’ll calculate the second moment of . An easy use of Cauchy-Schwarz (for non-negative , ) implies that if there is a constant such that

$\lim_{n \to \infty}\frac{\left(\mathbb{E} Z_{\alpha}\right)^2}{\mathbb{E}Z_{\alpha}^2} \ge c,$

then with at least constant probability , and then Friedgut’s theorem implies that . From above we have an expression for the numerator, so we now set out to bound the second moment of . We have that

and by the independence of the clauses,

for a single random -SAT clause . But, for , the events and are not independent. This is easier to see if we apply inclusion-exclusion,

The event that both when is a -SAT clause occurs only when and agree exactly on the assignments to the variables of , since otherwise at least one of or must be satisfied (because each literal in is negated for ). Thus, this probability depends on the Hamming distance between and .

For with , the probability that ‘s variables are all in the subset on which agree is (up to lower order terms). So, we have

$ \Pr[C(x) = C(y) = 0] = \delta^k \cdot \frac{1}{2^k},$

and then for with ,

Because there are pairs at distance ,

and using the Stirling bound ,

Using Laplace’s method, we can show that this sum will be dominated by the terms around the maximizing summand; so defining ,

If we want that , then we require that

However, we can see (using calculus) that this inequality does not hold whenever :

So the naive second moment method fails to establish any lower bound on . The problem here is that the second moment is dominated by the large correlations of close strings; whenever , the sum is dominated by pairs of strings which are closer than in Hamming distance, which is atypical. For strings at Hamming distance , what is relevant is , which is always

which is equal to . At distance , the value of on pairs is essentially uncorrelated (one can think of drawing a uniformly random given ), so such pairs are representative of .

A more delicate approach.

To get a good bound, we have to perform a fancier second moment method calculation, due to Achlioptas and Peres. We will re-weight the terms so that more typical pairs, at distance , are dominant. Rather than computing , we compute , where

where if , and if is satisfied by variables. Since only if has satisfying assignments, the goal is to still bound . Again using the independence of the clauses, we have that

And calculating again the second moment,

For a fixed clause , we can partition the variables in its scope into 4 sets, according to whether agree on the variable, and whether the variable does or does not satisfy the literals of the clause. Suppose that has variables on which agree, and that of these are satisfying for and are not.

Then, has variables on which disagree, and any variable which does not satisfy for must satisfy it for . For a to be nonzero, either there must be at least one literal in the variables on which agree which agrees with , or otherwise there must be at least one literal in the variables on which disagree which agrees with each string. Therefore, if agree on a -fraction of variables,

where the first sum ignores the cases when or , the second sum subtracts for the cases when the contribution of the terms where all the literals agree with either or , and the final term accounts for the fact that the term is subtracted twice. Simplifying,

Define . So we have (using Laplace’s method again)

For

When ,

which is equal to the log of the square of the expectation, so again for the second moment method to succeed, must be the global maximum.

Guided by this consideration, we can set so that the derivative , so that achieves a local maximum at . The choice for this (after doing some calculus) turns out to be the positive, real solution to the equation . With this choice, one can show that the global maximum is indeed achieved at as long as . Below, we plot with this optimal choice of for several values of at :

So we have bounded .

Another phase transition

What is the correct answer for ? We now have it in a window of size . Experimental data and heuristic predictions indicate that it is closer to (and in fact for large , Ding, Sly and showed that is a specific constant in the interval ). So why can’t we push the second moment method further?

It turns out that there is a good reason for this, having to do with another phase transition. In fact, we know that -SAT has not only satisfiable and unsatisfiable phases, but also clustering and condensation phases:

In the clustering phase, there are exponentially many clusters of solutions, each containing exponentially many solutions, and each at hamming distance from each other. In the condensation phase, there are even fewer clusters, but solutions still exist. We can see evidence of this already in the way that the second moment method failed us. When , we see that the global maximum of the exponent is actually attained close to . This is because solutions with large overlap come to dominate the set of satisfying assignments.

One can also establish the existence of clusters using the method of moments. The trick is to compute the probability that two solutions, and with overlap , are both satisfying for . In fact, we have already done this. From above,

Now, by a union bound, an upper bound on the probability that there exists a pair of solutions with overlap for any is at most

and if the function is such that for all , then we conclude that the probability that there is a pair of satisfying assignments at distance between and is .

Achlioptas and Ricci-Tersenghi showed that for , , and a fixed constant, the above function is less than . Rather than doing the tedious calculus, we can verify by plotting for (with ):

They also use the second moment method to show the clusters are non-empty, that there are exponentially many of them, each containing exponentially many solutions. This gives a proof of the existence of a clustering regime.

Solution geometry and algorithms

This study of the space of solutions is referred to as solution geometry, and understanding solution geometry turns out to be essential in proving better bounds on the critical density.

Solution geometry is also intimately related to the success of local search algorithms such as belief propagation, and to heuristics for predicting phase transitions such as replica symmetry breaking.

These topics and more to follow, in the coming weeks.

Resources

In preparing this blog post/lecture I leaned heavily on Chapters 2 and 10 of Marc Mézard and Andrea Montanari’s “Information, Physics, and Computation”, on Chapters 12,13,&14 of Cris Moore and Stephan Mertens’ “The nature of Computation,” and on Dimitris Achlioptas and Federico Ricci-Tersenghi’s manuscript “On the Solution-Space Geometry of Random CSPs”. I also consulted Wikipedia for some physics basics.

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this is really unasked for and i hope is not a burden and if it is im truly sorry but i need to talk to someone. In addition to it, i want to maybe warn you if you don´t want to read this ask im going to talk about mental health and concerns i have.[ ------ ]----- Lately i´ve been struggling with depression an anxiety, as it is; the main reason is because i couldnt find what i wanted to do with my life, or if its even worth it. Being honest i never wanted to board that issue, not even when (1)

everything is under a cut!

(2) i had to choose a major, and rn when im about to finish it i realized i messed up, i dont know what i want to do because my drive to keep studyind that major wasnt because i wanted to do that for life not even because i enjoyed it, i did it because it was ‘the right thing to do’ ‘something i always wanted’ and it kept me busy with the idea that at least i wasnt being lazy, i was doing something, my life had a meanig and a gold, for who? who knows (2)

(3) and now that i find myself finishing it, and i have to choose again something to specialize and get my degree i started thinking about why keep doing it, i dont want to get a job according to it, i dont even like it, i dont hate it either but i truly dont see myself doing anything related to it. And it hit me, really hard and it hurt so much, the fact that i actually trew away five and a half years of my life, thinkig it was the right thing to do and being unhappy, for what (3)

(4) i was avoiding the whole thing and i dont even know why, but the moment i found myself thinkig about where i wanted to go, getting a job and why i wanted to finsih my carreer; i realized that, because i wasnt brave enough to face my problems and reallity i could be stucked forever doing something i dont love, spending more and more of my time instead of actually investing it. I made a mistake and it felt really awful, how many more years was i going to be okay throwing away (4)

(5) and now im stucked on a different place, now i want to find something im willing to spend my life on but i cant think of anything. I havent fully forgive myself for acting the way i did, it really really hurt those 5 years of waste, and i dont want to keep loosing time that wont come back. I try to make peace in the sense that okay, theyre gone but im still young, theres so much more i can do; but is not easy. Ive been feelling so lost and hopeless. i want to have a reason, a purpose (5)

(6) i dont want to stay till but rn i cant find a reason to even get out of bed, why would i get up, get dressed, eat. If i dont have something i want to do or get, either acomplish; and the things i have at the moment i dont want them because even thinking about them makes sad each and every day. It sounds really bad since im on an advantageous position, i have health and i am abled but my mind doesnt let me go. I dont know what to do now, i know its a matter of picking again and (6)

(7) and start working but when i try to ask myself, i found a blank space. Its the worst ive been in years because even if i think of starting a new major, i got such a negative conception of college as an institution and experience, all the sadness ive been feeling, imprinted a lot of negative feelings to it; that now even going back just triggers my anxiety and depression. I really dont know what should i do, or if anything would even worth it. i think im not completely helpless since (7)

(8) im still willing to try, but my depression and self judgement peeps and i cant seem to get out of it. Now i dont even know what i like or enjoy, what im actually willing to do, or what is the right thing to do or even if i should finish this major in the mean time. There was a point where i wanted to stop trying. and even now, even if im willing to try i dont know towards what i should run. I wnat to think im doing better that the past days, at least i stopped crying all and judging and (8)

(9) blaming myself, but my appetite is still gone, and the things i used to enjoy just feel like a burden to me atm, listening to music, reading; i dont feel interest on doing it anymore, i stil get distracted and cant seem to concentrate. i dont know what to do, how does one fall back again on the track of life?. I dont wat to get stucked but im stucked right now. I want to try and think but my mind is messed up and blank, if the things, the small ones i ised to enjoy i cant seem to be able (9

(10) to even do them anymore, how am i supposed to find a purpose, a gold. something i like and am willing to invest my time on. I feel confused and sad. and i really dont know where to start. it was so sad when i found myself surrounded by people who seem to know what they wanted, or why they were doing that major, how it made them feel acomplished, i realized something was really wrong because wasnt even one bit excited. and it made me think, and blame myself to no end (10)

(11) im afraid of choosing again,messing up,being that wrong. But for more that i want to move on my mind wont let me,and i dont know anymore.[ ] Im really sorry for doing this, and by no means i want to give my problems to someone else, i dont intent to load anything on anyone i just needed to talk to somebody,we dont know eachother but i dont feel like you are a complete stranger to me since ive been following your blog and i read about what you share,talk and write,for quite sometime now(11)

(12) im truly truly sorry,

okay firstly, never say sorry for feelings and for wanting to express them. you’re always allowed to feel.

i don’t know why you picked me to share this with but i’m honoured.

i’m not the best at advice, i think i’ve made too many mistakes in life to really know anything about what’s going on. but i do know one thing, the major you choose, any choice you make, that doesn’t have to be the be all and end all of things. there’s always another road, a way to make a u-turn, and a way to rectify things.

there’s nothing wrong with not knowing where to go next or what to do or even why you chose the major you did. it’s a little unfair of the world to expect young people to know what they’re doing when sometimes even people who have lived far longer lifetimes seem to just be faking it, isn’t it?

when i graduated college, it was with a science degree, because back then, i liked science and i was good at it. unfortunately, by about a year before graduation, i already knew i never wanted to go near a science lab or a science book ever again. by then, it was too late to change. so, i made a different choice when looking for a job, and in a roundabout way, i’m now in mass communications; a writing job. exactly what college-me didn’t know i wanted.

it’s okay to be stuck and not know what to do, no one ever knows, that’s the beauty of life, we’re all making it up as we go along.

take a first step, just…maybe see what’s out there, what you can do, what you want to do. look for what they’re looking for, if maybe it’s general enough that you fulfil the criteria. i don’t know what major you have right now, but i think many jobs don’t necessarily need a very specific degree, they just need a certain level of education. then you gotta take the leap, and try.

easier said than done, i know. but i believe you can.

no one ever makes perfect choices, that’s why there’s chances in every stage of life to make a u-turn. if you’re wrong, it’s okay, what matters is you try to fix it. and i think you have a heart to do that, even if it’s a little bit harder right now.

and that’s my attempt at advice ahhh. i hope it helped a bit but please disregard everyTHING if it didn’t. i hope it gets easier as time goes by, and i hope you find a road and opportunities that will help. (msg me offanon if you want tho)

#ask #oh man i'm so sorry if i fucked this up #but oh don't give up on yourself never give up on yourself ;;;