#now time to look at this week's list

[goldensunset]

sora’s new roommate looks like a really nice and normal girl i wonder what her story is

#:))) #kingdom hearts #kh #strelitzia #kh strelitzia #khux #kh4 #kingdom hearts 4 #kingdom hearts union x #posting art for the third time in a week. so it goes! #sometimes i’m in a drought bc i have fifteen wips at once and don’t wanna complete any of them #and then later on i end up completing all of them at once. it’s kinda funny #last one up on the list is… ephemer!!! probably won’t finish him until like november lol #mine: kh #my art #HOWww did i somehow delete the layer containing the whites of her eyes before posting. girl looked stoned #don’t mind me just having to edit a posted post multiple times #better now than when it starts gaining traction!

[wistfulwatcher]

AN ENDLESS LIST OF FOUND FAMILIES I LOVE

THE STATON-HOUSE BAND ROADIES from ROADIES

#roadies #roadiesedit #mine #edit #* #ael* #ael*ff #i love found families #look another gif list/series i'll forget about in two weeks!! 🤭 for real i do have some hopes i'll keep this one going because i hope to do #characters and dynamics and other stuff but We'll See #can't believe how into this show i became but i've literally watched it five times now??? it's not good but i sure do love it

[queer-reader-07]

something about finding the people who sit through your info dumps with joy on their face and enthusiasm for your passions. something about finding the people who info dump right back at you because they know you love hearing about their passions. something about finding the people who manage to sum up your being in one niche, oddly specific sentence that lives in your mind rent free for the rest of time. something about finding the people who not only accept you for who you are but embrace you for who you are. who not only tolerate your quirks and differences but love and cherish them.

#i’m in my feels today if you couldn’t tell #just thinking about one friend in particular who i don’t get to see in person nearly enough but i text all the time #idk it’s the little things #the way we send each other videos of ourselves explaining whatever we’re learning about right now #the way we don’t write it in a long message because the emotion and vibes don’t translate properly #the way he’s told me that the way i dress is so gender nonconforming in his eyes #how even though i’m afab and i wear glittery makeup and crop tops and have pink hair #i still look so queer and so gnc and so Not Girl in his eyes #how that felt so validating #how i could feel the genuine love in his words #how he told me once that i’m ‘not a person with lore but rather a person with a schtick’ #and how he explained to me what my schtick was and how accurate it was #how he told me he can’t wait for me to get my degree(s) and be an openly queer person in stem #how he can’t wait for me to defend my thesis sometime in the future and be wearing the brightest makeup and the biggest earrings #and the tallest boots #how he loves that i go to my chem lab every week with glitter on my eyes #how it’s cool that i don’t care if i stick out like a sore thumb because i’m me #i remember how he dropped the she/her pronouns immediately upon ne saying i didn’t really vibe with them #(even when they were still technically on my list of ‘ok to use pronouns’) #how his boyfriend who i don’t know very well has always they/them-ed me because my friend does #and if my friend is doing it then it must be the right thing #idk i just love my friends #and this friend in particular is someone i’ve gotten really close with over the past 6 months or so #and i’m so glad to have him in my life #platonic love #friendship #tell your friends you love them

[northern-passage]

Genuine thought as a fellow trans dude, I’ve seen a lot of (obviously non-serious) questions on other blogs about characters’ genitals such as “how does it look like?” and similar, and I think we all know & understand that such questions are extremely inappropriate to ask and (I hope) no one would actually go around asking these questions irl. Idk, I think we should treat trans characters just like cis ones, without any special “precautions”, so to normalise them and not make cis people treat them like fragile boxes, a thing which happens to a lot of us irl. Hope this doesn’t come off as an attack or anything lol.

no worries, i didn't take this as an attack at all. i actually agree with you, that's why i mentioned feeling conflicted about it and also mentioned that i've changed my stance on how i felt about handling Noel and Clementine in game and in explicit intimate scenes.

however, for me the problem comes from the fact that people... don't ask these kinds of questions about cis characters? i suppose people do get cheeky "who is the biggest 🤪" asks but i would hardly compare the two. to be a bit crude, no one is going to be asking if a cis character has a dick or not, or "what does it look like". of course it's natural for people to be curious, and i honestly encourage the open discussion and am happy to see trans bodies being talked about more in a positive way, but not everyone is going to be comfortable with it due to the inescapable transphobia online and in the community. sending me that kind of ask is like sending out an invitation for a debate or a discussion that i don't necessarily want to have. i also just don't think people should default to asking a random IF author on tumblr dot com to describe what bottom growth looks like.

and with most of these asks typically coming from someone who is anonymous, i have no way of truly knowing what the tone is, what their intentions are or why this is being asked - is it another trans person? or maybe someone who is just genuinely curious? or, more likely in my experience, is it someone who is going to immediately follow up this message with something transphobic after i answer? do i want to roll the dice and find out?

so while i agree with what you're saying, it's important to consider the context and the reality we live in. the IF community is not kind to trans people or trans characters. and as a trans person, my first priority is protecting myself and my mental health. so what i mean when i say "precautions," is that those precautions are for me, because i've had to deal with transphobic harassment here for years now, and i try to mitigate it as much as i can. it's also for my personal comfort - again, to be blunt, i'm simply just not comfortable discussing a trans character's genitals with anonymous strangers on the internet. it makes me feel vulnerable.

also i do want to say i didn't mean for any of that to come across as a dig at other authors - if you're comfortable answering those kinds of questions, that's really only something you can decide for yourself. like i said, this is just coming from my own experiences in IF and for my own personal comfort - i have previously talked a lot about trans stuff and gender and sexuality here, when i'm feeling up to it, but it is something that is very draining for me and can also be very upsetting.

basically: i do agree that it's important not to other trans characters or treat them any differently than cis characters, but i also think there are ways to do it that don't require me answering invasive questions or questions that i don't feel comfortable with as a real life trans person, you know what i mean?

#hopefully this better explains what i was trying to say #again no worries anon i've had this exact conversation before with other trans people #and it's something that i don't think has a perfect solution esp with the current... climate #and especially online with the anonymity it makes these topics really touchy. you don't know who is reading this or who is interacting #if it's sincere or in bad faith #things have changed a lot in the IF community for the better but it's still not safe and i always advocate for an author to protect #themself first #back when i started tnp it was not at all common for ppl to list characters as cis #really it was only nb or trans characters that got listed in that way #and it's why i chose not to do that and why i wanted the player to find out lea and merry was trans at the same time as the hunter #same with noel and clem and their privacy #giving them that agency was important to me #and it's still important to me now #but i got a lot of harassment because of that. the lea reveal didnt even end up in game it was on the blog and it was weeks of harassment #afterwards that still makes me anxious to this day whenever i talk about lea's transness #so basically like. it comes down to what someone is comfortable with and what they're mentally able to handle #edit: thinkin abt it more &im going to be honest if someone sent me an ask that said ‘what does it look like’ i would be very Not Happy #like cis people & cis characters do Not get treated that way so why would i allow it for my trans characters #so i stand by saying that these asks are inappropriate like. i obviously dont know the context of what ur referencing #but that’s a hard no from me personally either way #to me as a trans person that question in itself is othering and objectifying #ask #anonymous

[mixed-up-metaphors]

the duality of tea parties (fe:3h)

i'll...i'll let this speak for itself.

in my experience, sometimes tea parties in fe:3h play out like this

and then sometimes they play out like this

#look this has been stored in my brain for like the past two weeks. now you must suffer with me #art trashpost #fire emblem: three houses #fe:3h #ferdinand von aegir #byleth eisner #caspar von bergliez #all of them perpetually either say the most random but light-hearted stuff or point-blank list all their problems during tea parties #and all the while a glitter sparkle filter covers the entire screen. leaves me in shambles every time #yes i used the wrong pencil color in the first two doodles #and at this point i cant be bothered to fix it.

[hopeinthebox]

tagged by loml @cordiallyfuturedwight for the monthly breakdown. i might like you less now that you know me so well. tagging some crushes @aprylynn @thvinyl @monismochi @kimtaegis @banghwa @eoieopda @pauls-mccharmly @letmelovekoo @visionsofgideontheninth @kimchokejin if you feel so inclined 💜

#gratuitous commentary as per: #ryan beatty no.1 to no-one's suprise. pretty sure i said last month that white teeth was a new fav and look at her now!! #BACK ON 74!!!!! always been a fan of jungle but my GOD. this track... the mv... it's taken over my life #unexpected breakthrough for the clash? no idea. great tune though #boygenius my beloved!! saw them live last week and i will perhaps never be quite the same again. #whole discography is a rec but leonard cohen has my heart in all senses #hozi3r... unreal unearth... it's a masterpiece... it's over for my wrapped #top artist yet only these two made the list? lord forgive me #first time and first light are spectacular. butchered tongue is otherworldly. i think unknown remains my fav single. #shy boy - fucks beyond belief. new crj album is magnificent as anticipated #dela - recently i have experienced a george of the jungle resurgence and this is very much the result of that. #phenomenal tune. extraordinary film. #come to your senses - tick tick boom revival for me also because andrew garfield the man that you are... #alas 40/23 doesn't have quite the ring to it #move - lynda dawn is fantastic. a lot of these tracks fell victim to my ayo edebiri playlist <33 #that's all folks! #tag #receiptify #is anyone still here?? kissing you

[silenthillbunni]

📓🖊️🌧️🌫️

#just... ugh! im so frustrated nd need to vent a bit #sadly.. smth i havent accepted yet is that having avpd will be constant thru my life and it will have ups and downs #i had a pretty long run of not being *that* avoidant #for 2 weeks now i'm back in that suuuuuper avoidant place #like super avoidant. i dont even go for walks or go to the grocery store. or send emails to my teachers (important!!!!) #i cant look at anything thats important. i dont even clean my room T-T #this is the 2nd week im skipping school which is v bad. nd i havent done anything on my assignment in the course i need to finish in march #i dont open messages or reply to anyone bc i just cant it gives me too much anxiety #im simply avoiding EVERYTHING #and it's such an awful place to be stuck in i hate it so so so so much #worst part is I HAVE NO FKN IDEA HOW TO BREAK FREE!!!!!!! #i've never gotten any treatment for my avpd nd there is actually no information or research online so idk how to handle it #i just wait and simmer in this fkn.... sucky ass soup mess nd wait nd wait #until suddenly it just loosens nd i can start doing things here nd there #the problem is. i dont rlly have time #i dont have time to sit and wait!!! i have time sensitive responsibilities that i risk ruin if i dont do them #i just have no idea HOW to do anything rn. bc it doesnt work to just force myself to do them #it doesn work to make lists or schedules #it suxxx that there isnt rlly any treatment or accessible tips for how to deal w avpd bc im rlly... #im alone... out in the open sea... no one around as far as the eye can see... no life raft. no help skskksks #anyway #ig all i can do is wait nd *try* to do small things as much as i can nd hope i'll get less avoidant soon #i just hate this so much. i always feel so awful nd terrible nd it's so bad ugh

[arsonist-chicken]

btw in absolutely unsurprising news I fucked up the exam of that class I'm taking for the third time badly again.

in very surprising news, apparently Something happened, idk if the dean said something to the professor or I looked like a distressed broken down wet rat enough or he just doesn't want to see me in his class again or idk, maybe it's not good for him if someone fails his class three times, but he actually offered that I could do a written exam on friday instead? which. is extremely surprising. good, because it gives me another afternoon to study and I can draw and go back to questions on a written exam, even if I have to shuffle around the other exams and papers now, just. very surprising.

#lol but next semester is the fucking seminar again with also the same professor #idk how you can teach such shitty classes regularly and never think hmmm maybe i should change something #with the amount of people having to take the classes at least twice #anyway good for me i'll keep crying over uni the rest of the week and the weekend too and then i'll do stuff next week #like i need to call my insurance and annoy them in person until they say yes to any therapist who will have me #and call the other thing #and oh i really need to find a different GP because i'm soundly back at the stage of where i can literally not think two sentences #after each other without trailing off or it taking up extremely much energy just to remember which store i wanted to go to #and i'm aware that stress and mental illness causes brain fog or whatever #but i've been stressed before but this only started last autumn and i need a different doctor to look at it #who won't just say oh it's just iron levels #there's something wrong with my brain and i need someone competent who actually cares to look at it and tell me #if therapy will fix this or if it's a physical problem #please let it be just brain fog htat therapy can fix i don't have time for this #i just want to sleep and cry until this bs is over but semester break starts next week but i still have exams then and a whle list of #stuff to do for uni still plus stuff otuside. like a doctor. and sleep a normal amount instead of in weird horu intervals on my desk and in #my clothes on my bed or floor or wherever i am at the moment my brain decides it's over now #also friends. i wanted to catch up. also a job. like. yeah i need a job even if idk how i'll do uni and a job with the way my brain is righ #now #huh. oh i have another exam in half an hour. send help i don't want to go to uni anymore #mine #still don't know what that class or the seminar next semester are about btw but we moce #*move #goddamn it I'm TIRED and not just in the physical sense #i'm so goddamn done with uni and insurances deciding about psychotherapy and the general state of the world and cost of living #and i miss my friends and i want to visit them but nither them nor me have time and travelling is expensive #and ijust want a goddamn fucking break but i don't see one comign anytime soon. not before summer #but probably not even then #and after that i'll start working so like #at least no goddamn seminars anymore but i still absolutely dread having to decide where i want to work a

[cantsaythetword]

fuuuuuck ive dug myself such a massive hole and there's no climbing out now

#he speaks #love lying to my parents about how my uni career is going #cause i know they would cut me off from EVERYTHING i care about if they find out im failing anything #so just softening the blow by being like hey im barely passing #(which was still a DIFFICULT convo) #and saying oh im struggling heaps keeping up with readings and assignment deadlines so im just doing the bare minimum cause im exhausted #cause adhd #and them wanting to be super helpful and being like oh give me a list of your assignments and their due dates and your readings #and ill read the stuff and look at your assignments #cause you said you were doing summer semester to catch up on your classes from the trip #but in reality youre not you just said that so your parents would let you go #but now youre gonna have to do assignments over the summer break (aka for the next 4 weeks) and then be stressed about getting set up #and now youre so far in that you have an elaborate plan that you've “talked to the academic advisors” about your struggles and your adhd do #and both said you should go part time #so that it looks like youre graduating “on time” #but in reality youre just catching up on the courses you failed #and still struggling and hating full time #i stg if there were ANY other way to get the qualifications i need for this job #i would have left uni after first semester #i actually fuckin hate it #sorry for the rant lmao #kinda a vent post

[siena-sevenwits]

:-)

#I've spent the past week organizing in the play's wake - sorting and laundering huge numbers of costumes #some to return to those they belong to and some to come home to my costume storage room which had become chaotic over the last few #months #so a complete spring cleaning for the storage room became part of my task list too. Now the play's been over for a week #and the emails are starting to come in from admin about next year. As some of you know I did a lot of discernment this semester #about what next year should look like and I have decided a mix of continuity is best. I won't be working for my 'main' schoolboard anymore #but I will continue to teach and direct for the one program in the city (the one I did the play for) and possibly with a new home school #enrichment program that may go ahead this year if there are sufficient numbers. Otherwise I am going to spend a semester #tutoring and running workshops f I can get it off the ground. Then we'll see. #Anyway - admin wants me to get new syllabi in to them within a month's time so my thoughts are all in that direction! #I get to teach 19th/20th century Canadian history to the middle schoolers and Late Antique/Medieval Church History to the high schoolers! #Also direct another play and do a humanities course centred around an epic in the spring (the last couple of years we've done Iliad and #Odyssey - they want Aeneid this year but I am trying to talk them into another option. The Aeneid is valuable but I am not sure it's the #time or place with this group of students. The result of all this is that I am spending far too much time doing Internet research for ideas #and then taking breaks on tumblr - which isn't good for my eyes or mental health. What with the play and end of term #I fear I've been out of the reading habit. I'm still hyperfixating on the Book of Romans so there's that at least #but I lost the novel I was in the middle of and am not feeling so motivating with out books. It's a proper reading slump! I need a kickstar #of sorts. Feel free to yell at me that I should pick up a book!

[fastasyoucan1999]

i love to find a nice spot at the library and take out all my books and load up my laptop and open all my tabs and assignments and then pack up and leave immediately

#all in a days work :) think i might take a nap #i didn’t NOT do anything. i wrote down a list of everything due this week which let me tell you is a task onto itself and a very harrowing #one too i’m only a small and tiny sort of thing so u can imagine how hard it is for me #someone asked me for directions i’m changing topics right now someone asked me for directions to the restroom and i hope i was okay at it #i hate giving directions and i think this magnetizes ppl to me the amount of times i’ve been asked to give directions. wow. i don’t think i #look like a girl who knows where she’s going so i’m mildly confused on why strangers choose me to point them the right way. i think the whol #e process of giving directions is hugely embarrassing for me bc i can see them become more confused as i talk anyway. peace and love nothing #says monday like giving up immediately xoxo

[thedeadthree]

🥀! the oc page is here !

#leg.txt #*personal #AND ALSO i finished lilias edit ! mutuals if i did a tag list for it let me know if y’all would like to be added ! 🥀🌹 #* ​or like ! i am not sure if i will do a tag list but i thought it would be cute ! 🥀 #vianne has the braincell at the moment and i cannot wait to finish her pieces 🥀✨😭 ! miguelvianne mean the WORLD to me ! #i also updated my about page the mobile and desktop as well ! #sort of muting changing the url to raventreehalls because of bl*oodraven brainrot <3 #*MUSING NOT MUTING 💀 #THAT ANNOUNCEMENT WHEN I SAY I LOST MY MIND ! H*EDGE KNIGHT AHHHHH loml brynden! i cant wait! #i have been sort of in and out of being active here for some things and i can’t thank y’all enough for the tags + being so patient with me! #ill shoot to catch up with things in the week ! y’all are the SWEETEST 🌸✨😭 #also looking forward to s*tarfield and c*yberpunk again becoming my whole personality I AM SO EXCITED ! #bel and caro + the t*witter circle besties got to see me lose my mind about s*tarfield earlier today 🥀✨😵‍💫😌 #and now to return to the morgaine musings ! she’s in the sierra madre rn <3 her and the f*allout besties are having a time ! #maybe ill do a lore essay on how things went for them in dead money 🌹✨😵‍💫☺️ IT HAS BEEN A TIME skzkjzjz

[sysig]

Your Weekly TV Guide

On Monday you can expect:

2:30 PM: Sona reacts to holidays

And Tuesday:

2:30 PM: Original - Old Adopts

Wednesday:

2:30 PM: Undertale - Papyrus

Thursday:

2:30 PM: Original - Old OCs

Friday:

2:30 PM: Original - Nequam (ft. Papyrus)

Saturday:

2:30 PM: Handplates (ft. Baby Todd AU)

Sunday:

2:30 PM: Sona reacts to happies!

Thanks for tuning in! (Patreon)

#Weekly TV Guide #It is here! The 2024 doodles! Here they come! It is time! #Lol #I made good on my threat/promise of more Original Content stuff this year lol #At least y'know - immediately upfront lol #There's still more after this but it has gotten a little fanart-heavy again I never would've guessed lol #But for now! My lads! >:D Yesss and yayyyy #Oh and - I'll make a post about it after the fact too - all but the last Requestober video will post this week as well! #Just a little more and that'll be all of October 2023! #Keeping up with my other queues has kinda fallen by the wayside trying to keep up but hopefully MBD and Drabbles will be back up soon #It goes for months at a time and then I leave it for months at a time lol #And that's Still not counting my secondary behind-the-scenes project - although another one has cropped up in the meantime lol #Stop bullying me my own inspiration 2ksometime eventually #ANYway lol - lots of lads to look forward to :) #Update: WAIT! This list is wrong! #Alright fixed now :) #Forgot I had something seasonal planned lol

[girlscience]

making funny haha jokes to myself like "oh i'm doing so fine" *extreme side eye from the dishes in my sink*..... only to finally do my dishes tonight and discover all my tupperware have become their own microbiomes. fuck

#i am pretty sure i am riding that depression wave hard right now #i am just so stressed all the time #and i feel like i could fix some of that stress if i checked a few very specific things off my to do list #here's the thing tho. i am realizing i might need outside help to get those things done #and that is uncomfortable for two reasons #one being that means i will have to ask someone to help me do these things and be my external motivator #and put up with me being cranky the whole time because i will be deeply embarrassed about it and will end up taking it out on them #and then two being that. these things are for grad school. and if i can't even get the fucking applications done on my own #how the fuck do i think i'm going to be able to get through two years by myself?? #also i am so sleepy and my sleep schedule has been fucked for like two weeks now and that's not helping #and i need to do things to my car and make several doctors appointments and work stuff and apartment stuff #and everything happening in the world and stuff happening with my friends and my family #and i just. how i am supposed to live with this much in my brain all the time #and i'm reading fanfic and comparing myself to the characters and coming up miserably short #and i hate the way i look all the time and i could do something intelligent like. #stop eating gummy worms and meat sticks for every meal and eat veggies and go to the gym and learn to love myself... #or i could decide my straight hair is the root of all my problems and get a perm #you know. like a normal person does #it's OK!! I'm Fine!!! aaaaaaaaaa

[iron-niffler]

not me sitting at my desk staring off into space wistfully thinking about what im going to do on december 19 at 11am after my last final as if i don't have ten assignments to do, a paper to write, two exams next week and 3-4 finals to study for

#help #def gonna buy myself a milkshake and some snacks when it's over then just nab an empty classroom and play video games for hours #thinking about winter break on the horizon is literally the one thing getting me through this final stretch stg #that and those mountain dew fruit flavored energy drinks #ofc my dad was asking if i wanted to get a job over break #like i would consider it but my break is 2.5 weeks long #yes the theater would probably take me back but it took me like a week and a half to start bc paperwork #haha im to busy to be unmotivated but too stressed to get to work #just looking at differential equations is making my head spin much less SOLVING them #why did my school decide that five days (counting the weekend) was enough for thanksgiving break #my elementary school siblings had more time off than i did ffs #how much longer can i tell myself just x more days #how much longer till i just...lose it #wrote myself a long ass to do list for now till break then had to take a several hour long break to calm dowb #and now im more stressed bc im more behind and fml #im too stupid for engineering #still holding myself to my high school standards which are just impossible to reach in uni #like when im doing high school shit i barely studied and always got above an 80 #now im just...average #like literally half my grades are at the class average #feels like im fighting tooth and nail for C's but oh well that's just mechanical engineering ig #it's just months of “just gotta get through this exam” over and over till a two week break then it's time to do it all over again

[blunderpuff]

put on tshirt after doing yardwork (cuz i got hot) and my mom immediately commented "look at YOU in bArE aRmS"

so i put on my long shirt again

#me and my mom #no matter how upset i get or tell her to keep her comments to herself... she won't #i'll knit a whole-ass fucking sweater and she'll immediately say 'it's too short' #thank u for invalidating every fucking thing i do and/or make #i made beef stew and it actually turned out good but all she could say was 'the house smells like onions.' #and then i'll see a job listing for something i don't have experience with/can't do and she'll get mad at me and aggressively #tell me 'you can do anything! library work translates to (job field that library work doesn't translate to)' #and it's just so frustrating bc she obviously has this idea of me in her head and i just don't match up #the whiplash from the 'you are so smart and you can do anything!' abt hypothetical things to the 'it's too short' abt things i actually do #'i don't like the color' 'i don't like the neckline' 'i don't wear wool' (it's not a sweater i made for anyone but me) #'oh look at you wEaRiNg ShOrTs' 'oh look at you wEaRiNg a sKiRt' #and danny got fat and she keeps commenting on it and all i can assume is that it's ALSO a comment on my putting on weight #but then we eat at fucking Popeye's for lunch twice a week #and no matter how much i say 'please stop making me eat junk food' we keep going #she doesn't leave the house on her own. she won't let me leave the house on my own #i had more freedom as a 16yo than i do now #wonder why i'm so FUCKING miserable and depressed all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i left a decent-paying job! for nothing!! i'm just sitting here and rotting and the library system here sucks and they STILL haven't #gotten back to me even though i applied in FUCKING DECEMBER #she can't finish a meal anywhere so anywhere we go i have to eat half of her lunch. so it's not stuff i would pick anyway #how do you even apply for jobs and put anything in your 'skills' when you're so fucking miserable you wish you were dead