Oj by the way-
I GOT MIKU EXPO TICKETS!!!!!
Let's hope miku expo on the TV isn't real for Europe!!! Also that I can get merch.
But crunchyroll has been so insanely bad- who knows!!!!! People may riot I hope they do. I'll go no matter what but the deception isn't hot
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as much as i love these fics where billy is rocking tommy’s shit, i think we’re lowkey underestimating how strong tommy is, like
and this is with the guy he has a crush on!! both physically and mentally, he was ready to rock steve’s shit. and steve still put up a hell of a fight against billy, despite losing in the end.
so basically, what i’m saying is, maybe billy might win in the end but i would KILL to see an actual showdown between billy and tommy. i think even if billy won, it would be a hella close victory and he’d be walking away just as fucked up.
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there are 3 works, including mine, in the danstelle tag on ao3
never in my life have I had such little fics to read for a ship I like 😭
no matter, I'll just write what I want to read for these two myself
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I've been in a depression funk and haven't gamed for weeks and I doubt I'll ever finish my fanfiction... work has been okay but I feel so drained. I been lonely despite my husband and I living together and life just feels so bleak and empty.
On the opposite side of things.... I have a new kitten, and she is my joy! She is so cuddly and floofy! It's fun to play with her and my other cat, gives the best serotonin..
And then it stops and I go back to rotting. Mental health sucks.
Why does life gotta be this way tho?
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Lmao! Regarding the Leon dbd post you made...when that man gets injured in dbd, it always catches me off guard and it is so hard to focus. Like I swear the dude that's the voice actor for Leon in dbd knew what he was doing....I swear
No you’re so right 🥲
I recently started playing him more often and-
I’m not amazing at running the killer.. BUT WITH HIM IM EVEN WORSE BECAUSE I CANNOT HIDE FOR THE LIFE OF ME- His voice actor definitely knew what he was doing and listening to his little noises is fun and 100% distracting BUT THAT MAN CANNOT BE ANY LOUDER ISTG-
It doesn’t matter though because… its Leon, ya know? 😩
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do any of you have fave proseka ships? platonic counts too!! -🐌
Oh totally!!
I'm mainly an akty truther, personally. But I really like most in-vbs ships!! Not as hot on toyahane and akian but they just aren't my go-to dynamics! I am a FIRM believer in antoya in a story dynamics way. I love them.
I like all the "basic" project sekai ships, really! Your Ruikasas and Emunenes and Ichisakis, and ofc Anhanes- Catch is- I'm a big multi shipper. My other big ships are probably KanaMizu and KanaEna! And KanaMino... And.. AkiMino... And ShizuMino... And KanaKasa...... And MinoKasa... And ShizuKasa..... And HonaKana...
okay so to be straight- I really enjoy ships with Kanade/Minori/Shizuku/Akito in them. I think they're just really shippable characters who work well in the dynamics prsk offers.
Favourites for my in groups are likely
HonaSaki(or polyneed), MinoShizu (poly jump), Akitoya, Emurui(could be PolyWonderlands) and KanaMizu.
Id ship poly niigo more but I am not that big on Mafuyu shipping. I think she is someone who rn doesn't really care about or need a romantic bond. So I do like qpr polyniigo. Like I said, love Antoya, but they're also one of my favourite hypewoman/hypeman pairs. They build each other up!!! They're the besties!! For other platonic ships- Probably EnaToya. But that's moreso sibling like.
In another thematic way- mafutouya!!!! Their stories almost mirror each others with just a small split- early salvation or not? Project sekai doesn't really allow character story and stuff in mixed events- but it would be a very fun conversation to see <3
oh I know I said I like akimino relationship but it really is more a qpr thing :) they're absolute best friends and I NEED to read the new event story soon.
Oh also minokohashiho. thanks Lynn!
Thank you so much for the ask, Mx. Snail anon !!!!!!!! I don't often get to ramble on about my lil strange pairings :)
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i see fellow billy stans contemplating billy’s violence and i bring you: intermittent explosive disorder.
this isn’t the first time i’ve headcanoned a character with IED but it is the first time that i’ve been serious about it. honestly, if any of the stranger things showrunners or book writers treated billy and his trauma with any sort of sensitivity or seriousness, i would say that this is probably canon.
okay so for those who do not know what IED is, it is an impulse and emotional disorder in which people suffering from it often experience episodes of incredible anger and violence in response to triggers. the key aspect of this disorder is that the anger is completely uncontrolled, it is not planned, and the episode doesn’t often last more than 30 minutes at a time.
usually (but not always), the people in question are young male children. however, the symptoms can persist from childhood to adulthood if they are not treated properly.
how do i think this relates to billy? uh.
okay jokes aside, i think the entire fight at the byers house is a pretty good example. the way that it intersects with what i believe is his PTSD makes it even more interesting. we already know that billy is in an unstable state when he’s coming to the byers’, what with being fresh off of an incredibly unsafe and upsetting situation with his father berating and hitting him in front of a witness.
so the proverbial gun is cocked and ready to fire, in this situation. and, in all honesty, none of what physically happened in the byers house is a proper trigger for how severely billy beats steve. he’s not in immediate danger, he’s obviously physically stronger than steve, and he already was winning the fight by the time it got bad. there’s no reason why he couldn’t have left steve and taken max home, but we can clearly see that while nothing physically has happened, billy has clearly been psychologically triggered.
you could really come up with any reason as to why he was psychologically triggered during this event. the most common of which is that he was just in a situation (with his dad) in which he was in danger but was not allowed to defend himself, and he’s redirecting what he wants to do to his dad (which actually gets referenced in the runaway max novel**) to steve.
there is also one that has been coming up more recently, which is that when steve hits him, billy reacts as if steve were actually neil himself. the entire fight, he’s not even seeing steve. the trigger that i like the most, which is the most tinfoil hat but can easily be explained with context clues, is that steve has become neil in billy’s mind, and billy has become his mother. the outfit, the punch, the plate smash—it all says, to me, that he’s recreating his mother’s abuse. but, in his mind, his mother is winning. he’s winning for her.
(short sleeved red shirt unbuttoned, blue jeans and a belt, their hair, etc)
so yes, his trigger itself could be any number of things, but whatever that thing is to you, it triggers an episode. we don’t actually know where billy would have stopped in this situation. had max not drugged him, i can’t confidently say that billy would’ve stopped himself before it was too late. it’s not intentional effort on his part, he is not in control of himself in that situation. an episode has been triggered and he cannot stop himself until the episode is done, which could have been well after steve was dead.
this is an example of a high intensity-low frequency episode. episodes of this intensity do not occur often, and are rather rare in comparison to the frequency of low intensity episodes. i think max tends to be a trigger for a lot of the low intensity episodes we see. (DO NOT!!!!!!!!! take this as me blaming her, i am not blaming her for his episodes occurring!)
**i saw this a lot more when i got the chance to look at the runaway max book the other day. i don’t necessarily consider that book to be canon (there are obvious timeline issues, plus the fact that if it were canon, it would introduce a whole host of disturbing implications about max and billy’s relationship), but i do think more of his symptoms can be observed there simply due to the fact that more importance is placed on him in that book as opposed to the show.
violence against animals (although already dead), violence against people, etc etc. i honestly wonder if that author (and even the show, honestly) was trying to portray billy as being a ‘psychopath’ which, as much as i’d love to talk about that and how much i hate it, it would need to be an entirely different post.
it also makes sense how billy might have acquired these symptoms. for starters, most disorders tend to be passed down genetically, and though i don’t know enough about neil to say anything about his anger (and i don’t particularly care to), i think it’s safe to say that billy could have inherited it from him. additionally, trauma, abuse, and exposure to violence as a child are also environmental causes of this disorder, which
self explanatory.
to me, this makes a lot of things about billy’s character make sense. it also makes me really sad because, once again, this disorder can be treated and mitigated with proper help and intervention.
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