Child of God
“Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.”
Me when I give Water Lily my religious trauma and use religious imagery with it :)
I experimented a little with this one! Tried to do a lineless style and I think it looks nice!
Anyway *feeds this to the void*
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Under a read because of
Repetition ("Do you think.." is what's repeated.)
General distressing themes (blood, mentions murder, loss of control, manipulation)
Please understand that this is something you chose to read despite the warnings. Don't come at me if you get distressed by this.
Do you think Domain and Forum sometimes jolt away at night, clawing at their throats or arms, hoping that there aren't strings there? Or that their holograms aren't decaying from spores or that the Defender Command isn't there again? Do you think that, when they lost Juliano again, they were ready to give up hope? Just stop hoping, stop dreaming, and just try and be Admins?
Do you think that whenever Emulator drifts off to thinking, she starts unintentionally remembering how it felt to have those bugs distorting and destroying her, the world? Do you think she remembers the terror of Byte controlling her brothers and how she must have felt when even Abyssal and Umbra faltered at seeing him? Do you think Emulator thought she'd never get her brothers back?
Do you think Mario sometimes has nightmares about SMG4 and SMG3 getting Reset again? Do you think he has nightmares about seeing Meggy get 'shot' and seeing her blood pool under him? Do you think he feels unwarranted guilt for dragging his friends into potentially dangerous acts?
Do you think that SMG4 or SMG3 sometimes peek into Lil Coding's and Lily's room, just to check and see if they're there? That either one of them go around, making sure that the present is real? Do you think that sometimes, whenever things are going too good, they start to think that this might be exhaustion induced by the Reset? Do you think sometimes they just stay up together, simply holding each other, because they're afraid that the Reset might somehow happen again?
Do you think Boopkins sometimes wakes and feels like his body and his mouth are too dry? Do you think that sometimes he's worried as well that everything he's experiencing is just because of dehydration because of The Goomba? That he'll blink, and suddenly he's standing beside The Goomba again. Do you think that he tries to forget the first part of his name, because when he remembers it, all he can hear is The Goomba's voice?
Do you think Meggy at times thinks she's back in the simulation? When things are going too good, when things are just too happy, do you think she starts pinching herself to make sure it's real? Do you think she wakes up in the middle of the night, sobbing and crying out because she thinks One Shot Wren was killing her all over again?
Do you think Bob sometimes stays up late at night, pondering his past choices? Wondering if he had done things differently, would his life be different? Do you think sometimes Bob tries to ignore his guilt for the whole Don Pinata incident and inadvertently let Lily's parents take her back?
Do you think Lily gets uncomfortable in monochrome, dull rooms, because it reminds her of the manor? Do you think she tries not to be alone, to be around others, because all her life she was alone? Do you think she has nightmares of her biological parents winning the custody case, and she never sees her family again?
Do you think Nimbus grows afraid of the water, the ocean, the sea after Watered Down Dreams? Do you think she cowers in fear whenever rainstorms happen and thunder claps, trying not to break down in apologies and pleas for nothing? Does she isolate herself when it rains because she's fearful that Leto will try to trick her again?
Do you think Queen Melody grows worried that Lumiere may one day win? Do you think she gets worried about being overthrown by the villain and watching him force Nimbus to marry him? Do you think she stays up endlessly, making sure her kingdom will always be safe, because she doesn't want a repeat of her father's rule?
Do you think Tulip grows more fearful every time Captian Olimar or any of her friends try to convince her to let them visit her universe? Do you think she grows more and more scared each time her parents find her because she doesn't know how, and she's breaking down every time SMG10 leaves for a moment? She starts hyperventilating, crying, and working herself into a panic that'll take ages to calm from.
Do you think CPU sometimes wishes that he had spoken up the day SMG0's universe was destroyed? As he knelt there, holding a trembling and pained Lag, as the Adminspace was in dissary, do you think he wished he shouted and put suspicion on Byte? Do you think as he stayed by Lag's side, helping him recover, he wished he had confronted Byte so much earlier? Do you think that sometimes, CPU goes off to train alone so that he can assure himself that Ozymandias won't be able to use him and his friends so easily?
Do you think Antivirus sometimes sees glimpses of Red Doomguy's and/or Glitch's memories? And it makes him pause and think? Do you think Antivirus was livid when he learned what Cluster did to Lil Coding, or how Lady Rose had been tormenting Lily for so long? Do you think that sometimes he finds himself just thinking? Thinking of those he cares about.
Do you think Lag's scars sometimes cause him phantom pains, so intense he has to stop whatever he's doing? Do you think that in the beginning, the pain was so bad that all he could do when they happened was to cling on to CPU and cry into his shoulder? Do you think he felt fury overtake him when they found out that Byte had intentionally not told Lag that two SMGs were needed? Do you think Lag felt utter despair when he saw Crash, Antivirus, and CPU captured by Ozymandias and was convinced he was about to experience loss once again?
Do you think Abyssal sometimes claws at their throat when the phantom pain of Cookie choking them comes back? Do you think they were horrified when Byte returned to the Adminspace, only to see their mentor be killed in front of them, another being taking his place? Do you think they sometimes just go silent, trying to comprehend everything?
Do you think Lil Coding sometimes wishes he didn't take Cluster's offer or that he wasn't so stubborn or hasty? Do you think he shudders whenever he remembers being reset? Do you think sometimes he wakes up and wanders at night, making sure everyone he loves and cares about is still there?
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Do you think Little Coding ever thinks about what would have happened if Domain and Forum never gave Singularity the authority to reset his dads?
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