#ocd guilt

[exclusivelyhomosexual]

(tw OCD guilt)

I love having OCD and ADHD together, bc in a matter of seconds, my brain will start obsessing over an intrusive thought and then forget completely what the thought was, but hang on to the OCD guilt, so I’m just left with feeling horribly guilty and absolutely no idea why.

#and then I get depressed and paralyzed bc my OCD needs a compulsive action to ‘clear’ my guilt #but if i don’t know what I’m guilty for thinking about #I can’t know what compulsion I can do to make the guilt go away #so I’ll just lay here till the guilt subsides I guess #tw ocd #tw ocd mention #rocd tw #tw pure ocd #tw ocd guilt #tw guilt #ocd #rocd #pure ocd #ocd guilt #adhd #neurodiverse stuff #adhd brain #adult adhd #neurodivergent #comorbidities #adhd and ocd

[supposedlyahuman]

tw: Examples of reblog bait/people trying to guilt others into reblogging stuff. I am not actually saying the things below, they're just examples that I have seen.

I fucking hate when people say stuff like this. Especially when it's on a generally good post with valuable information. On the one hand I want to share that information because it could genuinely help someone; on the other, I don't want to spread this type of guilt-tripping and shaming and potentially trigger someone else like me. It's a lose-lose situation. No matter what I do, I am going to feel guilty. No matter what I do, I will feel like a terrible person. It sucks and I just wish people would stop doing this. I know it's shocking, but it is actually possible to make an important and useful post without guilting everyone that sees it into sharing.

#in general i just don't reblog anything that tries to guilt me into reblogging it #there have been so many times where i consider reblogging something and then see people saying the stuff above #and i automatically move along because i can't handle interacting with that sort of thing #moral ocd #serious #my thoughts

[recovering2015emo]

there’s no guilt like an ex catholic with religious ocd’s guilt.

#ocd #actually ocd #catholiscism #ex catholic #guilt #catholic guilt #ocd guilt

[pansyfemme]

my therapist is very old so i know this diagnosis isnt usually called that anymore but ‘delusions of sin’ is the coolest possible shit to have on my medical records thats like a metal band or something

#they’re called delusions of guilt now #basically its just when you become extremly paranoid about doing bad things and committing sins you never did or didnt do to a level worth #that kind of obsession. i was convinced that i was born to be evil and couldnt fix it for a long time #and yes its pretty similar to ocd

[yardsards]

>see good post

>reach for reblog button

>see "you MUST reblog" at the end

>well now i am not doing it.jpg

>scroll away

#eliot posts #ive made nearly this exact post before but eugh. just found ANOTHER good post be ruined by a guilt trip. #this one actually said ''you must reblog OR donate to my paypal'' #like congrats op! probably the only people you've convinced to reblog or donate are ppl with scrupulosity ocd! #basically everyone else would have reblogged anyway. and even more people would have reblogged if not for the bait

[trans-cuchulainn]

had a really interesting convo yesterday about ethics and whether intent or results matters (eg if you tried to make an ethical purchasing choice but the business was actually exploitative as hell, does that "count") and very much came to the conclusion that sure, if you're concerned with your personal immortal soul, as a christian might be, then intention counts. but if what you're focused on is your impact on the world, then intention means nothing if the actions have negative results, right? (that doesn't mean you're to blame for them! you didn't know! but you also don't get "ethics points" for trying, you know?)

and this also got me thinking about the whole christian idea that sinful thoughts are as bad as sinful actions because. they're just not imo. maybe for the sake of your Immortal Soul they are points against you, if that's your jam. but in terms of putting good into the world, in terms of your impact on other people, the ONLY thing that matters is what you choose to do with those thoughts. there is no way that "was kind to someone who was pissing me off, for the sake of community harmony" or "helped an acquaintance with a task even though I felt resentful about the time spent doing that" is a Bad Thing for the world

and it made me wonder how much purity culture and thought policing is rooted in (mostly evangelical) cultural christianity and this idea that ethical choices are an individual thing because what matters is the impact of them on YOUR soul and not, you know, things we do because of what we owe the world around us / because of love for others / because a world where people are trying to put good into it is a hell of a lot nicer to live in than one where people are only worried about themselves

i grew up evangelical but like. fairly mild evangelical and even though there wasn't a big focus on hell and stuff, i definitely fixated on imperfect thoughts and behaviours that were putting absolutely no harm into the world, rather than focusing on what i could do to put good into it, and that individualistic vs outward-focused approach to morality has been something i've grappled with a lot as an adult. but i never really thought about it as simply as this and really that's what it boils down to. are you making the ethical choice because you're trying to put good in the world, or because it would make you a "good person" to do so? because the answer to that 100% defines whether it's the thought or the result that counts

#also i feel like Sinful Thoughts Are As Bad As Sinful Actions... #as well as being bullshit... #is just like a one way trip to moral ocd and a whole lot of guilt spirals #and i just don't think it's useful! you can't necessarily choose your thoughts! #you can however choose your actions because Good is something you do not something you are #ethics #i do think The Good Place did more to make me interrogate my evangelical upbringing and ethical assumptions than anything else #but also this idea of putting good into the world... idk. it's kind of encouraging AND scary #i don't think I'm naturally a very good person but i can choose to do good #i can be bitter and jealous and resentful and still help people and make their lives a little easier #and my feelings are not actually impacting on the world whereas my actions are #at the same time in a society built on exploitation and corporate greeed #it's hard not to be conscious of the harm my actions are doing without me trying #i didn't necessarily make an unethical choice but all of my choices cause harm to someone somewhere #living in the west and the global north and whatever you become very conscious of that

[poseidons-getting-milk]

talking to other neurodivergent people is my favorite bc we’re either info dumping or trauma dumping and now i know a ton about u and we met 20 minutes ago.

like talking to neurotypical people is kinda boring compared to it. like stfu about how school was today, and tell me the complete history of jesters and the hand you’re aunt had on your parents divorce, or leave.

#and it’s never guilt inducing #they’re just telling u their personal lore #then i’ll do it back #it’s just the truth and no one it asking for pity or anything #adhd #autism #ocd #neurodivergent

[six-of-cringe]

"If I just exact perfect and absolute vengeance against Pekka Rollins, then the voice of Jordie will be satisfied and disappear forever" WRONG. Obsessive compulsive disorder.

#kaz isn't even in my top three main ocd projection targets but like. hmmm that sounds familiar #like yeah it's trauma but also 'the thoughts will stop if i do this right and good enough' is The Thing #one of the things he wants the most is 'jordie's voice' to be silenced forever but consider #that he's just putting jordie's name on his own obsessive compulsive thoughts #obsession: guilt and misplaced responsibility over jordie's death and fear that he is constantly being judged by dead jordie for this #compulsion: work feverishly toward taking down rollins in an Absolute and Total way that will satisfy 'jordie' aka the obsessive thoughts #'hey will destroying pekka rollins make the thoughts go away?' no <3 hope this helps #or we could just call it a trauma response and move on but 1 putting things in this lens is interesting and 2 funny post funny joke #kaz brekker #jordie rietveld #pekka rollins #six of crows #soc #tgt #soc shitpost #ocd mention

[plaidparadscha]

Feeling guilty while also having Ocd is the worst feeling ever.

I’m already feeling guilty and my Ocd is just making it worse and I’ll start ruminating about it constantly and it’ll be about something I did when I was 12.

#ocd #actually ocd #guilt #ruminating thoughts #ruminations

[shsl-leader]

you guys are so bad about people with ocd and i hate you and i hate reblog bait oh my God

#youre not going to save someones life with a tumblr post #its not a moral failing to not spread around a 10 year old guilt trippy post #ughhh #actually ocd #ocd #compulsions #tw reblog bait #reblog bait

[myemeraldtears]

guilt complex

#illustration #mental health #painting #pure ocd #digital art #art #guilt

[ihaveissueslol]

"God I'm such an attention whore I'm definitely only doing this for attention" I say, alone, by myself, as I take every possible precaution to hide my relapse from every single person who will see me.

#tw self harm #self harm recovery #self harm relapse #i relapsed again #tis the damn season #sh relapse #sh addiction #sh warning #i'm struggling #major depressive disorder #depression #depersonalization #dissociation #ptsd #cptsd #oooo I'm mentally ill #mom guilt #what is wrong with me #just right ocd #ocd #im so tired

[adhbabey]

Me and my best friend were talking about this, but I'm wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience. She told me it was an autistic experience, so if anyone else can confirm or give a name to this, it would be good.

I've found myself experiencing quite a bit of shyness when it comes to media other people would like me to try, and media that either of us would want others to try. And I've noticed this particularly when I change my mind on something.

Like not wanting to watch something until seeing something I like, and going back on "never wanting to watch" that thing. And I feel a lot of shame and shyness when that happens.

And I think it might be associated with rigid thinking, and/or being unable to move outside of our comfort zones. And just feeling like I'm unable to enjoy things unless I choose to.

And I haven't really found a particular word or symptom name to correlate this experience. So if you've experienced intense shame and embarrassment when trying new things like a show, series or game, reblog this post and talk about your experiences. I hope one of you at least has a word for this.

#babey posts #actually autistic #and im not sure if its exclusively autism but it might be #so if youre allistic and relate.. just still talk about it #especially if you have OCD! it might be an anxiety symptom too #im really sad because i definitely feel some amount of guilt and loss of control when this happens #and it might be the tism yknow #it definitely seems that way for both of us

[love-laugh-daydreamarevolt]

I hate how apologetic neurodivergence makes you. Like it's a constant cycle of I'm sorry I'm such a burden. I'm sorry I can't be enough like what you want. I'm sorry you love me. I'm sorry I'm so weird. I'm sorry for things I cannot control. I'm sorry for being happy. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry.

It's wanting people to know you and love you so bad. It's wanting to let people in but being apologetic when they find things about you. It's apologizing when you talk about your special interests too much and apologizing for being overstimulated. I hate it and I hate that I've been made to feel as though I have to apologize for everything

#actually neurodivergent #actually autistic #actually ocd #actually audhd #suspected bpd #neurodivergent things #guilt

[thegunslingerfollowed]

The problem is I have chronic guilt about something that I can’t control but everyone on tumblr would tell me I’m a bad person for. Unfortunately, this is the only place I can vent so this particular issue will just destroy me from the inside

#actually ocd #guilt #chronic guilt #morality ocd #moral ocd #I do have POCD but this is (surprisingly) not about POCD #people on tumblr will tell you you’re a terrible person for POCD tho #I just wish there was someone who I could guarantee not judging me #not a therapist because they’re just judging me in their head #I don’t have close friends irl or on the internet #I can’t talk to anyone except my parents who are great but very unhelpful on this issue #d originals #ocd #I recognize it is part of the ocd but also part of it is like… objectively true you know #I want to die it’s tearing me apart #why can’t I just get rid of it? #I should be happy rn and I’m not #I’m only happy when I briefly forget this fact about my life #why is my brain like this? why is something that most people would consider a blessing a curse to me #why am I so ungrateful #just want to die but I know I’ll never actually attempt #I’ll just feel like this forever

[outer-spec]

if you make posts that say shit like “if you’re not actively doing X to support Y you’re literally an awful human being!” and it turns out that literally ~90% of human beings are not doing that thing. im breaking into your house and stealing all the copper wiring in it

#this post is about whatever you think it is by the way. #guilt tripping #tw rant #tw discourse #morality ocd