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[jaylaxies]

KINKTOBER DAY 24 — DACRYPHILIA

PAIRING: jaemin x fem!reader

GENRE/CW: smut, unprotected sex, manipulation, toxic relationship, ex!jaemin, usage of nicknames.

WC: 1.2k words

WARNING: 18+ content, minors dni

A/N: hihi, angels! i am so excited to post this one aaa i hope you like it :3 all likes, comments, reblogs and feedbacks are highly appreciated! iloveyou all <33

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“I regret it—please take me back.”

Maybe breaking up with your ever so loving boyfriend was not your best move, yet it wasn’t your fault that he was too controlling, filled with possessiveness through and through. 

You wanted out, and you got it, albeit you were alarmed to see just how calm and collected he was, when in reality, you had expected him to break a vase or two in frustration. 

He let you go easily, which kept you up at night because that’s not what Jaemin would do and deep inside, you started second guessing your choice, wondering if leaving the guy who only ever wanted to love you, though his means were unconventional at times, he meant well. 

It all came crashing down when you actually saw him in the club, talking to a girl that was definitely not you. You couldn’t bear well with the fact that he was so nonchalant about it, not contacting you once since the breakup happened. 

Maybe it was the reverse psychology playing its trick, but you couldn’t deny it was working. After all, who would ever love you like Jaemin? Would anyone ever be obsessed to the point they’d hate seeing you with others? To the point they’d want to be involved in every single aspect of your life?

You didn’t have any answer for that, rather, you only knew that Jaemin would do it for you, he always had been doing so, which would be the initial reason for the breakup, and now—the reason why you wanted to get back to him. 

Which brings you to his place. He let you inside gently, as if he wasn’t surprised to see you. His calm demeanour had your mind turning into a fiasco. 

“Do you not care about me anymore?” You asked, voice breaking pathetically as you held back a sob. 

He looked at you normally, “you’re the one who wanted to break up,” he shrugged. 

And it hurt. It hurt to see him being so unbothered about the situation. The fault was yours, you’d agree but it would have been better had he been mad at you instead. 

You felt tears pricking your eyes, bottom lip trembling as you took a step towards him, “do you really not want me anymore?” You asked, embarrassed for being a hypocrite. 

“You left me, baby,” he said, heart fluttering when you called you the term of endearment. 

He had a frown on his face now. 

“How would I have any say in that, hm?” He asked, stepping closer and you rushed to pull him into a hug. 

“Please, take me back,” your voice came out muffled as you buried your face into his neck, completely missing the smirk which settled on his face. 

This was his plan all along. 

His monotonous look returned right when you leaned back, and lord he swore you looked beautiful with crystalline tear drops cascading down your cheeks. 

He hadn’t even touched you and here you were, wasting your precious tears on him, not knowing that he’s all yours, he’ll always be yours. 

“Please?” You whimper, pulling him closer by his nape in an attempt to kiss him, and he lets you. 

He lets you pour all your feelings into the kiss, tasting the saltiness of your tears as he doesn’t do much to reciprocate it, despite loving every second of it, which only makes you kiss him harder. 

He groans into your mouth, “now you realize it, huh?” He mumbles against your lips, hand gripping your cheeks now, which makes you mewl, “I’ve been treating you so well, baby, and you do what? Break up with me?” He clicks his tongue, “doesn’t sound fair to me now, does it?”

It doesn’t take him any effort as he picks you up, carrying you to the bed as your heart starts racing that maybe, just maybe, he was gonna let you back into his life, even if it means you’d be punished for acting out. 

“I’m sorry,” you mumbled again, which was not acknowledged by Jaemin at all as he threw you on the bed, a soft oof leaving your mouth at the impact. 

“Why should I take you back, hm? Did you go off to other men while I wasn’t with you?” He asked, fuming with anger when he knew that you didn’t do it. 

He kept a check on you after all. 

“N—no, I wouldn’t do that,” your lip trembled, excitement coursing through your body as he got on top of you after getting rid of his T-shirt. 

“How can I be so sure?” He asked, wrapping his fingers around your neck, applying the best amount of pressure, another drop of tear leaving the corner of your eye, “oh, baby. You can’t make mistakes and expect me to forget them just by crying now,” he shook his head, lips so close to yours. 

“I—I really didn’t go t—to anyone else,” you hiccuped and he chuckled, loving every second of watching you break down. 

The sight was beautiful, his cock was harder than ever and he hadn’t even touched you, “yeah?” He asked in a whisper, and you nodded, feeling small under his predatory gaze. 

“Guess I’ll have to claim your body as mine again,” he mumbled, your eyes widening as he shoved his hand down your pants, only to find you wet, the damp underwear sticking to your cunt uncomfortably, “that desperate to have me back, princess?” He chuckled deeply. 

You could feel your body vibrating with his, all his muscles on display and guilt clear on your face as you took him in. 

You couldn’t understand why you left him, and you couldn’t understand how he was ready to take you back so easily, the thought making you cry all over again as you nodded, “want you, want us.” 

“Prove it, cry for it, baby,” he whispered, taking your pants off along with your panties, the cold air hitting your core making you hiss. 

You wanted to cry, you really did, and it was hard to stop your tears which unbeknownst to you, turned Jaemin on even further, he stared at your pretty face while pumping his cock, which was harder than ever. 

“Beg for me to take you back, beg for me to claim you again,” he mumbled against your neck, biting and sucking harshly, your pain inflicting pleasure on him. 

He doesn’t give you a second to prepare yourself as his dick head prodded at your entrance, pushing himself in with the intent of bottoming out, which was easy given how wet you were, yet the stretch was too much for you to take in. 

You were blabbering nonsense at this point, begging and letting your tears fall freely as he marked you up, to make sure that you never leave him again, to make sure his marks stay on you for a long time, “so pretty when you cry,” he chuckles, thrusting harder by second to hit the deepest spots in you.  

Your breathing grows heavier and you could sense your orgasm approaching, your eyes rolling back to your head as your back arches, bliss beginning to form in your lower abdomen, “I’m sorry!” You cried, holding him close as he fucked you through your orgasm. 

But, he didn’t stop there, continuing to fuck you, laughing as he saw how disoriented you looked when this was just the start. 

It was supposed to be your punishment after all. 

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— YOUR FIRST/NEXT RELATIONSHIP ❞

(pick a card reading)

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THIS READING INCLUDES:

— when and where you will both meet. — first impressions. — their personality. — physical appearance. — why you will fall in love with each other. — relationship dynamic. — potential problems. — lessons you will both learn from each other.

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✧ note ✧

hiii guys! ❤️ i’m happy to be back because i’ve made it kind of a new year’s resolution to post more, lol, we’ll see how that goes. this is the longest PAC i’ve ever put effort in. it took me 3 weeks while doing school to finish this. i hope you enjoy the reading! please send me feedback, and there’s a poll at the end of the post, it asks if your pile(s) resonated with you or not, please answer it. it’ll help me improve my readings and accuracy. thank you! :)

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୨୧ pile one ୨୧

WHEN AND WHERE YOU WILL BOTH MEET?

You are going to meet your partner around a time where you are getting in touch with yourself. You might spend more time alone than usual for self-exploration and soul-searching, in hermit mode. You could be working on self-love and self-confidence, your sense of spirituality, or creative pursuits such as art, nails, or even music. You’ll genuinely feel you’re stepping into your inner power around this time, even if it feels like no one else notices. You’re doing it for yourself, and you’re happy with that. You will mostly likely officially meet your next partner through social media or through some type of virtual communication. You might have an idea of your partner before you meet them probably though friends, but this is when you will finally speak to them. Another half of you, I am starting to think that you actually know this person, like for real. This could be an ex, but they could also be someone you had a failed connection with, or a situationship that was close to being a relationship but didn’t make it. I’m hearing ‘5am’ and ‘text message’. I’m getting this vibe of you randomly being on instagram or whatsapp at 3am, and someone randomly texts you “Hey beautiful <3” It is possible that the guy or the masculine person will approach the other person through DM’s with the desire to initiate a loving connection. I’m seeing this person scrolling the others’ social media admiring how attractive and hot they are. Your partner could mostly be the one doing this. Again, this person may have known you from mutual friends and happened to have gotten a hand on your social media, contact, or phone number, and wants to take action towards you. I do see that this person might have hesitated a bit on communicating with you because you might not know them too well or they’re scared you won’t reciprocate their energy, but I see them successfully coming through with courage :)

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FIRST IMPRESSIONS?

Again, you and next your partner might know each other already, maybe you two just never made it to the deeper stages of the relationship.

Your next partner might perceive you as someone who is indifferent, detached, and wants nothing to do with them. Perhaps when they approached you through your social media, you might’ve not been that excited or reciprocative to them. You might not be happy about hearing from them, or you just moved on and could care less. Perhaps you two were starting to date, but this person ditched out on a date the last minute, and that caused you to be unforgiving or stubborn towards them. Whatever happened, I feel like they are back and are willing to try this again. They believe that you might be holding a lot of burdens and troubles in your life right now, and it’s causing you to harden up and not open up to them. They think that because of the issues you have going on, you aren’t allowed to fully go with the flow and be soft with life, which is affecting how you approach them. Perhaps they’ve noticed you have been working a lot, and been extremely busy with your money situation. This could be something financial they are thinking about too. Your next partner is going to believe you aren’t secure enough, especially financially secure enough to fully indulge in yourself and relax without any responsibilities or restrictions. They might want to come back and promise you that type of security. It is possible this person walked out on you when you wished for a promising future with them, but they weren’t at the place they needed to be to give you that, so they bounced. Well, now they’re back. And they also hope to give you the strength and resilience too.

You are going to feel extremely disappointed when you hear from your next partner after a long time. You’re going to think from the lack of interaction and not seeing them after some time that they seem better off with you, and that they walked out for a reason (I want to tell you that is not true) This might make you feel very insecure in yourself and what you have to offer to others. You’ll think they weren’t worth the time building a future with anyways, so you are going to try to actively move on from them and work on yourself. You’ll also feel as though you cannot trust them after what they did to you, and you forbid yourself from ever talking to them about anything. You could also view them as unreliable and someone you cannot lean on to in times of need. For a group of you, I feel the impression you have of this person is a huge misunderstanding and there’s more to the story. I feel like you couldn’t see them eye to eye about something specific, perhaps something about finances, structure, and responsibility. That could’ve also been a reason for the previous breakup between you both.

I’m also hearing that this could be someone you planned to marry, or an ex-fiancé, but it didn’t work out.

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THEIR PERSONALITY?

Your next partner (or ex) could be someone who usually prefers to be alone most of the time. They could be a lone wolf, someone who loves doing things alone and without anyone’s help. They are someone who is resilient and highly capable of being introspective. I feel like they are someone who is used to being on their own, so they might not be the best at compromising for others or doing things for other people. They can be affectionate, it’s just they are “a man for themselves” type of person for the most part, not necessarily selfish I feel. Which can also explain why I get the vibe that they could be very picky about who they let into their life, whether that be romantically or platonically. Although their pickiness can be a beneficial thing for their mental health and well-being, their pickiness can also be detrimental to their success in relationships. This might have gotten them into some depressive states at some point in their life. Virgo and Aquarius placements are coming through. This person might be someone who sometimes struggles to protect, defend, or exert traits such as bravery or assertiveness. This could be a factor as to why the connection didn’t work out the first time. This person is highly self-aware too. If they recognize something within themselves they need to fix, they’ll fix it. In this case, I feel as though they’ve came back to provide you with some type of security and a reliable figure, something they didn’t bother to have or be until now.

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PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?

Black hair for most, brunette hair for a group, and blonde hair for a smaller group. Longer hair; manbun or pony tail; rounder or square-shaped face; tanner or fair skin; prominent lips (could be medium or smaller); alluring and mysterious personality; aries or virgo placements, maybe a bit of libra energy; 2A to 2C hair; thicker body type or bigger, for others, skinnier and taller; might love wearing hoodies, jackets, or caps; curlier or wavier hair.

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WHY YOU WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER?

You will fall in love with your next partner because they’ve underwent a rebirth where they came back better than ever to give you what you truly want and yearn for—security, protection, and love. It will almost be like they are a different person and they’ve grown into a mature version of themselves. You might even notice that they’ll try to make their mistakes up to you by taking in your responsibilities and obligations for you so you don’t have to worry about them anymore. You’ll love that they didn’t truly move on, and it might even give you clarity about where you two stand with each other romantically. It’ll let you know that they are still into you, and there will be clear communication about everything at all times, because I feel like that big mishap was because of a misunderstanding for some of you. You’ll also admire their priorities. Again, this person might’ve been someone who has always been there for themselves, but now that they are with you and they have something else to protect, they are also focused on you and the ones they care about. And that makes you love them more. You’ll fall in love with how you can make promises with this person and they won’t break them. You can trust them way more than you could have in the past. And there’s potential for marriage or a serious long-term relationship with this pile, maybe even a child.

Your next partner will fall in love with you because of your faith and your determination to make things happen for yourself. They admire your optimism, outlook, power, passion, and hope. They see you as someone who has so much potential. They also love how selfless you are, you are always willing to be there for others in times of need, which could’ve been something that inspired them more to become this new person. You might very good with children, or you could have younger siblings or nieces/nephews you love being around and they think that it’s adorable and they probably can’t wait to see you with their kids in the future. However, they notice that you can be a bit too selfless to the point where you put yourself in danger. They will want you to focus on yourself from time to time. They notice your intelligence and how gifted you are—whatever that talent is, for some of you, you could like doing nails, hair, fashion, or music? They think you desire a lot of more recognition for that talent, and they wouldn’t mind pushing you out there for others to see it.

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RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC?

Again, you and this person might’ve had a connection in the past, so perhaps the dynamic didn’t start off the best. There could’ve been a lack of communication, maybe a lot of arguing/push and pull dynamic. Maybe even a bit toxic, especially from your side. Perhaps you had an forceful nature towards this person due to their lack of assertion or promises in the connection. There could’ve even be a sense of self-sabotaging on your partner’s side. I’m seeing the past dynamic being the feminine partner having to be extremely aggressive and daunting because the masculine partner wasn’t doing what they needed to do for the person they cared about. Now in the second reconcile, of course there will still be some times where you both need to work on communicating and understanding each other, but this person is way more reliable, protective, trusting, and willing to compromise and provide, which has allowed you to let them take the lead and follow in their footsteps respectively. I’m getting a decent balance of masculine and feminine energy in this connection now. This is overall a positive and progressive dynamic for you and your partner’s development.

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POTENTIAL PROBLEMS?

Both of you might need to work on your sense of pride and your ability to be vulnerable. I feel like both of you might have your guards up in the relationship all due to a lack of trust and not making each other feel secure enough to do so. I definitely feel this on the feminine’s side, probably you, specifically. You both need to open up in order for this relationship to be emotionally fulfilling and thrive; and communication and listening is key to doing this. On your partner’s side, they might be a bit careless about others around them, and i’m also hearing for others, their finances, which I think is what they will be progressively working on when they get back with you, but it is important to make sure they stay on track and don’t lose course. If it is about finances, they need to make sure to stay on track or financially instability is possible, and then it’ll lead to the same issue again.

For the other group who did not have a misunderstanding of their judgements about this person from the start, it’s possible that there could be an issue with heartbreak, cheating, deception, or lying. In this case, you already know what’s the solution—leave. It’ll lead to more heartbreak if you stay, it could even leave to unrequited love. Know your worth, please.

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LESSONS YOU WILL LEARN FROM EACH OTHER?

From your next partner, you will learn how to step out of your comfort zone. Some of you could have a fire or air north node. I feel like your partner will help you expand your connections with people to further yourself in your career endeavors and life in general. You’ll learn how to network with others properly. You’ll also learn how to trust your intuition as well as trust others. Your future partner will help you embrace your emotions and sense of vulnerability better than ever, which will transform you into a completely different person and even helping you on your soul journey.

From you, your next partner will learn how to not be as impulsive or careless, to take it easy and slowly revise things. You might even teach them how to be persistent and keep going after their goals. They’ll look to your faith and ability to make things happen for you, so they’ll learn how to step into their own power and make things happen for themselves. You might even help with money management skills. This is random, but I’m also hearing you might help them with their fashion sense, appearance, or personal health. Perhaps you might get them on a new diet, type of style, or haircut, something like that.

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A song that came through for this pile:

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୨୧ pile two ୨୧

WHEN AND WHERE WILL YOU BOTH MEET?

I’m seeing that you may meet your next partner through a person, specifically a female figure who is particularly masculine or an air sign—perhaps a mother or a close friend. There is a vibe that you might meet this person in an energetic setting such as a party or dance. I’m seeing you being with this particular female or feminine figure and they introduce you to this person very spontaneously. This interaction will definitely be unexpected and in-your-face, and you might even be overwhelmed with the interaction and the environment in general. That’s why I’m getting huge party energy and this friend just grabbing your arm and trying to introduce you to this person through the loud music. I’m seeing around this time, you might be going through a powerless moment. You’re going to feel like you’re out of control with yourself and your energy. It is possible you might’ve underwent a terrible breakup or left a toxic relationship, and it has left you drained and insecure. You might not be expecting a relationship or yourself stepping back into the dating world when you meet your person, and that’s why I’m getting that this interaction might be unexpected and maybe even overwhelming for you. This friend or feminine figure could want you to socialize and explore your options, so they are introducing you to potential love interests, and you may, but mostly may not be fine with that. Another possibility is that your friend might’ve heard that this person has developed an interest in you, and your friend thought it was the perfect circumstance as they believe it is time for you to find a lover again; and this person wants to offer something extremely serious to you (this person may be older or hold a much more mature energy; if it’s a guy, he is in tune with his feminine and well-mannered side, this is probably coming through because you might notice it in the first impression)

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FIRST IMPRESSIONS?

I want to point out that some of you could be LGBTQ+.

I feel like you will feel conflicted about this person on the first impression, not because they give off bad vibes, but more so you aren’t sure if you are willing to take your chances with them because of what you’ve already been through in your previous relationships. It is almost like you don’t want to stress and exhaust yourself over anyone anymore, and it’s just not worth it. Or you just feel you aren’t particularly ready for it yet. However, you think this person is “a treat”. You view this person as the ideal partner, everything that you or anyone might want in a person. If they are a girl, you’ll view them as caring and friendly, and is always willing to be there for people, and they might seem like an articulate thinker. If they are a man, they seem trusting, and very successful in their work and finances. If they are a man, they might wear expensive clothes or an outfit that makes them look rich or financially stable, which you’ll find pretty impressive. If they are a girl, you might notice that this person seem younger or they look young for their age, they might have a petite and skinny body type too. If they are a man, they might be taller or bigger-framed or they could seem older due to the way they carry themselves.

Your future partner might view you initially as someone who has gone through a lot of heartbreak and troubles. I’m getting the vibe that this friend or feminine figure could’ve told your person about what you’ve been through, and with that information, your person will intend to be more sensitive and understanding towards you and how you feel. They might notice that you seem particularly distant or cold to them. Perhaps even not as talkative as you should be. They might try to ask you questions, but you might give them basic and short answers. It might be hard for them to get decent answers out of you, but they’ll try. They know it’s not on purpose, but it’ll make them want clarity about what you want and how you are as a person. They know that under that mask, there’s someone who is able to offer just as much as they can into a connection, and they want to know what you want from them so they can take the right action. At the same time, they’ll be understanding if it’s not the answer they are looking for. They might’ve already know initially you weren’t ready in the first place, but they wanted to take the chance. They might see you as someone who needs the recovery before stepping into a relationship anyways. This person is someone who is realistic, so even if you don’t admit it, they’ll know that you need time to heal and will let you do so.

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THEIR PERSONALITY?

This person might be similar to you; and this could be a twinflame. They are someone who has gone through similar heartbreaks, betrayals, and hardships in the past in regards to their relationships. Over time, it has caused them to be selective with who they allow into their space. However, I feel it’s different with you because you might have completely shut yourself off from the world. This person is particularly more healed than you, but they are still understanding with your situation and this might’ve been the reason why they were attracted to you (because both of y’all’s experiences are similar) I heard this person is a “sweetheart” and they have so much love to give, they might’ve been taken advantage of in the past and has developed thicker skin, but they didn’t let that get in the way of showing love to the ones they want to show love to. This person could be a water or fire sign, with a hint of earth. They are someone who is passionate about their relationships and career. They are someone who holds their ground and is confident in themselves. I heard that they hold a lot of sex appeal, and could even have a high sex drive. This person might have a pet, particularly a dog or cat they hold very dearly to. Again, this person is erringly similar to you, it’s just that they are much healed. Therefore, they understand how you feel and why you act the way you act (this person is highly empathetic) and they want to help you and be there for you because they were the same wounded soul you are at some point in their life. I feel this is what this person is coming into your life to do, this could be a twinflame, high-leveled soulmate, or karmic soulmate. You both might have some karma with each other you need to make up for. I think this person might have to make up for something they’ve did to you in a past life through this calling.

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PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?

hot; alluring; prominent hands; thick eyebrows; broader/big-framed; thick; medium-sized lips; medium-lengthened hair; birthmark; sagittarius; smaller button nose; short height; prominent eyes; aries; medium-sized nose; prominent lips; stockier body shape; 2A to 2C hair type; black hair, and a group has blonde hair; athletic body type (they probably do sports or exercise by the way); intimidating; black/brown eyes.

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WHY WILL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER?

Your and your next partner might have had a relationship or connection in a past life with each other. There could some type of unfinished business or karma that needs to be fulfilled. Because of this, your next partner might feel drawn to you for no particular reason. They’ll just feel connected with your energy and want to unite with you. This person might have not been in a relationship in a long while, and they met you and feel like this is allowing them to turn on a new leaf. For a group of you, this person might’ve been someone who has cheated or played other people, but they’ve learned their lesson now, and they believe it’s time to show what they are truly capable of offering in a relationship—with you. There’s also a sense of guilt as well, I don’t know why. This person might feel obligated to show you what love is really about, or they want to prove to you that they can give you true love and understanding. I’m literally feeling like there is a karmic reason for that. They fell in love with you because they feel like you complete them, you’re their other half (twinflame vibes, I swear) They believe that it all ends with you, and you only. I’m hearing “show you the world”; they might want to travel with you and take you to places. I’m getting specifically this person might have felt lonely for a minute, and they feel like they haven’t been able to go to certain places because they don’t have anyone to go to those places with, but they feel like you are the one they can do those things with finally.

You will fall in your love with your next partner because they will introduce you to a new beginning. It is like they are giving a breath of fresh air after what you’ve been through with love. Again, I feel this person will want travel to places with you and explore. You’ll love this person’s humor and their ability to not take things seriously. You’ll love their optimistic energy and their ability to make their loved ones, including you, smile. They will get you out of your comfort shell and earn your trust. You’ll love how they are a trusting person and you can always come to them to talk about personal things. You’ll feel like you can be your unadulterated self around them without any judgment. They’ll wash away all of those limiting beliefs you have about relationships and your own worth and introduce you to a new self-concept. They might be someone who is affirming, always calling you “beautiful, “sexy” or “handsome”. They love making you feel confident, and you admire that. They want to help with healing you and you becoming a better person. You might love how they are the type to hype up your achievements and accomplishments, they might even love funding your hobbies and passions too. They might even introduce you to a new world sexually. You might not be someone who is confident enough in their sexuality, or maybe in previous relationships you never had the opportunity to express yourself sexually. This person will be happily open to that and will build up your comfortability with them to do so. A group of you, this might be your first ever relationship.

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RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC?

You and your next partner will evolve and learn lessons with each other. You’ll transform and become a stronger soul with your person. You will be a powerful couple who fights through challenges and come out better than before. You and your person will be unstoppable, and no one can get into between you two. You will teach each other a lot of lessons and will not go easy on each other. I’m seeing that you both are very philosophical people, especially your partner. I feel like your partner will always want to teach lessons because they are have more experience. They are definitely older, even if it’s just by a few years. I don’t just see you guys as a good couple, but you will also be great friends. If you don’t last with this person, I see you guys being really good friends and still having love for each other. You’ll hold a special place in this person’s heart and vice versa. I also feel that this person prefers to be the dominant person in the relationship while you follow after them. Not in a controlling way, but this person just likes wearing the pants. They are very collaborative though. This dynamic is also very sexual, I see a lot of experimentation and a lot of sexual activity. Sexual chemistry. You both will feel comfortable with each other to where you want to do everything with this person. You’ll want to learn and explore a lot of things with them. This person will introduce you to a lot of things. For a group of you, this could be your first relationship. I think I said this already lol.

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POTENTIAL PROBLEMS?

From the feminine’s side, most likely you, it’s possible that you might struggle with self-confidence and self-love with this person. There might be times where you might even distrust this person due to past relationships. This person will not be okay with this and would want to encourage you to be more comfortable enough with them to confide in them. Lack of trust can ruin a relationship just as easily. Perhaps there could also be an issue with moving on from a previous person or situation from either side, if it’s from your person’s side, it could be about a lifestyle or situation; if it’s your side, it could be about a person. I’m getting a vibe that your person might be someone who can be a bit reckless and careless when it comes how they approach people. For some of you, this person might be extremely attractive and there could be times where you are jealous of the attention they get, in a sense you’re afraid they are going to want fulfillment elsewhere. I do not see that being true, I think it’s just your insecurities. However, this person might need to learn how to be more considerate about how you feel and learn how to approach people in a more stoic way to build more security in the relationship. Because I see this person being extremely generous and easygoing, which is a nice trait to have in a lover, but not when you are in a relationship with someone else and you can easily lead someone on without knowing. I also see that one of you might be a bit confused about what type of future they want to have, which can start a very heated argument. Perhaps one wants a family, but one wants to travel the world and wants dog babies lol. Either way, there needs to be a compromise.

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LESSONS YOU WILL LEARN FROM EACH OTHER

Your next partner will learn how to surrender to the divine and have faith in things. Your partner might’ve been someone in the past who was rather stubborn and wanted to make things happen for themselves (which is good) but in this case, they didn’t like others being in control of what they wanted in life and they might’ve not thought that anyone can be trusted to give them happiness or contentment. However, you taught them different. You’ve taught them to put trust into the unknown and put trust into the people they care about. To trust they won’t get hurt. I feel like your person might’ve done the things they’ve did in the past out of self-sabotage and pride. You’ve taught them to also stop running away from their problems, and to take them face on. This is specific, but you could’ve also taught them the value of love, and how truly abundant it is. Your person could’ve been a workaholic or a money-dependent person in the past. This person might stop working less when they are with you because they’ve found someone they can truly be content with, invest in, and build a future with.

This person will teach you about different aspects of yourself you never would’ve thought of, take you to places you never would’ve taken yourself. They are a vital part of your soul journey, and will help you with your life purpose. They’ll teach you how to trust others more often, open your heart up, and express yourself in ways you’ve always wanted to (whether that be artistically, sexually, spiritually, etc.) They might even help with you with learning how to physically and verbally show love to people. How to not hold back when it comes to your love and emotions for other people. They’ll teach you that even in times of desperation, need, tragedy, and destruction, you’ll always have the chance to leap into something new, like them and this relationship. Your person will teach you that your most desired and ideal things can come true because this person is what you’ve always wanted and they’re here. They’ll let you know that you’re capable of becoming the person you want to be. This person is truly someone from heaven I believe. You’ll feel extremely grateful for this person and thank the Gods for them after all. ㅤ

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A song that came through for this pile:

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WHEN AND WHERE WILL YOU BOTH MEET?

You will meet your person at a place you might see them everyday in or an environment that is intended to be a place that brings in prosperity or a secure future for yourself. This could be work, college, or high school. This person could be an acquaintance or an associate. I’m mostly seeing college and work for this pile, most of you could be young adults, if not, older teenagers. I’m getting this vibe of a regular college student struggling to make ends meet and just trying to study for their degree and graduate. You might meet your person around a time where you exactly do that, you’re working hard to bring in abundance and success for yourself. Starting from scratch type of energy. You might be hustling or working multiple jobs at once, or juggling a job and school at the same time. However, I see there could be some lack of clarity about what you want to do in regards to your passion or career endeavor. I just see you preparing financially for the future, but not exactly working towards a certain career. Some of you could be freshmen or sophomores in college who don’t know what degree they want to major in yet. I’m just seeing stagnancy and confusion. You might particularly meet your person at a job or in school. If you meet them at a job, they could be your boss or manager. If you meet them at school, they could be a student just like you, but they seem more aware of where they want to go in life. I see this person being like a mentor to you, helping and guiding you to the right path. You might go to this person from time to time to ask them questions about your aspirations and personal decisions. This person will help you out of that confusion and guide you into calmer waters; and this can be the case if this is a boss or manager, or even a teacher at your college. I feel like your person will being balance into your life by doing this because you know you’ll have someone to come to to help you through these tough adult decisions. This person may be older, or they could be mature for their age. This connection could start off strictly as friends, and the friendship is full of intimacy and emotion. You both will care for each other extremely. I feel like your partner will love to comfort and reassure you that no matter what you do, you’ll always be okay and come out of it. You might be someone who stresses over decisions or you struggle to make decisions on your own out of the fear of “messing up”. This connection will slowly develop over time, which are the best type of relationships.

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FIRST IMPRESSIONS?

I feel like for most of you, this is your first relationship, or first serious relationship.

Your person might perceive you as someone who is timid and shy. They might believe that you are someone who struggles to assert or defend themselves in dire situations. They could believe you lack the confidence or courage to stand up on your own, and they want you to work on that because they see you as someone who has a whole lot of potential to accomplish great things. They see you as someone who is intelligent and hardworking. However, they believe the potential is all going to waste because you’re not fighting for what you want unapologetically and head-on. They don’t want you to depend on outside influences to know if you should go after what you want. For some of you, this person might’ve seen you get bullied or teased on by peers in some way at your school or job. Due to that, they could feel a responsibility of having to protect you or teach you a lesson about assertion. They also noticed that you seem wise beyond your years. They might’ve compared you to other people your age and admired that quality about you. This person is probably older than you for most of you. They might see you as anti-social or someone who rather keeps to themselves. It is possible that they don’t see you talk to people so often, so they assume you prefer your solitude. They perceive as someone who is always working and serious. There’s always something that could be trying to improve on. They also see you as disciplined on the first impression. They could also perceive you as someone who is abandoned often, or struggles to maintain connections with people due to your hermit-like personality. They believe you should break out of that, and it’ll be detrimental to you in the long run. They also perceive you as someone with a good heart and good morals. Your person believes you prioritize being a decent person, you’re always willing to accept, love, and be fair to everyone unconditionally.

You will perceive your next partner as someone who hold a lot of knowledge and solutions. They seem to know it all, and always know what they are doing. I’m also getting this vibe that you might even look up to or idolize this person. You’ll view this person as enchanting, you might even be very sexually or physically attracted to this person. Perhaps you would want to talk to them more at your job or at school. You just want to learn more about them. They will seem very interesting to you. If I have to be honest, this seems a bit unhealthy because it’s like you literally look up to this person to the point where they could make you do anything you want them to do and you’ll do it. We’ll just see soon in the reading if i’m right or not. This person might be someone who is above you in some way. Again, they could be a boss or manager, perhaps a teacher at your school or college. They will be highly respected and appreciated in their career or workplace. Something like that. Okay guys, I think I’m right. For a decent group of you, I’m getting strong unhealthy vibes. There is a possibility that some of you could have some attachment or abandonment issues from your childhood that could cause you to get abnormally tied to this person. Your person might take advantage of that and get extremely possessive over you. Be careful with this person, for most of you. Also, please heal whatever you struggle with. Whether that be father/mother issues or abandonment issues, please heal that wound so you don’t attract this person. I’m saying this because they don’t give me the best vibes to be honest. I heard this person will take you on a “hellride” if you stay with them, I’m not kidding. However, for another group of you, your partner could just be a student at your college, and I don’t see bad vibes from them. But the other group of you, yeah, stay safe.

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THEIR PERSONALITY?

This person could be great with children and extremely humble. I feel like they are always giving to others; they might even do charity. They could be financially well-off to do all of that, perhaps they come from a wealthy family or they worked to become wealthy. They might even want a family in the future. Your person is someone who could be rather impulsive and quick-minded. They could be someone who never knows how to stay still, one day there are at one place, one day they are at another. They might love going out to places for the excitement. This person is always searching for the next big thing. For a group of you, you and this person could pursue a long-distance relationship. I said that because you might text them very often than physically be there. This person has a lot of courage, strength, bravery, and confidence. They aren’t afraid to stand up for themselves and they refuse to back down. One could describe them as stubborn and they might love taking the lead in things. I’m hearing they “are in control of their destiny”. I feel they are someone who wants a lot of things out of life, so they strive to go after it all. I’m hearing you shouldn’t expect this person to stay one place at all times, they are going to move and be everywhere. Guides probably told me that because you might not like that. This person is lucky. They might be someone who started from the bottom and build something amazing that they are so grateful for. For one or two of you, this person could have won the lottery (That was random) Due to the fact they know what’s it’s like, they love giving back to the people. Strong sagittarius vibes.

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PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?

you might see this person’s back very often; shorter hair; brown/black hair; medium or short height; big/chubby; pear-shaped body; sagittarius; medium-sized lips; stockier; thick; freckles; pixie cut; joyous smile; feminine-looking; hats and caps; prominent hips; tall height for some of you; virgo; one of you, this person could have a back problem like scoliosis or something.

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WHY WILL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER?

I’m getting the vibe that your next partner might have gotten married before and is a divorcee. They might even have a child, I was getting that hint when I was reading their personality. They will fall in love with you because they feel like can have a fresh start with someone new, they might want to marry you for a new beginning. This person feels guilty about something, about their past marriage. This person wants to break free from the guilt they have? For a group of you, it is possible this person could’ve been toxic in their past marriage, and now they are trying to break from the shackles of their remorse for how they they treated their partner. If that is the case, for most of you, they are still the same. Stepping into that connection will only promise deception, control, and immense order. I see them being emotionally and psychologically abusive. For another group of you, this person was in a toxic marriage with a person and is trying to start over and break free from the trauma. Either way, this person will want to step into marriage with you to build more fortune and abundance with you (although it’s pretty concerning how they are so quick to thinking about marriage, personally) They see you have lots of potential and want to build something with you, they want to be a team. For half of you, this person is toxic; for another half, this person is healthy. Sorry if this reading seems very contradicting, there’s probably a lot of people in this pile.

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RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC?

You and your next partner’s relationship dynamic could be modest and humble. I feel like you would be the type of couple to give back to others. You or your partner, or both could be financially stable enough to be charitable and humanitarians. Being with each other will be very transformative, you will both dig into each other’s psyche and figure out each other’s dark side. If this relationship is toxic, I have a feeling that your partner could be someone who has a tendency of being tyrannical. They could be the type to tell you when you should come home or leave the house, or even tell you what to wear. Strong controlling vibes. In extreme cases for a few of you, you might even financially depend on this person, and they can use that financial superiority to keep you under their control. For this group of people, your partner seems so abusive, I’m sorry, I don’t want to say that. God bless. This relationship will truly you teach you things about yourself you need to realize and fix so you don’t find yourself in this predicament ever again. This person could be karmic or twin flame, for sure. This person will dig dark parts out of you through their toxic actions. I feel like when you are in this connection, you’ll be in the most lowest and darkest point you’ve ever been. However, if you leave, I see this relationship being the sole event that will allow you to transform and blossom into an entirely brand new person like a phoenix.

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POTENTIAL PROBLEMS?

I see that for the group of you that aren’t going to be in the toxic relationship. Again, your person might be someone who is always moving around and always looking for the next big thing. Guides gave me the hint you won’t like that, so you and your partner might argue about that particularly. It seems as though no matter where your partner goes and what they do, you could never catch up, and that will not help the future. Perhaps long-distance will be an issue too. You might not trust your person with long-distance probably, and they will be frustrated with the fact. This person could be pretty questionable with their whereabouts for three of you, and you should confront them because infidelity is possible. However, for the rest of you in this group, this person should be able to value their freedom, at the same time, they should learn how to compromise to your wishes equally. For the toxic group, this person will have extremely control issues, I’m not joking. They will literally treat you like a child. I wouldn’t even be surprised if some of you had a father or mother who were controlling or abusive like them. It’s like they will be a tyrannical authority figure to you. They could also ruin your self-confidence if you let them, because I see some co-dependency on your side. You’re also showing some toxicity. You need to learn how to not depend on the opposite gender for validation or confidence, especially if they are older. This relationship probably won’t even seem romantic, it’ll be more professional because there’s a lack of chemistry or compatibility.

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LESSONS YOU WILL BOTH LEARN FROM EACH OTHER?

For the toxic group, I heard alcohol. This person might be an alcoholic or drink very often. You might teach this person about temperance and knowing how to balance their alcohol intake. I feel like you will teach this person a lesson about their toxicity. You will make them realize that the things they do to their partners will only make their karma and reality worse. I wouldn’t even be surprised if they drunk a lot to wash away the guilt for the violence in their past relationships. This person will definitely have an epiphany after this connection ends, they’ll realize what they lost and they’ll strive to become better (just hopefully not with you because you’ll probably be through with them) This person might even have mental health/trauma issues and they could have avoided counseling or help in some way for a long time. I feel after this connection, they’ll take time to recover and actually find the help they need. They’ll be out of the dating scene of a significant amount of time. There could some insecurity issues or trauma from their childhood that has led them to that point. For the healthy group, you will simply teach your partner about balance with indulgence. Perhaps they are a bit impulsive with money or they are always moving everywhere and can never find days to settle down and relax. You’ll teach that they can find freedom in other places other than what they’ve been doing to find it. Perhaps they could resort to work very often and you are going to teach them to find freedom and comfort in family and connections.

For the people with the toxic partner, this person will definitely scare you away from relationships for a while. I would not be surprised if they were physically abusive from time to time (I hope not) but you will also take time to heal and step out of the dating scene. You will learn how to stand up for yourself and not let yourself get taken advantage of by others because of how easily a rut you can get yourself into. You might even get offered romantic dates after this connection, but reject them, which is beneficial for your journey when the time comes. You’ll learn to stand your ground and build your own foundation without the need of anyone else’s. You’ll realize that depending on somebody else will only lead to your demise and failure. Leaving this connection will give you a breath of fresh air and allow you to rebirth yourself into a new energy. For people in a healthy relationship in this pile, you’ll learn how to trust and confide in your significant other. To let your guard down and trust that things will happen the way it should. Trust your person.

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A song that came through for this pile:

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WHEN AND WHERE WILL YOU BOTH MEET?

You’ll meet your next partner at a time where you want to step out of your usual and work on your confidence. You and your future partner might meet in school or in a busy environment. I’m getting grocery store for a specific person in this pile. I have a feeling that someone, probably you, will be approaching the other person for a romantic opportunity out of the blue, because of love at first sight or just for the sake of doing it. Perhaps a friend that is with you will encourage you to do so. This friend might be confident, expressive, extroverted, and passionate—quite the opposite from you. People who chose this pile might be on the shy or inhibited side, and i’m getting a vibe that this friend or person with you at the moment will motivate you to step out of your shell and ask this person out for “practice” (or vice versa) I see you being hesitant and afraid. This person may play hard to get. However, I’m seeing you taking this as them full on rejecting you because I see you being someone who is insecure and takes everything as a personal attack. You’re quite literal and might not pick on cues as well as others. You might think this person does not like you or come off as mean or unapproachable, but it’s far from that. I see them giving you mixed signals on purpose. This person will like you, but they might be iffy on if they want something serious with you because they could have some emotional and personal turmoil stopping them from deciding. I see them giving you their number or some kind of contact. I do see you feeling a bit ridiculous from this first interaction, you’ll think you made an embarrassment of yourself. When in reality, they literally like you. Your friend will probably ramble about how you shoot your shot perfectly and you’re over there panicking thinking you did something wrong, lol. Most of the people in this pile may be males or masculine energies. (Perhaps one or two of you could be neurodivergent)

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FIRST IMPRESSIONS?

Your first impression of your next partner is that they come off as domineering and strong. You might be intimidated by them when you both first meet. You might even stumble on your words. They hold a lot of masculine energy. You could’ve approached this person with a need to expand your horizons and get out of you shell, but when you finally talk to them, you’ll want to recoil back into your shell because they are frightening. Some of you could have social anxiety or struggle in social situations. You’ll feel timid around this person and not be as communicative with the fear that you’ll say something wrong. I also see some self-sabotaging tendencies. You’ll find that you will see some good things about this person, like they are almost too good to be true. You might be someone who struggles to find positivity in some aspects of life, and you might try to find things about this person you won’t like so you’ll have a reason to leave them. However, that’s just your confidence issues getting in the way. For some of you, I’m also taking this “self-sabotaging” as you trying to ignore the red flags of this person, in a sense they have some issues they need to work on. I don’t see them being flat-out toxic, I just see they’ve through some things.

Your next partner’s first impression of you is that you come off as distant and detached. It is ironic, you both have similar first impressions of each other. However, on your partner’s side, they aren’t necessarily intimidated by you and they have some limiting beliefs about you that came from their past connections. They believe that you come off as expressionless or stoic, as though you don’t necessarily show much emotion. Which makes it hard for them to pick up on how you feel or respond. They do sense that you aren’t the most confident, and they adore how awkward you are. And that might’ve given them confidence to play hard to get and give you their number when you asked them out. Again, this person might underwent some relationship problems in the past. I’m seeing particularly cheating or people taking advantage of them for their materials, status, or looks. Something like that. I’m hearing specifically that someone might have been an energy vampire or they “leeched” off their resources, basically partners who depended emotionally or financially in them. They might think that you are the same way and you’re just like them. That’s why I see this person just keeping you around for fun at first. They might seem quite indifferent to you for a while as well. If they are girl, I see them just having an extremely damaged feminine. And they might be very successful. They might be hot and cold with you at the start.

THEIR PERSONALITY?

This person may be an older, much successful woman. They are someone who is passionate and goal-driven, almost no one can get in the way of what they want to do. They are someone who is independent, who makes reality happen for themselves. I’m hearing this person could’ve been in an orphanage. They could be in the military. Strong person for sure, mentally and physically. They’ve been through it all. I’m hearing that they’ve truly built themselves to where they are now and they plan to not let anyone ruin that for themselves (as they should, to be honest) This person might have a knack of attracting people who leech off of their success or energy, and they’ve learned to properly hand out their energy to people who will use it wisely and treat them correctly. This person is extremely giving and humble, as they grew up in an environment in which they expected modesty and generosity from others. “You can’t tell this woman nothing” I don’t know why I heard that, lol. This person’s love language is definitely physical touch, they love sexual contact. That could be something that heals them when it’s with the right person. However, this person is someone who has some issues to work on. They could struggle with being verbal and communicative. And they need to work on that to attract and build healthy relationships. Again, this person can be a bit wishy-washy too. They don’t know what they want in a true partner or they can depend on certain acts to make them feel better, such as sexual activity.

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?

Red hair; strong or muscular body; petite/dainty body; piercing (i’m seeing specifically an ear piercing); prominent shoulders (perhaps they are broad); wrinkles; gemini; pisces; aquarius; prominent waist; black hair; RBF; freckles; dark/brown skin; 4A to 4C hair type; medium height; athletic.

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WHY WILL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER?

I’m hearing that you guys might not be particularly in love with each other, I just see infatuation or extreme admiration/respect for each other. However, there are things you adore about one another.

You will love how well-rounded and talented your person is. I’m seeing they are someone who has been through a lot in life, and because of that, they’ve learned to acquire different kinds of skills and abilities that you admire and look up to. If you are a guy into girls, I see you seeing this girl as the queen she is. You’ll be grateful for her. You’ll feel as though you truly caught a dime. They’ll also make you feel better about yourself as a person. They might be older or more wiser than you so they might teach you a couple of things, and knowing you are with them out of all people with boost your confidence because a lot of people might want them for their character. You’ll also feel the need to protect them as well. You’ll truly feel you have became the better version of yourself with them. You guys might travel a little bit. I see this person being physically gone a lot, again, this person could be in the military or have a job where they are gone a lot. And you’ll miss them dearly. You’ll admire their perseverance. You’ll feel this person is too good to be true and you’ll feel as though you don’t deserve them, and that’s when the self-sabotage comes in.

It seems to me they’ll love how understanding you are. Even though they could struggle with communicating, you seem to know what’s wrong with them and you try your hardest to help them. It seems like they’ve always needed someone who was patient with them, helpful to them, and you’re here. They feel as though you are one less burden in their life, and that they can depend on you when they need it the most. You take the pressure off of them. They might love how good you are with physical intimacy as well, and how you are communicative in that aspect of the connection. They love how awkward and shy you are as well. They adore how you don’t like that much attention on yourself and you always let others take the spotlight, but they believe you are intelligent and capable and deserve it as times too. They love your modesty as well. They also love their goofiness and how weird you are! You might have weird hobbies, and they find that special about you.

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RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC?

This person might’ve been used to toxic and draining relationships, and they might step into this connection with a bit of baggage and toxic traits. However, I see them healing while being with you and getting themselves into a better energy. You’ll be helpful to them, you’ll be like their safe haven, and assure them that you are far from their other partners. You might not be this person’s usual type, or you’re far different from their past relationships. And this is something new to them. You’ll be patient with them person, and you might need to deal with their stubbornness but I feel you’ll take care of them and fight through with them. I see a lot of passion, hard work, and sexual energy in this relationship. I wouldn’t be surprised if this was a short-term relationship or a long-term relationship that doesn’t last. There is a lot of infatuation but friendship and teamwork. You guys might move around a lot, or you might come along with this person to their job since they could be gone very often. You’ll always be there for them and you might’ve promised that to them. They’ll be like a teacher to you. They’ll let you know on certain lessons and skills they’ve acquired from what they’ve been through. You might be younger, perhaps in your early 20’s when you meet and deal with this person, and they could be in their mid to late 20’s. For some of you, this person could be in their 30’s. You both might exercise and do physical activity a lot, whatever that be may be, lol.

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POTENTIAL PROBLEMS?

In the beginning, this person might play games and try to play you off as a fling or as a casual partner. They may or may not be playing with other options when they meet you, and they might not tell you in the beginning because they didn’t see you seriously in the first place. This might get annoying for you, you might not be the most assertive person, but I see you stepping up this person and telling them what you want from this connection and standing your ground. This person might not be used to that, and allow you to have what you want for the sake of seeing what happens. I feel one or both of you could have a mother wound—for you, this could’ve caused to be someone who is emotional and quite vulnerable to people you’ve just meet; and for them, this could’ve caused them to be workaholics and distracting themselves as well as shoving their emotions down and not expressing them. This person might have hyper-independence issues, all due to pride and what they’ve been used to for all their life. They’ve been used to partners who depended them and had to work to where they are themselves. They could also be a bit nasty and domineering at times, always wanting the upper hand.

LESSONS YOU WILL BOTH LEARN FROM EACH OTHER?

Your next partner will learn to have confidence in the success of their connections, and to not expect their love life to go to disaster all the time because I’m hearing that they attract what they believe to be true. They could be a strong manifestors. They’ll also learn to cooperation and teamwork, learning how to work with others and not try to take over all the time. They’ll learn to be less hasty and to be more reflective and slow in their approach to what they do with others and their life. To always come to their loved ones and ask what they want before they make the decision. They’ll also learn how to be more open to romantic offers and take chances, because they’ll never know if they would have met their soulmate if they accepted that one person’s date. They’ll also explore their options in love for commitment from now on, and not for casualness or flings. Lastly, they’ll learn how to be intuitive with their money choices. Their hastiness problem could be about money or financial decisions. Some of you guys may get married, and they might have a problem with buying certain things without your permission.

The lessons you’ll learn from your next partner is to learn how to protect your loved ones more and assert in situations in which is necessary. You’ll be protective of your partner and learn how to establish yourself, especially if you are the man in the relationship. You won’t take any crap anymore and hold close what’s dear to you. You’ll also learn to be more grateful for your life and circumstances because there’s people who have been through far worse and you’ll be more open-minded towards how people act and think and understand that how you grew up and the experiences they’ve had determines that. You perhaps might be in a better career when you are with this person for some reason. They could’ve help in some way in regards to your skill or abilities or connections. You’ll learn to establish yourself more in your confidence too, and know how to lead yourself to better place personally because this person has been through it all to know how as well.

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WHEN AND WHERE WILL YOU BOTH MEET?

You’ll meet your next partner during a time of stagnation, a period of confusion or stillness. You might not exactly know why you feel this way when the time comes, but this person will appear. This person might be someone you know already. For some of you, this could be an ex-partner; and for some of you, this could be someone from your childhood or adolescence. You might hear about this person before you meet them officially. I heard “tabloids”, this person could be making a name for themselves in some way, and this’ll cause for you to know about them before you actually see them. This person may be an aspiring artist, socialite, influencer or entrepreneur. You might officially meet this person at a family reunion, they could be a family friend, or a sibling’s friend? Either way, I feel you don’t want to deal with this person when they come back. It is possible that if this is an ex-partner, you might have left them due to a lack of commitment or effort in the connection. I’m getting mostly from your side, but it could be theirs too. If it’s on their side, they might have had a lot of romantic options due to their physical attractiveness or status at the time, and left. You may or may not have a child with them. I see you not wanting to have any connection with this person anymore, not wanting to hold the burdens or karma you have with them. However, that long period of stagnation you had is because of the underlying karma you have to resolve with this person, which makes me think this is a karmic partner. They could be a fatherly figure in some way, so yeah, they might have a child. I’m giving “from scratch” type of energy. For another group of you, you could’ve broken up with this person due to their aspirations and their desire to become who they want to be. Perhaps you thought their aspirations were too unserious for the future, or they let their aspirations get in the way of the connection.

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FIRST IMPRESSIONS?

Your next partner could view you as someone who is receptive, calm, and easygoing. You’re not the one to argue, yell or shout. It’s easy to talk to you. They view you as someone who is delicate and deliberate in their actions. I’m also hearing “quiet”. They think you are nurturing, emotional, accepting, and caring. Again, you might have a kid with this person. They might view you as family-oriented, which makes think this could be a family reunion of some sort. However, on the other hand, they view you as someone who is restless, but also avoidant. I mean restless in a sense that you are always conscious of your surroundings and how you appear. You might not want to talk and try to deliberately avoid them, for whatever reason. They also see you meditative, always reflecting on things.

Again, I’m getting this vibe that this person might an aspiring artist, influencer or whatever, and you might see them visibly making a name for themselves. Getting off of their feet and becoming secure and successful. Or if not, you see them becoming more well-off and taking up a secure job. You’ll see this, but I see a bit of stubbornness or a grudge towards them for some reason. You would still view this person as immature, wishy-washy and chaotic. You can see them as dreamy and creative, but also always in their head. You see them as someone who struggles to live in reality and actually take action to do things. You could also see them as delusional and deceptive. I’m getting for some of you, this person could have been unfaithful or extremely confusing in the relationship. Deep inside, you will be proud of this person, but I see you still remembering the past. You’ll believe that what this person is doing is incredible, but doesn’t change the past. This person may be younger or have a youthful energy. You might have went to school with this person, grew up with them.

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THEIR PERSONALITY?

First thing I heard is that this person is very charming and humorous. They know how to grab attention of everyone when they step into the room. They carry strong energy that could be intimidating to some people. They might be bigger in physical frame or just carry large energy if that makes sense. They are definitely an enterprising and social person. They could be good at networking and making tons of connections with people. They might be popular or just know how to get along well with others. They are probably not the most smart academically, but they are definitely street smart. They might’ve not gotten their school diploma, they could have gotten a GED instead. This person could love being the center of attention, and they can be a bit superficial at times. For one of you, this person might have some slight issues with the law. I’m not seeing this big crime, just like a small misdemeanor or something. This person could be someone who is extremely determined to get what they want in life, and they might even be willing to get what they want if they have to abandon people. This might’ve been what happened with you two.

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PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?

virgo; broader/big-framed in body type; chubbier in body type; prominent eyes, hips, waist, and lips; freckles: innocent-looking; bushy eyebrows; birthmark; bigger nose; acne

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WHY WILL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER?

Your next partner will fall in love with you because of your receptiveness, quietness, “purity”, and sweetness. You could be a kind and delightful person. They’ve always admired you and they thought about you until the day comes you meet again. They also love how you care for the ones you care about, especially their kid if you both have a child together. They might also love the fact that you wear dresses or skirts. I also feel like there is a sense of guilt for what they did in the past too, they might have used and left you for career gain or played you. They’ll admire how even though they have became successful, you still treat them as the same person they were before they were successful. You bring them back to earth about who they really are. It’s make them want to share the popularity and wealth with you, especially if you both have a family to take care of. They want to create more ventures with you on the sidelines. They want you to be their motivation, and they want to make it up to you in anyway possible.

First off, I’m getting you’ll fall in love with your next partner because they had a glow-up, lol. Whether that being physically or mentally, you will fall in love with the new them. They might have new money or status, and you’ll find that very attractive now. You’ll love how they are a completely recharged and grown person when you see them again. Perhaps you might seem them on social media or in public actively working on themselves, attending counseling, or just doing things you never would have thought they would do. You’ll feel as though you can start something new and different with this person than you couldn’t do in the past, and I’m also hearing you can “forgive and move on”. You might have gone though a deep depression because of this person’s wrongdoings, and getting closure was exactly what you needed. You’ll admire how they never forgot about you, and came back to pay their dues. You might also love how picky they are with who they let around them now, especially how because of their newfound fame or success, and they are much serious now.

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RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC?

I’m seeing this relationship with your next partner (or ex) being a sequel to the last time you’ve had a connection with them. Previously in the connection, this partner was reckless and immature, and just someone not to have anything serious with. They were probably selfish and didn’t want to take care of their real responsibilities like their kid (if they have one with you) or the future of the relationship and not getting a real job. Now, they’ve accomplished what they’ve aspired to be, and came back to prove to you that they are worthwhile. You both might have been teen parents for some of you, might’ve struggled financially and dealt with money problems. This person had other goals in mind rather than getting a stable job to secure the family (like aspiring to be in an unconventional career) Now, you both are bathing in luxury, and are able to do the things you both weren’t able to do when younger. You guys are also exclusive—is also what I’m hearing. You are both serious and protective of each other, more likely if this person is famous, or at least popular on a platform. I’m also seeing this relationship being a rather private type of connection, like everyone knows you’re together but you both rather not tell anything about what’s going on in between you guys because you might feel it’s better that way. I’m also seeing this dynamic of you both trying to build a stronger relationship with your child, especially the masculine figure or father. The father might’ve not been around as much earlier. The father might try to help the child with their confidence, assertiveness or self-esteem. I see this relationship being a young type of love, you both might still be on the younger side, which isn’t a bad thing by the way.

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POTENTIAL PROBLEMS?

I’m not seeing any particular problems between you and them. However, I do see people in your environment trying to create a problem in your relationship with this person. There could be hate or jealousy in the media trying to push you away from your person, and this might make you feel hopeless and scared, as though you cannot get through this. I even see people trying to humiliate or embarrass you in some way. Such as posting pictures of you out on social media, or sending hate comments. You and your partner are truly a force to be reckoned with, your bond is truly strong because you’ve known each other for so long and no one know you better than this person and vice versa. True soulmate energy. This could be a karmic soulmate. You guys always agree on things. When your person notices the hate getting to you, they will feel terrible and angry because you are probably someone who is usually resilient, strong and calm, but they will hate how the media or the people broke you down, and they are going to want to put a stop to it. I am also seeing a issue with the child too, if it’s not you. The child might be experiencing bullying in school or on the media, and you and your partner—especially you, you’re going to probably be ticked—are going to do whatever is best to make sure your kid is safe (aw, i’m going to cry)

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LESSONS YOU WILL BOTH LEARN FROM EACH OTHER?

I feel your partner will learn the art of true love, stability, and commitment. They’ll learn to be a good parent and a better lover. The lesson of structure and order is also coming through, learning how to properly build a foundation not just for themself, but for others. They’ll learn to be more selfless and less flaky as well. This person will learn to work hard for their dreams and to have faith as they’ll know that everything will come together. Lastly, they’ll know that family comes first before anything, and to learn how to prioritize family even at the expense of their own wants. They’ll be more mature and rational, learn how to make decisions that are the best for them and everyone around them, and communicate their desires so everyone can be happy.

The lessons you’ll learn from your partner is that your dreams need a practical plan, so if you’re actually the person who had the dream of becoming an aspiring influencer or whatever, this could be for you. You’ll also learn how to meditate on making the right decisions for yourself instead of going off of your emotions and making some mistakes. Perhaps leaving this person was a huge mistake you’ve had based off of how you felt at the time. You’ll truly bask in abundance and luck with this person, and have faith when one says they have a goal to achieve, even if it’s “outlandish” or “impossible”. You’ll learn to be more supportive to people who want to achieve something, and look on the bright side of things.

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WHEN AND WHERE WILL YOU BOTH MEET?

I’m getting that for most of you, you might’ve left a toxic relationship or family environment. This particular person or group of people has led you to intense depression, despair, and stagnation. You might feel as though you are stuck, but I see that you are trying your best to turn over a new leaf and start your life over again with a new mindset. I see hurt and betrayal. You might be isolating yourself around the time you meet this person. I feel like you’ve been through enough and you just want to be to yourself, but I feel like this isolation might get out of hand because I see you diving into a further depression. This person could be a toxic or bad ex trying to slither back into your life (Sorry, that’s what I’m getting) I see you having your guard up, trying to have some self-love for yourself and push them away, as you should. However, I feel that you are not healed and you might give in to your feelings, and I see you taking them back. Please know your worth and set boundaries, even if it seems like you can’t. This person will physically try to move their way back into your life. I am getting this feeling that you might need to get a restraining order on this person, it’s giving huge stalker/harassment energy. They are like a mosquito who doesn’t know when to quit. I’m seeing that if you don’t want to attract this person back into your life, you need to successfully focus on your self-worth and set strict boundaries, no matter how persuaded or allured you may feel. This is because I see you giving in to this person because of loneliness or you feeling comfortable in their energy only, like you’re only used to them. I’m seeing that they might try to physically come to your home and ask to be in your life again. You might say no at first, but they might try to come back over and over until you say yes. Again, you should get a restraining order or something on them if that’s the case.

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FIRST IMPRESSIONS?

Your next partner, mostly if this is an ex, will view you as someone who is easily to manipulate. I feel like they might come back because they know you’ll take them back. I wouldn’t be surprised if you didn’t have any family or loved ones to depend on, and you’re on your own. They probably think that they are all you have. It is possible you may have a child with them, or you financially depend on them. They could even try to manipulate you with their money to control you. You might not have a job, or you might not be in the best place materialistically, and they are feeding off that. “Obtuse”. They think you are someone who is stubborn and always wants their own way in things. You don’t like following directions and you prefer to do things the way you want to do it. They view you as unconventional or weird in the way you go about things. You are believed to be imaginative, wanting a lot of things but may be unable to do some because of your circumstances. You might creative and artistic as well, they notice that. They think you are physically beautiful and know how to take care of yourself in that sense. You might have a pet? A pet cat, bird, or puppy. They believe you to be an animal lover, and you’ll do anything for your pet (If you have one) They could also think you’re “prissy”.

You’ll view your next partner as very successful and financially independent. You might notice that they could have a lot of financial outlets, they could take up multiple jobs or careers. They might be hardworking person in that aspect. You’ll view them as someone who has worked their way up from nothing. This person might have came from poverty and built an living for themselves in some way. You may respect them for that as well. You admire the fact they climbed to where they are. You seem to always be sure of themselves, and that’s because they couldn’t had a childhood where they had to make decisions for themselves and trust no one else. You could be inspired by them in a sense too.

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THEIR PERSONALITY?

Firstly, your next partner is someone who is manipulative in a way they know how to turn things around to make it happen in their favor. They are strong and intelligent, who knows how to get people to work with them. If something doesn’t go their way, they won’t stop until it does, which makes them very stubborn and difficult to get along with at times I see. They are someone who always has a chip on their shoulder, they don’t like learning from their mistakes because they believe everything they do is what they should do and is the perfect decision. I wouldn’t be surprised if an argument with this person is a headache. They are a mentally strong person, and they are brave. However, this person obviously has some issues to tend to. This is far fetched, but for one of two of you, this person may be narcissistic or have narcissistic tendencies. They may have a sex drive, and could have a some emotional or anger issues. They seem spiritually undeveloped and impaired. They definitely need some grounding and shadow work. This person is very successful. They could do work in construction, repair, or something that is physically demanding. They may repair cars? This is random, and I hope this isn’t true, but for a couple of you, this person may not have the best sexual health or fertility. I’m getting Capricorn energy. This person may appear like a calm and reserved person on the first impression to other people. Someone who appears as though they are trusting and safe. This person may have a job where they help people such as a doctor, etc. This person is a very structural, they love things to be orderly and properly set. This person may be organized.

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PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?

capricorn; piercings (for one or two of you); medium/smaller nose; stockier or lean body type; upturned nose; brown skin, arched eyebrows; different race, culture, or ethnicity; facial hair; prominent thighs or breasts; 3A to 3C hair type; libra: scary-looking; younger (or appears younger)

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WHY WILL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER?

There’s two ways this can go: This person is not in love with you but rather infatuated with you; or they are in love with you, but when you are wounded and broken, you can’t expect yourself to love someone properly. And I feel like you both are broken people, and what you attract is what you are. I feel like you and this person may have some similar past traumas or personal issues that can attract you both to each other, especially on their side. They subconsciously admire that about you. This person may be someone who does exude narcissistic traits, and you may exude more self-effacing traits. Their traumas and psychological issues match yours, and it attracts you both to each other. They admire how fast-minded you are, you have an innovative mindset and you always come up with ideas that are mind-blowing to them. They find you intelligent and “adventurous”, you may want to travel or explore the world at some point. I’m hearing that love your beauty, once again. They admire how you physically carry yourself. You might love getting your nails done, doing your hair, and wearing certain clothes. I see physical attraction for sure. They might admire that you care so much about your physical, and they might feel the need to spoil you or spend money on your upkeep yourself.

This person’s energy to you is almost addicting. It’s like you know this person isn’t good for you, but you can’t help but come back. I feel the reasons why you love this person is coming from your ego and wounds. You might admire how aggressive this person is, you might be the type to like angering them because you like the rush of seeing them upset. There could some sexual reasons as to why you like this about them. They also might like seeking aggressive and conflict in between you two. You might financially depend on this person, and you might admire how you can trust them with that part of your life. You really need to have respect for yourself, truly. I feel like this attachment to this person will only make you more unhappy and unhealthy in the long run. You might even be aware that this person could be cheating, but you still stay anyways because you refuse to leave them. This just feels like desperation and addiction to be honest. I just see your health and enthusiasm for life plummeting with this person. This person may be married. You’ll adore their charisma and sexual attractiveness. This person could physically attractive to you, they may be on the muscular and stronger side if they are a man. You love getting their attention because it helps with your self-esteem, or least it seems that way to you.

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RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC?

This person may be the type to love introduce new ideologies, belief systems, and different perceptions of the world to you. You both may love going on vacation with each other, and they could love spending money on you. This relationship could seem a bit materialistic at times but this person’s love language could just be gift-giving. There’s some sexual attraction here as well. This person could be a bit controlling in what you do when it comes to work. I see you both actively trying to become a healthier connection, but both of y’all’s wounds are going to get in the way and “wreak havoc”, the next time you get into a connection with this person, it’ll start off good, but it might go back to what it used to be. This person could get a bit controlling in what you do for work. For example, you might get a job as an office worker, they might tell you you can’t do that job because you have to transfer a lot of information through computers, or tell you can’t own a business because it’s too much work for you. This person could be envious of you and your potential in extreme cases, or they just like to project onto you. It is like they don’t mind financially supporting you because it gives them the power, but they don’t like when you realize power within yourself to handle your own. This person is confusing. You and this person could try to start random arguments with each other just because, and I see both of you being unfulfilled in this relationship due to all of this.

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POTENTIAL PROBLEMS?

There can be a point in the relationship where you try to blossom and become a better person for yourself. You might get a career you’ve always wanted or get yourself out to make more friends. Due to this person’s insecurities, they might try to sabotage you, or stop you in your tracks. At this point, you might get entirely sick of this person. You might to step into a better lifestyle for yourself. For some of you, this person might have influenced you to engage in harmful substances such as alcohol or drugs (I hope not) And you’re trying to get better. This person will almost project onto you because they know they couldn’t do the same even if they tried. They want to keep you down with them. You might get new attention from the workplace or whatever, or perhaps you might try to dive into a new religion or spirituality. I see you trying to really move on from this person.

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LESSONS YOU WILL BOTH LEARN FROM EACH OTHER?

Your next partner will learn to be more proactive in their personal goals in regards to becoming a better person. They’ve learned to not bring anyone else down just because of their own problems. They will learn how to have faith in themselves and their potential. They’ll also need to understand that they cannot have everything at the expense of other people, they’ll learn to heal from narcissistic tendencies. They’ll learn to actually work for what they want and desire out of life instead of manipulating and controlling others. They’ll understand that they now have to carry the karma and baggage of being difficult and abusive.

You’ll learn from the your next partner not to take anyone’s disrespectful. You’ll never be the other woman, or fall for anyone’s distorted thinking. You’ll learn to hold to your goals, passions, and desires for yourself. Never let anyone belittling into thinking you can’t do it. Your person probably took your unique ideas and took credit for it in the workplace. You’ll learn to use your ideas to allow yourself to flourish, to hold boundaries and to show a bit of pride. You’ll also take better care of your health, and never let yourself go. You’ll learn how to be proud of who you are, and not let anyone degrade you into thinking you’re a burden or you’re not amazing. When in reality, of course you are :)

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WHEN AND WHERE WILL YOU BOTH MEET?

You will meet your next partner at a time when you feel like you lack of control over your life or feeling lost in your planning. It is possible that some of you might dropout of college/school or work a certain job around the time. There could be someone at your work that could be giving you a hard time such as a toxic or controlling boss. Most of you in this pile might be someone who could be a bit of a pushover, and your boss or manager might take advantage of that and abuse you. You’re going to feel so unappreciated at this job because of them, and you might want to leave and find a job elsewhere. You’ll meet your—i’m hearing “future spouse”—next partner around a time where you start to see reality for what it is and get your head out of the clouds and take action for yourself. You might start communicating your needs with your manager or boss. I see this connection starting off slow, I see friends to lovers. I’m not going to lie, you might meet this person at the wrong time and end up making a bad impression on each other. You might not like each other at first, however, I see you both coming friends and then becoming a slow-burning relationship. This person will be a friend that you make at this job, and they might be the one to help motivate you to communicate your feelings to your superior. They’ll recognize the unfairness and lack of appreciation you’re getting and they are going to want justice for you. I’m also feeling like you will try something with this person, but one of you will want a break due to something personal, and then come back to resume where y’all left off. For some of you, you might meet this person through altercation with them. You might meet them through an argument that was a misunderstanding. Whether that be between you both, or other people. Traffic? Road rage? Parking? Parking Lot? Something with cars, parking, and driving perhaps.

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FIRST IMPRESSIONS?

This person might notice your hair color on the first impression. Some of you could be blonde-haired, or dyed your hair blonde. Your hair color could stand out in some way. They might view you as someone who is sweet and “gentle to the touch”. You could be someone who is nice, friendly, and dependable. You could also be someone who is a good helper and you don’t mind doing any extra work because you might like being productive. I’m hearing “drama” and “backlash”. This person might feel bad for you on the first impression. You might meet this person through you having a misunderstood altercation with someone else. Perhaps you get a lot of hate in the workplace and people might try to pull you into unnecessary arguments and mistreatments. This person might want to stick up for you or want to protect you from it all. They notice you are also someone who is hard-working and soft-hearted. You might be someone who is also very proactive and positive. However, they see that you are often drained and underpowered because of the bad environment the people, especially your superior, in the workplace has put you in. They could also see you as someone who is seeking remedy in a way. You might be someone who has overcame an addiction or something. Perhaps a few of you have recently been released from rehab. This person could be aware that you may be on the younger side because you seem unsure about where you want to go in life, but you’re hanging in there. They believe that wherever you go, everything will go in your favor because you are a blessed soul.

This is specific, but for a few of you, this person has served the military and may be disabled in some way, or just served in the military at some point. You may view this person as someone who has been through challenging and intense times, but somehow always knew how to look in the brighter side. You see them as motivating and optimistic, someone who is uplifting and positive-minded. This person brings good feelings to the people they care about, and they are ride-or-dies. You’ll see they are also grateful as well, very appreciative people who are blessed to be alive. I am also getting the vibe that this person (if they were mostly in the military) could’ve mentioned that they’ve had a near death experience that changed their entire perspective on life; after that, they were a different person with different morals and values. You also perceive them as realistic. They seem to be a grounded person who has a strong grasp of reality, especially after their NDE. I wouldn’t be surprised if this person may have PTSD (God bless them if they do) They could be trying to overcome that around the time. For some of you, this person could be someone you tried to get with in the past, but someone in the connection needed to focus on other things. For a group of you, this person may be the boss or manager at the workplace giving you a hard time. If so, this could be a misunderstanding, and I am feeling like their traumas or ways of dealing with things could be the reason for it. I see you communicating with them and settling the tension successfully, possibly leading to a good friendship.

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THEIR PERSONALITY?

Again, this person may have a past in the army. I feel like their history in the army has led them to developing traits such as aggression, discipline, ambition, and courage. This person might brush you off the wrong way at the start. They could have a louder voice naturally and it might come off as domineering or controlling. However, they don’t mean harm I believe. It is just what they’ve been used to. On the inside, your person is someone who is calming, compassionate, soft-spoken, friendly, and dependable. Similar to you. This person might have had a traumatic event that led them to acting the way they do with people. This person might have been unfairly treated at a job at some point, and I feel like they haven’t gotten their sense of justice yet. This is specific, but for a few of you, this person may have not been treated the best in the army. Perhaps they were underpaid, or they weren’t promised the life they were to be given after they left. I see them being a hardworking person, trying to make up for the work they’ve done throughout the years. This person is someone who is also very forgiving and accepting, and it seems to be that they don’t care about it, however deep inside, they feel a bit disappointed about it. I see you both sharing your hardships and problems with each other, being there for one another, and being each other safe havens. This person is truly an angel. They really are. They are so sweet and selfless. They don’t seem like the type of person to argue or fuss a lot, and if they do, they do it in a slow and deliberate manner. However, for some of you, this person may have been the complete opposite of that before their time in the army, but changed after a certain experience. They love helping others and might love giving back to the people in some way. They might like giving food or drinks to homeless people on the street, something like that. This person may have good karma, and will have a positive next life. They could be a starseed. They are someone who is thoughtful and doesn’t like stressing about things or others. I guess they don’t take life as seriously as they used to. This person could have a pet dog, aw :) I keep seeing dogs. They may a guard dog, or something like that.

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PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?

taller height; muscular body type; prominent smile/teeth (they might have a bright and contagious smile); prominent hips and waist; freckles; RBF; skinny; thin eyebrows; libra; minimal style; dark-skinned; lean body type; piercings; about half of you, average height.

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WHY WILL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER?

Your next partner will fall in love with you because they know they can depend on you for anything and everything. They appreciate how you’re always there for them and you’re ride-or-die. This person may have been the one who had to take a break from the connection due to personal reasons, perhaps PTSD or something in regards to trauma or emotional/mental health. They might have waited for them, and they cannot help but be thankful for you for being patient with them, for not walking away when they were in times of despair. They also think that you won’t judge them at their worst or ugliest times. You may seen them been through some harsh problems, and you still loved them through it all. This person may have problems in regards to sleeping or paranoia? Because the moon is prominent. You might love sleeping over at their place to be there for them and make them feel safe and comfortable, they love that. This person may have had been in a connection with someone who was always pushy, demanding, and aggressive towards them. Again, this person seems to be delicate and sweet; and this past partner might’ve been controlling in a sense towards them, especially when they were in a time of financial trouble. This person could have been disabled or at a time when they couldn’t actively work for some reason. This person might’ve tried to force them to do things they weren’t ready for or couldn’t do. I just see impatience to be honest. They admire how you aren’t that way with them, you’re patient, and you actually encourage them to be easy on themselves and do what feels best for them at the moment. If they need to rest, then so be it. They also believe you are very nurturing and caring, especially towards animals. They may love how you take care of their pet, and you might petsit for them. Awww smh stawpp <3 This is too cute! Honestly, I see this relationship going far for most of you.

You’ll fall in love with your next partner (or should I say, future spouse because that vibe is coming in for literally almost all of you) because they give you a sense of freedom and integrity. This person is someone who has developed a bigger perspective on life after what they’ve been through, and I feel like you’ve always been someone who was always stopping yourself from doing things out of fear of failure or “taking the wrong path”. You might be someone who has always struggled with pessimism or feeling stuck in situations dies to lack of assurance. You’ll love that this person shift your whole viewpoint about how you should live your life. You’ll start to see things from the brighter side like them and they might encourage you to take up a completely different career path you would’ve never thought of taking due to limiting beliefs. You’ll adore how supportive they are and how they love others, including you, unconditionally. (I’m sorry, they seem so lovable like aw) They will literally make you cry because of how selfless and dangerously kind they are. They will probably be the type of person to randomly stop on the side of streets to talk to little kids :( I just see you having cuteness overload with this person, you’ll truly adore them and appreciate every single thing they do for others. You’ll also fall in love with how appreciative this person is, they might not have much, but to them, they have the world in their hands. They are the types to believe that as long as they have food on the table and the people they love, they are the richest person in the world (Everyone should be this way to be honest) It almost makes you want them to have everything they’ve ever wanted from the biggest to the smallest. And yeah, you’ll just love how they always have a smile on their face and love in their heart despite everything they’ve been through. This person tries to have love in their heart despite everything they’ve been through. I feel this person follows after a personal philosophy about that: Always have a good in your heart despite what the world gives you—something like that.

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RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC?

This is patient and slow-moving relationship. I see you guys starting off as friends, becoming the bestest of friends, then officially dating. Therefore, this connection will have a strong foundation of knowing each other, which are the best type of relationships to be honest. I see that this relationship will undergo a lot of hardships in the beginning, not necessarily between you two, but because of what is going on personally in y’all’s lives individually. However, I see you both being there for each other, having patience, and letting the relationship blossom on its own time. I see a lot of communication, methodical dating (For example: If someone needs time for a break, you guys discuss how much time, what y’all will done when you guys don’t see each other, etc. You know, stuff like that) Y’all are that way because I see you both want this connection to work. Specifically, for one of you, you could be an aquarius and this person could be a libra. I’m seeing strong air sign energy. There is a lot of articulating and methodical planning in this connection. You’ll also mentally stimulate each other, always challenging each other in debates and conversations, even to the point of entertaining arguments. This relationship is definitely electrifying and there’s strong friendship. This person will see you not just as their partner, but their best friend :( This is giving such strong marriage, long-term relationship vibes like come on <3 I don’t see you guys holding each other back. I’m not seeing detached energies, but I’m seeing you guys have a lot of trust in each other to the point where you both can go days without being physically there with each other and knowing that everything is alright between the both of you. You both could be comfortable with each other having friendships with their desired gender (If you are straight, your partner could be okay with you being friends with the opposite gender and vice versa on your end) You guys want to see each other grow and expand while being there for each other. Lowkey, for almost all of y’all, this is a long-term (and definitely successful) relationship, but I’m seeing that some of you, you and your partner might agree to not marrying. Some of you and maybe your partner might not believe in marriage like that, and doesn’t think that law-binding each other is necessary. I’m seeing you guys being the types to give each other promise rings instead (Awww! I’m about to cry, for real) Y’all are here for the long-term. But for some of you, y’all might not want to force each other to the shackles of modern marriage, you know what I mean? This is adorable man. However, if you do want marriage, this person will definitely try to find ways to compromise both of your desires, so don’t worry!

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POTENTIAL PROBLEMS?

Honestly, there’s nothing you guys cannot get through. These problems can easily be solved because again, you guys have friendship. Even in times when you are argue or get into a block in the connection, you both always seems to rise back up due for your undeniable collaboration. Plus, I see you two, especially your partner, not knowing how to stay mad at each other. I do see some financial hardships. There might be a point where you both live together and you have to bring in two incomes to the house, and it could become a struggles. However, I see you guys getting through it through teamwork. I see strong communication, so I’m not even worried about y’all. I do see some self-sabotage or feeling like someone doesn’t deserve the other person, this could be coming from both sides, but especially your partner. I see this person not being treated the best in the past, and they felt like they weren’t enough for their previous partner; they could feel that way for you subconsciously from time to time. If you just validate them and make sure to let them know they are do more than enough, everything will be alright. I’m hearing they just need some TLC (tender loving care) after all the harsh things they’ve been through. They are such an angel, like please doesn’t take them for granted y’all. Tell them you love them and appreciate them. I’m also hearing buy them small and meaningful gifts. They might be an action figure nerd, or they love collecting certain things. I’m serious like they are so gentle, they just want a hug. Give them hugs more often guys, when the time comes. They might love cuddles. Their love language is definitely gift-giving and physical touch. Yeah, other than that. Y’all are destined for success. I see you living happily ever after with this person. I see a family, two children. Perhaps y’all are of different race or ethnicity and could have children who are mixed, that’s random. That’s for a few of you. And I see travel! Good luck!

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LESSONS YOU WILL BOTH LEARN FROM EACH OTHER?

Lessons your next partner will learn from you is to believe in the impossible, the dream of having that secure and happy future they’ve always hoped for. This person may always wanted to meet and spend the rest of their lives with their soulmate, their person; and have a family with them, pass on their legacy. And they’ve realized that they can do that with you. This person might’ve been used to toxicity and mistreatment, they might have expected themselves to always be in that state, but you, the possibilities together proved wrong, and their life-defining moments proved wrong. All their life, they had to fight and protect for the things they’ve cared for the most. They learned it’s not going to always be that way, and it shouldn’t be that way. This person is destined to have it end in a good way for themselves. This person is divinely protected, and they could have a grandmother or feminine figure they hold dearly to looking over them in spirit to make sure. Anyone and everyone did this person wrong will get justice and karma sooner or later.

The lessons you’ll learn from your next partner is to be grateful, to appreciate the smaller things in life, and you’ll find happiness everywhere you go. Your partner will make you realize that you can find satisfaction in the most unnoticeable places, and that’s enough to make you feel content with where you are. You might be someone who has always struggled to slow down and look at what’s in front of you, this person will help you recognize that and slow down and smell the flowers. In this connection, you’ll learn true companionship, unconditional love, and compassion. You’ll learn to show more love to the people around you, including your partner (I swear I keep wanting to say future spouse) You’ll learn unity and merging with someone you deeply look out for. You’ll learn to listen to your heart and less to your rational mind. You’ll follow your intuition and true desires. You’ll learn selflessness and how to talk things through effectively and deliberately. You’ll also learn how to relate to others effectively.

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WHEN AND WHERE WILL YOU BOTH MEET?

For some of you, this could be your first ever partner. I feel like for a group of you, this could be an arranged marriage someone in your family (specifically a masculine figure, perhaps a father or uncle) is trying to get to you to date, for religious or cultural reasons. For another group of you, this person may be an ex-partner that is trying to come back, and for some of you, a masculine figure could be trying to encourage you to get back with them. You might meet or reconcile with this person around a vulnerable and “embarrassing” time? Your family might be pressuring you to date or put yourself out there for marriage. You’re going to feel like your boundaries aren’t being respected, and your family is putting you out around a time when you’re not ready for any of that. You feel awkward and harassed. Your family might be very traditional with those type of things and it can get irritating. For some of you, I’m getting a masculine figure setting you up on a blind date, and you not looking forward to it. I’m just seeing a father pressuring you to settle down. Most of you guys could be in your early to late 20’s. I’m hearing that one or a few of you are exactly 23 years old (Which, in my opinion, is too young for settling down, like what are they on about guys?) However, I see this person being very successful—perhaps a bit older by a couple of years—and willing and capable of giving you guaranteed success and stability. This person definitely has power, and your family will notice that and will want to get on this person’s side. Some of you could be from South Asia, that’s where most arranged marriage practices happen. Indian, Mongolian, or Malaysian culture perhaps? Some of you could come from a financially well-off family who has connections to meet up with people like your future partner. I don’t see you feeling ready to partake in this connection through, and honestly, sorry. I see this person being understanding though so, go figure :)

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FIRST IMPRESSIONS?

Your next partner will view you as someone who will help them achieve higher status and stability. If this is arranged, I see them seeing you as leeway for better status in a sense of acquiring a stable marriage. If you happen to be the masculine energy being arranged to the feminine energy, I see you seeing them as someone who needs to depend on them for status and respect. This seems like strict business to be honest. They might see you as strict business. I seen them viewing you as someone who needs them in a financial sense. Perhaps your family wanted you to marry to guarantee a good future for yourself. I also feel this person feels a sense of guilt for you, like they feel sorry for you. You might not want to go on with this, but for the sake of tradition and your loved ones, you have to. I see them being completely understanding and I do see compromise in some way. For a small group of you, if this is an ex, I see you wanting revenge for something. I don’t know what it is, but you’re out for them for something they did. There’s something legal coming through for the ones who are dealing with the ex, this ex might’ve have committed a crime involving you being the victim this family might not know about. This is a trigger warning for you guys: This person may or may not have sexually assaulted you and you haven’t announced it yet. This person may trigger you in a way and bring out a vulnerable side of yourself. That is for a small group of y’all through, if this is true, I am so sorry, literally. This person feels shame for what they did, but I don’t see you falling for it to be honest. You wanting justice. I see this masculine figure or family of yours literally forcing you to forgive this person for what they’ve done and move on, but I don’t see you really moving on, you’re still thinking about it. On the brighter side, for the arranged marriage people or the people who simply is just dealing with a random ex, they view you as someone who is confident and sure of themselves. You guys might be a Leo or have Leo energy in your chart. They might notice your hair. They might notice how big, curly, and noticeable it is. They might like your height—you’re probably noticeable tall or short—and how tan you are? They love how you look, they think you’re beautiful, and they might see you two getting along and having a stable future together at first. They might even develop a slight crush on you at first sight. They think you’re cute, aw. They could be on the younger side. They can be a young adult, for sure.

Your first impression of your next partner is that they aren’t initially your type, if an ex, not anymore. You don’t think you can be compatible with them, at least for now. You just don’t see it or feel the spark. You don’t think it’s time. You might view them as indifferent or detached, like you might notice that they do not make much eye contact with you or seem to care less about making an impression on you. I see them being professional and respectful, but you can tell they weren’t too excited or enthusiastic about seeing you. At least that’s what it seems. You might be intimidated by that because you can’t see what’s going on in their mind. I don’t see you arguing because I see you needing “remedy” for your financial situation or whatever your family wanted you to do this for. I’m gettin a bunch of masculine energies coming through, if so, if this is a feminine energy or girl, you might view them as someone who is financially in need, and it’s your responsibility to arrange a marriage with them. I just see you viewing them as someone you don’t see yourself being with in the long run. You will see this person as a burden and you know this connection won’t last. You believe there is a lack of passion and sexual/physical attraction as well. On the contrary to how they see you on the first impression.

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THEIR PERSONALITY?

First off, this person is highly intelligent. I’m seeing this person used to be honors student in school or something. They’ve attended college, and gotten a masters degree in a particular area. I’m hearing computer science or nursing. They could be a nerd and highly invested in the field they study. I’m also hearing graphic design and robotics (Elon Musk type beat) They are very eloquent and professional. This person could come from new money and built themselves up from the ground. They are definitely hardworking and determined, fearless, feared of. They are charitable people, they are well-aware enough they should give back. Yeah, they are definitely planning on marrying someone into money or marrying someone who wants to marry them for their money for strictly professional reasons. This person is solely wanting to marry someone for social climbing reasons, like status in the dating world if they are a masculine energy or male, and status in the professional world if they are a feminine energy or female kind of thing. It is weird to be honest. I see them being very methodical with how they use you, and that's not giving me the best vibes. I'm not seeing any toxic energy though, fortunately. Just not so good tendencies. For some of you, this person may have snobbish vibes. If they do come from money in their family, they can be spoiled and a bit lazy. I don't want to say this, but I do see a fraud for a few of you, or at least they are not all they set themselves out to be. I'm sorry.

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PHYSICAL APPEARANCE?

dark hair color; stockier body type; sagittarius; leo; prominent lips; wrinkles, younger, facial hair, minimal style; medium-size nose; alluring, arched eyebrows, acne; long hair.

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WHY WILL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER?

Your next partner will love your beauty. I see them stumbling over their words every time you look at them while they are talking to you because of how “drop-dead gorgeous” you are. There’s a lot of physical attraction on their side. They also admire how prideful and independent you seem. You don’t seem to like submitting to people and you’re stubborn. They find that attractive and almost like a challenge? They could get turned on by that for some reason. They love your hair “and how it smells”? What’s going on? lol. You admire how hard you work and determined you are to accomplish your small goals. You always seem to be busy and dealing with your ongoing tasks. They appreciate that and look up to that. I see them wanting to flirtatiously pursue you by giving you gifts and certain presents, they might want to spoil you and be chivalrous towards you. However, I don’t think they see you as someone who is ready for marriage. They might think you’re too stubborn for it and you’ll be hard to compromise with because of your pride. However, they would try to pursue you in a playful and unserious way. They admire your belief system and morals, your ideology encourages them to become better and work harder. They also admire the person that you’ll become when you get with them, they’ll love to want to help you become a better person with their status and wealth and help you get to a better situation and see you grow.

You might have some slight misconceptions about them at the start or you’ll start to notice some good qualities about this person when you get to know them. You might have judged them too quickly and allowed yourself to create a false picture of them. This person might have turned over a new leaf when you marry them or bind to them. They’ll seem to be a different person. Perhaps this person has been married before but got divorced. And they are trying to make it up but doing better this time with someone different. You might love how surprisingly giving, thoughtful, and receptive they are. I see that you’ll love how determined they are to make this connection work, whether that’s by getting to know you or doing extreme exercises to build trust. I feel like they will try to earn your apology for what they’ve done to you in the past, and they are going to do whatever they can gain that. You’ll find that appealing, and I see you making it hard by trying to prove a lesson. I see that over time, there will some gain in respect for each other. I don’t necessarily see love through unfortunately.

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RELATIONSHIP DYNAMIC?

The relationship will definitely be a slow one, for sure. There might not be as much passion, but there’s going to some slow build of liking each other or at least being okay with or respecting each other. I see that you guys might not be seen in public with each other often. It could be something you guys agreed on at the start of your connection. To be honest, I don’t see this connection working out, and if so, it’s not going to be very fulfilling. It’s just going yo be professional. I feel this relationship is solely a karmic relationship for the both of you to learn specific lessons, specifically something about forgiveness and apologizing. I also see you finally giving in to this person’s services, especially if this is an arranged marriage. You’re going to try to cope with the fact that you need this person’s assets for the sake of your family’s name or validation. I do see a power dynamic. I don’t see anything necessarily toxic, but you might not like it. The dynamic could be solely because of this person’s status and respect. You might feel unnoticed or under this person’s shadow. There’s such a lack of passion in this pile, like this just seems like a connection y’all are just in just to be in it. I don’t claim this for you guys.

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POTENTIAL PROBLEMS?

I lied. This relationship is a bit toxic. I feel like a huge problem is a lack of privacy from your person. It’s giving the vibe of them not wanting you to lock doors around their house because you should be comfortable with them and they should know what you are doing 24/7. Yeah, no. Again, a power dynamic of feeling like you’re not in control. It feels as though you don’t get enough attention or appreciation from other people and you’re in their shadow. A lack of passion and emotional fulfillment could be possible, and I do see both of you, especially you, stepping out of the connection and seeking it somewhere else—basically infidelity. I see you both faking happiness with each other. I just feel monotony and, meh. I see that you might be afraid of leaving because you’re scared of leaving the foundation you’ve built with this person financially. This person can make you feel unnoticed and your self-esteem could plummet. It might come to a point where you might try to accept your lot and deal with it. It shouldn’t be that way though. I don’t see any children, I just see an unhappy marriage that’s just in it to look good. I seriously don’t claim this for any of you, for real. Good luck.

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LESSONS YOU WILL BOTH LEARN FROM EACH OTHER?

Your next partner will learn that pretending and putting up a facade isn’t going to make them happy. This person may be someone who can be superficial and a social climber, a bit of a puppet master. They are going realize that faking their reality or faking things about themselves isn’t going to make them anymore happier. It isn’t going to authentically complete them. They’ll learn they they cannot hold their facade any longer. They’ll learn to be less self-centered and think about more others and how they feel. They can be a bit controlling and bitter towards the women in their lives. They could have issues with the mother and treat the mother in that way. They’ll recognize that they have issues with the feminines in their life and will have to heal that. They can be spiteful as well because of how truly miserable they are in their superficial life, and they’ll learn that they are the cause of their unhappiness. Your person might learn to dabble into nature and the authentic things in life to ground themselves and connect to their higher selves and who they truly are. Perhaps dealing with animals or plants. Perhaps helping others with the intention of because they truly want to, not for an image.

You will learn to not let pride get in the way of moving on from the tragedies of your life. You’ll learn to forgive simply for yourself to move on and becoming a better person, not just for others. You’ll learn to be proud of yourself and to not be afraid to ask for love, appreciation, and attention. You will recognize you don’t need to be in anyone’s shadow anymore. You’ll have hope for yourself, and I’m also hearing a sense of justice as well. You’ll learn to establish stability for yourself and expand your horizons among others. You might travel more after this person, and even go back to college if you haven’t been to it already! I’m also hearing you might meet someone as soon as you leave this person. You might’ve gotten involved with them while with this person, what I’m also hearing. Your perspective on marriage might change as well. You’ll take marriage more seriously and make sure your real marriage is going to happen with the person you truly have passion and love for, and want a future with (I know that’s right) I do see you meeting someone after this person, like right after for some of you.

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[sunnynwanda]

Reaching out

"Villain, you're so scared of connection you do everything to make everyone stop liking you. It's not going to work on me. You can't make me hate you." Hero's voice was quiet - small as a whisper, yet their words echoed in Villain's head like tocsin in a belltower. It's not going to work on me.

Villain didn't manage to utter another word, their voice drowned by Hero's broad chest as strong arms enveloped Villain's frame. They struggled to stay unemotional and willed themselves to maintain whatever dignity they had left by focusing on breathing, using the pattern to contain the panic rising inside them. Just a few more seconds, so Hero does not figure it out.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Villain hated that out of everyone in their life, Hero was the one who actually bothered to look beneath the surface. To notice there was an issue, an inhibition of sorts. They pointedly ignored the warmth that spread across their chest at the thought of Hero thinking about them long enough of notice.

Hero never understood why Villain broke their hug so abruptly or why they never initiated contact, always staying at arm's length and stepping back whenever Hero came too close. There would be occasional touches when there was no way around it, but Villain would always cut it short. Five seconds or less. Too short - for Hero's liking, anyway.

As time went by however, Villain started leaning closer, lingering longer and even went so far as to touch Hero's shoulder with a bare hand once. Despite the sensation sending them into the pits of darkness deep within their being, Villain needed more. They craved more.

Villain got attached. Much to their horror and Hero's - although short-lived - delight. Hero was painfully aware of their lack of contact yet blissfully unaware of their struggles. They attributed the issue to Villain's being shy or - worse - not reciprocating the feelings that Hero harboured for the past months.

Villain's mentor always told them to wear their opponents out to make them reveal their weaknesses. This time, there was nothing intentional about it. Villain wasn't trying. They couldn't have predicted it. They got attached to Hero. Hero got attached to them. The type of attachment ended up being an issue.

They lasted longer than expected, and Villain wasn't sure if it was Hero's optimism or perseverance that fueled their determination. Possibly both. They couldn't handle the way Hero felt about them. They wanted to. They tried. Again and again. They would spend nights tossing and turning, convincing themselves it could work. They could get over their issues. They allowed Hero to hug them, right? They could learn to accept their touch and the feeling of their skin against their own. Maybe it would take time and effort, but they certainly could try. Time fixes everything. One step at a time.

Except it did not. Every time Hero held their gloved hand a second too long, Villain could feel their insides twisting into painful knots. A slight brush of fingertips against their cheekbones was enough to send their mind reeling. And the one time Hero made the mistake of kissing their forehead left them throwing up in an alleyway, unable to calm their stomach or heart.

Soon, Villain found themselves avoiding Hero's touch yet longing for their company, staring from afar yet averting their gaze as soon as they were noticed. Villain was falling and knew only one way of stopping before it was too late.

"I loathe you," Hero snarls, standing with their back to them.

It's not going to work on me.

"It worked," Villain whispers as the door shuts behind Hero's back, locking them inside their ascetic cell. It worked. Even if it took wounding Hero's shoulder and breaking their trust.

"But it doesn't mean I don't love you," Hero's voice is as quiet as it gets - a part of them wishes Villain wouldn't hear it.

"Stop." They mean to sound harsh, but their voice wobbles. Villain hates the effect Hero has on them with the entirety of their being. "Stop trying to make it work."

"Then stop trying to push me away," Hero counters, turning around. Their whole demeanour oozes conviction. The anticipated hatred is nowhere to be seen. "Or do it better."

Before Villain can react, they swing the cell door open, stepping out as they come face to face with their shocked nemesis. "How..?"

"Did you think that cell would be enough to contain me?" Hero questions, slowly approaching. "Or did you convince yourself hurting me would?"

Villain's brain seizes functioning completely. So much for locking them up.

"You could come up with something more cruel than that," Hero continues, keeping their hands behind their back to avoid triggering Villain. It took them way too long to put the puzzle pieces together. "Or you could let us try."

"You have no idea what you're talking about, Hero." Villain shakes their head but doesn't move away when Hero continues walking towards them.

"I think I do." Their confidence makes Villain want to scream, but they find no voice to do so. Why do they feel so fragile in Hero's presence?

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"It will take a lot of time," they sound drained of life, and if Hero didn't know better, they would hug Villain. They smile instead.

"I can wait." Villain meets their eyes for a moment before fixing their gaze on the extreme beauty of the wall behind Hero's back.

"And even then, I might never be fully normal again."

"I can handle that, Villain." Hero shrugs nonchalantly, stopping at a tolerable distance from Villain. "I've told you before. You can't make me stop liking you. It's not going to work on me."

They extend their arm and hold their hand with their palm up, waiting for whatever Villain decides. They register the quiver in their chest when Villain lifts their hands, sliding one glove off and intertwining their fingers with Hero's. Hero gives their fingers a gentle squeeze, beaming at them before letting go. Five seconds it is. Villain can't help the grin that finds its way onto their face when they pull the glove back on.

Breathe out.

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[earthtooz]

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hi hi just wanted to share smth I thought up

imagine chigiri who in middle school had a best friend who was also very fast and did track. They were the only one who could ever catch up with chigiri and thus they became best friends and their own sorta rivals.

Then suddenly fast track to chigiri's injury and now seeing their best friend who runs like wind and is now bitter af. He knows he shouldnt be bitter when they have been caring the whole time for him so he starts ignoring them.

some chigiri love will be shown on the earthtooz blog 2nite because i adore him and think he deserves the world.

i actually love this scenario, but just- oh my gosh, i want to add on to your thought with my own:

your 'relationship' with him is admittedly, one of your favourite ones, despite neither of you seeing much of each other during school. but you were known to be on the track team and chigiri for being the fasted sprinter on the soccer team.

and on the bleachers after practice, a friendship/friendly rivalry was born.

for two of the fastest people on their respective teams, your parents sure did not reciprocate that energy, taking their times picking you up from practice. thus, you would spend an unknown amount of time talking to him, bundled up in your sports tracksuits with your sports bag snug on your shoulder.

chigiri was pleasant company. a little stuck-up, sure, but fun to talk to nevertheless. you could tell he took great pride in being a fast runner, but as long as he had the skills to prove it, pride is something you can overlook. it was endearing. he still lost to you every time in a 100m sprint though.

you gave him tips one time. you'd never forgive yourself for helping chigiri almost beat you.

but you admire him for it. you admire his talent and his determination,

then suddenly, he's not at practice. he's not at school either. in fact, it's not a week later until you see him... with crutches and a boot. the look he gives you is empty and devoid of the usual friendliness he always shows you and he doesn't even make attempts of greeting you.

his mum picks him on time too.

you get the message that he doesn't want to talk to you. he doesn't make the effort to anymore, doesn't swing by your class during lunch time, doesn't say 'hi' to you before practice, and his coldness causes your heart to break in two.

people had always told you that distance makes the heart fonder. you found out yourself that the saying was as true as they make it sound, your heart jumping alive and filling you with unexplainable yearning. a feeling you later label as a crush. not that your crush on him could do much now.

you see him struggle in practices, witnessing the way the ball gets stolen off him- something that had never been done before, with such ease. he meets your gaze from where you were filling up your water and instantly glances away, ashamed.

the next time you hear of him after graduating middle school, he's on national television, going against the national u-20 soccer team, representing some... project called blue lock? you don't pay any mind to it though, sitting on the edge of your couch in anticipation. the world was watching chigiri hyoma- the prodigy you knew in middle school.

you panic a little when he gets subbed out and you're scrambling for your phone, searching for chigiri's contact. your old messages that were left on delivered appear, causing a subtle ache in your chest to manifest, but the first thing you send is an 'i'm watching the match. are you ok?'.

the next thing you send is a 'CONGRATULATIONS!' when his team wins.

you get a response an hour later, it's chigiri thanking you. his next text asks you to catch up over coffee. you agree as soon as the message is received.

one coffee 'date' turns into a day in harajuku. a walk together turns into visiting a local park and playing on the swing set, jokingly racing each other to each equipment and your feelings for him return full swing by the end of the two week break he has.

you spend his last day together. he tells you to keep an eye on him. that he'll become even better of a soccer player that either of you imagined in middle school. you make him keep the promise to you with a pinky promise. he agrees. you're satisfied.

and fast forward a few years, it's the night before the finals of the world cup and he's in your arms in the hotel room, self-care routine all done as you let him unwind with you in preparation for the big match tomorrow.

he tells you to watch him. that he'll bring home a medal for you. you make him pinky promise you. he agrees. he kisses your ring finger, where a precious gold band sits snugly, a reminder of his love and the years you have spent with the other.

thank u for ur ask !! sorry that i've been letting this one rot for a while but i've been waiting to get this one out since the day you sent it :D love the idea, thank u chaos!!

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[valriety]

SDV: Bachelor Words of Affirmation HCs~!

Post Type: Fluff, SFW, Platonic/Romantic x Reader, Cursing, Mentions of Family In Sam, Alex, Shane and Seb, Minor Angst.

Characters: Sam, Elliot, Harvey, Alex, Shane, and Sebastian.

GN Reader (You/Yours).

Hiya, here's some HCs for ya! I didn't really mean to, but some of these honestly turned out a little sad? Especially Shanes, I just think it would be a big source of inner struggle for him tbh. But, I hope you like these! Lemme know what you think :D

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Sam:

Usually pretty good at getting his feelings across.... except for when he has to say it. The enthusiasm is there! But his delivery is off, and he gets sidetracked - either unknowingly, or because he's anxious about what he wants to say.

Someone will be mid conversation with him, when suddenly - without warning - he'll start talking a mile-a-minute, stuttering through all his words and making multiple semi-related side points, before finally, he says what he wanted to say.

He's a bit starved on the recieving end? Unfortunately, affirmation and verbal affection isn't made a big deal out of in his family - especially on his parent's end. So, instead he'll usually get a lot of it from Abigail and Seb. The three of them are all pretty close, having known eachother for ages, so they know exactly what makes eachother happy :,)

When you become friends, get prepared for the endless questions about your farm and it's upkeep that he's about to unleash upon you. He's thinks you're so cool for it, and isn't shy about letting you know.

Tries so hard to be one of those cool and confident friends, who sorta adopts you and teaches you about fitting into the valley. His effort.... is uh, noted...

If he has a crush on you, he starts trying really hard to stand out, by showing you just how much he's listened to and learnt from everything you've said - even if it was just in passing. Wants to see the efforts of your hobbies, and will think it's pretty neat no matter what it is. Gets super excited about your music tastes.

Has the same reaction to any compliment ever. Gets all blushy, and has this goofy grin on his face as he reaches a hand to rub at the back of his neck. Cannot make eye contact for the life of him. Gets even more flustered if its you too <3

Elliot:

Natural talker. Probably came out of the womb a master of knowing about social cues and articulating feelings lol.

He compliments everyone, at anytime, and on everything. But somehow, it's never excessive? Can be subtle or overt with it too. Loves when it gets reciprocated,

Amazing at giving advice too. He's just one of those people, y'know? He's approachable, easy to open up to, and never judges, so a lot of people come to him when they need a second opinion.

He's a bit of a rock in alot of his relationships... which is a lovely thing to be, and he loves being someone others can rely on! But, it gets a little overwhelming for him sometimes, and he has a hard time taking his own advice. Just wants someone he can rely on.

He's already in your corner by the time you become friends, after all, he can relate to you! Elliot knows what it's like being new to the Valley and having to navigate fitting in, so he understands that having to build the farm from the ground up must be an incredibly hard thing to do. He thinks you're amazing for it, and makes sure to let you know.

So helpful if you're anxious about meeting others and making new friends, reassuring you that they'll like you just as much as he does, and giving you hints as to what they like.

If he develops a crush on you, then he'll start being a little more romantic and flirty when it comes to his affirmation. Not subtle about it either - he likes you, and he's not ashamed or shy if you figure it out.

Writes poems for you all the time, and would love to read one of these for you whilst playing his piano for backing <3

Harvey:

Despite how shy he can sometimes get, he's actually pretty good at this! His job requires him to be able to give helpful, level-headed advice, but he also just kinda has an affinity for it. Affirmation comes easily to him, so at this point, it really just comes down to whether or not he has the courage to say it.

Another person who is very easy to open up to and has good advice - though, he's also just a very good active listener, recalling minor details about things that had been said even in passing. Is one of the only people who Shane trusts enough to talk about what's going on for him internally.

Has an amazing support on the recieving end in the form of his co-worker, Maru, and when neither of them have any work to do, they'll take a break and talk over a cup of coffee - giving eachother ample time and space to talk, and their piece.

Is not at all starved for compliments, recieving praise almost everyday from his friends and patients. Everyone's very grateful for him and all that he does.

If you're friends, he plays a very subtle and supportive role. Notices a lot about you, including the stuff you say, but also the physical stuff - like if you seem to be tired, or in pain. Always makes sure that you know he's there for you, if you ever needed him to be.

If he has a crush on you, he tries his best not to let it affect anything about the way he affirms you. He cares about you alot, so he would hate to change things or shy away simply to avoid being as flustered by you.

Starts making an effort to compliment you on the more personal things, like how pretty you look in your outfit, or how happy it makes him to see how happy you look today. Gets so embarrassed when he does this <3

Alex:

Ooh, definitely not his strongest point, that's for sure. He just doesn't often really get the urge for it, and even when he does, he struggles with finding the right words for it.

Amazing at it when it comes to the physical stuff though! He knows alot about physique and discipline, so if anyone's looking for tips with training, building stamina, or even just need someone to be enthusiastic about it with them - then he's your guy! 10/10 hypeman and personal trainer.

Very close with his grandparents, and while he does struggle a bit with letting them know how he feels about them sometimes, it's not as difficult for him as it is with others. Recieves a lot from them on the reciprocal side, so he's not really too starved for it on that front, though he does wish for a similar sort of relationship with some of his friends.

Another one of his strong points, is that if you're friends, and he has something to say, he will say it. He likes your outfit? He'll tell you. He thinks you look like you've gotten a bit stronger lately? He's letting you know right now. His delivery may be a little off sometimes, and it may not come out exactly the way he meant it - but he truely does means well.

Once he realises he has a crush on you, he realises that he may have been holding out with the compliments he wanted to give you in the past - often watering them down or moving on because he didn't really know what the right words were.

He's trying to be more patient and trusting of himself, after all, he knows he has the words, he just needs a bit more time to think and be sure about them. Does his best to express how he feels to you from now on <3

Shane:

Another one of his weak points. For the most part, Shane prefers to be left alone by others, so he tries not to go against the grain, in case others get the wrong idea.

Secretly though, it's not that he's bad at it. He's not dense, and can admit that the people around him honestly are pretty cool sometimes, or that the way someone dressed looked good on them recently. But he'll move on from those thoughts quite quickly, and he certainly won't say it.

Shane likes to believe that he doesn't need anything like that for himself. But really, it's actually something that he desperately craves - latching internally onto even the smallest of comments whenever he recieves them, even if he externally shows distaste for it.

Doesn't trust himself to give advice, so usually just tries to listen instead if he ends up in those situations. Harvey is probably one of his only reciprocal relationships in this regard, and though it's only really in private that they talk, Shane reckons somehow they understand eachother quite well.

It takes a while for Shane to get used to people, so if you become friends, just be patient. He might be a little stand-offish about any compliments or affirmation you give him at first, but he can't deny that he doesn't crave that sort of platonic intimacy with someone, and eventually he'll start easing more into it. As you grow closer, he might even reciprocate.

If he did develop one, then by the time he realised he had a crush on you, he'd probably be a lot more comfortable with affirmation. Looks out for you in his own way, listening to your struggles, and offering to help out where he can, even if it's just to lessen the load.

He writes you letters sometimes. Mostly about what he struggles to tell you, but also just about how thankful he is for you. He's never sent one though, hiding them away in a drawer instead. Thinks he'll read them to you eventually, at least, when he feels a little stronger <3

Sebastian:

Sebastian is pretty quiet and attentive, content with being on the sidelines, and just sorta... observing. He's also blunt. Like, really blunt... and a bit angsty, which is what most people tend to expect from him.

So when he does speak up, to give a compliment or reassure - whatever it is, it usually comes as a bit of a surprise to people. Because he's very sparing with his affection, saving it for only those who he's closest too, and because he'll say the sweetest, most thoughtful things as if it were simply just common sense.

He's not close whatsoever with his family, and he's especially closed-off from Demetrius. But at least with Robin and Maru, he does recognise how hard they work, and attempts to put in a little effort every now and again.

Sorta helpful with advice? He tends to keep to himself, so he doesn't have too much transferable knowledge, but he's very good at listening, and he's even better at helping others to work through their feelings. Is usually the first person Sam or Abigail go to when they need a bit of reassurance.

People tend to be a little intimidated by him, so he's a little starved for verbal affection. He tries to be content with it.

If you're friends, it may take him a little while to speak up to you, but he'll be really happy if you notice something about him - especially if it's about his work, since he's so used to other's dismissing it. Thinks it an absolute joy to hear you so kindly affirm his efforts like that, and finds himself feeling a lot closer to you after that.

If he has a crush on you, I can see him getting really sentimental with some of the things he says to you when you're alone together. Flirts alot more too, though sometimes he'll play it off as a joke.

Offers to take you on rides to all sorts of places, and flirts seriously with you when you get there, way more than he usually does too. He's also a little shit (/affectionate lol), so he thinks it's amusing if he manages to make you flustered <3

A/N: These were kinda difficult ngl! But I had so much fun with these - especially Shane and Sebastian. I think those two especially would have the most unique experiences with this love language, so I had a lot of ideas for them and really tried to play into it :) - Lemme know what you thought!

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can you make a fic where natasha comes back tired from a mission and finds her girlfriend asleep on her bed with black widow merch (like she wearing a black widow hoodie and holding a teddy bear that wears a tiny version of nat suit)

Always A Fangirl

word count: 915

pairing: Natasha Romanoff x fem reader

warnings: none, lmk if i need to add any

A/N: hope you enjoy!! :D

Everyone loved and adored the Avengers. You'd be lying if you said you hadn't grown up being a fan of them, going to every event possible.

When Black Widow made eye contact with you at an event, you thought your heart would burst out of your chest.

But when a chemical explosion gave you superpowers, and you were approached about being part of the Avengers yourself, your heart practically did burst out of your chest.

Now, you'd be training and saving the world with the people you'd looked up to for years. You were still convinced that you were dreaming.

A few months in, reality finally settled. You were in fact an Avenger. You got fighting lessons from Natasha, Steve, Bucky, and Sam. Meanwhile, Wanda and Carol helped you learn to control your powers.

Of course, it was rather difficult at first. You had virtually no experience, and didn't want to disappoint. But instead of disappointment, you were met with encouragement. The more time you spent with them, the better you got.

After spending a few more months with the Avengers, your celebrity crush became your actual crush. You made every effort to show your feelings to Natasha, and hope that there was any possible chance that they were reciprocated. Wanda and Peter would come up with the most extravagant plans that ended with you and Natasha together, but you were too afraid to follow through.

That is until, you saved her life on a mission and she kissed you in gratitude.

From then on, the two of you were together and inseparable. You didn't love her for the same reasons as before, though. You didn't love her for the way she posed for magazines, and waved to crowds.

Instead, you loved her for the look in her eyes when she was happy. You loved her for her smile, her laugh, the way she pressed her eyebrows together when she was getting annoyed, the way she squeezed your hand right before missions. You loved her for how she loved and cared for her family, considering she really was the one who held everyone together.

You loved her, and that was all that mattered. And she loved you just as much.

So now, she was finally coming back from a month-long mission. She was supposed to be coming back tomorrow, but fully intended on surprising you tonight.

Currently, you were asleep in your shared bedroom. You stayed up late watching movies, but fell asleep around 2:00 AM.

When Natasha quietly opened the door, she couldn't help but smile at the sight.

The dark room was lit only by your laptop, which still played the sounds of the movie. You were under the covers laying on your side, completely knocked out.

She brought her hand to your face, gently rubbing her thumb against your cheek.

"Hi, detka," she said softly, in that voice you adored so much.

Luckily for her, it didn't take long for you to begin stirring. You let out a small groan before rolling onto your back.

"Y/N/N, it's me," she told you.

When it finally registered to you that your girlfriend was home, your eyes shot open. You practically threw your arms around her as soon as you sat up.

"Natty," you breathed into her neck as you hugged her tighter. She chuckled against you, hugging you just as tight.

When you broke apart, you wasted no time in capturing her lips in a soft kiss. Of course, it was intended to be short and quick. But seeing as you hadn't seen her in over a month, you couldn't help but allow her tongue to explore your mouth.

"I missed you so much," you said.

Natasha didn't reply. Instead, she kissed you again. She missed you too, and wanted to show you how much.

When you broke apart for air, that's when she finally noticed your clothes.

"Detka..." she said, prompting you to tilt your head to the side in confusion. "What are you wearing?"

That's when it hit you; you were wearing your Black Widow hoodie you've had since long before you became an Avenger. And to make matters worse, there was a Black Widow teddy bear on your pillow.

Blood rushed to your face as a smile crept upon hers. You couldn't be more embarrassed; you had never told Natasha that you were a fan of hers, let alone had merch.

Meanwhile, she thought the sight of her girlfriend wearing her merch was adorable.

You stared at each other in silence for a few moments.

"I'm sorry," "Why didn't you tell me?"

You both said at the same time. Her smile faded into a look of concern.

"Why would you be sorry?"

"I dunno, it might seem weird that I was like... a Black Widow fangirl before joining the team. And now I'm dating Black Widow, and you never knew."

"It's not weird! It's adorable, plus, you look really cute wearing that hoodie."

Your cheeks felt warm once again, just as her smile grew bigger.

"So you're not like... weirded or creeped out or anything?" You asked.

"Of course not," she said, bringing her hand up to your face.

"Oh..."

"Yeah!" She said. "I just wish I knew sooner, 'cause you look good in that,"

You laughed in amusement, smiling as she pulled you into her lap.

"Now that you're back, I won't be needing the Widow Teddy Bear,"

"No. He stays."

You laughed.

"Okay, he stays."

"Good."

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[coraniaid]

The thing I find frustrating about Dead Man’s Party is that it’s almost a very good episode.  In fact for the first thirty or so minutes I’d argue that it actually is a very good episode.

As with Anne, there’s been a definite jump in production standards compared to the first two seasons.  Things look really good this season.  And there are lots of nice individual moments to this episode, most of them involving Giles.  That minute when he’s alone in the kitchen, where you can see how relieved he is to have Buffy back, before he visibly makes an effort to compose himself again.  Hotwiring his own car to escape a zombie outbreak.  “Do you like my mask?  Isn’t it pretty?  It raises the dead.  Americans!”  Threatening Snyder at the end to make him accept Buffy back in school. (Principal Snyder’s great in this episode too, actually.)  

And – although I’m pretty sure this is the last we’ll ever hear of it – learning that one of Willow’s first forays into magic over the summer involved an unsuccessful attempt to “communicate with the spirit world” does fit in nicely with the popular fandom take that Willow got into magic, in part, because of how much she missed Jenny Calendar. I mean, who exactly in the spirit world are we meant to assume Willow was trying to contact, anyway? And I like the spooky dream sequence with Buffy wandering a deserted high school. I like the little ominous dropped hints about the Mayor.

Plus, as a big fan of accidental foreshadowing, I think it’s neat that only a few seconds after trying to tell Buffy how important magic is to her now Willow cheerfully says [admittedly about something else entirely] that “it’s like a drug!”.  I even enjoy the monster of the week plot – as metaphors go it’s not subtle, but thirty-six episodes into the series we probably shouldn’t be expecting subtle.  Why would the writers start now?

But then there’s the last fifteen minutes.  Or, really, just two pivotal scenes in those last fifteen minutes.  This is the part that I’d struggle to argue is very good.  Or even to argue isn’t very bad.  And unfortunately I think the whole episode stands or falls on the strength (or otherwise) of these scenes.  They’re the foundation on which the whole episode rests.  And they don’t work for me at all.

Now, granted, it definitely makes sense that things between Buffy and her friends and family would be strained after she gets back.  She’s been gone for months, she never wrote or called any of them, and we saw just last episode how much they all missed her.   Having things be tense and weird and uncomfortable was absolutely the right choice for this episode.  That’s part of why the first thirty minutes work in the first place.

The problem, I think, is that there’s a disconnect between the arguments and events the episode shows us happening and the conclusions it seems to want us to come to.  Yes, it makes sense that things are weird and uncomfortable, but the episode comes down very heavily in favor of the idea that Buffy was somehow uniquely in the wrong for running away from town last season and needs to tell everyone how sorry she is, even though what it actually shows us is a Buffy who is desperately trying to get back in touch with her friends after the worst few months of her life while they make no effort to reciprocate, deliberately make plans to avoid talking to her, gossip about her behind her behind her back, and … well, be Xander. 

(I still do think Buffy and Xander’s friendship over the course of the show is really well done and really important, but on the basis of this episode alone I don’t understand why Buffy even lets him speak to her.  Why exactly is he being written as her disappointed step-dad in this episode?)

Granted, Buffy is not entirely blameless here.  At the start of the episode, she’s the one to shut down the others’ first efforts to talk about where she’s been for the past three months (although, equally, they’re all very quick to give up on those efforts once they’ve been rebuffed).  And she does keep telling people they “wouldn’t understand” what she’s been through while clearly expecting them to do exactly that.  And you can see why Willow and Joyce would be upset by finding Buffy in her room packing to leave again; it’s a good bit of characterisation that they’re both united in being glad she’s back while struggling with how to show it and secretly terrified she’s not going to stay. 

But I don’t think it’s possible to watch the big argument just before the zombies break in and think that Buffy herself is the only one who is in the wrong here and that she’s the one who needs to apologize, or that Willow is the one “being a grown-up” and  demonstrating “moral superiority”. And yet that seems to be exactly the position that the final scene of the episode tells us we’re meant to accept: Buffy did something wrong, we’re told, and Willow is within her rights as the wronged party to tease her about it a bit, so Buffy has to sit there and “take her lumps”.

Even though I don’t believe this was the case, it almost feels like these two scenes were written by two different people: that the big argument in the party was written by one person, perhaps assuming that it was going to turn out that Buffy’s friends were being influenced by the mysterious evil mask and so didn’t really have to stay completely in character for this scene, and that the closing scene was written by somebody who only heard the vaguest outline of what happened earlier in the episode but has been assured that Buffy needed to apologize about it.

Neither of the scenes really works in isolation, but taken together they are almost incoherent.  And as I said at the start, what’s infuriating is that this was so close to being a very good episode.  I think the problems with both these scenes are really easy to fix!  

This is the time Buffy should have brought up Xander’s Lie – instead of just standing there when Xander smugly tells her that “most girls don’t hop on a Greyhound over boy troubles”, have her point out that she had to kill her boyfriend, and that Xander (and, as far as Buffy knows, Willow too!) were cheering her on to do it the whole time.  As it is, the whole episode passes by without anyone talking about Angel’s fate at all, which is just really odd.  They don’t even ask if he’s alive! For all they know, he got his soul back and he’s going to show up at the party they’re planning!

And while you’re rewriting this scene, you should make the fight as a whole a little bit less one-sided! Maybe have Buffy say some things she should actually apologize for (beyond snapping at Cordelia a little bit).  Let her be mean!  We’ve seen this side of her before, after all.  Let her be angry!  And let the rest of the group argue amongst themselves a bit more, rather than just having everyone team up against Buffy (no, Cordelia’s attempt to put herself into Buffy’s shoes hardly counts).  Have Willow be horrified to learn that Xander didn’t pass on her message back in Becoming.  Have Xander be appalled to find out that Joyce told Buffy not to come back.  (Are we really meant to think that Xander, whose own family has already implied to be less than stellar if not explicitly abusive, would just be okay with that?)  Make Cordelia’s defense of Buffy a little bit less hollow and insulting.  Give Oz something substantial to do!  (Spoiler warning: the writers will never give Oz anything substantial to do.)  Have Buffy’s return cause long-standing tension in the group to boil over more generally, rather than just having everyone treat Buffy awfully in her own home and then be indignant that she’s not thrilled to be back.

And there’s absolutely nothing wrong with Buffy apologizing for not being around for Willow over the summer at the end of the episode.  I think she pretty much has to, actually.  And I do think that Willow’s “I didn’t have anyone to talk to [..] and you were my best friend” moment is well done, although again it’s slightly incongruous that Willow thinks her own “serious dating” problems are as important as the fact that Buffy had to send her boyfriend to hell.  But the stuff about Willow enjoying being a grown-up and reveling in her “moral superiority?”?  Nothing we see in the episode supports this at all!  Willow was being at least as childish as Buffy.  Cut that line out and just have Willow apologize too!  Let her acknowledge that standing Buffy up earlier wasn’t great, and that the surprise hootenanny might not have been a good idea!  Have her commiserate with her friend about losing Angel, maybe even have her apologize for the fact her spell didn’t work (because you probably want to set up the reveal next episode that it did).  Then, if you want to, you can go into the trading mock-insults bit (although, honestly, some of them … don’t seem to make any sense?  Why is Buffy calling Willow a tramp, exactly? How does that follow from the previous conversation at all?)

Couple more thoughts:

As much as I don’t think the big argument scene itself works, I love the fact that kids start slipping out of the door as soon as Buffy tells her mother that “you found out who I really was and you couldn’t deal.”  I hope at least some of them survived the zombies waiting right outside.

Early in the episode, Joyce calls Buffy “a superhero” then nervously asks “is that the right term?  It’s not offensive, is it?”  Back in Becoming, she questioned if Buffy had “tried not being a slayer” and wondered if the problem was that Buffy “didn’t have a strong father figure”.  Next episode she will assure Buffy that she’s tried to march in “the Slayer Pride Parade”.  It’s good to know that, as per the creator of the show, all these various lines mean nothing and have no significance or deeper subtext.

Notwithstanding what I’ve said in the past about the increasingly predictable fates of middle-aged women on this show and despite the fact I really like the idea of Joyce having any friends, Pat is genuinely a horrible person and it’s really hard not to be glad that she dies.  Personally, I think Buffy should’ve gotten to hit her with a shovel even before the whole demonic possession thing happened.

I liked the zombie cat.

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CHARMS + LEPRECHAUN ROMANCE

It’s been a while since I took a serious look at leprechaun romance and charms, so I took another run at it and changed a few things, details under the cut!

I will include details previously outlined in my last post that haven’t changed to consolidate information. GENERALIZED DETAILS:

Charmer - and individual involved in a charm, or a potential charm partner. Can be referred to as “my charmer” or “charm-mate” as a synonym, or as their charm, such as “my Moons” as an endearment or equivalent of saying “kismesis” or “boyfriend”.  Finding someone “charming” implies that you carry charmed feelings for them, or feel as though someone is beginning to inspire charmed feelings.

Vacillating a charm doesn’t really exist in the same way as it does for quadrants. Leprechaun romance is not exactly volatile so much as it is niche and very specific, and since charms can coexist, if feelings shift they may not break a charm and enter a new one, rather than simply create an additional charm.

Dancing is considered flirtatious and can be adjacent to foreplay, and since music can be danced to, it is given an air of suggestiveness as well, though not consistently. The culture of Midnight City gives the leprechauns a tolerance for it and widens their understanding of what music can be and how it can be enjoyed without certain implications. Mixing more than one charm makes relationships more complicated, and depending on the particular mix of charms, there may be contradictions that make little sense! This isn’t abnormal. Being in more than one charm is sometimes referred to as being “in a bracelet”, as in a charm bracelet. Charm bracelets are actually given as gifts sometimes between charm-mates as symbols of devotion or adherence to a charm, almost like a wedding ring- but leprechauns have no understanding of human-typical marriage. Having more than three charms in a bracelet with your charm-mate is considered unstable, and codependent. Plurality in relationships is considered default, and only having one charm-mate who fulfills more than three charm needs is considered too dependent and singular- although this still happens anyway, and can be done healthily with some effort. CHARMS:

Hearts: This charm is the closest to human love and matespritship. The most important part of Hearts as a charm is reciprocity. One-sidedness is considered unhealthy, and inherently Heartless. Meaningful emotional connections, comfort with one another, and intimacy of multiple kinds are standard. Somewhat invokes the idea of “soulmates”, if only for the similarity between the symbol for the Soul aspect and the symbol for the charm. Charm-breakers: one-sidedness, lack of interpersonal understanding.

Moons: This charm invokes the idea of a relationship built on a lack of consistency, as the moon goes through phases. Feelings may become stronger or weaker and change with regularity. There is a type of orbit and magnetism invoked, and the Moons charm is the one most often formed through distance, whether physical or a simple lack of engagement. Mutual absence while in a Moons charm is considered healthy and normal. This is a common charm to form a bracelet with, but without a bracelet, Moons are often intellectually close and tangle philosophically over all else. Interfacing over ideas and perspectives, and non-charm-related topics or activities such as interests and hobbies are integral. Sometimes the Moon charm is dependent on those hobbies and interests, and will wax and wane in tandem. Charm-breakers: consistent communication and contact, regular frequency of interactions, disinterest in the internal life of partner.

Stars: Starstruck can sometimes be an accurate term for those in a Stars charm. The primary emotions evoked by someone’s Stars charm-mate would be adoration and reverence, and an encompassing respect. This can be based around personality, ability or skill, appearance, etc. This charm is commonly one-sided, and can dip into worshipful infatuation and a parasocial understanding of one’s charm-mate. Notably, that dynamic is not considered a Charm-breaker, to a degree which many non-leprechauns and even leprechauns outside of the specific charm may find unhealthy or concerning. Stars charms rarely break without a hard conversation and explicit establishment of boundaries. Someone caught as the subject of a one-sided Stars charm may feel overwhelmed or undeserving of the respect they’re given, but if they begin to feel like their personal space or privacy is violated, they must set boundaries and contain or dissolve the charm, or it will become unhealthy. Charm-breakers: disrespect, intense discomfort, dangerous manipulation.

Clovers: The Clovers charm comes naturally, and charm-mates bring out the best in one another. The charm is playful, low-effort, and high impact. If a charmer needs to do a lot of work to make their Clovers happy, it’s considered a failure of the charm. It should be effortless, smooth-sailing, and involve little to no negative emotions prompted by the charm. Misunderstandings should not happen- so too much explicit communication is considered unnecessary, and borderline charm-breaking. Charm-breakers: awkwardness, dissatisfaction, interpersonal conflict, negativity. Diamonds: The Diamonds charm requires a thick skin. It’s grating, harder and meaner than any other charm, and is the closest equivalent to kismesissitude. It is meant to be a charm of catharsis, for getting emotions and energy out of one’s system in a healthy, safe environment, where everyone involved understands the risks. If someone gets cut, it’s expected, and should be negotiated. A Diamonds charm is inherently conflict-intense, and can be physically taxing, emotionally draining, and exhausting- this is the goal. Meetings between a healthy Diamonds charm should result in relief of some kind- if it doesn’t, that drifts towards an unhealthy relationship, but does not risk breaking the charm. Someone in a Diamonds charm will often involve their Balloons charm if they have one- where their Balloons charm will provide any physical comfort or attention that may be needed after meeting with a Diamonds. Charm-breakers: conflict avoidance, fatal intent, violation of boundaries, gaslighting/guilt-tripping about agreed-upon behaviors. Lack of catharsis.

Horseshoes: This charm is not the closest to moirallegience, but could be mistaken for one only in its occasional resemblance to human platonic friendship, which can then be mistaken for moirallegience. It is a wildly low stakes charm, and “polyshoes” are very common. There is typically a lack of intense physicality or complex commitments, and this charm is easily formed and easily broken depending on things as simple as a scheduling conflict, because of how low-stakes it is as a charm. The phrase “hold your horses” is invoked as a sort-of equivalent to “friendzoning”, where one is essentially told by a charm-mate that they are exclusively interested in Horseshoes, turning down an offer to expand into a bracelet. This usually implies a lack of interest in physical intimacy, or even the vaguest sense of monamory that leprechauns consider possible. Charm-breakers: jealousy, possessiveness, fixation on monamory.

Balloons: This charm is the closest equivalent to the quadrant of moirallegience that exists. It’s built primarily on emotional support and emotional intimacy, vulnerability, and an almost therapeutic dynamic. This can be one-sided and still be healthy. Respite and recuperation are often prioritized, and as a result those who are in particularly voracious Diamonds charms may seek out Balloons as a counterweight. Expressions of affection can range from encouraging someone to take care of themself- eating and showering, to giving medical aid or physical reassurance when a charm-mate has been injured, or allowing a charm-mate to vent and giving advice. This can sometimes result in codependency, or over-reliance on a Balloons charm for emotional regulation, but this does not technically break the charm. It simply must come from a place of genuine care- manipulation should be kept out of it. If those behaviors are discovered, this almost immediately pops a Balloon. Charm-breakers: gaslighting, conflict or hostility.

Rainbows: A Rainbows charm is often like lightning in a bottle. They are fleeting and circumstantial relationships, rarely meant to be filled for long periods of time, or by the same person for such a period. Starting a Rainbows charm typically shows an understanding that a relationship will not last long, or involve a serious long-term commitment. Despite that, they can be very beautiful and passionate relationships, all but enhanced by their briefness. The only way to maintain a lasting Rainbows is by changing circumstances and dynamics to create a new temporary state that facilitates a renewal of Rainbows. Charm-mates for Rainbows may be recurrent, where they break and form a Rainbows charm over and over as their special circumstances repeat, but they do not carry that charm between down-periods, somewhat unlike the Moons charm. Charm-breakers: desire for permanence, clingy-ness past the expiration of the relationship, desire for commitment. 

Pot o’ Gold: Gold as a charm is very transactional, and business-esque. It can often be very fixated on value, and what you and your partner bring to the relationship outside of the relationship itself. You value what your partner brings to the relationship- sometimes a service, sometimes assets, sometimes knowledge or skills. It can be said as a joke, but its fully possible the added value of a partner is dental. This charm is usually more serious, but to be healthy, must be reciprocal- all participants must bring something to the relationship- it cannot be one-sided. Respect, like in the Stars charm, is very important- but unlike the Stars charm, it must be mutual. Charm-breakers: Lack of respect, one-sidedness, extortion/exploitation of labor or emotions. ADDITIONAL DETAILS:

Some certain charm bracelets can have unique titles, or invoke particular phrases. If exploring a bracelet of Diamonds-Horseshoes, you will be commonly asked if youre “playing Balloon darts”, and some may be asked if theyre “into Balloon popping”- the idea that someone finds it gratifying to form and then break Balloons charms out of sadistic enjoyment. A Balloons-Gold relationship is sometimes referred to colloquially as “work-wives”, or one’s partner as their “work wife”. 

A Diamonds-Moons charm will often be called a “blood moon”- both in the likelihood of a meeting between charm-mates being particularly intense, and the rarity with which it occurs. Diamonds-Horseshoes bracelets are often associated with the term “bloodsport”, and accurately, some who partake in this bracelet engage in duels as expressions of their charm. One-sided Star-(Other Charm) bracelets are often called “star-crossed”, and can take on an interesting sense of Shakespearian Longing- This is seen in Matchsticks and Crowbar, with Matchsticks’s one-sided Stars charm accompanying their mutual Moons.

Eggs and Biscuits are seen as codependent and risking breaking their bracelet by the other leprechauns- as they have a Balloons-Horseshoes-Clovers-Hearts bracelet, which is one too many charms. Luckily, they get along so well and spend so much time together that the have so far made it work.

Trace, Fin, and Itchy all carry Stars for Sleuth- particularly because they are especially vulnerable to Sleuth’s non-stop and habitual posturing as hard-boiled and badass, which all three of them have a hard time seeing through. Sleuth does not notice this.

I’m always willing to answer questions about this stuff! Pop in an ask for any kind of elaboration on bracelets, or curiosities!

#hs intermission #problem sleuth #the felt #leprechaun romance #trace three #fin seven #itchy one #crowbar seven #matchsticks eleven #biscuits thirteen #eggs twelve #charm stuff #shippy stuff #headcanons #long post #LOOONG. post #AUGHHHH. so LONG

[chirpsythismorning]

Will Byers Analysis - Between S3 & 4

Something I always think about, is how Will probably didn't even know Mike and El were back together at the end of season 3.

When they had last spoke, part of Will probably thought Mike was talking about something else, which is understandable bc both him and Mike were speaking in code, whether they realized it or not (I didn’t say it/You didn’t have to).

At the very least, Will thought things could go back to how they used to between them; friends (best friends).

When the Byers arrived to Cali, I imagine within the first day, or within the first few days after they settled, it was most likely Jonathan who made the move to phone the Wheelers to talk to Nancy.

Then maybe Will decided he would call Mike once the phone was free or even asked Jonathan to have Nancy just hand the phone to Mike so they could catch up too.

But once Mike got on the phone, something was off. He sounded kind of distant and awkward and it left Will feeling confused.

Maybe Will tried to chock it up as them just needing to get used to living far away from each other, since this distance thing was indeed new for them. They'd been friends for the last decade and hadn't experienced being apart for longer than a week (the week of his disappearance). So, it was bound to be a little weird, for a little while. Right?

But honestly, just thinking about their fight in s3 and the events leading up to it, I wouldn't blame Will for being slightly worried.

Before the rain fight, Will was putting almost all of the time and effort into their relationship. He was fighting for it and Mike was leaving him behind. And that really hurt Will.

And that's what's honestly so incredible about Will's arc in s4, because he's not putting himself through that again.

Yes, he's growing up and he's matured, but he's also come to accept that, based on Mike's actions as of recent (despite what he might have sensed from Mike over the years), those romantic feelings he has for him will NEVER be reciprocated. If he's lucky, Mike will still want to be his friend, and he would be relieved to stay in his life in that way if it's something Mike still wants.

(Which also makes the GA's argument about how they think Will's arc in s5 is going to be about him accepting that Mike will never love him back, fall flat??? Because, Will's already realized that, sis. S4 ending the way it did was in part to make as clear as possible to Will (the unreliable narrator) that Mike cannot love him that way... And so why the hell would s5 confirm that for a second (3) time now? Where is the shock? Where is the value? What is satisfying about that? And why do that, while also holding off on Mike finding out about Will's feelings until the very end? Like... just let that simmer for a second and think about what that actually means in terms of the story going in a satisfying direction that also manages to surprise you... there is literally nothing satisfying about proving Will 'I'm not gonna fall in love' Byers, right...)

So, after about a week since they last spoke on the phone since arriving, a bunch of letters come in the mail: one for Jonathan, four for El, and three for Will (you can probably guess who from the party didn't send a letter to Will...).

And it's as if Will's worst fears are being (re)realized.

In his casual letter exchanges between the party, he talks about DnD and a new art class he's taking with Dustin, joining the basketball team with Lucas and how everything she'd told him about California was right with Max. Super casual catching up with some of his best friends. And yet still, nothing from Mike, arguably his best friend.

And so Will is understandably devastated.

He doesn't understand. Or maybe he does, he just didn't want to believe it.

And so, how Will chose to go about his contact with Mike over the next 'year' makes sense to me (and I support him fully tbh).

I think Will's arc in s4 is beautiful because he has some of the best development of anyone on the entire show. He's not the gay kid being used as a plot device for a heterosexual couple (stay tuned for s5). If anything, we're seeing this character who tried his best to mend his friendship with his best friend (also secret first love) after Mike presumably rejected him (ITS NOT MY FAULT YOU DON'T LIKE GIRLS!), and so, Will is not going to put himself through that again.

He's not going to let himself have hope that there could ever be something more between them, even if he thought so many times before there were moments or signs that Mike could feel the same (BC MIKE DID!!). He has already accepted it's not possible.

He's not going to 'stand in the way' anymore. If Mike wants to be with El, he's going to support them, even if it hurts him and his own feelings.

It's tragic, but it feels so in character for Will and his qualities as a person.

I know a lot of bylers argue that both Mike and Will were in the wrong when it came to them both not staying in touch, and I do agree, completely actually. Especially knowing Mike tried to call Will. HE TRIED. So it's not like he didn't. The miscommunication trope is doing it's magic. We just have to accept that.

And so, fittingly, when confronted, Mike doesn't tell Will he called (a lot). He lets Will think that he barely called and deflects and pushes it back on Will. But then almost instantly, he regrets it. Because it's in this moment he's only now realizing that Will did want to talk and missed him and is quite literally confused why they're not best friends any more. And suddenly it's all clicking. He knows deep down Will has every reason to be insecure, to not reach out to Mike after what happened last summer. It's just that he also thought Will had every right to move on because why wouldn't he, what's so great about Mike? Will could have anyone? Mike was so distracted by his own insecurities that Will had inevitably moved on, while also trying to hide his feelings, that he didn't realize Will actually did miss him. They've both got it all wrong.

As of now, we don’t know for sure if Will called at all, and so me assuming he called first, is just that, an assumption. But I’m giving Will the benefit of the doubt here. (It's also likely the Byers would have called the Wheeler's first because they know their number by heart most likely, while the Wheelers would've had to wait to get their new number).

Based on the story presented though (Will's unreliable narrator POV), he had a lot more reason to doubt Mike wanted anything to do with him. Will literally spent all of s3 fighting for their friendship, even if it meant coming off as slightly clingy and annoying and ‘childish’. And look how that turned out?

What else was Will to do in this situation? Just repeat all of his behavior in s4?

Was he just supposed to call Mike first, write him letters first, even though Mike was showing repeat signs of wanting to distance himself from him again?

And so, Will waits. He waits for Mike to make the next move, just in case his insecurities are right and that Mike doesn't want them to be best friends like they used to be.

One evening, about a month since the move, the phone rings and Will answers it. It's Mike.

Will is obviously surprised and thrilled. They talk for a bit, and yeah it's awkward. But still, it gives Will hope.

Now, it's still not enough to give Will the confidence to reach out first, fearing he'll come off too strong and scare Mike away again, and so he continues to give Mike space. But that doesn't stop this gesture from giving Will the inspiration to try one more thing, one last ditch effort to save their friendship; he's going to make Mike a painting.

So, all while watching El receive a new letter in the mail every few weeks or so, with him and Mike talking once (or if he's lucky maybe twice) a month over the phone, Will spends his time working on the painting, knowing that Mike used to appreciate his drawings when their friendship was at its strongest. And so, maybe this will be the thing that finally fixes things for them once and for all?

All too soon, it's Spring break and they're at the airport waiting for Mike to land.

In the months leading up to their reunion, Will made sure no one saw the painting he was working on, least of all El. Not even because he was scared she might figure out his feelings, but because he wanted it to be a surprise. We also know Will presumably had no problem with the others seeing the painting eventually because he literally brought it to the airport for Mike to open in front of all of them? And so... to him this was clearly an attempt at platonic reconciliation, even despite Will having romantic feelings for Mike. What he wanted was their friendship back.

But suddenly, Mike is standing before him and Will is so excited he can't hold back anymore. I mean, he's been holding back for MONTHS and he just wants to hug his best friend.

But then Mike is being awkward again, almost like he doesn't want to even touch Will at all, contrasting greatly from the last time they hugged during their goodbye only just a year ago (6 months they're so dramatic, i swear).

All this does is prove to Will that, despite them apparently ending on good terms, it seems Mike is just repeating last summer all over again.

Understandably, Will jumps to this conclusion fairly quickly, as his insecurities are being proven right in real time. Mike doesn't want the friendship they used to have. He doesn't want to hug, doesn't want to write to him, barely even called despite writing El a book worth of letters. He wants to talk to and focus on his girlfriend and Will is just an afterthought now.

There's no way he's gonna want this? A painting? Not a chance in hell.

So when Mike points to it and asks him about it nervously, Will panics and brushes it off.

How could he be so naive. Mike is making it SUPER clear he doesn't care about him, not like he used to. And still he's holding onto some misguided hope that maybe there's still a chance for them to be best friends.

How could he be so stupid.

#stranger things #byler #will byers #mike wheeler #byler theory #byler analysis #i want to cry #will byers deserves happiness #he really developed so much since s3 #and it's not even that he's matured #even though he has #it's more so he's accepted what he believes to be reality #and its that mike could never love him back #but he just doesn't get why him and mike can't be friends at all #when the last time they talked mike seemed like he was scared of losing him #is it something he did? #how can he fix it? #and then the idea for the painting comes #and he spends so much time on it #and he waits it out #but then it all comes crashing down #will: stupid.!! so stupid!! #I WANNA DIE

[quicktimeeventfull]

here is my hot take: any reading of death note that doesn’t take into account light’s queerness is shallow and incoherent.

here is my even hotter take: it doesn’t actually matter whether or not this was intentional or whether or not light, the person, is a member of the lgbt+ community; the important thing is that light, the character and the construct, is queer.

ohba and obata weren’t writing in a vacuum. knowingly or unknowingly, they used themes from queer literature and culture to create light. this is a character who is so adverse to sexual and romantic connections with women that he endangers his own life; whose sole request for genuine affection over twelve volumes is made towards a male friend (yamamoto); whose only reciprocal emotional relationship with anyone outside his family is with a man (L.)

more importantly, he’s a character whose entire personality is centred around the concealment and curated presentation of the self. he is always conscious of being perceived. his private life is continually invaded and observed with his knowledge but without his consent, and he navigates this via a careful but weak performance of heterosexuality that becomes more skilled (but never perfect) as he ages. his response to cameras being placed in his private space is to display straight pornography. he attempts to throw off an FBI tail by manufacturing a date with a female classmate, and a (failed) component of his plan involves not having to follow through with the date. he conceals his relationship with mikami by conducting a relationship with takada — and, in doing so, he creates circumstances which make it impossible to consummate that relationship and which give him an excuse to dodge sexual and romantic contact with misa. so much of death note is light orchestrating dispays of heterosexuality then rejecting it the moment his performance is complete. i think light genuinely puts as much effort into not having sexual or romantic relationships with women as he does into not dying.

thematically, without a queer reading, none of this makes any sense. there’s no logical thread between his emotions and his actions. his behaviour is incoherent, erratic and ultimately shallow. with a queer reading, however, everything snaps neatly into place. there is coherency and consistency. his behaviour flows logically from a central part of the way he experiences the world. there is a texture and a richness to it. i think this is true whether or not someone personally interprets light as queer, because any sensible thematic foundation of death note is built on queerness; it’s possible not to notice this, but it’s extremely difficult not to engage with it.

[edit: follow-up in regards to light as a transgender figure]

#death note #light yagami #.txt #meta #imo this also works if light is trans but thats more complicated #and relies more on academic frameworks & jargon #i can get into this more if anyone is interested but i think its a bit of a diversion for this specific post #to explain the ‘it’s irrelevant whether or not its intentional’ thing by analogy: #technically speaking L is never stated to be autistic but his character is so clearly dependent on that framework that it’s incoherent #to interpret him any other way #its possible to read death note without explicitly applying the word ‘autistic’ to him but to interpret him as ALLISTIC requires #mental gymnastics #and will result in a very weird interpretation of his character #likewise you might not explicitly see light as queer but interpreting him as straight/cis/allo will result in bizarre characterization #or for a different example #i would argue namikawa is queer-coded but thats thematically irrelevant #you can interpret him as straight without changing the story in any essential way but you cannot do that with light #also also i know the yamamoto thing might seem minor but he is literally the only character outside of the task force #to get brought back on in the final issue #imo he’s a lot more important to light’s characterization than his narrative importance would suggest #(both yamamoto scenes got cut out of the anime — everything else should be present in both anime & manga)

[spideyobsessed]

Just Another Trope || T.H.

college!tom x reader

Chapter 6: The Mean Girl

Synopsis: Time for the big playoffs game!

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You pace back and forth in your room, biting your nails and unable to peel your eyes off of that damn jersey. The realization that you and Tom are just a hair short from being official is finally dawning on you. You don’t know how to be a girlfriend. You’ve never done it before!

At last, you’ve let yourself believe that Tom truly likes you exactly how you are, but the urge to put in extra effort into how you look is becoming overbearing. You groan loudly as you throw yourself on your bed. A few minutes pass by when you get the bright idea to text Gen and the rest of her small group.

A few more minutes go by until you can actually think of what to say. Even through text messages, talking to people can be so nerve wracking for you. But this has to be done. You contemplate on what to say, trying your best not to sound like you’ve been deprived of socialization your whole life. Finally, you just settle for—

Y/n: Hey!

G: Heyy Y/n! What’s up?

Y/n: Do you think I can get ready with you guys? Tom is letting me wear his jersey and I just wanna look… nice

Y/n: Nvm that was a weird thing to ask. Sorry!

You throw your phone to the side before slamming your face into a pillow and letting out a muffled scream. “God, why do you have to be so awkward?” You curse yourself out loud.

You take another peek at your phone to see if they at least gave you a pity reply, but no notifications were shown. Great. Just as you were about to give up on the idea of looking good at the game, you jump when you hear rapid knocks at your door.

You shuffle over to the door and slowly crack it open. Based off the intensity of the knocks, you’re partly expecting a huge, burly man to be standing there with duct tape and zip ties in hand. To your surprise, it’s actually Gen. Behind her stand Hayden, Willow, and Nova, all of them with various kinds of makeup, hair care, and skin care products. They heave heavily, Willow even taking a deep puff from her inhaler.

“Uh, hi.” You mutter.

Gen smiles and weakly pushed past you, allowing herself into your dorm room. “Sorry we took so long.” She says, “We came right away when we saw your text.”

You snicker, “It’s okay. Fifteen seconds isn’t too bad.”

The rest of the group takes her lead and files right in. You can’t resist the smile that creeps onto your lips as you realize this must be what it’s like to have friends. Real friends. Not people who only talk to you because you have a class together.

“You have to tell us EVERYTHING.” Nova gushes. “I can’t believe Holland finally made a move.”

“And he pulled the hottest person on campus!” Hayden adds as they bring you into a tight hug and sway you back and forth.

You chuckle as you pat them on the back, momentarily forgetting just how awkward you are when it comes to physical contact. Tom and his damn charm have tricked you into thinking you can tolerate it now, but turns out you’re just use to his touch— not that you mind.

“We’re not exactly official yet, you guys.” You remind them.

They all look between one another, each sharing the exact same expression. As if it were some sort of telepathic communication between everyone but you, they let out a loud “Pfft!” in nearly perfect unison.

One of them ushers you towards your vanity and sits you down, their hands immediately going to your hair. “So I think it would look really cute if we braided the front parts of your hair and then pin them back.”

“Really? I was thinking we pick it all up into a messy clip with a soft glam look.”

As one voice begins to overlap the other, you smile to yourself and relax. A guy has finally reciprocated your feelings for him, your grades are still better than ever, and you now have a genuine group of friends. Everything seems to be falling into place for you.

Meanwhile, Tom is also smiling to himself as he finishes lacing up his cleats. You’ve been on his mind since he left your dorm.

“So she said yes?” He hears Harrison’s voice from above him.

Tom snaps out of his thoughts, “What’d you say?”

“Y/n.” Harrison clarifies, grunting as he takes a seat on the ground next to Tom, “You’ve been smiling since you’ve gotten here like a lovesick div. So I’m assuming you finally confessed your love and are currently living happily ever after.”

The pink tint simmers into Tom’s cheekbones as he thinks about the mini make out session he had with you just moments before arriving at practice. “Yeah. Almost there, mate.” Tom responds. He’s never been one to kiss and tell.

Harrison smiles and grabs a hold of one of Tom’s shoulders, “Happy for you, bro.”

“What’s this I hear? Holland got himself a little girlfriend?!” Their teammate chimes in, having heard part of their conversation while passing by.

Another one of their teammates joins in by whistling, “Damn Tom. You actually snagged that hot, smart chick you brought to practice?”

“She has a name.” He corrects them, trying not to sound too defensive.

The immature group of boys let out a chorus of “oohs” while playfully shoving Tom around and pinching his cheeks. They pucker their lips and begin making kissing noises, inevitably sending the poor Brit into a fit of embarrassed laughter. He wants to be upset with the way some of the guys refer to you, and just women in general, but he’ll save that for another day. Right now, he’s still too overjoyed at the thought of seeing you in his jersey. Such a simple, juvenile notion, but Tom is too head over heels to care.

“Okay we won’t call her ‘hot nerdy chick’ anymore. What’s her name for real, bro?”

“It’s—”

“It’s Y/n. Right?” …Jamie.

Tom makes eye contact with her, and she’s furious. Her lips are knitted tightly with raised eyebrows as she pokes her hip out and crosses her arms over her chest. Tom gulps, suddenly hesitant to blab on and on about you. He’s in no way afraid to show you off. It’s just that Jamie is one to cause a scene, and Tom doesn’t want to let anything dampen his good mood. Especially before the game.

He nods his head cautiously, “Yeah. Y/n and I are, uh, unofficially official I guess you can say.”

“Wonderful.” Jamie scoffs unsubtly.

“Yeah it is wonderful, J. Thank you.” Tom answers just as passive aggressively.

Some of the boys on the team snicker at the obvious tension, almost all of them knowing Jamie had her claim on Tom for a long time now. Luckily, the coach blows his whistle, rounding up the team like cattle. Harrison chuckles, “I hope Y/n knows how to fight.”

Tom furrows his brows before giving his best friend’s shoulder a nice warning punch. He tries to follow everyone to the team huddle, but of course, he’s being held back by a small hand on his arm. Tom doesn’t need to look to know it’s Jamie, who is probably about to rip him a new one like the psycho she is. However, much to his surprise, her face is soft and concerned as opposed to her angry demeanor only seconds ago. Instantly, his fight or flight instincts ease up. Being the kind person he is, he decides to give her the time of day.

“What is it now?”

“I’m just worried for you, Tommy. That’s all.”

Tom closes his eyes momentarily, trying to keep his composure, and takes a deep breath. He gently pulls his arm from her grip before taking a step back, creating a respectful distance. “What is there to worry about?” He asks. “Y/n has never done anything to anyone.”

“No, I know that! Trust me, she’s a total sweetheart.” She giggles tensely. “It’s just that… I know she’s not used to getting much attention from guys, and let’s face it, anyone with a functioning pair of eyeballs can tell she has a thing for Harry Osborn—”

Tom seethes at the mere mention of his name, jealousy getting the best of him. “What does he have to do with any of this?”

“I’m getting there! Word on the street is Harry’s gonna make a move on Y/n tonight. I just don’t want to see you get hurt when the guy of her dreams finally gives her the attention she’s been craving.” Jamie huffs.

‘The guy of her dreams?’ Tom thinks to himself. From the way you’ve described Harry, it always sounded like a small, innocent crush. What if you’re only settling for him because Harry is too busy sleeping with all the freshman? Tom physically shudders. ‘What did she ever see in him? Would she really leave me for him though?’

His thoughts are interrupted by that same grating voice. “You still there, Tommy?”

“Yeah.” Tom’s voice is hoarse. “I don’t need you to worry about me or Y/n. We’re going to be just fine.”

“Are you sure?”

There’s a beat. A pause. Just like it’s been for the past couple of weeks, Tom isn’t sure again. Now there’s so much to think about. So many details to overanalyze. So many things that could possibly happen. Tom is not sure at all now, but still he says—

“I’m positive.”

With that, he turns around to join his teammates.

Jamie is only a few steps behind him with a confident strut and a smirk on her lips. She has a plan, and it’s been in motion since this morning. The deceivingly harmless strawberry blonde is going to get what she wants, one way or another. And she couldn’t care less who goes down in the process.

“Are you guys sure the eyeliner isn’t too much?” You question your friends one last time.

“Noo!”

“Absolutely not.”

“Not at all.”

You sigh and close the camera app on your phone. Currently, you’re riding in Willow’s car along with the others. You feel bad for the amount of times they’ve had to reassure you tonight, but you can’t help feeling a little out of place. You have to admit, you do look incredible. However, between the falsies and the “subtle” glittery eyeshadow, you almost feel like an imposter. What if Tom doesn’t even like you with makeup on? Or worse— he does.

Your anxious overthinking has no choice but to move to the background of your mind as Willow successfully finds a place to park in the crowded parking lot. You all shuffle out of the car one by one as a sudden rush of excitement vibrates through your bones. This is the first time you’ve gone to a school function that wasn’t mandatory.

“Let’s put some pep in our step, ladies and non-lady.” Nova says, “We have to hurry, if we want good seats!”

You could just scream as happiness bubbles in your stomach. Despite how out of place you may feel while hanging out with this crowd and wearing the star player’s jersey, you let yourself have hope and let your guard down— something Tom has taught you how to do unintentionally. Gen and Hayden link their arms with yours as you all begin to make your way through the sea of people.

You’re reminded just how popular Gen and the others are as it quickly became apparent why Nova wanted to hurry inside. You all were barely able to set one foot onto the premises before being bombarded by what seemed like every single person on campus. In such a short amount of time, you were briefly introduced to lab partners, girls from the volleyball team, old roommates, weird dudes from high school, and somehow your university’s mascot. You huff and briskly tap your foot against the ground, growing more and more anxious the longer it takes to reach the bleachers. The accustomed feeling of being invisible creeps back into your mind. Not a single person that has walked up to your group paid you more than a simple “hi” or a judgemental glance up and down.

Your heartbeat begins to thump louder than the overlapping conversations of everyone around you. “Hey, I’m going to use the restroom really quick.” You lean over and whisper to Gen.

“Okay, I can come with you.” She smiles.

“No, no. It’s okay, it’s just right there.” You insist.

Gen looks at the distance between the restrooms and where they’ve stopped for the time being. Her gaze turns back over to you with raised brows.

“I’ll be quick.” You have to further reassure her.

“Fine. Just be careful! Holland will murder us if you get kidnapped.”

You offer the best chuckle you can, but your vision is becoming blurry and everyone’s voices are muffled. Your mouth runs dry as you make a beeline for the restrooms. Having panic attacks when you’re around a lot of people isn’t anything new to you, so you know the drill. “Just breathe. Just breathe.”

Instead of entering the restrooms, you find a somewhat secluded spot near them and double over. “Okay. Okay I c-can see, uh, my shoes. Bright lights. The concession stand. Our school colors. And um, my hands. Sure.”

You begin to pace back and forth, trying your best not to look crazy. “Come on, four things I can hear. Um my breathing, the marching band, someone laughing, and people cheering.”

Although your breathing has become a little more steady, the pounding sensation in your head is something you can’t ignore. Still, you continue, “Three things I can feel… my clothes. Um, t-the wind. God, it’s so windy…”

Your speech becomes slurred as you start to feel weak in the knees. You pinch the bridge of your nose and squeeze your eyes shut in hopes that it’ll help you power through. The world suddenly begins to spin faster as a big gust of wind blows through, essentially knocking you off your already unbalanced feet. You quickly mentally prepare for your body to become acquainted with the hard, disgusting ground. However, what you feel instead are a pair of arms underneath your armpits, catching you in a trust fall style.

“Woah! You’re lucky I made it to you in time. You were about to eat dirt, literally.”

You recognize the voice, but you’re still too much in a daze to properly react. He helps you get stable, holding onto your hips until you stop wobbling. “Thanks, Harry.”

“No problem. Here, you can have my water.” He offers.

Your eyes meet his and you smile thankfully, grabbing the water bottle from him and taking a few big gulps.

Harry carries on with the small talk, “So I see you’re here for Holland.” You follow his finger and realize he’s referring to the earth shattering soccer jersey clinging to your torso.

“Yeah. He.. uh, he- well we are uh… yeah I’m here for Tom.” You stutter, but not because Harry is making you nervous. You just don’t want to be the first one to say you and Tom are exclusive.

Harry nods curtly and sucks his teeth, “Man that’s too bad because I always thought you were kinda cute. Happy for you guys though.”

You’re immediately confused. No, dumbfounded. NO, you’re actually flabbergasted by the words that just came out of his mouth. You rack your brain thinking of what interaction the two of you could’ve possibly had to make him think you’re cute. He’s never paid attention to you long enough to really conclude that. Even when he kissed you in high school, you could tell his mind was somewhere else. What’s confusing you the most, however, is why he decided to tell you now. You thought him and Tom were friends, and that’s definitely not something you say to your friend’s almost girlfriend.

“What-”

“Y/n, there you are! Is… everything okay?” Gen trots over to you and Harry, looking between you two suspiciously.

It’s hard to pull your gaze away from him, but not for your usual reasons. This is the first time you’ve seen him without rose colored glasses— your first glimpse of how he masks such toxicity with charisma. ‘What did I ever see in him?’ You think to yourself.

“Peachy.”

“Never better.”

You both answer as you still stare at him in bewilderment. Harry stands there with a deceivingly warm grin.

Gen chuckles awkwardly, “O-kay. Well the girls found a seat, so we should go.” She tugs on your arm.

“Mind if I tag along with you guys for a little while? My buddies definitely aren’t here yet.” Harry interjects.

“Where are they?” She asks him.

“They’re still setting up for the party.”

Gen nods, “Oh. Well then of course. The more the merrier.”

Tom stands on his tiptoes as if that’ll give him a better view of the crowd. Harrison let’s out a hearty chuckle at the sight of his best friend resembling a young boy looking for his parents in the crowd at his first recital. “She’ll show up soon, Thomas.” Harrison reminds him.

“But when?!” Tom exclaims, not caring that he now looks and sounds like a small child. “Look. There’s Nova, Willow, and Hayden, but no Y/n.”

“Also, no Gen.” Harrison points out his missing girlfriend. “Maybe they just stopped at the concession.”

“Yeah, you’re probably right. I’m still gonna keep an eye out though.” He insists, continuing to hold a strong gaze on the stands.

For multiple reasons, tonight is nerve racking for Tom. If the team wins, they get into the playoffs and everyone is counting on him to get them there. Not only is it an important game, it’s the first game you’re ever gonna see him play in. Although he might not show it all the time, you already make him nervous enough! There’s just something about your captivating eyes and gorgeous smile that could make Tom melt right into his shoes. He’ll have hundreds of people cheering him on tonight, but he only cares about one.

He scans every face and his eyes dart between every entrance until finally he sees Gen. Tom perks up and his heart is racing. He’s gonna explode. He’s going to absolutely explode if he has to wait a second longer to see… you.

“Wow.” He mumbles to himself as you make your grand appearance. You look just as he thought you would. Beautiful. His entire face and the tip of his ears burn bright red with adoration. He wishes he could leave kisses all over your face right in that moment.

Tom watches in awe as you look around nervously. He can tell you’re trying your best to be more social. A part of him is so proud to see you with Gen because he didn’t set that up for you this time. He’s glad that his “tutoring” has paid off just as much as yours has.

He cups his hands around his mouth and shouts, “Hey! Y/n!”

You look down at the field, knowing there’s not a chance anyone in the stands would be calling your name. You scan the green turf and all you can see are players wearing the same colored jersey as you.

“Over here! To your right!”

You can barely hear him, but still your eyes slowly shift to your right. Sure enough, there’s Tom completely alone off to the side. He jumps up and down and waves his arms with the biggest grin on his face. You giggle at his antics, yet you find yourself mirroring him exactly. The both of you act as if you didn’t see each other earlier this morning. You excitedly point to his number plastered on your stomach and back, along with his last name. You understand that wearing his jersey is a big deal to him.

Tom laughs to himself. He knows full and well he’s drawn the attention of half the people in the crowd, but right now, all he can focus on is you. He cups his hands around his mouth one more time to shout—

“…Beautiful!”

You weren’t sure if he yelled a full sentence or not, the voices around you beginning to grow louder and louder. Still, you heard the important part. You blush madly and place a hand over your swelling heart. Almost completely in sync, Tom does the same. When did you become so crazy about him?

“Sorry guys! I got stopped by one of my professors. Something about 10 missing assignments.” Harry explains himself as he catches up to you and Gen. He places a hand on your shoulder and squeezes it slightly. “Maybe I can be your next study buddy, yeah?” You can feel your skin screaming for help as he then rubs up and down your arm. Of course, you’re too nice to say anything about it so instead you subtly try shrugging him off.

The moment shared between you and Tom was short lived. He witnessed the whole thing, feeling an empty pit growing in his stomach. He tried his best not to let Jamie’s words get to him, but seeing that asshole with his hand on you makes all of his previous worries return. Tom’s too far away to read your body language, let alone see your facial expressions. This only makes him more anxious. He starts to worry he didn’t make his feelings clear enough back at your dorm. Although he’s not quite sure how you can misinterpret “Y/n, I’ve liked you for a really long time now”.

You offer Tom a small wave before joining the others on the bleachers. He waves back, hoping you can’t see the change in his facial expression from where you are.

Soon after this encounter, the game began and the team wasn’t off to a very good start. They were missing passes, missing goals, and there have already been 2 fights that nearly broke out. You don’t know anything about soccer. You only know as much as Tom has told you, which is very little. However, it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to know that 5-0 is not ideal.

“Oh…OH! WHOO!” You cheer.

“No, Y/n. That’s not a good thing.” Nova grumbles.

You look at her in confusion and then back down to the scene on the field. “What? Why? Tom pushed him out of the way and got the ball.”

“Pushing isn’t exactly allowed.” Gen explains, “See the ref raising a yellow card now? That means Tom just got a warning and he’s benched for a few minutes.”

Your slump shoulders, still not completely understanding how some pushing is allowed and some pushing isn’t. You watch Tom stomp over to the bench while running furious hands through his hair. This is a sharp contrast to the sweet, happy Tom you’re always witnessing.

He sits down and groans, angrily knocking a water bottle that was near him to the ground. Jamie, who was already on the bench, slides closer to him. “That was such a bullshit call.”

“No, it wasn’t. I shoved him.” Tom admits. “And did you see me miss that goal earlier? God, I’m playing like absolute shit today. Of course, this would be the first game Y/n gets to see.”

Tom squeezes his eyes shut as he anxiously bounces his leg up and down. Jamie rolls her eyes and looks back at the crowd. She can’t help but scoff when she spots you, watching from the crowd with confusion etched in your features as Gen tries explaining the game to you.

“Something tells me she wouldn’t know the difference.” She mutters.

For a brief moment, she makes eye contact with Harry. No words were exchanged, but everything they needed to say was said.

Jamie turns around and places a comforting hand on Tom’s back. “I’m sure she’s still gonna think you’re amazing, Tommy. I mean, who wouldn’t?” With her free hand, she twirls around a strand of hair.

“It’s more than just that. It’s bad enough that I needed help in class and she had to tutor me. Now suddenly I suck at the one thing I swore I was good at. She’s gonna think I’m pathetic.” Tom seethes.

He’s upset enough that his team is losing, but it’s a different story when they’re losing because of him. Shame fills him and all he wants is to be in your arms, but he can’t even look at you right now because he’s so embarrassed.

“Whatever. I don’t even know why I’m telling you this. Sorry.”

“Holland!” The coach yells. “You’re back in. Hurry up!”

Without another word exchanged, Tom runs back onto the field. You clap and cheer for his return, “Yeah, Tom! Whooo!”

From beside you, you can hear Harry chuckle. “I wonder what’s throwing your boyfriend off his game.”

“It’s probably just nerves.” You defend, “Everyone gets nervous.”

Harry scoffs, “Not me.”

You purse your lips and awkwardly nod your head, unsure of how to respond to that. You stare at Harry as if he was a stranger. That’s when you realize that in reality, he is. It doesn’t matter that he remembered your name or that he was your first kiss, you know nothing about him. Annoyance pumps through your veins as you begin to pick up on what he’s trying to do.

“Don’t you think he was a little too close to that Jayden chick down there?” He asks you.

You roll your eyes in response, “You mean Jamie?”

“Same difference.”

This reminder of Jamie takes you back to this morning. Your blood boils as your mind replays the image of her hands all over his arm and her lips dangerously close to his ears. It’s none of your business, but you wished you asked Tom what she whispered to him.

“I’m just saying, it doesn’t seem very boyfriend material of him.”

“Well he’s not exactly my boyfriend yet so…”

A menacing smirk grows on Harry’s lips as he quirks up his brow, “So there’s still a chance for me. Good to know.”

An incredulous laugh escapes your lips as you bask in the irony. Harry’s had a chance for years, and for the first time, you couldn’t care less about him. That’s when your eyes find Tom on the field. His curls are dampened by sweat, causing them to droop down into his face. You’re a good distance away, but you can still see his muscular chest heaving with every deep breath he takes. Your heart swells.

Suddenly, Tom steals the ball from his opponent and you jump to your feet instinctively. He rushes across the field, dodging the other players left and right.

“Go, Tom!”

He can see that he’ll soon be surrounded and blocked by at least three other players, so Tom scoops out his options. Having to decide quickly, he passes the ball with a hard kick to Harrison before smacking into his opponent and tumbling to the ground. Harrison secures the ball, dribbling it the rest of the way down the field before making the teams first goal of the game.

The rest of the crowd joins you on their feet as they cheer, Gen roaring the loudest of all of them.

“What a spectacular way to end the first half of our game with a clean goal made by Osterfield, who had an assist from Holland! Stay tuned to see if these two young men can lead their team to the playoffs tonight.” The commentator booms over the speaker.

After being informed that you can talk to Tom during halftime, you don’t waste a second getting down there. You watch as your friends greet their partners, giggling to yourself as you take in all the matching jerseys. Suddenly, your feet are being lifted off of the ground and the world begins to spin faster than usual.

You let out a shrill laughing yell as you wrap your arms around the neck of who you’re assuming is Tom.

“Oh, am I glad to see you, darling. I feel like it’s been ages.” Tom sighs dramatically.

He sets you back down, but you both remain secured in each other’s arms. “It’s only be a few hours.” You giggle.

“A few too many, in my opinion. Thank you for coming.” He says.

Tom leans over to press a sweet kiss to your lips, which you graciously accept. He smiles like a madman when you pull apart, forgetting all about his frustrations from earlier in the game.

You cup his face in your hands, “No need for thanks. You were doing so great out there! I mean that goal you just made- UGH!”

“Harrison made that goal, darling.”

“Yeah, but you helped him, right? Oh my god, the way you stole the ball! That was AMAZING! How do you even move your feet like that??” You continue to gush.

Without trying, you’ve significantly improved Tom’s mood. Even in his worst moments, you can always see the best in him. The twinkle in your eyes as you talk about him sends warmth throughout his body.

“I know they’re gonna throw the party tonight if we win or not—”

“When we win.” You swiftly correct him.

Tom smiles and decides to throw you a bone, “When we win… but how about we ditch?”

“You wanna ditch the party? Why?”

He shrugs sheepishly, “There’s somewhere else I wanna take you. It’s special.”

Memories from the last time Tom did something special for you flood your mind. You can’t help the giddiness that comes with those thoughts, but you choke it down. There’s nothing more lame than literally squealing at the mere reminder of your first date with Tom.

“I guess I could ditch the party scene for once.” You say sarcastically.

“Thank you so much! I know pulling Y/n L/n away from a total rager is a lot to ask.” Tom matches your level of sarcasm with an obnoxious American accent.

You lean into his chest as you both laugh, and he wraps his arms around your frame. Unknowingly to the both of you, Jamie watches your entire interaction from a distance. Obviously bothered, she rolls her eyes before marching away.

“I was thinking about hitting the concession stand. Those hot dogs look like the perfect amount of gourmet and gas station chic.” You joke, “Do you want anything?”

“Um maybe just a gatorade please.”

“Blue?”

“Red.”

“Weirdo.”

Tom’s jaw drops and he playfully slaps his hand over his heart like he always does. “You show up to one social event on your own and it’s like I don’t even know you anymore.”

You giggle and lightly shove his shoulder, “So dramatic.”

This time you’re the one to pull him in for a quick peck before making your way to the concession stand. The lines were dreadfully long, seeming like everyone had the same bright idea to come down during halftime. If Tom didn’t request anything, you would’ve said fuck it and went back to your friends. A mediocre hot dog is not worth it. Regardless, you stand there in a long line, happily keeping to yourself and listening to the conversations around you. After a good 15 minutes, you finally purchased your things. You say thank you to the clearly stressed out students running the stand before walking back to the field.

Right as you were about to round the corner and step back onto the field, you bump into someone and drop your hot dog.

“Oh goodness. I’m so sor—”

“Wow! Someone really needs to watch where they’re going.” The voice of Jamie rings in your ears.

Instantly, it becomes clear that this wasn’t an accident. You grip the red gatorade in your hand tightly as adrenaline pumps through your veins.

“You almost stained my jersey, girly.”

“Sorry.” You mutter.

You tried to walk around her without saying another word, but she sidesteps and continues to block your path. “It seems like we’re matching tonight.” She says, referring to Tom’s jersey, “You and Tommy sure are the talk of the town right now.”

“Are we?” You ask, despite knowing you can’t believe anything she says.

“I mean why wouldn’t you guys be? Tom Holland and this random…cute…girl on the honor roll. It’s a match made in heaven.” Jamie smiles widely.

There’s a beat of silence between the two of you. You’re not sure what to say or do next. Nothing seems like a good option, you just know that she’s trying to rope you into some stupid game. You can feel your breath getting shakier, but the last thing you want is to let her know she intimidates you.

You gather yourself before asking, “Is there anything I can help you with?”

“Funny that you ask!” She exclaims, “I thought I should just come to you, woman to woman.”

“W-What does that mean?” You curse yourself for stuttering.

Jamie purses her glossed lips before taking a step closer to you. She places one of her hands on your shoulder, “I don’t think Tommy has been completely honest with you.”

You scoff and shrug her off of you. One more time, you try to walk away from her, but she blocks you again. “Tom and I have had sex before!”

You pause. A long pause. You look her in the eye and really study her face. As much as you don’t want to admit it, she’s not lying. You can tell. You don’t know whether you should burst into tears or punch her in the face. For the second time tonight, you’re reminded of the day you went on that date with Tom. That same night, he told he’s only been with one girl romantically in high school and one girl sexually last year. She’s telling the truth.

“Why are you telling me this?” You ask lowly. Any louder and your voice will crack.

Jamie sighs, “I just thought I should warn you. He’s a player, Y/n. He might put on the sweet guy act. Always complimenting you, taking you on nice dates, the whole nine yards. But that’s all it is— an act. Tom isn’t afraid to play the long game.”

“You’re lying.” You spit even though you know deep down she’s not.

“Y/n, I’m not lying.”

“How do I know that?!”

“Let me guess. He gave you a big speech right? A really sweet one? He said something like you’re the most gorgeous person to graze the earth. Your voice is his new favorite song. When you walk in a room you’re the only one he sees, the only one he ever wants to see. Or something like that.”

You suck in a sharp breath, begging the tears brimming your eyes not to fall down your cheeks. There’s no way she could’ve guessed all of that. She recited it exactly.

“Yeah, he told me the same thing. I gave in, we hooked up, and then he ghosted me. Why do you think he barely acknowledges me when I’m around?” Jamie finishes.

If your breath wasn’t obviously shaky before then it really is now. Everything was a lie. You spent weeks with Tom, and you knew things were moving sort of fast, but you didn’t care. You trusted him and everything he said. You fell for all the grand gestures. It’s like the wind was knocked out of your lungs. You fell for it. Fell for him.

“Sorry to break it to ya, babes.” Jamie apologizes, “I can take this to Tommy. I’m pretty sure blue is his favorite, but this will do. Take care!” She turns on her heels and she’s gone.

“What the fuck.” You mutter to yourself.

You go through a range of emotion, all of the provoking tears. How could he? After you opened up to him, after you helped him, after you kissed him. You should have known better. How could you be so stupid?

Just as you were about to walk away from the game and most likely all the way back to your dorm, you hear his voice.

“Hey, Y/n! My buddies and I are gonna start pregaming a little early. Do you wanna come with or do you wanna watch Holland—”

“No.” You sniffle. “Let’s go.”

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[laladellakang]

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della and sunoo

first

Sunoo thought Della was absolutely gorgeous when he first saw her. Truly one of- if not the prettiest girl he's ever met. And he's seen quite a few idols in real life.

He loved how cold she looked. He loved how intimidated he was by her. He loved how he wasn't the reason behind her blush. He just loved the challenge she brings.

It was a shame that Sunoo spent most of his time in the Ground, he would've tried his hardest to get closer to Della. He didn't want to get his hopes up when I-Land part two began. He figured that she was close with a lot of the guys already.

His friendly feelings started to shift when his efforts were reciprocated.

He didn't know what it was. He has befriended lots of girls before but how did this particular one make his heart flutter so hard? How did this one make him crave for skinship when he's not one to particularly enjoy it?

He gave up looking for the answer. Because at the end, she's Kang Della. Anyone can fall in love with her.

the fanboys' pick

"You have so many fanboys, y'know?" Della told Sunoo as she was looking through a Tiktok's comment section while laying on his chest.

"Not as much as you, I'm sure," he locked his phone, placing it down to look at hers.

"No, you probably have more," she closed her phone as well and turned her body so they were facing each other.

"Don't be ridiculous," he giggled. "Even my friends in school like you."

"How are you sure they like me more than you?" Della giggle too, coming close to rub her nose against his.

"How are you sure that I'm their bias?" Sunoo grinned. "They're my friends after all."

"Well how are you sure-"

"Oh my God!" Sunghoon groaned out loud from his bed. "You both are the fanboys' pick. Just stop already!"

"Fanboys' pick," the two chuckled. "So we're the 03z, the expressionsz and the fanboys' pick, huh?”

cutie

"Lala?" Sunoo approached Della in her room. A thought was really bothering him. "Can I ask you something? Are you busy?"

"No. What's wrong, darling?" she shut her laptop and pat her bed.

"Do you- do you think I'm too cute?" he's never been one to feel insecure about how he is, but the more he thinks about it, Della always seem to bias the more masculine type of men. The guys like what his hyungs are.

"What are you talking about?! Of course not, darling. You can never be too cute," Della furrowed her eyebrows, reaching to grab his hand. "What happened?"

"Well you seem to bias guys who are very manly, and the leaders and oldest and stuff like that," he stroked her nails. "Like the ones who can lead you or dominate you or whatever."

"Sunoo. Kim Sunoo- darling-ya," she held his face in her hands. "Let me tell you something. Do you know how sexy it is for a man to not falter or feel threatened just because he wears or does things conventionally feminine?"

Sunoo couldn't help but blush, he's never heard someone say that before.

"You're sexy as fuck, Sunoo-ya. I love you just the way you are and I've never and will never complain about your ways," she pushed his bangs back.

"You actually think that?" the corners of his lips turned up.

"I wouldn't have fallen for you if I didn't think so, darling," she couldn't help but place a kiss on his nose at how cute he looked. "Besides- you know I love being alpha too. And I'm sure you like being taken care of, right?" she stroked his hair.

"Mm," he placed his head on her chest. "Can you call me a good boy?"

"My good boy," she smiled and left a kiss on the top of his head.

"Thank you, Lala. I really really love you."

arguments

"Ya Kim Sunoo! Did you eat without me?!" Della rushed to the kitchen while buttoning her pants. "Why didn't you wait for me?!"

"If you wanted me to wait for you then say so!" he looked at her with a pissed off face.

"I told you!" she quickly sat across from him and took a bite of toast.

"No! You said to wait for you for skincare! Not breakfast!" they both avoided eye contact.

"Well it's more of a 'wait for me for the rest of the morning.'"

"Then you should've specified?!"

"Ya! What should I say?!"

"Shut up and eat, you two. It's almost eight."

The 03z bicker a lot. Out of all of Della's boyfriends, she definitely argues with Sunoo the most.

Though their arguments are always over simple, pointless things so they tend to forget about it quick. It's no wonder the members find it adorable.

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"WHO FINISHED THE MY MOM IS AN ALIEN?" Della called out.

"Sunoo-hyung," "Kim Sunoo," Jungwon and Jay said at the same time.

"YA KIM SUNOO!" she rushed to the boy. "Why did you finish the chocolate ice cream?! Mincho was right there!"

"Why?! I was craving chocolate so I ate the chocolate!" he looked up from his phone.

"Mincho was right there!" she gestured towards the kitchen.

"Then eat the mincho if it's right there!"

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"You said we're going to watch the new episode tonight," Sunoo crossed his arms.

"Yeah, we ar-"

"Then why did you promise to help cut Heeseung-hyung's toe nails?"

"We'll probably be done before your shower!"

"Yeah but it was supposed to be our night!"

"You won't even notice!"

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"YA DELLAA! Why didn't you wash this?!" Sunoo went up to Della with his shorts.

"Why didn't you put it in the dirty pi-"

"I did!"

"No you didn't! I would've washed it if you did!"

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"No it's not! Germany's driving seat is on the left!"

"The right!"

"The left! It's just like Korea!"

"No! I'm pretty sure it's-"

"Della's right."

"HAH! SEE! I TOLD YOU!"

baby

"Do you guys wanna hear Della fangirling over a manhwa? I have it recorded right here," Sunoo brought out his phone in a Live. "I think you saw a little bit in I-Land but this is how she's like almost every day.”

"Wait.. Give me a second," he clicked on a few things before lowering the phone a little so the audience could see his face. "Listen, listen."

His face supported a small smile at first, but soon grew to a grin when the audio kept going.

"Aaaaaa!" Della's squeal sounded a bit muffled. "Why would he do that?! Oh my God, oh my God, it's happening. Oh no, oh no, oh no!" her voice then sounded normal again.

"This is really, REALLY what Della is like," Sunoo looked at the camera while pointing at his phone.

"Baby, baby, ba-" he tried to not show too much panic but immediately stopped the audio as fast as he could.

"Yes. That's what she's like. She's so cute," he giggled nervously.

Looks like he has to defend them through his fake account again.

선르셋

"You look amazing, darling," Della grinned lazily from her seat. "Your waist looks spot on."

"I know right! The outfit's so pretty," he looked at himself in the mirror while fixing his glove. "Engenes are gonna go crazy. I can't believe you thought of this."

"선르셋 was taking too long," Sunoo cut her off with a laugh. "I had to take matters into my own hands." [seonreuset = sunoo + corset]

"My waist looks so good and paired with the glove just looks so sexy," he sounded really excited. "I wish I could've posted the pictures during your birthday too.”

"It's okay, darling. Today's highlight is your outfit," she sat back in her seat.

"Are you kidding?! Look at yourself.." his voice gradually got smaller as he paid attention to how she looked at that moment. "You really look good."

"Come here," she smirked, patting her lap.

oppa

"'Why does Della call you oppa sometimes?' Right? I don't understand too," Sunoo read a comment during a live. "She said it's because I graduated first, but she's older than me and we're the same grade so it just doesn't make sense."

"Or maybe it's because it's a habit? She does have four o- but then she would've also called Jungwon and Niki oppa," he looked up as he was thinking. "If it's because I graduated first then wouldn't I be sunbaenim? I don't know, it doesn't make sense," he giggled.

"I guess she enjoys seeing me flustered or something," he smiled brightly. "Since it's a bit embarrassing.."

"She always knows how to drive me- people crazy," he went quiet for a bit before giggling at his tiny mistake.

a little tint

"Your lip colour is so pretty," Sunoo touched Della's lips ever so lightly. "Do you think that they'll let me use it too?"

"You wanna wear this colour?" Della spread her leg so he could sit on her lap more comfortably.

"Maybe just a little bit, not so muc-" she cut him off with a kiss.

"There," she dabbed his lips to evenly distribute the colour. "A little tint."

"But they would know that we were making out," his eyes twinkled.

"Let them suspect. They keep thinking I'm only dating someone from the hyuppa line. You need your shine too, baby."

requested:

—sulla

—sunoo wore something 'feminine' and people thought it was della at first

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[gladerwolfstarkimagines]

Request: How ATLA and LOK characters act when you're cuddly and playful

Katara - Finds it sweet and blushes

 Katara loves any type of affection and kindness so she'd adore a partner who liked cuddles. The playful side she could take or leave but affection would really be her love language. She'd also be very reciprocating so if she sees her partner making an effort with her you best believe she's going to do the same back and shower them with love and care.

Also, our girl's been through some things and basically had to step up and be the support system of her family at the age of 8 due to general sexism so I think she'd really like not having to be the one doing all the caring in a relationship. She can just be looked after and allowed to be weak for once. I actually think it would be very therapeutic for her and she'd feel such a release to know she has someone who will carry all of that with her.  

Sokka - Mocks you for it

Sokka has this thing about acting older than he is right? So I think he'd call you childish for wanting to playfight or cuddle with him and he'd totally mock you anytime you asked him to ESPECIALLY if he was in front of the others. However when you're alone he'd slyly snuggle closer to you or sit practically on top of you until you noticed him and initiated contact in some way. Then of course you’d tease him back. 

"I thought you said it was babyish to want to cuddle huh? Not what established warriors do". 

"I know, I was wrong now please just spoon me woman!".

Then he’d just get to the stage where he admits he likes affection and there’s nothing unmanly about that. A full-on speech in front of everyone making it a bigger deal than it has to be and everyone’s just like “yeah we all like cuddles too” but you’re still proud of Sokka anyways. 

Azula - Pretends to hate it but loves it sm.

Similar to Sokka, Azula is not someone who would admit she likes affection. Due to her upbringing she just associates it with weakness and that instinct is hard to shake. With you she tries to keep this act up but it slips away very quickly. At first she’d very much resist any sort of physical affection because she doesn’t know how to say she likes it.

"Eugh you know it's the middle of the summer don't you? Why are you trying to cuddle me?" Azula groaned. 

“Because you’re so cute...but I can move away if you want”. 

“No you’ve already messed up my cushions so you might as well stay”. 

“No if you hate it so much I’ll just move” you smiled back teasingly when Azula catches your hand and sighed.

“Stay...please. I mean if you want...”.  

Then it quickly becomes her safe space. Given the lack of love and affection from her mother, father and uncle Azula is a lot more touch starved than Zuko so being held and physically affectionate would actually grow to be something she craves. She feels safe and loved in your arms and all her ego just melts away leaving the wonderful Princess Azula. She’d let herself be vulnerable with you and through this realises being weak isn’t actually a bad thing. 

Zuko - Would be terrified at first and then love it

Zuko is not the best person with words, we've all seen his "Zuko here" moment and the countless other times he said the wrong thing. So I think he'd secretly really like his partner being cuddly and playful because 1. it reassures him that you love and care for him which he needs after having Ozai as a parent. 2. because it gives him a way to non-verbally express how he feels. 

Instead of fumbling over his words to tell you how nice you look he can just take your hand instead. Rather than trying to explain how he worries he's not good enough he can just snuggle up against your side and close his eyes. 

Of course at first he’d just panic and go into overthinking Zuko mode wondering how much affection he’s supposed to show back, are his hands sweaty, is he making too much eye contact, is he making too little eye contact etc until one day it just clicks. 

From then on he would use it as his love language and he would LOVEEE that his partner is so comfortable with it and likes to initiate it. It would in turn give Zuko the confidence to initiate things and show physical signs of his affection. 

Basically I think Zuko would adore this which is made even more adorable due to his moody emotional persona. 

Mai - Hates it

There's no getting around this one. Mai is not a touchy, cuddly, playful kind of person and there’s nothing wrong with that! 

However I do think opposites attract so that's exactly the type of girlfriend she'd end up with (Ty lee anyone?). Therefore Mai would 100% know what she's getting herself into and honestly I think you'd find a balance with it. 

At first she'd be like why does she want to hold my hand every time we walk down the street but then she'd absentmindedly find herself reaching for you in a crowded party and enjoying the reassurance it brings her. 

Importantly you'd also change for her and learn to read Mai's body language and give her space when she's in her "nobody fucking touch me" mood. You’d be the type of couple with very healthy boundaries and independence. 

I also think because Mai is less playful having a cuddly partner would really bring out another side to her and soften her up a little. Man I'd love to see more soft Mai, we were robbed of perfection.

Ty lee - Is just playful and affectionate right back but x10 as much

So Ty lee is ripped right? I mean she's basically a professional gymnast so her core and muscles are no joke. Therefore I feel like whenever you're being playful with her or messing around she's used her skills against you and just love it. 

She could easily flip herself out of a hug so she was the big spoon or twirl out of your arms and tug you into hers. She'd love to do this just so she can make you laugh, smile or even better blush. Ty lee sometimes gets written off as being very childlike and innocent but I think she's got a cheekier side, I mean she did grow up with Mai and Azula!  

I also think Ty lee would know exactly how to hold someone based on her chi blocking experience. She'd know what pressure to apply to different parts of the body and how she could best make you comfortable so she'd be an excellent person to cuddle with.  

Suki - So sophisticated she always makes you melt

In my mind Suki just has life figured out so as a partner she'd be so smooth and always a few steps ahead of you. To the extent you actually make it your mission to try and make her blush at least one. You do this by surprising her at random moments with affection. Sneaking up to her and planting a kiss on her cheek or randomly tugging her into a hug. 

It doesn't go to plan. 

Suki either just kisses you properly or flirts with you making you a blushing mess unable to look her in the eye. Suki finds this adorable and so keeps doing it, when she finds out you'd been trying to floor her this whole time she finds it hilarious.

There’s simply no surprising a Kyoshi Warrior.

Korra - So So So So Sooooo excited

Korra loves when you get all cuddly with her because she adores being the big spoon! She'd just love to wrap her arms around you and have you safe and close against her chest. So much so actually tries to encourage it. 

She'd purposefully make the room temperature a little bit cooler when she knows your coming over and would suggest you watch a mover on the sofa together. She'd also conveniently place blankets on her side of the sofa and wait. Eventually you'd scoot closer and closer to her before asking if you could cuddle up under the blanket with her. Korra would try and play it cool, agreeing like it wasn't her master plan this whole time but she'd accept so fast she kind of gave it away. You'd just chuckle and smile because despite being the Avatar, Korra is her brilliant self first and you love her so much. Also just imagine Korra's big strong arms wrapped around you on a rainy or snowy night...

Asami - A little bit flustered

Asami is the put together queen but she'd become rather flustered to have a partner who is so openly playful and affectionate. 

At first she'd be taken aback and unsure of how to react...but we all saw my girl racing, she has a competitive side. So whenever you're in a playful mood she joins in because she likes to win. She is in totally unchartered water but that doesn't mean she's not going to try. Tickle fights are something I could see Asami getting really into. You'd both be squealing and laughing, hair askew, sweaty, clothes dishevelled...it'd be so unlike Asami to be messy but she loves it and adores that you bring this playful carefree side to her. It's in those moments that she forgets all her worries in the world and it hits her just how much she's in love with you.

Mako - Has no idea what to do, awkward af

Mako is very physically protective in public but not so much in private. So for example if you were in a crowd he'd immediately grab your hand and pull you close to him. That wouldn't bother him because he knew the situation. However if you just came into the living room one day and wrapped your arms around him, then he'd freeze. 

"Y/n...what are you doing?" Mako asked. 

"Hugging my boyfriend" you chuckled "is that okay?". 

Mako nodded "erm of course...do you want me to hug you back?". 

"Only if you want to" you shrugged and he nodded "okay" and wrapped you in a very awkward hug. 

I think it’d be hilarious because Mako actually looks like he’d be great to cuddle with. He’s tall, with broad shoulders and long limbs not to mention very attractive and pretty much always in a tank top. So it’d be very endearing for him to totally clam up and have no idea what to do when you hold him. Then like all my other faves with repressed trauma he’d love it and secretly request to be the little spoon in a very unsure and small voice. 

You’d of course indulge him and find a way to comfort the very tall firebender. 

Bolin - LOVES IT MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD.

So well all know that Bolin is basically a walking ball of affection right? He would go absolutely crazy if his partner wanted cuddles from him. 

If his partner was the type of person who is pretty affectionate 24/7 he'd still get excited every time and probably encourage it a lot like Korra. 

Whereas if his partner wasn't very affectionate I think he'd genuinely get emotional if you asked to cuddle him or even just grabbed his hand.

"Bolin are you crying?". 

"No I just have something in my eye...now come here!". 

Also I think Bolin would be the comfiest person to cuddle in the whole Avatar universe because he’d put so much effort into it. You're cold? He’d find as many blankets as he can and wrap you up in them. Your neck hurts? Pillow. You're tired? He doesn't care just fall asleep in his arms and he'll (easily) carry you to bed later. 

I also have a suspicion like his brother he'd lowkey love to be the little spoon and I can picture nothing cuter than shy Bolin asking his partner to hug him and his partner of course obliging him because who could say no to this adorable human being? 

Kuvira - Scary but softens when you get to know her

I love opposites attract tropes and so a cuddly playful partner for the great Uniter would be wonderful. Kind of like with Mai it would be a mix of different boundaries and personalities but because Kuvira is very strict I can imagine you'd have to have known her for a while before she’s affectionate towards you. 

Similarly she can be pretty intimidating to be around so you'd have to know her well to feel comfortable hugging her or acting playful around her. 

However I suspect because of this and everyone being scared of her Kuvira would like a partner who isn't afraid to initiate cuddles and admires your bravery. If there's one thing Kuvira doesn't like it's pushovers (looking at you Bataar Junior) so even if you are different as long as you're your authentic self she'd respect and love that.

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Done! I hope you liked it @captainblunder  

I didn’t do Toph and Aang because they’re children and even thought this is sfw it just felt weird writing about 12 year olds in this capacity. 

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[readbyred]

if you’re taking requests, can i request a MK x fem reader from tdi?

This girl is blunt with just about everything EXCEPT for her feelings. So have fun. Most of the time she just deadpans things that couldn’t be considered even vaguely flirty and you won’t be able to tell if she’s roasting you or flirting. At this point she doesn’t even hope for the best. She just accepted that relationships aren’t her thing though she hasn’t given up enough to actually stop talking woth you. She’s just like “oh well, this won’t end well”. I mean, she likes you enough to seek out contact but she’s goal-oriented and there’s literally (at least in her mind) a bigger chance of her winning the whole show that her pulling you. So, yk, she won’t try to show off her people skills and rizz. Still, she can’t stop having those little interactions with you. Even if they are far from romantic. Emma probably hears you two talking and figures it out faster than MK did. Fr Emma’s an angel, she tries soo hard to help you two just bc she thinks it’s cute. She did tell MK to try being a little less cynical. And maybe try complimenting you or just being uplifting & nice. Didn’t work but there was some effort. Thankfully, things get better when you finall catch on (might be Emma’s doing) and have the time to reciprocate MK’s crush. Also, miiiight have gone through your confessions at one point. But hey, all is fair in love and war, right? Since you are her crush AND rival it is double justified. Not that she needs a justification. Still, if you are willing to give her a shot, she’ll appreciate it. Though her displays of affection are quite… easy to miss, nonetheless she cares. She likes giving you gifts (don’t ask how she got them), helping you during the challenges (even if she’s not very motivating) and if she needs to, hell, she’ll rig the game to see you win

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[chimchimmarie]

POV : That one time Jimin wanted you to call him Oppa, too. (Part 2)

Read Part 1 here. ☺️

Jimin is acting like you don’t exist after a fight. But you’re ready to try just about anything to change that. Even if it means teasing your way back into his arms.

Jimin is still giving you the cold shoulder.

After that fight you had last night—the one where he got jealous of you calling Yoongi your “Oppa” and not reciprocating his PDA filled attempt on making you focus on him and only him during movie night—Jimin has gone the extra mile of ignoring your existence.

It was a Sunday and Jimin made sure that by the time you wake up, he’d be out of bed and out of your sight. So he made an effort to wake up earlier than you and go out for a run.

He’s still mad at you. Other people would probably think he’s being petty. You would probably think that, too. But he’s sick and tired of denying the fact that it hurts him when your eyes sparkle everytime you’d look at Yoongi. He wants those sparkles in your eyes to only be for him.

He’s tired of denying the fact that he’s jealous of how extra nice you are to his Yoongi hyung. It irks him when you become all shy when he compliments you. You’re never like that to Jungkook or Taehyung. You’re not even like that to Hobi and Seokjin. And you’re certainly not like that to Joon.

Jimin knows Yoongi was your bias. You told him once that before you even knew him, you had posters of Yoongi on your bedroom walls back in your parents’ house. And that you once bought the exact same beanie Yoongi had always worn many years ago. Yoongi still had that beanie lying around in his room somewhere and it annoys Jimin everytime he sees it around the dorms.

But you also told Jimin that it’s different now— that him becoming your boyfriend had shaken things up. He believes you. There’s not a trace of Yoongi in any items you own now. The merch you still buy are all of Jimin’s and Chimmy. Well, except for the ones Seokjin gifted you for Christmas. He got you a bunch of fans with his annoying face on it. And of course he got you RJ keychains and pens. Jimin makes sure you get the exclusive ones that had his signature for you to cherish forever. He had recently gifted you his Photofolio. And you were excited about that.

By the time Jimin finished jogging, he went back to your shared apartment to find you still in bed. You were awake and tapping something on your phone, not making eye contact.

He knows he had hurt you, too. He had never really raised his voice on anyone, much less with you. But last night was really tough on him, he was too emotional and wasn’t able to control his temper.

In truth, Jimin fears that one day you’d wake up and realize you didn’t want him anymore and that you would find someone better than him. Someone who could give you things he couldn’t. Someone who would give you the world, someone who would make you happy, and loved.

His insecurities have always hindered Jimin in your relationship. He sometimes wondered if he could really be that guy for you. You are so independent, brave, gorgeous, intelligent and kind. He’s deadset in thinking all the other guys see that in you, too. And it’s just a matter of time they realize how great of a catch you really are. You could actually have anything and anyone you’d want if you so wish it.

It takes all the willpower in him to not jump in bed with you, cuddle you and apologize for being a jerk last night. But he is still really hurt and his insecurities still clouds his mind. So he just went on with his business like you weren’t there.

You, on the other hand, are growing frustrated as the hours pass by. It’s hard enough that your boyfriend is mad at you and waking up in a cold bed without his warmth and morning kisses really made you lonely.

But what he’s doing to you now—acting like you’re not even in the same space right now— is just pure torture.

It has been hours without Jimin acknowleding your existence. Not even a “hi” nor “a good morning”. He’s not even trying to look in your direction.

He’s camped out in the living room, reading a book while putting on some lofi music to drown the excruciating silence in the house.

You think of ways to break the ice. You knew he’s never going to cave. He’s stubborn like that. But so are you.

You made breakfast— coffee and toast. But he didn’t even touch it. So you went on to cook lunch. He’s never even once got in your way as you busied yourself in the kitchen.

He made sure he’s got all the things he needed in his little space on the couch— his water bottles, coffee, snacks and a couple more books to read just in case.

You had almost given up after he didn’t budge during lunch time. He just got up and took a portion of his lunch to eat by the couch. He’s so stubborn. You couldn’t believe he was really going to let this whole day waste just like that.

And after almost a whole day wasted in silence, you took it in you to turn the tables on Jimin. You knew that if cooking and making him coffee couldn’t make him not ignore you anymore, you’d have to take a completely different route.

So you put on those tight work out clothes you knew he liked on you. The ones with the matching white top that gives him a peek of your cleavage and the skimpy shorts that hug your ass in the right places. You decided that if he still won’t look your way after this, you’d just jump him until he looks at you.

So you clench your peaches and tucked your tummy in as you paraded yourself from the bedroom door which was directly across him, to the kitchen where you pretended to check something in the fridge making sure to give him a nice view of your ass.

He doesn’t say anything nor make a move towards you, but you feel his eyes follow your every move.

You make your way back to your shared bedroom, not saying anything. Only to make sure to glance at him before you reach the door. And He’s already looking at you.

Jimin is shocked. You were practically naked, wearing only those little pieces of clothing that left nothing to his imagination as you saunter your way down to the kitchen. He knows he’s supposed to be ignoring you but damn, you’re making it so difficult for him right now.

His mouth went dry as you made your way back to your bedroom with your tits and ass jiggling as you walk.

He almost choked on his water when you suddenly looked at him and you caught him ogling you.

You decide to stay in the bedroom and wait for any reactions. If that doesn’t work, you’re just going to storm out and confront his ass once and for all.

But a few more minutes has passed, and you hear the door to your bedroom open. You’re seated on your side of the bed and have your back away from the door so you don’t see Jimin hesitate for a while. You busy yourself with your phone and check your socials for what feels like the millionth time today.

After another long silence, you feel the space dip next to you. And two determined arms snaking their way into your waist as Jimin cages you in between his thighs.

Jimin: “Baby…“

He nuzzles your neck as he breathes in your scent. The motion only sparks something in you. But you don’t budge. You contemplate on giving him a little dose of his own medicine.

Jimin: “Jagi… i’m sorry.”

You don’t make a move. You don’t attempt to let go or push him away. He leans in more, closing the space between you. You feel him plant a kiss to your neck, to the space below your ear and to your jaw.

Jimin: “I was being a jerk. i didn’t mean to yell at you. I was jealous of how you took care of Yoongi hyung while I was right there, next to you. I know we’ve talked about this before, but it really bothers me when you look at him like that.”

You: “Look at him how, Jimin?”

Hearing this, you decide to face him so he can see the hurt in your eyes. But he keeps his face buried in the hollow of your neck.

You: “He’s our friend. He’s your brother. I don’t see him as anyone other than that.”

His hold on you tightens as he breathes more of you in.

You: “He doesn’t make me feel like you make me feel. I only look at you like that.”

He pulls away to look you in the eyes now. He’s hurt, too. You see the regret in his eyes as he intertwines his hands in yours.

Jimin: “I know that. It’s just —it’s just.. sometimes i think that.. that one day you might wake up and realize you don’t want me like that anymore.”

You take his cheeks with both your hands and look him in the eyes. You understand what he’s thinking now. His insecurities are eating him up.

You: “Baby, how can you think that? I’m so in love with you—too in love with you— you’re the only thing I think about all the time. You’re so beautiful, and good to me, you’re perfect, Why would i not want you? I’m so so crazy in love with you Chim. Why don’t you see that? I love you and i’m not going anywhere.. baby.. what more can i say to prove it?”

Hearing these words from you lifted any haze of insecurity that filled Jimin’s mind. He crashed his pillowy lips into yours, hungry and needy. You kiss him back with the same need, like you have been so deprived of his lips in a long time. He smiles into your lips as you both pull away to breathe.

Jimin: “I love you y/n. Having you here like this is enough. I love you. (Kiss.) I love you. (Kiss.) I’m so in love with you.” (Kiss)

You smile in between his kisses. And you savor his taste in your mouth for a few more seconds before you pull away.

You: “I love you, Jimin Oppa.”

Jimin is wide eyed hearing your new little term of endearment. And It’s enough to make his already semi-hard bulge twitch. His eyes quickly went from shock to pure lust. He takes your hand and guides it to palm his hard cock. And your breath hitches. You forget to breathe as your mind nearly stops working.

He made love to you that night. And Only the delicious sounds of your sweet moans that sang his name and your new found endearment filled the room.

Now you understand the power that one little word had. And how it could rile Jimin up even in bed.

You promise to use it more often after this.

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[pawsitivevibe]

Whine complain whine.

I've had such a shit day. And I honestly just want to hang out with someone who cares ... But my husband has an online D&D game tonight with work friends. He said he wouldn't play if I needed him, but that just seems mean to ask when I know they don't get to play a ton. So I'm crying by myself instead ...

I wish I was closer with literally any of our friend group. Or had actually gone and made new friends like they all did. I'm the only one who doesn't have other people now, and it means I just don't have anyone. I'm so lonely all the time. I don't know how to bridge the gap between acquaintance and friend, I guess? I have some people through work and dog agility that COULD be friends, just don't know how to make that happen. But I think it would be good to have other people I could hang out with or just talk to and text with. It's always been hard for me to connect with people. It's even harder as an adult. I've got my high school friends and that's it, but I don't hear from them much or see them except for like one D&D game a month, and I can't contact them because as mentioned THEY all have other people. I used to TRY to plan things and communicate with them, but I gave up because I was sick of being the only one who did make an effort. Now I think it's so hard for me to connect with new people because I'm wary of making too much of an effort that isn't reciprocated ... But like you gotta do that sometimes ...