#oh man I am tearing up

[jhonny]

"stop talking like that boy you're ruining my tboy swag" - yami bakura, probably

or, when both bakuras are trans but only one of them has perfected the trans voice.

+ bonus thief king (as a treat)

#yugioh #yu gi oh #ygo #bakura ryou #yami bakura #thief king bakura #rowan art #TKB has so much transmasc swag it's INSANE. #guy walks in with his hard-earned muscles dripping butch energy and then reincarnates into a gay little boy who talks very politely. #*TKB tearing his hair out* SPEAK UP SPEAK UP SPEAK UP FOR THE LOVE OF APEPI YOU ARE FAILING TO COMMAND THE ROOM. #where is your anger. where is your manspreading. where is your KILLING INSTINCT. RISE. RISE. RISE. #meanwhile ryou is just sitting here like um. i appreciate it but . i'm not into all that. thank you #ryou not being hypermasculine to compensate for his transness is incomprehensible to TKB who fought tooth + nail to be recognised as a man. #yes i Am writing fic about these two no it is Not good thank you and goodnight #rowan.txt

[arsenicflame]

absolutely delicious flavour of edizzy is where theyre Actually Married but neither of them know it, while also being acutely aware of everything-

they celebrated 25 years of their matelotage. they are having sex on the regular. both of them think the other thinks their contract is purely for financial reasons and the sex is just fun + convenience.

#'hes just having sex with /me/ because he knows im not going to stab him in the back (literally)' #meanwhile theyre having the most tender schmoopy sex known to man because theyre both so fucking in love #(not 2 say anything abt the actual sex theyre having they can be as rough as they want itll still be tender because theyre having FEELINGS) #'of course we have a matlotage it'd be silly to not have a financial agreement when our lives are so entwined. whats mine is his' #and at the same time theyre celebrating anniversaries with blowout bashes and gifts and shit and just #theyre so fucking aware of their marriage but theyre SO STUPID about it #'but what if he doesnt like me like that' about the man whos slept next to him for decades #nyxtalks #ofmd #izzy hands #israel hands #edizzy #blackhands #anyway it ends when someone else finally points it out #classic steddyhands set up. eds talking about his relationship with izzy and stedes like 'youre married' 'yeah but not like that' #'absolutely yes like that edward- am i the other woman?????' and it takes a few days and a lot of convincing but they talk about it #and realise oh theyve been real actual married all their lives huh #que more fucking schmoopy sex. hand holding and tears and shit and maybe its a little cringe but its their wedding night ok ????????

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the picnic table scene

#this isnt going to make sense to literally any of you for a long time and im sorry about that #but FUCK was i writing this morning #man. man man man man Man the motivation Hit #this fic might get done after all... #i need. to go sleep. OUASGAHSAKJSNCADCLSKDVMS; #THEY MAKE ME INSANE THEY MAKE ME INSANE #YALL ALREADY KNOW WHO IM TALKING ABOUT #THEY MAKE ME CRAZY AGH AGH AGH #ok. ok. ill sleep. and we'll see if the scene holds up when my brain is Refreshed #absolutely unprompted #throwing myself to the ground and howling #who do i need to BITE #oh 7 am me we're really in it now #literally getting myself too worked up. im. Emotional. i almost feel like tearing up #if that was something i could do lmao #fortunately crying does not come easily to me but in my heart im like. idk. Sobbing #anyway in order to calm down im gonna go think about something that makes me equally insane #which is the OG reason i designed a butterfly look for howdy. yass!howdy's origins <3 #slamming my face through drywall ok bye im off to crazyville where i can catch a layover to sleepytown

[bumblingbabooshka]

Harry Kim saying Naomi is lucky to be born on Voyager and that he would have given "anything" to have her life when he was a kid...

#He sees NO downsides???? #Also I love how Neelix was yelling and panicked and Harry was like 'haha ok buddy. Hey this little guy is ugly huh~? See ya later!' #absolutely unbothered and not the least bit curious - love him <3 #saw someone post about how they don't like 'once upon a time' bc Neelix doesn't tell Naomi right away about her mother .... bro. #c'mon. Anyway I love Neelix and him trying so hard to shield Naomi from bad things / upset bc he KNOWS how fucking painful #it is to lose a family DID make me tear up. #Also Naomi in that burned-down forest (symbolic of innocence?) was a kickass visual. Neelix telling her about his family and Naomi trying #to comfort HIM??? SHE'S SUCH A GOOD KID MAN....Neelix making her a flotter doll was also v cute #OH AND Naomi going 'I Am Borg...' and Neelix going '~??? No you're not~!!!' and Naomi giggling...added NOTHING to the #episode - as it should be!! Sometimes you've just gotta have a really cute silly moment <3 #Tuvok: [says something] / Tom: Nice bedside manner Tuvok =_= #Tuvok: [about to say the most beautiful comforting words you've ever heard one parent say to another] And I took that personally. #Love how Naomi is scared of Seven at first...girl that's your roommate. #HEHEH she starts off the series scared of her but by the end she's her little buddy and also her intern #but yeah never forget that Harry Kim can and will say the most unhinged things but so casually that no one will really clock it #NEVER forget that he says he remembers.....either being an infant or his own birth - both WILD to me #Harry Kim lowkey loves destiny and being special and the idea of 'chosen ones' and the narrative even though he will fight it all if it #harms the ones he loves #Harry: (guy from an alternate timeline who replaced the dead Naomi with the alive one from his own) That kid's living the dream <3

[opikiquu]

(rocking back and forth in the corner of an empty room) save me white boy save me white boy save me white boy s

oh my god. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS . BOY.

#my first reaction was ‘what? his eyes do glow!’ and then i proceeded to cry #★ arin rambles #sorry i need to let this out #AVENTURINE. AVENTURINE oh dear #IM DR RATIO YOOHOO #HEYYYYY HEY HEY HEY HEY PLELASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEE #IM BEGGING YOU. IM BEGGING YOU #im getting a job so i can e6 him /j #Yall im obsessed with this man i have to have him kill me #like everytime i see him my eyes pop out like those ugly stupid pens with squishy animals on them #i think my body mustve sensed him or something #i literally woke up at 7 am in a cold sweat #im not gonna be normal #IM NOT GONNA MAKE IT #5 DAYS IS TOO LONG YALL IM NOT MAKING IT #IM GOING TO THROW UP #aventurine pleade aventurine please aventurine aventurine save me #AVENTURINE. #Please babygirl what i gotta do to get a suicidal blonde to kiss me around here??????? #sorry if you follow me it will get worse #he a masterpiece . he changed my life . he a work of art……. #aventurine honkai star rail #hsr aventurine #AVENTURINE #OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OH MY GOD PLEASEEEE P #PLEASE ONE CHANCE ONE MINUTE ONE SECOND JUST A GLANCE #im gonan thriw up IM GONNA DIE #tears in my eyes

[sonicsquid3000]

What if William made MC forget about him completely?

If you wanna skip the introduction you can scroll down to the next paragraph. This is my first post every here and my first fanfiction. This is from the dating game ikemen villains that just released to the US recently and I'm very excited. I've just started the game and I'm currently on chapter 6 on my William Rex route. (I'd be further but I'm broke :')) Even so, i already have angst prepared. Keep in mind none of this is cannon what so ever and everything can and will be inaccurate to the game timeline. Also I will be using my mc's name rather than the in game name. If people like it a lot and want a y/n version of the fanfic I will gladly make another. If you want a proper, more brushed up version of the fanfic, you can find it on AO3 (once i get my account that is) Anyway, enough talk. Lets get into it! Warning: grammatical errors

It was beautiful day in London which was quite rare considering how gloomy the city could be. Belle was sitting on a bench in a park reading her rendition of Lewis Carrol's "Alice in Wonderland" that had released a few decades ago. She was dressed in a simple yet fine dress of browns and greys, befitting of the current fashion period, complementing her warm caramel skin. Her ebony hair was picked up in a beautiful bun with a few strands of hair gently arranged. She looked far more elegant than compared to a few years ago when she was just a letter carrier, barely making it by.

She enjoyed reading her book along with hearing the sounds of the birds chirping, the carriages rolling by, and the few bits of laughter and giggling of children off in the distance. But all of that was interrupted when she heard one important voice call out to her. "Isabelle!" the man shouted, catching up to her. She looked up and smiled seeing who it was. She closed her book and got up from the bench and approached him. She felt warm and fuzzy just as much as she did when she first laid her eyes on him. Just as handsome as he ever was. He was the one man that could make her feel like she was in the stars above. The love of her life. Her dearest and darling husband........ Bryan Bennett.

When she finally approached him, she gave him a deep and loving kiss and he returned it with the same amount of tenderness. "I thought I had lost you there for a moment." he said with a smile. "Oh, and i brought you these." He then handed Belle a bouquet of flowers made from an assortment of red, pink, and yellow carnations, daffodils, butterfly weed, hyssop's and forget-me-not's. "Oh, these are beautiful! Thank you Bryan." Belle said as she gave him a gentle kiss on the cheek. "Come my dear. Lets not be late for the play." He said as he offered his arm to her. Belle gladly accepted as they made their way out of the park.

As they left the park, Belles eyes caught upon a man that made her blood run cold. William Rex. The last she saw of him, he invited her to one of his social gatherings where he made here feel welcomed at first but was quickly cornered by him. He would've done who knows what had it not been for her now husband. On one hand, thanks to him, the two of them were able to meet and fall in love. Then again, she shutters from the thought of that memory. As they walked by, he gave a smile. For what, she was unsure. He then walked away to who knows where. Every time she saw him, she felt unease and nervous around him. Yet at the same time, deep inside of her, a small part of her felt sad every time she saw him. Why, she was not sure. She payed no mind and walked with her husband to the theater.

*Flashback*

"No! I'm not leaving!" Belle yelled. "Belle please, your month is over and your free to go back to your normal life. This isn't a place you want to remain in" William urged her, sounding completely different from when they first met. "I know and I don't care! I can't.... I can't leave you." she whisperd. "Belle..." he said heartbroken. "You once told me," she started "that I was the only person who had the power to voice how my heart feels. I always ignored it, fearing of bothering others or getting my heart broken. But now I'm listening to what you said and telling you I love you. I did ever since I bumped into you in one of my deliveries. Yes, I was scared when I first saw you kill that man. But you've shown me there's more to you than that. You're kind and sweet and always care about how I or others feel. You commit crimes but you do it for good and the good of others. and no matter how much you or others may call you a villain, your not. You're a hero." "Belle, please..." William pleaded. "Let me stay with you William. Please... I love you..." Belle begged. "I......." he had the words stuck in his throat. He reached out his hand, about to cup her face. His hands were shaking as he could barely keep his composure. ".......I'm sorry." He said and he placed his outstretched hand on her shoulder. "What are you-" "SLEEP." He commanded. She could feel his power taking over. She tried her hardest to resist, but nothing was powerful enough to break Williams command. As she was about to collapse, He caught her and swiftly carried her bridal style. He always hated using his power, and the last person he ever wanted to use it on was Belle. But he had no choice.

***

"You used your power on her?!" Victor yelled. "I know, I shouldn't have. But there was no other choice." William explained. "William, I understand that you love her very much, but this is much farther than you normal prefer to go. I mean, forcing her to stay-" "She wanted to stay." William interrupted. "I... I couldn't let her. I went too far and now she wants to get caught up in this world we live in. We're cursed Victor. One day we'll meet a horrible end. And I...... I cant do that to Belle. I can't leave her heartbroken and miserable after I die." William said as a single tear began to roll down his cheek. "My god..." Victor exclaimed. "You really fell hard for this one, haven't you?" William gave a soft, sad nod.

Victor sighed "I did warn her not to get attached to anyone in the crown.... So, how do you propose we fix this dilemma?" William rummaged through his coat and grabbed a very special book that belonged to Belle. "You don't mean-" Victor gasped. "Belle has the fairy tale keepers blessing. And that blessing is imbued in this book." William explained. "The power to write ones fate." Victor breathed "Yes. The power has only ever been to record the events of history and fairy tales. Setting them all in stone. But what if we can change the story?" William suggested. "No! That is too risky!" Victor yelled. "You don't know what that can do! How would you even-?!" "I know the exact moment to change." William said, turning to the page of their first date. When he invited her to one of his special tea parties and introduced her to Bryan Bennett.

She was a big fan of his journalism and activism but she was to nervous to speak to him. So William cornered her to all wall to catch Bryan's attention. She was in no danger what so ever. He simply played the part of the villain and led her to her knight in shinning armor. She quickly realized this and was more flustered than she was angry.

Victor frowned. "She holds this memory dear to her. You know that, right?" William sighed. "I know. But this is the only way" William said as he grabbed the nearest pen. "....... You do realize you'll forever be the villain her story?" Victor warned. William froze by then, turned to him and gave him a melancholy smile. "... When have we ever not been the villain?" With that final remark, he took his pen and erased nearly everything. Every encounter, every emotion, every tender moment between the two. He erased there the crown and how she met them. He erased their final days together. All he left, was that one night together and changed it so that he could, in now way, redeemable. Every scratch of those beautiful words she wrote about him was like a dagger to his heart. It broke him to erase the moments they had. But there was no other way to protect her. He had to do it....

*present*

As William was on a walk for his next mission, he stopped and saw Belle happy with her husband Bennett. He smiled at the two sadly. Everything before still happened. Belle spent a month with the crown, her and William still had their dates and they still fell in love. The only difference was that Belle had no recollection of their time together or the crown. For all she knew, William was a cruel and manipulative man. The thought stung him. He never thought he would feel so horrible about being seen as a villain until she came along. No matter what she may think, he would always love her. As the couple walked out of the park, Belle caught a glimpse of William. He gave her a soft smile and walked away. Not wanting to ruin her happily ever after.

#ikemen villains #ikevil #william (ikevil) #victor (ikevil) #cant forget about byran bennett #omg first post #literally so nervous to post #if anyone knows how to work tumblr please help. it would mean a lot #am i doing any of this right? #william my love <3 #ANGST! #i feed on others tears #want more angst? look up the flowers meanings in love #man this is long. oh well #fan art is welcomed #POC lets go!

[hwaitham]

a vewy joyous vewy peaceful birthday full of lov 2 da bestest character ever n ever n ever n ever..! ( ྀི ೀ o̴̶̷᷄ o̴̶̷̥᷅ ) everyone wanting to giv him a bdai kissie pwz line up in orderly fashion ! ! tho … may i trouble u n’ ask that i go first :3 ?? hehe

#जानू ˖ ࣪⊹ #haithie day!┌|o^▽^o|┘)♪ #no amount of mi typing in all caps or keysmashing or abusing exclamation marks will suffice . #like .. i don think anyone understands how much i Love him #most times ​it feels like a knife twisting in m heart n fire scorching m blood #so visceral n fervent i am positive i hav not lovd ﾉ will never love another fictional man as much as i do alhaitham #im j sat slumped over in m bed after seeing his birthday art i love him so madly so desperately it makes mi Sad ;w; #dont even get mi started on his chibi art .. i didnt think i would cry my heart out at it like what!!!!!!! #he has fwiends!!!!! :c n he's learning to enjoy their camaraderie!!!! :c n they Care about him n love him for HIM like oh my goshhhhh!!!!!! #he's so so so loved n it makes mi tear up .. ( ′̥̥̥ ᵔ ‵̥̥̥ ྀི) #i cant even explain why im so emotional this all feels too embarrassing!!!!! #im sorrie 4 loving him so much like!!!!! T T what the heckles girlfriend r u okay!!! #sorrie ermm anw .. i hv queued up a whole buncha stwuffs last nite 2 be posted all throughout 2dai #i dont think i cn handle being online wifout being debilitated by my love for him sorrie sorri sorrie sorrie sorrie

[rowenabean]

In retrospect it was perhaps a bit naive to go visit my friend and expect it to all be amazing showstopping wonderful and the emotions to be just magically gone

Reminds me of when I was a first year doctor and both my grandparents had just died and I collapsed in tears in my extremely lovely but extremely awkward supervisor's office about how all the patients looked just like my grandparents and he just looked at me and said "did you expect to be ok?"

#for the record although he was not particularly a man equipped for people breaking into tears in his office that was a helpful thing to say #like ...oh #i guess it is normal for grief to look like this #and i guess it is normal for seeing a person to stir up emotions about that person #a lot of it was grief: now the lonely living alone time is coming to an end i can grieve how long it was #and some of it was self-pity: i am not the same to you that you are to me #which them being so loved up atm did NOT help with #it was helpful to go to pottery tonight and to see a friend who could say yes. sometimes the thing that is good is hard. #(she has specific reason to know this and is going on a very similar style of trip tomorrow) #rowena adventures

[confetti-critter]

The night is young and I am free to do whatever my heart desires but unfortunately I have once again found myself trapped in the Time Prison and so I

#the good old 'I don't feel like doing anything including doing nothing and I want to go to bed but I know I'm not tired' #WEH. #I'm enjoying typing but I don't want to commit to practicing typing for real so I'm just making excuses to type more #I was looking at custom ESC keycaps because I was thinking about that whole community of ppl obsessed with keyboards and like I get it I #like the clicky clacking and keyboards can look so pretty but some of those key caps man wtf. #why would you want 3D transparent donald duck ESC key from temu what is wrong with you #saw a set of key caps that were little kittys with little kitty ears n I was like fuuuuuuuuuck #49.00 USD probably 100000 CAD+shipping goto helllll #I was thinking about what if I had like confetti keycaps and a custom kittycake esc key or like an actual little cake and matching desk mat #or even just a new cute mousepad cuz mine is old as fuck and I spilled vegetable cream stew on it once #and then I was thinking like sighhh and wouldn't it be cool to have arcade carpet on the stairs leading down to my basement hovel and #rainbow lights along the ceiling corners and what if I painting my bedroom like I wanted to do and sighhhhh #I haven't been wasting my money buying shit like that but I'm thinking about it again. #but the same thing stopping me from doing anything at all is stopping me from wasting my money which like that's good I guess??????? #gosh I really like typing why did I stop doing daily typing practice #oh yea The Thing Stopping Me From Doing Anything At All #meow meowm meow meow meow #ok I really gotta tear myself away from my computer and brush my teethses and try going to bed #I already played minecraft earlier it's fine I didn't do NOTHING tonight it just feels like I did #and tomorrow is another day #and next week is a short work week thank fucking christ almighty #literally cuz its easter sunday and he was in that tomb but he escaped or whatever he did #thanks jeezy boy #you maybe shoulda milked it for like half a week at least #moved the big ass boulder like have an inch at a time #*pause for laughter* #that s from my new stand up comedy routine do uiuop like it djfskll;askjdgflksjdflksajdflksjdf the dsjalkjfolidasfgjoiweljsdalkjflskdjflak #meowww #I am the only one I know on here who 'talks' this fucking much about absolutely nothing #I do all this and my poor followers can click read more and spend time reading alllllll this garbage

[creature-once-removed]

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#finished my Penny Dreadful rewatch #oh man I would have loved that ending so so much if it had had three more seasons to it #it's really beautiful in its tragedy. it's a good one because it's so wrong #they make so many wrong decisions for all the right reasons. but they're still wrong #I love love love the core element of a cosmic guard dog solely destined to accompany and serve his ward. and then he can't #because he made the wrong choices out of desperate confusion. because everyone in this show is so human #cosmic level destiny being fucked up by the sheer human-ness of its agents is a wonderful thing when done tragically #and suddenly the only options left for an ending are the worst ones #that is such a great story #oh how I wish they would have had the time to tell it right #because this last season is so cheap in so many ways #what you can make out through the rubble and the bullshit is beautiful #but sadly just that #edit I am not done #this show does dog tropes so well it made me cry real tears #Ethan sitting in Vanessa's room all day just. watching where she used to be #peak mourning dog behavior #I don't even like dogs #but that trope #I'll eat it up whole #credits to Josh Hartnett though he was born for that duality #I love that man's layered performances. he has the ability to make paradoxes seem as naturally human as they are #it's everything to me

[roaringheat]

collapses to the ground and destroys everything within a 5 mile radius with how distraught and heartbroken I am

#vark posts #v live blogging #HOOOOW AM I SUPPOSED TO COPE #i cant even put my thoughts into words #i am just all emotion and nothing else #oh my god #Arthur........ #ohhhhhh my goddddddd #im about to start tearing up the drywall #fuck man he literally gave his all to save who he could #literally every last bit right until the end #him laying on the ground wheezing actually crushed my soul u dont understand #AND HE DIED ALONE #im glad he was able to save who he could and help john get out and shit #knowing Arthurs character and how self sacrificing he is im sure he was happy to die to keep them safe so at least theres that closure #IM SOOOOO MAD MICAH DIDNT DIE #SOOOOOOOOOOO MAD #I CANNOT BELIEEEEEVE HES MADE IT OUT ALIVE #and theyre just gonna TIME SKIP? #LET ME SEE THE OTHERS AT LEAST #im gonna crumble into a million pieces what happened to charles and sadie and karen and tilly #i hope to fuck im gonna see them again in however long this whole playing as john thing goes #i cannot fuckin believe I didn't cry #if theres anything to prove im near incapable of crying its this bullshit cause i felt like my soul was leaving my body #i did tear up DEFINITELY #fuck man i just want Arthur back #i need him to just fuck off on a self care run and for him to be genuinely happy and not used #extremely good story telling 11/10 i feel like i got ripped apart but its ok im ok im normal #such an incredible and heartbreaking ending for such a complex caring man #the doomed by the narrative trope written in literally the best way ive ever seen

[orcelito]

my heart fucking dropped here. Vash compartmentalizing like crazy, and then the reveal of him having used nearly half of his remaining life power...

using his literal life force to give himself time to bury wolfwood and recover...

for His Sake... eat and regain strength for Him...

aaaaand i started crying here for the Fifth Time at the callback to when vash and wolfwood fought over the sausage while eating spaghetti

aaahahaahahaha

and that's the end of volume 10! ahah ha ha h ha

Ha.

#speculation nation #fanny reads trigun #trigun spoilers/ #last image. is how i feel right now. #literally. 5 times crying. LITERALLY i have cried only three times total this year besides this #so now i have cried 8 times. and FIVE OF THEM. were for wolfwood. #(yes im keeping track. i cry so rarely it's very easy to keep track of how many times i cry.) #i am. never going to be the same person after this. #my entire vashwood experience up until now was Knowing this was going to happen #recognizing the Painful Things. the Couch. the 'I wanted to share my tomorrows with him'. and so on. #but i really was not prepared. i reaaaaaally was not prepared. #i shouldve fuckin saved this for a time when i dont have a presentation in the morning (that i havent even started) #it's... it's fine... i'll be fine. #ultimately this was happening NOW and i couldnt really stop it. #volume 10. fucking Volume Ten man. nothing else has hit me harder. #really this is a new record. previous records for things that have made me cry were tales of xillia 2 that made me cry twice #critical role calamity made me cry twice. nabari no ou made me cry at Least once & i was fuckin bawling so that counts for smth #but. five times. tears down my face sobbing Five Times. nothing has EVER made me cry this much before. this is literally insane. #oh wolfwood.............

[1980ssunflower]

nuzzles my face against my baby ryan 🥺💖

#f/o:💖what a fool believes🎸 #tape entry circa 1980 #SILLAY MODE ENGAGED #FACE OF A MAN WHO HAS JUST PISSED OFF MIN HFDJS #OOOO my baby ;w; #i miss him so so fucking much i like. literally had a breakdown abt how much i missed him a couple days ago ghdfjk #full on sobbing abt how much i love and miss him and need him here holding me #i really want to be vulnerable w him and wrap my arms around him as bury my face in the crook of his neck #oh god id do anything to hear him... i want to hear his beautiful wonderful angelic voice... IM TEARING UP AGAIN #everything about him... its so wonderful... him and my min-gi own my entire heart #id do anything for them... i love them... #thinking of ryans voice makes me tear up from how much i love and miss him... #i want to hear him tell me how talented i am and he knows ill be able to do all the things id like and be something great #that he knows im destined to be a rockstar and we all will get to be rockstars together :'-] #i want him to play w my hair while he talks to me and runs his other hand over my body caressing me #id like to hear him sing to meee #maybe we'll put on a record or just listen to a tape and sing the songs together #id also like for us to play some guitar together :-] #ive been making progressing again on this song last night that i had to put off w stuff + surgery #and i feel like ryan would be proud of me :'-] #but just auh my heart is so full i just love my baby more than there are stars in the sky type of thing #i want to take in his scent and be comforted by it and his presence and how im being held against him #holding his pretty face in my hands and looking into his beautiful dark brown eyes #smoothing out his hair and tucking any loose strands behind his ear #kiss his pretty hands... just all over just hold it to my face as i keep planting little kisses all over #on his finger tips where his callouses from playing guitar are eheh #anyways aouh ( blasts thunder road by bruce springsteen while thinking of ryan and me )

[miss-nielle]

oh.

#man……. #this is so bad for me #im down so bad #i feel like throwing up you’ve got me wide awake at almost 3 am with only you on my mind #this is embarrassing i cant believe myself #this is SO BAD #i feel likee tearing my hair out…… my heart is legit in my throat j thinking about u!!! #this is sick and frankly disrespectful of you PLEASE LET ME REST #god……. #i miss u #i miss you. #i love you! #i don’t know if i’m in love with you but i feel so much for you it is bigger than me #i love u i love u i love u i feel like light around you #a piece of my soul is yours til i breathe my last i hope u know that #oh my darling my bestfriend #i wish i were your home the way you are mine #just need to let this out somehow so i dont end up texting you omg….. #im just. youre so #you. are so much and i want it all ugh #ughhhhhh…. why you (you are the softest bestest brightest person i know) WHY YOU. #whyy ;-; #cant believe this is so cliche im so cliche waaaaaaahhhh #and to not wanna tell u bc its been YEARS but like im still here! oh! ! #come back be here !

[ninjaaa-go]

It just hit me that I’m going to have to watch the fucking David stuff all over again in the tlou show. God, that’s gonna hurt

#When I tell you I cried #man I was eviscerated playing through that chunk of the game #I am so not ready to watch that again #god just thinking about the cutscene after Ellie kills David is making me tear up #oh boy #the last of us #the last of us 2013 #the last of us hbo #tlou

[toomanywordsnllines]

Being a little angsty here but...

Thinking about how Soap probably uses rain to cry and hide his tears, it's not like anyone can see the difference. And during rainy days everyone is inside so...

I gave myself emotional damage thinking about this so... I shall share it too! :'D

#hes always hidding his sadness behind a smile #and rain brings him an instant melancholy he just can't really hide #so on rainy days he just disappears for hours and let's himself have a good cry #dreaching himself in the process but then no one can really tell what's tears and what's rain right? #he probably will just push himself to run never ending laps in the rain so he can just get rid of the feeling #it doesn't work not really just makes it worse cus now he has to try to control his breathing and cry and he's just a mess #i am going hard on the absolute lack of control soap has for his negative emotions #he runs and runs and then ends up on the floor staring at the sky crying harder than he meant bc everything just got too much #am i projecting? who knows :') #just... soap laying on the floor hands pressing hard against his eyes gasping #for breath and in between sobs failling miserably #he stays there until he doesn't feel like throwing up anymore and then goes and showers in his room #crying just starting up again #after he's done with all he just lays in his room #and for the next couple of days doesn't leave his room unless strictly necessary #faking being happy when he does just makes everything worse #man this is so sad why do i do this to myself :'( #oh well #i just needed to ramble this on here #cus i just saw some posts saying that more people need to write soap being sad and #FUCKING TRUE #BUT GOD DOES IT HURT #manyrambles #brought to you by me making myself sad by thinking about soap being sad #also is this too... emo? sjsjskmsksk #'yeah i cry in the rain cus it hides my tears' sounds very emo #cod #john soap mactavish #call of duty soap #call of duty