#ok Im gonna get out of bed now

[birdricks]

sleepyhead lol….

#rick and morty #rick sanchez #NOT GENDERBEND ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ TRANSFAG‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #LOL just smth kinda quick cus im supposed to be. studyinh….. #this pose was crazy hard to work out at first but i think it looks ok now #inspired byyyy. i got a new binder. feels good 👍 #used myself as reference Deepest apologies if he looks a little gay. #for the record please imagine bp alseep on the bed just out of frame. my artitsic vision #oh my god my head. i forgkt to drink wortor….. #was gonna jsut post this as flats but i have to be insane in the head abt things so hoepfully this wacky lighting doesnt look too odd LOL #idk why i cant like remmeber how any of my blending layers r supposed to work #oh disclaimer dont sleep in binders LOL. im sure thats not what ppl r gonna get from this #but just to be clear. lolol dont do that #ok i cant tweak this anymore or ill go insane. POST #artsbotz

[fandom-blackhole]

My friends, idk how, but im gonna figure out a way to share my final presentation with you guys for a class after I finish it. Because I'll be damned if I'm gonna be this passionate about this thing, do all the research, make a ppt AND cardboard tri-fold, and present this at a "Research Symposium" for 2 hours to whoever stops at my booth during finals week to not share with the people I like most 😤

Basically for the project we have to take a person or event and give background on them before analyzing them through a Social Psychology lense (bc the class is social psychology lol). AND GODS DO I LOVE SHIT LIKE THISSSSS. I will not be sharing what event I chose for two reason: 1) I want ya'll to read and learn about it through my post when I post it 😌 and 2) It's a REALLY obscure event from what I've gathered (like I barely have 5 sources for references and one's ONLY in german) and I doubt many would know what I was talking about.

#Ive literally been working on it all night basically (and have little to show but aesthetics) #BUT! I did get all my photos i currently have and their captions put in too!! #I just need to fill in the slides with their info #im literally chopping at the bit to show you guys bc im so fucking into this project #i love being a psych major 🥰🥰🥰 #I have been this excited about something in AWHILEEEEERE #I can wait to look through social psych theories and ideas and figure out which im gonna hold up for anlaysis #we are just at the stage of turning in the first part which is just the who. what. when. where. why. #the how (which will be the theories) will be next part to turn in #but god am i invested and ferally upset about this story #ok i need to go to bed now so that i can finish this project tomorrow so i can turn it in :) #ill rb this a few times to gauge interest but besties im 100% posting it no matter how the poll turns out #im just too pumped and i want to SHARE with people who know and like me (i mean i think yall like me lol) #social psychology #college final project

[darewolfcreates]

wood fired morel mug :]

#my art #ceramics #clay art #clay #3d art #mushrooms #artists on tumblr #fungi #mug #mushroom mug #and so it begins! #im gonna probobly space out posting the ceramics i did last semester a bit more than what i did last winter brake #but heres the first one your getting! #ok i go to bed now- #(idk if im gonna be able to glaze all the peices ill be posting cuz i made more end poem mugs and for some reason glaze is eating them...)

[thecubes]

im gonna start throwing things

#i went back to bed for a nap #fell fully asleep rem dreaming etc etc #dream i get to meet g. we are sat face to face on some desk. i shake his hand #i dont wanna let go but im being polite about it. not gonna nick his hand yk #hes like oh its ok. holds my hand. so i hold his hand for longer and we just sit holding hands #and. im like ok im being really too much now and hes like nope. and puts his hand on top of mine #thumb rubs and All #god damn #and then when that fizzled out i got a very realistic stress dream that the government accidentally gave me my #uc too early and i had to pay it back but id already spent it and would need to produce nearly 300 quid out of my arse #just woke up like can i please go back to holding g's hand. god

[todayisafridaynight]

obsessed with the bullets from my 'physical impacts from 'gaming'' notes for class cause they all talk about violence and aggression an yeah that sure is a thing in videogames but have you considered ichiban deserves to enact a lil violence. just a bit. also he's the light of my life and the ray of sunshine in the dark and

#snap chats #the videogame segment funny as hell in general cause theres bullets where its like #'yeah youre putting yourself in the position of these hyperviolent and dangerous people' #and then im thinkin of ichiban calling a fuckin crawfish on his phone like yeah. deadly stuff right there youre right professor #tho now that i mention ichiban Aw Fuck he might be the worst/best example of videogames and the correlation of violence #if not solely because his fighting method is literally influenced by dragon quest but i repeat hes valid and its ok <3 #anyway sorry i have to be sick in the head stop reading now if youre a fish. or daigo bear GET OUT #theres a note here like 'increase in arousal' and Honey. if my eyeballs observing this community have a comment on that-- #im not guiltless tho 😔 saw that forbidden masato katsu screenshot and i got sick <- still obsessed with how gorg he is #AND WHY DID THEY REMOVE THAT SCENELVKLVKJ ITLL FOREVER BE FUNNY AS HELL #THERES JUST THIS GORJUS AS CHRIST SHOT OF KATSU AND ITS LOST TO THE RGG VAULT #rgg please one high-rendered cutscene of ishin masato is not enough for me. his smile was so cute in the scene pleeaaaaasssee bro #im so ill. anyway im gonna lay in bed for the next five hours until my last class #i thought i was gonna stream but if i even try talking i just might throw up. also i should prob do my comm work instead OOP #luckily its just sketches this week so.... maybe i can stream tomorrow or thursday... #dont quote me on that i suck. anyway bye

[marsbotz]

goodnighttttt ^_^

#just remembered when i was on twitter and ended up making literally daily goodnight tweets. i was insane #im gonna try not to do that agin. my last goodnight. #but look at this horse its silly #jesus christ i was soooo ill on twitter. not even an effect of twitter itself just long term social media exposure does that to me #i get like addicted to ppl liking my posts. like bot even in a numbers way just i like ppl acknowledging me #if we go back further like 2017 iwas super fucked abt that LOL like literally every other dya like ‘does anyone like me 🥺’ LOLLL #i was likeee 15. man #i mean im still like that now if anything im getting worse w it again but immmm trying to not follow thru w stuff #lol watever ! [shruggles] #wait srry thats referencing arlly specific image. im not just being weird. lol #i thinkkk tmrw. tmrw. i want to be out of bed by 8-9 LATEST. and i need to do uni notes #but id also like to DRAW. and mayeb ill play some more hl #maybe a bit ambitious but oh well #ok anyway gn actually now

[sukugo]

got COCKBLOCKED in my own HOUSE (both literally and figuratively 🤔)

#f.txt #the house is my dreams. but the dream was in my house #ANYWAYS I HAD A DREAM. WHERE I WAS GONNA FUCK ANAKIN. BUT I DIDN'T BC DGSKDHSJHD #MY MOM CAME INTO THE ROOM 😭😭😭 #so it started with anakin and me in a room. anakin was on a desk with his back to me working on some stuff on a computer #he was wearing s shiny tight leather jacket and jeans. and FUCK did he look delicious. just incredible #so i go to him and i like lift up his jacket from behind and start grabbing his waist. #and then i grab his crotch and start rubbing it (he had a tiny dick <3) (AND I STILL REMEMBER THE FEELING OF IT 😭😭😭😭) #at first he doesn’t want to and he kinda resists. but we all know im into that shit. #but then actually he does get into it and wants to. so i take him and push him into the bed #OK DGDJHF actually there was someone else who wanted to fuck him too in the room with us #idk who it was and for some reason all i remember is that it was spiderman (but i go like BITHC IM gonna fuck him) #(actually i think we agreed to both do it or smth idk) so then there's like some dick grabbing action going on #and then. my mom comes in. #and I'm like. girl. why. why would u do this to me. how could u fucking do this to me. do u not see me having THE moment of my life. #so she uhh sees us. and she's like uhhhh. and we make like if we weren't doing anything ahaaa whaat nothing weird going on here. #so in a desperate attempt to continue i grab anakin's hand and take him to the other room. where apparently there's my brother. #and i want to cry. bc CANT A GIRL HAVE HER PRIVACY PLS (like i get it irl but NOT EVEN IN NY DREAMS 😭😭) #anyways so instead we just like. lay in bed. im between his legs bc no one's gonna fucking get me out of ther now lmao #and we start playing clapping games. bc what else are we supposed to do. and my mom COMES IN HERE too #to u know check up on what we're doing. and the position is uhh not innocent but we're like hey we're just playing. #so she leaves. and then we get up and run in circles lmao. #but anyways yeah that was the end of the anakin fucking 😭😭😭 #then it was hours of me having to listen to my mom and aunt talking about life hardships or smth #OH BUT THE END. i had another lil dream about exo/specifically kai. SPECIFICALLY about his thighs. #like there was a comeback or smth but his thighs were incredible. and then there's like a dance scene but he's mini tiny shorts #and when he moves u can See Things 😳👀 #anyway that is the story. no anakin fucking for me 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i feel like this dream is so. representation of my Life. like yeah. this is literally my life.

[pulchrasilva]

Having people you care about who are suicidal while you're not suicidal is truly a special torture I think I want to go back to wanting to kill myself im gonna throw up

#vent post #it's just. knowing theres no quick fix or surefire solution because there never was for /you/ #it feels a little hopeless yknow? like what can i do really? how can i singlehandedly restore your faith in the world? #how can i stop your body from causing you constant pain? #i literally cant. and im not good at handling the fact that i cant do much #doesnt help that last time a friend tried to kill themself i sorta didnt see or didnt take note of the warning signs #now someone is letting me see all the warning signs it's setting off the 'THIS IS WAY WORSE THAN LAST TIME ALARMS' and idk if thats true #but its really putting me on edge about it #for forever i was used to knowing people who want to kill themselves but dont ever take action to do it #which is miserable and terrible but it's not particularly scary #PLUS doesnt help that by coincidence i was remembering other horrible miserable things that happened after my friend tried to kill themself #and my brain loves to imagine what mjght happen if they /do/ try to kill themself. what I'll do when i find out. whay ill do if they succeed #i dont really want to think about it but we're thinking about it i guess #hey isnt it kinda funny that my parents /still/ dont know my friend tried to kill themself that night #and i got yelled at for being antisocial while i was sobbing and sick with grief and unable to get out of bed #oh im gonna throw up. anyway #dont mind me im mostly ok #feeling a little sick but i can manage

[frecklystars]

i hope colt likes me. i have so much love to give him. i hope he doesnt mind i have so much... wrong with me. i hope he doesnt get too annoyed when i turn into a star or when i get scared or when i go nonverbal after a flashback. i hope he'd still hold my star form very close to his chest and tell me it's all gonna be okay and that he'd protect me and i'm safe.

i hope he likes it in the mojo dojo casa keri ken dreamhouse. ken stocked the place with drinks and games and snacks and a big welcome banner. i hope he gets along with driver and K... im always hoping those two can make more friends. i hope he tolerates me even when im Like This. i hope he doesnt mind when i ask for a hug multiple times a day bc i dont have anyone to hug at home. i hope he understands why i ask for reassurance that he wouldnt hurt me. maybe ken welcomes him into the group and has to give him a little rundown on how things work. like... what they all do when their girlfriend turns into a star, how they can make her feel better, how long a flashback lasts, where shes okay with being touched and where she isnt, that her jolting awake from a nightmare is normal and spending a full day crying is normal and stress vomiting is normal and she might need a lot of emotional support with all of that. i hope colt doesnt mind. he seems kindhearted and understanding. i want to hope he'd be okay with me being Like This.

i hope he likes me. im so damaged and scarred and have been poisoned to fear my loved ones, but i know im so full of love and i want him to have all of it. even if he doesnt love me back i just hope he can accept a piece of my heart is reserved just for him. i wanna hold his hands and tell him i'm sorry i'm like this. i used to be so fun and bubbly and trusting and i used to love myself. i don't know where that girl went. i don't know if i can get her back but i'm really trying. in the meantime i'm sorry he's stuck with this mess. and selfishly i hope he still likes me even when i'm unlovable, or at least that is what i have been taught to believe for so long now, and i don't know how to believe anything else about myself. i love him so much. i love colt so much. i dont feel anything except self-loathing when i look at him, for months since october when the first few photos leaked, it's always felt that way, like my heart's been ripped out of my chest. like i rly love him so much but i dont think he'd tolerate me. i didn't use to feel that way about my F/Os but now i cannot look at myself as anything except a total wreck that they have to deal with. like loving me is some... some herculean task and that they would just absolutely hate it. like loving others is so easy for them but not when it comes to me. kindness comes so easy to them but not for me, like im. just. built to be loved only through violence. like there is no other way for me to be loved unless if im getting hurt. but... hopefully when the movie comes out i could slowly get into the rhythm of associating him with myself and with him being really loving and gentle and protective with me.

#vent #ptsd #lowkey dreading the movie to come out. i am just sad. all the time. or scared #or maybe thats just The Trauma™ #once this movie comes out im just gonna cryyyy #and then the second time i see the movie maybe i wont feel as bad. thats how it usually works now #every time i get a new F/O i just assume they'd absolutely hate me bc im not myself anymore #im just this scared and broken thing now. even my own name feels unfamiliar to me sometimes #i always tell ken im so sorry you had to fall in love with me and that i wish he met me before everything happened #ugh. ughhhhhh. ok im gonna cry and go to bed #im supposed to be up in 3 hours but i keep having flashbacks. i hate it here 😭 #i hope i dream about luke squeezing me in the biggest hug ever and then threatning my nightmares with his butterfly knife

[kaoharu]

also guys i lied i cant not talk abt the mv now screams

#✧ chatting ! #i was gonna head to bed but. its ok im not tired. and ive gotta get my thoughts out Now or i will forget

[calumsash]

fic moodboard inspired by subject line by @daydadahlias

Maybe the sunrise doesn’t matter much after all. Calum can watch the sunrise any day. How many days will he get Ashton like this? Shirtless, sporting bedhead in a hotel room, with just the two of them for a few lazy hours alone?

Soon enough, they’ll be back on the tour bus and Calum won’t be allowed to hold Ashton’s hand anymore.

#hello i am back with a fic moodboard how everyone act surprised! #i know this fic was posted less than 24 hours ago but they've been living in my mind for a month so this was bound to happen #another wonderful fic from jess so i had to show my love the only way i know <3 leave an essay of a comment and a mb #as i told jess the middle pic is them before the talk with brian (degratory). their last moments in ignorance of what's about to happen #used the paris picd cause <3 anniversary <3 #i feel like hand holding was very important in this fic so i gave it some love. whn i saw the quote i went HELL YEAH this was perfect #the vhs tape obviously had to be included #two beds.... 🥲 #and twitter getting a pic cause of the amazing tweets are such an important part of the fic i wasn't gonna leave it out #ok now that i rambled a bit go read it im already planning a reread #jess i hope you like this love u #cashton fic #fic moodboard

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

ohhhhhh my god my lead actress's big brown eyes...... girl you're killing me......

#and my male lead is quite literally blonde with blue eyes it's ridiculous #he's ok tho. actually i did find out today he played clarient in marching band in hs #so that's a red flag but hey i just need him to act and he's been pretty great at it. red flags are allowed <3 #he also got us our other guy we needed for some small scenes. so he's been invaluable despite the serial killer eyes #in truth he actually looks lke a panda to me. there's nothing wrong with his serial killer blue eyes i'm being mean #sorry for being anti men who play clarient. in my defense i've known those guys and i have never met one that didn't annoy me a little #anyway. she has beautiful big brown eyes and he is there. and our other guy is beautifully tragic and doomed <3 #that was my criteria for casting him. i said 'he needs to look beautiful and tragic' and then we found him #he did great today. i don't know if he likes me but he showed up and he wore all the outfits i told him to wear so #actually i think i act weird around good looking men. i think it's because once a hot guy is around i get one notch lower on the hierarchy #and i'm usually up there. frankly. so i don't like being lowered... #i mean you guys will see what he looks like eventually i'm gonna post the link to the film when it's done and i'm graduated #but he's Hot. i was scared of him for a moment. he was wearing sunglasses. and then i made him walk up a bigass hill #and then i made him be in vaguely homoerotic pictures. his words. he didn't seem to mind there were jokes had. jests even #and tomorrow at 11am im gonna make him stand on a bed and put stars on a wall while yelling at him to smile and look pretty #and well. that's awesome. heirarchy is restored once we all remember that i'm the guy in charge...... #anyway. i had an eventful day. 8am to now. i gotta go to sleep girls. #unfortunately that's not happening soon due to i've committed myself to reviewing today's footage. ok

[mariska]

me, disabled immunocompromised person who has been suffering from multiple debilitating diseases long before the ongoing covid pandemic started, having the opportunity to get the most recent vaccine booster and my seasonal flu shot at the same appointment today: woohoo!! thats a relief i was worried id have to wait way too long into the season to get any kind of protection, this turned out to be a great day for once, i feel awesome!!

me four hours later remembering that i am still a disabled immunocompromised person who has been suffering from multiple debilitating diseases long before the ongoing covid pandemic started when the side effects of said vaccines hit me like a truck the same way they have every time i get a new booster for the past three and a half years:

#djshsveihshsfh BUT IM STILL RELIEVED AND GLAD!!!! but GOD i wish my body reacted normally to proper medical protection #anyways im in bed half conscious im gonna drop my phone and pass out now goodnight lmao 😭 #also pls get boosted if u are able to!! i know the process is extremely dysfunctional here in the US at least but #this latest one is updated to give better protection against more recent variant strains (or strain? single? idk off the top of my head) #that previous ones cant properly protect well enough so this is an important one #they all are but this one especially. anyways love u guys stay safe wear a mask in public too! ok goodnight for real this time

[fifteensjukebox]

i haaate writing texts to people i barely talk to who also happen to not be Online people like. what version of myself am i allowed to be here

#a childhood friend (we went to school together ages 4-10 and have seen each other twice since - once close to school and once in january) #anw she asked what i thought of the barbie movie and i said sth about it being pop feminist in my first message and felt the need to double #text to explain what i meant by it and (somehow not physically but very much in spirit) i have a headache now #oh no wait there it is physically:) #oh uh #barbie spoilers #i guess but yeah it was at the level you'd expect it to be on that but perfect camp fun in general and i loved it sm #anw i feel like i should've left it at the fun camp side of my review that's what she probably meant #regardless ive done that now #if anyone's following along since the January party this is the friend who introduced john to our group and may or may not have been t #*subtly trying to set us up so we're gonna have to have that conversation eventually which is soooooo fun but i love her n i love that we'v #been reconnected #oh god i just remembered she's trying to have us meet up w the friend who hosted the party and was absolutely in on the me and john idea so #that specific psrt of it will be hell especially if it comes up that i was more interested in andrew who went to school with us and managed #to accidentally reject him.... although if undoing that comes out of it (unrejecting him that is) i would not mind he is so babygirl #ok i am going to get ready for bed!! it has been so much of a day #omg she replied about barbie #this is the most perfect review this is kind of all i cared about and you addressed it w/o asking #though now i'm excited to see what the story line is bc i haven't seen the trailers #im so relieved and i have a newfound faith in our rekindled friendship im so excited #also i just remembered sth #i was way more of a kelly club girl and i think i first played with actual grown barbies at her house!! we had sm fun and i remembered that #but this brought so much back still #vie

[wutheringmights]

.

#I’m so ready for this chapter to be done with #and I had a lot of hope that I could manage an update this weekend but I found out today that x is coming to visit #and listen. I’m at 20k so statistically it’s gonna get done sooner rather than later #but sooner might not be until next weekend and that frustrates me since I had an ideal update schedule I want to maintain #and I don’t want it to get messed up ma #*up #and it doubly sucks that the reason im so behind is that the holiday season kicked my ass on top of all the prep I had to #*to do for my friends wedding and I just. idk I don’t regret doing any of gang since it’s core memories but I kinda just reminds me that if #i want to live the life I want to live then writing will have to go on the back burner at times but I always want to be writing #like in high school my parents rented every episode of sharp’s rifle off of Netflix so that they could show it to me and my sibling #*sibling except I didn’t watch any of it since I was holed up in my room writing all the time like they all have this core memory of #watching this show together that I don’t have but if I didn’t hole up like that then I wouldn’t have practiced writing as a teen which #i needed to do since I wasn’t born a good writer and had to really learn if #*it cause I have no natural talents lmao yayyyy ok it’s 1am I’ll go to bed now #will delete probably

[angstyvylene-i]

angsty go to bed

I literally CANTTTT I drank like Two sip of coffe lol. Like I wish I wish I could drop dead sleep right now but like idk I widh I sdidnt drink that I really wish I didn't. I'm jidna hungry anway do I'm gonna eat simething right now ^_^. I sleep eay later nayway it's ok!!! Lol. Hi

#If theres way more typing mistakes than usualy it is because my hands are shakign XDDDD ots ok👍 #It's not even when I sleep rn. I sleep way later so #IM GONNA EAT FRIES SJTOTOJYKTKTKSAK #That's exactly how I feel right now that game theory dance video it's perfect. Hello internet walemcome to gaaaammand then I sance a little #I probably will sleep sorry #After I eat something. Bye #That's also funny because I AM laying in my bed rn so I just did that I went to bed. I'm getting out of it to est. Bye #Lol