#ok im done rambling now

[townslore]

drew myself cause i got a haircut today and im super happy w it ^^

#when the towns lore #personal art #my bangs were like. suuuuper long they went over my entire face #that resulted in me not being able to cover my forehead and that made me feel ugly :( #plus the long bangs made it feel like my hair wasnt that long overall even tho now i realize it IS #AND I LOVE IT #last year in june i decided i would grow my hair out... at first it was bc of sally face and then bc of goro cause gender #so then i grew it out and i rlly loved my hair! #but then when i went to get a haircut due to my mom complaining the hairdresser CUT IT ALL OFF #I DID NOT TELL HER TO DO THAT. #i was sooo unhappy & was not able to like my appearance with the short hair #idk i just hated it #so i grew it out again but due to her cutting it super weirdly my bangs grew longer than the rest of my hair #so i felt even UGLIER #but today i finally got my bangs cut. they can cover my forehead again #and my sides are kinda cut so that the fall onto my face too #i think it looks cool :)) #i decided i will wear my bear hat again too cause it looks neat w the new bangs #ok im done rambling now

[ethan-is-obsessed]

Comfort & 'Love' Languages

As a person who is shit with words and is best at showing that i care via acts of service and physical touch, the internet/over text is kinda a sucky place for me to try & comfort ppl.

If you post on your snap that a loved one died, im really gonna want to send you nice words to show that I care and to help you emotionally but I probably won't actually send anything because i have no idea what to say. I really wanna say something but my mind just goes blank.

Id be much better at showing my care thru making sure you're eating & sleeping well, and helping you cook, clean, do the shopping etc while you're going through a hard time.

Ask me for words of comfort, and you'll be sorely disappointed as I mentally scramble and my words come out choppy, flat and unsure.

And this goes the other way too, when I'm going through a rough time, words don't do much for me. Actions do so much more (and physical touch but only for very very very very specific people). If you bring me food because you know im going thru it™️ or just because you were thinking of me, I'll probably sob (/pos) on the spot lol

#was just thinking and wanted to write my thoughts #and am only now realizing how autistic this sounds #anyway can anyone relate? ahhhhh #btw i use 'love languages' to not mean exclusively romantic relationships #love languages should really just be called like #uh #idk #something that doesn't have to sound so strictly romantic #its really just how you prefer to give and receive comfort/affection #or care #ok im done rambling now #love langauges #love language #ethans shit

[idontselldope]

losing friends is so much easier when you can blame yourself for it rather than having to come to terms with the fact that they just refuse to communicate like an adult 👌

#tw vent #i tend to despise posting personal stuff on tumblr but #ya boy lost the one friend he felt comfortable venting to #which to be fair #THAT one was on me mostly #but this other one is definitely not #as much as i try to frame it that way #i can't make it fit #ok im done rambling now #postimaker

[pup-pee]

anyways, love her

#i rlly RLLY like the silly eating drawing can u tell? #anwyays kon uses all pronouns ty goodbye #poor kon i dont post him as muhc bc every drawing i have of them looks uhm uhhhh bad :'3 #i like how u can look @ these ss & know exactly where i took them its so obvious fkjsdhks #EVEN THE SMALL 1S #U CAN SEE THE STAIRS BHIND HIM #(event hough thats not technically kon just shhhhh) #i waas going 2 put the '2nd' pt of him getting WHAMMED down but i didnt know where 2 fit it on this thing #every piercing is a new pronoun #((hc)) #<- thats true hc thats true btw #no1; me; give her more neopronouns *adds lip piercing ontop of everthing else* #ok now im just rambling 2 myself #hit like & subscribe 4 more!!!! #blehhh!!!!!! #i couldve done bart 4 this i realize #mayb i will /shrug #t4t couple i throw them in a blender 2gether #kon el #superboy #conner kent #dc #could this b considered a edit? its more of a collage

[13eyond13]

love it when a character that's hard to read intuitively for you has like a dedicated fandom interpreter who can just glance at their blank face in a panel and then give you a 3k word essay on their innermost thoughts & desires & fears and neatly tie it back into the themes & whatnot as if it's the most obvious thing in the world

#im talking about griffith btw #guts i feel i get intuitively - maybe because i have some personality traits in common with him #and we get more about his life concretely told to us in canon. so he is a bit easier to pin down as a character and feel attached to for me #but whenever i was reading the manga i just kept wanting more insight about griffith's actions and feelings #like ok yeah its fun to have mysterious antagonists and suspense /tension etc but its also fun to feel like you deeply understand them too #and i felt like that was a bit missing from him for me in canon #so reading about him in analysis and fics is the most fun for me rn #he always felt kinda half unreal to me- which maybe was the point of him - but i wanted a bit more about his childhood or something? #and wished we had more stuff explicitly from his pov in the story to read or explanation about his transformation or wtv #and now he's so much more closed off to me even than he was in the golden age. i keep waiting for him to explain stuff and he does not #ANYWAYS all this rambling to say some people out there are very good at interpreting him and making his like. insecurities #more obvious to me bc i didnt really get that side of him from canon intuitively well #also im really enjoying reading the first few berserk fics ive read #there may not be a ton of them out there but there is def writing talent in the fandom #i'll share some recs once i'm done sifting through most of what's out there to read #also (not to tie everything back to death note but it IS my home fandom after all) #i feel griffith is obvs the more light-like character here and L maybe a bit guts-like? but unlike berserk in death note #light is the one you get to know best and L is the mysterious / unreal one you don't get a lot of concrete insight into #and in the DN fandom I can read the more mysterious character intuitively but had to warm up to the less mysterious one instead #and the mystery of L makes sense to me and doesnt bug me as much due to like - he HAS to hide a lot about himself or else he will die lol #so some similarities there but also some opposite feels as well #berserk spoilers #p

[scimitar-and-longsword]

Me after rereading 100k of the most lovely and utterly devastating fic I've ever read in less than 24 hours:

#lolo rambles #retrograde #ok i think im done now lol #as you all were

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

To the anon that wants to devour a whole bag of lettuce, DO IT! If it’s iceberg it’s the best thing ever you’ll feel so refreshed not even lying. I’ve eaten 3. +a whole veggie platter by myself because people at holiday parties don’t like vegetables for some reason. Eat that bag of lettuce! Now!

you are SO real for this! i once devoured an entire head of iceberg lettuce with my bare hands in a single sitting and i never felt more alive

#oh oh but its so much better with some ranch to dip it in... #FRESH VEGETABLES WITH RANCH IS BETTER THAN CRACK TRUST ME ON THIS #ok dont trust me on this ive never done crack #BUT ITS REALLY FUCKIN GOOD #tasty! Refreshing! primal! #vegetables are so good theyre soooo good theyre Divine #what i wouldnt give for some crisp Leaves and Cauliflower #crunch crunch crunch... #rambles from the bog #when was the last time i had a fresh vegetable. i dont want to think about it #my body... its withering... i need crunchy freshes.... #oh now im sad. i wont be able to taste it. FUCK

[thedisablednaturalist]

Office disability culture is so fucked in environmental science and fieldwork. Like the mindset that to do the job you have to be in perfect physical health or you should just quit. Like I'm not talking about something that is 100% physical labor here, everything is mostly achievable with aids and you don't need to be able to do every single thing. But there's this weird like..pride..that my older coworkers have. They work out in the gym and brag about how many reps they did. They tease each other for having medical issues. They don't ask for accommodations because they fear that their legitimacy will be hurt. That it means that they can't do their job anymore. That they won't be TRUSTED to do their jobs anymore. That it will get taken away.

So they FURTHER hurt their bodies by not resting, not taking breaks, not using ergonomic equipment, not using safety equipment. Not drinking enough water. Not using mobility aids when they are so old that it's supposed to be acceptable. They don't use the scooters at the grocery store, they don't use their handicapped placard, they don't use knee pads or compression gloves.

And here I come in, 24 years old, looking perfectly healthy. And I use walking sticks, I sit down a lot, I have my care bag, I have a ton of gadgets for making fieldwork more comfortable, I have boundaries and limits, I wear braces and knee pads and compression gloves. I use my handicapped placard.

They react in one of two ways:

1. How DARE I. I'm so lucky to be young and no one sees THEM having to do all those things (literally nothing is stopping them but pride). Like old man if you need a break take a fucking break. I'm not going to hurt my health to make you feel better about hurting yours. I'm not risking a flare up to spare the 65 year olds feelings. Im gonna take my break and use my equipment cause my boss doesn't care as long as the work gets done. I'm tired of glares from 100 year olds making themselves struggle across the parking lot when they could also be using the fucking scooter. (I never take the last scooter, there's always another available. Also it's not my fault if walmart only provides 2 scooters for the whole store).

2. It shows them its okay. Its okay to need aids. When I first showed up at my job it was very...macho..everyone was afraid of seeming old (theres probably only 3 of us under 30 in the whole department, most people are at least 50, mainly 65 year olds). Then they saw me using my walking sticks, taking my medicine openly, bringing a chair with me when working away from my desk, using my TENS unit. I overheard one lady ask her granddaughter what fibromyalgia was (apparently she had spotted my pain tracking journal).

My older coworker with a bad knee got a walking stick like mine and beamed when she showed me. The grandmother uses a cane and a walker interchangeably and more often. I get asked where I get my little portable fan and pocket heaters and special clothing. Even abled coworkers are doing it. My coworker who's younger than me sets alarms to take breaks now just like I do. People seem more comfortable using things that help them now.

My boss has really struggled. He has a lot of internalized ableism and hates thinking of himself as crippled. He spent his whole life physically active and strong and all these health issues and overexertion are catching up with him. Like he did environmental testing in areas with fucking radon. He did work where they threw asbestos around like snow for fun. He's done a ton of really hard physical work. He grew up with the mentality that pain was just something everyone has to push through. But I think seeing a young person make the choice not to push through is helping him a bit. He wants to make his own walking stick, he goes to the doctor more. We bond over having constant medical issues and I even gave him the name of my surgeon. Yea he still says stuff like "shoot me if I have to use a wheelchair" (not as much anymore since he now knows I use one) but he's getting there.

Yeah so I've had this in my drafts for a bit and I wanted to update that my boss has been walking around with a fucking broken ankle for the past couple of weeks. He thought it was just arthritis pain and eventually couldn't take it anymore and went to the foot doctor. The doctor has no clue how the fuck he's been walking on it. Now he has to wear the boot and he's banned from fieldwork while he heals.

Older people and the elderly need to learn that it's okay to not push through the pain and ask for help. Everyone needs to learn this, and not be like my fucking boss. Go to the doctor, get that sore joint checked out. Get those tests done. Use that aid. Stop walking on a broken ankle just because you can.

#chronic disability #chronic pain #spoonie #disability #from the field #wrenfea.exe #literally fucking flabbergasted #he walked in after leaving for a bit to go to his appointment and came back like so yeah my ankles been broken #BUDDY #everyone needs help sometimes you dont deserve to be in pain #like thats some catholic guilt shit im pretty sure #this man has had 4 major back surgeries so i guess a broken ankle is nothing compared to that #but still...jesus fucking christ #not sprained..BROKEN #and thats along with all the rest of the pain hes in #like i get being used to pain but if i stub my toe during a flare up I can't handle it because it pushes my pain level over the edge #so it actually makes me less tolerable since im already in pain #but im used to a higher pain level than abled people are #ok im done rambling for now im gonna go play Minecraft

[moon-the-silly-evil]

TAGGING @sphylor IMMEDIATELY FOR THIS

Ghouls and their lemon demon favorites under the cut :)

Alright since the post was originally about Phantom, we'll do him first. I like the idea of his favorite album being View Monster, and his favorite song being Amnesia Was Her Name. He cried the first time he heard it. And the second. And the third. Every time, really.

Then goes Rain. I think he's a pretty big fan of The Ocean. Like, come on - it's his element!! It's perfect! And he likes the overall tone of the song. His favorite album would be Dinosaurchestra.

For swiss, I think he's a big fan of Knife Fight. The reasons are more self-explanatory really, I think. As for the album, he's a Spirit Phone fan.

Dew is also a spirit phone fan, purely for the song Cat Hacks. The fucking bonus track with meowing in it. When he's in a good mood he'll listen to it and jam out in time with the "bwa-BWAAA-bwah!"'s. ((If you know what parts I'm talking about, idk how to explain them))

Mountain also likes Dinosaurchestra, for the song Lawnmower. Idk it gives off Mountain vibes??

Now you might have to hear me out on this one, but Aurora absolutely LOVES Two Trucks. After Phantom discovered lemon demon from swiss ((you cannot convince me that's not how it happened)), he was showing Aurora. Thing is, he had it on shuffle or something because he can't not listen to music without shuffle. And he hadn't heard Two Trucks yet. The pure whiplash from going from something like Lifetime Achievement Award to fucking TWO TRUCKS immediately made it her favorite. She loves View Monster too tho.

Now Cumulus. I think she's a spirit phone lover too, actually. The overall tone entrances her, but her favorite song is Nothing Worth Loving Isn't Askew. Same reasoning with Moutain, it just feels like her.

Cirrus, meanwhile, is a Brodyquest fan. She learned it on keytar and will play it to warm up every now and again. But her favorite album is View Monster.

Aether really likes Ode To Crayola. It's just a silly little song about eating crayons, what's not to love about goofy songs?? Album wise, he's in the same boat as Dew and Cumulus; Spirit Phone.

Aaaaaand last but not least, Sunny. She's a big White Bread Boyfriend fan. She'll 100% belt it out in the shower or something, but nobody really minds too much when it comes to that. Album wise, another point for Dinosaurchestra.

#hehehe ok im done rambling now #shitghosting #the band ghost #phantom ghoul #rain ghoul #dewdrop ghoul #swiss ghoul #aurora ghoulette #cumulus ghoulette #cirrus ghoulette #aether ghoul #sunshine ghoulette #mountain ghoul #lemon demon

[azaracyy]

one of my finished ych commissions. other finished artwork can be found here. the tailmon is based on the twitter meme / trend of tailmon with pikachu build

#brace yourself long tags of rambling ahead #so i tend to ask my commissioner's permit to post a watermarked smaller version of the art on twt #im a person of my word so im not gonna assume or much less abuse that to simply cross-post to every platform im in #this one is a bit special bc the commissioner is an old friend #tldr we were talking about life and career being the typical adults and they randomly went 'ok draw smth for me' and just... paid #so it's like.... a joke commission? but also not bc the pyment is real?? #but yeah they left the decision of what to draw to me. i suggested what i was thinking of drawing and they went #'do it. finish 2023 with a bang' lmaooo idk if this is banger enough but i clearly had a blast. record breaking fastest comm i've ever done #back in school i doodled pikachu everywhere like breathing so it helped #apparently im given the freedom to share the art however and wherever i like too so yeah bc this is a meme and it is best shared with ppl.. #its kinda cool how we now have the ultimate answer to the question 'which is better digimon or pokemon' tho #upon which im just gonna show this chonky polite tailmon #tailmon #gatomon #digimon #png #finished commission #dood you probably wont see this but ty for the random commission :'))

[solomiracle]

i think it'd be interesting if the brothers' comments on solomon acting more like a demon than human actually went somewhere. it's really only used for comedy, but even then, it kinda falls flat since it seems to only stem from him being immortal and shady or whatever. if they focused on it and made it have some weight, i think it could be a really good source of angst and character development for solomon.

solomon prides himself on being humanity's protector, the one who will keep his fellow humans safe from unnecessary otherworldly interference. but if demons started comparing him to themselves, denying him his humanity, his entire motivation for doing what he does, how would that make him feel?

#tho tbh #this whole 'solomon is a shady evil wizard man can you believe he's even human' #is just a case of some early draft ver of him never making it to the final cut #but there's some traces of it in dialogue #even if it doesn't go anywhere #another case of this would be satan's 'he's lying and using you' thing #and aside from how he got into a pact with asmo #(which i don't know all of the details about) #what shady things... has he done exactly??? #this game loves to tell you he's evil #as he's slotted next to the guys that literally started the trojan war #threatened to kill you multiple times #and ACTUALLY killed you #it's just. very hard to take it seriously man #ok im shutting up now #from me #sol #obey me solomon #rambles

[secondary-colorentimy]

unfortunately my desktop version of csp has decided it suddenly cant handle my pen display anymore (causes it to be laggy now), i have had to go back to my roots and use photoshop for drawing on my desktop 🫡

#my ocs #is me #sona #it really is that i have a pen display #im sure if i set up my intuos it wouldnt lag #theres nothing wrong with the driver and ive restarted my desktop and csp #csp is the only thing that lags with my tablet #its just laggy now #but at least now i know the shortcuts on ps better than i did when i was a kid using it to draw #im super dedicated to my cintiq but perhaps i will have to consider upgrading to something else #SIGH #it has lasted me 7 years now #OK DONE RAMBLING

[monstermonger]

Bruh. FINALLY. MY PRINT SHOP IS LIVE!!!! And just in time for some deals goin on, it appears. neat.

Yall...... it genuinely felt like the world was telling me "Just don't make a print shop jeez" for a while..... I kept running into ridiculous roadblocks for over a month...

But it's FINALLY DONE and i can stop stressing about it. I went with inprnt :") If there's a piece you'd like that I haven't added on the shop, just let me know and I can very easily add it.

Alright, shameless self-promo post done. I'll probably quietly link to here in some pieces from now on, so it's less intrusive. Hope yall have been well, thanks!

#random rambling #IM SO HAPPY THIS IS DONE WITH #literally been thinking how i need to put an official shop together for uh- years #ok now that i feel like i sufficiently advertised it with a post #i can get back to posting art #soon #i have a pretty significant backlog #print shop #prints #dragons #fantasy prints #dragon prints

[bookishfeylin]

One last thing because I'm done being mad and I think I've gotten it mostly out of my system now:

You can't talk about and analyze how unhealthy one love interest is and then get mad when people do that right back to the other love interest.

#bookish rambles #ok im done now good night #acotar #anti acomaf #feylin

[the-eclectic-wonderer]

@\hecatesbroom (not tagging so I don't annoy you lmao) has been teaching me how to make gifs, and I'm happy to report I've been using this power for the greater good (to make gifs of beautiful women)

Bonus under the cut:

Three little Elizabeths because I couldn't resist her charm 💙

#these are not very well made lmao but i dont really care all that much. im having a great time #actually ngl im having the time of my life #nothing better than staring at beautiful women for hours <3 #im noticing now i've only picked gifs in which Dorothy is not smiling. criminal on my part #but in my defence i've been captivated by her hands #that gif where she crosses her arms... i would like her to... #no... i shan't say... #rose is *so pretty*. so pretty!! good heavens!! #(as is elizabeth lmao betty white really was that girl) #literally incredible how she manages to make confusion look so beautiful she's magnificent #and blanche. oh god. where do i even start. #her smile is. agh. how do i even tell you all i am literally in love with her #look at her in the top left and tell me you're not DESTROYED like #she makes an inappropriate joke. waits to see rose's reaction. and then brightens up in the cutest laugh in the world #i would literally unironically do anything for her #(to say nothing of bottom center. ooohhh that nightgown. the poise. i am but a wee lesbian and she's everything) #ok im done rambling in the tags. thank you alys for giving me this power i shall not misuse it #the golden girls

[charliespringsdimples]

Thinking about Kit Connor again and I have one more thing to add

I was writing queer fanfic before I knew I was queer. I figured it out with the help of queer media I consumed and queer stories I created.

Should I not have been writing the fanfic when I was still “straight”? I published my first fic back in March of 2020 before I even considered I was anything other than straight. Should I have been harassed and told not to write queer stories because I wasn’t?

Absolutely fucking not.

Just because someone “seems straight” doesn’t mean they shouldn’t be writing queer stories or portraying queer characters or anything of the sort. Once again, we are not entitled to know anything about someone’s personal life.

And even if the person is straight, why does it fucking matter? It resonates with them in some way and they don’t have to fucking share the reason. Leave them alone.

#stop fucking policing people’s identities #this is the last I’ll say on this #I started out writing gay fanfics as a straight girl and now I’ve realised I’m a queer lesbian #I never would have figured it out without queer media and fanfic #ok im done now #kit connor #heartstopper #kay rambles #personal post