#ok venting stops here sorry

[unicyclingdogs]

wind!!!!

this wasn’t supposed to be a redraw, but it’s very similar to an older drawing I did, so I’ll put it under the cut so you can see the difference :)

and this drawing isn’t even a full year old yet; i drew it last november‼️ i really think i improved a lot this year and yeah 👍

#linked universe #lu fanart #lu wind #art improvement #uni art :) #it’s been a minute since i posted art here whoops #this blog was this close 🤏 to becoming a multi fandom blog but i decided against it since i figured most ppl are here for zelda #and yeah ik my house my rules but idk I felt bad posting non Lu stuff #so now im more active on a sideblog anf ive been neglecting this blog #whoops #anyways all that aside LOOK AT HIW MUCH I IMPROVED #ITS CRAZY #I like how the main thing that stayed the same was me adding a million stars to the background #also im still on my brown eyed wind agenda #dude one time i drew him with brown eyes someone commented that he canonically has green eyes so now im only drawing them brown sorry #like wow! don’t care! like HIS EYES ARE BLACK DOTS IN THE GAMES LET ME HAVE THIS #…wow yeah that comment got to me #literally I keep thinking about it and every time it bugs me 😭 #man ive missed venting in the tags #ok ok I should stop this is a lot a tags even for me

[bitter-sweet-coffee]

i think my problem with a lot of the tails and wave content that’s out there (besides the ship content we all know that’s the bottom of the barrel) is that people… LOVE to make tails win in the end. and like. i’m so sorry but no the fuck he would not LMAO

listen, LISTEN. i know i’m biased as a wave girlie, but seriously. wave’s whole thing is that she not only gets under his skin and outdoes him, but that he’s just simply not at her level when it comes to mechanics. inventions? whole other story, there’s a mandate restriction shimmied in there somewhere about eggman and tails. mechanics? EXTREME GEAR??? run, dude.

in the end, wave is very clever and also mean. tails isn’t going to get a last minute victory or upper hand, he isn’t going to “school her” or put her in her place… he is going to get bullied by her. sure he can land a few hits back but unfortunately wave isn’t going to give him the time of day required for him to even rebuttal.

“but in his spinoffs—“ i am so sorry to break it to you but wave is a rival, not a villain. tails can’t murder her, hell, their fight is of an intellectual nature not a physical one! tails does not win by fighting wave, the whole point of her character is that she’s older, more experienced, more specialized, and more cutthroat than him in her field. die and stay mad at it guys, tails isn’t coming out of this one unscathed

#semi vent #wave the swallow #tails the fox #it is SO dangerous putting this in the tails tag #tails fans you are so cool and real. i am a tails fan too just not on main i promise #do NOT come for my formatting and capitalization here. let her stay informal and messy and ugly <3 peace and love on planet earth #btw don’t even get me started on the extreme gear shit #TAILS CUSTOMIZED GEAR HE DIDN’T MAKE CUSTOM GEAR. THERE IS A DIFFERENCE #WAVE’S GEAR IS EXPLICITLY STATED TO BE HANDMADE AND FULLY CUSTOM. HER DESIGNS AND COMPLETE ENGINEERING. #IT IS IMPLIED TAILS USED A SHELL THAT HE WENT ON TO MODIFY. WITH MOST SHELLS BEING MASS PRODUCED BY EGGMAN #ok sorry for yelling i’ll stop now i promise. but like. riders lore goes insane y’all trust me

[frecklystars]

i dont know what's wrong with me but i always feel so sad and heartbroken when i see Colt.

like i feel so overwhelmed with love for him but i really cannot imagine him loving me back. like. like. he's everything. and i'm just keri. y'know.

augh. it feels... impossible. like i am not Good Enough for him. he would not look twice at me. i didn't used to have this problem until i was abused for so long and now it's like... i cannot imagine receiving love unless if it is through violence. oogh. hurts my heart like a motherfucker. i miss the old me.

#before this year happened i was always SO 100% ready to self ship #i would look at ANYONE. any any ANY character in the WORLD #and i'd be like. oh they'd love me!!! no doubts in my mind whatsoever. they LOVE me!!!! even the worst villains ever!!! #BUT nowadays im constantly like. ok i am not good enough. i am not pretty enough #i am not [insert word here] enough no matter what i'd do to change my appearance or personality to fit someone's desires #i *never* used to look down on myself THIS often and to THIS degree #now i genuinely believe that i cannot be loved unless it is through violence #or that im only desirable if im in a vulnerable position where im in pain or hurting bc i was told it made me 'cute' #and like?? it's stupid? they're fictional? why can't i just... stop thinking that lowly of myself? #my abuser is gone so why am i still believing all of the things they said to me?? #i want Colt to love me for Me. i want Ken to love me for Me #but i also feel like. im unlovable to them unless if im useful or... bleeding or beaten up or something. christ #TF f/os are gone. out the window. i lost them. and im so scared of losing my Ryan F/Os too when i need them so badly #idk how to be myself bro i dont know where the old me is!!! #im being stupid im sorry i just gotta throw this into the void 😭 #vent #delete later #abuse mention

[acoraxia]

cannot stand the verbal and mental strain my dad puts on me to the point where I start getting anxious when accompanying him to work. can’t wait to move out at some point

#vent #/ vent #who the FUCK blasts music to the point where someones crying from how loud it is?? #and then just doesnt stop? fucking turns it up louder? #i wasnt even sobbing i was just sitting there with my eyes shut #my dad: hey (deadname) you bored? #me shaking and on the point of breaking down: n o #this isnt the first time and it wont be the last i cant stand jt here #and then he snaps at me for not doing mych but he never gives me work to do #like. ok. then dont bring me with you?? #idk whats wrong with him #god #sorry for the vent

[moonlit--wonders]

i never know what to do with frustration borne from anger. like sadness, sure, i can have a good cry and let the moment pass eventually, but where do i put my anger? what do i do with it? how do i handle all of the feeling rushing through me physically. how do i stop myself from saying the first thing that pops into my mind, especially when it’s not kind? how do i express or communicate?

#vent #certainly putting it here instead of ******* ** **** ******* * **** will help #also my executive functions go right out the window which is annoying #like what do you mean i cant get out of bed or decide what to do or even make choices about what to say #like i need someone to just take my autonomy away in these situations because it’s so intense that I can’t make any decisions #but like obviously nobody can be expected to do that I just have to live with the quencies #if you’re gonna be a ***** and stew in it then it’s your own damn fault #anyway alright time to stop yapping I suppose #it’s not too late to turn around #I think it’s better for everyone if I just disappear #del does poorly with unstructured alone time who the fuck would have thought! #codependent queen can’t even spend two days alone #so maybe she should just spend forever alone! #okok I’m sorry I’m delicate today #ok going back to like 5 tags ago #it’s not too late for the day to turn around. self soothe. breathe. relax

[nygleskas]

i want to make friends here and be more active and get a #following but also i hate posting on tumblr and it makes me paranoid 🤓

#.txt #i want ppl to care abt my ships and make our si/ocs friends and get nice anons who send silly little hcs or fo letters and #get random gifts. even just get anons who talk to me abt /their/ ships. #but talking to ppl on tumblr is so hard fr me lmaoo majority of my followers don't even see my posts so it's like. idk what's the point. #idk other sites are just way easier for me lol #also i can't rly draw and the way in which i am creative does not attract followers bc lbr u only get followers if u draw well /lh #smtms i just wanna stop posting here #whatever. i'm just venting. been going thru it lol #delete l8r #vent #ok sorry this isn't real cool and mysterious of me 🙄🙄🙄 posting abt feelings 🙄🙄🙄🙄 #also obviously. i verymuch appreciate my mutuals who Do interact and reply to me. u are everything. #maybe if i watch a movie i'll calm down

[doodlebloo]

...

IK a lot of people are like "my interest in dsmp was kind of gone anyway" I'm the opposite. I'm still just as in love with this story as I was in October 2020. I'm still just as excited when Tommy or Ranboo or Tubbo goes live. I'm still just as thrilled when a mutual posts new art or writing as I was two years ago. My interest really hasn't gone down at all and I had so much more I wanted to create.

#i think im still gonna finish my fics. for myself. neither of them include cDream anyway. #and i still want to write a halloween and christmas fic i think. just to keep up my traditions. #but im really not ready to move on from all of this yet. i love this community too much to leave #god this is breaking my heart #obviously first priority is making sure tje victims get justice #but. im not going to write a sappy post abt what this community has meant to me bc it isnt past tense to me #im still here. if some of u need to leave i totally understand but #idk. ive been doomscrolling for so long just terrified at who will leave next. #if u are thinking of deactivating and see this please dont deactivate just leave your blog up and move. you shouldnt have to erase your art #analysis writing etc because Dream decided to do something disgusting. #tw vent #tw grooming #ok i need to stop vent posting im rlly sorry everyone.

[cannibalkissies]

staring at the wall rn

#made the mistake of watching my memorial video i made 13yrs ago for my brother #now i'm like trying to process it all again and my monkey brain has to wonder why i cant just call him #or text him #or play games with him #and on top of it all my back hurts and i'm mega dizzy today (ily period + POTS <3) #grief doesnt get easier it just gets easier to live with ugh #holds my hands out for my f/os to help me but they're all evil little bastards that take ppls lives #that and the other ones.. all they know is tragedy #its so hard to cope with the death of my brother when no one and nothing can relate or share support #i'm so #bluh #i originally watched the video to see if i could hear my dad's voice in the background but alas #just brother grief AJDFKLD #and NOW father grief because i realize i uploaded NOTHING of what i had of my father on youtube #i'd be lucky if my mom had tapes of him but she purged everything of our family when my step father came into the picture #ok i gotta stop AJSDLKFASJDF #This is just turning into me needing to hold my hands out to my therapist xD #ugh #sorry i feel like i got no one to talk to about this garbage so i dump it on here sometimes #vent #tw death

[dennisboobs]

this is genuinely... so funny to me. like the hilarity of copypasting rational tweets. i'm literally right. it's not even a funny copypasta because it's literally just. objectively correct. it's a criticism of twitter culture and that makes it funny to you because...... god forbid you actually have empathy for other people. caring is for losers if you're on twitter dot com, you have to be snarky and funny at all times.

#moots & friends keep sending me shit and im just like. lmfao this is embarrassing for YOU guys. i stand by everything ive said actually. #i'm sorry you think trying to have a genuine conversation about harmful behaviours is cringe #you consider yourself an activist and will retweet every fucking post abt current events #but you can't actually be bothered to make a positive change in your own life......... #the fact that most of them stop responding after they realize im not going to freak out and give them something emotional is very telling #it's not even like most of them disagree they literally just want to make fun of me for...... caring. like ok. weird hill to die on idk #im at the point where im considering privating my tweets just so i dont continue to get ppl responding but #i think its important that ppl can see my responses. because i stand by them and clearly other ppl do too #theres been a lot of mixed responses but a lot of people have actually ended up agreeing with me after some back and forth #which i appreciate. i didnt want to start fuckin. twitter drama. but like. ill take it #i dont interact with sunnyblr at all so i think this is a good opportunity to potentially change at least a few ppls perspectives #and if youre too far gone to the point where you think that someone caring about perpetuating homophobic rhetoric is funny #i. dont really want to interact with you anyway lol. get better soon xoxo #last post about this on here im. putting this to rest. #ada speaks #genuinely disgusting how many of these ppl will say shit like. ppl are dying. like... yeah. what are YOU doing to help. #retweeting a donation link or someones random carrd doesnt do shit actually. performative armchair activism. #same ppl tweeting vapid shit while acting like theyre above engaging with me on this #i was venting about people qrting glenns old tweets with stupid shit because it was clogging my tl actually lol

[polaraffect]

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#damien.txt #venting abt personal life in the tags lol sorry new followers <3<3 #ahhHHHHHHHHHHH why must sleeping be so hard #i cannot for the life of me figure out what the fuck has gone wrong or how to fix it #but here i am AGAIN at 5:30 a.m. contemplating pulling an all-nighter bc i could not sleep #and i just. am possibly going a little bit insane #bc i hate this. it feels awful. (whoa no way not getting enough sleep feels bad? who would have guessed-) #the answer at this point is probably medical intervention #and by medical intervention i mean i need to go to the store and pick up melatonin gummies lol #i am just a broke college student tho man... funding the inevitable melatonin addiction will SUCK #addiction is a strong word to use here. i just know i will want to use it every night if it works #which is like the intended usage but still. that shit gets expensive #anyways i wish having insomnia or something insomnia adjacent was actually cool and fun and edgy #and not just like. being on the verge of tears as you lay down in bed with a headache #but you literally cannot stop thinking and moving around long enough to fall asleep #my thoughts aren't even that bad they are just constant and i would like them to shut up pls <3 #ok i am done ranting lmaoo this is like the 4th rant abt sleep problems ive done on tumblr #maybe i need to like. fix this lol

[larryjohnsoncosplayonthursday]

last

for realsies

#HELLO IM VENTING AGAIN IM SO SORRY #i am sick of everything the usual but i just need some fucking therapy and my diagnosises are taking too long because the system is shit #over here and i feel like i am a literal walking disaster a hazard to myself are my meds even working anymore idk? someone needs to lock me #in a fucking wardrobe before i loose my shit and do something stupid as fuck at least im self aware ok were growing this is called growth #wow ok amazing spectacular #like tonight ive decided i hate everyone again i want to quit uni actually might do it this time i just applied for a random job for no #reason i have a job but if i have 2 then i can over work myself to the max so i dont have to go into uni #i have three weeks off so now im cutting everyone off who knows how long this episode is gonna last for #i am loosing my god damn mind i do not want to do anything everything is so hard why is everyone so pressuring #i stopped doing some of my stupid habbits but now im just going full circle again so im thriving rn live love laugh am i right guys or what #AND WHY CANT I JUST HAVE A THERPAIST WHO CONTACTS ME ITS BEEN SINCE OCTOBER U FUCKING BITCH GO FUCK URSELF #anyway im in huge amounts of pain too idk what i do in my sleep or something but my shoulders hurt so bad #i hate wet tags on clothes when they stick to you throws up actually #i had stale fucking garlic bread today and i want to move out but if i move out then things will get worse for me #why cant i maintain a normal friendship without loosing my mind and hating everyone i mean no one knows my friends are pretty good with me #they understand but i dont know #ive come to the conclusion that i am just a shit

[sochilll]

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#i love a good ol jokingly mean bit #but god some people just don’t know when to stop #sorry I kind of don’t want to hang out with you if you say ‘hmm didn’t ask’ to literally everything I say #this keeps happening with people from school where it’ll start off funny and then just devolve into them just actually being unpleasant to #be around cause they have to be making a joke at my expense at all times #also just kind of annoyed cause I invited two of my friends over to watch my favorite movie #and don’t get me wrong I love making jokes/commentary during movies #but they were just fully having other conversations over the movie #about like work and stuff and it’s like ok why are you here then!! #idk sometimes I feel like I just pick bad friends like do u guys even care about me or are we just playing who can insult each other faster #:/ #vent #delete later

[rosicheeks]

You really need to open those DMs for a minute. Lol

#but…. why #and bro #i mean this in the nicest possible way #i just looked at your blog #and why are you following me lmao #you’ve only reblogged one type of girl and it’s the stereotypical skinny beautiful girl #idk if you’re new to my blog but we love ALL bodies here sir 😤 #also I’m fat and beautiful and proud 🥰 #ok ok lastly this isn’t directed at you #but I’m just getting sick of this hellsite so I’m using this ask to vent lol sorry not sorry #STOP HIDING BEAUTIFUL FAT GIRLS IN YOUR LIKES #i can only think of two main reasons why you hide me in your likes #1 - you like me but you’re scared to admit to yourself you like a fat girl #or 2 - you don’t like me and you’re just liking my posts for ‘support’ #either way your fatphobia is showing 💖 #ok again #this was all said from love #i really don’t want this to come across mean #it’s just #FAT GIRLS ARE BEAUTIFUL AND DESERVE LOVE AND PRAISE #that’s all 😇 #ask

[mewmeowmewmeowmew]

grrr stop this mee stopp!!!! cmon mannn!!!!!!!! wagghhhhhh

okay funny ahahahhahahahahhahahahgaaggaggaahahhahah

but really really wait wait wait and if u wanna destroy just be urself bcus thats easy to hate ykykykykkykkykyky

get someone to punch urself to death for you so you dont need the mustered up confidence for it

#vent #i dont know what to put for warning here i am so sorry so sorry i should stop i need cartoons cartoons the only thing but everything thats #good reminds me of this stop no friendship my friend is fine JUST WAIT cmon cmon stop being like this #its embarrassing #ok? #ok

[yael-things]

actually never mind the social media break for today (i got anxious)

#i may continue it in the rest of the week . when i am not anxious anymore #but unfortunately i do not currently go to therapy so uhhh #yael.blogs #vent #oh also im going to vent here #aouuhhhhh im so so so scared #my mom terrifies the living shit out of me #i cant stick to 100% doing that thing eve the advisor told me not to #but if i make a mistake its Good night. Stop apologizing. Please. You always do this. Good night. #and its always please mom please im sorry im sorry im sorry and its always 👍 #Good night. #i cant fucking take this anymore😭holy fucking shit #mybchest hurts #ok that was a big vent . pretend u didnt read that kisses i hope u guys r doing well :-))

[dead-set-goat]

Razor-Shaved my Square-Ass Head and I’m in unimaginable YOWCH! (Such sloppy work I did, I don’t even think I got it even everywhere, but according to my dear roomate who puts up with my…restless soul I did great!). I’m kinda’ sad though, shaving used to make me feel so new and fresh and cool and hot, but eeeh, the magic I was looking for is nowhere to be found this time. Maybe I should start wearing hats now??? Maybe that will fill the void!

#🦞chat #hey sorry I’m so venty but I really need this. I’ve been bottling a lot up lately. I’m having so much social interaction with so many randos #but the people I can open up to are not here anymore so I laugh smile and joke but keep inside what I truly want to talk about #ive been to the therapist for the first time in many many months yesterday. and I feel… I still feel like shit but despite that now I feel #like life’s worth living again somehow. #oof. ok. ill stop now. #vent