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jelluf1sh · 2 months

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toji with prompt 5 pretty please

𖦹 ˚ ✩ . ❝what they're like with kids.❞

★ synopsis. toji with kids.

★ featuring. toji fushiguro.

★ formatting. headcanons. (from this list.)

★ notes. husband! toji, he's a good dad for once, sfw, so much fluff, megumi and tsumiki are your kids.

꒰౨ৎ — author’s note. i KNOW what my bio says but i'm multifaceted. literally so in love with this deadbeat and i hope it shows. thank u as always for requesting and sorry for the wait !!꒱

★彡 TOJI FUSHIGURO.

The first time Toji ever felt genuine love was when he put that pretty golden band on your finger.

The second was when he looked into Tsumiki’s big, brown eyes for the first time.

Then the third came with a small head of black hair and the name he’d chosen long before he'd known whether his kid would be a boy or a girl: Megumi.

From then on, life was a journey for him.

Growing up, Tsumiki was much calmer than Megumi, who would fuss and cry at every little thing. His papa wouldn't read to him long enough? He'd bawl his eyes out. He couldn't reach the fridge handle because his legs were too stubby? Waterworks. His toy was missing after he'd been the one to misplace it? He'd throw a fit.

Toji would honestly curse himself for even thinking he could fall asleep for more than 20 minutes before his son would toddle into the room, promptly disturbing his dad's nap by pouncing onto his stomach or latching onto his arm.

You, however, found it pretty funny.

"Shit's not anythin' to giggle about," Toji would grumble at you, his beauty sleep interrupted as you laughed, glaring at Megumi as he clambered onto his father's chest, bouncing his bottom up and down and beating on him with his tiny fists.

There have been multiple instances where Megumi's been in a good mood, though. You'll never forget the pictures you took of him napping, holding his big sister's hand in his smaller one as they both rested on top of Toji's large chest, his hands cradling both their heads while he snored.

Toji is so bad at not cursing in front of his kids. It's a horrible habit, but he can't seem to grasp the fact that 4-year-olds aren't supposed to be saying the same unsavory words that roll off his tongue so easily.

"Fuck!" he'd let it slip a few times when he accidentally hurt himself, and in typical kid fashion, they were always around to hear something they shouldn't.

"Fuk?" The fact that Megumi was the very picture of innocence while such a filthy word came tumbling out of his mouth (and paired with a smile!) rattled his father.

"What's 'fuck'?" Tsumiki asked, barely much older than her brother. Toji could only pray you didn't hear that.

"Wh— not so loud! Don't repeat that shi— that stuff. Yer gonna get me in trouble with Mama."

(you indeed did hear and he got his ass beat later)

Calls Megumi and Tsumiki 'rugrats.'

He didn't realize just how little time he'd have for romance with his kids around. Every single time Toji leans in to press his lips on his yours, no matter where you two may be, they come running from around the corner (apparently, they'd been watching for a while), darting between your legs and making fake retching noises as they giggle at the scowl on their dad's face.

Toji's the kind of dad to lose one kid in the store, turn around to ask the other kid where their sibling went, only to find them both gone LMFAO.

Stiffens up when he hears an "I love you," or even when he receives a hug from either one of his children. Hugs take some coaxing from you, but he doesn't dislike them (he'd never admit it, what with his tough guy persona, but Toji's kids make him so soft inside.)

#꒰🪼꒱ jelly writes.#꩜ inbox. ✉️#toji fushiguro x reader #toji x reader #toji fushiguro #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen toji #sorry i’ve been on hiatus #okay let me rant. i'm obssessed with the way toji's first and only love until the very end was megumi's mother #like. he was looked at like a piece of shit because of the fact that he couldn't see curses by his clan #but then here comes ms fushiguro. and she LOVED HIM despite all of his shit. SHE LOVED HIM SO BAD GUYS OH MY GOD #and till the very end he NEVER got over her. NEVER.#gege you make me sick btw #probably gonna change my layout again

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subtle-knife · 16 days

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danny phantom 2x15 is like horrifying. pov in the span of a day and a half you become friends with someone suspiciously similar to you. then find out that your greatest enemy is obsessed with making his own version of you to be his son and you get tortured in the same way you died so he can get the last bit of dna he needs to create it But You Refuse To Give It. and throughout the day you’ve fought multiple unstable versions of yourself only to watch them dissolve into ectoplasm. then you find out that new friend is also a clone of you and is also on the verge of dissolving. like what the fuck

#then you have to go home and pretend to be normal bc your parents don’t know you’re a ghost and your sister would only worry if she found #out abt this whole situation. and the only people in the school who know are your two closest friends who were only there at the very end #of it all and would again only worry if they knew the full story #like okay. crazy premise for a show with a target demographic of 7 year olds #danny phantom #ash.txt #sorry for the rant abt a 20 year old kids show LMAO #when will it be my turn to have normal interests………

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synthshenanigans · 4 months

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BRO

Im crying

#juno shot at the sun with a fuckin squiffer #i went to go hit the fresh button back at them & i saw their locker changed #10/10 i love to see it #if you see this you have gr8 locker artist skills #also that I'm sorry i was so bad tonight PFFT #This morning i was doin clam blitz & had like a baseline of like 10-15 kills #& tonight i was struggling to get like THREE #they were very kind tho & had the most encouraging booyahs. nice to have even when im getting sniped in the back of the head :}#however ended on a high note being back to 10 kills & we won the match #ALSO I S RANKED TODAY very happy with myself #moving up in the world #okay okay ill shut up now. im tired so i rant a lot aight let me have this #chonny jash #moss post #KJ rants too much again

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drawedherbarium · 9 months

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forgot to post this

#knockout #transformers prime #tfp #tfp knockout #this is my first time drawing transformers and i ended up with 119 layers of coloring #i had fun but i do not look forward to any more alien gay robots on my virtual canvas for at least a few months #(immediately goes to draw him again)#to be fair this time it's gonna be humanization #i already started it and have surprisingly hard time designing him clothes. while character design is like. my profession.#no i designed him allright. the thing is #i know he wouldn't wear that if his life depended on it #and i also can't design smthn he WOULD wear becouse I WOULDN'T and it gives me a hard time fairly judjing if it is okay or a crap #ok this tags getting out of control sorry ig #it's just 4 am now and everyone else is asleep. i need to rant SOMEWHERE ok??????#yes i become very chatty when sleep deprived. idk what you should do with that info #and when I'm NOT sleep deprived i just. never fucking talk. how tf me workin'.#ok i stop now #good night or good morning or whatever

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yellowdevilkitten · 5 months

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so I read this fic, this fic, and this fic lol and it totally melted my brain and then I started thinking and this happened lol.

Carol hasn’t had a family get together since December of ‘83 and she hasn’t talked to Steve longer. Which would make this get together very odd. Carol honestly wouldn’t have gone if her mother hadn’t made her. She’s fuming because not only is she forced to be here she’s forced to watch Steve be happy, it’s not like she doesn’t want him to be happy it’s just very upsetting to see him be happy without her or Tommy. So instead of walking up to her cousin and ex friend to just talk she sits in her chair and glares at him.

When Steve had been informed about the get together he internally grimaces, thankfully he didn’t have to listen to his parents talk for long since he had work. Which he then could bitch to Robin about. “How can a family reunion be that terrible?” Robin questions, popping a piece of candy in her mouth. Steve groans and lifts his head slightly staring at Robin. He’s surprised she hasn’t caught on yet, unless,

“wait you don’t know?” Steve lifts his head up fully staring unblinkly at robin trying to figure out if she is joking or not.

“uhhh no I do not know, but do tell.” She gets this giddy look in her eyes pushing the box of candy off the counter he wrinkles his nose knowing he’s going to have to clean it up later since Robin hates sweeping.

“It’s hard to explain,” Steve starts knowing damn well it’s not hard to explain quit the opposite really. Not that hard to tell his best friend that his old friend is actually his cousin. “Well actually it’s not that hard just difficult- nope still not that right wording-“

“Steve it’s alright if you don’t want to tell me.” Robin smiles at him reassuringly.

“carol’s my cousin.” He mumbles out in a rush. He immediately clocks when robins face goes from confusion to shock.

“Perkins?” Steve nods.

“if you want I could come, be some support or Eddie could come too, maybe the get away driver when she comes near.” She starts to ramble her rambling making Steve feel instantly better.

“I think I need to do this alone and my family would immediately think you were my girlfriend.” Steve smiles at her.

“I’m okay being your girlfriend to make you feel better.” Robin rolls her eyes as to say he’s being a dingus.

“aww thanks Robbie.” He coos at her which immediately makes her hit him on the shoulder.

Carol has managed to not talk to anybody at this get together. Avoiding meeting Steve’s eyes, she was successful until her aunt(Steve’s mother) decided they needed to resolve their differences. She sees her mother snickering with her. Carol rolls her eyes when Steve sits next to her.

“Y’know I don’t want to be here as much as you do.” He isn’t looking at her when he says this.

“That supposed to make me feel better, because it doesn’t, great to know your only cousin closes to you doesn’t even want to see you.” She rolls her eyes and blows a bubble with her gum.

“right sorry, look I’m sorry for how I left you and Tommy.” Steve still doesn’t look at her when saying this and it pisses her off.

“it’s in the past, past it.” She shrugs, she isn’t past it far from it actually. She wants to shake Steve and ask him why he doesn’t talk to them anymore, to her. Carol hates to admit it but she misses her cousin he was one of her best friends growing up, them both growing up as only children. She didn’t have anyone else sure she had her mom and dad but Steve was her only friend before he met Tommy and she fell for him.

“just know I’m still here if you need me.” Steve taps her shoulder three times like when they were younger then gets up and goes across the room to talk to one of their cousin from out of state.

Carol frowns and goes back to moping.

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i-have-dots-in-my-brain · 3 months

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TW: DARK GAMES AND STUFF (just a lil rant, nothing hateful)

wow dark games are

idk i wanna stay innocent youtube please let me stay pure just recommend music and fandom shit please not this not the true crime cases and the horror games with dark meanings and ominous endings (especially ones with rape or child abuse) like please what made you think i would want to see this i listen to playlists titled " i have nothing in my head"

#i looked into my eyes deceive and HOLY SHIT #IT WAS A ROBLOX GAME????????? (apparently it was just recreated in roblox)#HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT #ITS SUCH A SAD STORY BY THE WAY #I HOPE THE PROTAG OF THE GAME ESCAPES AND KILLS HER DAD OR SOMETHING #LIKE #CALL 110 AND HAVE THE COPS BUST DOWN THAT DOOR #THE (BAD) ENDING IS SO AMBIGIOUS AND IT IMPLIES #LIKE DID HER FATHER DO SOMETHING TO HER #IS SHE OKAY???#THE GOOD ENDING IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH #I NEED TO FORGET THIS GAME EXISTED #props to the developer #it tells a very sad story that could have actually happened #good horror is meant to make you uncomfortable #with real people as villains instead of faceless monsters #genuinely very good and effective horror #i do wish i never looked into it though (not trashing the developer i just wish I never went down the story rabbithole)#veryyyyyyy uncomfortable #sorry for this rant i just had to talk about this to the online void #genuinely good game though (the small details contribute to the story and the horror)#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #STOP RECOMMENDING ME DARK THINGS YOUTUBE #IM ALL FOR LIKE EDGY OC LORE #BUT NOT ACTUALLY DARK THINGS #my eyes deceive

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bonesrbleaching · 18 days

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had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what

#lolaa.txt #what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!'#'i wouldnt lie to you!'#okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time.#its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa #also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!'#yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up.#i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men #and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man #so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up.#and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face #that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense.#shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin #you dont have to worry about anyone else.#im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to #never really have #im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are #if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box #then when would you have any space for self discovery #youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats #and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that.#and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names #and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy #and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares.#and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look?#then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness.#SORRY RANT OVER.#im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric.#tw homophobia #tw transphobes

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anoddopal · 6 months

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🐰 Thoughts: [Pre]Alabasta/Alabasta Arc

[WAIT A SECOND OFFICER! I CAN EXPLAIN MYSELF! ➡️ The ritalin tells me what to write and I just spew out nonsense as it comes to me. Anyway, here goes a stim-induced attempt to express a bit more about how these two became an item.]

[POSSIBLE TW: One mention of n00dity, also kinda ominous language towards the end... Listen he's a liar but aside from that they go on to have a very unproblematic relationship!! He just has to be knocked down a peg first!!]

It all starts when Bun-Bun Silva is hired at Rain Di.nners [not Bar.oque Works] to care for the Banana Gators/Ban.anawani that surround the establishment. Prior to her filling the role, it was a difficult position to fill. A job like that isn't exactly an opportunity many people would jump at-- save for a smiling local who seems much more interested in staring at the beasts during the hiring process than looking another human directly in the eyes for longer than necessary.

She takes good care of those gators. Excellent care. She’s happy to show up to her job and do whatever is needed. There’s never a complaint from her end. A bit of a quiet enigma- Silva doesn’t talk much to anyone she crosses paths with at the casino, staff or otherwise. As he does with all of his employees, Cro.codile keeps tabs on her, especially since she’s responsible for the health of his beloved pets. Sometimes the warlord overhears her chattering away to herself/the ban.anawani… she says more to them in a day than she’s ever said to any person at Rain Di.nners during the several months she’s worked there.

She has to be some sort of spy. He’s certain of it. Nobody is that enthusiastic about working with a species of animal that most people run screaming from. This is all a sad attempt to infiltrate his organization.

But after calling her into his office for a little talk he realizes that there’s nothing malicious going on. She really is just a completely innocent, if not eccentric person. And once he asserts that fact, Silva is dismissed.

Or rather, she would be under any other circumstances. Normally, Cro.codile wouldn’t bother with more one-on-one interactions. He’s not a person who entertains potential wastes of his time.

But there’s a lot more going on there than she lets out during that meeting. He can tell. He just can’t tell what it is. And that bothers him. Cro.codile can see how well she works with his pets- the gators are unusually affectionate and happy when she’s around. Silva can also be assertive with the animals, something that’s needed to maintain a safe dynamic with the apex predators. Cro.codile… appreciates that. [He’s not keen on anybody knowing but he is a big animal lover!!]

An offer for dinner is placed on the table. An offer that she almost doesn’t take. An offer that leads to a tension-filled first ‘date’. It becomes apparent to the pirate warlord that this isn’t going to be easy. Silva will not make it easy. Those big brown eyes constantly flutter over him; an attempt to figure out what’s going on in his head, just as he’s trying to figure out what’s going on in hers. Despite how sweet Silva can be, she’s equally as prone to scrutiny. There's a nervousness that radiates off of her, a hesitant wariness- she doesn't want to make any wrong moves. Yet at the same time she will not grovel or cave. Huh. In a way it almost reminds him of his own general caginess. The both of them aren’t keen on letting just anybody in. Someone has to be special for that to happen. The other party has to prove that they’re worth it.

That’s okay. Crocodile can wait and see. He's been patient over the last few years in regards to his scheme to overtake Al.abasta anyhow- why not divert a little in his free time? Everything is going according to plan. In the end, he's always in control.

The courtship undertaking is a give and take. Little tidbits of insight bubble up more and more over time. And they're... peculiar perceptions. It’s not often that somebody manages to catch his eye. And it’s certainly not normal for him to take a legitimate interest in someone who touts a lot of the traits he claims to despise.

Annoying. Weak. Soft. Pathetic. Naive. A bleeding heart.

Yet at the same time; Guarded. Private. Careful. Just a bit cynical/jaded. Even a bit of a misanthrope.

Ah... she's just enough of a realist to know that notions such as fulfilling dreams and obtaining justice are novelties few can afford. Yet her acknowledgment of how sobering reality is does little to crush her stubborn optimism. The world should have crushed someone like her long ago. And while while it certainly has bent her, she refuses to let it break her.

Humans are hypocritical in nature. Sir Cro.codile is no exception. Ironically someone like Silva - someone with so many facets he’s incapable of appreciating in others - is exactly the type of person he can trust with his life. With his secret. As a consequence of the connection between them continuing to build, that’s exactly what he ends up doing.

Silva doesn’t worship him like the hero the rest of the country thinks he is. She doesn’t shrink in terror because of his warlord status, either. Instead she’s curious about the man behind all that. Someway, somehow, she manages to point out his “positive” traits. She values his person in a way nobody ever has before. Cro.codile can’t help but let a thin lipped smile spread on his features every time they’re alone together.

When he isn’t dealing with his shady enterprise or mummifying invading pirates, he ardently seeks her out. She’s endearing to him. The way she likes to hide under his plush fur coat. The way she holds his rough, calloused hand. Hell, sometimes she even reaches out to hold his hook. When he’s trying to catch up on mundane work she often hangs out in his office, sprawled out on a chaise lounge while she babbles away about whatever is on her mind. [There are many, many conversations about animals that take place between them!] She has a penchant for sass and playful banter, but Crocodile finds himself uncharacteristically unbothered by it. There’s something about her audacity that he finds amusing. He hardly minds the misguided nagging. Something lurches in his chest when she places tiny kisses along the length of his facial scar. There’s probably a corny phase to insert here about how pirates adore their treasure, but in Cro.codile’s case? He absolutely covets her. If anyone dared made her feel uncomfortable he’d reduce them to nothing more than a dried out husk.

Silva makes him feel so… so… well, she makes him feel. There’s a certain kind of power she holds over him; the power to worm her way into his thoughts, his life, his heart…

… How did this happen? How could he have let himself become so weak? He’d resent her if he didn’t love her so much.

It wasn’t supposed to play out like this. He wasn’t supposed to get in this deep. She was an anomaly; not part of the plan. This has all gone too far. She doesn’t even know about his master scheme- Cro.codile makes sure he keeps his work life and his love life separate. Silva only knows as much as the general population of Al.abasta does as far as his profession goes. He’s smart enough to know that she’d recoil from him if she knew that he was methodically bringing her homeland to ruination. It’s best to let sleeping dogs lie, he figures. How ironic was it - that the very person who knew the absolute most about him - had no idea as to what would occur because of him in the near future?

She’ll know soon enough, he tells himself. On that night she’s curled up next to him in bed, with nothing but his green fur coat to cover her naked form. A pretty gemstone ring glimmers on her left ring finger; opal and rose gold, just like she told him she wanted. All Crocodile can do is reflect over how she managed to best him. A feat that nobody before her had ever been able to achieve. His vision for the future changed the very minute she came into his life. He can admit that [to himself]... Part of him was aware of that from the very beginning.

That doesn’t mean his objective to usurp the Kingdom of Al.abasta is going to be thrown to the side. Rather, he simply adjusts his plan to include her in it. Not that he’s going to need a queen, but he’d love nothing more than for her to be his. How romantic.

It’s not like she’d reject the idea. He’s confident Silva is far too loyal to detach from him once everything is said and done. She's just as invested in what they have together as he is. What’s she going to do? Say “no”?

[Huh? Well of course he’s still an awful person. What- did you think the power of love was enough to change the man?]

Of course, the course of events don’t play out in Sir Cro.codile’s favor. He's defeated and sent to Im.pel Down. Al.abasta is saved. Silva packs her bags and leaves her home to find a new place in the world. They’re [as far as they know] separated permanently. It's over.

...

Or maybe... maybe it's merely a little break? Maybe fate has something else in store for the both of them... an inevitable unconventional crossing of paths? A reunion of sorts?

...

Maybe it's really only just begun. >:3

#Did I take exactly a month to write an infodump post in present tense?#Yes. Yes I did.#NGL I'm not very pleased with my writing at the moment- but this is as good as it's going to get for the time being.#This was actually meant to be about their ship dynamic and detail some specific scenarios but it quickly became a rant about BACKSTORY LORE #I guess that will have to be a different post!#sorry for getting all cryptic at the end there #listen there's drama okay. how could there NOT be drama??#Spoiler Alert: These two are going to be back in each other's arms and more invested than EVER-#i feel like a fool for posting this #there are probably so many typos and incorrect fluidity to the sentence structure and IDC IDC #smoking sandman husband #S/I: Bun-Bun Silva

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mejomonster · 2 years

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Daomubiji is the gayest "not written to be intentionally gay" I've ran into in the cwebnovel world. Like. In English? Yeah plenty of fuckers especially pre 2015 would make a story gay but never intend it to be read that way and yell at people who did (and some who didnt get mad but also didnt want to embrace that potentiality). Occasionally making something intensely gay. Nowadays most English stuff either is aware of how gay it wrote shit and therefore okay with itself as that, or is so unintentional it's just a baffling situation

Meanwhile in cwebnovels it's a pretty established genre to just put out gay content so usually if it's gay it's already fully aware it's writing in such a way (now cdramas are another story since it's the foggy land of some gay stuff being adapted to "bromance" meanwhile some purposely friendship stuff trying it's hardest to slide toward "bromance" to capitalize on that angle without actually being gay, then the ones in the middle happy to capitalize on the gay and playing hard and loose and not really confirming what their intent truly is -dmbj shows are Now Here-, and then original script "bromances" fully intending to be gay the way Xena was like Killer and Healer which I applaud for wanting to do gay in an impossible environment with no book to lean on as the reason it was made gay as it was - mriad also toed this, that tan jianci show recently did etc). So like usually if it's Not overtly gay as a novel I assume no intention was purposeful, at least not much. (Though to be fair maybe there are authors utilizing subtext and a bit scared to go overt gay cause of how that may affect them/sales/their future etc, which may be going on but I am not aware enough of everything in non-gay novel land to comment. Fair enough though that was certainly going on in Hayes code America in the film industry, with some people making gay threesome art films sliding past the radar on purpose, others making metaphor as literal wasn't alloved, others accidentally making subtext rather than on purpose, and I'd say to some degree novel wise that would have been going on as well. I didn't read many us novels from 70s-2000 but iwtv made gay implied and the sequel a decent time later made gay overt and I'd assume some bigger safety in writing gay characters was felt by authors later in the century).

Anyway, my point. Of the small amount ive read, dmbj is sure the gayest "not in the gay genre" cnovel I've found. There's The Kings Avatar, that's big, can anyone tell me if it's gay? There's Ten Miles of Peach Blossoms, which has a gay side couple but that's not quite the same. There's LiuLi (Love and Redemptions novel), but a main character who's multiple genders and a bi love interest is just... not common in general anywhere so that's more of a one off thing (I'd love for it to be more common though). Mostly the big stuff that comes out that people interpret as gay out of cnovel land... IS purposefully fully intended as gay.

Meanwhile dmbj show wise, is at the point where scenes adapted from its own novel get cut for being too gay (oh wu xie u bastard cat ur too into xiaoge for censors to bear). Dmbj show wise, for a while, for baffling reasons post The Lost Tomb (because if you squint HARD there's non gay reasons to put in all the gay scenes as a speed run implied instant Platonic fondness/connection that's just using romance action tropes to speed it up to communicate to audience since it only has like 10 episodes... again, if you squint I can see an oblivious straight person somehow thinking it was straight). But then by The Lost Tomb 2 you've got the saving him in a tux in his arms shit, Ultimate Note you've got scenes Being cut for being "too gay" wu xie, in Reboot you've got the whole cast well aware of ships and nanpai Sandshu also WELL aware by that point so if there's any "bromance" now towing the line of gay it's at least likely on purpose and self aware they're on the line.

But then there's. The fucking novels. Wu Xie my dude. Iron triangle my guys. How did all this accidentally happen? Is this the beautiful outcome of npss starting fanfic with no idea where it would end? You genderbend a love interest, make the guy embody ur idea of cool so u have to have ur viewpoint character wu xie notice how Cool said Cool Guy is, and the gender ambiguous premise leads to romantic interest slanting framing of such character, leads to that entire structure continuing long after u decided emo boy is a dude, wu xie is into men now and ur in way too deep now to backtrack so pangzis commenting, now ur cool emo got Emotionally Attached to one person in this whole world and it's ur viewpoint dude, now he's sacrificing for him, now they're at Minimum as gay as Kirk and Spock and quickly hurtling to Xena/Gabrielle levels. And I'm googling pingxie having heard of dmbj, having never seen an episode, ans finding its one of the biggest Ships TM. Thinking it's some fan ship with no Canon basis like idk captain america/iron man, then I watch The Lost Tomb and no these fuxkers as gay as Shen Wei/Zhao Yunlan to my assumption. Then I look up the books and it's. Odd. They're definitely soulmates, they don't date others, they retire together, xiaoge sees wu xie as The Person for his ass TM, and it's uh. It is what it is. They're life partners for sure anyway. So it's a kirk/spock situation at minimum. But, if you watch the shows it's treading on "this Bromance is so close to/possibly Is Romance that we are being assumed as actual bl" line. Which I guess in show form is Xena/Gabrielle. Cause most censored bl dramas are xena/gabrielle level (lovers but you gotta be Just vague enough about it to be allowed to air). And thus is established, the gayest pair of "are they gay" I've run into in chinese media. (To be compared with the youtube series Are You Gay of Kirk/Spock, a question for the ages).

I'm just. They're so gay. They're whatever they are in canon, and why. Its fun to think of why (before the shows slid them pretty firmly into "is might as well be bl territory so assume it is" with the way the show teams handle it). Like. Is it all just a happy accident of npss, a fanfic turned original universe that of course includes anything and everything (comets from space, giant snakes, emo immortals, hair monsters) so why wouldn't it also include gay chosen soulmate fuckers in the center. Is dmbj an interesting example of what fiction can grow and turn into of its own accord, as it evolves over years and becomes its own entity of development? It's interesting. It's interesting what else may eventually develop and shift. (Take what I said with heaps of salt though, I still need to read a Lot more of the books, I'm a newbie with them and still happy to fall into many more of them)

#rant #dmbj #pingxie #feel free to ignore im sorry u just tead that ToT #im just CONTEMPLATING OKAY SHDJJD #im now also contemplating like. the future for the iron triangle. and for the side characters #a good writer with a solid plan? theyd make maybe #wu xie and pangzi die. after pangzi has kids. then xiaoge either kills himself to join wu xie. or forgets wu xie #and wanders looking for him (and finds him reincarnated - which is my personal angst/hopeful headcanon for the end)#meanwhile the main story shifts to foxus on a trio/group of younger characters who tomb raid #with wu xie gone as narrator. and xiaoge (if alive) as just a guest character very rarely.#and/or id fucking Hope the series ends there. but npss tried to end it before. then brought them baxk #so like. knowing him itll turn into a bigger beast of plot threads. instead of wrapping up

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sonego · 8 months

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the things reading old forums digs up from your memory omg. i suddenly remembered about this girl i once met who was like "i read an article about 1910s japanese history it was sooo interesting, japan has such a rich culture and history i wanna live my dream of going there so bad!!!!" ... i was like ?!?!!???!?!?!!!? i'm not even refuting the statement that japan has a rich history but it's highkey INSANE to say that, and that you want to go there cause it's oh such a great country, in the same breath as saying you read about its 1910s history. is it cause they were among the allied forces in wwi ? alright but are we conveniently forgetting that japan formally colonized korea in 1910 ? after over 3 decades of slowly but surely asserting dominance over the peninsula, starting in the 1870s and continuing to take more and more control, making it a protectorate in 1905 and then as said officially annexing it (colonizing it) in 1910 and ruling over the country committing atrocities for decades ? i mean sure. 1910s. first decade of OFFICIAL colonization of korea. great history there.

it's just so weird how white people think japan is this perfect country with beautiful history when they were one of the worst, cruelest imperial powers in the world in the 19th and 20th century

#japanese propaganda insane levels and yes this girl was a hardcore anime fan #it's always them #and okay help sorry i know it's probably annoying when i go on rants that have nothing to do w sports on my sports sideblog 😭😭#but the reason why i was making this post is that i ended up on a football forum's post from 10 years ago #and someone posted about area no kishi which apparently is an football centered anime #and i had this vivid memory of this girl ranting to me about anime while i had very little to say (never been big on anime i've watched a #few but not many) and at some point she was like 'but i HATE sports anime bc sports are DUMB' and i was standing there in my #liverpool jersey like 🧍🏻#and then i remembered her general insanity over japan and 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 weebs are weird i'm sorry it's true #nico.txt

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biioniic-biiohazard · 1 year

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GIGGLES LOUDLY I GOT THE CD I GOT IT I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHEH YAAYYYYY <333

#im SOOOOOO fucking excited u guys have no damn idea #this and getting money for other shit later and all the gift cards n stuff #ANDDDDD HAVING MOTIVATION TO WORK ON MY WEBSITE AGAIN??????????????#*AND* SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO POSTING ABOUT WHEN I UPDATE IT???? OUGHHHHH #AND ANDNNDDDDD ANJDNDDD!!!!!! IM LISTENING TO MY FAV ALBUM RN ????? RAHYHHHHH I LOVE HARDCORE RAVE MUSIC FUCKING EATS IT #im veryt silly and very stimmy and im full of pasta and very happy rn <333 #a few small bumps n stuff today but im sure everything will be okay #peace n love to the fkn universe or whatever cuz I WIN IM NOT FUCKED UP TODAY IM NORMAL WOOOOOHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #rhgfsdjkjdfauihguiHUJKHFVJKDKHFNJKEEHHEHEHERHERH SORRY SORRY FOR TAG RAMBLING I DO IT WAYYYYY TOO MUCH #but like im geneuinyl so fkn happy about some stuff minus itty bitty issues but i can work those out later #and tmrw is crimmis and...i have a feeling i might be getting more figures to show off soon <3 asked for tons of sonico n touhou things #dunno why those two but i think its just the autism kicking in #very VERY excited #bit upset we didnt celebrate it on the solstice this year like usual but mom was busy #OH WELL closing up the tag rant now #proxxtalx #also if anyone read this to the end TYSM ILY MWAH MWAH THANX 4 LISTENING U GET A COOKIE

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mazojo · 2 years

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I am sorry but Adam apologists are so weird to me

#i am hesitant of posting this but like I saw a thread defending his creepy actions and it made me feel very uncomfy #like………. yeah tragic backstory… still creepy!#i have this same issue with Hisoka like exact same feelings towards both I am sorry #this grown ass man is ??? blatantly imposing himself?? on kids and teenagers?? that’s weird.#how are y’all justifying that like ? sexualizing kids is !!! not okay ?#i am still lowkey pissed at the sk8 ending for brushing it off but okei #that’s what’s sucky about it I’ve been wanting to get sk8 zines but I don’t want Adam merch :((#like omg I just saw Reki x ad*m romantic fanart and I’ve never felt more uncomfortable by something in a long time #he literally tried to kill him!!!! AND HE IS A GROWN ASS MAN REKI IS A TEENAGER WHaT #i don’t wanna tag this on the main tag and just know that if you want to try and defend him #on my replies I will most likely not reply I am just overall uncomfortable with this but anyways needed to let it out #anti Adam #rant

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enthusiasticarsonist · 2 years

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local guy with adhd finally understanding the concept of complete and utter relaxation. more news at ten

#i'm on adhd meds nowadays abd i'm suck at home and holy shit time moves so much slower #and consuming things and reading is so careful abd deliberate and almost like ... neat?#its so organized in my head #there is no chaos rn i can not believe this is how the rest if you experience relaxation #usually i am going a mile a minute with literally ever thought and every word written and i misspell things and i leave out words #and i skip to the end of a pragraph and i re read a single word over and over again because i like the way it sounds to think #and i like that i'm not complaining #but it isn't relaxing it's just a different form of hurrying #this is so calm i didnt even know that this is was being calm is supposed to be like #anyways i'm sorry for ranting this is just all very wild to me #i doubt anyone even read this but thsts okay this is for me to read off the meds so that i can remember what stillness is like :)#anyways bye<3 #enthusiastic rambling #oh shit just realised that my keyboard was on german for all that #and i misspelled a lot of words cause the letters weren't where i thought they'd be #can't have everything i guess lol

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134340am · 2 years

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(re: my wip list lol)

THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!!

probably the yams piece i’m writing for joonie’s collab — maybe i’ll never know your name. mostly because i already have most of it written out and i quite like it so far. now i just need to write the ending and tie up a few loose ends and we’re ready to go \(￣︶￣*\))

concept wise, though... it’s gotta be cuddle corner! i think it’s quite unique and no one’s done it before? (i hope not, at least) and i adore iwa so much ; ; i haven’t written for him apart from this short 400 word piece lol. the outline is 18 pages but i don’t think the fic will be that long because i have terrible stamina sobbles bobbles

i also can’t wait to write the price of sleep because i love aizawa and i think he’s a very interesting character :*) i have the rough outline but it’s very bare LOL and i’m intimidated to write him because if i get his characterisation wrong i might a) never forgive myself b) get my head chopped off LOL this is how i feel writing for levi and dabi too but i got over it and posted whatever i want... so i believe one day i’ll just drop the fic and run and you’ll never see me srb it ever again

sorry for the long ass answer but!!! u r so kind for this anon thank you so much for asking (づ￣ 3￣)づ c’mere let’s cuddle

#i try (emphasis on TRY) to write different / interesting things but i can't help but feel like everything i write is cliche n predictable #BUT i also try (emphasis on TRY) to tell myself that it's part of learning n growing...#besides i also love reading cliches so maybe that's why i end up writing them :*)#idk i've been thinking very hard about my writing lately and how i can improve #went back to read my super old stuff as well #i really... don't think i've improved... it's more of like #a shift in writing style rather than improvement ;_;#so i'm trying (emphasis on TRYING) to slow down and write more mindfully(?)#and i'm also trying to study a little looool #okay sorry this became a long ass rant #i appreciate you lots anon <3 i will do my best for u #wip wednesday #tmi tuna

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