#once I get off from work of course

[musubiki]

the other beta version of mochi and limes post-timeskip reunion is that he actually does find her on his own. after years of taking witch-related missions, tracking down leads, investigating new developments and hints that came up, etc

where one day, wherever mochi is hiding at the time, pom becomes alert all of a sudden, and goes "...the m34th is here."

#did pom know it was him? probably #uniformed-up lime standing at the gate to her little hideaway hat in hand #imagine that sight #i think about this route because one side of me doesnt want all his hard work to be in vain. part of me wants his struggles to pay off #but on the other hand if i go the original route i can lay foundations for a potention subplot of #the m34th(of course we knew where she was. why would we let you in on that when we can use you how we want so long as youre apart from her? #anyway this version would develop as (i know you dont want anyone around but i dont care im not leaving) #and pom being like (actually she just stabilized last week so she should go get her guild again for the new mission(s)) #anyway. rambles #bonus points if getting the cat witch was a joint mission and he straight up backstabs all his coworkers once they get to her location #diggity doosh your memory is now mush

[questionablepastries]

The shit I have in store for y’all. . . The urge to post a wip but NAY I say ‼️‼️ I will hold back and complete these damn things with COLOR

#im sitting on more than 3 wips and progress is slow #however starting august I got new work hours. #now instead of working five days a week leaving me tired AF from all the commuting #I have four days a week of work and THREE days off every week #Ohhhh the time off is gonna be ~awesome~ #and I haven’t had as much free time as I did when I was a student #which coincidentally is when I was rapid firing all my douman drawings (sobs) #I can’t wait to get back into that sort of posting but of course that’s gonna happen once my new shift in august starts #anyways!!!!!!!!! #that’s the update #sorry it’s been so slow

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by

#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about #but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were #and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat #as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like #a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain #it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot #i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds #i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh #political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore #they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get #but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk #i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers #here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now #it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths #i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how #burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that #i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up #could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan? #to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me #coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage #you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao #i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now #bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will #i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail #also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e #no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it #i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course #idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do #anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand #shai speaks

[lisbonsteresa]

he's HORRIBLE

#tm #all the bullshit she put up with from him for 10 years and she's late to a crime scene ONCE and look at him ffajdslk #as if you give one single shit about punctuality patrick; but this brings up a point that i can't believe i never considered in all my bs: #does patrick jane know how to be jealous? discuss #i mean...obviously he KNOWS but....does he though #at the very least he's exceedingly out of practice #of course we know next to nothing about his and angela's relationship but between that and this he's basically had 10+ years of red john #and we know lisbon dated during that time (and we know he DID get jealous because...obviously how could he not) #but not jealous in a way he could act on - in part because ms 'intense and particular' didn't seem to have many repeat dates #(idiots) but mainly because of the red john of it all #i doubt he realized it on any conscious level (and if he did he repressed/ignored the shit out of it) #but he couldn't see anything happening with them while he had red john hanging over his head #(tangent: all his 'you deserve a good man' 'he's a good man' later on...he really doesn't see himself as a good man does he #my poor little meow meow - thinking about naomi's tags about the letter again god i wish that had happened) #and she deserves better than that; deserves better than him (SOB); so he lets the hints and the moments of jealousy pass by #but now....well now there's no more red john #he's still got a LOT to work through but that gigantic weight is off his shoulders and there's been this shift between them #(i can't come up with a better way of saying it than) they're flirting like they mean it....not that they didn't before #but now there's this sense of actual possibility behind it; this could be going somewhere; it's slow but they're taking actual (baby) steps #and then pike shows up and the whole thing is imploding as they speak - like he knows from the second that cab pulls up #how her date went and she knows that he'd know and they're just talking around it and they're so AWKWARD where they'd been #working so well together (minus an airplane ride or two) #and now he's trying REAL hard to be supportive even though he probably wants to curl up and sob #because he wants her to be happy (more than maybe anything he wants her to be happy) and he couldn't make her as happy as pike #she deserves a GOOD man and that is not him; she shouldn't have to put her life on hold for him anymore she's done that too much already #but what he doesn't get - what he can't quite comprehend (what absolutely stuns/amazes/thrills him at the end of blue bird) #is he DOES make her happy; he IS a good man (he might be the best man she knows; flaws and all); and (in this instance) #she'd be more than willing to wait for him; to be patient with him #if he'd only let her know that there's something there to wait for; something concrete they could be heading towards together

[goldensunset]

as an underclassman early morning classes and boring classes were what i detested and feared most of all. now it’s difficult classes and evening classes. my evening class last semester actively made me want to become the joker with how disruptive it was to my schedule. i sure would have never wanted to switch into a 9am yawnnnn history lecture class but at this point that sounds like a dream compared to all the tons of active work outside of class with every single professor trying to scare us to death on the first day. i would rather wake up early every day than suffer the hell that i’m currently slated for. last semester brutalized me so badly it’s not even funny i can’t do the same workload again yet worse i need a relative mental break. i do not have that dog in me. i will be going to my advisor screaming and crying tomorrow asking her to make some changes

#like i will take almost anything i can get into at this point #if it fits into my schedule contributes to my actual credit requirements and does not actively make me upset #sounds perfect #and like i am a night owl. it is known i am a night owl #but i can suffer the pain of waking up early for the greater good #i cannot suffer the pain of multiple classes at once in which the professor acts like we don’t have other work to do #like genuinely the workload hasn’t even started yet this semester we’ve had one day of each class so far #and i am like already in absolute dread and depression. just from how they’re making me feel right off the bat #i need out #i need to fix this i thought it would be ok back in november but i don’t know if the pain of last semester really sunk in until afterwards #during winter break i was like oh yay break :] #now that i’m back at school i’m like Huh. so there’s something i never actually recovered from i guess #like now that i’m here i’m like you’re telling me .. i have to do it again. even worse. #and like i was off for 3.5 weeks. but now i understand no amount of time would have ever been enough to prepare me for this #i don’t care if it means i have more work later i’m ahead on credits #this course i wanna drop isn’t strictly required anyway so like. #why kill myself. especially now of all times #sounds like a problem for a future me who isn’t having a mental episode #peach rambles

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

Kirk and spock are really the ideal will they won't they couple because they both have reasons for why they wouldn't confess (spock is embarrassed by his own feelings and kirk WOULD be the guy who goes 'it's not anyone's business but my own how I feel for mr spock' and also because he's captain he's not allowed) but they also have reasons for why they would be the first to confess (spock is very logical and would come forward with his feelings if he thought even for a second they were interfering with how he does his job and kirk is. Kirk.)

#random thoughts #star trek #fucking love this shakespeare episode #but anyway i think spock confesses first. for the hilarity #he confesses fully thinking he's gonna be shot down but also knowing kirk won't make it weird and they can still work together #but like just as a 'im gonna just get this off my chest' moment #kirk goes from stunned silence to angry sputtering to hysterical laughter to both at once #because kirk is emotionally constipated you fucking KNOW he is. he's so mad about it #but like his main rationale for not confessing was that he's not allowed and spock doesn't feel the same way #BUT KNOWING SPOCK FEELS THE SAME WAY??? OUGH HE'S SO MAD #not like at spock but at himself and at starfleet and at just the universe in general #like after spock confesses and kirk's in the room they were in by himself he looks outside at the great wide universe he's exploring #and he hates it so much. fuck the universe fuck starfleet fuck EVERYTHING #my interpretation of kirk is very angry so far. im still on season one #but like kirk turns him down of course and they're very chill about it until eventually they're macking on each other like teenagers #like on a mission on some planet somewhere #kirk DOES pick spock up and he DOES slam him against the wall. very brokeback mountain of him #they're disguised as cowboys or something i've decided. mccoy is very much there but like in the distance #it's strictly making out for like a WHILE. and they never mention it #kirk thinks it's like this unspoken thing between them and it's mutually understood. it's NOT. #spock just had NO REASON to bring it up so far #idk WHY he brings it up. probably just during a casual convo while playing chess and kirk immediately gets weird about it #and spock's like 'is there something wrong jim' and kirk's like 'no i just thought we weren't gonna talk about this' #and spock's like ' . . . do you want me to . . . stop?' and kirk's like 'no you can go ahead i just thought we weren't talking about it' #'did we ever agree to never talk about it?' 'well . . . maybe not VERBALLY per se but' 'ah yes one of your earth customs of tacit agreement' #spock is just very casual about the whole thing because spock is very good at compartmentalizing his emotions #does spock understand WHY kirk doesn't want to date him? no. #does spock understand WHY kirk is making out with him spending all this time with him and also HOLDING HIS HAND??? also no #at one point spock asks about different types of human relationships and kirk gets into the distinctions including greek shit #it does not clear things up like at all but spock relates to agape love

[loverboybrightsideghost]

3, 20, 25?

3- Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year?

it's Queen, and okay yes everyone knows queen, but i feel like this year i actually listened and particularly appreciated them more. i have the LP of a night at the opera and every single song on that album is imprinted in my soul it's sooooo good. i got another queen record recently so >:)))) i plan to one day get them all, or at least all the ones i like (which is probably gonna be all of them anyways lol)

20- what's something you learned this year?

someone told me this a few years ago, but this year especially is when it really sunk in for me: if you think you're really good at something (like in a hubris-y way specifically), you're not as good as you think you are, and if you think you're really bad at something, you're not as bad as you think you are. 

i also learned from antigone funn and bijou from wooden overcoats that "you're out there, being you, in front of other people!" "that matters to you?" that matters. your heroes may seem perfect and graceful and put together, but they're people just like you and just like you, they get nervous and have their own insecurities. you are your own worse critic, and that also applies to the "best of the best" too. and here's the thing, no matter how good or bad ANYONE thinks they are at their craft, it matters to somebody out there. maybe it's just you, and maybe it's someone in a crowd you'll never meet, or maybe it's someone long long after you're dead. but what we do matters.

25- did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? describe one.

sadly i did not :/ i can tell you a bit about my oc renata though (in the tags)

#behold an ask! #IM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME LIKE A WEEK TO ANSWER THIS #prapuna #okay so my oc renata basically spawned bc one day i was like what if immense romantic tragedy #so the general gist of their story is: once upon a time there was this mercenary (who had a lot of magical power) and they were hired to #infiltrate a kingdom and so they got hired as a guard to the princess #but whoops after a WHILE of being near the princess the two of them fell in love and it's really cute but sad #because the princess is being married off to this guy #and so the night before the wedding renata (mercenary) and zarita (the princess) are trying to figure out what to do #and they fight and they don't really come to a solution #zarita talks to the guy she's being married to and they do try to work something out #but the next morning he's found dead- murdered #renata got desperate and killed him #so now. whoops but it gets WORSE bc this guy was like a Chosen One by the gods #he was destined to do Something that changed the course of humanity but renata somehow for in the way of fate?? and fucking killed him #and the gods are PISSED #since his death is technically renata and zarita's fault the gods punish them to eternal rebirth #and renata is cursed to remember everything perfectly #EVERYTHING from that point forward EXCEPT her original life #that is normal memory which means over time it fades and changes and all the shit that happens to memories when time passes #and as they go through the years renata's power (which was already considerable) grows and grows #and eventually they really fucking lose their mind solipsism-style #and they become corrupted and do murder and shit and zarita may not remmeber but they always love renata #inexplicably. even though sometimes renata is a horrible fucking person they still see the good in them and the positive qualities #that made them fall in love in the first place #oh yeah and as soon as zarita Remembers renata and their whole history they're doomed to a tragic death #yeah. can you tell i was deep in quarantine when i came up with them. anyways #they (renata) weren't inspired by scarlet witch but their magic IS red and i always liked the concept of scarlet witch from the comics #losing her mind and her grasp on reality #but i only realized the similarities after i made them lolol

[gazelessmenagerie]

N'Doul being a summoner mayhaps? 🤔

What RPG class do you see my muse as?  

Like the sonar of a Submarine..

                                                          I know exactly where you are.

#orphanedwolfandfriends #|| Tag: Answered #|| Tag: Gazing over the Ocean of Sand { N'Doul } #( you know I can see that. afnlsjg but this is me going off like a few google searches ) #( and getting an assload of different sources but I just settled for like a DnD styled thing. ) #( you know funny thing. i did once make a dnd sheet for him once bc there was going to be a campaign but it never happened ) #( so he's just there but lasdkfllgn ) #( thats just an extra tidbit. but him summoning some entity is just interesting to think about. ) #( bc from what i read. he'd be at the back lines while his summoned creature does the fighting ) #( which. you know. works best for him ) #( and the nature of his summoned beast becomes pretty much linked to his soul or something so added bonus ) #( as a /stand in/ for his stand. HAFLSDKJGN ) #( idk its pretty fucking cool. even more if there's a Tremors angle with his summoned creature ) #( and his fight with the Stardust Crusaders is pretty much what happens. ) #( but also he'd totally be the fucking dick to summon water spell into someone's lungs bc fucking goddamnit of course ) #( in short. hes just a really fucking cool character and I love him ) #( and this class really does sound it'd suit him in that sort of world / idea )

[naomiknight-17]

Just did my new physio routine almost entirely all at once (did my stair stuff and heel lifts earlier) and holy shit

My legs are so wobbly and my arms are trembling

How am I gonna keep doing this every day ack

#of course in like 5-7 days it won't be so hard anymore #i've been working on it the last few days. was at physio thurs and took fri off to rest because omg #did most of the routine saturday but spread out over the day then missed most of yesterday's routine cuz i was too busy with other stuff #so i better crack down and do it from here on or i won't get any better #but ough augh ack it's haaard #and i'm waiting on weights to arrive too #so there's one more exercise to add once i have those and another exercise that's about to get harder when i add weights to it #so. yeah. kinesiologist trying to kill me. as usual #whining #physio #physiotherapy #why does recovery/strengthening have to be so HARD #i know it's important but i feel the need to bitch please bear with me

[bsaka7]

guys should i run a marathon this summer

#16 weeks away #I think im going to do a half in like... A month and a half if I can get the day or half day off... #It's a BQ?? not super hilly course for the area. Okay price #In Sept #I've done like 2/3 of the training for a marathon once precovid #Up to 18min long run #So I know I have it IN me to have the discipline #But it depends on work #But I think trails where I am are good #Sorry u get this post from me ALLLL THE TIME #This time legit I think the answer is yes #Especially if I can get my dad to pay the fee for my birthday lol #Sports posting on my sports blog #Regarding my current shape I haven't been running a HUUUUGE amount but I did a triathlon about a month ago and have been running #Probably 20-25mi for two weeks and then a week off for travel and then this week will be probably 20

[loregoddess]

oh hmm, actually plotting out how a battle is supposed to unfold for a fic is hideous, kinda fun, but hideous and terrible

#I am very bad at action sequences the pacing simply does not come to me #so while ''this happens and then this and then this'' is fine when I get to actually trying to write the beats? #ohoho not looking forward to that at ALL #luckily my brother is excellent at writing action sequences so I might just ask him to give me pointers #BUT at least I am making some progress on this webcomic outline again after like over a month of not touching it #I know if I can get past outlining this stupid battle which is unfortunately necessary for the story #that the rest of the outline should come to me fairly smoothly #since for the first outline I had also hit a dead zone of not wanting to outline this battle but then flew through the rest of the story #once I was past it #*clenches fist* I am going to be so much better at writing and drawing if I can get this project off the ground #and I will learn SO MUCH from writing/drawing this stupid battle but I am going to hate it so much as well #(every time I make like actual progress with my art skills I hate whatever I have to do to make the progress so this is par for the course) #don't worry I'm actually really enjoying this I just also like to complain about whatever I'm working on too #oracle of lore

[anxiousworm]

Feeling weirdly mad bc I don’t even want to be into fnaf anymore yet I’ve spent the last hour rewriting security breach and wishing it could’ve been this instead of the story we got

Edit: I didn’t go into this post thinking I’d write all it out in the tags but I did and I’m sorry djcjdjd

#idk what the fandom’s stance on SB is I just wanted to share my brain thoughts #first off no vanny and no afton #a decade prior to the game a little girl fell into a crawlspace in the pizzaplex and was never found #so her ghost haunts the building and has influenced the animatronics to kill more kids #either as a twisted way to give herself more friends or out of anger that she believes no one ever looked for her #Vanessa and Gregory are step siblings #Vanessa’s mom and dad split years ago and afterwards mom remarried and ended up having Greg #but here’s the kicker. the mom is an abusive asshole #Gregory grows up neglected and is forbidden from going to the pizzaplex bc both her ex husband and Vanessa have worked there #she insists they want to take him away and hurt him. so he’s scared to be around either of them #cut to the into where Gregory sneaks in bc shit. these animatronics look fun as fuck I have to check it out at least once #he has to evade the trio being controlled by the ghost children and Vanessa who’s literally just doing her job #over the course of the game you learn more and more about the mall’s history until you finally find the first girl’s body in a condemned #part of the pizzaplex. and have to set her and all the other kids free #Vanessa and Greg also meet and it’s implied she’s gonna take their mom to court to get custody #so happy ending all around #fnaf #fnaf security breach #security breach #fnaf gregory #fnaf vanessa

[me-myself-and-my-fos]

giles deserves to be malewifed, and is very happy to be! good job, and congratulations ^_^

HE DOES!!! THANK YOU!!!

He’s faced demons and vampires and helped save the world multiple times but now he faces his biggest challenge yet: PTA meetings and after school activities

#I like the idea that I own a bakery in England and make enough that we’re able to live comfortably off it so he never saw the need for a job #especially when the kids are born. I think sometimes he’d like volunteer to lecture at universities about certain mythologies and demonology #but it’s sort of something he just does and doesn’t get paid for. he’s more content to be the kids and take care of the house #and the moms on the PTA love him and think it’s so sweet he takes care of the house while I work and ‘it’s so nice to see an involved dad’ #I’m of course super involved with the kids and take over childcare once I get home from work and make dinner so he can relax. but he’s #malewife’d so hard in the ship #Giles rocking up to the school’s bake sale with cookies his professional baker wife made the night before #also him packing me lunch for work everyday and eventually making lunches for the kids to take to school #sorry I went on a whole ass rant but I have feelings about this #Giles deserves peace #my librarian #anon #otp: how to love a werewolf #bad for crow

[crazywolf828]

Oh. Oh goodie this is going to be great :)

#i just found out i have a dentist appointment on the 2nd #and like #aside from maybe porcelain dolls that may be my biggest fear #like as a kid i had an over crowded mouth so i had to get a bunch of teeth pulled #my dentist (the only one we could afford) never let the novicane kick in and one time he pulled four teeth at once #then another he almost dropped a tooth down my throat and sent me into an asthma attack #then he went to pull a tooth and pulled me up off the chair because it wouldnt come out #and of course we cant forget the time i had to get a filling and it was back when they still used metal the bitch dropped hot metal on face #then i just like stopped going because there was so much more it was so bad #and i got a mild case of hyperdontia (which is where you just keep growing new teeth) #eventually i found a new dentist who was really nice but after my first appointment he moved out of state #i am just having a real time #but my wisdom teeth are coming in and i cant avoid it because man are they impacted #but! #this dentist offers knock out gas which is going to possibly be my one saving grace #because if i get too worked up i might have a seizure #which is really bad if someones hands are in my mouth with metal tools #so yknow fingers crossed #don't mind me

[orcelito]

Thankfully the only injury I got was the leg bruise.. but that wasn't even from the shipment lmao. I was trying to find smth from our storage room to prop the hallway doorway open with & there is this like.... idk, INCREDIBLY heavy box of like. Linoleum tiles I think?? It's only like a foot squared by like six inches high. Not very big but oh LORD it's heavy. Perfect for propping a door open!

Or so I thought. Got down in a crouch, gave it a hefty lift... but that thing Has to be like close to a hundred pounds bc I can lift 50 pounds with ease. I lifted it, but it was still Way Too Much. So I fumbled it, & it hit my leg as I dropped it to the ground.

I went and found a smaller box of coconut milk that was MUCH lighter & used that to prop the door open instead lol

#speculation nation #the bruise is soooo annoying. a good 6 inches long of a bruise. i can feel it anytime i crouch. #but im glad i didnt get hurt any other way. aside from a few lightly squished fingers. #moving That many boxes... injury is definitely possible #there were a good 700+ boxes in that shipment. neighbor store lent us their electric pallet jack thank God #bc it's a long hallway with hills up to our store. made it easier to get up there #but we had to move a lot of things to try to consolidate pallets. and oh yea NONE of these were pre-packed pallets #we had moving help to pack them from the truck onto the pallets. but we only had 2 of the 4 guys we were supposed to have. #a full fucking semi truck of free boxes. so of course the pallets of boxes werent wrapped or anything #WHICH meant a lot of the boxes were precarious. and did indeed fall off. #and we didnt have enough fucking pallets so we had to move So many fucking boxes once we got them to the storage room #to try to put them in every nook and cranny of the room #im just a tiny lil person but i was there lifting aaall these boxes above my head. holy shit. #my body rebelled so hard bc it was sooo angry at me for pushing it past the point of exhaustion lol #rly hoping the ppl who worked as movers get bonuses for that shit bc Wowwwwww that was pretty fuckin awful lol #havent gotten a shipment this big in like 2 years. Man.