#once again im forced to contemplate if i have adhd or if im just dumb and thats not a question i can answer

[snowflop]

#i got 4 important emails today :( #i need to address these by monday or im in trouble haha #but for today! im going to ignore them #i feel so anxious about college next wekk :/ cant even answer my emails without feeling bad idk whats going to happen when i get actual work #but whatever you know! today! im not thinking about it! #haha :) #snow blogging #edit: just going to add onto this instead of making a new post bc its embarrassing #and this way nobody will read it >:3c #anyway i still haven't dealt with it and now its 4 pm on sunday and i have classes tomorrow and i dont even know what classes those are #and i just kinda want to have a whole breakdown but i cant #because i havent even TRIED to deal with anything because its just too much but its so EMBARRASSING to admit it #i hate it here! i hate living in my head #i hate living in my room actually i put my backpack down the last day of school and it hasnt moved since i havent emptied it #im just!! whats wrong with me haha #once again im forced to contemplate if i have adhd or if im just dumb and thats not a question i can answer #but like... i cant actually do anything about it either way? theres no way to do anything without admitting how bad things can get #and id literally rather do anything other then admit to the disaster that is my life beneath the surface #anyway!!!! #its whatever ill get over it ive got the old sunday evening melancholy #dont read this! its embarrassing! normally id put it on my journal blog but i didnt realize how much i had to say before i typed it all up #and im too lazy to retype everything heh #EDIT... TWO!! #its fine actually lol #literally nothing is wrong iwas just freaking out for no reason haha