I wanna start recording my nerd ass creative shit for YouTube but I don't know where the fuck to start lmao
the ridiculous research on the history of receipts? a similar spiral about stamps and designing them for XIV? a culmination of my thoughts about bread tags and bagels within the game lore??
also I spent all day making personal databases on Minecraft redstone mechanics so my brain sure is doing something in here but I can't tell you what
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Hi, I followed you for your fic and I saw you had some posts about having ADHD.
I'm also ADHD, could you tell me about your writing process? I get stuck with things staying in the notes app and they don't really get past that stage.
I'm not sure if it's an interest thing, if the notes fulfill the want so there's no need to put it together. If you have anything thoughts about how to keep up the consistency for fic that'd be appreciated.
Hopefully this isn't too serious of a question, I just have some trouble with wanting to write but not having a purpose for it and I was wondering if that was a brain thing/relatable.
Thank you in advance for any response ☺️ also good luck with your uni stuff~
thank you anon! and dw this isn't too serious at all. i think it's interesting that you ask about keeping consistency bc ironically the biggest tell of my adhd in my writing is my INCONSISTENCY, as you can see with the way updates happen. i wrote 200k words of taob in one year and now i update twice a year on average. i wrote 60k words of tams within a few weeks and now it hasn't been updated since july. and these are just my public projects where i at least have the added pressure of knowing people are waiting for an update, you should see the state of some of my original wips! basically my point here is that my adhd is VERY apparent with my writing habits, but these days i work with it instead of trying to fight it. even before i knew i had adhd, i was aware that my writing came in periods. id go a few weeks churning out insane amounts daily and then dry up for months on end, and each time id enter the 'have i lost it??? will i ever write again???' spiral until low and behold, something would inspire me again and id be back to typing like a madman. i used to seriously fight my dry periods bc of that fear of 'losing' my writing, but that never helped and honestly turning writing into a need instead of a want probably made it worse.
it's one reason - aside the fact it is rude and annoying, i dont want to pretend it isn't or put the blame on me bc that's not what im saying here - that constant demands for fic updates bother me so much, bc people dont realise that the writing style i have now where yes we unfortunately go long times without updates is actually how my writing comes out at its best standard. so yeah! it can be incredibly frustrating and even scary to feel physically unable to write, but if it's something you like and want to do i do truly believe it'll always come back sooner or later, or at least that's my experience :)
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Ok but now that i think about it
Where did the "dazai didn't say anything to chuuya when he left the port mafia" come from? cuz its everywhere
Is it a hc or did they say that he didn't? Because now that i think about it chuuya said he celebrated the same night when dazai left the mafia But dazai went missing a few times before so how would everyone immediately know he left the port mafia? Did he leave a note in Mori's Office or something? xd I really wish we knew how that night went down. Was he just casually telling everyone that whole day that he was leaving?
Imagine what everyone's reactions to that would've been lmao
Would people have taken it seriously? Would the subordinates have laughed nervously because they weren't able to tell if he was joking or not?
Lmao Imagine if everyone in the mafia celebrated It
Dazai or chuuya throwing a massive party at the pm base to celebrate he was leaving
Mori just walking that night into the mafia building expecting everyone to be all over the place or something because of dazai leaving and seeing a huge fucking party
How would akutagawa have reacted to that who am kidding dazai definitely didn't tell him shit and wouldn't have invited him to the party if that actually happened Imao
Maybe that was why chuuya didn't know it was dazai who blew up his car he was probably too wasted/distracted because of all that mess
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love your detty fics sooo damn much!! would you ever consider doing something canon complaint? like daniel realizing his feelings sooner (re: season two or three). youre such a great writer!!!
Thank you so much! I have a few canon divergent ones where they realize their feelings during season 4 but not earlier. I'm working on one right now where they realize before the end of season 4 thanks to the power of fake dating. 😂 Now this may be controversial but I actually don't think they were ready earlier! They both had a ton of growing up to do and Daniel needed to be less disgusting lol. I'm also against them being together while Betty was his assistant and I actually like that Betty completely left Mode before anything could happen since he owned it. But I do have to admit there's been an idea kicking around my head for a while about Betty going to Tucson when Henry asked and then Daniel...going after her. Not sure if I'll ever actually write it though!
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My therapist told me that when I feel hopeless and defeated by my physical limitations that I should take a lot of care not to let that define me. Instead he says I should focus on my adaptability and strength for surviving despite them... But god is that so hard to do when I feel like literal dogshit and can't even get off the floor long enough to put clean sheets on my bed
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