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I've come to realize something important in writing. (specifically in my personal experience)
(TLDR; I have ADHD and writing is hard even though I'm still doing it every single day. Make it make sense.)
If you have a story in your head that means a lot to you, and you need to take more time to develop and fully flesh it out before posting it, that's totally okay! In fact, in my experience, it has the potential to make the story better over time, really forming it into what you imagine it to be.
Here's an example because I just typed a lot of words and right now I can't seem to process whether they make sense or not.
I have a fanfic that I've been working on for a year now. (For the Marauders fandom if y'all are curious)
It's one that I haven't talked about much because every time I do, I end up losing the motivation to write. This is what happened to another one of my fics for the Haikyuu fandom. (well that and the Marauders.. yeah they fucked me up in the best way and Freckles and Constellations has really suffered because of it smh)
So the reason why this fic is taking so long is because it is such a specific AU that I'm out here trying to meld magic systems, and I've got like EIGHT MAIN CHARACTERS to write backstories for to fit this AU while also being true to them and even though I know the basic plot, there are just so many little details and aspects that will make this fic what I desperately need it to be.
And no one knows just how intricate it is or how important it is to me. Which is totally fine. I don't even know if people are going to read it when I finally manage to post it. This fic is purely self-indulgent.
let me just break down for you what I have prepared for this already:
countless drabbles and scenes and plans written on the backs of receipts and on bits of scrap paper
a 3" 3-ring binder that I've been trying to organize it all in
a google doc titled "TAoRfOL Doc Masterlist" that has links to every single doc I have for this one fic. (it's dated back to March of last year and as of this month has 93 total links. Only 5 of those are reference links.)
notes and ideas i have written in my phone to transfer into docs so I can add them to the masterlist
Hero Forge digital models of those 8 main characters because I wanted to see what their group would look like outside of my imagination
Multiple Spotify playlists dedicated to this fic and the characters which I listen to every single day. (currently @ 494 songs)
And you know what? I just recently, at 6 am this morning, finally figured out the solution to a fucking plot hole I could not work around.
Basically what I'm saying is that I needed all of this time. Every single day I see things and get inspiration. Every day I learn new things and fix errors in my own plans.
As much as I crave the validation and recognition for all of my hard work on this project, I know that If I had just bit the bullet and posted the first chapter without having done all of this research and all of this planning, then it would not have lived up to the story I have in my head.
I admire people who can just write without all of the added steps and in some cases, I can do that. I haven't been able to in a while (which is why that Valentine's Day microfic was actually really big for me to have posted) but that's just how my brain works.
I needed all of my experiences and all of my daily thoughts and all of my collective playlists for this fic to be able to write the story I intended and that is exactly what I'm going to do.
(though if I'm being honest, this timeline is rough. I really want to just write and post this first chapter so so so bad. ToT)
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WIP Wednesday
Fanonwriter2023 on AO3
Where CANON and FANON collide!
FANON Future Buddie Fanfic Series - Their Firsts, At Last: Part 11 will be posted soon.
I'm excited to continue writing the next part in this series because in Part 10: “First Marriage Proposal", Buck and Eddie got engaged but even though they revealed their relationship to Chris, Maddie and the 118, in Part 8: First Relationship Reveal, they didn't tell their parents they're in a serious relationship. Also, they're happily engaged now but they still have a lot to talk about regarding their future as a married couple.
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Here are two snippets from Part 11: one from Buck's conversation with his parents and one from Eddie's conversation with his parents.
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Buck talking to his parents
“She’s here.  Hold on please and I’ll ask her to come into the den with me then I’ll put you on speaker phone.”
“Ok.”
Buck can hear Phillip call for his mother but his voice sounds muffled which makes him think he covered the phone receiver with his hand.
About one minute later, Phillip says, “Buck, your mother and I are both here.  Say hello, Margaret.”
“Hello Buck, it’s so good to hear from you.”
Eddie rolls his eyes but he doesn’t say anything for two reasons; first they don’t know he’s on the call yet and second, he thinks they’re still full of shit.
“Thanks mom.  I told dad that I’m not going to keep you long but before I explain why I’m calling, I need to let you know Eddie’s on the call with me.”
“Eddie… who’s Eddie?”
What will Phillip and Margaret say after Buck tells them him and Eddie are engaged and they’re getting married next week?
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Eddie talking to his parents
Ramon responds, “Go ahead Eddie, we’re listening.”
“Thanks dad.  Me and Buck have been in a relationship for more than two months…”  He trails off when he hears Helena’s loud gasp but he doesn’t let her response deter him, “and last night, he proposed to me and I said yes. We’re engaged and we’re getting married”.
Silence engulfs the call and it’s so quiet the sound of a feather could be heard hitting the ground.
He looks at Buck then he takes his hand in his and laces their fingers together since he’s not really surprised by the silence but then Ramon starts talking.
“Eddie, I’m happy for you son.  When’s the wedding?”
Before Eddie can answer, Helena interjects.
What is Helena going to say in response to Eddie’s announcement about him and Buck getting married?
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First Love Confession -Buck and Eddie share their first real and meaningful love confession.
First Date - Buck and Eddie go on their first date.
First Kiss - Buck and Eddie share their first kiss.
First Argument - Buck and Eddie have their first argument.
First Couples Therapy Session- Buck and Eddie go to their first couples therapy sessions.
First Time - Eddie and Buck make love for the first-time.
First Morning After - The night after Buck and Eddie make love for the first-time, they spend their first morning after together.
First Relationship Reveal - Buck and Eddie’s first relationship reveal.
First Mourning - Buck and Eddie experience their first mourning after a loss together.
First Marriage Proposal - Eddie and Buck’s first marriage proposal.
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Their Firsts, At Last - 118K Words; Currently 8 completed works: A multi-part fanfic series about the romantic “firsts” Buck and Eddie share as they journey through life in an established relationship and their lives as a couple will include some of Buck’s individual “firsts” too. It’s filled with the FANON love, romance, fluff and domesticity their relationship should have been allowed to experience in CANON.  The second part of the series title was adapted from the song “At Last” by Etta James.
This series of FANON future speculation fanfics is being written on a continuous timeline that begins with the start of season 7 (if it were to start in September 2023). Each part ends at a specific point in Buck and Eddie’s relationship so the next part can begin with the ending of the previous part. Therefore, parts 1-6 should be read prior to reading part 7 and the series will continue in that manner until it’s complete.
Parts 1 - 10 are available on AO3
Part 11 will be posted soon!
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maggot-monger · 3 months
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i was tagged by @leatafandom — thank you!! it was fun both to see your answers and to think about/look up mine <3
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
99. some day #100 will be posted but who knows when or what that will be lolol
2. What’s your total A03 word count?
395,538
3. What fandoms do you write for?
currently none; i'm doing original stuff only lately. however i have things on ao3 written for marvel (specifically the asgardian faction), downton abbey, what we do in the shadows, and of course most recently (and also least recently...i've come full circle) supernatural
4. What are your top five fics by kudos?
seize the crown (wwdits, e)
friendly favors (wwdits, e)
judges of character (downton abbey, gen)
"mr barrow has the flu" (downton abbey, t)
thomas barrow and the power of friendship (downton abbey, t)
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
yessss i love responding to comments!!! i appreciate them so much, and i love an opportunity to talk about my writing <3 i can understand why people might prefer not to, especially on a place like ao3 which is technically an archive, but i like the community feel of interacting with readers on there (and i love it when other authors reply to my comments so kind of a golden rule situation)
6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
hm...technically the song remains the same (spn, t) has the least desirable endingbut imo passive (mcu, gen), which is entirely about grief and denial, is angstier despite "brother died" being a less dramatic problem than "stuck in eternal crushing hell isolation"
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
to me it's phantom fangs (wwdits, t), my little vampirism-as-trans-allegory project! it's a bit of a bummer at times but to me the ending is so happy <3
8. Do you get hate on your fic?
i haven't!
9. Do you write smut?
yee. although i'm never sure if i want to write smut lmao but it sure does happen a fair amount sometimes
10. Do you write crossovers?
it's not generally my thing, although i do enjoy heavy allusions. i do have at least one though!
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
not that i'm aware of (i have had art stolen though RIP)
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
yes! although i'm not sure the translation is up anymore; it was a number of years ago
13. Have you ever co-written a fic?
no...i'm curious about this but i'm not sure how it would go? but anyway no, at least not yet
14. What‘s your all-time favourite ship?
formally it's samifer because i got my fandom phd in this lol but who even knows in actuality tbh
15. What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
i'm soooo haunted by the last chapter of crimsonpeaknatural aka hollow's gate (spn, e). it is my longest fic on ao3 by far and is literally one chapter from done, i just can't bring myself to write the last ~7k. it is fully outlined. i know what happens in it. i just can't write it! why
i also started a michean fic over the summer that i really like but i doubt it'll ever be finished. at least i never posted any of that though :p
16. What’s your writing strengths?
imo characterization/perspective, atmosphere, and prose versatility. maybe pacing? i've gotten comments on that a few times but it's less of a self-observed strength
17. What’s your writing weaknesses?
i don't know what plots are <3 also sometimes my prose wraps around to being a little too circular for its own good so that's both a strength and a weakness of mine lol.
tbh i'm also bad at killing my darlings, especially when it comes to scenes i'm obsessed with, unless i give myself a LONG time to edit. like, on the order of months
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
i'm not really a fan of this as a reader and i prefer not to do it as a writer, but also i'm not going to knock it on principle because i do understand the appeal, especially to people who are writing primarily for themselves and are comfortable in both/all the languages they're including. it can be fun sometimes to see the differences between the language the dialogue and the translation gives (if they provide one) if the language is one i'm also familiar with.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
harry potter. y'know...what can you do lol it is what it is. i wrote the kind of dramione angst you'd expect of a person like me who was 13yo at the time
20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written?
ohhhh i don't know. i had SO much fun writing poker face (spn, e) and i think it succeeds at doing everything i wanted it to do. this isn't an objective answer but i am genuinely very happy with that one so it is my answer atm!
no-pressure tagging @artoodeeblue, @fandom-space-princess, @quietwingsinthesky, and anybody else who would like to do this!
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stiles-o-dylan24 · 8 months
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Ooo my favorite album i have heard of hers.... "fun" fact i rolled my car while listening to that album...the song was woods specifically... then I hit a tire in a snow storm listing to her again... so this album is kinda not lucky for me🤣🤣🤣 at least in the winter...
Also what where her easter eggs to make everyone think it was next?
Omg 😳 that’s insane that this album got to be the soundtrack to so much bad car luck for you! Im so sorry but I’m so glad you’re okay and hopefully this version will bring you better memories😂😂
I will be honest there were quite a few from the last few days that made me stroll down clownelia street again that something was happening tonight
First was in the I can see you music video she ended it driving a getaway car towards 1989 so people thought double drop with Rep but I wasn’t clowning that hard 😂 figured it was one of the two next though.
Then main one for it happening today specifically was 8/9 would have been 8 years, 9 months and 13 days from its original release date and she is wayyy too much of an Easter egg mastermind to pass up at least announcing something tonight.
SoFi stadium also released some photos welcoming Taylor to the city earlier last week and one of them had a lifeguards stand with 1989 Taylor’s version written on the side which was suspicious 😂
Back when she announced the speak now tv release date the show before the announcement the bracelets you’re given to wear they flashed purple 3 times and I guess last night the bracelets flashed light blue 5 times which I found out about this morning and double downed on my clowning😂
The jacket she wore during the lover set at last nights show was new dark blue color as well as her bodysuit during midnights was new and was sooo similar to the bodysuit she wore during 1989’s tour so those got my hopes up even more for an announcement during tonight’s last show.
Then today there was a tweet from Taylor nation with a bunch of numbers that added up to 89 before the show started. And during the show tonight two other dresses changed to a new blue color that both looked like the 1989 blue vibe and then for the 1989 set she usually switches it up with a pink, green or yellow two piece sparkly set that she then has a matching color dress cover she puts on before she does the surprise songs and bc of the midnights and lover jacket changes last night I said to my sister this morning what if instead of pink, green or yellow it’s LIGHT BLUE and I was right😭 it was so pretty too!!
So yeah these were the main ones that were pretty fun to put together and then for the surprise songs tonight she played the last one from 1989 and then New Year’s Day from Repuation so I think Rep Taylor’s version will release on New Year’s Day or maybe we’ll get the announcement? I’m calling it now😂
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justbeingoceana · 4 years
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What happens when you haven’t listen to Shawn’s music in months, when you finally start back you have 12 million conspiracy theories about every song.
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ririglow · 3 years
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Love Drought | V.H
Vinnie Hacker x singer! reader 
synopsis: it's the day after Vinnie's fight and everyone he's ever cares about are celebrating his big win except one person he absolutely adores.
warnings: angst, language
part two
a/n: just a quick note I make my readers black, but if anyone wants their own request just hit the ask :)
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"Honey you still haven't ordered yet, are you okay?" Maria asked her son, concerned was written over her face as she looked over Vinnie's demeanor. He's been distant ever since they arrived at the celebratory dinner.
"Kind of losing my appetite mom." He muttered while taking a sip of water, as he looked at his phone for the millionth time that night. 
He looked over the last text you sent him, with rising rage.
"I'll be there soon, I'm just now finishing up at the studio. Love you" 
7:30pm
He looked at the time on his phone, which read 8:45pm. This wouldn't be the first time you'd been late or to not show up at all due to you being busy at the studio.
When he first met you eight months ago, your career was just taking off and your name had been all over America, because of the release of your first big single that immediately dominated the charts. He'd been there with you at every award show and performance standing by your side and rooting for you at every step of the way.
As months passed on more opportunities came to you, brand deals, more collaborations, and even a cameo in a movie. Which made you miss out on the dates Vinnie planned for you two. As much as he hates to be needy, he needs you more than ever right here, right now, celebrating his big accomplishment. It was almost like a punch in the face for him.
Minutes passed, and those minutes turned into another hour and still no y/n. Everyone at the table could see how visibly upset Vinnie had gotten over time. 
"Maybe she's just stuck in traffic?" Reggie tried to reason, nudging Vinnie a little.
"Yeah, maybe." He said scoffing sarcastically, looking down at the silver bracelet you had gotten him right after his win.
It had the words "champion" carved into it.
He remembered the confusion and surprise feeling he had on his face as you showed him.
"How the hell did you know I was gonna win?" He cheesed, wrapping his arm around your shoulder pulling you close.
"Because that's how much I believe in you." She smiled at him with adoring eyes, before pulling him into a passionate kiss.
Everyone around you both cooed at the sight, even taking out their phone to capture the beautiful moment.
You both pulled away, not wanting to have a full make-out session in front of Vinnie's friends and family.
"You got to admit though- Vinnies started to say, making you look up at him expectantly. "It would've been awkward if I had lost."
Vinnie faintly smiled at the recent memory, but the smile quickly went as it came. He looked up at the long dinner table seeing his family and friends laughing with each other, wanting to do the same with you.
Trying to remain positive he ended up grabbing another cup of champagne pouring it to the rim, he'd hoped that the alcohol would put a stop to him anticipating you come walking through the restaurant doors. Except of course , it only intensify the feeling of him wanting to grab his phone, and call you. In which he did, multiple times, you however didn't answer any of them. Now he was worried.
Meanwhile almost thirty mile away from where Vinnie was waiting you were still in the studio, trying to perfect a song you wrote specifically for him. With multiple crumbled papers on the ground and cups of energized drinks laying around you stood in front of the recording microphone finishing up the last lyric.
"alright y/n, that was good!" the recording producer said into the booth mic, making you sigh in relief. You wanted the song as perfect as possible. This time had been the longest time you'd been in the studio, you had till the end of the month to release your first album and the pressure was on everyone was was expecting you to shock the world. So much that it kept you away from your relationship, you vowed to yourself after this blows over you were going to give every bit of attention to Vinnie and make up for the long nights and days where he barley seen you due to your busy schedule.
"Hey, y/n your phone has been going off like crazy." Your manager mentioned as you exited the booth, ready to go home,
10 missed calls from "bebe🥰💕"
bebe🥰💕
hey bub, where are you?
8:01pm
bebe🥰💕
can you call me please?
8:10pm
maria😇
y/n vinnie, is getting pretty worried i know your probably busy but please give me or him a call.
8:55pm
Your eyes widened as you read the miss messages, you had completely forgot about the dinner ,and now you look like a complete asshole and a awful girlfriend. especially in the in eye of his mother which was the last thing you wanted.
Without saying another word you quickly left the studio leaving your manager standing there complete dumbfounded. As you enter the outside paparazzi swarmed you as you rushed towards your car, ignoring all questions. the only thing that was on your mind right now was Vinnie.
As you impatiently drove on the streets of Los Angeles, you were also calling Vinnie back only for his phone to dial tone a few time before going straight to voicemail.
Giving up, you toss your phone to the side already arriving at the restaurant, that Vinnie's family specifically rented out so everyone could be enjoyably with a sense of privacy. You hurried out your car, and walking up the double doors
As you tried to pull the handle the doors wouldn't budge, you look around finally realizing the parking lot was empty. You were too late.
Feeling completely bummed out you went back to your car and drove over to the hype house. You honestly felt like shit, and you wanted to let Vinnie how sorry you were.
Your mind blanked out for the majority of the ride, it was buzzing with questions and reassurance with yourself.
He would wouldn't be too mad right? Maybe a little but not much, and you'll make it up to him in no time. You thought, convincing yourself that hopefully he's not a pissed as you thought.
Knocking on the door of the hype house your hands were felt clammy with anticipation. Your legs were trembling with nervousness.
"Hey, y/n we missed you at dinner!" Michael answer the door, as if you weren't feeling already bad you felt absolutely horrible now.
"Yeah, sorry about that. Is Vinnie still awake?" You asked him quickly not really wanting to get into a conversation with him at the moment.
"Um, I'm not sure we haven't seen him ever since we got back." Michael said awkwardly, remembering the fuming look Vinnie had on the entire way back to the house.
"You can go check, though." He added moving out the way so you can enter the house. With a mumbled 'thanks' you hurried to Vinnie's room, ignoring all the greetings from the rest of the house members.
"Vinnie?" You asked softly opening his door slowly, the glow of his TV the hung up on his wall casted light into the room. Vinnie was sitting up on his bed with his back up against the headboard.
Vinnie looked up at the sound of your voice, admiring how beautiful you looked standing by his door awkwardly. Still no matter how irresistible you looked, what you did was fucked up.
"Babe, i am so sorry! I was at the studio working on this song that i wrote about-" You started to say but was cut off by Vinnie.
"Of fucking course you were at the studio, just like you been these last couple months. I gotta question y/n, is that what you really go to?" He said loudly, getting up from the bed.
"What are you trying to say? That I'm cheating on you? You should know me by now Vinnie, that I would never ever hurt you like that!" You exclaimed with just the same amount of volume as he.
"Then I don't fucking get it y/n! Are you that fucking selfish, you bail out every single time we do something?" He furrowed his eyebrows, tonight he was getting all the feelings he'd been building up for weeks now.
"I don't bail out every time, and I'm not selfish!" You denied, not wanting to accepting any kind of words being pushed towards yourself.
"Oh really? What about the time when me and you were supposed to take a trip to New York? Or that time I arranged for us to go and see the premiere of the tomorrow war, which we were both excited for! But who decided to cancel last minute because they would rather fucking over work themselves at the studio than to spend some time with their boyfriend?! Who y/n?!" He shouted now standing close to her face, veins were popping out of his neck and his face was now bright red of rage.
Never in your time together Vinnie has yelled at you like this, not even in the times he'd mentioned you bailing out.
You slowly gulped trying not to cry. "But you know how busy i am, I can't just go and have fun when I have to work, you know that! No wait- of course you don't! You don't know shit about working! You knew from the very beginning when we got together, how it was going to be! And now you want to complain? I don't need you holding me back"
By now everyone in the house can hear the couple.
"So now I'm holding you back for wanting my girlfriend present at something that meant so much to me! Your a real fucking narcissist y/n, I went to every show you had, been right there with you when you received your plaques, and celebrated every award you gotten since I been with you." He blinked his away some of the tears he felt brimming around his eyes, the words that left your lips hurt him more than anything.
He tried to be the best supportive boyfriend he could be, never wanting to "hold you back". When you and him first met, he thought you were completely out of his league. Here you were making something of yourself in the industry, meanwhile he was posting thirst traps on tiktok. To him it just didn't seem right, and for awhile the internet had the same opinion as him.
Whenever a teapage post you two, the comments would be horrendous.
"Now, why she with this yt boy?"
"He cute, but what he do?"
"If she don't cop somebody with actual talent"
"He's going to hold her back for sure, good luck tho"
Vinnie never showed it but the comments used to affect him in a way that he saw you were beyond what he can have. So hearing you say that ,crushed his fucking soul. And a huge part believed that you really meant it, otherwise why have you say it?
"I can't believe you just called me that, stop making it seem like i'm a bad guy. I've been there for you multiple times! Just as you have for me! and you know that, what more can I do?!" You shouted back, your bronzed skin were now glisten with tears. The ache in you heart as your eyes looked up at Vinnie and seen his face becoming slowly emotionless despite the few stray flowing down.
"You don't have to worry about me anymore, there's nothing you can do but just leave. You know since I hold you back n all" He told you feeling choked up at what he's was about to do.
"Vinnie, i didn't mean it, i just-" You started to say before cutting off letting out a sob, already knowing what he meant by that but there was no way you was just going to leave like this.
"I'm sorry- okay! please don't." You added, walking towards him, and grabbing his hand.
Vinnie avoided all eye contact with you as he yanked his hand from your grasp, he didn't want to see the damage he caused-not on your prepossessing face.
"We're done, y/n."
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earnestly-endlessly · 3 years
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*flies in like magneto* can i get some exes to lovers™?
Do I have some exes to lovers fics for you? Yes I certainly do. It seems that the cherik fandom loves some exes to lovers cherik and I don't blame anyone because this ship really calls for all the angst. I hope you enjoy this list.
Exes to Lovers AU
Bound – FuryRed
Summary: Is there anything worse than someone else’s wedding? Well, perhaps your sister’s wedding- where the groom just has to invite his boss and that man just happens to be your ex-boyfriend; a person you had an extremely passionate and tumultuous relationship with that ended badly.
Charles hadn’t seen Erik for a year by the time Raven had told him about the wedding. He wasn’t looking forward to the occasion, particularly when Raven explained that they would be celebrating the event with a two-week extravaganza at a luxury hotel, meaning that Charles would be forced to spend a whole fortnight with the man who he’d given everything to; the man who had ultimately broken his heart…
Preheat to 350 (just for you remix) – ikeracity
Summary: Charles realizes he's in love with Erik. But there's one tiny little problem: he just broke up with Erik.
Thread Through a Needle – Black_Betty
Summary: Erik and Charles are broken up. Neither of them want to be.
Carry Me Anew (Frost & Darkholme Remix) – kianspo
Summary: While working as a model for Raven and Emma's clothing line, Erik experiences a strong attraction to his shoot partner. These things happen, except Erik has a boyfriend, who does not take this at all well.
Linger like a tattoo kiss – ikeracity
Summary: Six months apart gives Erik a lot of time to think about what he really wants.
(Erik's POV from Carry Me Anew (Frost & Darkholme Remix) by kianspo)
Symphysis – ikeracity
Summary: After Charles and Erik broke up four months ago, Charles convinced himself he'd never see Erik again. But life has a funny way of bringing people back together.
Call/Response – phalangine
Summary: Charles and Erik have a real conversation for the first time since breaking up. Charles is looking to avoid confrontation. Erik is not.
Regression Therapy – Fantine_Black
Summary: O, God, he’d made a terrible mistake. Whatever he’d expected to find here, Erik was still Erik, a man he’d moved continents to avoid. In retrospect, that felt like a rather good idea…
Four years after Charles walked away from Professor Lehnsherr, the two meet again for a drink.
Because things are better the second time round, aren't they?
Forever is Only a Drunk Dial Away – bettysofia
Summary: Charles is sad and drunk and stalking Erik's Instagram.
Shop Space – Caradee
Summary: Charles and Erik break up but still meet at their favorite coffee shop and manage a completely friendly relationship. The kids who work the coffee shop don't understand it, Charles' overprotective twin brother doesn't understand it, and even Charles doesn't understand it. Then, Erik shows up with a new date, someone who seems to be everything that Charles is not.
How will the Professor handle the surprising heartbreak that comes seeing Erik with someone else?
Mutant House at Dead Kings College – mabyn
Summary: When it comes to romance, Charles has terrible timing.
Can You Feel My Heart – FuryRed
Summary: Erik Lehnsherr hates Charles Xavier.
It’s as true as the words written on the wall in the bathroom at the university that Erik attends. Erik sees them one day- accompanied by a crude drawing of Erik and Charles glaring at each other- and recognises the truth of the sentence, and smiles.
He hates Charles.
Probably…
Believe (One More Time) – luninosity
Summary: For the prompt, Charles and Erik dated during college and had a bitter break-up right before graduation. It's five years later and they both meet again at their class's reunion for a weekend. Someone was even stupid enough to have them room with each other for the weekend...
Old Flame Burning – TurtleTotem
Summary: It's ridiculous for Charles to dread meeting the best man at his sister's wedding, just because he shares a name with Charles's ex. It's not as though it could possibly be the same Erik.
Don’t speak to the bartender – Wild_Imagination
Summary: Logan is a bartender, it's a gloomy evening, and in his bar there's someone with a broken heart. But this is not a movie.
Right?
Somewhere I’m Going & Have Never Been Before – Yahtzee
Summary: In late December 1984, Charles falls victim to the terrible pandemic sweeping across the globe. He's sick, probably dying, and utterly alone in an isolated cabin...until he's not.
Walking in a Winter Wonderland – TurtleTotem
Summary: Charles hasn't seen Erik since their devastating breakup ten years ago. He's certainly the last person he expects to run into at a Christmas lights display.
Lean On Me – SpiritsFlame
Summary: Ten years ago, Charles and Erik split up, dividing their six kids between them. None of them expect them to meet at summer camp. And no one could have predicted the results.
It was a yellow umbrella spring – ikeracity
Summary: Three years after Charles left for Oxford, Erik discovers that Charles is coming back to New York.
Second chances are wonderful things.
My heart above my head – annejumps
Summary: Emma thinks her coworker Erik and her friend and fellow telepath Charles should get together. No one expects things to get so intense so quickly.
The Edge of What Doesn’t End – populuxe
Summary: When a mysterious object appears on the moon, Moira MacTaggert calls in two experts with very specific mutations to investigate.
Unfortunately for everyone involved, after years of breaking up and getting back together again, those two experts have finally broken up for good—and they’re the last people in the world who should be stuck together on a spaceship.
Exit Wounds – LemonadeGarden
Summary: It's been eight months since Charles and Erik had a fight that broke apart their marriage. When a mutant rights protest goes awry and Charles begins to get sick, past memories and present obstacles begin to blur the lines of their ideological differences.
Alternatively: Charles and Erik learn how to fall in love again in troubled times.
Note: Unfinished
11 Days, 8 Hours and 12 Minutes (or Bruises, Stupidity and Anger Management) – ximeria
Summary: For six months, Erik and Charles have been the disgustingly happy couple of the school. Considering their pigheadedness and general communication skills (or lack thereof), things are bound to go boom at some point.
Moon Song – ikeracity
Summary: Werewolf AU. When Charles is captured by hunters, Erik and his pack go after him. It turns out there might be some room for redemption left for both of them after all.
I will Never Stop Loving You – swoopswoop
Summary: Erik and Charles split up three years ago but Erik never really got over it and then one day when the man who walked out of his life three years ago is walking down the street towards him, Erik sees an opportunity to mend fences.
Please leave your message after the tone – ikeracity
Summary: Spending his evening getting shitfaced and pining over Erik seems like a totally productive use of Charles's time. Luckily, it turns out to be a better idea than it sounds.
When the Spell Breaks – kianspo
Summary: Erik, a high-profile lawyer with a successful career, meets a 21-year-old grad student in a bar, and within a few short months marries him. He and Charles are blissfully happy, until Erik's boss runs a background check on Charles and discovers he's been cheating on Erik. Charles denies everything, as there was no affair, but Erik doesn't believe him and throws him out. As Charles tries to figure out how to survive and stay at school that he can no longer afford and makes a lot of bad if not plain dangerous choices, Erik has to fight his own battle of discovering the truth and winning Charles back.
We have not touched the stars, nor are we forgiven (the things you love don’t last remix) – hllfire
Summary: Charles hands Erik the signed divorce papers, but Erik has changed his mind. Too late, it seems. All he can do is go forward with the divorce.
A year later, Charles comes back, and Erik can't help but wanting to see him. The only problem is things don't go like Erik had planned.
Suddenly There’ll Be a Blizzard (Let it Snow Remix) – kianspo
Summary: Charles was never at his best while jetlagged, but locking himself out in a snowstorm while barely dressed might be a new low. The last thing he expected was to be rescued by his high school nemesis, the man he hadn't seen in over ten years, who might have broken his heart for good once upon a time.
Write this number down (you can call it anytime) – pocky_slash
Summary: When Erik upsets his children, they have a habit of running away from home--and straight to Charles' school for cookies and consolation. Charles doesn't mind the visitors, but as they appear more and more frequently, he realizes that sooner or later, he and Erik are going to have to talk about what happened on the beach and what it means for their future and the future of Erik's children.
All we do is break up (and make up) – Stuckyl0v3r
Summary: "So instead of making the most out of this next months, because you don't know where either of you is going to end up, you decided to stay away from each other to get used to the feeling?" Hank summed up, stopping in front of the class. Charles nodded his head confidently and beamed at him, but somehow his smile didn't reach his eyes.
"Yes, something like that."
Well, that was the most idiotic plan Hank's ever heard.
Three wheels of cheese and a Great White – ximeria
Summary: Charles and Erik were friends with benefits in college.
They went their separate ways and 18 years later, they run into each other in New York.
The sex was never a problem back in college - and sex was all it had been. But now Erik is a divorced father and Charles has admitted to himself he needs more than just sex in a relationship. So in their usual round-about way they try to navigate becoming friends after so many years. The whole quest is aided by Raven, Edie, Wanda and Pietro (and a large number of shark jokes).
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Serenade (Daniela Dimitrescu/Reader) Pt. 8
Fandom: Resident Evil: Village Rating: T for language? Warnings: None? I think? Please let me know if I missed something Notes: Bit of fluff with some anxiety/update on primary conflict. Next chapter will be a cute date with Dani, the one after that will be maximum h*rny, and then what will likely be the finale. Music for this chapter here. PS this one is a bit on the shorter side, but I hope y'all still enjoy it. Past Chapters: Pt. 1: Nocturne, Pt. 2: Overture, Pt. 3: Accelerando, Pt. 4: Toccata, Pt. 5: Poco a Poco, Pt. 6: Elegy, Pt. 7: Harmony
Chapter 8: Obbligato
(Obbligato: An instrumental part which is essential in a piece of music)
“Okay, okay, serious this time, please? I’ll give you a kiss if you try hard enough,” you promised, grinning up at Daniela as you did. A week had passed since your talk in the library, with the two of you spending most days together, and you were progressing nicely with the musical lessons. Still, your girlfriend (you would never get tired of saying that word) was prone to getting a tad ‘distracted’. By you, usually. Not that it was intentional by any means. There was only so much you could do to keep her focused when the two of you were this close together.
“I could just kiss you anyway,” Daniela teased, leaning in with familiar intent. Right before your lips touch, however, she pulls back and smirks. “But if you insist, I can handle the challenge.” Then she’s turning back towards the piano, carefully finding the starting position. Even with her prior experience, you were impressed with how much she had already learned, and couldn’t help but be immensely proud of her. If anyone could meet Lady Dimitrescu’s expectations within a three month timeframe, it was the two of you. Except, of course, you still had to double-check just what her expectations were.
In the meantime, you were excited to hear your girlfriend play through the sheet music you had written up. Most of what you were working with had come from the family’s storage room, but you had also found some blank sheets, and figured it couldn’t hurt to create songs of your own. This particular one was relatively simple. It had been based on a song from a game you had played years ago, and only posed a moderate challenge due to its interesting rhythm. Daniela had seemed to enjoy playing it, with you even hearing her practice the song outside of your lessons, but had so far today refused to play it seriously.
Finally that was going to change. Once she found the starting notes, she nodded to herself, then started playing. For the first time today her expression is stern, focused. Seeing her like this was nice. She was always cute, you just thought that she was extra cute like this. But you tried not to let yourself get too distracted, knowing that you couldn’t give her feedback if you didn’t pay attention. In your head you “play along”, fingers miming the movements, knowing that it would help you catch any possible mistakes. Throughout the piece there are only a couple that you catch, none of them being severe enough to ruin the experience. Finishing with a little flourish, Daniela returns her gaze to you, grinning expectantly.
“Well? I seem to recall you promising me a reward,” she said, perking a brow. Laughing a little, you roll your eyes, before moving in to give her exactly what she wanted. Both of you are smiling into the kiss, enjoying every moment of it. Soon enough Daniela is running a hand through your hair, and pressing against you more, tilting her head just enough to deepen the kiss. You’re blushing hard now, thoughts going everywhere other than music. It’s not until you pull back for air that you remember what you’re supposed to be doing right now.
“As wonderful as this is… we still have a few more songs to go over,” you murmured, despite how much you wanted to keep kissing Daniela. By the way she groaned in frustration, you figured she felt the same way, more or less. “Hey, don’t fret too much. Think of this as an opportunity to earn a few more rewards,” you teased, gently patting her on the shoulder. For a moment she simply pouts, but eventually she sighs and gets ready to play another song…
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Rushing up the steps, practically two at a time, you desperately hoped that you wouldn’t be late. This was your third “update meeting” with Lady Dimitrescu, which by itself was enough to make you a nervous wreck. Add in the fact that this was the first time you’d be meeting alone? And in her personal study, no less? Well, it was safe to say that you were terrified. You hadn’t even been told why things were different this time. No, you were about as clueless as could be, given the circumstances.
By the time you make it your Lady’s study, you cannot tell whether your heart is racing due to stress or physical exertion. Regardless, you make it there in short time, arriving precisely at the scheduled hour. After taking a moment to settle your nerves, you briefly knock on the chamber door. There’s the sound of movement from inside before the way opens. Lady Dimitrescu has to bend a little to see out, but quickly smiles when she meets your gaze. Which was rather unexpected. The last time you had met with her she had been distanced, although still polite. Then again, Daniela had also been with you, and the focus was, as always, on her.
“Lady Dimitrescu,” you greeted, giving a short bow per customs. Then you were being waved in, brought over to a small sitting area, where you waited for permission to sit down. Once it was given, you relaxed a little. Maybe I don’t have as much reason to be nervous as I thought, you muse.
“Please, make yourself comfortable. There are no reasons for you to be unsettled, as far as I am aware,” Lady Dimitrescu said, smile disappearing for a moment at the end. But it’s back as quickly as it had vanished. Did she suspect something? Perhaps she had seen the way Daniela looked at you, or even overheard the whisperings of your roommates. Both thoughts do little other than renew your anxiety. Noticing this, Alcina frowns and shakes her head. “I was merely joking. Now, let us get to the reason for our meeting: How are Daniela’s lessons fairing? There is only so much I can glean from listening.” Glad to have something to think about other than your secret relationship with your boss’ daughter, you nodded and began explaining.
“Lady Daniela is making outstanding progress, in my opinion. Even with her occasional… lapses in attention, once she puts her mind to something, she’s quick to master it. At this point she can sight read nearly as fast and accurately as myself. However, we’re still going over vocabulary, as well as keys and their corresponding chords,” you answered, barely able to maintain eye contact with your employer. Thankfully, she seems to have accepted the inevitability of your nervousness. You were especially thankful now that you prepared to ask her a question. “My Lady, may I inquire about what specifically you expect from my teachings? If there are certain genres you wish for Daniela to be familiar with, or techniques-... I must admit I am unsure as to how to best meet your requirements.”
Slowly reclining in her chair, Alcina appears to ponder your question. In the meantime she sips at her beverage, holding the cup as if it were a fragile heirloom (which it could very well be), eyes looking into the middle distance. Then she gives a soft hum, setting her cup down and returning her attention to you.
“I suppose I can understand your concern. In some ways you have already exceeded my expectations,” she said, expression oddly plain in comparison to her positive phrasing. “My daughter has rarely invested herself in anything as much as she has in your lessons. For this, I am left wondering what she finds so captivating- the music, or the one who pulls the strings?... But that is not the answer to your inquiry, is it?” In that moment, you are incredibly still, willing yourself to keep a straight face, despite the racing of your heart. At your silence, Alcina perks a brow, expecting you to respond. You can’t, your mouth suddenly dry. “What I expect is a passion to educate, a drive to see my daughter flourish. I expect you to teach her exactly as much as she wants you to, focusing on whatever brings her the most joy. But I expect professionalism. Your duties come first, above your health, happiness, and all other desires. Am I understood?”
“Yes, my Lady. Of course, my Lady,” you replied, stuttering, eyes wide. Did she know? Or merely suspect?... There’s another thought, one you try desperately not to voice, only to hear the words fill the room before you can stop yourself. “May I ask where Lady Daniela’s desires fit into this?” Silence hangs heavy over the room for several seconds. Your employer has narrowed her eyes, lips curled downwards into a sharp scowl, watching you with thinly-veiled anger. All you can do is gulp and wait for her response. When it comes, you are surprised by the stability of her tone. It was almost as if she respected your gall.
“She is young still, with the mind of a lovesick maiden. Daniela does not know what she wants, not really, nor does she understand what she needs. If her… flirtatious nature begins to interrupt your instruction, then your response must be swift, and uninterested. Regardless of how unkindly she takes your rejection, I will ensure that she does not harm you,” Lady Dimitrescu said, giving a stern nod at the end. Though her tone was reassuring, you hardly felt better, considering you were far past the point of turning Daniela down (if anything, you had only turned her on). “Now, with that settled, I believe I should let you return to your duties. Oh, and do tell Cynthia that the tea she brewed was perfect, should you happen to see her.”
Then she looked away, practically ignoring your continued existence. So you rose to your feet, gave another bow, and left before your panic could devolve into a breakdown. Daniela is not going to be happy about this.
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TXT: LO$ER = LOVER
This group just came from fucking nowhere and destroyed everything I thought I knew about them. I always really enjoyed Runaway but 2021-TXT has been some kind of revelation for me. I haven’t had a song that I wanted to review/write about for months, so here we go. 
1. This song has a fucking chorus. I miss traditional song structures and apart from being solidly written in terms of lyrics and music, it sticks to a traditional formula and does it exceptionally well. I don’t know about you guys but there are only so many beat drop/non-chorus-choruses in KPOP that I can take before sinking into a vacant meaningless void. This song is longer than Somi’s, the same length as Sunmi and TBZ’s and yet it feels infinitely shorter because all the great songs tend to leave us wanting more. 
2. Rock in TXT. I cannot wait to see this song with a live band. With those black Ann Demeulemeester-esque outfits. How many dollars do you want HYBE? Just give me this for another 5 TXT albums and I’ll wipe your criminal record. I promise. 
3. Rap in TXT. If any of you have followed me for awhile, you’ll know that my start in korean music was mostly rap based, so I’m always looking for good rappers and good rap in idol groups. When I say TXT destroyed my expectations, I mean it. I really enjoyed their last album (Freeze) and it was only after my millionth listen that I realised I don’t actually need or miss rap in TXT music. I didn’t even notice there was no dedicated heavy rap. It’s totally a testament to how great their music actually is. I’d say they use rap elements as an accent and not the main event. I appreciate that. 
4. Vocal performance. They’re all great here, Yeonjun especially, but Taehyun really has a phenomenal voice for rock. He gives them a very earnest and raw flavour that you so rarely hear in standard kpop. There’s just so much colour in his voice and delivery, he always stands out. I know a lot of guys are capable of this but not a lot of them really let go and wreck their voice for the studio recording. Respect Taehyun, tinytall legend.
5. The backing track though. The jangling guitars are straight from that early 2000s punkpop era, which was dominated by a lot of skate boys in bands and Blink 182. I’m not sure what HYBE have planned for TXT but right now, their concept is absolutely perfect to me and where I am in life; you know, that strange uncertainty of planning for the future, being stuck in the present because of the pandemic but having the unresolved clouds of the past still hanging around. MCR concept, when though? 
6. This is inspired by Thelma & Louise isn’t it? I know they didn’t go to Utah to film the scene on the highway but they could’ve fake-travelled to anywhere in the world and they went there specifically? The Utah national parks are some of my favourite places on Earth, especially Monument Valley, so the decision to take inspiration from the legendary Queen that is Thelma & Louise? To use a place called MOAB? To mirror the message of the movie with the lyrics? Bitch. Poetic cinematic masterpiece. Take all my money. Are they all reading my tumblr again...
7. That line, “Lover with a $ sign, is a loser”. Who wrote it. Was it Yeonjun. Because I really like that line. Their lyrics have really progressed lately and this one has such a resigned melancholy to it. It’s depressing but in a comforting way. It’s kinda ride and die and I think a lot of us really crave belonging to a pack that gives us that energy. Apart from Thelma & Louise, it reminds me of that line from Brokeback Mountain: “You know friend, this is a goddam bitch of an unsatisfactory situation”. 
8. I’m like. So happy right now. There is just a very very very indescribable euphoria that comes from getting music that really understands you. It’s so rare but it makes it more special when it does happen. 
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I've been actively blogging for more than six months, even though I've had a tumblr account for ten years. I started reading One Direction (specifically Larry) fanfiction about the same time.
Originally, I read exclusively canon compliant fiction--I was hungry for industry insider, what-could-have-happened narratives. But I've slowly branched out into other genres. I find fanfic--good fanfic--super calming. When I've had too much stunting, too much noise, I grab a fanfic and immerse myself. So I thought it was time to do a post about my favorites. Keep in mind, I'm terrible at cataloging, and I have over 150 bookmarks on my A03 Account, so this is by no means an exhaustive list.
I'm not including the classics like Tired, Tired Sea and Escapade. While I do love both of those (so well written), because a lot of people know about those already.
My all time favorites are by @helloamhere
1. The Multipicity of Powers - https://archiveofourown.org/works/28580229
Maybe in another universe he isn’t different. Maybe he hadn’t been given an impossible choice. Maybe he wouldn’t have lost everything and broken everything and then fallen impossibly, irrevocably in love with the first next thing that was kind. Maybe in that universe he doesn’t feel like he’s never breathing, always pretending, teaching the kids even though they all have to learn alone, trying hard not to read the headlines, and so afraid, every day, that he won’t be a good enough teammate to the superhero he can’t live without. He knows that love isn’t supposed to feel this way, slid secret under your skin like a surgical razor, an invisible war held close over the tender vein that keeps you alive. On the other hand, Louis wonders, had he ever known how to do it any other way?
Maybe there’s a universe where he doesn’t have to keep all his secrets on the inside.
But this isn’t that universe.
//an X-Men AU.
Me: I never thought I'd love a super hero 1D cross over, but this is so well done. The backstory, the pacing, the characterization, the friendship. Read it.
2. Saving Symphony Hall and it's prequel Night Out - https://archiveofourown.org/works/12633921
“I think I have an idea,” Louis said. Slowly, and reluctantly, but with a growing sense of the inevitable. “God damnit, I think I have a really good idea.”
“Oh christ, that's the problem-solving face,” Babs said. “Last time we saw that face, he sold a company.”
“Wait, what?” Zayn asked.
“Right place, right time,” Louis said. “Also, fuck my life,”
“What?” Zayn repeated. Niall patted his hand.
“I usually just roll with whatever Louis is about to do,” he said. “It’s better for us all.”
“That’s the attitude,” said Louis, “I’ll tell you tomorrow. Tonight, I need to do some research. Zayn, give me your number. I’m gonna save our symphony.”
Me: The best sex scene I've ever read is in the prequel Night Out. Sexy, but tender. I love the characterizations in this duo--ABO but not traditional. Doesn't feel out of character.
3. Just Let Me -https://archiveofourown.org/works/11695350
The party was going well. So well, Niall had already sworn undying love to one multi-tiered chocolate cake, two friendly corgi-poodle mixes, Zayn’s hair, and the entire population of Los Angeles. So well, Zayn had only laughed and ruffled Niall’s hair and not even twitched towards a cigarette. So well, nearly everyone had spilled far past the boundaries of the night’s original plans, extracting bottles of vodka from the cabinets and losing a lot of clothes. Harry had proclaimed that he was finally going to throw a small and very grownup dinner party and of course here they were three hours later, fifty people half-naked in the pool. Soon to be full-naked, if Louis had to guess. Everybody in LA loved a heated pool. Everybody loved Harry.
Me: I love love love this. Harry is so gentle, and Louis is so stubborn and needy. It's ABO but subtle. I'll read this one again and again. It's comforting.
@HelloAmHere is one of the best writers I know--amazing stuff. I also love their werewolf story, but it's not finished, so I won't link it here.
Other favorites:
1. Seven Up by cherrystreet - https://archiveofourown.org/works/5828539
Very loosely based on the British TV show "The Up Series" and somewhat inspired by the song “Something I Need” by Onerepublic, we follow the lives of Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson in an interview setting every seven years. They fall apart and come together, their lives and emotions recorded. Harry calls it a time capsule. Louis calls it a pain in the arse.
Me: Trigger Warning, major character death. I literally SOBBED through the end of this. It was lovely and devastating. So good. But be warned.
2. Light, Spark and Fire series by @greenfeelings
Life’s pretty ordinary for Harry. He lives with his best friend, got into university just like he’s planned, and manages to support himself just fine for an unbonded omega. If he sustains that lifestyle by getting paid to help alphas through their rut every now and then, that’s nothing to be hung up on. Until he’s hired by an alpha that turns everything upside down.
Or, Louis and Zayn run a music label, Liam is Britain’s up-and-coming pop star, Harry’s working on taking Louis’ walls down until he builds his own up, and Niall holds them all together without realising he does.
Me: A nice healthy three-parter. Characters you just want to live with for a while.
3. Relief Next to Me by dolce_piccante - https://archiveofourown.org/works/1117942
AU. What happens when a baker and a graphic designer meet via a very specific Craigslist post? Fate, friendship, food, and maybe more.
Me: This one is super long, so be prepared when you dive in. It's got a lot of lovely bits, and some great smut.
4. 2012 'Verse by ashavahishta - https://archiveofourown.org/series/27601
Me: This is a five-parter and satisfies my love of canon compliant stories. It spans most of 2012 and into 2013, and illustrates the difficulties of Harry and Louis' relationship amid the band success and management disapproval.
5. Love After the End of the World by mercurial-madhouse (writing_practice) - https://archiveofourown.org/works/31251434/chapters/77248901
Society shattered when all electricity suddenly cut off across the globe, plunging the world into darkness. Now, Prometheus Industries is the sole remaining supply of power, a saving grace to those who survived Lights Out. As fugitives in no-man’s land struggling to break into Prometheus HQ, death lurks around every corner for Louis and Zayn. Things get complicated when a routine recon falls apart and Louis collides with Harry and his mates Niall and Liam, survivors with their own agenda.
When staying alive is already a constant battle, the deadliest weakness is to be in love. For Harry and Louis, finding each other sits on top of the endless list of What Else Could Go Wrong.
Me: Really unusual (as far as I can tell) end of the world story. I loved the characterizations of soul mates here at the end of the world.
6. Flightless Bird by audreyhheart - https://archiveofourown.org/works/6401653/chapters/14656807
AU where Louis Tomlinson is a principal dancer with The Royal Ballet. When his rival from ballet school, moody dance prodigy Harry Styles joins the company, old wounds are reopened and old passions reignited. During the company's production of Swan Lake the secret that doomed their love is finally revealed, but will it be too late?
Me: Trigger Warning, sexual assault (by an original character to a major character). This was a little brutal because I hated to see a broken Harry, but it was well written and has a happy ending.
7. Wear It Like A Crown by zarah5 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/1816771/chapters/3900322
AU. As part of a team of fixers hired to handle a gay scandal in Buckingham Palace, Louis expects Prince Harry to be a lot of things—most notably a royally spoilt brat. Never mind that the very same Prince Harry used to star in quite a number of Louis' teenage fantasies.
Me: I loved Louis in this one--actually they are both pretty great. Scratch that, they are ALL pretty great.
8. Shake Me Down by AGreatPerhaps12 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/3331958/chapters/7285322
Harry's new to college, fresh out of Catholic school and conversion therapy camp, and Louis runs the campus LGBTQIA organization.
Me: I don't like the self-hate here, but it was necessary for the story and H comes around. Found family vibe.
9. Gods & Monsters by Velvetoscar - https://archiveofourown.org/works/2090982/chapters/4550871
The instructions were simple: seduce and destroy Harry Styles. Not once did they discuss the option of Louis actually falling in love. So, naturally, that's exactly what he did.
Me: I loved Harry in this one. Louis gets there. I don't like Liam, but I don't think you're supposed to. Zayn is great.
10. Own the Scars by crinkle-eyed-boo (KimmieRocks) - https://archiveofourown.org/series/1010796
Louis has never felt like he was good enough: for his stepdad, for his life-long best friend, for the life he's supposed to want. After an accident that nearly costs him his life, Louis' parents send him to rehab where he’s forced to face his demons. On the long and difficult road to recovery, Louis must confront the truths he’s been avoiding about his future, his relationships, and his sense of self-worth. Because before he can love anyone else, he’s got to learn how to love himself first.
Me: Harry is lovely in this one. Trigger warning, substance abuse and near death.
11. Wild Love by purpledaisy - https://archiveofourown.org/series/1030904
AU: Two best friends try to date each other for forty days. It's supposed to be fun until emotions make it complicated.
Me: I loved this way more than I thought I would. It's lovely and messy and I love it.
12. Victorian Boy by audreyhheart - https://archiveofourown.org/users/Rosann1986/readings?page=6
Victorian AU. Harry the virgin Duke of Somerset knows little of love, while Louis the sly Duke of Warwick knows too much. When the two dukes come together for the Bilsdale fox hunt in York, Harry finds himself drawn into Louis' bed. But when secrets from Louis' dark past come to light, Harry fears that the fox isn't the only one being hunted.
Me: Historical fiction I didn't intend to love. I LOVE Harry in this one. LOTS of smut, so be warned.
13. Keep Me Closer by zanni_scaramouche - https://archiveofourown.org/works/30752633
Louis expects Harry to react poorly, maybe even file a formal complaint and that’s gonna suck ass but Louis won’t say shit cause he knows he deserves it, so he prepares an apology before Harry’s even turned around.
What he doesn’t expect is Harry to fucking drop.
Me: lovely, protective Louis just trying to do the right thing.
14. Turning Page by purpledaisy for SockstheDog
https://archiveofourown.org/works/11826345
AU: Harry Styles tries to get lost in a place he’s never been.  Louis Tomlinson has been perfecting the art of being lost for years. What they don’t expect to find is each other.
Me: sweet love story. Niall owns a bar, and is pretty great.
15. Freedom Always Comes With a Price by Cyantific - https://archiveofourown.org/works/30278514/chapters/74624262
A shared dream brings them together onto the X-factor stage, but one decision changes Harry and Louis’ lives overnight. Thrust into a world of instant stardom, they're forced to live a lie to sustain their dreams, but years of living in the shadows and under strict management takes its toll.
With the bands impending hiatus, there’s no better time for change, so they think.
Desperate for a solution, they turn to an unlikely source with a radical plan. An unfortunate accident sets everything in motion, but not how they intended, leaving Louis’ memories altered, Harry broken-hearted and full of regret.
Can Harry figure out a way to fix everything? Will he even want to once he sees how Louis moved on after the hiatus? Will Louis ever find out the truth of their past and can he forgive Harry after all this time?
In the end, two friends find out that memories are elusive, trust is everything and love is the only antidote.
Me: Heartbreaking when they lose each other, but really good in the end.
16. Little Technicolor Things by scary_crow - https://archiveofourown.org/works/6025519/chapters/13821628
Louis is a poor writer and recent university graduate, depressed, anxious, and living in London when he meets Harry, an artist with a secret who likes to paint sunrises and pretty boys from California.
17. Hold You Now by solvetheminourdreams - https://archiveofourown.org/works/30253536/chapters/74556744
Three years ago, Harry Styles said goodbye to communications consultancy firm McQuiston Worldwide, leaving a life of travel and agency PR behind. When he accompanies his best friend to a family wedding across the Atlantic, he'll be forced to reopen old wounds and face his past—one that no one wants to hash out, but may just have to.
Me: Niall is great. They almost miss each other in this one, and you just want to bash them over the head. But they figure it out.
18. At Risk, I Fold by clare328 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/26542480
2015 is a stream of hotel rooms and whisky on the rocks, tired glances and touching hands under tables. It’s the bears and the bees under a rainbow sky, and Harry and Louis have to figure out how to grow up together, instead of apart.
Me: A canon compliant fic that feels like it could have really happened. Set in 2015. Lovely first chapter and scene where Harry writes If I Could Fly--i could read that chapter over and over.
19. Into The Blue by zarah5 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/1035822/chapters/2065499
AU. In which Louis is Harry's scuba instructor and quite happy to provide the requested special treatment, pun fully intended. It can't be all that difficult to convince Harry that they're on the same page, right? Also, Niall and Liam may or may not be dating, and Zayn is surrounded by emotionally stunted idiots. He bears it with dignity.
Me: AKA the Scuba fic.
20. Tie Your Heart by ArcadianMaggie - https://archiveofourown.org/works/546688/chapters/973236
Harry grows wings.
Me: How can you not love a fic where Harry grows wings? Trigger warning: injury of a major character.
21. I think I'll end this here. My last and probably first favorite (read it more than once) is...
my heart is breathing for this moment in time by usedtothebeach - https://archiveofourown.org/works/934996/chapters/1820282
When Louis first saw Harry at the 2010 X Factor Auditions, he thought he was watching a peculiarly special stranger. But Harry has known Louis ever since he was five years old.
Because Louis has a rare genetic disorder that causes him to Time Travel to important moments in his past and in his future - and to Harry, always to Harry. When they're put into a band together, it seems like everything Harry has been waiting and wishing for has finally come true. Except for the small fact that Louis doesn't know that Harry is in love with him- that Harry's always been in love with him. Fate, it would seem, is just getting started.
A story about growing up and growing together, and the impossible love that makes it all worthwhile.
Me: I LOVED the Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger, and I'm a huge fan of time travel, so this is right up my alley. It's really well done, weaving canon into fantasy and then going years forward in tme. I love everything about it. Great character development. Really good smut. Trigger warning, there's a little underage sex, so be aware. Anyway, LOVE this one so much.
I'll add to this but it's already longer than I meant it to be.
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chickabee · 3 years
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Blues Daydream I had recurringly over the past few days.
I've written some of the daydream down but I never really put together a coherent story, so I'm just retelling it from memory mostly. (Content warning for the mention of sex.)
It starts of with them at like ...13 (?) The RRB are neutral and have befriended the ppg. Bubbles has a crush on Boomer (she starts crushing on him when she's like... 8)
There's a porch swing in this really pretty picnic park that Bubbles likes to visit a lot. It's surrounded by lots of bushes and flowers. She usually sits there by herself until Boomer starts showing up. He usually joins her to show her the songs he's learned on his acoustic guitar (he doesn't have a special musical talent but i love the fanon idea of Boomer being a music fanatic. Its very fitting, so I always imagine that he naturally just ends up gravitating towards music). They'll stay there for hours (especially during the summer) singing songs they know or just talking.
He gets really comfortable with Bubbles and they look forward to seeing one another.
And this scene stuck out to me in my head specifically...
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Boomer: "Bubbles,  I have to tell you something. "
Boomer: *Kisses her on the cheek.*
Bubbles and Boomer: ...
Bubbles: "What is it that you have to tell me?"
Boomer: *laughs,  blushing* "I only said that as a cover up to kiss you."
Bubbles: "Oh! Well I have to tell you something  too then..."
Bubbles: *Kisses him*
Boomer: *surprised* " You just… kissed me on the lips…"
Bubbles: "I know…" :) "DON'T TELL THE PROFESSOR." (She panics)
Boomer: *Blushing and smug* "I won't. "
They both giggle. He strums his guitar. 
***
Later in the daydream he asks her on a date. She tells the Professor, because she's over joyed but unfortunately, the professor doesnt approve because Boomer is a villain and he doesn't want Bubbles to date a "punk who'll just break her heart."
Bubbles is really upset (she cry's about it) and she ends up trying to sneak out. She tells Buttercup who doesn't really care (until Bubbles involves allowance money.) to cover for her. Later, Bubbles tells Kim, Mary and Robin and they agree to help her sneak out for her first date, saying they'll let her cover by telling the professor she's at a sleepover with Robin.
There's a scene I imagine where all the girls put together money to buy a really pretty spaghetti strapped dress that comes with a white, light material-like shawl that's also like a jacket (i hope you understand what i mean lol.) Anyway, it's really gorgeous and they sneak it in. Kim explains to Bubbles this technique she read in a magazine. She tells Bubbles when Boomer looks at her to untie the shawl "like this" and only wear the dress part.
Bubbles sneaks out on the date with Boomer. They go to like some fun kids place with an indoor trampoline and an arcadia.
***
The night was a little breezy but that was alright since Bubbles figured most of the night would be spent indoors. She saw the arcadia lights come into place and began to steer down. As she landed she spotted Boomer in the usual Hollister shirt and jeans- well actually those jeans looked sort of new. Maybe they were.
He turned to her and smiled at her appearance. She suddenly felt a smidgen bad for having to make him wait so long. If only she didn't have to stay out of sight from the professor. "You actually waited for me?"
"For you, I'd wait until the ends of the universe." He grinned. Her heart pounded.
She blushes as he leads her into the fun place by the hand. Entering her attention was instantly caught by the sounds of the indoor trampoline, ticket counters and all the acrcade games to play. Pop music played over the rush of kids and preteens like her running around.
She smiled in awe, "Wow," she said aloud, eyeing all of her options to play with.
"Pretty cool right?" Boomer said, smiling back at her. She'd felt the heat of their hands at his gentle expression. She'd just realized they were approaching a short line. "It's pretty new. I think it opened last month. I've been eyeing this place for weeks. " he said unable to hide his own excitement.
She blushed and giggled.
Soon they were routed to cubbys to put some of there belongings in.
"Really? Cubbys? It's like we're in fifth grade all over again." Boomer sneers as he sets some items inside. "Well I guess you don't have much to put in but your purse..." His words drifts off as he watches her excitedly undo her shawl, stuffing it into her cubby. "Uh...." He mutters before she grabs his hand.
"Yeah we're sooo old for cubbys now," she agreed grinning. He looks at her, blushing slightly. "Come on!" She exclaims as she tugs him eagerly along towards the trampoline.
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They go to the trampoline, play games and he even buys her fro yo, they admit to each other that they're their first dates.
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"So Harry and Julie are definitely dating now." Boomer comments as they watch their friends at the other end of the arcadia play games. Harry looked a little shy but Julie was very open and boisterous.
Bubbles giggled, "yeah, I guess they are." She said as she eyed them. She and Boomer were in the cafe part of the arcadia. They'd picked a table but there were also small booths and a stage at the front.
"I wonder what got them together." Boomer said thoughtfully. "They're so different from each other, I never would have guessed."
Bubbles ate a spoonful of her fro yo, "Maybe. You know what they say, opposites attract." She grinned. He turned back to her, catching her grinning and smiling himself. It was probably they're tenth time they did that tonight. Bubbles didn't know, she wasn't actually counting how many times, she just knew every time it happened it made her heart flutter.
"Y' know..." Boomer started, looking back at his fro yo. "You're the first girl I've ever asked on a date." He said tilting his head a little.
The butterflies in Bubbles stomach made her dizzy, "you're the first boy I've ever dated."
Their eyes met and the sound of the arcadia went fuzzy. She was looking for something else to say but her heart felt like it was caught in her throat-
A high-pitched blare sounded from the speakers, and they both jumped, blushing madly. A tall man took to the stage in front of them.
***
And whaddya know, it's karaoke night.
So Boomer asks her to sing a song on stage with him, even though she's extremely shy. They sing some pop song that's somewhat relevant in the year 2006 (I imagine 'Anything but Ordinary' by Avril but I dunno). It's the first time Boomer hears Bubbles sing and he's really shocked but RUH ROH the professor (and a very guilty looking Buttercup) appear admist the crowd of preteens and ... Yeah, she gets in trouble.
At home, the professor scolds her more (he has good intentions. He really just wants to protect Bubbles.) Bubbles ends up crying because the professor won't 'accept their love'. (There's a scene that plays in my head where Robin shows up and she see's Bubbles crying. Bubbles starts declaring that she doesn't care that Boomer is a Rowdyruff boy she 'loves him'...
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Bubbles: "And I don't care what anybody else says, he's not that evil! He can't help who his parents are!"
Robin: "I know but... The Professor makes a good point. Are you sure you want to date Boomer?"
Bubbles: *looks at her with a 'really' look through her glossy eyes.*
Robin: "Oh yeah. I forgot. He's been your crush since you were 8 years old. "
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The next day she goes to talk to him but he's like "uh... Yeah, I actually wanna... Break up." She thinks it's because of how the date ended (Professor was not a happy man when he retrieved Bubbles that night. Also she was wearing a spaghetti-strapped dress. It was too cold outside!) He reassures her its not because of how the date ended, he just... Sort of realized he wasnt really all that into her like he thought he was (?). Also, he has a growing suspension that the Professor hates his guts. And his explanation for why he's suddenly breaking up with Bubbles is ridiculous...
***
"It was more of like... How does Brick put it?" Boomer puts a thoughtful hand up to his chin, "a fleeting moment...?" He smiles in recollection. "Yeah, I think it was just a fleeting moment."
Bubbles looked down at the tile, her voice soft, "But I thought you liked me..."
"I do like you!" He justified, instantly. Then he looked away, a little hesitant, "I just... Just as a friend though." He looks at her, a bit guilt-ridden, "y'know?"
***
...but sadly that's all she can get out of him is that he just doesn't think they'd make a good couple.
Back at home, the professor talks with Bubbles again. He explains to her that he's sorry for berating her. He trusts her to make the right decisions and who she dates shouldn't be decided by him. He encourages Bubbles to date "who her heart says it right for her" but she stuns him by agreeing that Boomer is no good and that she doesn't want to date him.... Or maybe anyone else at the moment.
So going to that porch swing in the middle of the park is never really the same because she's either alone or Boomer is occupying it before she gets there (he's lowkey waiting for her but obviously Bubbles is not in the mood to entertain him anymore.)
Then high school happens and they're in a weird zone of 'we're exes, but are we really exes because we dated when we were 13 and that was only for one day, and we used to be so close before that.' Slowly, they start talking again (they share classes) and Bubbles starts having a crush on him again but then Boomer just HAS to be an oblivious goof and get a girlfriend. Some hot, popular girl from the cheer squad who everyone says looks like Meghan Foxes younger sister, so Bubbles is like "aw poo." But bubbles isn't heartbroken just slightly disappointed.
Well, Bubbles joins the cheer squad and Boomers hot, popular girlfriend who looks like Meghan Foxes younger sister isn't very fond of that. I don't know what Boomers gf name is but she's jealous of Bubbles, as well as, Bubbles relationship with Boomer (the school knows about their middle school fling.) Meghan Fox jr starts shit-talking Bubbles to Boomer or when Boomer is hanging out with her and her friends ("she's literally so weird, the other day I saw her talking to a squirrel." "Does she like *snorts* ever grow up?" "Omg did you see the outfit she put together the other day? She looks and sounds like an overgrown 6th grader") but "surprisingly" Boomer always tries to shut that shit down, and every time Meghan fox jr asks Boomer why he says it's because Bubbles is his friend.
Meanwhile, Bubbles meets this guy accompanying the porch swing one school evening, she goes over and it's Mike. He's been away from Townsville for some time and he's come back because his parents needed to move back awhile and you can sort of see where this is going...
Bubbles and Mike start hanging out a lot. Boomer is taken aback by the relationship Bubbles and Mike has because he starts gaining feelings for Bubbles again. Meghan Fox jr tries to isolate Bubbles from the cheer squad because she suspects her boyfriend is more into Bubbles than her. School dance happens, school dance shenanigans. There's a talent show in there somewhere that Bubbles agrees to perform a song with Boomer for their partners. Valentine's day shits. And other small scenarios... But through all this time Boomer is regaining those feelings he once had for Bubbles and he becomes a lot more jealous.
Meghan Fox Jr's antics become a lot more mean-spirited as well. (Especially during junior year The principal has to step in and Bubbles ends up leaving the squad on her own terms. ) and after that huge occurrence, Boomer is completely turned off by Meghan Fox jr. He breaks up with her.
Unfortunately, he's kicked from his friend group and a lot of rumors are spread about Boomer (most likely by Meghan Fox jr.) Boomer and Meghan Fox jr had a very.... Affectionate(?) relationship...
Basically, when your parents don't really care about what you do in your free time or who you hang out with, and you're young and curious and you have an attractive bf/gf, sex can happen. And sex was what made Boomer and Meghan Fox jr stay together. She uses that after they break up to harass him though.
Uhm, Mike's parents have to move again, so he and Bubbles agree it's best if they broke up before he moves away.
Okay. So back at square one. Bubbles and Boomer are single and they like each other- well really, Boomer likes Bubbles. Bubbles admires him, but now she's over the crush thing lol.
So now Boomer is set on Bubbles. He ends up revisiting that porch swing only to find Bubbles is there. (During his relationship with Meghan Fox jr. he avoids it. Partially because he's in a relationship and also because when Bubbles and Mike are together, they usually occupy the swing.) Again they swing and sit for hours like when they were younger.
He finds his new growing attraction is unbearable in the sense that, there is a constant attraction he has to her that he can't manipulate. He goes through a lot of inner turmoil trying to find out why he likes her even though she's clearly over him, so shouldn't he be the same? He's fighting the attraction, trying to ignore it but the more they hang out the more it grows. And that continues into the summer before they're seniors.
With a lot more free time, they spend more time together but it's usually outings with their friends (unless he meets her in the park on the porch swing). Their bond continues to build but Bubbles is unsure if he likes her, and he's unsure if she likes him and then my brain just skips to a night when they're on the swing...
***
Boomer strummed his guitar as the crickets sung around them, the swing light dim. He suddenly stops his strumming, "Hey remember when you kissed me? When we were 13?"
Bubbles laughed and covered her lips, her cheeks colored slightly, "that was so long ago." She turned her eyes to him, "when we were kids."
"Oh yeah. And that epic date I took you on." He recalled. She shoved him light-heartedly.
"You dated me for a day and left me broken-hearted for two months." She grinned smug.
Boomer's eyes widened, "2 months? You were that into a dumb kid like me?"
"Of course I was," she said her eyes, not on him but looking at the stars above them. The night was beautiful and warm. She drew her knees on the swing as she gazed up. " I always liked you... Ever since we were kids I kinda..." He watched as she giggled awkwardly and her cheeks became even redder. She finally shrugged and turned her gaze to him, "I kinda told my friends I was in love with you."
He thought this over as their eyes locked. His heart felt like it was going to jump through his chest.
She looked back at the stars, "I even told the Professor." Her eyes had a small shimmer in them. "It was-" she scoffed and dropped her head, shaking it, "it was so stupid honestly."
He wanted to touch her hand, but it was wrapped around her knees, holding them together. He thought of all the things he could do. He could rest his arms on the seat, almost on her shoulders. He could scoot closer until they were touching. He could fiddle with the shoelace of her shoe.
Instead, he scoffed as well and turned his attention to the neck of his guitar, hoping she couldn't tell he was blushing. "Yeah. We were pretty dumb."
***
They end up talking about their childhood and one thing leads to another and they kiss. But nothing interrupts them so it's just awkward and they say bye.
Eventually, they start dating and yeaaaaah... If this were going to be a fic, I pretty much spoiled it lmao. But i wanted to share that with you guys cause i know there are other blues stans out there and we don't get that much love in the "more serious" fanfic department so I know every little thing adds up 😌👌
I honestly wish i could stay committed to writing a fic but i have horrible self-discipline and initiative D: Sorry y'all but i hope you enjoyed it c:
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jazsplaylist · 2 years
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FAVORITE SONGS OF 2021: PART IIII / LAST PART
We are wrapping up the hot mess that is my favorite songs of 2021!
These songs are purely based on how much I’ve personally enjoyed them and listened to them, not necessarily objective quality or critical acclaim. This is purely the fact that I just vibe with them.
THIS IS TOP TEN BABYYYYYYY!
#10: Billie Bossa Nova - Billie Eilish
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This song is just so pretty. Billie was truly meant to sing these lounge jazzy type songs - her voice is perfect for sensual, quiet and romantic songs like this one. Is it bad that I want a full album with this vibe?
Favorite lyrics: “Nobody saw me in the lobby / Nobody saw me in your arms”
#9: Tipsy - Spotify Singles - Chloe x Halle
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I feel like I sort of cheated (again). No, but I genuinely prefer this a lot over the original arrangement. The production is less noisy and cleaner, but it’s still interesting because it brings a different vibe. Their vocals are also a lot pleasant as they went for a more “pretty” approach of singing, compared to the album version where they’re singing a bit more off-pitch and “sloppily” to emphasize the “tipsy” part. I love that they can always find something new with their songs and play around with it, which is why I think this song deserves to be highlighted. Also, don’t we all just love songs about murdering men???
Favorite lyrics: “And I don't give no apologies / If you lose a life, that's not on me”
#8: Angel Baby - Troye Sivan
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Even though this came out sometime during fall, I didn’t discover this until early December. But you better believe when I started listening to it, I made up for those months I lost. I can’t remember a day that has gone by where I haven’t listened to this less than five times a day. I can’t fully grasp why I got so quickly attached to it, but the initial feeling I got was that it feels like the kind of song I would bawl my eyes to at age 5. It’s very specific, but one of the things I remember about me as a young child was listening to certain songs and wanting to cry even though I didn’t know what they meant. I definitely did not understand English at that age, so I wouldn’t have understood this song if I heard it then. Whatever this song has, it makes my inner child cry.
Favorite lyrics: “Started giving up on the word "forever" / Until you gave up heaven so we could be together”
#7: Deserve You - Justin Bieber
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Okay, this might be one of the best Bieber songs yet. This song is honestly close to pop perfection and I don’t understand you if you don’t agree. The drums transition to the chorus? Definitely on the list of best 2 seconds of pop music in 2021. Is it also a coincidence that the best tracks on this album are co-written by Jon Bellion? No.
Favorite lyrics: “I'm on my ten thousandth life / Nine thousand nine hundred nine and it slipped my hands / But this the one I'm not giving up”
#6: voodoo voodoo - iris & SKAAR
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The best Norwegian collab of 2021, and I knew it couldn’t be topped when it came out in January. Who knew that a witchy, ethereal, spooky bop was what 2021 needed? Highly slept on song by two amazing artists - how does this song only have 200k streams? I’m mad.
Favorite lyrics: “But don't worry, I'm a good girl, really (really?) / Just playing, I'm the reason you'll need therapy, baby”
#5: Leave The Door Open - Silk Sonic
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The world got a whole lot better when Bruno Mars and Anderson .Paak decided to release this. I’m really happy that Bruno Mars decided to continue doing retro R&B, soul/funk type of music, but I’m happier he decided to do it with Anderson .Paak. They’re truly a golden duo meant to make music together, and I really, really hope this isn’t the first and last time we see a collaboration between them. 
Favorite lyrics: “I'm talking kissing, cuddling / Rose petals in the bathtub / Girl, let's jump in, it's bubbling”
#4: Until The Night Falls - Hedda Mae
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I’m so weak for the Y2K vibe, but I’m realizing that I think I prefer songs that sound like Y2K songs and made within the past 3-4 years more than songs that actually were made in that era. This song makes me so nostalgic for the kind of music I didn’t know I was nostalgic over. It reminds me a lot of pop music we heard from Norwegian and other Scandinavian artists in the early 2000s, because there was a specific way they created melodies back then. And the chorus melody is like??? The best ever??
Favorite lyrics: “So I'm keeping my head cold / I'll be okay until night falls / But then I'll go over it again”
#3: Kiss Me More (feat. SZA) - Doja Cat
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This, along with “Leave The Door Open”, was my most played song of 2021. It just hits all the spots. SZA’s verse is amazing, Doja sounds great and it’s a super fun and playful track. I don’t think I need to say anything more than that, because everyone knows how great this song is.
Favorite lyrics: “I, I feel like fuckin' somethin' / But we could be corny, fuck it”
#2: All Too Well (10 Minute Version) (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) - Taylor Swift
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Are we surprised? One of Taylor’s greatest songs, the biggest fan and critics favorite of all time, in all its glory. Do we really believe all of the added lyrics were written during that first session? Absolutely not, but every added verse, chorus and bridge is worth all the gold to make this song even greater than it once was. All Too Well 5 minutes who? I don’t know her.
Favorite lyrics: (how do i choose just one) “And then you wondered where it went to as I reached for you / But all I felt was shame and you held my lifeless frame”
AAAAAND for some honorable mentions before we get to SONG OF THE YEAR !!
Clothes - Scuuut
Fancy - Lennon Stella
Introvert - Little Simz
Rather Be - James Vickery
Voila - Barbara Pravi
AND THE SONG OF THE YEAR GOES TO.......
#1: Happier Than Ever - Billie Eilish
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Like most people, I wish I had recorded my reaction to the second part of this song, because that was a very unexpected experience. While there were new elements and sides of Billie in the album before this, there’s nothing like starting a song like we always have heard her: soft, quiet singing over an acoustic instrument. You think, this is where this song is going? That’s fine, it’s a pretty song, nothing special. Then the guitar picks up and you’re like, okay interesting, nothing biggie. Then it changes to an electric guitar, and the curiosity increases, you wonder if this might go somewhere… then “and I don’t talk sh– about you” kicks in and she’s yelling and the song intensifies and distorts and ?!?!?!? I get chills listening to it every time just thinking back to the first time I experienced this. Absolutely baffled that this isn’t the album closer, because it should 100% be.
Favorite lyrics: “I could talk about every time that you showed up on time But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did”
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Why Harry Styles Just Scored His First No. 1 Song
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Like any boy band alumnus, he first had to overcome radio’s bias against teen heartthrobs.
Late summer is a great time for sleeper hits: songs that have been hanging around the charts for months and finally hit their stride. Four years ago, in August 2016, Sia’s “Cheap Thrills” reached No. 1 after knocking around the charts since the prior winter, getting its final boost from a Sean Paul remix. In September 2018, Maroon 5’s year-old “Girls Like You” slipped into the top slot after wafting around the Top 10 for more than four months, with a Cardi B verse putting it over the edge. Last year around Labor Day, Lizzo finally topped the Hot 100 with “Truth Hurts,” a song that was two years old and had been rising gradually on the chart since the spring.
This year’s sleeper hit is “Watermelon Sugar,” a wisp of a song by boy bander–turned–self-styled rock star Harry Styles. With a name inspired by Richard Brautigan’s hippie-era, post-apocalyptic novella In Watermelon Sugar, Styles’ lackadaisical tune is not only a sleeper but a grower, the sort of hit that sneaks up on you—I wasn’t sure it even had a fully written chorus the first time I heard it, and I’m pretty sure I’m not alone. Indeed, the whole nation took its time deciding that this quirky ditty would give the starriest, most eccentric member of One Direction his first-ever U.S. chart-topper.
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“Watermelon Sugar” is the third single promoted from Styles’ second solo album Fine Line, which was released last December. That alone is remarkable, given the challenge in the digital age of generating chart interest in anything other than an album’s first couple of singles. Generally, in an era when all of an album’s songs are available to be consumed the day the album drops, you need a remix or a special guest of some kind to gin up chart action months after the song first hits streaming. “Sugar” has none of those. To be sure, there was some gimmickry fueling the song’s leap to the top, albeit of an old-fashioned kind: The song had its best week of sales ever thanks to an assortment of limited-edition vinyl and cassette singles that came bundled with a digital download. Those sales got “Sugar” the last mile on the charts, but Columbia Records wouldn’t have put the physical goods on sale if the song wasn’t already a radio smash—“Sugar” currently has the second-biggest U.S. airplay audience—and they knew they had an opening between current hits by Taylor Swift and a pair of lascivious female rappers I’ll almost certainly be writing about in this space next week. So, fair play to Team Harry: They took advantage of an open chart window, a tactic as old as the Hot 100 itself.
As “Sugar” leaps from No. 7 to No. 1 on the Hot 100 this week—essentially switching places with his ex-girlfriend Taylor Swift’s “Cardigan,” which falls to No. 8—Styles scores only the second-ever chart-topper by a member of One Direction. That includes all of the hits by 1D itself. In its five years of recording, from 2011 through 2015, the band never scored a Hot 100 No. 1. This despite topping the Billboard 200 album chart with its first four studio albums, the only group in history to launch a career with that haul. So … what was that other 1D-affiliated Hot 100–topper I mentioned? It was by ex-member Zayn Malik, the only member to break from the crew while it was still active. Zayn’s smoldering, Weeknd-esque boudoir jam “Pillowtalk” debuted at No. 1—and spent a solitary week there—in the winter of 2016, fueled by blockbuster streams and downloads ginned up by 1D superfans still mourning his departure the prior year and the group’s resulting, presumably permanent hiatus.
Explaining how the top-selling boy band of the 2010s could shift so many CDs and downloads but generate only two No. 1 singles means briefly recapping the fraught history of boy bands and the charts. Selling albums has never been hard for pinup pop groups, since the days of Meet the Beatles! and More of the Monkees. And in the ’70s and ’80s, such precision sing-and-dance troupes as the Jackson 5, the Osmonds, and New Edition managed to generate both gold albums and chart-conquering singles. In 1989, New Kids on the Block had the year’s second-biggest album and four of the year’s top singles, including a pair of No. 1s. But starting in the ’90s, as U.S. radio networks consolidated (fueled by the 1996 Telecommunications Act) and programmers more narrowly targeted specific demographics, radio stations shied away from maximalist teen-pop that appealed primarily to under-18 audiences. By the end of that decade, even as boy bands were enjoying a new wave of TRL-fueled popularity, radio became a chart handicap for them. The Backstreet Boys and ’N Sync had the top-selling albums of 1999 and 2000, respectively—the diamond-selling Millennium and No Strings Attached—but only scored a solitary Hot 100 topper between them, ’N Sync’s “It’s Gonna Be Me.” (Backstreet never hit No. 1: The deathless “I Want It That Way” peaked at No. 6.)
This radio bias against boy bands has persisted into the 21st century. And ever since the Hot 100 went digital about a decade and a half ago, teen-pop’s chart placements have been the result of a battle between rabid downloaders and radio gatekeepers—massive digital sales compensating for modest radio play. For example, radio was what kept the Jonas Brothers from scoring any chart-topping hits during their original wave of teen idoldom; their biggest hit of the ’00s, the No. 5 hit “Burnin’ Up,” sold 2 million downloads but only ranked 55th at U.S. radio. By the ’10s, the same fate befell one-man boy band Justin Bieber. In this long-running Slate series, I have chronicled the blow-by-blow between Justin Bieber and radio programmers that swung from Justin as hit-starved teen idol in the early ’10s to dominant young-adult chart-dominator in the late ’10s. In the early ’10s period, Bieber was a YouTube and iTunes demigod with not a single radio smash to his name. He could sell a half-million downloads of “Boyfriend” in a week and still fall short of the No. 1 spot, thanks (no thanks) to radio.
For One Direction, the chart patterns were the same. A Frankenstein’s monster that Simon Cowell famously threw together in 2010 on his televised competition The X Factor from five solo competitors—Niall Horan, Zayn Malik, Liam Payne, Harry Styles, and Louis Tomlinson—1D continually found its singles dragged down on the Hot 100 by radio, even as the band sold truckloads of albums. The pattern was set in fall 2012 when “Live While We’re Young” debuted with a staggering 341,000 downloads but could only get to No. 3 on the Hot 100, thanks to its 50th-ranked radio airplay. In the summer of 2013, the slyly Who-interpolating “Best Song Ever” became 1D’s highest-charting hit ever, debuting at No. 2 with record video views and near-record downloads, but at radio it never got past No. 53. “Story of My Life” (No. 6, 2014), “Drag Me Down” (No. 3, 2015)—no matter how many downloads sold or videos viewed, 1D could never top the Hot 100 so long as its radio spins remained limited.
The reason I’m running down all of this granular chart data is it reveals the hurdles both 1D and its post-breakup soloists had to overcome to top the Hot 100. Like Justin Bieber, they had to become credible radio fodder with adults as well as kids. With his early break from the group, Zayn was the first to pull this off. Though “Pillowtalk” debuted at No. 1 largely due to massive sales and streams, the carnal song did eventually become a No. 4–ranked airplay hit. Cleverly, Zayn had chosen a then-current EDM-inflected R&B mode and dropped his debut while the Weeknd was between albums. Other former 1D-ers have had their share of solid radio hits, including Liam Payne’s hip-hop–inflected “Strip That Down” featuring Quavo of Migos (No. 10 on the Hot 100, No. 4 on Radio Songs) and Niall Horan’s softly bopping pop jam “Slow Hands” (No. 11 Hot 100, No. 2 Radio Songs).
And Harry Styles? He decided to make things harder on himself. His 2017 debut album was chockablock with old-school classic rock. This would be like launching a career in 1964 with big-band jazz. While Styles’ fame ensured a big launch for his Bowie-esque single “Sign of the Times”—it opened, and peaked, at No. 4 on the Hot 100, fueled by strong downloads—radio showed only moderate interest. It eventually reached a modest No. 21 on the airplay chart. Later Harry singles like the twangy “Two Ghosts” and the thrashy “Kiwi” missed the Hot 100 and had little radio profile beyond a handful of pure-pop stations that were loyal to Styles from his 1D days. One admired Harry for following his artistic muse—more Joni Mitchell than Justin Bieber—but as a pop star, he arguably squandered his momentum coming out of One Direction.
What has made Fine Line, Styles’ sophomore album, such a clever left turn is he retained the rock flavor he naturally gravitates toward but converted it into mellow California-style surf-pop, and he let his production team—Tyler Johnson and Thomas “Kid Harpoon” Hull—fashion the songs into percolating radio jams. Each single has opened the door a bit wider: “Lights Up,” a No. 17 last October, is lightly strummed beach music with ethereal backing vocals. And “Adore You,” a No. 6 hit in April (for my money, still Styles’ best single), is thumping electropop. “Adore” in particular served as Styles’ entrée onto radio’s A-list—it reached No. 1 on mainstream Top 40 stations and No. 2 on Radio Songs by early summer.
With this beachhead established, Harry was finally free to let his freak flag fly with “Watermelon Sugar,” which is simultaneously his oddest single and his most infectious. The chorus consists of nothing more than the line “Watermelon sugar high” repeated a half-dozen or more times, with emphasis on the “HIGH.” (TikTok users have keyed into this idiosyncrasy, sharing videos in which the “high” gets its own video edit of the user playacting her best stoner face.) Last November, when Styles did double-duty hosting and singing on Saturday Night Live, “Sugar” was one of the songs he performed, and in that indoor setting, it came off as willfully quirky and seasonally incongruous; the song’s first verse line is “Tastes like strawberries on a summer evenin’.” Now, timed for 2020’s beach season—complete with a video filled with beautiful people on the shore, shot just before the pandemic and, according to a title card, “dedicated to touching”—it’s sitting atop the hit parade.
In short, Harry Styles finally has a profile on the radio and on the Hot 100 that matches his profile on magazine covers, and he achieved it on his own schedule and something like his own terms. Like John Lennon in the ’70s—the founder and nominal leader of the Beatles but the last former Fab to reach the toppermost of the poppermost as a solo artist—Styles just had to find his own way. As that onetime teen heartthrob sang, “Whatever gets you to the light, it’s all right.”
source: Slate
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Outside Chance Revival #7
It took me far too long to manage this, but I finally have! I don’t know if I’ll be able to write any more of these or if the pull of Spellbound will take back over. We’ll just have to see. My thanks again to everyone who sent in prompts several months ago when I first asked for them. I do have plans to write most if not all of them, because they are some quality prompts. If you haven’t seen yours, I promise I haven’t forgotten it.
Have no idea what I’m talking about?
Missed one or checking to see if I’ve written what you asked for?
I feel like a sales person, lol. So here we go. Someone wanted some angst. Blame them, not me for this bit of piping hot and fresh heartbreak. Shout out (or maybe it’s a call out) to @sunsetsrmydreams, @lovely-tothe-bone, and cheapchinesebicycle who all asked for this and/or the previous part as well. I hope you enjoy!
I also have music to go with this one! Okay so, the song I had on repeat while I wrote this from Katniss’ POV for the actual story:
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And while I wrote Peeta’s POV, which is kind of silly because this song wouldn’t actually have been available yet for them to dance to, but it worked for my inspiration and sometimes we just don’t question the muse.
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Club version:
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Without further ado... the chapter 8 club scene, specifically the dance, from Peeta’s POV
I watch my friends all the way to the door, just to make sure they all leave and none of them decides to hang back and spy. I don’t know why they would, since then they’d have to either get a cab or bum a ride from me, but I just want a few minutes alone with Katniss, somewhere away from Skadi and all those memories. Away from all the pressure she’s under. I just wanted to see her smile again.
I look over at Katniss, who seems lost in thought, her expression back to the nonplussed, aloof one I’ve had to get used to her wearing. I’m starting to think it’s her usual expression rather than a mask, like I’d originally thought. Even with Finnick’s charm, it took her awhile to relax enough to laugh. Really laugh. The sound had been like a kick to the teeth, and now I’m worried that it was only fleeting.
I sigh and pluck at the label on my almost empty beer. It wasn’t enough to get me even buzzed, and I almost wish I could go drink half the bar, but I drove us here, and there’s no way in hell I’m gonna get drunk. Not since that’s what killed her parents. Some drunk idiot in a truck.
I invited her to spend time with my friends, and even though I spent most of the time we’ve been here wishing they’d get lost so I could talk to her alone, the now awkwardly building silence makes me want them to come back and save me. 
“Early night for them,” Katniss says and I nod, grateful she managed to come up with something to talk about.
“They like to hit the slopes early, ruin the grooming for the ski traffic.”
“Assholes,” she says with a sardonic quirk of her lips and I laugh. The brightness hasn’t left her eyes yet, despite our lingering silence just now. I’m hoping it’s a sign that she enjoyed herself, but I ask just to be sure.
“I’m sorry if this wasn’t all that relaxing for you,” I say. She shrugs in answer.
“It was nice to meet your friends.” For some reason, the way she says it does actually make me feel better. Like maybe despite that rocky start with Finnick asking her about kissing, she still liked them. Not that it matters if she liked them. What would that matter?
I manage to stop my crazy train of thoughts and converse somewhat intelligently.
“Yeah? I appreciate you sticking it out,” I tell her. And I do. “They’re only here for a weekend here and there every year.”
“They don’t live here?”
“No.” I shake my head and take the last swig of my beer. I lean back and watch the dancers for a second or two. I’m tired. Drained. I’ve been splitting my time between helping Katniss train, running the lodge and the Locker, keeping my business flowing smoothly, and spending time with my friends. I’ve hardly slept in days, and the truth hits me as I look back over at Katniss. As much as I denied it when Finnick taunted me with it, I almost wish this were a date. The very thought makes me sweat, though. 
A date with Katniss.
She’s watching the dancers on the floor, and I take a moment to appreciate the way her eyes look reflecting all the multi-colored lights. I’m struck with a wave of memory. Nostalgia. An aching in my chest as I think of another dance floor, another time. 
It’s stupid, but the question slips off my tongue before I think it through.
“Did you want to dance?”
She turns back to look at me and for a moment, I’m transported. But it’s not real. That night… We were a different boy and girl. Time and tragedy have changed us both.
“Seems like it should be part of the experience,” she whispers, and I nod. At least she still likes to dance, I guess. I hand her headphones to her and she slips them on, a soft smile on her lips. Excitement in her eyes as she stands.
She doesn’t head immediately for the floor, instead looking back at me. One eyebrow lifting and her shoulder tilting. She can’t possibly expect me to dance with her, can she?
I don’t. I haven’t. I can’t.
I shake my head, any words of explanation stuck in my throat. Even if I could voice them, she probably wouldn’t be able to hear them with the headphones on. She grabs mine anyways, dropping them on my head. One of the cups crimps my ear and I have to reach up to adjust it.  Then her hands are wrapping around mine, and it’s such a shock to my system that I go. I stand as she pulls me from my chair. I follow her to the floor, the song pulsing in my ears. 
I swallow thickly, and it’s like some kind of dream. The haze of humidity from bodies over the dance floor, the lights cutting through it and bouncing. She has to release one of my hands to see where she’s going and it shakes a little without her holding onto me.
A few feet onto the floor, she drops my hand and turns to face me. These people are too close. I don’t -- I can’t, I think again. I bring my eyes back to her, hoping she’ll see the panic in my eyes and take mercy on me.
But then I’m falling again. Head first into her eyes as her body starts to sway, her hips and shoulders gently rolling with the beat. It’s hypnotic. I blink and even though my heart is still thundering in my ears, and I can’t hold her gaze, I follow her lead. I can handle that. Just a little swaying.
She lifts her arms to her sides. Just a little. It’s familiar and heartbreaking as a thousand moments pulse through my mind with each flash of light. Pinks and we’re in the snow, on a mountain somewhere. Purples and it’s Graham’s wedding. Yellow and we’re in a middle school gym. I blink and it’s green and she’s in front of me, biting her lip, both of us eyeing the chasm between us.
But there’s something else in her eyes, too. The reflection of every single one of those dances and the reverberation of a pain that has only one true name.
Regret.
The beat has started to build. I don’t know how long the song will last, but I know how long I want it to last.
Forever.
That word scares the shit out of me and I move so I can ignore it for now. I reach for her hands, my fingers sliding over hers to turn them until our palms are flush. I can barely breath. It’s just a kiss of skin and yet it feels like the first one all over again.
Then, I manage to look at her again. Her lip quivers and breaks free of her teeth. She steps closer to me. The beat has dropped and her hips follow, in deep movements that make me wish we were truly alone. Closer, then closer still. I can’t handle the direction of my thoughts. I can’t stand the thought of her seeing how differently I move now with the leg. So even as she moves closer, almost chest to chest, I spin her away from me.
But I’m not ready to let her go. Not ready for this to be over. I take a step closer and have to turn my head so she won’t feel me sigh when she pushes her back into my chest. When I rest my hands on her hips.
Don’t go. Don’t go yet.
She bends her knees, her hips undulating over me and I follow, certain that I look a fool. I have to grip tighter to her hips as their motion paints a streak of heat across my body, making me feel weak in the legs. Light in the head.
Then she leans her head back, resting it on my shoulder. Her arms move through the air, her hands pause to reach back and grip my thighs. She’s completely lost in the music, I realize. I turn my head to inhale her scent, and I allow myself just the softest caress of my lips over her skin. Maybe she doesn’t want this, I think. Maybe she’s just enjoying the dance, but the way her hips move against me has me aching, longing, and ready to think maybe she does.
Her hands release my thighs and I regret the loss until her fingers weave through my hair, holding my head in place. My lips still on her neck.
Fuck, I think and what had started as a slight arousal is quickly gaining traction. I groan against her. My lips part and I sink my teeth into her. My head is spinning and the lights are wild on the other side of my eyelids, but I can’t bring myself to care.
She twists her hips, and we’re so close I have no choice but to do the same. My hands ache to move. To feel all of her. The music pulses through me, through her. Is there a separation at this point? I couldn’t find one if I wanted to try, and I don’t want to try.
With no warning, she removes her hands from my hair and turns. Before I can think or react, she straddles my left thigh. Her hands return to my hair and I hold onto her, stare into her eyes with wonder.
Do you feel it? Do you feel this too? Or is this just another dream that’ll end in tragedy?
There are so many things I want to ask her, but all I can manage is to call out to her, even though I know she won’t hear me. Even though I know from experience that her not hearing me will hurt the worst of all.
“Katniss,” I whisper then let my forehead rest on hers so I won’t have to see her push me away. 
Only she doesn’t push me away. Her fingers twist strands of my hair and the chills that sends through me burn into my heart. Settle lower as an ache. I can feel her breaths on my lips, the pulse of the floor and those around us moving through my foot. She couldn’t possibly want this, or me, still. But as we dance… I can almost believe she does. Her body is fluid and hot against mine. A torment of want and memory and need and shattered dreams.
I can feel my throat constricting. My brain going fuzzy as my fingers slip on her back, my pinky brushing feverish skin. I risk a glance at her, find her eyes closed, her features relaxed, her mouth slightly parted, and I risk asking for more.
I slide my left hand under her shirt. It unlocks something in us, I think. Our lips brush. Barely. Lighter than the kiss of a single snowflake. I almost dive in for a deeper kiss. But I wait. She doesn't pull me in for one. Instead, I let my right hand slide lower, down over her ass, where I pause. Wait. I won’t push any further than she’s willing to go. I want her to know that.
Her lips move, and I feel the breath of the word on my lips. “Yes.” 
My hands both clench and my arms tighten, bringing her closer, up my thigh. I have a fistful of her shirt and her ass. Our chests press together. So tight I’m shocked I can still breathe. She grinds on me, the heat of her on my thigh is unbearable. The pressure of her thigh on my cock is heaven.
The beat drops off in the song and the singer’s voice sounds like it comes to me from underwater. I almost feel like that’s where we are. Underwater where we’re buoyant and move together with grace. As one. 
I’m jolted out of my fantasy world and back into reality when someone bumps into us, throwing off our rhythm. We teeter, and Katniss was already precariously leaning on me as it was. I tighten my arms around her and step back to catch our balance. I locate the intruder as he stumbles a bit and looks at Katniss, then at me with chagrin. 
“Sorry, dude!” He shouts, and I manage to smile and shout back.
“No harm!”
The guy gives me a thumbs up, his eyes glassy with booze, and then he goes back to dancing. Like nothing happened. A simple bump on a dancefloor, that’s it, and his world doesn’t feel like it’s collapsing around his ears.
What am I doing?
I force myself to let go of Katniss and step away from her. She stumbles a little, but quickly regains her footing. Of course she does.
How stupid could I possibly be? She didn’t come back to Skadi to come home. She didn’t come here to see me. She didn’t even come here to talk to me or mend things. She came here to train, and at the end of her training session, she’ll go home. Unaffected. And move on with her life.
And I’ll still be here, wondering what I did wrong ten years ago. Picking up the pieces of knowing I fell for her again, and she didn’t fall for me at all.
And it doesn’t matter that she clearly wanted me too. It’s just superficial. Physical. How could it be otherwise? 
I turn towards the exit and run a hand through my hair, trying to erase or maybe cling to the lingering effects of her fingers on my scalp. The headphones fall off and I manage to catch them. I don’t look back as I walk towards the exit. I may be doomed to live a life where Katniss Everdeen always leaves me, but I’ll be damned if she leaves me on that floor, wishing for something that will never be.
I’m frozen in a daze as we hand in our headphones, collect our coats. Return to the Jeep. Words escape me. I’m not sure I could speak around the emotional knife in my heart right now anyways.
I get her as close to her cabin as I can, with the roads through the resort. I consider helping her out, offering to walk her the rest of the way. I even open my mouth to offer, but why prolong the inevitable? She doesn’t need me. She doesn’t even want me. Not really. 
All she does is nod. And then she’s gone again.
I almost crash my Jeep twice on the way back to the lodge and have to stop, gripping the wheel as I heave for air until my throat burns and fight back the screaming in my head. I barely have it muffled and my hands are still shaking as I finish the drive.
Then… then I have to smile like nothing is wrong, while I walk through the lodge back up to our suite. I lean back against the door when I’m safely inside. There’s a fire crackling in the hearth. Gramps is seated in his favorite chair. Sound asleep and snoring. He waited up for me. I could hide in my room. Part of me desperately wants to. But part of me knows it won’t do me any favors. So I shuck my coat and my boots, grab a blanket, and curl up on the couch. I stare at the fire until my eyes burn too.
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Challenge: 30 Questions Tag
Tagged by @the-sassiest-trixster. Thank you and sorry that it took a while. Had a busy week.
1. Name/nickname ~ River, but if you got some special nickname for me let me hear it (I love it when people have weird nicknames for me)
2. Star sign ~ Sagittarius
3. Height ~ 5′3″, got long legs though
4. Birthday ~ December 20
5. Favorite bands - Milky Chance, Fewjar, Die Fantastischen Vier, No Party For Cao Dong, Sorry Youth, Arctic Monkeys, Led Zeppelin, ...
6. Time ~ 5:12 p.m.
7. Favorite solo artists ~ MIKA, DPR IAN, Alexander Rybak, Fynn Kliemann (I'm forgetting so many here)
8. Song stuck in my head ~ first song I thought about this morning was Daddy Cool (don't ask me why) but my dad says I've been humming Édith Piaf's La Vie En Rose an awful lot lately
9. Last movie I watched ~ Isle of Dogs, definitely worth my time
10. Free space ~ sleep would be nice rn
11. Last show ~ Legend of Fei, started out meh, got better, then fucking good, and the ending just left me unsatisfied
12. When I created this blog ~ ooof, 2016? idk, I've only really started using it last year
13. What I post ~ you'll only see text post from me but I reblog an awful lot. if I have ideas I will post fan fics too, but I need to ease my way back into it first. You can read my recent one here.
14. Last thing I googled ~ what tamarind tastes like. it was in my dinner but I still got no idea what it tastes like.
15. Other blogs ~ had one where I wrote diary-like prose once, but I can't even remember the name.
16. Do I get asks? ~ Yes, and I appreciate every single one of them; they're always very sweet, but you're welcome to annoy me at times, too.
17. Why I chose my url ~ all my favorite shows and movies have some kind of demonic intervention as part of the plot; I also like to see myself as some kind of intervention of the regular, sometimes demonic in nature.
18. Following ~ 563 (and yet it feels like just my 10 favorite blogs over and over again)
19. Followers ~ 102 (don't know why, really)
20. Average hours of sleep ~ my sleep usually ranges anywhere from 3 hours to 10 hours. I guess the average is at 8 hours, but 5-6 hours in the past two months.
21. Lucky number ~ 10, 11, 16, 18
22. Instruments ~ keyboard, ukulele, guitar, dizi (high notes still give me trouble but considering I've only been learning for a couple of months and self-taught, I'm happy with my progress), if you push a bass into my hands I can play bass too
23. What am I wearing ~ jeans, a flannel, and the signs of a sleepless night written on my face
24. Dream job ~ gave up on working towards a specific job, just gonna continue studying and see what comes around
25. Favorite food ~ udon, wan tan soup, lasagna, sushi, donburi, boba, mochi (my taste is clearly influenced by the big city)
26. Tea/coffee ~ tea
27. Nationality ~ German
28. Favorite song ~ okay, so hear me out: I have too many, like everyone does. but if I had to choose I'd say Bohemian Rhapsody. Not because it's a masterpiece or anything (it is though), there are songs are prefer to listen to, but just for the amount of good memories I have associated with it, the many times my friends and I screamed this song at the top of our lungs, and the fact that it's such a unifying song - sing a line and people no matter where you are just join right in.
29. Last book ~ Severance by Ling Ma for a university course, a very good read but slightly unsettling to read during a global pandemic (my lecturer admitted that much)
30. Top three fictional world I'd like to live in ~ Avatar: The Last Airbender (fucking childhood dream), Star Trek (don't come at me saying "it's not fictional, it's the future!" fuck off, I'd definitely stay on Deep Space 9 and fuck around to see what happens), The Untamed (swords, cultivation, gays? it's an obvious choice)
Tagging: @echosera @smylealong @xieliancore @necroprankster @emachinescat @frostandstardust @clutteredflowers @his-catness-tchalla and who else wants.
Thanks for reading my rambling. <3
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