#one thing thats gay panic-y thats sticking in my brain is friend i like said straight out that im very similar to his boyfriend

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my friend bleached and dyed my hair bright elmo-lookin red, we all walked to and hung out at a gas station at 2am, watched local 58 and the film theory on it, and i may have only gotten an hour and a half of sleep max but i slept curled up in someones arms so i think its safe to say that i am the main character

#or at least my school friends group are the main characters #just me rambling again #frogs down bad #i only just got the chance to get on tumblr but i had a super fun sleepover n will be rambling about lots in these tags #yknow how ive mastered the art of the delayed gay panic? well i am experiencing it currently :D #asdfhagskdfjahgsf i also just had a great time n love my friends #we did a lot of talking and it was all just very good they are very good people to just talk with and not get tired of #one thing thats gay panic-y thats sticking in my brain is friend i like said straight out that im very similar to his boyfriend? #apparently to the point where hes apparently almost called me his bfs name on accident n im just like. m. what do i do with this info #ooof n another gay panic thing requires a bit of bg info but basically my neighborhood has a lil event thats later in the year that #im hoping to bring my school friends to if it happens this year and me n one of my neighbor friends were talking recently abt the #very real possibility of seeing my ex while out n about if it happens n she wanted to be petty n i thought itd be funny but the plan is just #if i see my ex gf whoever im with will just like grab my hand or something or act all coupley to be petty about it right? make her mad #n i brought up this plan to my school friends bc like i said i wanna bring them if it happens this year and the friend i like just #is like oh DUDE id be so extra with that id like put the arm around the waist while walking ect and at one point he said #hed pin me to a wall and if any friends are reading this feel free to bully me about it but it did take a lot to suppress that gay panic #and like i get that a lot of this sounds like ''well frog my dude that is just blatant flirting wtf'' and id like for you to note that #my school friend group is one of those groups where we kinda just flirt with each other for fun so im telling myself it doesnt mean much lol #but still i just...... mm. gay gay homosexual gay. #n also all of us are very touch starved n gay so we're always hugging n leaning on each other and its just kind of our thing #but the feeling of when we were winding down n he was laying down n i was sitting n he just loops his arms around me n we just #like... layed there n cuddled for a solid few minutes while our other friend was just kinda just sitting n doing her own thing lol #n i just- aaaaa it was so comforting and nice and just felt right being pressed against someone n safe in someones arms #and then for actual sleeping instead of like having all of us in separate areas we all just put some blankets on the floor n cuddled #so like the post says i just fell asleep in his arms n it was so cozy #god this whole post is just me being a disaster huh #i just- hm #god the whole night was just so fun though. i can already tell this is one of those memories im gonna be living in for a while #mmm i also just remembered when he layed his head in my lap n i played with his hair too :pensive-cowboy: #mm and also how i stole one of his shirts and wore it like half the night