#only for myself

[wanttobed0ll]

Went to buy groceries today. Honestly feels good to know that my fridge is filled with low kc4l and healthy options to break my f4sts or OMAD.

My resolution for next week is to focus on making the meals I do eat actually balanced and healthy so that my body gets some proper nutrients from them instead of just voring pure garbage.

#only for myself #sk1nn1 #lose weight fast #ed relapse #3d not sheeran #🕯️as a feather #@nor3×14 #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ving #⭐️vation goals #⭐️ ing motivation #⭐️rving #🕯️as a 🪶 #4n4rexia #4n0r3x14 #4n4blr #@na trigger #@n0r3xia #@nor3xia #@na motivation #3atingdisord3r #tw 3d #ed not sheeren #3d f4st #st4rv1ng

[softsweetangelonline]

My hack to eating less is to have a loud or crunchy snack in public

I eat slower so I crunch quieter and it lets me savor the flavor so I feel better quicker

I also want to eat less of it bc its a slower process

#ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #notprojustusingthetags #ed bllog #only for myself #ana shit #ana d!et #ana meal #tw ana diary

[ilovekandeyouki]

Hello so I decided that being ana was not healthy so l left but I am back again and I'm restarting my journey so my cw is 50 my gw 44 I'm fasting today+tomorrow

Anyways I'm 12 now my is birthday 19 of April also I got 348 in eideyt I'm not a Muslim my family is tho goodbye

#tw ana diary #tw ana shit #tw ana diet #proana #only for myself

[prettybone420]

I can’t wait to be summer skinny.

#i just wanna be thin #th!nsp0 #th1n$po #pro #only for myself #ana trigger #tw ana diary #ana stuff

[princesadness]

#aestethic #tumblrboy #only for myself

[sailormoonnumba1]

CAN SOMEBODY MAKE A GOOD ANA PLAYLIST IM TIRED OF HEARING SLOW GUITR AND SWEET VOICES PLS

#an4rexia #pr04ana #only for myself #thinsp1 #pr0anna #thinsppp #ed diet #diet cola

[iloveballet]

My current diet: just for fun

Fast 40 hours/omad and repeat. It’s really easy after the first day.

and now that I’ve posted it I have to keep doing it :)

#Ed fast #ana trigger #tw ed diet #tw ana related #tw ana stuff #ana fast #not actually pro just using tags #only for me #only for myself #restrictive diet #just ed stuff

[percol-ation]

Some days I wonder if it’d be possible to sweat off fat in my sleep but it seems like an icky process so I haven’t tried it.

#@na #@norexia #restrictive ana #tw ed in the tags #tw eating issues #restrictive ed #4na blog #4n0r3x14 #pro 4na #only for myself #ana trigger #4na tw #4namia #4na vent

[asirensrage]

I hate that people are so black and white about this stuff, because real life isn't like that. So two teenagers, one a junior one a senior, can be dating and it's no big deal... but fast forward a little, the older one graduates, and from that day on they're a predator if they continue dating the one still finishing high school? No. Ffs. There's a difference between a significantly older adult dating a minor, and two people in the same general age category but with a couple of years age difference between them, coming of age in turn. There are literal laws codified to address and acknowledge this difference.

People have their own opinions.

The major problem with age differences comes in when there's a power imbalance. A 28 year old with their life in a semblance of order is not on the same level as a 17 year old just starting to figure things out.

And you're right, there's a difference between teenagers dating in high school and one graduates first compared to a 25 year old going after a fifteen year old to specifically groom them. It also changes as people get older. No one is going to look at a five year difference between a 35 year old and a 30 year old, but they will at a 17 year old and 22 year old.

Real life is a lot more complicated than people like to think it is.

There's also a huge difference between fiction and reality lol.

#I can't speak for everyone #only for myself #i hope this makes sense #anon #asks

[nighthawkes]

I must sleep. Sleep is the mind-healer. Sleep is the big-life that brings total ability to fucking do anything. I will face my bed. I will permit the blankie to pass over me and snores to pass through me. And when sleep has gone past I will turn the outer eye to greet the new morning. When the sleep has gone there will be everything. Energy and will to live will remain.

#having a come to Jesus with myself about trying to work late #sleep is the only path to productivity. rest is the only thing that lets me get things done. #litany against not laying down

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[wanttobed0ll]

I tend to get really discouraged cause my cw is super high and Ive got such a long way to go to my ugw and being skinny.

But also, time will pass anyway and I am the most productive and in control of myself and my life when Im restr1ct1ng so... in a month I can either be skinnier and proud of my self control or miserable, f4t and broke...

Plus I managed to lose 7kg this month... if I hold on it will not take that long to get to where I want to be...so I better shut up and lock the fuck in!!!

#only for myself #tw weight #sk1nn1 #ed relapse #3d not sheeran #🕯️as a feather #@nor3×14 #tw 4n4rexia #4n0rexic #4n4 blog #@n0r3xia #@na vent #@nor3xia #@na motivation #3d f4st #3atingdisord3r #tw 3d #3ating d1sorder #st4rv3 #🕯️as a 🪶 #i need to ⭐️ve #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ving #⭐️ve

[softsweetangelonline]

Im getting to a point where I don't even need to track my calories because Im eatimg so little most days that I know its under 500 cal

#ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #ana d!et #pro a4a #only for myself #tw ana diary #4n4blr #pr0ana diet

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

#warm up #this isn't good #writeblr #this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3 #but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker #and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS #the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!? #..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much. #on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt #and medical debt #i will put that first little bit of cash #into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments) #i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option #but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver #oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs

[iamanartichoke]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -

I am fine with "the audience" -

downloading my fics

printing my fics

copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics

sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3

making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss

doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc

I am not fine with "the audience"

doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity

feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever

Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.

Enjoy the fandom things.

#fanfic #ao3 #archive of our own #fandom things #tumblr things #i may have said this at some point #i'm sure i have #but whatever - just in case #i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics #but just if anyone is so inclined that's all #ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog #i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting #but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen #not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy #at least of fics bc i save everything #not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about #that i've made or done and only posted here #anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today #i have plans to stare into the void now

[vivi-scera]

okay fun silly question because these are my favorite types of stories but what are your guys' favorite pieces of media that require the audience to go in blind? usually the synopsis is a diversion of some sort or there's just some killer plot twist that changes things (like the genre) significantly.

#i'll go first: mystic messenger and invincible #doki doki literature club is also up there but i haven't played it myself #i honestly think mystic messenger is THE best example. not only does it change the genre but also the mechanics of the game/medium #even saying that there is a plot twist gives away the plot twist i want it to be that good #OH puella magi as well ofc