#or any family or friends rn and no like. hobbies to focus on

[luaveltarot]

🏮🗝 𝒫𝒶𝒸: 𝒜 𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑒𝓍𝓉 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝒽𝒾𝑔𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝓉𝑜 𝓎𝑜𝓊🗝🏮

🌸Pile 1🌸

Main theme- You know how to use your energy in moderation and it doesn’t necessarily need to be equal. Work smarter not harder. Things are not as bad as it is in head.

You seem to be at a place in life where your attention is either divided into two things or you have to collectively think about multiple things at the same time or you simply find yourself teary eyed because you can feel the stress of something new beginning in your life. Your higher self wants you to not fuss over something which can’t have your attention rn. It’s ok to prioritise something new over something old ( just apply however it resonates with your situation), it just wants you to know just like how a little salt works well with sugar in dessert, same way you can work with situation at hand. Yes maybe if you decide to use equal proportion of salt and sugar in dessert then obviously it won’t work out. Or another example could be you feel stuck between a friend and a love interest on who to reply first because both decided to msg you at the same time yet your friend needs you more at that time, you don’t have to feel guilty over ignoring your partner. Even if it’s related to a routine where you decided to go on a diet or you had to take care of your fitness or your hobby is craving to create an expression then go for it even if it means you need to take a day off from work and keep your pay at stack. At the end the day, you don’t have to feel guilty about not balancing things out, if things work out in imbalances then feel it and stop bemoaning over what you couldn’t do just because things don’t work out ideally for you.

Another msg your higher wants to let yk is that focus on your health and well being. Yes your studies and work should be your priority because it will apparently build your future but if your health will deteriorate then how do you except to work efficiently. Same goes for being in a situation with friends or in family, you need to unlearn and break certain patterns, set boundaries. Take as much time as you need to recharge yourself in solitude and don’t feel isolated from the world. The world can wait for you. Nothing changes if changes.

Even if its a business related stress then you can put more money and eat less expensive food for awhile. If sacrificing something temporarily gives you gain in future then take the risk.

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊

🕯Pile 2🕯

Main theme- Don’t take life too seriously. Get to know yourself more. Take your own time to decide what’s meant for you and what’s not. Eliminate the conditioned thoughts or better system, come up with your own so you can make a path for yourself which speaks to you and it doesn’t have to make sense to others.

It’s time to trust yourself pile 2. Your higher self wants to guide you inwards rather than outwards which makes you rely on external sources or already formed social institutions. Your higher self wants you to not stretch so much that you break a ligament but enough to make you feel better. Don’t isolate yourself from the world but also don’t let the world govern your internal pattern of thoughts. You don’t need to have each step planned instead you can take mindful actions with each step and see what transpires next. Remember to be flexible because life is dynamic, the only constant is change, the people in your life, where you stay, your car, your friends will all change in life, it’s only you who knows yourself more, it’s only you who gets to decide what will be best for you, nobody knows you like you know yourself so how can you expect others to decide for you. It’s not fair. Your soul, your true essence is constant. Let your intuition, your soul help you navigate yourself. Don’t box yourself In any category or try to be neutral, be free and let the path illuminate the reasons behind the journey.

Your higher self wants you to explore, you can’t always try already tried or true patterns because it has always worked for others. Instead it wants you to reflect, dive inwards, meditate, contemplate or journal. Look things will always balance itself out be it consciously or unconsciously, like you keep breathing in and out or even you blink your eyes to give rest to them even it’s for a millisecond.

Don’t forget to have fun while you’re in this self discovery mode. Don’t consider yourself boring or internal work boring. Make yourself fun for yourself. Be mindful and enjoy to get to know you. It’s not weird to talk to yourself or enjoy only your company. In fact it’s weird if we don’t have any bonding with our soul. You will never regret if you rely on yourself. Come up with your own system of beliefs, your own concepts and your own inner understanding.

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊

🔑Pile 3🔑

Main theme - Look at this breakdown as breakthrough. Find order in the disorder. Learn to take things lightly. See things from a perspective where it’s happening for your good and not lament it. Don’t unnecessarily overthink, flow with the wave which universe has orchestrated for you.

Your higher self wants you to know that what may have been uncomfortable initially will ultimately lead you towards a path which is more in alignment to your highest calling. What seems ruined, missing or wiped out from your life has actually made space for something new to come into your life. Figuratively speaking, you may feel as though your whole forest was ruined due to forest fire but if you see it with a better perspective you may realise your land needs a rest to regain the soil health so that you can plant trees in a specific design in accordance with their benefits. You can use that rest period to plan for how you will want things to be. We think that things are not in our control, this thought comes from our ego, if ego was not there then we wouldn’t have felt so shaken up instead we would have let the universe take hold and do what’s best for us. At least the outcome wouldn’t have felt so devastating. Your higher self wants you to just be and not think of ways to interfere in what’s already happening because you will only drain all your energy and there will be no strength left to pick yourself up.

Rn you can think that your career seems to take downhill but maybe see this as a redirection to think of a new career or you failed a subject and that subject has nothing to do with your life’s purpose. You had a break up which make you feel devastated and lost, later you’ll find someone who respects your worth, better than your ex.

Tbh don’t try to control life, life is dynamic and no phase lasts too long ever. Try to take things less seriously and enjoy the process even if it’s the worst phase of your life. It’s teaching you something which you swept under the rug. This phase wants you to take out that discarded or ignored lesson out, learn it and then burn it. You can’t ignore problems, you have to acknowledge them because it’s a facet of life that you need to add to your personality, to make yourself wiser and to closer to your higher self.

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊𓍊𓋼𓍊

#divination #tarot #tarot reading #pac #pick a pile #tarotblr #pick a card #witch #luaveltarot #tarot community #tarot witch

[cowboyjen68]

Hi!! For the past 8 months I’ve had a messy on and off thing w this girl. She was the first girl I ever had hooked up with & first person I’ve ever fell in love with. I always had trouble navigating the relationship bc I am used to fuckboys and having to work around boys being assholes & have no prior experience w girls romantically. We are on an off period rn and I am absolutely gutted. None of my friends or family have been with a girl so they don’t understand how much more devastating the heart break is with girls than it is guys. Do u have any advice on how to get over ur first woman heartbreak? I am so sad I will never find a connection with someone like I had with her.

I can't speak from any sort of bisexual experience since I don't have any connection to men beyond friendship but as a lesbian I can understand how, perhaps, a woman with sexual attraction to men and women would feel a closer connection with women. Having shared experiences and emotional pattern would lead to having a more intimate relationship, both physically and emotionally.

The age old answer of TIME is pretty accurate. I would suggest not dating anyone and taking some time to focus on things that you love whether that is your career, school, classes, friends, hobbies or whatever.

I have certainly had a powerful connection to a woman and thought to myself that I would never find another only to meet a woman with whom I not only had a deeper bond but who was able to love me for me and make me feel always safe and that we had a mutual passion.

Break ups are not failures. Not all relationships are meant to last a life time and that does not make them any less real or important, it just means they ran their course.

It sounds like, at the root of it, you two are never going to commit to being each other's one and only and that is not a judgement call. Not all two people who find love with one another are compatible. Often Love really is NOT enough.

You need to decide. You can continue in this cycle of on and off and be okay with that being how it is OR you can break it off and move on to heal and look for something more fulfilling and befitting of what you really want which is to be in a full time committed relationship with a woman.

Healing will take time and distance. Friendship between you is possible but not always the best or a feasible option. You can always circle back around to friendship once you have put the relationship aspects in the past.

[werebutch]

WSBH chara q’s: (you don’t have to answer all the numbers, just whatever you want to 𖢘)

16/35/51 for Scotch

1/6/55 for Atlas

I LOVE YOU

16. What kinds of people do they have arguments with in their head?

okay i truly think scotch argues with seraph in his head all the time. ALL the time. scotch largely ignores them, and vice versa, because he dislikes them and they know it. seraph is very conflict avoidant lol, and as long as hes not a "threat" they dont care to talk to him about their problems. he probably argues with atlas and jacob (his older brother) too, atlas about more stupid small stuff, and jacob about childhood and life stuff :p

im trying to think of more general groups he would argue with but i cant come up with anything BAHAH. hes not exactly conflict avoidant in the annoying libra way that seraph is, he more just ignores conflict for his friends’ (mostly atlas’) sake. idk if that makes sense LOL

35. What is the smallest, morally questionable choice they’ve made?

hmmm.. smallest? i mean scotch strings eloise along for most of the time pre timeskip. its not a main focus but its definitely important in order to understand scotch as a whole. she and scotch go out for a while, and mid way through that he realizes hes GAY gay. lol. and obviously lying to her about that is pretty questionable after a while. especially since he and atlas have been 👉👌 like the whole time. but she kind of knows. well

something a little bigger would be him encouraging or otherwise turning a blind eye to all the weird stuff atlas is up to. he doesn't know what it's like to be a werewolf, he can't say anything, right? lol.... murder is okay if its a talking dog doing it. scotch enabler supreme. actually when seraph is introduced, he and atlas have a 'joke' (kind of starts being real) about luring seraph somewhere to kill them. obviously doesnt happen and gets abandoned. but i think its important to know about their dynamic LOL

51. What’s a phrase they say a lot?

this guy is kind of goofy. i cant think of phrases rn but he has a specific way of speaking.. you could watch pretty much any old pop punk band interview and kind of get the idea. HAHAH

1. What’s the lie your character says most often?

atlas is a big fan of saying 'its fine' for all situations ever. family in mortal danger? its fine. completely splitting? its fine. arthritis excruciating? its fine. hes one of those people that dont like to deal with the fawning of others unless hes feeling real special. Ends up putting people in more danger a lot of the time. i think eloise is the only fan of communication in this friend group to be honest. i should have made her the main character

he tends to make promises he cant keep as well, but thats more general..

6. What’s their favorite [insert anything] that they’ve never recommended to anyone before?

i have NO idea. i feel like atlas would be a music snob, so maybe his favorite 'super underground' bands. otherwise he'd probably never recommend raw human meat to another human (no matter how much scotch asks -__-).. (he would chicken out anyway)

55. What’s something they’re expected to enjoy based on their hobbies / profession that they actually dislike / hate?

um. so atlas hates working out. he especially hates running, you know, the thing that wolves are known for doing a lot of? unfortunately the lycanthropy came with a side effect of pretty bad arthritis, so that doesnt exactly encourage him. he DOES exercise, a lot since hes pretty much required for his ermm "side job", but he hates it 😸 besides the arthritis it’s mostly because I think it’s silly that he hates it. yay

#ummm a lot of what i talk about with my ocs are the character relationships but thats why i write. i like gossip. its fun. LMFAO #im actually having trouble deciding whether i want atlas to be a killer or not. like regularly killing i mean. hes definitely killed SOMEON #im really inspired by ginger snaps and scream. i dont even like scream that much but it reminds me of how they are. lol #scotch and atlas are pretty different but theres two things i see as themes. they both hate communication (and that causes conflict; so mor #avoiding). and the fact that scotch lives vicariously through atlas. atlas is doing #what scotch thinks is interesting. for pretty much the entire time; scotch likes to beg atlas to turn him. i think scotch sees the lack of #control he has over his life and sees lycanthropy as power. arguably thats why scotch is so attracted to atlas. lol #idk. thats not canon. im just thinking out loud here. #and yk it is power but not freedom. atlas would much rather just be a regular wolf. hunting and shit. but hes got these damn people here lo #but he sees what his life is like being a lycanthrope and hes kinda like. no. im not bringing that onto you. you dont know what youre askin #YOU KNOW? its goofy. i know. but its fun. LOL #if you (a general audience you but it can be you too grins) want to talk about scotch's confusion about his attraction to eloise we'd be #here all day. i think scotch is an egg. i dont know. i truly think theres some vicarious living (again) through her femininity. #and el is trans so he doesnt see her femininity as unattainable to him. you know? i hope that makes sense lol and im kind of projecting on #to him wif dat. to be honest. but obviously in the other direction. BWAHAH #asks #eucyon #thank u for da ask jesse this is so fun ^__^ and exciting that someone remembers their names HAH #after all this talking in the tags what I meant to say is that scotch and atlas both have sick intentions. it’s just that scotch doesn’t #act on them. and atlas does. so. living vicariously. ok

[hard--headed--woman]

i feel kinda messed up rn bc before i got with my ex i had been convinced by the trans community that i was nonbinary and went by them/them for ages.

but my ex was a conservative controlling male basically and started calling me by she/her and my deadname even while i was telling him not too. (but obviously not for radfem reasons lol) eventually during the relationship i got into radfem theory and it was ur post about why a lot of women identify as nonbinary that actually started me thinking about it and i realised it pretty much described exactly me.

issue is, because my ex was so controlling and a lot of people would probably classify him as absuive, i still hate being called by she/her and my 'deadname' by anyone i know. now i just associate it with a control tactic and a way to make me feel shitty. on the other hand, i feel like im betraying my own beliefs and that i should try find a way to reconnect with those identifiers, but bc the wound is so fresh rn it was a far from easy

sorry that this is so long, i'm just kinda wondering if u have any advice, and i've just been considering how many other women probably try to identify out of being female because of trauma related reasons.

Hey, I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to tell me about it! I hope I will be able to help you a little bit!

First of all, please don't feel guilty for not liking being called by your "deadname" or referred to as "she/her". You've identified as non binary for ages, so you got used to it, and because of the abusive relationship you went through (sorry for that by the way, it's terrible and I hope you're doing better), this name and these pronouns remind you of your traumas, of the abuse you suffered, and make you feel bad. This is normal, you're not betraying any beliefs or any cause, it's is a human reaction and you're not doing anything wrong. I think most radfems would agree with me on that. No one can blame you so don't blame yourself.

Before anything else, I'll say that if you really can't hear that name and these pronouns, no matter how hard you try, don't force yourself. Maybe it's not what I should say but at the end of the day, if you try for a long time to accept this name and the female pronouns, and it doesn't work, no one would blame you for deciding to keep using your "new" name (or picking another one) and the they/them pronouns.

Now about your problem in itself. Well it might sound obvious but the best way to reconcile yourself with your name and female pronouns is to heal from your traumas due to this shitty relationship. Talk about it, for example to your friends or family, tell them how you feel, go out, focus on your hobbies and the things you like, meet new people if you feel like it, go to therapy if it helps, find a way to express your feelings... Do everything you need to do to feel better and move on. Step by step. It might take some time but you'll get there!

Same for your name and your pronouns. Do it step by step. Use them for yourself in your head first, or in writing. Try a diminutive of your "deadname" first, or going back to the full name again. Ask just one person to use she/her for you first, so you can get used to it again, and then ask more people to do the same thing. Talk with people who never had to call you they/them or by your other name, they will call you she/her and use your "deadname", it might help you a bit. In your head, try to distance this name and these pronouns from the abuse in itself, try to associate it with beautiful things and memories, or with your beliefs (like, "letting peoole use this name for me would be a feminist act", etc...). Step by step! I am sure you'll get there <3

As you said, the wounds are still fresh, it's normal that you need time. It will perhaps take some time but you will heal and you'll be able to hear your name and pronouns again, I know it. There's no hurry! Take your time. It's already amazing of you to learn radfem beliefs and become gender critical after years of identifying as non binary (and I am proud to have played a role in this haha!).

Have a good day and feel free to send me another ask/to dm me if you need/want <3

#asks #anon #nonbinary #abusive relationships

[not-eating-till-i-pass]

Romanticized mental illness and addiction

(this is me coping with severe, chronic, treatment resistant mental illness. Not me promoting or actually romanticsing anything. Romanticsing things for myself makes life more bearable rn. Please dont take any of these as reasons you should 🌟ve yourself, most aren't realistic and im clincally delusional /gen),

Mild f@tph0bic rhetoric directed at myself only

kind of venty, ED fantasy

My Design

[Inspired by "I go hungry" by mothermother]

In my design

I'll be the small, easily passing emo boy that looks good in all clothes and aesthetic in large band t-shirts and dark makeup and skinny jeans

In my design

I'll never have to worry about binding again, I'll be so small and boney these fat lumps on my chest will shrink and shrink and shrink until their gone. I'll always pass, my bones will jut out and look so masculine and boyish, from my bones to my jaw to my hips

In my design

I'll be the boy who you see live off black coffee and ultra monster and hot chips, I'll look more beautiful with my nicotine and sunken eyes instead of just sad. I'll be the pretty boy you see alone at the park or corner of the cemetery with a cigarette and far off stare and not the sad fat addict

In my design

I will be dark, scary looking but sweet. I'll uplift others bodies, never let anyone know my diet ""advice"" "what do you mean? I just look like this normally, every size is gorg you don't need to look like me!" I'll never let anyone go through the pain did. I'll make sure people who look like I do now feel beautiful and never shamed by my new size

In my design

I'll meditate, every day. On top of being my dark brooding self, with how little time i spend eating, ill have more time to improve my witchcraft. Become good enough to help my friends with spells, protect my house and mind so I can stop feeling as awful, recconnect with mother earth and my ancestors. Without food as a distraction i can be more spiritual and better at it

In my design

I'll read more, clean more, be a more productive person and really focus in on my self care and care for others.

In my design

My friends and family will always come first, I'll be a good selfless person, a perfect person. I'll ask how everyone's doing and if there's any problems I can help solve, I'll be attentive to everyone's needs and wants, I'll listen intently every time they speak and respond with love, I'll bake sweets for everyone every chance I get, send them to my friends far away in little perfectly wrapped care packages, save some for mt family, only have 1 for myself.

In my design

I'll be creative and smart again, throw myself into art and writing and books and documentaries again.

In my design. I'll be perfect. I'll be small to look dark and pretty in emo clothes and take up less space. Take up less resources like food that my family needs more then me. I'll pass I'll be boney and masculine. My issues and problems will all become aesthetic quirks because of skinny and pretty privilege. I'll look dark and scary and sick. I'll be kind, and compassionate and never let my ED warp my views of other beautiful people. I'll be a more skilled witch and pagan. I'll be a more productive person in general. I'll be the perfect brother, son, boyfriend, friend. I'll make sure everyone eats before me, never let my hanger show, I'll be sweet and good and selfless. I'll have more time for my old hobbies and art

I will be perfect.

#random ed shit #vents

[katebvsh]

What do you do when you feel like cold spiritually, I mean, when you feel a little bit like numb and unable to feel strong emotions, what you will recommend to re-cover the flame, the passion, the interest, the will in things? I feel not depressed but I feel definitely very cold since like a few months and i think is because life push me finally into the circumstances that let me break definitely a like 8 years of limerenece attachment. Now I feel very liberated from many many forms of pain and angst that had been haunting me all this years, but without them I feel like my will and passion had gone too. I don't know. I ask you because I had asked u before about things related with limerence, but if you think is too personal or complicated to give and alive I totally understand. I just can't talk about this kind of mental feeling with anyone in my rl. Have a good day, and as always sorry my english.

Hello anon! Thanks for taking the time to write to me 💕

I’m going to give you a short “general” answer for this. I tried writing down my own personal experiences and it quickly turned into a small novella. If you’re interested in that send me another anon and I’ll include it separately. Or send me a message off anon.

As always, I am not a therapist or psychiatrist so this cannot be taken as a replacement for professional assistance.

1. Make sure you have starved any source of limerent reinforcement. None of this will work if you don’t. Also be careful as you might get reinforcement through indirect means (ex supernatural or magical thinking which can encourage obsessive tendencies). You need to practice self awareness…catch yourself thinking about LO, accept and recognize that you are thinking about LO, forgive yourself and redirect yourself into a more positive activity. You can’t have passion for anything if a tiny part of you is still keeping the door ajar for LO to waltz in.

2. Try to ground yourself in physical reality in healthy ways ex exercise, hobbies, crafts ect. Derive meaning in your life through multiple aspects (eg family, work, friends, hobbies) Have both healthy long term and short term goals. You need to do this even if it feels mechanical and forced at first.

3. Work on your self esteem, focus on you and try to work on understanding what happened, why it happened and the role you actively played in it. Then think of where you have turned things around to your benefit, how you are changing and becoming a better version of yourself.

4. Have reasonable expectations for yourself. Recovery is going to take time, months most definitely, potentially even years. You are in a psychologically vulnerable state rn because you’ve essentially given up the true source of meaning in your life for the past 8 years. Limerence forces you to push yourself and your identity aside (and by extension family, friends and anything that made you truly happy) for the sake of maintaining a singular obsession. You’ll have to slowly rebuild yourself over time while incorporating the limerent period into your life narrative in a realistic but also forgiving way.

The numb feeling is pretty much because you are emotionally drained. It will slowly pass. Essentially force yourself into activities that are positive, even if you feel like a robot or soulless animal while doing them. In the meantime you need to slowly confront the reality of what happened and the role you played in it. How did I get here? Where did I learn to chase love? It has to be processed emotionally AND rationally. If you don’t confront the emotions or the reality of the situation you’ll be stuck. Also try to reach out to friends and family. You need to find ways to accept meaningful love to replace something imaginary.

Let me know if you want the more personal version. I can describe certain thought patterns I remember going though my head. The emotions you will need to confront and resolve include shame, guilt, resentment towards LO and eventually regret that will make you want to reconnect. Acknowledge the emotion when it eventually does surface, understand and accept it with love. Do not identify with and see yourself through these feelings. They are states of mind that are ultimately temporary

In terms of content I would suggest crappy childhood fairy’s videos. They can have some very good advice. I have also attached some articles.

I wish you the best and thank you for reaching out to me 💕

#asks #thank you for the ask #personal #txt

[hartmannyoukaigirl]

I feel it's stupid and cringy but geniunely bl and yaoi especially 2D is literally the only form of media that men hasn't ruined. especially regarding relationships and sex that's just traumatizing for the majority of women from the billion cases of men abusing their partners who never did anything wrong at all.. men often geniunely kill their wives for the stupidest little things that can very well be their own hobbies and interests and tastes. And when they can't kill and abuse their family/friends/wives/girlfriends they resort to making fun of every single thing a girl could've ever liked. even things that are 'normal' and as non offense as can get to themselves like women liking cute pictures of men, like that's somehow something so triggering so offensive so criminal to a random ass man that has 0 relations with that girl to the point he just NEEDS to yell about it and write essays about how this is so disgusting so horrible this is what's ruining society and making kids degenerate that those women are gonna grow up and molest their kids or some fucking weird far fetched fantasy of theirs. and when they have enough they go back to jacking off 5 times a day and finishing p/rnhub's library.

Obviously, sex is normal for them to the point that a man CANNOT focus on the same woman and NEEDS to cheat or watch p/rn or look at e-girl pictures online in addition to his girlfriend. But a woman dares to express any form of desire herself ??? 'heretic. witch. a failure of a wife and a mother.'

i don't understand why men are like this. How could you call yourself a human when youre so focused on ONLY yourself and you're beyond selfish and has worse behaviours than literal animals and rodents.

[diorlvrgrlblogger]

things i'm currently going to manifest!

[yes i know the title is changing the fact that i don't already have it which'll change my mindset but it doesn't matter rn, just keeping this list 4 myself <3]

pink/white silk bed sheets, blanket and pillow cases

cute collection of vans, converses, ugg boots, mary janes, platforms and doc martens

miss dior perfume

dior lip oils

desired skin care products

desired make up products

bubble tea [drinking it while typing this lol]

desired bedroom

crush likes me back

excude an outgoing, self-loving, kind, positive mindset, smart, cutesy, soft, effortlessly attractive aura

desired friend group

desired friend group activities

lenient parents

desired birthday party

yale admission

desired high school admission

pinterest+tumblr followers

good days every day

no procrastination, ton of energy and motivation

a pinterest girl-type daily routine

desired ideal future life

change past mistakes

desired current life

desired ideal scenarios

cured of depression, anxiety, and any other mental/physical problems

clear skin

slim face

small nose

a little bit more plump lips

longer eyelashes

desired stationary

better at painting

soft, elegant, poetic writer

a cat when i leave yale and live my desired life

desired partner with the traits i want

desired books

money for stuff i can buy

fun school life

desired notebooks and craft supplies [technically stationary but ok]

become a better person in my religion

family/close people become better people in religion

life feels like a movie

desired high mindset for manifesting

desired food/drink whenever i want it

fun, memorable field trips

fun and desired assignments

non-awkward situations at school [i rlly need this lol i embarrass myself at school daily 🌚]

desired closet

desired voice

extremely photogenic and videogenic

desired skills/hobbies/talents

social skills

ability to shift on every try

desired body figure

desired devices

well that's all, congrats if ur at the bottom here now lol, again this is just a lil list for me to keep track, but have an amazing day, week, month, year, life, whatever it is :) focus on the positive. luv, ams xoxo

#manifesting #manifestation #law of manifestation #law of assumption #subliminals #self concept #subconscious

[imsoglitter]

Hi kate! Idk if you’ll see this or answer but I wanted to send bc I’ve been following u for awhile and see u as sort of a big sibling/mentor that reminds me that it gets better and one day everything will be okay :’) do u have advice on how to move on? I’m femme and had my first ever kinda relationship w a butch and it was nice but they abandoned me on my bday celebration after blowing up on me saying that I was too high maintenance, materialistic, sparkly, and pink and my emotions were “too much to process” and “my presence was unhealthy” 6 months later they’re engaged to another femme who is more slow living and earthy. sucked a lot bc from day 1 they said I WASNT too much and that they would never leave. Idk I’m not sad I dont wish I was the soon wife but I’m convinced now that I’ll never find anyone bc all butches/mascs at the end of the day want that & I’ll be alone 4evr. I noticed all of my butch/femm couple friends are kinda same the same (earthy, natural, no glitz or glamour, etc). Feeling v high femme camp antics essay rn and having trouble coping. I tried changing my aesthetic and being minimalist but it put in deep depression so idk what to do. I’m unlikeable to all the ppl I’m attracted to but fitting in to be likable makes me want to kms. Any thoughts or ideas?? Hope this doesn’t come off as trauma dumping 😖

Hi anon! I don't know if I'm the right person to answer this bc I'm definitely a lazy femme who doesn't have the energy to be high femme, and the advice I'm going to give you is something you've probably heard a million times before.

If someone dislikes you enough to dump you on your birthday, you are better off without them. This goes for any other special occasion as well. The first time I got dumped, they very politely waited until I got back from a special trip I was on so it wouldn't be ruined, and I'm really glad for that. It made everything amicable and we're still penpals to this day. It sounds like your ex was bad at communicating the problems they were having in the relationship, given the blowup, and reacted pretty immaturely tbh. That's not the kind of person you want to spend your life with. (I'm also very wary of people who get married after less than a year of knowing each other, but that's a separate issue)

Honestly the best advice I can give you, and you're probably going to hate this, is take a break from looking for a sexual/romantic relationship. Focus on the other relationships in your life, whether they're with friends or family or even coworkers. And spend time with yourself. Definitely don't change everything about yourself to be with someone because you're going to have to live with yourself your whole life. The most important person to like you is going to be yourself. If you want to change think about expanding rather than dumping everything and picking something new.

And on the topic of finding someone who will love you the way you are, your best goal is to be patient, and to take action when you feel ready. Don't settle with someone who tolerates you or you'll end up like my parents (bad). And if you feel like there's potential, don't be afraid to make the first move. Pining is fun until it's not anymore so it's better to skip that part sometimes lol

Practical speaking here's my advice:

Delete your dating apps for a while

Get yourself a vibrator

Go to the movies by yourself

Pick up a new physical hobby like gardening or woodworking or cooking, something you can touch

If you hate your new hobby drop it and try something else

Try a new restaurant you've never been to before

Go for a walk/sit in a park weather permitting and birdwatch

And if you're seriously suicidal, take inventory of yourself and see if you can come up with a plan to avoid that headspace. Therapy and meds helped for me, but the main thing was moving out of a toxic environment. Plus I'm not stupid enough to pretend that therapy fixes everything all the time

I guess I'm saying you should date yourself, but trying to not make it sound super corny lol. I hope this helps and I hope you can figure out how to get out of your rut. I'm rooting for you!

[junimoody]

Hello & Welcome!

I go by JuniMoody. feel free to call me Juni, or Ms Jmoody 💕

Get To Know JuniMoody🪬

1. What are basic facts to know about you?

I use she/her/they pronouns.

Im Salvadoreña & Boliviana.

Im always trying to learn ASL and enjoy learning about other cultures, customs, languages, etc.

Currently learning coding!

I love art.

I LOVE CATS. The most important thing to know is I own a cat named Saber and will probably post him everywhere🫶🏽

2. What are your "obsessions"?

Regular TV Show obsessions: Criminal Minds, Modern Family, Grey's Anatomy, Monsters Inside Me, Untold Stories of the ER, Magicians

Anime Obsessions: Jujitsu-kaisen, to your eternity, tower of god, SAO, HXH, Full Metal Alchemist, Toradora, Twin Star Exorcists, kiss him not me, blend-s.

Personal Life: Cats. & Chocolate.

3. Can you describe your blogging style?

I like to blog like I'm texting my friends about my day / thoughts. If I'm feeling energetic I might Go Live or post a video. I really like interacting with people on SM, whether we follow each other or not! It's nice to find ways to meet & talk to new people and create genuine connections.

4. Favorite Artist?

RAP: Meg the Stallion, Kendrick, Rico Nasty, Doechii, Flo Milli

R&B/ALTER: Shreea Kaul, Rakiyah, Dreamer Isioma, Complex Ricki, Omar Apollo, Daniel Caesar, SZA, Savannah Re

LATIN: Pitbull, Shakira, Young Miko, Karol G, Kali Uchis, Maluma, Ricky Martin, Aventura, Ozuna, Teo, El Alfa, Daddy yankee, Plan B, Santana, Snow tha Product

POP: Bruno Mars, Miley Cyrus, Adele, Christina Perri, Lady Gaga, BEYONCE

5. What motto keeps you going in tough times?

it is what it is.

6. Relationship Status?

I am currently single. I am looking to grow my friendships and hobbies as well as focus on my career and education. Romantic relationships aren't really on my radar; I'm not interested in people in the romantic sense rn.

7. Are you on any other platforms?

Instagram: Junimoody_ & awildnikkita

Twitch: JuniMoody

Tiktok: @awildsalvi

Snapchat: crabbifcknabbi

Discord: junimoody

Reddit, & Manyvids.

8. Why Tumblr?

I wanted to move away from the twitter mess and i don't think I'm really getting the hang of reddit (too many rules to post in communities)

I want to meet people on here who I can game with, party watch a tv-series or movie, or chat online with!

9. Well what kind of games do you play?

I play on PC. Green Hell, Sims4, Valorant, Valhiem, Genshin Impact, 9 Childs Street, Phasmophobia, Don't Starve Together, It takes Two, Apex Legends, Grounded. Im always looking for new recs!

10. Anything else you want to say?

Say hello! Shoot me a friendly message! Follow and I'll follow back on any SM:) If you want to add me on discord/steam so we can game LMK I'm always looking for gaming buddies! 420Friendly!

#new to tumblr #new to blogging #new user #get to know me #10 questions #all about me #nice to meet u! #catlover #back from twitter #instagram #twitch #discord #latina #west coast #oregon #pdxoregon #twitter is dead #twitter is getting worse #twitter is a hellsite #twitter is shit #threads app #threads #say hi or something #discord chat #viral #trendingnow #trend #fyp #viral trends #barbie

[kaemaki-enthusiast]

may i have an encanto match up please<3

Hi my name is rex, i’m queer and use they/them pronouns and i’m 15. And i would prefer someone not over the age of 18 plz.

have like a caramel colored skin-tone and im 5’3 (short king). Rn i have a purple-pink short mullet and i have pretty curly hair(the ethnic popped off hehe), im pretty chubby but i have an hourglass shape, im pretty busty(im a fuckin k cup bro😭) and thicc thighs(thicc thighs save lives, sorry i’ll stop). I dress pretty alternative but i cant just choose one subculture tho, i wear a lot of heavy eye makeup. I could say i dress kinda “showy” but thats kinda what only fits me, but also who gives a fuck.

Im a libra sun, scropio moon, and gemini rising. This means that im a pretty social person and always wanna hang out with friends and just have fun, but moon in scropio makes my emotions rlly haywire and kinda boosts any sorta negative emotion, which is hard when you have chronic anxiety and major depressive disorder. Which also means i take medication for it, which i forget a lot. And because of these things i have anxiety tics, where it ranges to making noices and twitching a bit to full on hitting myself and saying random shit. But I really like making people laugh, it makes me feel helpful, but im also good at being to mother figure for people. I also like playfully bantering with people, like i love you but will full on roast you and get into fake fist-fights. I am a bit of a violent person at times but I have a punching bag and boxing gloves which help a lot. But I only get that angry when someone uses an insecurity of mine against me or is talking bad about someone i love, cause it you do that im beating your ass. I do have a bit of body insecurities mainly about my hip-dips and stomach. But because im curvy i get hit on by adults a lot and its creepy as fuck.

My hobbies include art (painting, drawing), sleeping (because i stay up mad late😭✌🏽), reading comics, Marvel and D.C superheroes, and super villains, cartoons, and anime/manga.

My favorite music genre’s are rock, alternative, emo, rap, and a little bit if indie music.

Personality: funny, sarcastic, creative, kind, inappropriate and the right times. Like im not gonna pull out a dick joke in front of your family

Im bad at describing what i look like so here:

hello!!! 1, you are very attractive, 2, i’ve decided to match you withhh

Camilo!!

HE LOVES YOUR STYLE SM!!! he makes you do his makeup instead of his sister doing it

loves that you dress “showy”

whenever you feel especially anxious, especially in a public situation, camilo will lead you away from it and have you focus on him, then list off things you see

makes sure you take your meds bc they’re important shawty

whenever your tics become more harmful (such as hitting yourself) camilo will place his hand against where your hitting so that it softens the blow, etc

camilo will playfully argue and fight with you, but he is a wimp so he’ll probably run away

will reassure that he loves everything about you

will either turn into luisa or send the real luisa + isabela to beat up whatever adults r talking abt u

sorry if this seems short, hope u like it ❤️❤️

@rexy26

#encanto #camilo madrigal #camilo encanto #encanto camilo #camilo my beloved

[sk-lumen]

Need serious advice about setting boundaries or communicating when dealing with a person who:

Is a parent

Has unhealthy communication methods -- it takes very little for them to start full-blown screaming, shouting out all your 'negative' things/mistakes/past, can continue to scream-criticise you even after you've gone silent, for WHOLE MINUTES even if you've shut up, will not accept anything that even hints at them making a mistake

You can't trust since childhood coz u made the mistake of confiding in them with a serious issue as a young teen --- mental related --- and they belittled and invalidated you, and since then pretended you never confided in them and have NO IDEA how you've been coping without them or ANYone else for years... Yeah thanks, parent, what u said back then made me think I was the one at fault and so I stopped trusting even friends coz yeah, when ur own parent doesn't give a damn, why would anyone else?

Is a master at silent treatments without explaining what EXACTLY they're punishing you for, then when theyre in the mood, will start talking to you as if they hadn't ignored you for days. Lol I'd rather be water boarded I think. Especially for all the damage this caused when I was a child

Won't openly talk about what they want, yet expects ALL FHE TIME others (in the family) to know what they want, then will complain/scream/angry for AGES about how no one cares, no one gives a damn... And when someone asks them what they want, they either say: nothing, or "you should know! Can't u see?"

Upon asking them to please talk normally, will blow a fuse, and lose it --- happened multiple times today

Literally will use me as a scape goat to unleash their frustrations upon. Even when I leave the room, I can hear them b*tch about how much of a failure I am etc. The trigger being anything that bothers them, from a phone call to something other siblings did, bla bla. I limit my time with them... But it's like, it feels impossible to have them treat me normally, without ridiculing or criticising me. I'm already a very low self esteem person... This doesn't help AT ALL

In short, refuse to tell/ask/discuss important stuff, and getting mad randomly that no one read their mind, bcoz everyone's 'old enough to have enough sense' to know what they 'should' do... Eg will not pikc up the phone when we call them from the store to ask when what the needed isn't available, so what other alternative can we get... And then when we get home, will instead blame us for being fussy and not getting the alternative, completelt skirting around the issue they didn't deign to pick up the phone... I mean, I don't get it. In the past I HAVE in fact asked them to just openly tell me what they want/expect from me to make them happy... Got passive aggressive answers like "don't you know? Are you dumb?" Bla bla

Passive aggressive to the max when they've lost it

Expect me to drop anything I'm doing and immediately cater to them, and expect me to help them in their hobbies (while simultaneously, as I learned many years ago to much heartache, not being interested or even pretending to be interested in my hobbies. The disinterest taught me very quickly how much what I wanted meant, leading to years of self-invalidation. Luckily I've learned it really is them, not me. My hobbies are valid)

Will not talk about why they're feeling angry, what causes it. Instead will blame me, who's like the golden scapegoat in our amazing family, by saying :YOU made me negative. They've said it many times now... It hurts a lot, when I'm also struggling with my own issues which I ofc can't confide in them about :)

Today I manned up -- the outburst of hatred happened again! Over a simple thing. It was NIGHTMARE and made me angry/sad/frustrated/triggered---, and so I told them to stop talking like that... Boy was that the wrong thing to say... I don't think I can accurately tell u what happened afterwards...

Usually children learn communication skills from the parents... I at least learned to recognize the unhealthy ones, and what NOT to communicate like lol. Like, other parent is even worse, believe it or not. But that's another complex situation

I'm not bashing on the parent. Lord knows I even have that much of a right huh? I hate myself eveb more when they invalidate me if I try to show how MUCH THEY HURT me after a 'communication session'. As in, heaven forbid me if I BE SILENT afterwards and DON'T wanna listen to their retardation. Nope. Even then they provoke me, rage at me, you know how sometimes enraged people hiss vitriol thru gritted teeth? Yeah, that's what they did today after I stayed silent and tried to ignore them an hour later after the 'session' when they wabted something. It's like they don't even need me to say a word and will carry on and on for minutes 🤢

I feel alone, helpless and at a loss what to do

I want to move out. Due to severe mental issues I can't even move out rn coz it scares me even more. But this has to stop. Things are only okay if I'm absolutely passive, say yes to whatever they want, kill my wants and needs, and become a perfect robot bred to cater to them (parent)

I hope you can help me out, dear

Hi darling,

It sounds like you’re in a considerably toxic environment. I'm sorry you're going through this. Know that this is not normal, nor is it how a parent/child relationship should be. In case there's any doubt, let me start by saying you deserve to be supported, respected, listened to, to have your needs met. You deserve to live in an environment that offers you all of these things.

With that being said, from the many scenarios you’ve mentioned you’ve already tried reasoning and setting boundaries, to no avail. There is only so much you can do on your own, if the other person in the equation is not meeting halfway or at all. After all, a healthy conversation involves two people, not just one.

Here's my advice, in this order:

Calmly and maturely asking the respective parent to have a serious discussion with you and to listen to what you have to say. Share how their actions and behaviour is making you feel, let them know you care, and make sure to mention several solutions for the issue as well. If this doesn’t work…

Bring up the subject of needing help from outside, such as the assistance of a specialist/therapist. Family counselling can shed a lot of light on toxic behaviours that are ingrained from childhood (both in their case and yours), on fears your parent may have, stress from their work, whatever is causing their outbursts and anger - because there is always a reason. Behind anger is sadness, and behind sadness is some need not being met, or an underlying fear, trauma, etc. This is not a justification for their behaviour, they are responsible for it; this is simply the fact of how energy dynamics work. People bottle up their frustrations, fears, etc, and let them out on those closest to them, to whom they feel superior. It’s not fair, and it’s not healthy, but it is frequently how this pattern works. If this solution doesn’t work either…

Then unfortunately, all you can do is focus on yourself. If they refuse to meet you anywhere along the road, you have to pack up your things and go your own way. Literally or metaphorically. They may be your parent and you may love them even in spite of their behaviour, but you cannot hold yourself responsible for anything they say or do; that is on them. In those cases, you have to prioritize your own mental health and wellbeing, and focus on moving out. If your (home) environment is toxic, you have to focus on first changing it. That’s vital. Only afterwards can you start healing, refinding yourself, reclaiming your self-esteem and confidence, your sense of worth. As long as you stay stuck in a toxic environment, you cannot really heal; if there is abuse of any kind (physical, mental, emotional), the causes are still there, leading to re-traumatizing.

If for whatever reason moving out is not (yet) an option, I would emphasize seeking some sort of counselling for yourself, if nothing else. You need an anchor, some sort of support that will help you along your path until you do get out.

Now, I don’t know how old you are. I am going to assume you are over 18 and of age, so only mind my advice if that is the case. (As disclaimer, I don't provide advice to minors as it's not the scope of my blog nor am I specialized/focused on that area.)

I understand moving out seems scary because it is unknown, but with that line of thought you may wait another 10 years in the same situation. Wouldn’t you wake up 10 years later already having done the hard work on moving out, finding your independence, claiming your sense of individuality and moving on from this sort of environment, this phase in your life?

Sooner is better than later, but do so with mindfulness and care over your mental health, of course. I know it’s scary. But being an adult requires some difficult decisions at times, and setting boundaries begins with choosing your wellbeing and doing what needs to be done, even if it is something uncomfortable short-term, but highly rewarding and beneficial long-term.

Hope this helps... and wishing you much luck, clarity, gentle guidance and comfort.✨

PS: Lately I've been receiving longer and longer letters in my inbox. As solution, I was thinking of having longer asks/letters redirected to my blog where there isn't any length limit, and readers can more comfortably browse both my tumblr and blog - and those requesting advice can share and receive a more in-depth response.

-Lumen

#mental health #toxic relationship #toxic environment #boundaries #parenthood #ask #tw? not sure what to tag just in case #tw: swearing #tw: mental health #tw: anxiety

[beanibunblogs]

The Mitchell’s Vrs. The Machine Self-Insert! (including my sister’s)

IM OBSESSED WITH THIS MOVIE!! It’s so good, and have really relatable characters. I relate to Katie so much. (Along with a bit of Aaron)

-This is because I’m an artist who has made weird art since I was a child, making puppets or dolls out of anything I had. For example, I always made girl dolls from sticks, cut out paper drawings, and coffee filters, as I set them on a ledge I lived by when I was about 8 years old. Along with making so many videos and films during childhood with my teddy bears, toys, any character like figure, even my own family members helped out. It was one of my biggest hobbies as a child, as I love making. I have an active imagination, which can make anything around me alive somehow. This helped me get into my drawing ability, and where I am now, continuing my active imagination creations whether it’s by animation, editing, drawing, writing, even just thinking.

- I post my art and creations on YouTube. Plus always showing it off to whoever I’m comfortable with.

- I’m like her when it comes to wanting to be a hero, and thinking of it like a movie.

- My sibling is my best friend, accept mines older than me. (Plus I’m kinda a outsider so I don’t really hang-out out of my house with other kids my age.)

- I believe we have a similar fashion style, as I wear jackets, tshirts, and more. It’s not 100% though because I just wear whatever is comfortable, plus what I want to change into. Plus, me and Katie like wearing our hair up, and we both wear glasses.

- We both lgbtq+, accept I’m bisexual. And tend to have crushes on people with similar interests and understanding to who we are with no judgement.

- We love wearing pins, accept I don’t do much anymore and just keep them at home cause I lost 4 of them. (Don’t worry I found them all in the end)

- And best of all.... we don’t have good relationships with our dad. Ik here is resolved but mines not, as he doesn’t really know me and has other things he’d rather focus on than me. Plus.. he’s never home and can’t come home rn for reasons I shouldn’t share.

*Why do I relate to Aaron?

- love talking about my interests

- Keeps a happy mood, and tries to stay positive.

- Obsessed and great relationship with mom.

- Try to resolve issues in relationships between family when it occurs.

- etc.

Long story short, I love this movie, the robots, how much I relate to it, how cute it is, and adding ,e and my sister into the movie scene of Aaron and Katie, and drawing the art style of it, just everything. 💗

TOTALLY RECOMMEND!!! 💞💞

#art #oof #artists on tumblr #oc #drawing #digital art #persona #the mitchells vs the machines #mitchellsvrsmachines #movie #selfinsert #pride month #bisexual #robot

[uncloseted]

How do I shut down a crush I have? I am not trying to date rn because I'm trying to get into therapy and do adult stuff and it's all so overwhelming I really don't feel ready for a relationship 😩 BUT there's this cute guy in my class and honestly it's not that big of a deal bc we don't even really talk but I find myself thinking of him and wanting to see him more and I want it to stop because it's setting me off track for what I'm actually trying to focus on, and plus I feel like I'm getting ahead of myself because I don't even know the guy and I'm already wearing these rose colored glasses for him and he could be like a serial killer for all I know lmao.

Anonymous asked:

what is the best way to stop liking someone? they lie to me all the time i cant take this anymore

I'm pretty sure these are two different people but they're asking the same question so I thought I'd answer them together.

The biggest thing that will help you get over a crush is just time. Feelings, even negative ones, are temporary. Crushes usually go away on their own after a few weeks or months, so if you can wait it out, the feelings are likely to resolve on their own. Try to remember all of the other people you've crushed on- can you remember their names? Can you remember why you liked them? This person that you're crushing on now is going to be like that someday.

In the meantime, there are some things you can try to speed the process up:

Be realistic about your crush. Crushes often involve romanticizing a person you don't know very well and focusing on their positive traits. Try to notice their negative traits as well. If they have any key values that contrast with yours (for example, you're vegan and they eat meat), remind yourself of those differences in values whenever you see them. Focus your mind on all of the (realistic) negative emotional consequences that could result from being with this person.

Keep yourself distracted. Meet new people in a non-romantic context, engage in hobbies, exercise, spend time in nature, and focus on your overall wellbeing (like getting enough sleep, practicing positive self-talk, or doing something special for yourself). Trying something new can be especially helpful, since it requires a lot of your attention and it's exciting. Do things you can only do by yourself to remind you how great it can be to be alone.

Talk about it with a friend or family member or write about your feelings in a journal. Talk about what you see in this person, how much you're hurting, what you imagine your relationship would be like, why your relationship won't work out, what your priorities are, if there are qualities in your crush that you wish you had yourself... get everything out, and then commit to letting it go.

Unfollow them on social media. Don't stalk them online, but if you do, remember that their social media posts are edited, idealized versions of who they are- not a real representation of what they're like on a day to day basis. Try to notice the ways in which that version of them is different than who they are in real life.

Try to limit your contact with your crush in general- for example, sit on the other side of the classroom, or avoid working with him on projects. But don't make a huge effort to never see them- research shows that can have the opposite effect, where the person becomes more exciting because they're "forbidden".

#relationships #relationship #relationship advice #love advice #crush #crush advice

[somewhat-crazy]

I would like to ask for a mash-up.

What I look like:

I have light-brown hair, that go about five inches over my chest, a bang and heaven-blue eyes.

Other facial features:

Thinn, frameless glasses, kept in the colors of black and white.

Body size:

As much as I hate to admit it, I am what people might call "fluffy".

Gender:

Female

Age:

21 years old. (Almost.)

Sexuality:

Straight with a thing for intelligence.

Personality type:

INFJ-T

Favorite music:

Classical music.

Favorite color/contrast:

White and blue.

Favorite animals:

My top three:

1. Spiders

2. Praying mantis

3. Dragonflies

Hobbys:

1. Drawing

2. Writing

3. Crafting

4. Occasionally sewing

5. Gardening

6. Singing

7. Acting

8. Studying

9. Hiking/Camping

10. Taking care of animals/Do researnch on animals in order to learn more about them

Things I like:

* Spiders/Bugs (No. Spiders are not bugs.), Peace and quiet, Intelligent people, Languages, Things being in order and going according to plan, Animals in general, The forest, Explaining things, that are exciting to me, science like physics, chemistry and biology, psychology, sociology, anatomy, music,

Things I dislike:

Rude people, loud people, dumb people, stress and fighting, techno music and any kind of rap music, my pencil order being messed up, chaos, Boredom

Things I hate with a burning passion:

Demons, anything hell-related, demons, My work being messed up, demons, being ripped out of my train of thought, demons, Misplacing my glasses, demons, being late, demons, people being late, demons, people, who torture animals, especially spiders, demons, fould soul-scents, demons, People who demand me to instantly open up to them, did I already mention that I hate demons with a burning passion ???

Backstory:

I had a rough and rather traumatizing childhood, which caused 14 years of full-blown panic attacks.

Luckily I got out of them by now, even if there are still a few triggers, where I have to be careful

.

Strengths:

1. I have a good eye for the minimal details.

2. I can focus on a task on hand for hours.

3. I am able to be independent.

4. I am intelligent/Creative.

5. I am determined to get something, if I want it.

6. I have no tendencies to get physically harmful and I have no tendency to get angry, since doing that, and also the emotion in itself is a waste of time and energy, that could be used to be productive.

7. I am always thirty for knowledge and I am a quick learner.

Flaws:

1. I take far too much time to open up.

2. I am often cold and distant.

3. I am a perfectionist

4. I am very mistrusting or shy.

5. I tend to not care for my "friendships" or about people in general, because I see people's flaws apon the first look or at least tend to do so.

6. I tend to take some things too personal or be overly sensitive sometimes.

7. I have insanely high expectations towards others and I build up my walls so high, that barely anyone can claim over them.

Personality:

How others describe me :

1. Polite.

2. Overly quiet.

3. Slow to anger.

4. Intelligent/Smartass/Nerd/Geek.

5. Patient.

6: Sweet.

7. Caring.

8. Different from the rest.

How I see myself:

1. You may laugh or say, that I am crazy, but due to something the bible calls "gift of telling the spirits apart" (Yes, I am a christian and I love it.) and my natural empathic, observing nature of an INFJ-personality type, I am able to often know things about people that I am not supposed to know and reading people is the most easiest thing for me to do. I may not necessarily say, that I have feelings of myself, but I am able to copy the feelings and expressions of others quite well.

For those, who know black butler, I know very well, what it means, if Sebastian is taling about the scent of souls, since I am capable of smelling it too.

2. I am a mix of the empath-INFJ and the sigma-INFJ.

Anger me and I may become a so called "dark empath", if you keep it up long enough.

(I've made one of my bullies cry her eyes out by just using a few simple words.)

3. I like to keep to myself and have plenty of alone-time, due to me being naturally introverted and quite preserved.

4. I am very analytical and tend to analyze just about everything that comes in front of my nose or in my sight. That is also caused by trust issues and a few traumatizing events in my past.

5. If a person earns the right of being let inside by me/the right to call themselves my friend, I tend to become warmer step by step/become rather caring and protective of that person.

That person gets my full attention and I dedicate a lot of time to them.

If they should hurt me though, I doorslam them and they never will get close to me again.

Since those things, I've written down here are very personal and usually very private information about myself, I have allowed myself to stay anonymous to grand myself a little bit to safety.

Thank you in advance for writing this.

Goodbye.

okay but can i just say that you sound really cool 🥺 also rq are closed rn but i really wanted to write this, so i did. since you gave me a lot of info, i was able to write this a bit longer ^^ at first i really thought you matched with EJ until i got to the demon part,,, then it was like oh well we can find someone else haha. also (ik this is a super long note), but you're the only person i've interacted thus far on my blog that's a christian, so hey! im not baptized or anything, but i try to keep my blog family and christian-friendly :3 since i wasn't sure what denomination you're from, i didn't talk about religion too much

I match you with: Helen / The Bloody Painter

(under the cut bc its pretty long)

im honestly really really intimidated by the two of you

you're both very private/reserved people, so most of the time you two spend time in more quiet and calm places

some people might not even know that you two were dating until you said it explicitly because you just never mentioned it before

he absolutely loves how much he understands you because of how similar the two of you are

it took quite a while for the two of you to warm up to each other, but once you did, it was pretty smooth sailing

he doesn't mind your religion whatsoever; he was raised Catholic and is loosely Christian, although isn't baptized and doesn't go to church much

he absolutely loves doing any sort of work with you; you guys work well together and get a lot done in short periods of time

honestly just finds you fascinating. the way you carry yourself, your preferences and hobbies, your creativity and diligence; every single day he learns something new about you, and he loves it

you two learn a lot together; many long nights of reading or pouring over new information, analyzing data and researching things

although he might never say it out loud, he actually thinks that you're really cute; he loves your eyes and gets lost in them a lot. if you ever call yourself "fluffy", get ready for a 20-minute lecture about how you're beautiful and perfect the way you are and that's that

loooves drawing with you and gets you a lot of art-related gifts (although he doesn't mind doing any of your other hobbies with you ^^)

he also likes insects/bugs and spiders, and is happy that finally he found someone else who isn't grossed out by them he actually has a pet tarantula named Ekii 👀 so hopefully you like tarantulas haha

won't ever force you to open up about things, especially if it's about your past or anything triggering for you

you'll probably have to get used to hanging out with Puppeteer a lot as well-- I promise, he sort of gets better the more you get to know him (emphasis on 'sort of')

he draws you a lot and would be really touched (although he wouldn't say so) if you did the same to him

he's really interested in your empath abilities and how that works. asks a lot of clarifying questions and soaks all of the new information up

since Helen is also a bit of a perfectionist, he understands and tries to get you to be a bit easier on yourself will literally force you to stop working and go take a walk if he needs to

speaking of which-- nature walks, hikes, camping, he loves the forest too!!

although he listens to a lot of different styles, he's glad that at least once person enjoys classical music as well; he likes turning it on quietly in the background while he works :3

to make a long story short; he absolutely loves and adores you, especially since he can understand you so well although he's not an empath, he understands your emotions very well and would do anything for you ^^ <3

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