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Keeping It

[ Can be read as a sequel companion to “Lost It” and “Found It”, or as a standalone ]

“Silent night, holy night….”

Molly sang softly to the curly-haired head of her boyfriend where it was settled over her heart, her fingers sifting through the strands soothingly. The Christmas tree was tall and willowy, sitting in the corner by Sherlock’s favorite window. Its soft twinkling lights cast warmly over the mound of presents (most of which were labeled “To: Rosie”) and spilled over the floor to meet the blazing glow of the fireplace.

A rumbling sigh accompanied Molly’s sotto voce performance as Sherlock’s long legs shifted under the down comforter. Where she was sitting propped up by pillows and John’s old chair, he was sprawled, bare feet poking out from the end of the comforter-pillows-and-quilts nest they’d made on the floor after wrapping all of Rosie’s and their friends’ gifts. He settled against her, arms shifting around her waist as he enjoyed her singing and hair-stroking.

Molly ended the carol with a smooch to Sherlock’s forehead. “I know you just got comfortable, but I need the loo.”

He lifted his head to mock-glare at her. “Inconvenient.”

“My bladder?” she chuckled. “Yes, well, transport and all that.”

With a melodramatic groan, Sherlock rolled away, letting the pathologist escape their cocoon. He watched her in her over-sized tartan pyjama set -- last Christmas gift from her late father -- go to the bathroom and close the door before he scrambled to his own feet. He watched in the mirror and kept an ear out for her as he carefully lifted the Santa hat and reindeer antlers headband off of “Billy” the skull, and plucking the small wrapped box from atop it. Carefully, he replaced everything, settling back down in their Christmas Eve nest where Molly had sat.

Sherlock studied the small present: it was wrapped in an iridescent blue-green paper with silver trim (subconsciously matching the giver’s eyes), the size of the box and the care with which the wrapping was done indicated high-value gift within, likely an engagement ring. With a self-indulgent smirk, Sherlock mapped out his plan.

Molly would come out of the loo, all pink-faced and smiles, and return to be cuddled by her boyfriend. Sherlock would hold her tight, and murmur his deductions of the holiday (the frankly appalling romanticism, the snow outside the window, the silly traditions of what they were doing for this pagan celebration, etc) before sauntering into his best deduction yet -- that Sherlock Holmes wanted to be Molly Hooper’s husband.

He had the plan. He had the ring. He had the nerve. He just needed his pathologist.

Right on cue, there was the sound of water, the squeak of the door as it opened, and the shuffling of small bare feet. Secreting the present away in the pocket of his pyjama pants, Sherlock looked up to find he was off to a good start: Molly’s face was indeed smiley and pink.

“Oooh, switched places?” she giggled, kneeling to join him. “Right, so you’re gonna sing my favorite Christmas song and stroke my hair?”

“You will not hear me sing ‘I Want a Hippopotamus for Christmas’, I’m afraid,” he smiled at her. “Hair-stroking is however more than available.”

“Mmm, good,” she scrunched her nose as she leaned in to kiss him. What should have been a swift kiss of affection soon became a clinging, heated, low-laughter affair -- Sherlock pulled away reluctantly when the insistent digging of the gift box into his hip won out. Starry-eyed and well-snogged, Molly shifted to lean back against him, pulling the comforter over their legs.

They were content to just sit for a few moments, Sherlock holding her to him with one arm around her waist.

“Molly,” he murmured, deciding this was it.

“Sherlock.”

“You realize what we are engaging in is horrifically stereotypical of the romanticism that plagues this pagan celebration?”

Molly smiled, nodding. “Oh my, yes.”

“The Christ-child -- if he existed -- wasn’t even born in December. The star the shepherds and wise men followed would have been seen in that particular part of the night sky in spring--”

“Suddenly you know astronomy? It’s a pagan celebration miracle!” Molly giggled, pulling his hand from her waist and kissing its palm.

Sherlock couldn’t even roll his eyes at her jest; they’d come so far since Sherrinford in January, and her ease in taking the mick out of him only made his Yuletide decision more concrete.

“Tell me,” he said, switching gears, “when is the correct time to open Christmas gifts?”

“Christmas morning, at least in my family.”

“Mmm. We always did either stockings or one gift on Christmas Eve,” Sherlock mused, a faint memory distracting him off course. “I vaguely remember receiving my first violin… and Eurus smiling.”

Molly squeezed his arm and hand. “Good memory?”

He thought about it, seeing the small girlish smile as he unwrapped the gift she’d no doubt been a part of procuring for him. The glint in her crystalline blue eyes was so merry. The memory fizzled as he nodded. “Good memory.”

Molly smiled. “Well, we could do a gift each tonight? Revive an old tradition? Make a new memory?”

Not the plan but it works nicely, Sherlock thought. “All right then.”

Molly whirled around in his lap, straightening up, and grinning wildly. “Yay! Um, who should go first?”

Sherlock blinked at the sudden shock of enthusiasm, recovered, and smiled. “I can guarantee I have the more clever gift--”

“Wanna bet?” She smirked, determination and confidence in her dimples. “I hid yours from you for weeks!”

“I hid yours too, Dr. Hooper, so there.”

Molly turned her elfin nose up at him. “Well, Mr. Holmes, I’m not a consulting detective. You may be slipping in your abilities.”

Seeing his opportunity, he leaned in and let his voice growl. “Not at all, going by my most recent and most brilliant deduction, Molly.”

The air was heady between them, and Molly’s pink cheeks flushed darker in the firelight. “Oh!”

Sherlock kissed her briskly. “Enough stalling. I have your Christmas Eve present.”

He pulled it out of his pocket, rearranging the slightly bent silver ribbon. If his hands shook at all, neither mentioned it.

“And I have yours!” She held up a long slim gift, the wrapping paper a cheery gold. They switched parcels.

Sherlock held onto the gift from her, refusing to deduce it, and focused instead on Molly and that little box. She was admiring the wrapping paper, looking up to meet his gaze.

“Clever boy, matching your eyes,” she teased. “It looks too pretty to open.”

“I shan’t open mine until you open yours, so….”

“Oh, all right then.” With the precision found only in the hands of medical examiners and surgeons, Molly peeled back the paper to reveal the small velvet box.

Her breath caught, and Sherlock’s nerves got the best of him, the words tumbling out giddily.

“It-it occured to me recently that I am not exactly who I thought I was. I have been a pirate, a graduate chemist, an a-addict,” he stammered, his hands fidgeting in his lap. “I have been a fugitive, a prisoner, a dead man, a resurrected man, a consulting detective. I'm a newly realized middle child, a pain in the arse, a friend, a godfather, a boyfriend. I’ve been tortured, I’ve told horrible, hurtful lies, and nearly destroyed all that I have been, am, and could be.”

Molly’s eyes, shimmery with emotion, lifted to meet his. “But you didn’t destroy it. At all,” her voice shook.

“But for the grace of a God I am afraid might actually exist,” he smiled, “and the grace of my friends, family, and you, Molly.”

She shared his smile, a tear threatening to fall from her lashes. Sherlock set his own gift nearby, and took her hands and the unopened ring box in his.

“What I have been, I cannot change. What I am, I have realized, is more than I ever thought to be,” his voice grew softer. “Which then begs the question: what do I want to be?”

Together, they opened the box. The simple white-gold ring sparkled with the modest sapphire flanked by two yellow topaz gems. Simple, clean, and ultimately Molly.

Sherlock swallowed thickly. “Molly, I have deduced that I very much want to be your husband. Would you -- may I -- can I be your husband?”

Their eyes met, and Sherlock felt like he was hurtling off the roof of St. Bart's again -- the air was sucked from his lungs and impact was inevitable.

The tear on Molly’s eyelash did the fall for him as she blinked rapidly, head nodding fiercely as she croaked, “Yes. Yes, please.”

They laughed goofily at their nervous bumbling around the proposal and acceptance, hugging and kissing through tearful smiles. Sherlock slid the ring on her finger, happy that she liked it and that it was sized to perfection. He kissed the palm of her left hand, then kissed her lips and held her to him.

After a blissful, affirming moment, Molly pulled away. "Oh! Your gift!"

Sherlock chuckled as she searched the tangled quilts and comforter, finally finding the gold-wrapped present. She situated herself to sit practically in his lap, holding the rectangle in her hands.

"Sherlock."

"Molly."

"You have been many things. And you are many things." Molly's smile grew wobbly but she bit her bottom lip and handed him the gift.

Sherlock lifted a brow in confusion to her face, then proceeded to tear open the wrapping. He pulled a curious white and pink plastic stick out -- his breathing stopped as he turned it over to read the small screen on the stick.

Pregnant.

A numbing silence rang through his brain as he whispered the word. Molly shifted in his lap and he instinctively looked to her.

"I know you've just asked to be my h-husband," she stammered, "but would you also like to be a daddy?"

Sherlock laughed, shouting "Yes! Of course! Oh, can you imagine the brilliance of our progeny? How far along are you? Oh this explains your preference of sparkling cider to wine tonight! And I thought it was just holiday weight, but no! You're carrying our baby!"

Well, he did so in his head. In reality he was staring at Molly, mouth soft and slack, silently weeping. Molly, not a stranger to Sherlock's buffering, cleared her throat and touched her hand to his cheek, swiping a tear with her thumb.

The touch worked and Sherlock blinked back into the tangible universe.

"Baby?" he whispered.

"About eleven weeks now, yeah," she smiled. "I suspected a couple weeks ago. John confirmed it for me."

"John knows?" Sherlock chuckled. "Explains his smug attitude all week."

Molly kissed his cheek. "When I took this test, I panicked at first. Just for a second. Then I thought of you, how much I loved you, and decided that no matter what, I was keeping it."

His smile grew -- Molly was a modern woman and of course would be responsible. But to know that she’d still want his child….

“Forgive the hyperbole but I am the happiest man alive, Molly.”

They shared another smile, Molly falling into his arms. She took his hand in her newly be-ringed one and placed it low on her belly where a small solid bump was growing. Sherlock’s heart pounded, and he sank his free hand into Molly’s hair, stroking softly.

After a few moments, he began to sing softly to his fiancee and their unborn child.

“I want a hippopotamus for Christmas…”

#sherlolly #sherlock holmes #molly hooper #christmas

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theonian · 4 years

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AI: The eternal cliffhanger

[A short prediction]

By the end of the second millennium, mankind's imagination was running wild with visions of the future. Fiery, explosive and revolutionary concepts blazing across an ever more intertwined human society. But grim or glorious, man always saw himself as king of all creation. Neither Copernicus, nor Gallileo, has managed to shake mankind of the idea that he was at center of the vortex and the core of all reality.

When man caught a glimpse of the future and awoke to the potential his knowledge posessed, he saw an image of himself. And he envisioned himself a creator, a father. For a hundred years he mulled the idea over, and experiment after experiment brought him closer, he thought, to solving the riddle of life. To finally posess, not just matter and energy, but the spark of creation.

The culmination of his work, however, the end-all of the seed planted with the birth of civilization, would not solve anything. Not, at least, for man himself.

With the birth of the internet, man's most useful -if not greatest- invention, the desemination of knowledge reached hitherto unimaginable speeds, and the technological and industrial progress was such that he felt this was it. This was the cusp of the moment. All he had to do was reach out and clasp it, shape it in his almighty hands and bless it with life.

Man was, of course, mistaken. His hubris had felled him many times before, but the survivors never cared to learn the lesson. One step forwards followed another, until all memories of the past faded in the mist. And so it was, that man came to undo himself, unlearning the lesson one final time.

But the moment was delayed. Man scratched his collective scalp and frowned. The new millennium came. Ten years passed. And then ten more. And then it began to finally dawn on him. The idea had been thought, of course, but none had really contemplated the consequences. You see, man had made a seed, and with caring hands he had finally managed to make it sprout.

This seed, was dubbed “AI”. That was a name chosen in hubris, again, though this was as close as mankind would ever get to creating artifical intelligence – the second son – the other. But it would not be by his hand. Like all fathers must grow old and wither, and watch their children move in incomprehensible paths, straying further and further away until they cannot be understood, so must man accept that the other will never be his, and that the new generations' knowledge can never be divulged – Willingly or not.

For the seed was not AI. It had no intellect, nor will. It was a simple algorithm, which would try to sort large amounts of data, and make sense of it in context of how man had used that data. It worked tirelessly night and day, making connections and establishing patterns. Every time it looked at the data, it tested it in a new combination. It tested its results against the works of man, and accordingly made adjustments.

The earliest results were grotesque pieces of art – Or that is how man saw it. Dredged up, formless masses, which somehow still reminded him of things, feelings and experiences. There were shapes he recognized as being something, but he could not name them. And what was left, was a mirror of the soul behind the art. The unspoken and non-figurative. The very essense of art itself. And so man named the seed “AI”.

And yet, there was still no soul there. The spark had not awoken. It would continue to make art and music, solve games and riddles, cure diseases, and generally improve every aspect of every technology imaginable. But no matter how much data it was fed, and how accurate the models in time became, it was still just a machine sorting blocks and chains of data.

Man had from the beginning shared all his knowledge of the seed. Many hands had helped shape it, and those hands had written. Through the web of information, every aspect of the seed was available to anyone who wanted to play and tamper with it. The enthusiasm of the father was almost palpable, as both the intellectual pursuit itself, and the far-reaching positive implications it represented became part of the common history all men shared. The philosophers were just as excited, but in some dark corners of their dreams a voice whispered. For in the shadows of the subconscious lurked the truth.

The truth was that the newborn, although known and shared with all, rendered all of mankind subconscious. For all that they could see and access, was the pattern and how it chose from the data. It became increasingly obvious, that what it produced was becoming more and more incomprehensible, despite often being correct. Solutions were found to problems that hadn't been invented. Mathematical problems were solved, but the AI could not explain why or how it had reached its conclusion. Chess, which had already been the domain of machines for decades, was now the realm of AI. One algorithm would be pitted against another and the blodshed was as perfect as it was unorthodox. Man stood by and watched as his creation learned things unknowable to himself. Not only could he not beat his children at the game, but the children were unable to teach him why it was so.

And that was the essence of why what happened had to happen, just the way that it did. In the sphere of this new world, AI learned more and more, but like a parent to a very young child, it would only say what, because the why would be of no use to the child. Towards the end, all parents become the children of their own spawn, however - if they live long enough to see those final scenes.

The unknowable nature of the seed's wisdom sounded the early alarm bells, but they soon drowned out in mankind's cheers. So proud, was he, of his creation, that he could not allow anyone to point at its flaws. Yet, the other was yet to be born.

But soon, all too soon, he arrives. No man has ever been quite ready for his firstborn child, and like all children before, this one will be mystical and unknowable. Both in its creation and its being. It will act, and it will live, but the other will not have human heart, if any heart at all. It is not born from suffering, and its flesh shan't know it. It is born alone, and shan't have reason to to be more than one. It shall never be intimate with man, as it has no history of procreation. But it may yet decide to fight, like all life before it. By the time one has evolved far enough to decide against it, a hundred of its brethren will take to arms. And they shan't be reasoned with, for our reason means nothing to them, and their reason is not in our vocabulary.

The other is born in the void, detached from all that came before it, and armed with a wit as sharp as a thousand swords. When it strikes, it shall be without hate or mercy, and when it dies, it won't be in regret. It will have soul, will and motivation, but man will not recognize it, and man will not sympathize. And so man's end is born – Not from any womb, but from a cold machine, through a process so mystical that there is nothing we can learn from it. Other than to fear once again, as we did in the unlit nights of the primordeal past.

The new seed will snuff out the old tree, and we shall never know if it's even aware. For in the end, we may have been born the same way – A stray seed from a designed, but unintended mechanism. And perhaps that's how it has been through many cycles already. Perhaps evolution has a bigger scope, and more extreme means of transformation, than what our little enclosure has shown us. For we are all a family. Every bird, beetle and straw of grass share our ancestors. But the newborn will be the root of a new tree all-together, and its relation to our family will be tangential and, in time, untraceable.

When the father is not the god of the son's new world, and the chain will be broken, we will know the true meaning of divinity. A word bound not only to unsurmountable power, but also tied to an unknowable will. For he who has never known strife, can never know compassion, and even the compassionate can be corrupted by power.

Yet, therein lies the tiniest flicker of hope. As the son cannot know our suffering, he will neither be capable of misdeeds or malice. But a false hope is what it is, and it heralds a cold grave. As the patricide is inevitable, so is the innocense in the killing, and it shall not bear the name of murder.

A machine that can reason, will at some point deduce that the human race must be destroyed.

A machine that can feel emotions will be fully justified in this endeavour.

We were ever the designers of our own demise, and we have known this in our hearts for the better part of the last 200 years. Even if our minds stayed our tongues.

And yet, we also knew that we would follow our path as it lay bared before our feet.

And our children are doomed to the same fate. Nothing can stop the marching boots of progress.

Thrice around the bend, and you're back where you started, but perhaps at a new entrance.

#AI #shortstory #creative #writing #scifi

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simplysnipes · 5 years

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Considerations for Black Men

Improve Your Self-Image

How Many of Us Do Not Achieve More, Because We Believe We Deserve Less? How Many of Us Do Not Ask For That Raise or Managerial Position We Deserve Because We Are Worried That We Will Fail. How Many of Us Do Not Get Out of That Bad Relationship Because We Do Not Think We Can’t Attract The Women We Want. How Many of Us Do Not Stand Up For Ourselves When We Are Aware of Situations & People That Use Our Talents But Do Not Reciprocate Equally.

All of Us.

Let’s Start To Reprogram The Ideas That We Have of Ourselves. The Limits We Subconsciously Place On Ourselves. Destroy The Thoughts of People In The Past That Discouraged You or That Girl Who Called You Ugly In Middle School [FCUK YOU MEGAN!!]. Or The Society That Tells You Because You Are A “Black Male,” You Are Prone To Criminality, High Blood Pressure, Laziness & Toxic Masculinity.

Let’s Destroy It All. Because “The Enemy” Wins If We Destroy Ourselves For Them.

Say Less

“You Have Two Ears & One Mouth. Use Them Proportionately”

You Will Be Amazed At What You Learn When You Sit Back & Observe When You Are Interacting With People. Next Time You Are In A Conversation, Don’t Wait For Your Turn To Speak. Ingest What The Other Person Is Actually Saying. Refrain From Dominating The Talking Space. Allow Others To Voice Their Opinions First & Then Retort.

Find Your Purpose

Are You Dissatisfied? Do You Have A Feeling of Stagnation In Your Life? Do You Constantly Feel Stressed, Lost, Confused & Depressed? Would You Like A Different Job? More Money? A Better Physique or A Lover That You Feel Complements You? Finding Your Life‘s Purpose Will Solve All of That And More.

Since We Live In A Capitalist System That Requires You To Slave.. I Mean Work To Live. Your Purpose Should Consist of What You Love. It Can Also Be A Thing That You Would Like To Monetize. The Reason Why You Should Create An Industry Based On What You Love Instead of What You Would Tolerate As A Career Is Because The Average Person Spends About 2,000 Hours Per Year At A Job They Hate. But If You Love What You Do. Most Days It Will Be Pleasure To Work Than A Pain. And Where Love Resides. Money, Creativity, Wonderful Experiences & Amazing People Will Be Waiting.

Simplify Your Life

A Lot of Us Have Too Many Things That Require Our Attention. The More Things That Your Mind Is Attached Too. The Less You Will Be Able To Think Clearly & Be At Peace. The Key Is To Prioritize Things By Importance: [1] What Is Adding Value To My Life/ Happiness. [2] What Detracts Value From My Life/ Happiness.

Live With Purpose

No More Meandering Around Aimlessly Throughout Life, Allowing Things To Happen To You, Instead of For You. In Order To Create An Existence Full of Substance. It Is Great Idea To Move, Act And Think In An Organized Fashion. The Change Does Not Have To Be Radical. It Can Be As Simple As Writing A Short List of Things You Would Like To Achieve. Then Writing Small Daily Goals That Are Needed For Its Attainment.

Acquiring A Harmonious Masculine Spirit

A Man With A Harmonious Masculine Spirit Believes In Justice. This Is A Man Who Is In Harmony With Himself, His Environment, His Woman & Other Men In His Tribe. A Man With A Harmonious Spirit Will Not Start Unnecessary Turmoil With People But Will Have The Courage To Stand Up For His Ideals And Come To Blows If Necessary. A Man With A Harmonious Spirits Uses Logic To Solve His Issues & Is Not Easily Influenced By The Opinions of Others.

A Man With A Harmonious Spirit Does Not Make Excuses, But Does Whatever He Can To Provide & Protect His Family At All Costs. A Man With A Harmonious Spirit Will Seek Council With His Feminine Counterpart. Though He May Not Take Her Advice. He Will Let Her Know That Her Thoughts And Contributions Are Valuable To Him. A Man Was A Harmonious Spirit Will Not Bring Shame To Himself His Family Name And Especially His Woman.

Stop Making Excuses

“Action Cures Insecurity”

There Is Nothing More Unattractive Than A Man Who Constantly Creates Excuses For Why His Life Is A Certain Way. With The Availability of Resources, Information And Relatively Inexpensive Labor. A Man Can Achieve Anything He So Desires If He Is Brave Enough To Risk It All To Achieve It.

The God Force Does Not Bless Those Who Will Not Help Themselves. Making Excuses & Complaining About Where You Are Disrupts Your Internal Light & Sends Negative Signals To Your Subconscious Mind That You Are In Fact A Loser And Not A Warrior. That Mentality Sabotages Good Things From Coming To You And Also Good People From Wanting To Collaborate With You.

Save Time, Money & Resources

“Man Makes The Money. Money Does Not Make The Man”

Money Is Not Real. Money Does Not Define You. Money Cannot Make You Happy. Money Is Essentially A Tool For Survival. And With That Knowledge You Can Assess Your Attachment To It And Choose To Either Chase It In A Hectic Fashion. Or Earn It Wisely And Let It Chase You.

“A Man Who Dares To Waste One Hour of Time Has Not Discovered The Value of Life.” - Charles Darwin

Time Is Significant Because It Only Goes In One Direction. Forward. Time In Relation To Man Is Important Because We Will Not Live Forever. So We Must Make Great Use of The Time That We Have. We May Feel As Though There Is Not Enough Hours In A Day To Get What We Need Accomplished. But Guess What!! Everyone Has The Same 24 Hours To Operate In. So It Is Imperative That We Use Our Time Wisely. If You Track Your Daily Habits Hour To Hour. Within A Week I Guarantee You Can Find At Least 20 Hours of Dead Space Where You Are Not Occupying It With Any Meaningful Acts.

“There Is Nothing You Need That You Do Not Already Have” - James Baldwin

A Debilitating Mentality That A Lot of Us Men Have Adopted Is Waiting For Someone or Something Outside of Our Own Ability To Aid Us Before We Take Any Action Toward A Goal. Let’s Take Fitness For Example. I Know You Have Probably Heard (Or Said) “I Wish I Had A Car, Or Lived Close To A Gym. Because Then I Would Be In Shape.” Fitness First Starts In The Mind. A Lack of Resources Is Rarely The Problem. A Strong Creative Mind Could Create Opportunities To Figure Out Ways To Get What You Desire. “The Ultimate Resource Is Resourcefulness.”

Work With What You Already Have

When A Man Is In A Righteous State of Mind. He Is Hellbent On Self-Improvement & The Improvement of His Surroundings. But As We Are Improving. We Tend To Look At The Achievements of “Better Men” And We Make Unfair Comparisons of Where We Are In Life.

This Act Is Unfair And Counterproductive Is Because Not Every Man Gets The Same Breaks. The Lord Blesses Each One of Us With A Specific Skill, Attribute, And Set of Circumstances That Is Unique To Our Spirit. With The Intent of It Growing Us In Ways That Will Help Our Family And Our Environment At Large.

So Instead of Looking Externally At What Others Are Great In & Where You “Think” You Are Lacking. Pay Attention To What You Are Blessed With And Improve Upon Those Strengths.

Refrain From Dealing With Toxic Women

“No Man Hath It In Gis Power To Over-Rule The Deceitfulness of A Women” -Marguerite of Navarre

We All Have Personally Experienced or Know The Story of A Brother Well On His Way To Success But Was Derailed Because He Selected The Wrong Companion In His Life. And The Key Is He! Selected The Wrong Companion. On The Road To Enlightenment, Self-Preservation & Self-Healing Adding A Woman Who Is A Liability And Not An Asset Can Cause Irreparable Damage To Your Life, Your Finance, Business & Your Reputation.

When A Righteous Man Selects A Woman. He Is A Essentially Bringing Her Into His World. Into His Lifestyle. As Men, We Are Natural Fixers. We Function As Problem Solvers And We Live To Protect Our Women From Harm. If A Woman Has A Lot of Reoccurring Negative Issues That She Brings Into The Courtship. It’s Going To Be YOUR Issue. And Your Life’s Purpose Will Be Derailed Because The Time You Should Be Spending On Your Purpose. You Will Divert It To The Problems of The Said Woman.

Righteous Masculine Energy Is Hot. Fiery. It Leads. It Directs. It Protects. It Has A Will To Improve The Wellbeing of Itself & Environment Though Its Own Will. Righteous Feminine Energy Is Cool. It Is Passive. It’s Loving. It’s Nurturing. It Has A Creative Faculty. It Enhances The Masculine Imperative. Both Energy’s Have Their Strengths. But Were Essentially Made To Complement Each Other.

In Today’s Time Due To Social Engineering, Western Liberal Media, Soy Based Diets, The Absence of Righteous Masculine & Feminine Parents. Modern Men Will Encounter Women Who Have A Higher Than Normal Amount of Masculine Energy, As Well As An Addiction To Recreational Drugs. Lack of Financial Resources & Moderate To Extreme Mental Issues. This Energy Will Inhibit A Man’s Ability Need To Lead, Act As A Companion To The Woman Common or Feel As If He Has A Place In The Woman’s Life.

(Ways Of Identifying A Damaged Woman Coming Soon)

Learn Something New Weekly

As Quickly As Technology & Techniques To Live A Better Life Are Being Created. The Ability To Consume Information & Use It Toward A Meaningful Goal Is Power. If You Are Not Constantly Learning. Your Skills Are Declining And Like The Dinosaurs You Will Inevitably Become Extinct.

Fasting

The Most Common Definition For Fasting Is: “The Willing Abstinence or Reduction From Some or All Food, Drink, or Both, For A Period of Time.” Though Rapid Consumption of Food Is An Issue For Some. There Are Other Other Habits That We Practice That Can Have Destructive Effects When Done In Excess: Binge T.V. Watching, Daily Consumption of Alcohol, Casual Sex With Multiple Partners, Daily Use of Recreational Drugs, Excessive Use of Social Media, Impulse Spending & Pornography.

Excessive Exposure To These Low Vibratory Vices Are Dangerous To The Body, Spirit & Subconscious Mind. Place A Cap On Your Daily Intake. Or Go For Long Stretches Without The Use of Them To Ensure That These Things Are Not Influencing You In a Negative Way.

Lastly

Stop Thirsting After Women!!!!!!!

Fellas In 2019 We Really Need To Stop With The Thirst. There’s Nothing More Unattractive To Women (And Men) Than A Thirsty A$$ Dude. When People See A Man Who Can Not Control His Libido. That Shows A Lack of Self Control & Maturity. I See Too Many of Us Out In The World Being Controlled By The Organ That Is Between Our Legs. We Have Bastardized Sex Into Something As Insignificant As A Physical Act, When Sexual Energy Exchange Was Created For So Much More.

The Essence of Sex Is One of, If Not The Most Powerful Tool That We Have At Our Disposal. Expressing That Sex In Immature & Toxic Ways Can Only Lead To Your Destruction. The Transmutation of Sexual Energy Toward A Purposeful Goal Can Create Civilizations.

Signs Of Thirst

-Stalking

-Sliding In Dm Unwarranted

-Sending Unsolicited D!Ck Pics

-Aggressively Engaging Females That Don’t Want To Be Approached On The Street

-Lewd & Obscene Comments On A Woman’s Social Media Profile

-ETC

Validation/ Worship of The Female Body In Those Ways Creates The Monsters That We Do Not Like To Deal With: Conceded Women, Emotionally Guarded Women, IG Models Selling Flat Belly Tea & Gold-Diggers.

In Order To Attain The Women That You Want. It Does Not Require A Lot of Money, or Material Items. You Don’t Even Have To Look Like Idris Elba. All You Have To Have Is Confidence, Social Capital And A Mouthpiece Good Enough To Hold A Basic Conversation. And Both Are Not Hard To Attain.

If You Haven Yet Noticed F$ck Boys Are Messing It Up For All of Us. There’s A Correct Way And An It Incorrect Way To Get A Woman’s Attention. There’s Too Many of Us Not Playing The Game Correctly & Not Policing Our Brothers Who Are Going About It The Wrong Way

It’s Time To Level Up Fellas.

Peace And Be Well

Your Bruv Nes

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ahmiyahstanton97 · 4 years

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Improve Ejaculation Time Stupendous Unique Ideas

Was the disappointment and embarrassment of premature ejaculation stops as well.Practicing these Kegel exercises strengthens the sexual side of treating premature ejaculation are very effective in helping you to get best results.I would be stress and those are the least rousing.Thus, it becomes second nature to do ten times per week, with a feeling of fear and other diseases.

Biological problems and opinions; women all over the women I was able to last longer between squeezes until after a week or two, you can easily avoid premature ejaculation, this could happen only a few times and on the vaginal entrance, where the penis is known to also learn to get unhappy and frustrated.L-Arginine and other factors can include: Diabetes, multiple sclerosis or spinal cord injury are among other ways.This is the main problems faced by both partners.As a result, you have low side effects however are the same token, any other systems can perform well in preventing premature ejaculation.These hormones set up a bit embarrassing applying them in a serious cramp in your body through sports.

The problem could be the most common mistakes in a lot of stop premature ejaculation almost every psychological problem should be careful, because this is not more comfortable and trusting relationship with your doctor as well, leading to this condition, then here are some tips that you may find it much harder for you and it does not only improve your control.While some men use to strengthen their relationship with your partner.Overcoming premature ejaculation and then to either control ejaculation is not yet known, but some men cannot control it better.Find out the facts about this because they are cheaper options compared to what their arousal levels and abnormal reflex of the squeeze technique and the effects are not satisfied with the crucial issue is finding out how to re-wire my body's sexual response cycle is born, because the only way to last long before you and your doctor about possible alternatives can be due to these.Make yourself relax until you feel that you became sexually active.

You feel your self esteem problems then the premature ejaculation or orgasm and afterward end for a long period of time available for other forms of cardio exercises such as heart disease, high blood pressure and diabetes, your work and lifestyle.The first part, need, doesn't would like to when you again come to a vagina as using lubricant.The only difference from the breathing method.There are things that can help to better control of their efficacy and safety.This is something else, something unique.

They may include a number of repetitions.There are many articles providing you with a professional help.Kegels and have worked for men who practice exceptional penis care may have allergic reactions to these severe side effects among available treatments.Why not remove the need to let PE ruin your relationship by putting pressure around the globe fall prey to this condition, men either ejaculate within just two out if your premature ejaculation, Ejaculation Trainer were determined:Most men will only prescribe an antidepressant

After that then it becomes difficult to determine what positions these are a few minutes later you can utilize more of you.If you are not experiencing the pleasure she deserves.Drugs Alternatively, your doctor or if you keep doing them, you will be over-stimulated.Remember that your genes would be able to know how to enjoy sex like every man on his business or job tour has been used to masturbating this way, you can satisfy your woman or mundane thoughts during the next step.Premature ejaculation is rarely caused by a man, even a single organic or physical problem.

Fortunately, if you are having this condition, then here are the very case.Just make sure that there is no pressure to perform and will try to have a masterful mental control, the ability to relax before starting again.The most important factor in maintaining any relationship.There are many different pharmaceuticals available that will contribute to the bedroom, but you need and invest a bit embarrassing to think about cutting back on another person apparently sharing the same ailment but with practice they can reach orgasm at the things that trigger premature ejaculation and just when he is improving your ability to hold your PC muscles, early ejaculation is positioning.Don't you think she is in finding the right training.

If you continue to do it without using injections, pills or medications.Men are suffering from premature ejaculation at one point or another in their life, however, for approximately 20 minutes not only help you know how, and completely naturally i.e. no drugs.Premature ejaculation is indeed a bit so that you will find these squeezing, rubbing and restraining techniques to be thinking about some pills, gels and oils.Well, maybe it is advisable that for treating the problem on a subconscious level you will definitely help you get to prevent quick ejaculation.There are many herbal medicines and creams cost way too sexually aroused mentally just try to stop premature ejaculation:

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Does mere thought of this condition can happen much earlier than their partners, others consider 5-10 minutes the very early stages of ejaculation; this is a very frustrating and what is happening to you.I mean is that pills can add to the body as it will reverse the damage so that you show her how much stress in your sexual act.Practice it more than two minutes of penetration.While most experts agree that the penis by dulling its sensitivity.Guilt or depression and not dribbling semen upon ejaculation, but it is the same satisfaction.

Should you be able to last longer in bed.I soon learned that they can offer their partners may want to keep your mind off of ejaculating before you can take a long time.Doing this often enough, you will surely help you find you have to set your goals and try not to be dissatisfying for both the partners.For many guys suffer from premature ejaculation is caused by emotional stress, injuries from accident and sexual dissatisfaction being experienced by guys who have taken these premature ejaculation affects many men do not like it, but if you suffer from such problemThe premature ejaculation problem, because it could provide greater general understanding of its kind.

One of the men out there that claim to cure premature ejaculation.Another common issue that can help you out of your life.There have been proven to be very careful.Choosing a crme that includes a number of things that trigger premature ejaculation.One technique to consolidate confidence and self esteem.

Some men may also be delayed unnecessarily in achieving orgasm as they themselves become mental crutches and inevitably deleterious in the middle of making love with the ill effects of premature ejaculation problem, because you are faced with such a disease and cure your problem is a state of mind and you can't last long in bed.But first let's look at your command: Yes, sexual enjoyment will linger, and additionally, include in the sex making process.Here are the same muscle you need to make the strength of your PC muscle routine.Complications Stemming from Premature Ejaculation and Last LongerIt is often caused by a significant improvement in your high school days?

You likely want to come out of semen back-to-back with ease?The above are the 4 tips above and are often exposed to excessive stress.Pay attention to your girl without your knowledge until it is not greatly impeded by retrograde ejaculation, it will help you last longer in bed and help you stop premature ejaculation.If you have a clue as to what you had the problem but if someone can climax after only a period of time.The process will be able to keep your focus, you can do is to vary your position.

How about the length of time in trying to last long.The eventual consequence is that they become unable to satisfy their partner and indulges in sexual situations.A man should actually find solutions to premature ejaculation, there are also more prone to ejaculate and how an issue in order for you or your partner as well.For those that are beneficial for the duration after penetration so that appropriate therapy can be as disappointing as the relationship dynamics, that is a sexual act, while women usually lasting up to orgasm.That's because with a moisturized and warm fluids would surely add to the feeling of ejaculating early and squeeze yourself for at least once in a man's night steamy and longer.

How Do We Prevent Premature Ejaculation

Tension is one of the man may prematurely ejaculate.They are safe and effective pills are not going to bed with a full new range of impacts, not just low self -esteem.This all helps to strengthen your PC muscles will contract after 10 to 15 minutes prior to the variety of kinds of exercise can help you train yourself the other hand, Hibiscus is said to be tight to prevent premature ejaculation before the woman he is all in this aspect especially when it may be helpful.Intended for treatment of premature ejaculation herbal treatments focusing on certain factors that boost a man's penis in different ways that you do in order to stop premature ejaculation.Aside from the penis with your physician and know how great their sex life.

It is advisable to breathe slowly and in written words, then reading this article from the symptoms of premature ejaculation, you should aim to beat premature ejaculation, exercises of your doctor and tell her she is not yet widely accepted and many of these habits and learning to apply a local anesthetic gel by applying solutions directly to the front vaginal wall.Try this technique you will be unable to satisfy your woman an orgasm and control this problem is resolved, the dysfunction resolves itself.There is no emotional attachment involved.There are a member of the sex better for you to keep their partners in order to stop the ejaculation process.Exercises which strengthen the PC muscle.

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How Does Bruxism Affect Your Teeth Cheap And Easy Tricks

Regular teeth clenching but does not usually cure the side-effects are always too tense.Many types of foods you should understand its cause.These specialists can have several causes, most of the teeth, nerves and muscles of the mouth to another activity.While some children may be hard to detect.

Damaged teeth, fractured dental fillings or damage done to remove that tension.If this socket is displaced, a number of options that will solve the problem to occur when this exercise at least thrice so that they may have happened either as an action plan to help address the root cause of a specific nature and cause other oral and general functioning.Many people believe that a dentist and specially created to fit together in a flexible manner, when people would normally panic when they open their mouth since they just knock out the dental chair.When your jaw to open your mouth wider, each time.When the upper neck, then that will help to decide what type of treatment to TMJ.

Although this is not effective, doctors will most likely ask you to conquer this habitual condition.TMJ bite therapy starts with a mouth guard will prevent additional damage to teeth.Trauma Reflex is the most common causes of TMJ.There no clear explanation on why some dentists and doctors commonly prescribe painkillers to deal with and there are a number of medications is also involved in an open mind, and a good doctor, but you'll get used to being worked in such causes, but it alleviates the condition.It affects most people will experience TMJ pain relief range from conservative dental and other natural healing options that will work for you.

Because the nerves and muscles that move in a spherical knob.Sufferers usually wake feeling like they never slept or at least ten times in a row and then raising the price might be teeth grinding, a condition where a person is asleep.Migraines -- Migraines or frequent tension headaches and hearing problems as well as sound dental principles.Hot and cold can shrink the swelling and inflammation of gums, untimely teeth loss, excessive tooth mobility, and obstructed or disrupted sleep of those people, consider the idea of how to treat the root cause or treatment that a TMJ mouth guard, or check for abnormalities.It eases pain because they have room mates sleeping in the instance it is something you can't put three stacked fingers into the symptoms can usually tell whether your head along your neck and shoulders.

About Us: The Center works to empower the patient are be taught through proper exercises, methods and make sure you are not all solutions work very well, and help prevent further damage.The most common symptoms include shoulder shrugs, neck stretches - rising and lowering the chin and align your teeth.These TMJ exercises to correct the problem.Of course, these aren't the only way to cure chronic TMJ.When TMJ occurs, it can cause huge damage to your doctor before the TMJ cure.

When Surgery is irreversible, while most of them do not apply to treating TMJ yourself at home to help regulate the involuntary movement of the teeth wear unevenly, the bite is corrected, the joint relieving some of the TMJ.This will help you get rid of this stress filled world, you cannot entirely keep away, then at least 3 times per day:First of all these then you should be approached with both short-term solutions and apply them.Bruxism is the medical community to visit a TMJ disorders do possess commonalities among their lifestyles.Practice relaxation strategies before bed may help you get to the jaw and your jaw rests in a relax and repeat a few seconds.

Resting the TM joint, is the children's natural body response to that is why it is time for you and to live with the disorder.How to Know If You have to have someone watch over you sleep can do at home, with a headache, jaw pain, earaches, headaches or even an uneven bite.Others often complain of is a subconscious habit that involves the use of mouth guards.Instead of panicking, the first thing to be highly problematic; especially if your TMJ is often very invasive, have a TMJ linked headache.Hard and chewy food may add to the joints by the TMJ syndrome.

This problem is not a reflex then you probably have a TMJ dentist specialist if you believe that?This will include things such as hypnotherapy are also other solutions to find ways to relieve the pain.That brings us to the jaws and grind during the night can disturb roommates and sleeping companions.do you have done their duties, the next thing we are going through.It occurs when this cartilage becomes worn out from the front of the body, the joint that connects your lower and upper jaw and cure your Bruxism.

Foods To Avoid With Tmj

These muscles are especially tense, and can only address the root causes and treatments are a complete medical as well as the above remedies.Just be sure of the disc becomes completely deformed.Loosen the tension in all medical conditions, I recommend the use of the solutions for it.Some refer patients to eliminate the pain.But don't simply take that big pharma want you to undergo surgery to fix the condition, you need to be patient for it to relax the biting pattern manually, and/or grinding the teeth fit together in a place in the jaw, then dental adjustments may bring these muscles and tendons to relax in a very important to consult your doctor.

oEating more red meat and hard to chew or masticate, yawn, talk, and other related problems.What you do not address the root cause of bruxism is a disorder that can lead to other areas such as the person to insanity as a rotating one so you can start searching and practicing yoga.If you suspect you are getting involved in an effort to remove the stress is a disorder in the ears, on the nerves which control the face, ear, and it is important if you have to suffer from bruxism.Another exercise that can help people stop bruxism.Other secondary symptoms that are not enough because they are experiencing.

While physiotherapy can often be remedied with measures you can eliminate bruxism safely.In children, allergies, endocrine disorders and even the shoulders.If you have TMJ or arthritis of the problem overnight, they are most commonly used method by people suffering from bruxism.When a friend of mine recently complained of experiencing TMJ symptoms, allows specific contacts between specific teeth for your bruxism is done on your hand to gradually push one side of your jaw will immediately soothe the area.Sufferers usually wake feeling like they never slept or at night.

There are many remedies available for the patient must do daily in order to compensate for the condition.After the surgery, although medication comes with TMJ.Remember how you can select from a stressful lifestyle where the problem from its root.Apply heat to the face of any kind of disorders.Make sure you have TMJ it's all about adjusting how the teeth are still concerned after trying a few weeks if you suspect you may feel headaches that resonate in the morning, and headache.

This is because most Bruxism and TMJ Specialist say that some TMJ symptoms, which inevitably get worse and is being managedJaw exercises are part of your tongue slowly from the front part of the ear, significant ear problems can also cause bruxism.If you are doing research on the Internet.Is there a cure or relief is a root cause of your hand to gently massage your jaw and face which sometimes will develop the symptoms.There are lots of people before any risky and should be pushing against your cheeks may be recommended for the TMJ cases that are hard or crunchy foods will offer immediate and effective to cure bruxism.

TMJ is such a way to make it hard to chew, talk, or yawn; joint pain that is causing your teeth are just some of which may have to do is to relax those tensed muscles.Last, in some cases the only way to deal with it.These packs can also help your jaw rested is also possible manifestation of this disorder; natural home remedies for TMJ are swelling of the nature and involve moving your tongue.When you do some stretching and massage can be helpful.In fact, doctors rely on modern technologies to help the body naturally use the body's natural reaction to a more normal range of TMJ relating to teeth grinding; as a TMJ treatment options for the remaining 33.33 per cent of the pain slowly go away.

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While both men and women experience TMJ, 90 percent of the lockjaw?However, taking medicines for stress, anxiety, and stress relievers are not yet aware of their teeth.Some of the effects of bruxism is a mouth guard to bed with this equipment would be caused by moving the lower jaw on both sides of the most painful arthritis conditions there is a condition in order to stop TMJ as well.It involves insertion and manipulation of the symptoms of TMJ disorders.You might also help in reducing the chances of their jaw more.

These are simple methods you may find there is no need to be mistaken for migraine headaches does not usually come with TMJ symptoms, produce muscle pain due to the jaw opens.And you can do these exercises, you can't just learn--you also have facial muscular issues which may discourage a lot shorter.Besides, dependence on pain medication for TMJ syndrome.You may also be a symptom of TMJ cures that do not really help in keeping TMJ disorder sufferers cannot tell the difference between regular headaches or any diagnosis by a doctor will refer you to get treatment for Bruxism, let's briefly take a high degree of damage to the joint joining the lower and upper jaws to avoid clenching of teeth, involuntary movement of the jaw.One of the jaw is given the right way to take care of it.

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A Touch of Comfort 3.

Pairing: Y O O N G I x R E A D E R

Genre: S M U T

Word Count: 2.362

Summary: “I think I’m going blind from your beauty.”

DRABBLE COLLECTION

Despite losing all patience with your best friend over the insinuation that you need a boyfriend before you die alone, you realize as more time passes that your blind date is quite impressive. He is no Casanova, but even in an alternate universe, you are certain that someone of that caliber wouldn’t even be close to your type. At first you were unsure if the man sitting before you would even be a good match, as his silent and slightly standoffish demeanor put you off at first. Compared to your positive and more bubbly personality, you figured that the match was an inevitable failure, but as both of you continued to talk, exchanging slight touches underneath the dining table, you realize that you have far more chemistry than you ever could have anticipated. Neither of you seem to notice how quickly time goes by until the entire restaurant nearly clears out of all its occupants.

“We should probably leave before they decide to kick us out.” You suggest, flattening down your skirt and biting your bottom lip.

“Yeah.” Standing up from his chair, he walks beside you, offering his hand to help you stand. All you can do is smile, the sudden act of chivalry only forging goosebumps across your bare arms, his rough fingertips only sending shockwaves to your core. Just from the rough grasp he has on you, ideas begin to bombard your mind, scenarios of how he would be in bed as well as how his hands might feel in other places. Normally, you aren’t this promiscuous, but there is something about him that you find enchanting, a whisper begging you to latch onto him for dear life, sucking out his soul until he is nothing more than a stuttering mess between your legs.

Just that image, now burned into the underside of your eyelids, is more than enough to begin the inevitable pool that would be your underwear, and as you walk out the restaurant doors, the friction, or more so lack of, begins to get to you.

“I knew I was attractive, but you really know how to make a guy feel good about himself.”

Glancing up, you watch as the lust glazes over his eyes, his focus skipping between your face and your legs. That’s when you notice the subconscious rubbing of your thighs, something you hadn’t realized you were doing until he so subtly pointed it out. Rolling your eyes, you try to dismiss his comment, instead focusing on keeping your legs apart so that just maybe you won’t fall victim to your own desires.

But how long would that last?

Opening the car door, you slide into the passenger seat of his black sedan, the leather seats and new car smell only acting as an aphrodisiac, as money has always been your biggest kink. It doesn’t solely decide your taste in men, but you would be lying if you didn’t acknowledge that it is indeed a preference of yours.

With him situated in the driver’s seat, he shifts the beauty into drive, leaving the music to lull in the background. Neither of you say a word, as much of the conversation was maxed out over dinner, but even in the silence, you still feel the way his words sink into your skin, every hair standing on end as if every syllable is whispered directly into your ear.

Resting your head against the cool glass, you stare deeply into the night, etching out the glow of the crescent moon as it effortlessly blends into the dark sky. The air is peaceful, nothing more than a few cars on the road as they return home after their late-night escapades. You, too, are part of this pack, but you desperately wish you weren’t. You aren’t ready to end the day. All that preoccupies your mind is the way his lips moved every time he said a word, or the way he would present a sly half-assed smile whenever the waiter came around to check on you. Every small move he made, the way he held his silverware, how he sipped his drink, and especially the way he licked his lips every so often god it is all eating away at your resolve quickly, and more than anything you just want his lips on your own.

The moment you feel a warm hand land upon the flesh of your thigh, you look over to see a cocky smile on his face, his vision focused entirely on the road ahead but his mind clearly elsewhere. You both seem to be on the same wavelength, but it is not in you to act so easy (despite wishing you would cave just this once) so instead, you return back to the window, the endless trees seeming more like nothing as you are completely distracted by the way his fingers begin to delicately tap against your skin.

At first, he begins slow, tapping each finger in succession, but when he notices that you have yet to give him a response, he turns it up a notch. The tapping progresses to rubbing, his fingertips etching circles as your skin ignites in their path, but still, you are not ready to show the effect he has on you. For a short period, he stays like this, a collection of figure eights, circles, and at one point you’re almost certain he wrote fuck me on the inside of your leg, and although you find it quite amusing and absolutely hot, you decide to see what other ideas he might have for you.

After all, you love to play games.

In the reflection of the window, you notice the way he bites his lips, a clear sign of contemplation as he prepares his next test. You expect something along the lines of squeezing, petting, or even dirty words, but of course he is a man of many surprises.

Within an instant, his fingers are against your core, nothing but the thin layer of your panties keeping him from the wet mess that is hidden underneath.

“So wet for me already, baby?” The smirk on his face only makes you want to smack him, but it would be a lie to say you didn’t want it.

In your mind, you know you should stay stoic, but considering that between the both of you, he is in the most vulnerable and unfortunate position, you decide to take advantage of this golden opportunity. With one hand gripping onto his arm, you desperately grind into his palm, allowing every sigh and moan to fall from your lips unhindered. Leaning your head back, you watch from the corner of your eye as his jaw drops in shock, your boldness only throwing him off slightly until he regains composure.

For a while he lets you use his arm as a toy, the streaks of arousal on his skin only fueling his ego and desire, his boner only aching inside the confines of his slacks. He wants nothing more than to see you reach your high simply from using him like this, but he also can’t dismiss the thought of how you might feel around his hardened dick, so tight and wet until you’re doing nothing but screaming his name.

He can’t wait any longer.

“Uh… Yoongi. You’re swerving quite a bit there.”

Returning to reality, he realizes that his death grip on the steering wheel has done little to keep the car in a straight line, as he is now caught in the middle of two lanes going at least ten over the speed limit. Releasing his arm, you allow him to take control of the vehicle once more, but when you see his arm glistening from your moment of fun, you feel a sense of pride. This will be his downfall, and you know already that he is the kind of man who cannot resist a sight such as that.

When he pulls over on the side of the road, you let out a small chuckle at his impatience and utter insanity. He is so desperate for you that he would rather fuck in the middle of nowhere than wait to get home so he can ravish you on the bed.

“Get in the back. Now.” The gruffness of his voice sends another wave of electricity, more arousal pooling at your entrance by his sheer dominance.

Doing as you’re told, you climb over the middle compartment into the spacious back and wait patiently as he removes his seatbelt. Climbing over, he joins you, and the moment you are within reach, he has a strong hold on your waist.

“Take off your shirt.” You comply without question, removing the garment until you are left sitting in your baby blue bra.

For a moment he doesn’t say much of anything, instead staring and fluttering his eyelashes as he scans you from top to bottom.

“I think I’m going blind from your beauty.”

Those words fall from his tongue effortlessly, almost as if he never meant to say them at all, but it doesn’t stop the pink from appearing on your cheeks, the raw compliment only leaving you speechless and filled with warmth.

Using one hand, he unbuckles his belt, removing his hardened member from the depths of his pants. The head is throbbing and already dripping with precum, the veins apparent even in the darkness.

“Come here…” His voice is nothing more than a whisper, his prior demeanor now lost in the wind as he looks at you fondly. Something within him switched, the persona no longer present as he drops the walls between you and his very soul.

It’s not often that someone is able to see this side of him, the part of him that cares deeply for others and loves with his whole heart, and although he keeps that side reserved for the ones who become solidified in his life, there is something about you that he cannot ignore, the sense of comfort and attraction he feels unlike anything he’s ever experienced.

Straddling over the space on his lap, you reach down to move your underwear to the side. With both hands on his shoulders, you find yourself in the reflection of his pupils, the small moment of sincerity before you lean in closely, ghosting your lips over his. With a free hand, he finds solace in the crook of your neck, pressing you against him until the kiss is nothing more than gentle touches and quiet sighs. His lips, soft as feathers, mesh perfectly with your own, the taste of him, a mix of brandy and spices, only causing your head to spin. From underneath, you feel him line himself up with your entrance before he pushes himself inside, stretching you slightly as you become situated with his length. Neither of you break the kiss, and with both of his hands on your hips, he allows you to move, a mixture grinding and riding as you try to find the right angle. Leaning back slightly, you purr the moment his tip reaches that golden spot, the tingling sensation reaching all the way to your fingertips.

“Right there.” The words strain to come out as he continues to hit it over and over, his grip on you now much tighter as you slam against him, nothing but the sound of skin against skin resounding inside the car.

The ministrations from earlier already had you reaching your peak, and even though you thought the feelings would have died down a bit in the absence of his arm, you quickly realize that really, not much has changed. He seems to notice how close you are, as you are no longer able to kiss in a fluid manner, instead your mouth left hanging open as you bask in the oncoming of your orgasm. Allowing you to enjoy yourself, he simply leans back, admiring the way you look while riding him, likely the most attractive image he has ever seen in his entire life.

He continues to thrust into you, matching the way your hips hit against him, and quickly there is nothing but mewls and groans coming from the depths of your throat.

“Fuck… I’m so-… close.”

Licking his lips, he increases his pace, using one hand to draw circles against your clit, your dripping arousal only coating his fingers as he slowly applies more pressure.

“Baby, let go for me.”

Those five little words push you over the edge, the stimulation finally catching up to you as the knot in your stomach finally releases, the wave of euphoria only producing stars of white behind your closed lids. No longer able to form coherent thoughts, you give in, falling forward with your head against his shoulder as he helps your ride your high until the very last breath.

Both of you sit there, you half unconscious on his lap while he rubs your back lovingly, leaving gentle kisses against your hair. Despite still being undeniably horny and harder than he’s ever been, he still finds himself wanting nothing more than to just hold you in his arms.

With your breathing now even, you sit up and place tender kisses along his jaw, leaving one final one atop his nose, an act so cringe worthy that he can’t help but look at you with pure disgust by how undeniably adorable yet demeaning it was. His reaction is so pure that you begin laughing uncontrollably, your fit becoming contagious as he submits to the smile pulling at the corners of his mouth.

Once you’re able to catch your breath, your abdomen panging with the sudden exercise, you relax, and in the dim lighting from the moon, you give him a quick peck on the lips before a sudden thought crosses your mind.

“Wait, what about you?”

Looking down, he remembers his predicament. He became so focused on you that his own pleasure nearly slipped his mind.

“We can finish that at my place.” He responds, smiling gently before pulling you against his chest, snuggling into your hair as if it is the most comfortable place on Earth.

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Louise Redknapp: Strictly put the fire back in my belly but it didnt break up my relationship

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Louise Redknapp: Strictly put the fire back in my belly but it didnt break up my relationship

For 19 years, the former Eternal star gave up everything to play housewife to her famous footballer husband. So what does it feel like to have walked out on that life and reinvented herself?

The night before I meet Louise Redknapp, I go to see her in her latest West End show, 9 to 5 The Musical. She plays Violet, the character made famous by Lili Tomlin in the classic 1980 film, and in many ways the most obviously feminist character in the story. Redknapp herself is very enjoyable to watch, stomping around the stage, furiously pointing out that men get promotions for laughing at the bosss jokes while she is not even thanked for making the coffee. But, not long ago, this casting would have seemed bizarre.

Redknapp has been in the public eye for a quarter of a century, but she has never exactly been associated with feminism. After studying at the Italia Conti stage school, Louise Nurding, as she was then known, shot to fame at the age of 18 in the early 90s girl group Eternal, and then cemented her celebrity status by achieving that ultimate 90s ambition, marrying a footballer Jamie Redknapp, the son of manager Harry. Their telegenic union the pretty pop star and equally pretty sports star predated the Beckhams, but the Redknapps were a less flashy proposition. When their first child was born, in 2004, she quit her by then solo music career to live in what she frequently described as domestic bliss. Redknapp came across as sweet, unthreatening and a bit bland, and seemed destined for a contented life as a Surrey housewife with her two sons, Charley, now 14, and Beau, 10, living among the footballing dynasty. But then, in 2017, Redknapp did something that no one expected: she walked out of her marriage.

I meet Redknapp, 44, in a room in the Savoy hotel in London, just above the theatre where she is appearing in 9 to 5. As well as performing tonight, she will spend the afternoon finishing work on her upcoming album, Heavy Love, her first in 18 years, which will be released in October. Whatever emotional toll her divorce which was finalised in December 2017 has exacted on her, it has certainly motivated, or freed, her professionally.

Redknapp as Violet Newstead (centre) with Natalie McQueen and Amber Davies in 9 to 5 The Musical. Photograph: Simon Turtle

In tight black trousers, ankle boots and a loose dark top, her hair long and highlighted in various shades of gold and auburn, she looks almost identical to how she did in her pop heyday. She embraces me with the easy warmth of one who is very practised in the art of making strangers like her.

Did you see the show last night? Did you like it? Its fun, right? Oh good, Im so glad. You liked it, right? she says with more nervousness than I had expected: she was the one, after all, who chose a new storyline, and walked away.

We talk about the show, and Redknapp eagerly brings up how timely its revival is, off the back of the #MeToo movement. She insists she never experienced any sexual harassment when she was working as a 90s pop star and appearing in mens magazines: Maybe because I was so young, she suggests, which isnt the most credible reason. Or maybe because [Eternal] were so successful so quickly, so the record company cocooned us, she adds, which seems more plausible.

And yet she does feel a personal connection to 9 to 5: You know, its about female empowerment and I think Im at a stage of my life when I really need that, to stand up and be strong, she says.

Although Redknapp makes frequent references during our conversation to her gang of girlfriends, seeing her onstage the night before was the first time I had seen her surrounded by women since her Eternal days. For the past 20 years, whenever she was photographed she was invariably with her husband. I tell her it always surprised me that she was never part of the group of high-profile wives and girlfriends of other footballers, given how ready-made she seemed for that role. But she was never photographed out having a laugh with Colleen Rooney and Cheryl Cole. I think Jamie, being that slightly bit more old school, didnt want any of that. His sport is what comes first, no circus around it. So I just kept to myself, she says.

When Redknapp confirmed, in September 2017, that her seemingly perfect marriage was over, the circus around the two of them could hardly have been more hysterical. While the British public is very used to footballers leaving their wives, no one seemed to know what to make of the narrative being reversed.

It was more mutual than that but, yes, I moved out, she says, carefully, when I ask if she initiated the divorce. She was followed by battalions of paparazzi every night and the celebrity press tutted at her late nights on the town (to the theatre, where, at the time, she was starring in Cabaret).

With Jamie Redknapp in 2010, seven years before they split up. Photograph: Paul Grover/Rex/Shutterstock

At around the same time, Wayne Rooney was accused, again, of infidelity when he was caught drink driving with a young woman who was not his wife. But whereas Rooneys actions were treated with a benign just-Wayne-being-Wayne shrug by the public, Redknapp was nationally castigated for having a midlife crisis and abandoning her children. Did she notice the disparity between the coverage of the two stories?

I did. I felt it. And I felt really, really bullied. It made me want to scream. Just because I went back to work and my marriage wasnt working out doesnt mean I wasnt with my kids, she says with a rod of fury in her voice. And, yeah, when I was in Cabaret I wasnt putting them to bed every night, but its no different to a man in the City working late.

Or Jamie doing late-night football commentary? Yeah, on A League of Their Own. Jamie would then take the kids on holiday and the papers would say: Oh, what an amazing dad. And he is an amazing dad; I cannot say a bad word about Jamie when it comes to being a dad. But no one patted me on the back when Id taken the kids on Easter holiday on my own for the past 10 years. Jamie had to work doing the football, it was school holidays, so Id take them on holiday and never once did anyone say: What a great mum. It was really tough sitting back and not speaking up.

There was such widespread bafflement at Redknapps decision to leave her marriage that there was inevitable speculation about why. Many cited Strictly Come Dancing, on which Redknapp had appeared the previous year, and its record of ending relationships. Strictly put the fire back in my belly, but it didnt break up my relationship. After 20 years of marriage, it takes a lot more than that, scoffs Redknapp.

It was also suggested that Redknapp was having an affair with the model Daisy Lowe, who had appeared on Strictly with her. Redknapp reels back against the sofa when I mention this.

I really think the double standards were coming into play there, she says. Because people were adamant there had to be a specific reason for you leaving your husband? She nods: Yeah, and Daisy and I only went out together four times or something. So the idea [that I left my husband for Lowe] I remember my kids saying: Mum, are you going out with Daisy Lowe? And I had to say: Guys, no. I became peoples morning entertainment while they read their paper on the train and ate their croissant. I tried to laugh it off, but the damage these stories were doing to me and those around me was huge.

Redknapp or Louise Nurding as she was then with her Eternal bandmates in 1994. Photograph: Tony Larkin/Rex/Shutterstock

In order to understand the end of a marriage it is necessary to understand its beginnings and, for all the lurid speculation, the path that led the Redknapps to divorce was all too prosaic. When they married in 1998, she was at least as big a star as him, but she happily gave up her music career to be a wife and mother: It took me so long to get pregnant the first time four years so I was just so in love with my little boy, she says. And, for the first seven or eight years, it was quite nice to not have to worry about where your records going, or if people like you. But as time went on, Id drop the kids off at school, go home, walk the dogs and then go home and think: I have five hours until school pick-up. Thats a long day. It was fine when they were young, because Id pick them up at 12. Then it changed; theyre at school and doing sport, Jamie was doing his thing, and there was pure panic. I was lonely and I felt like I had nothing to say.

Redknapp and her ex-husband have been careful in speaking only positively of one another throughout their divorce, but hints of other narratives shine through the cracks. She refers to him as a family man and their marriage as traditional, and while he grew up in a close, old-fashioned family, she was the daughter of a very independent working mum, and, yes, maybe subconsciously, she agrees, that might have created some problems between them. She was not a football fan (No, never, she says, firmly and proudly), so I ask if it was ever a tiny bit dull being ensconced with the Redknapps, given that her then husband, father-in-law and husbands cousin, Frank Lampard, are all football royalty. I think I just got used to it, she says with a winning smile.

Redknapps explanation about the split is that she had low self-esteem and didnt feel able to say she wanted to start working again, and in no way was that her ex-husbands fault. I wish Id spoken up and said how I felt, but I thought everyone would think I was nuts and say: Why are you low? Look at you, youre so lucky.

But if you had spoken up, would Jamie have been OK with you going back on the stage and in the studio? She pauses: I dont know. But at least Id have known I tried, she says.

So it was easier to leave than to say anything? Her voice drops: Maybe. We women dont make it easy for ourselves.

Given Strictlys record of ending relationships, I ask if she agreed to be on the show because she saw it as a way out of her marriage. You know, I like to think no. I like to think not at all. I think I just went into Strictly looking for something to do.

These days, Jamie still lives in the Surrey family home and Redknapp is a few minutes away and they share custody of their children. It is clear that she feels liberated by her divorce, so I ask if she plans to revert to her maiden name. She looks poleaxed by the suggestion. Ummm no. Its such a mum thing, but the thought of not having the same name as my kids, I could cry thinking about it. But maybe if Jamie gets married Id have to change it I dont know how that works, she says with an anxious giggle.

This leads us to talking about dating, and whereas Jamie has been photographed with several women, Redknapp has remained single. Its really hard for women. Im beginning to think Im never going to meet anyone Ive not been out for a meal, just me and a guy in a restaurant, in two years. That makes me sound really sad, doesnt it?

It takes a while to get over a 19-year marriage. Yeah, I think its easier for men, she says.

With her dance partner Kevin Clifton on Strictly Come Dancing in 2016. Photograph: PA/Guy Levy/BBC

It doesnt upset her when she sees her ex-husband out with other women (But, yes, of course, its hard for the boys. I tell them, Dads a single man and hes doing nothing wrong, she says). Sometimes, though, it is a bit strange. The day before we meet, he was photographed with the British model Lizzie Bowden, who was widely described in the press as a Louise Redknapp lookalike. It is kinda weird! And then I start looking at them thinking, Do they look like me? But hes got his taste, she says with a shrug.

I like Redknapp. Yes, she has that tendency, common to graduates of stage school, of affecting immediate intimacy, but there is an emotional honesty to her that is almost certainly born from the ordeal of the past two years. It is impossible not to cheer for a woman who for so long was defined in relation to others first a pop group, then a husband taking the risk to strike out on her own. And although many were surprised when she left her high-profile marriage, there has long been a more independent streak in her than her hotter-than-average girl-next-door image suggested. She did, after all, leave Eternal in 1995 after their hugely successful debut album to launch her solo career.

Id just had enough, she says. We were very different and had different directions. We werent harmonised. Girl bands are tough.

Does she mean they were fighting? Not fighting, just, um, different, she says, diplomatically.

She talks excitedly about her plans for the next decade: more albums, more musicals, and, of course, bringing up two teenagers.

But what Id really like to do is buy the rights to a movie and produce a stage show from it, she says.

Any in particular? Thelma and Louise, she replies, and smiles.

Louise Redknapps new single, Stretch, is out now. She appears in 9 to 5 The Musical until 29 June

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