#or at least ive barely tagged it

[anglerflsh]

wow ive been kind of off lately I should take a day to rest an[explosion]

#[.art] #self #complaining tag #I'm good. I needed to draw about it but I'm good. it's fine. whatever #love it when I barely ask you for money to Live outside of gifts and 30 a month. and then you withold the gift SOMEONE ELSE GAVE ME #that's fine it's totally not as if I told you I need that money before. and you decided I was a bit too mean #about you compiling a document I Need To in order to keep the room and board in the place I am living in. by the way #she proceeded to change topic completely to the weather and forget about anything ive told her on the clothes I have here #or about the courses I follow. she takes notes for my sister's classes but cannot be bothered to remember i dont have exams in april #that's fineeee it's fine. it's fine. I know my sistser needs the help and I don't. I would rather die than ask for her help anyways #you can at least pretend to forget about both of us equally instead of telling me I should graduate in two years because im smart enough #which I am not. by the way. At least when I will fail at something I'll have the opportunity to tell her I told you so thank god #dont get me wrong i know her giving me compliments is a good thing I just sort of wish the were things actually about me #and not about the idea she has about me being some kind of prodigy that's simply too lazy to actually be exceptional. anyways

[non-plutonian-druid]

[ID: a drawing in the Voltron Gravity Falls au, where Pidge and Matt take the place of Dipper and Mabel, drawn in approximately the style of Gravity Falls. The drawing is of Pidge and Matt in the backseat of a car. The seats are strewn with scribbled-on papers, their luggage, and fast food trash. Pidge is turned around in her seat and looking out the back of the car, while Matt has his foot on the headrest of the seat in front of him and playing a handheld video game. Sam's head is slightly visible in the corner of the foreground. End ID.]

an illustrated contribution to the gravity falls au: before the beginning, Pidge and Matt are on a trip to go stay with their "uncle" (a friend of their parents') Coran for the summer, because their parents are going alien hunting and also Pidge needs to leave the house more. With a setup like this, I'm sure Sam and Colleen are going to be the ones who encounter the most aliens!

#voltron #voltron legendary defender #vld #pidge holt #pidge gunderson #matt holt #i have had this almost completely finished. for two years. #i needed to add a laptop in and that was IT #i did that tonight and now finally you all get it #well the all of you that will be interested in a vld gravity falls au at least #this au has so much plot in it and im pretty sure ive barely talked about it because i keep losing track of how much ive said #vld gravity falls au #gravity falls au #i dont even remember if this au HAD a tag but if it did one of those was probably it? #my art

[dysfunctionaldogdude]

I feel like actually shit like the entirety of last week getting to me. I wish I could have a moment of actual relaxation and not just me forgetting I have shit to do.

(Tag warning-> depressing talk, dark topics)

Might delete this idk..

#vent post #tag rambles #I have over 60 different things to fill out that I need to do by tomorrow and I forgot to do them. I feel so stupid #I actually hate having adhd #people try to make it out to be just a quirky thing that its not that big of a deal or anything #but it's not #it impairs on relationships #I struggle to remember important things that I need to do and even WANT to do. I struggle so bad #I even have fights with people about me being a “liar” even though I'm not #I just have a shit ass memory I feel useless 90% of the time and shit #gods and I doubt it's just me having adhd. Im pretty sure its my possibility of having bpd and autism #i show all symptoms of bpd and I relate far too much with autism videos #like this is stuff active in my daily life #people don't see it often due to have carefully Ive crafted.. this is going to sound a bit fannibal of me but literally a person suit #i swear a person suit #it's not even funny #gods i just wish I could function without getting all up and arms about how much of a pos I feel #if I don't get attention from.. basically.. my fp I get all sad and melancholy. i spiral #I'm pretty sure I have at least three fps #if I even have bpd #but gods #just so stupid how I can barely fucking function without all of these crutches #I'm not in a certian program anymore for a thing and now I can't fuction and work how I use to since it was a slower environment #I'm failing #like I won't be able to make it I feel like #not suicide or anything #just in things I wanted to do #feels like my future is doomed cause life keeps throwing curve balls at me #someone with at least two mental disabilities #i definitely have more

[simonstamenovic]

ok hi haha lol I dont rly feel like going in circles in my head forever trying to figure out whether, among other "smaller" things, being left alone in a room w only media as a child and not feeling like I had even a semblance of a personality for most of my life counts as "trauma"

a lot of these parts of me are new, I'm just recently putting names to them and it feels as though I'm developing facets of personalities in my mid 20s after a lifetime of either feeling like I'm basically just ADHD in a person, an amalgamation of kins shoved into a body, or something made of guilt Also shoved into a body.

I don't like, claim to know what this means. but I don't think a lot of my current mutuals would feel comfortable interacting w me bc I don't necessarily believe in the black and white of what plurality is. I'm not able or planning on getting any formal diagnosis and while I'm discussing this w my therapist they're very much not one to pathologize

I definitely don't feel like one person but I dont think id count for most of you as a "system" as the different parts of me feel as though theyre still developing. take all of this as you will, I'm not going to stress my body out more by trying to figure out "what" I am as I've been doing that my whole life and I'm kinda tired of it.

I know that I'm not entirely one thing and feel Enough like multiple things for myself, but blurred in a lot of ways. like some sort of gem with many different facets.

not sure where to go w this tbh take this how you will. im not comfortable saying I'm leaning one way or the other regarding system discourse, (<- not a phrase i want to use but the best shorthand i have) as I genuinely don't believe the human brain is nearly that black and white.

I'm both "me" and very much not "me" at times. idk what this means but ik I'm not comfortable saying im just pandora and im not sure im "allowed" to say im a system and im not sure if it matters, or should matter, regarding friends. im going to be like this regardless, id unfollow me if this grey area im likely to stay in bothers you

if you don't want me refollowing I'd probably block, too, as my memory is bad

#puts this in my drafts to publish at atime to cause maximum damage to my #social circle and mental health bc i LOVE conflict and pain #< A JOKE lmao this has been causing me severe distress for ages so whatever unfollow me idc #outgoing transmission #idk when im gonna publish this ive been going back n forth w my therapist a lot #rhis maybbe repetitive im just uhh tired and have been legitimately driving myself crazy overthis for ages #bc honestly like i didnt exist as a person until age 14 at least and that person #wasnt... me. isn't me they dont exist to me anymore and im not sure #the one before 19 existed either its all fractured #is that trauma?? or is it something else. does that make me endogenic to you?? i really dont know or understand #you can decide for yourself. but im not comfortable saying either way. #i barely feel comfortable existing. i dont exist? as i type this 'i' is wrong but nothing else fits so far #we could go for we and we have befkre bht so far its so nonexistent whats the opposite of i #nothing...? [ ] #some blank. the dilemma is that nothing is real. #these tags are not. genuinly i am fake. #this will get published sometime in a haze and this body will wake up to a disaster. #not enough bridges burned i guess. sure. #back 2 sleep dont send me asks abt this jst block if ur gonna block

[jils-things]

Hi hello just here to also wish you GOOD LUCK ON YOUR CYNO PULLS! Also ehehe Cynadon I was waiting for this and it got me all excited to see a genshin ship from u again :3

Also this is quite random but I saw this vid on my TikTok fyp that was like "Your country - your genshin character" and Cyno's was the Philippines and idk it made me think of you maybe that's a sign, you will get him :>

~ anemoflower

SOPHIA HIIIII!!!! EEEKKK EVERYONES SO NICE ABT THE CYNO PULLS TYSMM 💞💞💞💞 I CANT WAIT GEGRHRR but also oh no the pressure is building up higher /lh WAHAHAHHAA

oh gosh,, oh gosh ive created it ive made the ship name already AHSGDGSJSJ im already thinking abt silly... ideas... abt them SNDIFHDHDD WEEE 😭😭😭 when i draw them it's all over now.... 🏃

OKAY THE TIKTOK ONE?????

WHAT ARE THE ODDS HEHERGDHSHDBD cyno pinoy real /lh lh ok but the fact you were reminded of me ehehehe yes im that One filipino mutual of yours yes yes 🇵🇭💞 AHSHHDHAHDHS THANK U FOR SHARING 💞💞

#update in school??? no teachers came???? ive been sleeping tje whole day..... #well i at least caught up on my rest since i barely slept last night KSKAHSGSHAJSJA #sophia tag #~ mailbox

[whatsanameanyway]

honestly still the biggest personal tragedy of session 5 is that when grian joined gem in the tower building. in gems episode, there were almost a solid 10 minutes of just that. them hanging out, calm, peaceful, no danger, away from people that could hurt them . and guess what ? grian left LESS THAN 3 MINUTES OF THAT IN HIS EPISODE dbjksffejw

#rant in tags #gems episode straight up got me to start drawing the most complicated fanart in a year or so just of that scene #and grian just. cut most of it out #(gem probably did too. but come on g. only 3??) #i think i know what im feeling. i called it in a yt comment on session 2 or so #im clinging to the last remains of peace and happiness we get #i watched every pov and i think this episode grian's is my favourite (even if he cut out most of my fav scene overall) #he almost died' rigged a charity' loved bdubs and built a tower. it was nice #he barely interacted with the reds (love them too but). he was just hanging out. the cleo&etho&grian & i guess bdubs team is my fav #literally not a single spec of danger in that house. all positivity (thanks etho for starting the 'we love bdubs' day too bdw) #even martyns single trap got disarmed immediately #i was hoping for an grian & cleo team because of the potential for chaos but i think i love this more at least for now #ive been thinking too. the heart foundation honestly stresses me out so much #i love them with all my heart. i do #but i dont trust bigb at all. havent since episode one and wont start now. feels like that man has no loyalty to tango and skizz #hes very fun dont get me wrong but he makes me worried. i still have no idea what his deal is #theyre also very open. no fortification ( i like walls theyre safe) #and their system is very easy to rig (as shown in this episode) #(also bigb straight up saw grian throw his quartz in and said NOTHING) #“this is a death game! why do you not want death? what are you even here for?” SHUSH #this is all /positive. its good stress #(and i love death and betrayal martyn's win is my fav ending so far) #i just got too used to the peace and happiness at the beginning #i did not mean to rant this much but i have a lot of feelings about this series i dont have anywhere else to express #trafficblr #secret life

[fbpanimations]

ykw fuck it, jeremy from be more chill shouldve been gay. he shouldve gotten with michael at the end. 2 player game exists, there was an entire plotpoint of squip blocking michael from jeremys brain because michael is the fucking link to “jeremy 1.0” (aka his true self) and michael literally had a panic attack in the bathroom because jeremy ditched him LIKE IM JUST SAYING

#*i havent been able to watch the full musical cuz i cant find a way to but ive listened to the ost a few times #and cathrine doesnt really seem to have much of a character #or at least nothing much really happened with her and jaremy and them getting together at the end didnt make much sense to me #and like yeah jeremy and michael had that reconnect in the play but michael barely did anything in more than survive reprised it wouldve- #-wouldve worked pretty well #more than survive reprised i meant voices in my head how the hell did i even fuck that up #we need more media of the dude besties getting together instead of the mc just getting with Some Girl he likes but has 0 history with #(i have these same feelings towards national treasure btw) #be more chill #EDIT DOD I SAY CATHRINE I MEANT CHRISTINE IM FUCKING STUPID LMAO #*DID #FUCK #these tags are a disaster omfao #breh #💀💀💀💀💀

[kira-moonrabbit]

i gathered my best stock photos and textures, and Some Limbinis, and made These Three. ...Could be better, could be worse.

#kira's mysterious editing tag #limbus company #off topic. but. ive been calling the sinners 'lim-beany weenies.' why is that so? you tell me. #also yahoo bare minimum maintagging because i at least like how the first one came out lookin'

[insert-neologism]

pisces moon by flower face

#yellowjackets #jackieshauna #second to last guys #honestly im proud of myself #like. I used to not edit good or at least not edit much and I think it shows in spiracle BUT ive come so far. I think #probably gonna like reedit spiracle for the final cut (if that ever exists. but u plan on dojng some sorta masterppst or smth??) #but im gonna leave the first one. Just for me #mine art tag #mitos incredible life #Getting EMOTIONAL #anyways. this is pretty jackieshauna fr barely did ANYTHING but for some parts i had no idea like what to do #So I just out anything. hope it's not too apparent (and if then Idk ignore it lol) #jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water

[skrunksthatwunk]

i just finished saw v and i don't have high hopes for the rest of the franchise (based on what ive heard) but im in too deep to stop now

#no i haven't enjoyed the last two no i don't expect to get much out of the next five or so movies. but i need to know. #i guess saw v mightve suffered bc i watched it basically immediately after iv #something i didnt do with any of the others #but i was told v was one of the good ones so i was looking forward to it. i dont think it was burnout yknow #but uh. i didn't like it. i think i liked iv more honestly. strahm and hoffman do absolutely nothing for me #i liked the traps. that was it though #it felt so pointless and empty. it was the first one where i genuinely wondered why they made it. why did they decide to keep going with #this. i think ii and iv both function more/better as setup for their following films but like. at least iii was pretty good yknow #like both amanda and hoffman's accomplicing feels kinda retconned in but at least amanda's an interesting character #what does hoffman have. what does strahm have. nothing. and no i don't think they have much in the way of homoeroticism either. #i don't tend to be so negative and im sorry if someone goes in the saw tags and feels bad about me talking shit about something they like #because i know that doesn't feel good. honestly i'd love to hear why people like v. maybe it'll change my opinion of it if i look at it a #different way yknow? but for now im just annoyed by it. iv was engaging in the moment but very forgettable #i liked riggs well enough but we barely learned a thing about him. he wasn't a deep character at all and i think that's a shame #but v was just a paperwork-based cat and mouse chase. 90 minutes and it still felt like they were wasting my time #why did strahm go to the old trap locations? i don't think he found anything out there. likr it was just a framing device for the flashback #but he didn't actually have a reason to go there. waste of my time #not an original critique im sure but saw ii on seems to be more focused on scale and layers of shit (i.e. having two games going at once) #than using the traps to examine the characters. i mean you go from two guys in a bathroom for a couple hours #learning about who they are gradually at a slow pace vs like 8 people in a house plus cop stuff plus 90 second traps of dubious fairness #hoffman has no real relationship with kramer (unlike amanda) and basically everyone who'd been following jigsaw is dead and so are jigsaw #and (presumably) amanda. what am i supposed to be here for? the vague outline of a saw trap? the type of torture happening? #im not even opposed to that per se but frankly the more they focus on the cops surrounding this shit the less fun it is #why are you making all the traps like 15 seconds long and tied to characters who aren't the primary focus. it's saw #ughh i miss adam. i miss amanda. hell i miss kramer and he was pretty present in this one (flashbackwise) #whateverrr. anyway that poll comparing chainshippng shotgunnshippng and coffinshippng where shotgun was last? lesbophobic. #im only half joking about that. im sure ppl have their reasons for coffin but i also think it's the tendency fandom bias for “two white guy #ships. but hey maybe vi and onwards will add more context to that that'll make me reconsider. i mean i wouldn't have liked the amanda #accomplice thing That much if i'd only seen ii. i think iii really makes it mesh better and it leads to fun character stuff #(though i still think i would've liked it more bc like. amanda was always grateful to jigsaw right? again hoffman comes outta nowhere)

[princekirijo]

Istg I actually need to sit down and write a proper bio for Riku because even I get confused af as to what his personality is sometimes.

#oc tag #“but prince he's your oc how tf did this happen” he has a mind of his own trust me #i mean this is literally one of the parts of his character he is literally so good at adapting his personality #because he felt he needed to as a kid both in school and in the business world #that barely anyone knows what he's actually like #like one minute he's a suave overconfident guy who can take on anything #but hes also the quiet dude in class who never participates is probably asleep but somehow gets everything right and is top of the grade #he loves to flirt but will absolutely blue screen if anyone flirts back because despite the fact he flaunts himself- #he doesn't think hes attractive LMAO #his biggest motivation is spite and he doesn't know when to quit #this boy has so many fucking issues istg #def one of those characters who has so many masks that he hardly knows himself #i have a fear that he's nearly too complex to the point where he's a confusing character and i personally dont think thats a good thing #so i really hope that's not the case for you guys 😬 #over my break ive really spent time trying to iron out his character and just make him into soemthing im even more proud of you know #the good thing is that at least his story now has a clear arc and theme which im really proud of #so im gonna use that to build off and iron him out even more #the way i put more work into this funky dude i came up with than like my entire uni work #i love him so much sorry to be mentally ill about a guy i made because i liked a ship too much (and crossover i was having fun with too) #one day i will have a proper post for him with references and everything for him his outfits his personas the lot #one of these days

[extremelyputridfishbreath]

sooo after getting two rose candles and a eucalyptus candle (the least interesting part of the series), i FINALLY got one of the fish tanks from the mga make it mini series, specifically the angelfish! got a lot of air bubbles even with tapping like the instructions said and getting rid of the ones i immediately saw with a toothpick, buuut i think that it's fine since it's y'know, supposed to be water. anyway its very cute! i've taken a liking to getting miniatures for my ocs since the first mga make it mini i picked up, and i really do find the aquarium specific ones the cutest, so here's hoping we can get more cute pets and decorations for my ocs! snacks for scrabble. sorry i mean snacks for scrabble. sorry i m

#scrabble #ehhhh i wont put it in the MAIN tag bc you can barely see scrabble #anyway protip: i think the tanks are the heaviest ones. and the lightest MIGHT be candles. i havent gotten one of the plants in a while so #they might also be heavy. but this tank was heavy and doesnt rattle as much as the duplicate rose candle i have. it was..denser #ofc your mileage may vary but yknow. thats what my pull was like #i still really want at LEAST one of the bettas (preferably the red one tbh but like. idc lol i just want them bc i love bettas) ive NEVER #seen bettafish get toys in the mainstream so id be happy if i got both versions. then id want the goldfish and either turtle (no real #preference there). then other than uhhh a few plants id be satisfied #tbh the bubbles look kinda cute. and not annoying like on the candles where they leave gaping holes <3 #i'll probably take better pictures when im done repainting the shelves bc their default colors are ugly to me <3 #...shelves as in the ones that come with the capsule not like. shelves for me

[madnessself-indulgence]

me checking my phones youtube notifications after a good nights sleep

#my post #tf2 #if you want the list of who they are im gonna list them in tags from left to right top to bottom #madekoo #Geebanger0 #Joey Cheerio #Bomer #Zeyo (the dog pfp next to it is just their side channel (Zeyo?)) #Fishtank #Toopy #The Average F2P #highly recommend fishtank theyve made one of my favorite tf2 videos ive seen and ive barely ever looked at tf2 videos #til now at least lol

[your-fave-is-bi]

I need to get better at art so i can be more obnoxious abt my oc/canon ships but to do that I actually have to make the art

#personal tag #when I eventually get a job again i think I’ll buy myself an apple pencil #i got my sister’s old ipad bc it has a crack in the screen but its barely noticeable and i doubt I’d do more than just sketches anyway #but i think i would enjoy drawing on a ipad #i think the versatility of digital drawing is just so big. I sometimes feel very stagnant bc i mainly draw traditionally #and i dont need my art to be Professional; im doing this purely for me n my enjoyment #but i do like when things look nice. n i have such ambitious plans and. traditional art doesnt cut it for those #at least not how i do stuff idk #im rambling now i just thought abt dahriel n astarion n how i wanna draw little interactions but aaaaaa #ive never actually doodled in a sketchbook while sitting on the couch i just realized. maybe I’d like it idek

[jewdog]

gonna be real im like At the end of my rope

#ive been stuck in my g-d forsaken mold-ridden apartment for TWO MONTHS!! #i tried to go back to work and i was somewhat ok for like 1 week #and then my symptoms 1. came back and 2. became worse #like some days i literally cant even get out of bed #i hate my job but holy fuck i hate this more #the only time i dont feel like complete and utter SHIT is when im high #so ive been spending what Tiny cash i have left over after bills on weed #and im running out of both. lol. #like everything hurts i cant eat i cant sleep i can barely keep fluids down #and ig the weed just makes everything numb. so its not better but its at least not Worse #aaaaaaaa im so tired. #drugs tw #idk ask to tag #j barks

[i-demand-a-good-username]

Been playing a TON of palworld and I am so autistic over it 😭 it's literally just me and my little goober animal friends that go around and explore just a beautiful open world map and build and try to survive 🫶 what more could I really ask for

#hope i can just see little art of the goobers in the tags one day #and not a bunch of arguing #its so pretty too like im in love with the red area that looks like fall #and my giant chillet boss i caught 🫶 #i honestly thought it was going to be exactly like pokemon but its genuinely a lot more like rust but with little guys 🫶 #i would say its like minecraft but minecraft is too far off in its own wag #i only say rust because ive seen my brither play it and that looks about right #i saw people say that they make basically slave farms and like ??? HOW?? #if they dont live in the most comfortable and happy environment they will NOT work 😭😭😭 #i dodnt know that they liked higher quality meals so i was only feeding them berries and everyone was just angry sleeping or slacking 😭 #i was so distraught too because i thought i did everything perfect 😭 #THEY HAVE THREE HOT TUB/SPA THINGS!! #WHY ARE YOU MAD ABOUT THE WORK ENVIRONMENT 😭 #anyway now they get great meals and i make sure to pet them whenever they help me with something 🫶 #tried making a base for only farming materials and i literally spent more mats just making the bare minimum 😭 #which still needs at least one hottub 😭😭😭 #anyway ramble over #just having a lot of fun and im glad i gave it a shot #if youre on the fence- its a lot more than just pokemon and guns #if you just really like survival overworld games with cute creatures that are reminicent of pokemon #i think youll love it #oh yeah you can capture humans LMAO #useless tho 😒 id rather have a cute little sheep that has the same stats #palworld #ramble #autistic ramblings