#or even just esas

[mueritos]

quick lil post about coming back to art full-time while also being a full time MSW student….it can be possible 0.0

anyway ty to everyone who has supported me over the years i wouldnt be able to go back to art without you all

#muertodraws #also becoming a lil more comfy calling myself autistic even tho every autistic person i have ever me is like yea ur us lol #back in therapy and i finished my first sem of grad school off strong #next sem will be crazy but o well #hoping to volunteer at a cat shelter next yr too #i need a cat in my life or else i will explode #i would get one now as an esa but i just dont have the money #so heres to hoping #anyway i know my asks are off and thats cuz i just needed to focus on school #maybe theyll come back on next year but for now if u need to reach me feel free to pm or email me #dm me on instagram too if u gotta reach me #trying to balance being on here and also wanting to be invisible and blend in with the masses and work my 9-5 and act like i dont have like #intimate knowledge about online discourse lmfao #anyway #see u all soon

[blue-theservicedog]

Absolutely infuriating that Etsy drove away service dog gear makers because they can’t prove that the gear is going to an actual service dog, but are absolutely fine hosting service dog-style vests and patches as long as they’re for ESAs.

#the only reason someone would need an ESA vest like that is to take them in public. ESAs DO NOT HAVE PA RIGHTS #service dog #service dogblr #in the US ESAs don’t even have flying rights anymore! so flying is not a good reason to have that kind of vest! I’m just! AGH #the ableism is astounding and I’m frustrated because I don’t know how to report the shop or if it would do anything

[automatonknight]

juice patch........

#IT'S 40ZŁ!!!!!!!! #it's so pretty though....generally esa has really nice designs of their mission stuff idk #not sure if i could even order any but. eep.... #i'll just have to do something on my own as always! #i have some red and white fabric i could to like. well i could do something fun with it #i just love satellites so much. spacecrafts in general....

[dormiloncito]

you ever have a meal so good it stays in your mind forever

#once i had to get some medical exams and other things but the only available appointment to get those done was like at 5 am #so i went mega early and was out of the building around 1pm #i was STARVING so for lunch i went to the first place i saw- a mexican restaurant right accross the street #i don't even remember the name. i didn't even get a menu or anything i just ordered some of the pre-made food they had on display #i think it was like. enchiladas. and also cheesy potatoes (as in mashed potatoes i think) #doesn't sound too fancy but good god i think about those potatoes every now and then. that was almost four years ago #i don't even live anywhere near the area anymore. #i must have been REALLY hungry it probably wasn't as amazing as i remember but still 😆 #el local era hermoso tenian piñatas de esas de forma de estrella

[doedipus]

I feel like the main reason I'm still doing TO shit is that I wouldn't have much of a sense of purpose or routine otherwise, but like honestly more often than not it's not really rewarding at all and I'm typically totally checked out after an hour. so like there's probably a good argument that I should just bounce but I would go insane if I wasn't able to trick myself into not feeling like a neet for one night a week

it really can't be overstated how much ESA turning me down and then subsequently imploding has taken the wind out of my sails with this stuff, and beyond that I perpetually feel like an outsider within the community. I don't need to be besties with people but some level of recognition that I exist and put time into these things would be nice. like it's petty as hell but it always feels really bad that none of the players ever even think to ping me when they have a technical issue or something. idk what proportion of it is just not being on twitter vs. not being very assertive vs. being a weird faggot lurking around the scene, but it's really depressing.

#it honestly goes for playing these games too #the esa saga the experience at the local and the general emptiness of volunteering for wwgg are just crushing #like if there's no social connection and no on ramp to employment and not even a boost to twitch revenue #then what am I even doing here man #but I know that if I left my mental health would start spiraling immediately

[ilseofskadi]

if i had the time or brain juice i would write a series of one shots set in a modern day au for hsr where by some circumstances bronya ends up in serval's care

like serval and cocolia are exes who had a bitter break up after college or something but cocolia still put serval as bronya's godmother or something so when cocolia dies (under mysterious circumstances) a teenage bronya shows up at serval's door

it would include bronya learning more unsavory sides of her mother from serval's left over bitter feelings (that she tries to hide but fails) and trying find a reason behind cocolia's death and bronya also coming to terms with the fact that her mother had a past gf

also bronya dealing with going from some kind of rich private school in a high class city to a middle/lower-middle class public school in a less-to-do city where she naturally meets the punky loud girl seele who she decides is Bad but secretly starts to crush on her, so there's that to deal with too

other main ships would be gepard/sampo (gepard is a police chief who is always chasing petty thief sampo, who flirts with him all the time which gives geppie Weird Feelings that he shuts away in a box), lynx/pela (college freshies who are bffs but big sis serval can see pela's crush a mile away when they come visit for spring break; they're also roommates), and serval/natasha (an almost blooming relationship between serval and a clinic doctor she meets by chance; there's subtle flirting but neither are sure they're fit for a relationship due to work or past experiences)

and on the side is platonic foster parents himeko and welt who take care of march (a sweet girl who came to them a few years ago with no memories of where she came from) and dan heng (a mysterious boy who showed up recently and they figured needed a home) but there's also stelle (who march brought home like a wet stray dog one day) but she has a "family" (her adoptive mom kafka, who is very enigmatic and ends up having a strange rivalry like relationship with himeko)

idk how silver wolf, blade, and any of the other characters would fit in tbh but this idea keeps haunting me

maybe i'll write someone for it in the distant future when i have a fully working laptop lmao

#honkai star rail #idk how to tag this #it's very self indulgent lol #like i wouldn't want anyone else writing it bc i feel like it wouldn't be how i'd want it but i don't want to write it myself you know?? #prob would include light danstellemarch either platonic or romantic #idek how cocolia dies in this she just has to be dead lmao or maybe she's actually alive but faked her death for some reason?? #idk man this is most likely never going to be written #i just gotta get this out of my head #pom pom is there probably as march's esa bunny or something #also himeko and welt are not marries even for tax purposes bc they're so platonically married and have known each other for so long #*married #welt is march's dad and himeko is dan heng's mom in this too #idk if just foster parents or actually adopted

[weaselishmcdiesel]

AHSJSJ in reference to https://at.tumblr.com/weaselishmcdiesel/idk-if-youre-being-serious-in-the-tags-but-if-you/b7me6xnnx57f (i was the anon in question)

its definitely less “official” than proper therapist, but the letter of recommendation for an emotional supper pet you get is in fact from a Real Certified Therapist (at least mine was, i checked), and it carries no indication of being provided through the website, so i doubt people would be like “oh this isn’t legitimate”

in general is it cutting corners? certainly, but it is a good option if you dont have access to/funds for a proper diagnosis, and if you genuinely think an emotional support animal would make your life better, its worth researching. i dont know if i’d call it “fake” per say, but it is for sure easier to fake than yknow a proper diagnosis, so i see why this would be an issue nonetheless. two sides to everything etc etc

(if youre curious to know more or see my letter i’m happy to send it through dms or whatever)

oo, erm, please take the rest of my response in the context that i really have, maybe a collective of 3 hours worth of research on this topic as i was originally planning not to use an ESA site at all, and im not aware of the specifics of any experience using official, medical, therapy options.

im really glad that everything went smoothly for you, and i hope that more people can have access to treatment just as easily and with just as much documentation to prove it.

But the conduct surrounding the treatment of mental health is unfairly complicated so it's not unwise to be picky about which route one takes to receive the documentation and care they require. ideally, no one would have to worry if the letter they acquired IS legitimate and they could collect the proper benefits. unfortunately, i dont know if my school cares about my mental health more than their precious building so much so that they would dig around and find some critical loophole to keep my pet out

the research i DID do uncovered reviews stating that people had their pettable letters denied and in some cases there was fine print that prevented them from getting refunded. the question at the end of the day is do i trust the ESA site to give me valid documentation MORE than i trust my school to be OVERLY, even MALICIOUSLY nitpicky about the legitimacy of my paperwork.

and, i personally would have to be cautious since it's more than a simple drive my cat would have to endure but a plane ride too, and another one back if he's suddenly denied an ESA position, so i can't risk the letter having even one pitfall. i do hope you understand everyone's apprehension ^^ I will continue doing my research and hope that in the end i dont give my school one more reason to be even more strict with ESA especially for people who need them more than me (because there are, probably, people who poorly fake the papers and then make it harder for the rest of us as the other user is calling attention to)

#if it's alright i dont want to take more opinions on this! not mad but i would like to conduct my research with a little less bias :) <3 #plus i dont want to stir anymore controversy alright? #and ofc i dont want to have to reveal the specifics of my situation if it comes down to it haha #but your input is appreciated- dont worry too much about me ok! #im sure that whenever i get my cat ill update everyone ahha ill never shut up about him #i saw your second ask and i havent even scoured the whole website for that option yet- i AM busy with homework haha #weasel speaks #asks! #i hope nothing comes off as aggressive i just want to explain the other side fairly #it's never in poor interest to be cautious! if someone really needs their ESA im sure theyll figure out a way to do it #.....hopefully..... but that isnt always the case #but i also doubt those people are coming to my blog for advice

[esa-marie]

Stuck in Outline Hell. Save me/j

#baby blues #(tagging it bc even though its not referenced this is about it) #my art #esa talks #Im stuck in outline hell #Where I just get caught up planning and planning #and not much actual chapters get written #usually this happens before I post it #but I posted chapter one kinda on a whim like 'Ill see where this takes me :D" #And now im like 20 google doc pages deep in outlining and re-outlining and plannign #dsmdsahhgfdsahga

[darkacey]

Lesson learned — don’t get an apartment that says no pets and expect your landlord to be reasonable when she allows an ESA as an exception.

#cw vent #darkacey rambles #my landlord is the biggest fucking bitch about my 8lbs dog #literally she’s trying to make me sign an addendum to our lease so she can force me to not let my dog play fucking fetch inside #bc she dosn’t like the sound of Maisy’s happy little paws going across the floor #and she acts like Maisy barks 24/7 #but Maisy rarely barks and even when she does it’s not for more than 15-20 minutes #also she has no fucking idea how to format legally binding paperwork #the addendum is a free template for PETS not ESAs #and the lease itself was also a free template #I’m suing this bitch for harrassment #and I’m going to break my lease early bc this is such bullshit #i just want to own my own house but everything is too expensive #moving is going to suck #but hopefully I can get some money from her for it #if not then at least I have some savings #and thank god my friends are supportive in all of this #offering to help pack and load a truck and find me lawyers #this pretty much solidifies that even though I don’t like the town I’m currently living in #i never want to give up the friends I’ve made here #y’all follow me and know this so thank you #everybody else thanks for listening to this vent

[knifedog]

sally can absolutely tell when I'm anxious.. unfortunately she associates it with going on walkies so she's just ridiculously annoying which makes it worse LMAO

she's getting locked out of my office while I wait

#oh yes just what my anxiety needs a crying dog lmao #can you believe the rescue i guy her from said she'd be a good esa? #bro she doesn't even snuggle #it's fine I'm just a little nervous

[butterfly-apocalypse]

tw: vent, PTSD, flashback 😩

(I’m fine just irritated and upset)

#read a post that upset but I managed to calm myself down and not be triggered #then saw a second post that caught me off guard but still managed to stay calm but now bad thoughts are amuck #saw a third and fourth post in quick succession with triggers in them #(I need to check my filters or stop using mobile bc I can’t use xkit) #I’m just gonna get off the internet and like do Duolingo or something #but it feels like my brain is floating in bad feeling soup #and like yeah! i managed to calm myself down and ground and not grt triggered or have a flashback or get drowned in awful thoughts #and that’s progress and a lot of work and my therapist would be proud! #but I’m still like 10x more exhausted than I was counting on tonight #and even if I’m not spiraling I’m still THINKING about things I don’t want to have to think about right now #but that’s the sort of thing that doesn’t go away really. #there are some topics I’ll always be stupidly sensitive to that will ruin my day upon encountering them #and these are not safe topics to be sensitive about because people love to take advantage of that sensitivity #and my ESA is over an hour away because my school makes it intentionally difficult to get approval #if anyone is reading my rant (bless you 💕) and knows how to filter words on mobile please let me know how #of course that doesn’t always help because there’s a lot of slang and allusions and images #and feel literally sick to my stomach having to ask people to tag my triggers #(I’ve had some bad experiences with asking people to accommodate my triggers recently) #and I hate doing it in the first place #i hate being in America. my PTSD has been making up for lost time since I got back from Wales. #ah whoop there it goes flashback time 🤪 #(I’ll be okay I am fine I just was upset and wanted to rant but that made me more upset :/) #((gonna go suck on a jolly rancher watch Old Enough))

[dingdongitmustbelove]

i needddd to inject these men into my stupid bloodstream i can't take it anymore how else am i supposed to deal with these fucking emotions

#not tagging anyone because i'm thinking of at least five characters at once and some of them don't even have a tag (shhh) #if you know you know and if you don't then just pretend you didn't even see this post #💬 y sabrán que te quiero esas calles vacías

[thetreethatspeaks]

they’ve had two group hangouts and i haven’t been invited even though i used to always be invited. dude wtf is HAPPENING UGH- like i know i need to just talk to them about it but i just feel soooo paranoid that some of them hate me 🫶🏻🫶🏻. the way i literally haven’t had these issues in SOOOO long but NOW they decide it’s time for me to question every thing!! THIS IS SO FUN!!!!

#and like #i brought my cat back to school to be an esa #and maybe that’s why they haven’t asked? bc they know i have her to take care of #but she literally was napping in my roommates lap for like 3-4 hours?? #like i’m not the only one here to look after her or love on her #which idk if it’s that or if they just hate me #even though when something happened the other day they like EMPHASIZED remaining good friends #idk i am just all over the place rn #it feels like the foundations of my friendships have just been FUCKED over rn #again idk #random 7 am rant 🫶🏻

[sk3l3t0n444]

i think i could really benefit from a service dog but my other dogs would get jealous that i take one dog everywhere and not them lmao

#i really think if i at least got an esa i could go out into the world and exist fairly well #and i would even train them myself #and since im getting a new dog this saturday i can work on training with her that will help me out! even if she isnt an esa #i think id like to teach her how to ground me #cuz shes a shih tzu and she can sit on my lap :) #im so excited about my new doggie #even if i dont train her at all #shes going to make me so happy #shes a little tripawd shih tzu <3 her name is stella but her foster mom calls her bunny but im gonna name her lefty! #cuz shes missing her right front leg #and yes shes being named lefty as a slight fnaf reference #anyeays im going to pick her up on saturday <3 #maybe ill show you guys the picture on her profile #or the ones i saw when i stalked her foster moms facebook #im not that creepy i promise #thats kinda a lie #i am pretty weird and creepy #but thats not the point #shes just so damn cute and im so excited #ive already picked out some stuff for her on amazon and were honna stop at the pet store on our way back with her #im getting her a special harness so it works better for her since shes missing a leg #EEEEEEEEEEEEE IM SO EXCITED #ive gotten all sorts of stuff for her to help her get around and enjoy life like any other dog #im gonna get her the cutest sweaters and then modify them to fit her better #i wanna learn to crochet too #this dog is the best thing ever #i cant wait eeeeee im getting her on saturday <33333 #how do i pass the timeeeeeeee??? #i cant even wait i am so damn excited

[daggersandarrows]

having just sort of a Night

#could physically Feel myself getting to that point of “hasn't seen humans in long enough that it's Bad” #this usually hits for me around the 72 hour mark moving up or down depending on how long it's been since i've shared a bad #but it's also that tipping point where i'm in a 50/50 split between “oh i need humans” and “actually what if i just didn't make an effort t #see anyone again ever" #was leaning hard towards option two when meg had to cancel which is when the [i'm in danger] feeling Hit #i don't feel. like. BAD. but i'm having an adjustment coming off gabapentin so i Need to do things that give me purpose #and i was halfway through cleaning the apartment when they called #stopped dead intending to finish and simply Didn't #but i fed myself switched my laundry and did some actual flight rising planning #and finally and i'm most proud of this one #i FINALLY quit my part time job #i fully intended to give them two week's notice but kept procrastinating then got hit with massive guilt which of course got worse #my boss was really nice about it and i guess one week is better than nothing #i have a feeling i'm going to feel much better tomorrow and that my executive function is going to improve bc that was REALLY weighing on m #idk why i just couldn't fucking make myself do it #i even fucking brought it up in therapy fully intending to quit that day #and. Didn't. #oh i also emailed my therapist to discuss esa paperwork! AND i read fetch api documentation in prep for maaaaybe testing into the advanced #code the dream class #i guess i did a lot today it just feels like all i did was sit in front of the tv #i'll feel better tomorrow. i will. #thing is. i'm much better at coping with being unexpectedly alone than coping with being unexpectedly with people. #i know how this works. i'll be okay. i'll be okay #i'm going to finish my audiobook and go to work and code and text my friends #i will be fine #i just feel a little lonely and weird tonight and i need more vitamin d and also to remember to take my meds #thane.txt

[sweet-as-kiwis]

“Easy Construction” (<- will take well over two hours)

#god I will never get over how sucky the first few days of being on campus are #I miss my cat. i miss my mom. I miss having Room. i miss not hearing when every single neighbor showers. #I’ve cried more in the last 24 hours than I have the rest of the year. I have accounting on Tuesday. I don’t even know where my classes Are #textbooks almost cost me $1000. Jiji is eating styrofoam. I’m gonna cry again. I’ve been here one night and I wanna go Home. #but heyyy at least my fav fanfic updated last night so I have That to read!! it will Also likely make me cry #idk yet I haven’t had time to open the discord #also if you’re considering getting an ESA pls get One the last two years I’ve just bottled shit up and had a full depressive spiral Later #now I’m crying into a lil kitten and getting that shot Out instead! much better!! #anyways. so excited for the new school year it’s off to a Start