#or focusing too much on it

[ambrosiagourmet]

I think one of the biggest tragedies of Laios & Falin and their relationship is how much his actions impact her life. But like. Specifically how much they WOULDN’T impact her life as much if they weren’t both stuck in such a shitty abusive situation.

This part of the Falin-tries-makeup daydream hour comic is what got me thinking about it again because truly it just... it seems like such a like an offhand comment that I'm sure Laios didn't mean to be cruel or anything. That's just like. A little kid not thinking about what they are saying. ESPECIALLY when the kid in question is Laios.

But man they depended on each other SO much as kids. Too much. It really feels like they didn't have any other source of positive reinforcement, or anyone else to share themselves with. So of course an offhand comment like that has a huge impact on Falin.

Or this little bit from one of the flashbacks:

This tears me apart. Do you think it tears him apart to think about? I think it does. I think Laios holds every small failure to care for Falin against himself.

And then there's the Bigger stuff. The way that him coping with his own trauma ended up impacting her.

Like his interest in monsters. Like him going to find a ghost, and accidentally revealing Falin's magic to the whole village in the process.

Like him needing to leave. And leaving her behind.

He shaped her life so much, and he carries so much guilt for it. And again, there should have been other people there to help. The same things that made Laios need to leave home are the things that made his leaving so hard on Falin. She ate alone after that. She shouldn't have had to eat alone just because Laios wasn't there.

She was 9 when he left for school, and he was 11.

Nine. And Laios feels like he failed her because he didn't stand by her through this better. As an eleven year old.

Both of these kids deserved so much better from the world.

#dunmeshi analysis #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #falin touden #laios touden #dungeon meshi spoilers #AND this isn't even getting into her leaving the academy & how much it seems like that was directly tied to how poorly he was doing #there's a comic in the adventurer's bible where marcille is like 'yeah she had a job lined up and everything' #and like. do you think he feels bad for that too #like he wrecked her life by leaving #and wrecked her life by showing up #what do you even do at that point. if you feel like a failed protector when you are away & and a burden when you return #unable to make yourself accept. unable to make yourself resist #Laios strongest moment is when he lets himself accept that. the contradiction of his life & his relationship with Falin #that he has to kill her to save her #as a small note this came out a little more focused on Laios' POV with this stuff but Falin's experience of it is v important to me too #didn't mean to sideline her but her feelings about stuff are more speculative and probably need a post of their own

[itsdefinitely]

TUMBLR LEGWND ITSDEIFNITLEY ALSO DRAWS SANDERS SIDES?!?!???

i dabble

#sanders sides #remus sanders #janus sanders #id in alt text #definitely art #(patton voice) now what did we learn #sigh. don't rewatch selfishness v selflessness + the redux and working through intrusive thoughts first thing in the morning #i couldnt find a good reference for their bottom halves and i didnt want to spend too long looking for one. so i improvised #i designed a more flashy cane for janus i just didn't want to draw it. maybe he was focused more on mobility than style. who knows #i didn't want to shade this. or like. put too much effort into this because it was a warmup #so if you see imperfections. n. nuh uh. no you don't

[ruporas]

in a mood (ID in alt)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #doing straight up nothing with the bestie. really good activity of doing nothing #i mainly drew this just so i can test how itd be not drawing their faces bc i Love drawing their faces a little too much. #maybe ill throw them in a more intense situation next time i try it bc it just ended up focusing on wolfwood and his silly newspaper #he's reading the news... cruel happenings all around no mans land... have to keep up to know where to go next and where to avoid #but theres also some guy in the same room being distracting as hell. i think they can coexist without bothering each other but theyd #be so painfully aware of the other person... both of them usually have tended to their own space after all for years. ww especially i think #would be easily distracted with vash's presence bc he's spent 2 years thinking about him already (for his mission...) #and thinking about vash is a Little easier than dealing with his personal anguish #though it can definitely overlap too. and sometimes its not that bad. sometimes its just vash's hand feeling unexpectedly nice and gentle #ruporas art

[madtomedgar]

5 states including kentucky (!!) voted to protect abortion access. 3 states did away with slavery (prison labor) as punishment for a crime. 3 states made massive commitments to affordable housing. illinois made collective bargaining a protected right. 2 more states legalized weed. connecticut is moving towards early voting. alabama removed racist language from the state constitution and is investing in statewide public broadband internet. california massively expanded funding for arts and music programs in public schools. colorado raised on the wealthiest in order to provide universal free school lunch to students. georgia may no longer pay cops who are suspended on a felony indictment. massachusetts massively expanded funding for public education and infrastructure, massively expanded dental insurance, and will allow residents to get a drivers license or state id regardless of immigration status. montana will now require a search warrant for access to electronic data. nebraska will increase its minimum wage to $15. new mexico will massively improve and expand senior facilities, public libraries, higher ed, special public schools, and tribal schools, residential utilities (water, internet, electricity). new york is putting 4.2 billion towards climate change mitigation. rhode island is increasing funding for public education and environmental protection. south dakota expanded medicaid.

#there are good ballot measures still up in the air too #every news outlet is focusing on the party politics of it all #and that is important too #but tennessee voted to do away with slavery as punishment #and kentucky voted to defend abortion #and there are all these little things that are actually huge wins #across so many states #and SO much work goes into ballot measures #anyway

[clownsuu]

What do you think about wally with fangs ewe?

F I n a. L l y, an excuse to draw him with dientes-

feels very cursed but honestly it looks good on the ol puppet smhhh

Lil doodles of the ol goblin-

Every time I look at reference photos for Howdy I get all happy kicking my feet in the air giggling smhh

#Welcome home #welcome how wally #Wally darling #welcome home howdy #howdy pillar #i used to get that kinda bread a lot as a wee smol child #However I never really focused on eating the bread part? It was always too hard for me #I’d mostly just eat the sugar (making sure to eat it with said bread so at least I ate some of it JHDDHD) #Now days I never really eat anything sweet #My go to is always them breads with the cheese and jalapeño in em #M y g o l l y I crave em #Sadly my stores don’t sELL EM MUCH ANYMORE ITS INCREDIBLY RARE TO FIND EMMMMMM #If I’m lucky I’d find ones with just cheese smh

[indybob]

I miss them so bad you don’t understand

GIF credit: @agreatandhonorablesoldier

#top gun 3 focused on rooster and hangman when??? #i need hangster to be canon #is that too much to ask?? #sereshaw #hangster #bradley rooster bradshaw #jake hangman seresin #top gun maverick

[lokh]

self explanatory. they are both transmasc. also i think it would be cute for yamato to call baiken aniki

#yamato one piece #op yamato #one piece #baiken #guilty gear #guilty gear strive #art #i actually came up with the outfit swap first. which u wouldnt believe cos i ended up #just shitting out a sketch LMAO focused too much on the other one #i gotta practice drawing baiken. #would this do numbers on twitter or would i get chased off the platform. well ram already went there so this can too

[tojigasm]

Felix holding you in his lap at a party and shotgunning the smoke from his cig into your mouth while he holds your jaw and tells you how pretty you look I'm never going to be normal again!!!!

#felix catton #jacob elordi #felix catton x reader #jacob elordi x reader #and like youre focusing too much on his eyebrow piercing because hes so pretty with his dark brows and his pouty lips and doe eyes and and–

[tea-time221]

wrings them out like wet towels

art block got to me so heres them but miniscule and also coloured because i cant help but draw them

wyllstarion posession 😔

#anatomy's hard gang 😭😭 #i got too focused on tiny details that ive completely forgotten how to draw #and im DEVASTATED because theres a lil smth i wanna work on #anyway i think i should colour more #this looks so much more visually interesting 🤒🤒 #bg3 #wyll #astarion #wyllstarion #bloodpact #bloodblade #farts n sharts

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

having Marina and Acht be old buddies separated for years like this was so RUDE

so WHY'D side order have to stab me in the heart with this friendship like that huh?? why'd they have to DO that!!!!

I AM UNWELL

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

#splatoon 3 #side order #acht mizuta #dedf1sh #marina ida #AND THEY WERE OLD FRIENDS #!!!!!!!!! #AND THEY CARE SO MUCH #AFTER ALL THIS TIME #THE SYMBOLISM OF ACHT HAVING A WOUND THAT CANT HEAL #BUT THEN THEY MEET MARINA AGAIN #AND SHE DELETS THE WOUND #SO HER AND ACHT CAN JAM TOGETHER AGAIN #THE PARALEL OF MARINA BEING TAKEN OVER BY ORDER- BC SHE WAS SCARED OF CHANGE #AND ACHT DEALING WITH CHANGE BY FOCUSING ONLY ON MUSIC- ENDING WITH THEM GETTING SANITIZED #AND AND AND #ITS NOT JUST THEM HELPING GUIDE EIGHT AND PEARL #GOING UP THE SPIRE SAVED THEM TOO!!!!!!!

[ssseriema]

oh i also forgot i drew this scott!! hes supposed to be pre-necromancy witch scott but you can also take him as widowed flower husband scott ig

#i think ive been focusing too much on coloring art lately #i need to go back to doodlin something and posting it as is #cuz i have too many ideas to get them all done if i do the whole shebang #scott smajor #smajor1995 #dangthatsalongname #smajor fanart #witchcraft smp #wcsmp #flower husbands #???? #idk #seri art

[beanghostprincess]

Sanji and Usopp during The Sabaody Incident™ won't leave my mind.

Usopp standing in front of Sanji protectively because he is wounded and he can't fight, so Usopp will do it for him ("I'll do what you can't do").

There is just something about Sanji's expression when he realizes he might actually lose Usopp. This is my interpretation, at least. He is literally frightened.

Usopp helping Sanji stand up to run away. This is crucial for something I want to point out later: Sanji needs help to stand up. (Also, Brook disappears trying to protect them both and saying he will do anything to save them even if it costs him his life. I am feeling sick).

Sanji being self-sacrificing and blaming himself for not being able to protect them/act sooner is not new. But he does manage to gain the strength to fight when Usopp is the only one left with him and the possibility of losing him is even more real now.

The thing that I love the most about this is not Sanji sacrificing himself for Usopp, because he does that. He is like that. But Usopp not running away or moving in the slightest because he refuses to leave Sanji on his own.

Something I'd like to point out too is that Sanji actually touches Kuma before Usopp disappears. He tries to fight and protect him and Kuma could've easily sent Sanji to Momoiro Island right away, and yet Sanji was just sent flying far from the scene and forced to see Usopp disappear in front of him.

And I am not saying that "not being able to protect both Brook and Usopp (especially Usopp) is needed for Sanji to realize he has to become stronger and find more reasons to go back with the crew" but not being able to protect both Brook and Usopp (especially Usopp) is needed for Sanji to realize he has to become stronger and find more reasons to go back with the crew.

Not to mention that we can't deny (right after Water 7/Enies Lobby) that Usopp is one of Sanji's strongest bonds within the crew. This specific scene focusing on them both is more than enough to prove it.

Sanji seeing Usopp disappear in front of his eyes without being able to do anything to save him.

Remember what I said about Sanji needing help to stand up seconds ago? Well. This is him the moment Usopp disappears. What adrenaline and the power of love do to a mf.

They are so "I can lose everything, but not you. Oh God, not you" shaped.

#sorry for bringing up sabaody i am sure nobody wants to think about it #but they mean the world to me and there is SO MUCH to unpack #we don't talk enough about this i think ????? #sanji spending two whole years having nightmares about not being able to save usopp. about seeing usopp disappearing in front of him #he still has them btw #sanji having to sleep with usopp post-ts because he is afraid of waking up and seeing he is gone #also i am having thoughts about brook protecting them and #and brook saying he will do anything to save them #because sanji has only heard that from zeff so......... so just thinking. i have thoughts. i told you brook is one of sanji's father figure #back to sanuso- thinking about how this whole scene despite having brook too is mainly focused on both sanji and usopp #thinking abt how the others disappear mostly focusing only on luffy's reactions but this emphasizes a lot sanji's attempts to save usopp #why would you give them a whole scene i am throwing up #sorry still thinking abt sanji apologizing to usopp for not being able to protect him or #or having nightmares he definitely has nightmares about it #and usopp just. staying with him and making him see that he is alright now. and letting him cry. #early post-ts kills me #still angry we don't have almost post-ts sanuso #i might start crying thinking abt them so it'll be better if just shut up and post this #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso #sabaody

[laurzzz]

Robo-Boyfriends AU (My Sona Version) - Effort

Woe word-less comic be upon ye! I think it's very fitting with my sona being mouthless LMAO. I haven't worked on RBAU in a short while so take this thingy before I continue to work on MO again :thumbsup::thumbsup:

Explanation/vent under the cut (it's VERY long, so know you've been warned)

I'm tired. I'm tired of pretending it doesn't affect me at all. I'm tired of not wanting to express genuine frustration on my blog. I've been trying my best to keep my blog and every other platform I have as a place of escape for myself. I want it to only be filled with mostly good and optimistic things. I already get enough crap and more in my private life, I don't want to see reminders of them in places where I want to escape. Which is why I've been pretending to not see the numbers, that I don't feel under appreciated, that I don't vent as much when I want to or when I do I'm quick to delete them.

I know that many artists online go through this and have expressed their frustration on this experience-- where they put in so much effort and time on their works and they barely get any feedback or interactions or when they do get feedback it's often on the works they don't even put that much effort in. I love RBAU and Cloud Nine.. they're my AUs that basically gained the most traction here but the time and effort I gave to making those comics and random pieces of gradient-themed drawings don't even compare to the rendered pieces or the animated works I've made for them.

As much as I appreciate the reblogs and comments on the posts that reached so many people, I often wonder why it's always the works that I didn't put my all into. It makes me feel discouraged... not in continuing to draw or make creative work, but to actually put in more effort. But if I'd do that--stop putting in more effort-- then I would only make myself even more miserable as I don't like stagnation. I hate stagnation. I hate getting bored of the things that mean so much to me. Sharing my art and improving on it means too much to me.

But it's weird because I tend to observe the interactions with other blogs. They look to put in so much effort and make such beautiful rendered pieces that I adore and yet they are appreciated as deserved. While there are artists who make "shitposts" (their words) who also gain so much traction and appreciation. This observation makes the voices in my brain start correlating the quality of my work to the interactions. If I'm being completely transparent, I get these thoughts a lot. But I also don't believe them. I don't want to believe them.

Before anyone starts saying "ohhh you shouldn't attach your appreciation of your work from external factors" etc etc-- I KNOW. I am FULLY aware. I'm completely aware and have rationalized this situation over and over. That this is just how the internet goes. That these are factors I don't have control over. That my work is gold and it doesn't have to be determined as such by numbers. That someday the people who appreciate my works will find me. I. Know.

Still, knowing these things doesn't make the feelings disappear. It's like I want to be mad, and cry at the same time but also understand that I just can't really do anything about this but let it be. It's as if the more I care about a project, the less likely people will. I don't want to pretend like I don't care about a project just for it to be appreciated. But I also don't want to feel as if I'm not getting as much appreciation or attention that I think my work deserves.

I've been experimenting with my works and how I post them here on Tumblr and on YT since last year. The ones that are shitposts are seriously what gets more attention AHAHAHA I am laughing with frustration. Look, I love making memes and poking fun with characters as much as the next viewer and artist but by god. I can't just keep churning out funny haha low substance stuff in exchange for interactions. That's not the kind of artist that I am. I like making things that has lore; that has depth to them. Like how I tend to make lore heavy AUs right after getting my silly, lighthearted works blow up just to remind myself that the relationship I have with my works will not grow if I keep chasing after the interactions, the numbers by prioritizing quantity over quality.

Or maybe people just don't like my ideas? I guess that's a possibility too. Maybe my ideas just don't resonate with people enough. It's not "consumable" enough. Or maybe they don't like my art/writing/animation style. Yet more factors that's out of my control. But I also get told that people like my art, my writings, my animations. And they mean so, so much to me. But it just doesn't add up sometimes, y'know? If people like my work and stick around because they like my art no matter the fandom then why don't I see it? Thoughts like these make me feel so ungrateful actually.

I'm sure there are many people who look up to me as an artist and think how "popular" I am. I've been told this so many times. And yet, I don't feel either of those as strongly. Hell, even as I type this long vent out, I feel like people will not even care. Or worse. Perhaps they may think I'm focusing on the wrong things or think I'm being insecure and jealous of other people's well-deserved appreciation from others.

For the record, I am not. I think every single (actual, not AI) artists put in so much effort and love to their own works most of the time and if they get appreciation for it then I'm sure as hell that they've been seeking for it too and now that they're getting it and it's there then they should bask in it and rejoice. They really should.

Sigh. This is getting far too long. I'll stop here. I hope my words and my thoughts came out clearly. I'm writing this out late at night. Don't worry, I'll still be putting in the effort I've been putting in lately. I'm still going to work on MO, and give my best to make Assassin Eclipse's design to be as on par with Assassins Sun and Moon. I'm still going to write and continue the lore in the fic. I'm still going to animate the lore-heavy Welcome Home animation I've been working on slowly day by day. I just wanted to let this all out. Venting it to my friends just seem to not be enough. I gotta express it where people can see it. I think this is just my last straw too. I've been holding out for so long and 2024 really hasn't been that kind to me lately that I just can't anymore.

Anyway, the next post will be much lighter, I promise.

#sorry i focused too much on my dca related works but this also applies to all the other fandom stuff ive created on here and on YT #oh also #thank you and shout out to xit #i was having doubts on posting this before i sleep tonight #but her recent answered ask unintentionally gave me courage #hey xit! if you see this i think youre cool #robo-boyfriends au #but with my sona instead of y/n #dca fandom #fnaf sun #fnaf sundrop #fnaf daycare attendant #laursdraws #cw vent

[oliviloi]

haley and sunflowers

#having too much fun sketching and focusing on one idea #oliviloi art #stardew valley #stardew fanart #stardew haley #sdv haley #artists on tumblr

[lesbianredhoodedmercenary]

project moon is getting me with the girldads double whammy

ryoshu spider bud ego.... ryoshu getting the ego for the abnormality that's so fiercely protective of it's children to the point of murder... combined with how protective the artist is of his daughter in hell screen... she's the best dad on the bus

#i have a lot of feelings about ryoshu getting the spider bud ego #my horrible murderwoman who's also just a fantastic parent #my feelings about outis canto can also be copied over for ryoshu's canto. which is canto 9 #i need to see yuzuki. i know she is... probably dead considering uh. #“forest for the flames” is a reference to how she died (in a carriage that was set on fire) #(and a play on “not seeing the forest for the trees” which means focusing too much on detail not seeing the big picture) #(which is what the artist in hell screen was doing. he was so focused on each detail of the hell screen that. y'know) #(he didn't realize the man who commissioned the screen was going to kill his daughter. until it was too late) #and also considering ryoshu's cg from the tgs trailer is probably a nod to. how the artist hung himself after the screen was finished. #because of his daughter's death #i don't think limbus yuzuki survived. but we can hold out hope

[offkilterkeys]

Being a Jane liker is so hard cause you go to her tag and it’s just a bunch of people lamenting how overhated she is and then continuing to ignore her, and being a Jake liker is so hard cause you go to his tag and it’s just tons of people making the most demeaning comments about him cause his character committed the crime of being annoying (unforgivable.)

#homestuck #jake english #jane crocker #vent #? #I guess hahaha #I am in the content trenches with these two #it’s always secretly about Dirk with them #Jane is Dirk’s bestie #Jake is Dirk’s boyfriend/ex #I just want content about them being friends/siblings/cousins or whatever #or with other people like Roxy or Jade #or even just stuff on their own #but nooooo always the same guy #and even the people who talk about how this fandom focuses too much on the dudes #characterize Jane as Dirk’s bestie and nothing more #I’m considering sharing my Jane analysis if only to bring more diversity #it’s actually kinda funny though that so much of their stuff revolves around Dirk #cause in canon that bothers Jane #how easy things are for him to just do #and she literally admits to being jealous of him #and while he interprets it to be mainly about Jake it’s honestly just in general #like he just does a bunch of stuff that she wishes she had the courage to do #and honestly he’s just more of a hero #they’re kinda like an inversion of John and Dave’s dynamic mixed with Jade and Dave’s #where from Dirks perspective it’s JadeDave in the sense that he just sees Jane as his silly friend who he must protect #while from Jane’s she’s the Dave to his John in that she wants to be heroic in the way he is #and like nobody does anything with that #The fandom ever focused on the boys takes Dirk’s side and says look at her #she’s just a girl