#or going to a country bar with the white mormon girls that wanted husbands

[unawakening-float07]

i miss being 21, being as thin as a rake, making barely enough to eat and pay rent, sleeping on a disgusting mattress on the floor with no sheets, going out to a club or a bar almost every weekend with a different group of friends. where did I go wrong?

#im much more stable now lmfao but like #this isnt living!!! #even before the pandemic #i hardly had a social life #god i remember drinking literallt every weekend #either with dudes that wanted to fuck me but id friendzone them so really i was just #going to their apartments for free wine and then id leave #or going to like a dive bar with my white acting friends #or going to a country bar with the white mormon girls that wanted husbands #or just going completely off the cliff and going club hopping with cowrokers or big groups of friends #like every night was an event #we’d watch a few prefomances #id try smoking cigarettes (i never could) #and we’d end the night at the one gay club in town #while i complained about how my twink friend woukd get all the dudes and i could hardly get a guy to look at me #I REALLY JUST WANT TO DRINK HOLY FUCK