#or i can make some art but that will take time lol

[sage-nebula]

Once again I will make a longer post about Watcher's apology video when I have the time to sit down at my computer and type it (I'm on mobile right now because I'm about to have dinner), but I do want to quickly address something I've seen crop up a lot this weekend:

A lot of people have been insisting things along the lines of:

"No one asked for higher production"

"We were fine with blue and yellow text"

"Go back to Buzzfeed style"

"Ghost Files sucks, Unsolved was better"

And so on. While I'm not going to say I'm a huge fan of Ghost Files (it's my least favorite of the five Watcher shows I follow), I also wasn't a huge fan of BU Supernatural; I preferred True Crime since it was about things that had actually happened, just as I prefer Mystery Files now. (Oops, are my skeptic tendencies showing?)

Regardless, the thing I want to address here is that Watcher Entertainment — and Ryan and Shane, specifically — taking on a new format for their show isn't really about the audience. I mean, to some degree it is — they need people to watch so they can make money — but it's also about what they, as artists, want to make. And they don't want to make a show where they're seated behind a table with blue and yellow text. They want to make a show where they LARP living in a bunker with a red nuclear landline phone.

And that's okay.

Sometimes the content an artist wants to make differs from what their original fans followed them for. Think of it in terms of musical artists; often artists will start out making one style of music and will pick up fans for that. Then three or four albums later their style will change because they grew as musicians, or wanted to experiment, or did a bunch of drugs, or a combination of those things. And their old fans find they hate this new style. And that's okay. It's fine to prefer the older albums. But it doesn't mean the band has to stop playing in the new style just because the old fans hate it, if the band truly likes what they're playing. Their feelings about their art matter, too.

And so that's where Shane and Ryan are with Ghost Files. It's fine if you, personally, preferred Unsolved Supernatural. But they, personally, seem to prefer Ghost Files. And since they're the ones making it, they get the final say on this one. I think that's fair. You can always still go back and watch old Unsolved Supernatural episodes. They're still around.

(As for me, well, they're not going to find ghosts no matter what format they use, so. I don't really care, lol. I just wish they'd not try to pretend some locations aren't ads when they clearly are. Looking at you, escape room episode. That was so lame.)

#watcher #watcher entertainment #buzzfeed unsolved #ghost files #shane madej #ryan bergara

[elliespuns]

This question is simple but it’s been swirling around in my head: do you think Ellie is the type to do drugs? God, just thinking about it automatically sends excitement running through my veins lol I know, I’m messed up.

Oh, I probably disappoint you, but I don't really think she is the type. I mean, look at the dork. I know people like to romanticize her like this; I see a lot of posts and art of Ellie smoking or possibly even doing drugs. But, to be honest, I can't see it.

Not saying she would never try it. I can definitely see her trying to smoke cigarettes, for example (because she's already doing weed), but I don't think she'd be a fan of those long-term, let alone drugs. 

There's a possibility that if she lived in the modern world, she'd be prone to trying drugs under peer pressure—that I can only imagine with someone she's really close with—you know, like, "C'mon, try it. There's a first time for everything." and she'd be like, "Ugh, okay. But just this one time." or something like this, and even after that, she'd probably be like, "What is this shit? That's fucking terrible. Why do you do this to yourself?" (once she'd sober up).

I never really understood the appeal of making Ellie reckless (it's the same as when writers portray Ellie as dominant, bossy, and sometimes even violent). I guess it's something that turns people on? But honestly, it's so far from what Ellie is like (or what she would be like) if we had a chance to see her in these scenarios. I just can't see it.

I'm not saying she's a saint or even a buzzkill. All I'm saying is that she's a shy dork who loves comics, superheroes, and space. She would most likely be spending her days reading books, drawing, or hanging out with the few of her closest friends she'd have, watching movies at her or their place. I can't really imagine her partying and doing drugs. Not even in the modern world. 

Ellie is the type of person you could give your child to, and you'd know she'd take care of her or him. You'd trust her with responsibility even when you know she's a firecracker. Be it young or adult Ellie.

I believe that she wouldn't do drugs. Not saying she wouldn't try some mild ones... but to imagine canon Ellie, I say it's a big NO.

#the last of us #tlou #ellie williams #ellie tlou #the last of us game #tlou game #the last of us part 2 #tlou part 2 #elliespuns answers

[goblinbeetle]

rotten to the core

#gore #blood #body horror #YIPPEEEE Time for some personal art #it's easter rn and here we tend to take holiday breaks #pov christian country #anyway! more of her ! #i don't think i said her name but it's Ckypa ! #You can pronounce that however you want - makes it more fun - I usually say uh #Ski - pa ? #I don't actually know how to type pronounciation lol #funnily enough i came up with that name via translating SOMETHING ??? And It's been so long that i do not remember what it was #what language i used #it is likely incorrect #which just makes it funnier #but it reminds me of the word “Skapať” #which just means “Die” so #digital art #digital artwork #art #furry #artwork #artist #drawing #furry art #digital drawing #illustration #antelope #skinned #skin

[whack-patty]

Saw some delicious in dungeon animation out of context. Binged the entire dungeon meshi manga in a week. At long last i have a show to look forward to once a week and another weird tiny middle aged man to my weird tiny middle aged man collection

#i actually have a whole rant in my brain about what makes buster moon and chilchuck tims enjoyable but thats for later #also ive been d y i n g this week so these doodles r not my fav #but i dont mean that in a /derogatory way #its important 2 share the things ur proud of and that yr not proud of #bc i dont want to form the habit of “i can Only share my art if its of A Certain Quality” #yknow #blah blah blah #anyway enjoy #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #chilchuck tims #laios touden #marcille donato #senshi of izganda #kinda #hey if you read this far i'll gladly take ur dungeon meshi doodle requests #itll take me some time to get there bc im behind on my sing reqs rn but still ill take em #my art lol

[sysig]

Ooo requestober eh? Something I've been curious to see a bit more of maybe is Jake interracting with Scriabin. Edgar wondering about what the two of them talk about together alone got me curious too 👀

(Resending to the main for you :3)

Day 3 - Definitely not kissing! If that's what you think!

Meanwhile, Jake:

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Scriabin #Edgar #Jake #Since I already got my serious ''This is what I think they might get up to'' a couple Requestobers ago I opted for silliness this time lol #Plus last time I did Before so this time how about some After! #What situation would arise that Scriabin would have a one-on-one with Jake without Edgar? Maybe Edgar had work? Had to take Todd somewhere? #Either way he's painfully jealous on all sides haha poor lad #Jake's good to them I'm sure he'll get some affection later - Scriabin'll still hold it over his head for as long as he can tho lol #Can you tell I like lipstick stains haha ♪ They're legit some of my favourites to draw! :D #I think this is my first time - at least in a long long while - drawing them digitally tho :0 Fun! #They're just jkfdlsafd they're So cute haha ♥ Evidence of attention! Incriminating in their placement <3 #Shows where someone was most focused on making them feel loved hehehe it's just so cute to me 💕 #Like that they obviously went for each other's necks - of course - but also their foreheads and Jake kissed his nose #And also missed/got a bit too rowdy and got some lipstick on his glasses lol #Tell me that's not adorable! #And in classic fashion the lover returns home and sees lipstick stains and gets envious lol #Scriabin definitely used lipstick to make out with Jake specifically to make Edgar jealous lol - he could've avoided this and chose not to #Kiss him Edgar you'll feel better #Jake just having fun not thinking about the implications haha ♪ #I may or may not have spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about how Jake interacts with each of them around kisses >.> #I mean - other than mainfic every time he shows up he ends up kissing them in some capacity! It's hard not to recognize his patterns! Lol

[fobnsfwdoodles]

Painting the guys doing normal guy things

#sorry this took so long as you can see I'm in a painting mood and i meant for this to be like 10 seconds but kept wanting to improve things #i wish i could do all four of them more often! it just takes time #also I'm still learning to paint them which has some added dimensions vs sketching so be gentle with me lol #every painting i worry this will be the painting that y'all realize idk how to draw dicks lol #but i tried to give some variation #okay tag yourself which guy you doing this to #Patrick #Pete #Andy #Joe #y'all know my answer lol #art #painting #the highlights make me feral #I'm going back to being a recluse

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just an observation bc im avoiding working on stuff but i draw a lot and post basically everything i draw thst gets finished #and its v funny to me how u can tell how out of focus i was based on the quality of the drawing #or like when i post something and its like ok some of that was good but u def gave up halfway thru one of those lol #inconsistency i funny like that. its also funny to me that now a days i get comments like COLORS!!! #which is funny bc i notoriously haaaaaate coloring. like i will sit around whining and complaining when im home with my parents bc i dont #wanna color. its just so easy to fuck things up when u draw traditionally and it takes a million years so its a big ask lol #but i guess i dont hate is so much right now bc i kinda just slap whatever colors i want together like fuck it we ball #and thats kinda fun. reckless i suppose #its agony when u wanna try to do shadows and lights tho. like finding references ugh #or wanting to draw big ideas but then its like oh god its gonna take so long and if i dont do it all in one sitting i might die #im a lil better abt thst now bc it would b impossible but in my head i still hate it #ugh. all i wanna do is draw. theres another universe where i went to art school. or just like took art classes. and i wanna say id b happier #but thats def a lie XD i like learning too much and i dont have the attention span to hardcore learn genetics outside an academic #environment. and i got way too excited abt exploring the genetic traits of my cyano species #like i can make genetics trees for traits and look for. fuck. i forgot the word. how tf did i forget the word. oh god. horizontal gene #transfer. jesus christ its like theres a hole in my brain. well. i guess i did get only like 4hrs sleep. ugh im rambling. #i need to finish getting ready for Monday so i dont have to tomorrow and ill have time to draw. prob wont stop me feeling nauseous abt #teaching tho. OH FUCK. i just remembered i have a new office space now to decorate. fuck i need to hang up pictures and stuff #what would b the funniest way to put narut0 on my deskspace? idk ill have to think abt it. oh god im not ready #my head is like a handbell. one of the big ones when u ring it and it hits soft and u can feel the vibrations. someones wrung my head lol #unrelated

[mildcicada]

#U Have No Idea How Much I Miss Her. #i need to start actually drawinf again its been a hellish 6 months #its really easy to just fall out of the habit of it #i used to obsess over never being someone who just suddenly stopped drawing for weeks/months #it scared me. like a core part of my identity would have to change for that to happen or would be changed by that happening #and then once i didn't draw and wasn't drawing i felt like i needed something to violently change about myself to get me to start doing it #again. but i didn't need that i just drew something again and that was it. like that stretch of time didn't happen #drawing is just an activity you can choose to do or not do and there are no consequences for whatever decision you chose to take but it felt #so serious to me it is like i viewed it like death #which i was right about in a way but mostly in how death is just a thing that happens and that it wont be that sudden and insane #you will just be and then not be just like how you weren't and now are. its just like me drawing or not drawing lol #but that comic of ht papyrus by jnpie where he's looking at the puzzles he used to make and wondering if he'll ever do that again. or if he #wants to. its like that feeling. it always sticks in my mind #i have like a fear of thinking about when i will no longer care about something i care about now and its so weird when. realize i stopped #wanting to do something and caring about it and. i feel nothing on account of no longer caring about it lol. but i know that past me #is currently looking forward at me now and terrified. this is unrelated to that comic a lot but its like. thinking about how i will change #words #mine #IM NOT TAGGING THE ART bc i wanna actually finish some of these pieces tbh and like they are just the backdrop for my thoughts... #feels so hashtag tumblr to talk to yourself about some vague ass feelings or situation that no one else will look at ugh thats like #The tumblr experience. but i love reading other's personal posts and tags though..

[keeps-ache]

so there's this place-

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #defunct I-95 #doodles #i miss the I-95 and i don't know why but lol #//anyway fun thing about Day is the little keyhole thing is actually a fingerprint scanner #so that they can verify if you're supposed to receive whatever they're carrying in the little door thingy :)) #//anyway if anybody's wondering why i'm making so many new characters it's because It Is The Time Of Year Where I Kinda Just Do That #every spring without fail! new beginnings? new OCs more like #i've considered giving some away but also i get really attached really fast ffvhsbhfj #yea i'm not gonna draw them again. yes they are IN my cranium and they are being very loud about it #//the story i've got so far is this though‚ it's pretty simple so :3 : #Day has a letter‚ a Very Important Letter. he doesn't know what it's contents Are exactly‚ but it's got a Very Important Stamp on it so it' #First Priorty !! unfortunately the recipient lives Far outside the city. like‚ cities away from the city. should be fine though‚ they were #designed for this :) but actually he's been hiding the fact that his leg has been damaged for quite a while now (or at least longer than #they should've been hiding it) but the parts they need aren't in production anymore‚ so it's not like he can just say he can't take it #so they take the only other obvious route and 'hire' someone to take them (more like Commandeer For The Use Of Postal Delivery Under The J- #and that's when he meets Pilot and they go and do things on their trip :D #so ye .u. #//ok i'm going to go and. do a thing #i don't rebmeber what it was but ay! ...... #i think i was going to say something about inflatable pools but i don't know fvhfbsh #anyway !!! TOOdles :>>>

[colorful-horses]

Just watch Star vs the Forces of Evil instead, High Guardian Spice is not worth your time

I don't know how to tell you this but I've already finished High Guardian Spice since making that post

#i have. a lot. of feelings on it #my hot take is that .... it wasnt TERRIBLE #like it wasnt the worst show ive ever seen in my entire life #but i WOULD say it was SUUUUUPER boring. like just such a snoozefest #especially for the first half of the show. it feels so unstructured #theyll be juggling three plots at a time in an episode. but those plots will never intersect or cross paths. so they feel so disjointed #its really hard to follow is what im saying #the voice acting is the worst part by FAR. oh my god the voice acting is so bad #dont even get me started on old magic vs new magic #i have a lot of feelings on this show and im honest to god THIS close about writibg my thoughts down and making a video essay about it #it has good parts! a lot of the character designs are pretty cute and i genuinely liked some of them (parsely my beloved) #but overall hgs was one of the strangest shows ive ever seen. its so so so odd #i have no idea how a show this unfocused managed to complete production of 12 whole episodes. and never once did anyone ask #'wait did we ever define what a 'guardian' actually is?' (they dont) #how!!! how #that being said i WILL be drawing fanart for it lol #but NOW i can move onto star vs uwu #not art

[vargaslovinghours]

Hear that? Sounds silly

Bonus thumbnail:

#💟 #Art #Digital art #Scriabin #Edgar #Jake #Nny #Shitpost #Alright time for the ~yearly Vargas video lol #This was about a gajillion times easier to make than the last video and Thank Goodness for that #I don't think I could have handled another vine compilation in WMM but it can handle syncing audio like no problem #It was also a lot of fun finally getting to see and hear what's been in my head for so long #Like I've always been able to hear them in my mind's ear but it's another thing to actually actually see y'know? ♪ #I can't believe how old some of these are and have only just now been put to sound! Dang #I mean it was since October 2020 since I made the last video - how does time keep getting away from me #Anyway anyway #New video new art! Pared down to just four this time since they're the only ones to feature #Nny and Jake taking up support audio roles in the background while the stars take the lead haha ♪ #Don't put your hand on the mic it'll wobble and distort the audio! #Silly silly

[jonny-b-meowborn]

I am genuinely so terrified of the fact that I have to find a job now. I'm trying to think of or look up a job that's suitable for my mentally ill autistic ass and I just. I don't know. Everything either requires some very specific qualifications that I don't have, or seems at best awfully exhausting, at worst literally putting me in danger. And I'm not even exaggerating, I genuinely think that working in retail, for example, could possibly kill me if I was forced to do that job for long enough. I sometimes get overwhelmed to the point of crying when there's too many other customers while I'm shopping, I can't imagine working in an environment like that. I suppose physical jobs could work, I've been to this blueberry plantation twice last week and mentally I was fine, but it was. So tiring. And you don't even make that much money a day, I don't think I could earn enough even if I did work there everyday, not to mention it's only a seasonal job. Right now it's fine for me to go there every now and then, but if I wanted to move out and become independent I'd have to get an actual day job. And that sounds impossible. The only job that sounds good to me is being an artist, it's not too mentally or physically difficult, and it's something I enjoy. But I'd have to get commissions constantly or start a small business or something like that to actually survive. And I'm not saying it's impossible, I know that people can live by being an artist, but it's so hard to get into that field. I wish I could do it but I dont know if it's possible for me. Makes me wanna cry. I hate this I hate that my brain isn't suited for this world and still I have to participate in all that shit that everyone has to do. My brain isn't made for working like that

#I've talked about this a lot with my sister who is also autistic #and were both like. on a similar level of autism i dont know how to properly explain it #were functioning in similar ways i guess #and we both agreed that we're in this awkward spot of being autistic #where we're not suited for living in this world the way we're expected #but we're good enough at surviving that we can't really ask for help #like from the government or smth #im not sure if im making sense #but like neither of us ever had a normal job for longer than a few days #she's incredibly lucky bc her boyfriend (also autistic lol) has rich parents #so he's able to have a small business where hes making youtube content and games and merch #and he gets financial support from his parents. so he can have the job he feels comfortable with and enjoys #and my sister is now able to work with him. theyre both making their silly little games and trinkets and are able to live normally #which is just so great for her i love that. im also so jealous lmao #and then theres me who also is made for creating art and not much else but im not lucky enough to be able to do that and survive #idk. my mom is great and doesn't put too much pressure on me. she was the one to take me to that blueberry job #and she really supprts my plans to be an artist full time #but still. thats really difficult to do. ugh #sometimes i wish that i either wasnt autistic at all or was 'less functioning' so at least i could get some help with living #bee buzz

[came0dust]

finally started playing hades after having it in my library for about three years and truly supergiant never misses im in absolute Love with this game so far

#my art #hades game #let me just say now though: i also made a very active effort to avoid spoilers in that time. like ive blocked Every tag i could think of #so please be very niceys and say nothing plot-relevant bc i have worked very hard to go in as fresh as possible heart emoji. okay anyways! #samsung notes #medibang paint #colored sketch #fun fact: the bg is inspired by a color combination my rgb mouse does sometimes that makes me think of zag. its a warm green and an orange #hes like autumn-ish to me. if that makes any sense. again if theres actual plot relevance shhhhhhhh but like. you know. yeah #anyways... i promise i can draw things that arent some guy facing to the left i promise i Promise. i promise you this #but it keeps just happening. these keep being what i end up being like 'ooooh i could take this further' and then im like 'fuck. not again' #i have fun experimenting with the process but i cant help but feel it must be a bit dull on yalls end sometimes lol #(for context this was a scheduled post drawn about two days after last post went out. ive branched out a bit more since. you will See.)

[weabooweedwitch]

Haven't been posting much since I've been up in Canada again and had some really good talks about some really important stuff. I head back home in a few days which makes me really sad but every time i come up here I see myself changing little by little in good ways :) I'm wondering if there wouldn't be any harm in me trying to learn how to drive. I can be an extremely anxious person but, I'm always anxious trying new things, and tons of people are anxious learning how to drive. I'm sure if I asked my mom to start giving me pointers while I study that she would, too, and hands on practice is always really important

All in all some really important things came out of this trip 🥰

#i made him a magnemite valentine and i had to actually lmao. finish painting it with makeup #i couldnt take paint on the plane but i had liquid eyeshadow and liquid liners and my eyeshadow was a metallic duochrome #he loved it im so happy ❤️ and i joked that its quote on quote true art bc it has a cheesy metaphor attached #he makes me happy and inspires me paired with the valentine being made w makeup which has been about new confidence and trying new things #but yeah. had serious talks. there were some tears. but im really happy with the talks we had and they give me hope for the future. kwim ❤️ #until then... i want to grow for myself and for other people 🥰 gonna start full time hours and as many shifts as i can #and donating plasma too! its a good deed and apparently not everyone pays lol. paid plasma is not a thing in canada

[b4kuch1n]

4, 11 and 13 for the ask game, pls! Thank you and have a good day!

ask game here!

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

let's see we can list more of this! I draw birds and wings a decent amount and still every time I draw that I still have to look up one of those wing anatomy charts. I find I'm not well practiced with transparent materials yet, but I hope to get better at that in time. I'd like to get better at figuring out how to lay down a nature scene quickly too, I love to work with that in theory but in practice every time I draw that kind of background I had to stare at like eighty tabs of refs the whole way through. I'm such a city kid through and through...

I'm mostly blessed to not have to worry about hands and shoes too much, I usually have an okay time with them, but I do have days I call bad hand days and bad shoe days the way folks have bad hair days. sometimes even things I like drawing and usually have a good time with don't come out right! just gotta stand up and do something else for a bit

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

absolutely! especially nowadays. I rotate between my current favourite albums and youtube videos/stream VODs. the most consistent caveat is I cannot listen to anything with a plot. that will distract me way too much to draw at the same time.

I also call my friends and hang out in vc while drawing sometimes! especially if I really need to get something done. this is honestly the only way to subject me to new medias I don't know about

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

ahh this is hard... I usually don't look too hard into things I don't actively care about. I guess I'd say the Phong Dương comic team, they're immensely talented people who practically carried Vietnamese comic on their back for a while, and I love Thành Phong's inking style, I just... can't read their comics. for some reasons. they just flow off the back of my skull! I still have all three volumes of Long Thần Tướng currently out on my shelf, but every time I try reading them they just don't stick. I'm honestly kinda mad abt this lol

#ask #bakuspeech #artist ask #thank you for the ask! #once again I am an intensely pleasure-oriented person lol. so I usually don't draw things I don't somewhat enjoy drawing #at most I suffer through drawing some objects that are necessary to the piece but I don't draw by themselves usually #but even those are often not hard to draw. just fiddly #the rest of art is a perfectly meshed cacophony of both joy and abject agony #say ''I enjoy drawing'' feels misleading. I do! but that's not even the half of it. drawing's like breathing to me #if breathing is vastly more costly and takes up much more focus and time. and also sometimes makes you mad #I enjoy drawing yeah. but more importantly I become kinda wrong if I don't draw. like I go bad like milk or produce #so yeah I'm already in This State just by drawing. might as well not make it hard for myself yknow #but also! I do genuinely think being indulgent is hugely important to art!! you need to be decadent and wasteful #and flippant and extremely selfish in your art. it's vital to your health #especially if you do art for a living. you need a space where you can be as indulgent as possible. #that's really my whole art philosophy lol. one it is always better to do art than not to do art. #two if your art is indulgent and self-entitled it inherently has value already. because it's serving something #<- once again rambling about how everyone should do some art #like. when I say ''drawing is like breathing to me'' I'm not lamenting the requirement #I think making funny shapes and funny noises is integral to being human. artists are not separate from humans #drawing well is overrated singing well is overrated. make shape now make noise now. for your health #this has been a PSA. thank u for the ask! fjshdfkdjsfh

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing? #i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood? #hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing? #idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh. #unrelated