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onyourhyuck · 2 years

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Reflections | L.DH (M)

prologue- “what do you think our children would look like?” + “I’m such a coward. Fuck it.”

tw- friends to lovers trope, they’re kinda oblivious to their feelings especially y/n, haechan is whipped as hell. mentions of smoking, drugs (like weed) and alcohol. university mention. y/n is a smart good girl and haechan is sorta the mischievous boy in her class that causes trouble. Honestly just a cute fluff romantic scenario <3

notes- heavily inspired by the song “Reflections” by the neighbourhood.

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“Fuck off donghyuck!”

your face scrunches in multiple wrinkles, frowning at your friend who has been a pain in your ass repeatedly by constantly pressing on your laptops keyboard which would mess up the article you will have to present in your psychology class tomorrow. you are pulling a fortnight for this piece of work and when you told your friends that you were busy that you can’t attend jaehyun’s party; one of your ‘friends’, not sure if you can call him one anymore considering he’s such an asshole right now.

Donghyuck voluntarily said he will help you out, since he’s already done this project (early) you agreed but little did you start to regret it quickly when he was simply distracting you from finishing it. Right now the time is about 4.00 am and it’s causing you to have a minor breakdown.

just a little university minor breakdown that will leave you pulling at your hair and scream, kick and maybe even few tears if it worsens.

The boy looks up at y/n flashing her a deviously smile as his voice coos singing. “I been trying to do that if you haven’t noticed, babe.”

Lips left out a small Ugh, he hears you push his face away with your flat palm as your attention turns to your laptop, pressing on the keyboards again. He whines blowing out raspberries.

“Someone’s stressed..” he sang again as he brushes forth his fingers in your hair, flicking it in the air one curly strand by another. You close your eyes letting out a harsh exhale, god you pray he just happens to pass out but knowing donghyuck- he’s a freaking nocturnal animal.

He never sleeps you swear.

“Donghyuck I would lovingly appreciate it if you… get out of my dorm.” You spat warningly. He pouts watching you. “But you said I could stay.”

“Yeah because I didn’t think you’d be a pain in my ass.”

“You should thank me I’m entertaining you.” He sassily retorts sitting up on your bed, he crawls behind you where he pushes you away from your laptop and takes it; he begins to slowly type humming. “Look I’ll help you, I can tell you’re struggling.”

you sigh. Was it really that obvious? Out of all people donghyuck really can read you as if you were a tracing paper, you were as transparent as anything; maybe it’s because you guys are closer than you would actually like to admit. People would often mistake you guys as a loving couple, hell some thought you were married considering the amount of bickering you guys do. It’s reached the point where your parents and his parents genuinely wish to see you everytime you’re with another.

As you would watch the serious expression on your friend next to you, you felt slightly like a burden. You grunt in protest reaching to snatch the laptop. “Let me do it I’m almost finished anyways—“ he would pull the laptop from your reach. “No, take a rest.”

you frown. “No I’ll finish it, hyuck.” you said back as you crawl to reach the laptop but in the end you were faced with the most stubborn boy you known to existence so you ultimately gave up with a gentle sigh. instead you place your head on his lap as he types away the last bits of words in your article.

haechan looks down at you with a soft smile, he softly pats your bangs away from your face before saving the article. he couldn’t help but tilt his head, humming.

“you know…what do you think our children would look like?”

you open your eyes, raising eyebrows at his sudden question. you croak a short smile, scoffing. “suddenly?”

he gives a soft nod. “genuine question.”

“I think they would be troublesome. Especially your children.”

he gasp slightly offended. “Uhm excuse you y/n my children are perfect just the way they are.” you snicker as you reach forward cupping his face, squishing it a little. “as if, more like devil’s offsprings.”

“What if we had children together.” he trails quietly and you softly pause, letting go off his face. “You mean…if me and you had a child together?”

he nods. “Mhm what do you think they would be like?”

“Non existent… I dunno.” you slowly shrug it away but he pouts with some sadness lingering. “Come on answer seriously.” He tells y/n as he saw you sit up on the bed. You look around your room warily.

“what do you think then?” Y/n asks the boy.

He would push the laptop on the side as he lays on the right side of your bed and you would follow his body on the left side, leaning a gap in the middle between your bodies. There was a share breathe took in. Haechan would look at y/n as if she was the missing piece all along. Though this was obvious to all of the uni campus, to y/n it was like a non existent fantasy that would never happen. You met donghyuck at your first year as freshmen, you transferred from another uni few months after and since you were the new girl, everyone wanted to be your friend. Haechan laid eyes on you when you were chosen to sit next to him in psychology and he swore he never fell in love so quickly.

It was love at first sight for him. You started as sweet friends who grew to slowly pick up a bickering relationship where you constantly play fight like small children. You think of him as someone always up to no good, a boy who is stuck in his sixteen years rather than twenty one. Not only was he the type of boy to get into trouble, he did hang around the wrong people who were bad influence.

he would get into lots of police trouble and at some point he skipped school so many times to comprehend. Yet every time something fucked him over, he calls you. Whenever he was drunk to his bones, he calls his top pinned saved number under the contact name ‘my saviour’, which is you. When he hit the darkest time of his life where his mother happened to be severally ill, he isolated himself away from the world.

who was the one who never stayed away no matter how many times he pushed people out of his life and cut them out numerous times? It was always you. No matter how much you argue with him, no matter what he does to annoy you and become a massive headache; you really can’t help but think you’re fated to him. It was a blessing and a curse.

He was your reflection. You were his reflection.

The reflection of all those bad things he has done, the hard moments in life he overcame (all thanks to you)— you were exactly that, the proven moment of how far he’s come and changed thanks to you.

“I think our children would be adorable!” He exclaims with a short smile. “I’d like a little girl that looks like you.”

“Too bad I really want a boy.” You reply back and he immediately disagrees. “No way, having a daughter is way better.”

You shrug flicking your fingers on his loose wavy hair, not lying but you always found his natural hair so attractive, the way it was wavy and curly in some areas, it covered his eyes most of the time and whenever he came to class half asleep he would barely have time to brush it; yet you loved that. His imperfections were his perfect traits.

“You’re rather serious about this topic. Did you fall for me or something?” You joke out.

He falters at your words with slow hums as he never broke eye contact with your lips. Haechan was quick to catch himself staring a little too long, so he turns away to his phone to look at the time.

“Oh shoot it’s already 4.50.” He loudly barks sitting up. “We have class in about four hours, you’ll be a total zombie if you don’t sleep now.”

You raise your eyebrows. “What about you? The boys dorms are locked already and so are the girl’s dorms. Will you just sleep at mine?” He smirks making himself comfortable on your bed as if it was his own. “You bet I am. Lay down and go to sleep already.”

“Okay dad relax, gosh.” You grumble. The moment your body was sleeping next to his you seem to have fell into a comfortable slumber. something about being in hyuck’s presence makes you feel safe…

Your body relaxes underneath the bedcovers as your lamp was turned off leaving the room cover by the midnight darkness. He was wide awake staring right at you as he lays on the side to watch your unconscious face. Smiling to himself ear to ear, the little moles on his beautiful melancholy skin stand out in the blackness of the dorm. he’d slowly run his fingers down the sides of your face, brushing the little hairs from your fringe away,

The softness of your cut bangs prickle the fingers a tiny bit, though he never minded it. your gentle breathes leaning your flaring nostrils were cute to watch, and somehow he found himself admiring your raw beauty. Messy hair, no makeup leaving only your bare face, loose tomboyish clothes that suit your figure well.

he felt like he was too close to stars, just by being with you. you were the planet that was resolving round the sun.

Haechan didn’t realise it until he was far too in the situation, his lips were subconsciously closing in the small gap between you and him; he marks the open cheek leaving a wet smooch. the kiss was short lived when he slowly backs away, with a proud smile on his face. those strong feelings only grew stronger and he felt some sort of clarity from it.

he didn’t have the courage to do anything he wished to do and say when you were wide awake. But when you were asleep, he can’t surpass on the opportunity revealing itself. Yes, he was a coward.

A coward that couldn’t express his hidden feelings that he developed exactly four years ago.

But the moment he saw a glimpse your eyelashes fluttering, your eyes adjusting to the darkness where you saw haechan’s face hovering over yours. He stands frozen like a statue, dead silence. Y/n must’ve felt her stomach twist and turn, overburden by massive butterflies flying around to escape the lower abdomen. Heart skipped a beat in unison. Breathing was on holt, making you forget how to breath.

He didn’t want to be caught. He didn’t want his relationship with you change, as much as he craved a change, he was scared of it happening in reality. Haechan would rather keep fantasising about it in his head treating it like a delusional crush that will pass. Because he never knew somebody like you.

He would rather know and keep you around instead of using you because of his personal romantic feelings he holds deeply for you. He knows you don’t feel the same way, so what was the point of confessing exactly to you? The only answer was rejection from you. He wouldn’t want to lose you just because of his selfish feelings he has.

Caught by surprise when two cold hands crawl on his sharp v-jawline, with a strong force pulling him softly in on warm lips. The boy lets out a small gaping gasp that your ears picked up. You pull away from the small kiss you gave him, watching him lovingly under the bright moonlight creeping in through the windows behind your back.

Haechan eyes you hungrily, like it was a dream of his, honestly speaking he gaslights himself to believe this was just a dream of his happening; the boy lightly pulls you by your waist underneath the bed duvet covering you both. Captivating your lips in another kiss, but this time it was much more passionate. He was taking little control over time, he explores your tongue inside and out as well as your soft lips that smell of vanilla chapsticks you always put on your lips durning class.

Who knew he could get so addicted on the fantasy he could only dream about? The real deal was so much better than haechan could ever imagine. You were his bane of existence knowing that you’re going to be the death of him. He wonders what did he do in his past life to deserve such torture for over four years, pretending to not have any feelings for you. Having to deny them to his best mates.

Having to watch you speak about guys you were finding attractive. Hell he even watched you go through a breakup once and that is what pained him the most. He fought your ex and you ended up getting pissed at him, because you weren’t aware of his feelings he held for you. Haechan swears he’d never dare make you cry. It’s the last thing he wants to do to you.

Y/n’s lips quiver against the aggressive synchronised movements as you wrap your fingers round his beautiful long curly locks. He breaks out the kiss, murmuring words you couldn’t ever imagine.

“I’m such a coward. Fuck it.” He tells to no one specific but only himself, as if it was a pep talk.

“I love you, y/n.”

Brave words coming to the surface just like the colour rushing to his cheeks, thankfully the darkness covers it enough that you wouldn’t be able to see how nervous he was to the point he would be blushing like a twelve year old boy confessing to his first love; the giddy little feelings you’d thing was left behind in his puberty years, weren’t really gone.

“Hyuck..” you mutter as you watch him, seeing the girl’s eyes tremble a little as your fingers slowly unlock from the hair. You trace your hands around his face bringing him in a warm embrace close to your necktie where he rests just above the chin.

He was preparing himself for a rejection. Closed eyes shut as he enjoys the last embrace that he managed to make himself believe that it was the last time he will ever see you, ever speak to you and the humiliation will traumatise him truly. He was scared.

But when your soft voice haunts his mind with a twist of words that he never believed at first before his pupils open wide, face rushing to the surface to watch you as the only light source was from the bright full moon.

“I love you too. Always have.”

Maybe…maybe this wasn’t a dream. Haechan prays it wasn’t.

He never knew he found someone that fell just as hard as he did, because the moment his eyes laid on round bambi eyes he swore he saw his own reflection in your eyes.

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mailjeevasfan · 1 year

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hi! <3

can you possibly do wammy boys with a s/o who is under stress from exams? maybe self projecting rn HAHA but i hope it's not too much trouble ^^

that’s me atm too so i’ll gladly write this one out (instead of studying for my own exams) thank u for the rq <3

this for all the people doing exams rn💪

-wammy boys x gn!reader

-l lawliet, mello, matt, near

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wammy boys with s/o under stress from exams ❦

l lawliet

-he’s literally the greatest detective in the world and a general supergenius so he’ll most likely help you study at first. i mean all the wammy boys are super smart so they’d probably all do this but yeah

-he helps you study because he primarily recognises things that are practically important. by this i mean he would help you study and put his brains to use, but would give you breaks and care and stuff like that afterwards. he understands the importance of you being prepared before anything and wouldn’t want you to be stressed or do bad in the exams.

-if you were overwhelmed and having a breakdown or something like that he’d be very loving and would 100% give u cuddles until you calmed. and would also probably get you tons of cake and treats <3

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mello

-again, would help you to study. this would be the kind of thing where if you didn’t get it he’d start getting so frustrated but in a really funny and comical way. you’d just keep laughing, unable to stay serious and he’d get so agitated LMAO

-he’d never express this out loud but he would definitely be worried in helping you study. that sounds so weird with no explanation but i mean he has an inferiority complex and even though he knows he’s extremely smart, he’s been second for so long that he might not feel good enough to help you. however, when you ace your exams thanks to his frantic tutoring he feels a little pleased with himself.

-in the situation of you becoming very overwhelmed and upset he would be a little tough but in a loving way. he’d bluntly reassure you that you’ve got this and that you will be okay in the end. he’s very good with comforting you in this kind of situation due to his past experiences in academic settings

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matt

-we all know that matt has a kind of sloth like existence LMAO he just likes to play video games and chill. but if you direly required help with your studies of course he’s going to help you, he was ranked third at wammy’s house, another supergenius here. even if he wasn’t helping you, he’d make sure that you were studying because he doesn’t want you to get stressed from being unprepared. but strangely at the same time i can definitely see him distracting you really badly when you’re focused, he’d get bored so easily when you were busy.

-needless to say, after you’re finished he’s dragging you to the couch, throwing an arm around you and forcing you to play video games whether you like it or not. he would express how proud he was of you if he knew you were very stressed and reward u with lots of cute stuff while you hung out. this goes for after you get your results back too, he would genuinely be so proud.

-if you got very upset he would be very sweet in comforting you. typical stuff, would reassure you that you’re doing amazing and that you’ll be fine in the end. lots of affection

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near

-very very patient when helping you study. he’d obviously understand whatever it was very quickly and if you didn’t get it he’d take the time to explain it thoroughly and be very persistent but not in a pushy way at all. very soft and nice about things, he wouldn’t want to make you feel inadequate since he genuinely believes in you.

-i can very easily imagine his little signature near smile once you get your results back and he finds out you did great. you know the lil :]

-if you were overwhelmed, he’d talk you through it logically, but by this point he’s learned to be sensitive with your feelings and not be too unemotional. he’ll explain that you’ve prepared and done everything you can, and whatever result you get will be amazing seeing as you genuinely tried. he reassures that he will be proud of you no matter what, and that you should be proud of yourself

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#death note #mello #mail jeevas #mihael keehl #l lawliet #matt #near #nate river #mello x reader #mail jeevas x reader #near x reader #l lawliet x reader #death note x reader #wammy boys #wammy boys x reader

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kamiversee · 12 days

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oooOOH okay - the way i forgot abt the songs BUT i'm gonna have to straight up make a playlist for these men (as if i don't do the same thing when i'm writing anywaysss)

incoming YAP SESH

so when you mentioned it in the last chapters, i immediately went back listened to 'sober' [childish gambino] BUT i forgot abt 'die for you' [the weeknd] sooooo he's a mini gojo analysis for that song for all my fellow gojo girlies (RAAA):

'i just can't say i don't love you / cause i love you'

this one is obvi lmao the way bro is like "hey btw i LOVE you" every chance he gets

'you hate that you want me'

bro literally says this almost verbatim when he's like "you shouldn't care abt me" but also "it's not a crime [to miss me] love" (ch45)

'i would die for you / i would lie for you ... i would kill for you'

REALLY seein the references to this one in chapter 45 lmao when he's like "i've done worse, for you" and he's said SOOO many times that he'd do anything for you and is explicitly like "the person i am around you now is not the person who fell in love with you"

so here's where i might be wayyy off base again but - what if the list started bc of something gojo tried to do for you, to show how much he cared about you? so like order of events:

years ago, gojo does something bad (ex: hurting someone, manipulating people in your life he views as "bad") in the name of helping you -> sukuna either catches him or he needs sukunas help -> sukuna uses this info to blackmail satoru

the deal for the blackmail is that you either have to complete this list that's made to hurt gojo so badly by punishing the woman he loves AND turns her against him (which is why gojo is so set on the fact that the reader can't have feelings for him, bc he's the one who's supposed to be punished by this whole thing) OR sukuna will kill gojo

which i know is like BIG but ! think about how gojo is always saying he'd do anything for the reader: he was ready to die for her; he had no intention of doing the list. when he walks in on her in ch1 he's like genuinely surprised that an opportunity like that "presented" itself to him, so he really wasn't planning to blackmail you ever

and when you finish the list, gojo is genuinely surprised and relieved that you finish it (ch45) !!!! he's also said that there was no time limit on it but that there actually was one, that it needed to be done by the end of the year i think??? somethin like that i don't remember but that always felt weird to me, so that's probs what sukuna's deadline for gojo was

anywhooo i also think sukuna put choso on the list bc he felt bad for hurting him (bc i'm refusing rn to think that choso lied abt the abuse which is the basis of my other theory but it bums me out so i'm just ignoring it lmao) and sukuna saw how obsessed w you gojo was and he was maybe like "hmm ok so this girl must be somethin special" and that's why he was making you hook up w choso !

yap sesh OVER (apologies this got so long and the way i was pulling out citations lmao) i will send more theories when i'm actually awake but i just read your response to my ask and HAD to do a song analysis! love you kami xoxoxoxo

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Okay this is yap session 1/2 that I’ve received & it’s not as long as the other so I’ll reply normally!!

To start, ty for this theory & semi-breakdown!! I rlly do love reading these ><

1. I LOVE how you broke down the song reference because every lyric from that damn song applies to Mr. Gojo in this fic🙏 Die For You applies more than you guys realize but it’ll make even more sense when we finally receive his backstory <3

2. You & ☃️anon have similar theories with how this whole thing started & it’s fun to see you guys on the right track & nearly hitting the nail on the head ^.^

The first theory about Gojo & Sukuna’s situation is… it’s a wonderful theory, I’ll say that. I will not say if it’s right or wrong but, since TFL is over, I think it’s safe to say you’re definitely on the right track :)

3. The Sukuna & Choso theory at the end is OH MY FUCKING GOD. I’m going to just burn my fic plans atp because I’m pretty sure you guys somehow have access to it 😄 /hj

Anyway, don’t consider that response as me confirming what you just said but DAMN you cooked & the kitchen might be on fire! :3

TO CONCLUDE, ty for the yap sesh, I love u & these sosoosooo much !!

#kamiversee!answers #k!ans: 🩷#tfl!theories

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chellyfishing · 4 months

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i’m trying to finish one last book before my year-end book post goes up so i’m gonna talk about games and tv first. not too many of either to talk about this year tbh but i apparently still have so many words.

no movies post bc i don’t log my films anywhere and i simply cannot remember what i watched. maybe i should make 2024 the year of using letterboxed. not enough to talk about with new music either. 2024 can also be the year of getting back into music.

games: i actually haven’t played much ffxiv this year. well in the first half i sorta did but i have barely touched it since like. august. except to keep my houses from getting demolished. i did finally finish myths of the realm last week, since they wrote that entire storyline for me specifically. i need the minion so bad yoship help.

in march capcom gave me a birthday prezzie with the release of the resident evil 4 remake which i’d had preordered since last year (the only games i’ll preorder and pay full price for are resis and ffxiv expansions). i don’t need to explain this to you. it’s incredibly good, the best of the extremely good remakes so far i think. i haven’t played the dlc yet but i’m excited to think there is more of this game i still have to play. btw ashley defense squad. i’ll brook no ashley slander in my house.

i can’t remember exactly when but i think it was some time in the summer that i finally, finally finished breath of the wild! i’m so behind the curve on this one, but i did at least get to start tears of the kingdom in the same year as everyone else. umm, i have to admit i remain ambivalent to this approach to zelda. i have to challenge myself to figure out how much of that is because iT’s DiFfErEnT but genuinely i think the things i dislike about it, i would still dislike even if i had nothing to compare it against. i really wish i thought it was the best zelda ever like so many do but i guess i just struggle to find a flow state with either of them which is why it’s taking me so fucking long to finish them lmao. still obviously extremely good and beautiful! like still head and shoulders above most games, easily, a good time overall!! (wish nintendo wasn’t the way that it is.)

i should mention that one day in july i fucked around in catlateral damage while streaming for bella. this is a very basic game, literally you are just a cat’s paw knocking things over, but man when you just need a brain-free giggle? it did its job.

also in july i played the sequel to oxenfree, which is a game that i love. this game didn’t click with me quite as much, i haven’t revisited it since i finished it, but there are probably also other reasons i shan’t get into that aren’t the game’s fault. idk i feel a bit unqualified to give a final verdict without playing it to completion but i guess the fact that i’ve had it for months and not bothered to do that yet is a kind of verdict in itself since with oxenfree i went straight back in till i got that final ending and platinum trophy.

for basically all of autumn i of course played baldur’s gate 3. i’m very sad that my extreme anhedonia has hit before i could play the new epilogue. i tried to load up one of my finished games but i ran into a problem because the only way to back up your saves is in the cloud so you can’t shuffle files around or make copies, only overwrite, and don’t get me STARTED again or i’ll start spitting i’m so SICK of PROFIT PROFIT PROFIT AAAAAHH. anyway it’s a pretty good game. i won’t be surprised or mad if neil wins the bafta but it really really should be samantha please if there’s justice in this world.

tv: season 3 of only murders in the building. umm, idk. it’s not a revolutionary show but it’s comforting, it doesn’t feel stale yet, and there’s just a lot of talent at work here. just fun to watch.

i watched almost all of neon genesis evangelion but couldn’t finish it because i decided to have an (unrelated) emotional breakdown instead. i’ll finish it eventually if for no other reason than i owe it to phil. shinji is baby.

finally got to the first season of our flag means death. just a delight. i love fun pirate adventures and i love the queers. unfortunately watched it right before the second season released and haven’t gotten to that yet.

did watch the second season of good omens though. i think they made the right choice to scale it back because honestly once you’ve averted the apocalypse trying to outdo yourself becomes a fool’s errand. also, jon hamm’s butt what who said that.

that’s it i think. as i said no season 2 of ofmd, not even the new flanagan yet which i had really been looking forward to for a long time. i dunno ya girl is struggling to find any pleasure in life atm.

#thought this post was gonna be short #but then remembered like two more games #and i watched way more tv than i thought #wish i could tell you about the movies but i really cannot. remember.

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nekorenge · 5 months

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Get ready because today I have something beefy for you all- it’s an episode -to- episode NekoRenge comparison ! I put this together months ago when rewatching the series. The goal of this was taking note of interesting parallels. Enjoy!

Important note: by “Scene A, Scene B”, i was mainly just counting the scenes in which the characters in question appeared (Renge, Nekozawa). There are parts of the episodes that are not present in these breakdowns because they do not showcase the characters or because they do not offer the parallel information I was seeking out. Hope this makes sense!

EP 4 ATTACK OF THE LADY MANAGER

Scene A (Renge)

We first see her shrouded in darkness with only the light of her screens. Clearly comfortable with the dark, maybe even used to it.

Comfortable being alone, stays in her room in the dark, door closed, playing games.

Is not entirely a loud and dramatic person as seen by her interactions in this first scene.

Is interested in a “prince charming” (but NOT a “phony” tamaki type [see later])

Scene B (Renge)

Has a deep despise for ingenuine or “phony” people, especially in regards to “princely” characters. (Take a drink whenever you read ‘prince’ or ‘princely’ in this breakdown lol)

Wants someone who does not “spread their love around so easily”- not a naturally flirty type

Against narcissists and commoners (im compiling all related information so i guess i’ll mention it)

Again, shes looking for her “one and only prince charming”…

Scene C (Renge)

Wants a “love at first sight”

Her favorite dating sim character adores flowers when he thinks no one else is looking and (“sweet”ly) reaches out to a (poor little) injured kitten (remember this)

Wants a “gentleman who’s kind to everyone but doesnt ask for anything in return” and “likes solitude but in fact sometimes gets lonely”

Likes that kyoya manages their club and wants to help advertise at first

Scene D (Renge)

Finds it essential that the hosts all have a “dark” side otherwise they are “lukewarm” and annoy her

“Girls” are vulnerable to “handsome young men that are troubled”

When Tamaki poses dramatically she really loves it (“would be even more effective if you were standing in the rain!”)

Scene E (Renge)

Appreciates haruhi stepping in the way and protecting her

Scene F (Renge)

“It was so chivalrous of you to risk your life to protect me” (i wonder if we will see anyone else perform any self-sacrificial moves to protect someone they love)

EP 11 BIG BROTHER IS A PRINCE

Scene A (Kirimi)

Nekozawa is immediately established as a “strong, handsome prince”, chivalrous, who would “defeat a monster”.

Scene B (Nekozawa)

Nekozawa emerges dramatically and inexplicably from nowhere in Music Room 3

Caring towards his sister “all i want is for my sister to be happy. Make sure she gets the love she deserves!”, always trying to reach out to her

Evil iconic laughter

Loves cats!

Unintentionally scares people away (i.e. kirimi)

Genuine and in touch with his emotions

CONSTANT mentions of nekozawa as a “prince”

Scene A (Renge)

Renge emerges dramatically and inexplicably from nowhere in Music Room 3

Evil iconic laughter

Scares people upon arrival

Scene B (Nekozawa and Renge)

Dramatic poses

Somehow everyone’s a phony but when she starts feeding Nekozawa scripts its okay (i know she scripts the hosts too but i just think her hypocrisy is funny)

They both have their strong passions tbh

The lines she is giving him are as mentioned questionable for his sister. Then who are they for? Did she get carried away? At the bare minimum, they relate back to her obsessive gaming but even still in that case there is the implication that it would or could be lines that she likes?

He cowers and just apologizes when she goes medusa mode

Coaching him on being “princely”…

“Its okay to have a dark side, “some girls” like that”. “Cute, brooding male characters always go over well” This by itself but also the illustrations portray a brunette with a big hair bow fawning over the nekozawa stand-in (not to mention the parallels to uki doki memorial with the cat image AND the way shes reacted to the dark sides of the host club boys in ep 4)

She’s the only person who he’s shown this side when up against and seems intimidated by

Shes encouraging him…….. in her own way..

“Even Edgar was able to face the cross once he built up his courage” “but i thought you rejected the occult” “occult fiction is good, occult fashion is not” COME ON. literally. They have common interests. This is a slam dunk for me

“Youre the one who’s always wearing weird cosplay” -hikaru (direct comparison between her cosplays and his outfits of choice. IM not even having to make these comparisons the show is doing it for me)

Seems to already be romanticizing him in some regard if the “eyes of your heart” is any indication (albeit with some aggression because she’s Renge)

Shots where the two are positioned with a chalkboard heart between them (worth at least mentioning!)

She silently watches and encourages him, seems a little proud of or amazed by his bravery?

Her eyes are shining with what seems to be actual pride when he shines the flashlight

He isnt afraid to be genuine, and cares passionately

Leaps out the window to save his sister even forgetting his cloak

Renge’s pleased (she’s one of the most genuinely excited of the group to see him conquer his fear and come to his sister’s rescue- twins are sarcastic)

Scene C (Kirimi)

“I have a princely big brother who will fight to protect me, even if it means dashing out into the sunlight, the one thing he fears most of all.”

Ok, I think I’ve color coded most of the key parallel stuff! Some of this… reaches more than others, but I think when you start looking at it this way it looks more and more solid. I was going to go through the whole series episode by episode with this sort of analysis in regards to the ship but honestly these are some of the most key episodes. I think if i were to look into any others, my goals would be to look into Haruhi in Wonderland and Until the Day it Becomes a Pumpkin, because off the top of my head those are the last ones with any interactions.

If you’re reading this, thank you for reading!! I hope it was at the very least entertaining and perhaps even eye-opening! I’ve loved the response to my fanart, with some people realizing the potential of the ship for the first time! So heartwarming to hear it. Have a great day!

#ohshc #nekorenge #ouran high school host club #fanfiction #ohshc fanfic #renge houshakuji #umehito nekozawa #ouran #ao3 #rarepair #nekozawa/renge #renge/nekozawa #ohshc headcanons #ohshc imagines #ohshc anime #anime

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Hello, I love your fics so much!! I read all of them as soon as they drop and literally reread a handful when I need some extra Byler comfort.

I am currently obsessed with "A Body in Motion." When I tell you chapter 2 destroyed me (in the best way) I mean it 10 million times over haha. I can't wait to for the next chapter!! Obviously this is not to rush you/pressure you!! I just wanted to let you know how much I love it and how well you portray Mike's anxiety (which I think is canon tbh and I don't see enough people write Mike in that way). Idk if you also suffer from anxiety or any kind of panic disorder, but his breakdown in the bathroom was spot on (I have anxiety/frequent panic attacks) and I just couldn't believe how eloquently and accurately you wrote it (anxiety is usually portrayed in fics poorly, and it's almost always through Will). Mike trying to isolate so as *not* to have a panic attack in Will's presence was key to the accuracy, his thought process in that moment was sad but very accurate. Will comforting him by being the grounding tether for Mike...Mike feeling his heartbeat and his little "Oh God" and falling into Will... literally some tears were shed because UGHHH it that whole scene was so good. Literally could go on all day.

Anyway, you're an amazing writer! ❤ That's all!

ok so first of all i need to get this out there that i read this ask and literally had to read it like 3 times over just to process and i was smiling the whole time bc it is so ! thoughtful ! genuinely genuinely genuinely i am so glad this scene stood out to you as much as it did! it was a large part of why ch2 was so daunting for me to write and also why it took so long, because i was really trying to make sure it was well written and intentional and not rushed or like. cheapened for convenience if that makes sense !! i wrote it based largely on my own experiences with anxiety and panic attacks bc i do in fact deal with both of those things and have for a long time and i was trying to make it as realistic and relatable as possible so i’m so so glad it rang true to you !! i was also so nervous after posting it that people would find it weird or forced or awkward or any combination of those things and just overall was a little anxious about it but it’s been so well received and this is maybe the kindest thing anyone has had to say about it so !! i’m just very <333 🥰 i know everyone’s experiences with it are a little different which is a part of why i was so intimidated by the concept when i first thought of it but it’s also a very deeply personal scene to me bc i was sort of thinking like. what sorts of things would help Me when i’ve gone through it before. like what would i have wanted someone to do and say to me etc etc and just you picking up on details like mike trying to get away before it sets in bc he doesn’t want will to have to see it means the whole entire world to me i’m being so serious ☹️🫂 this got so long but i just wanted to say thank you so much this was so thoughtful and i’ll be thinking about it for forever <3

#clutches chest #saw this ask come in and literally had to text my friends n be like #‘someone sent me the nicest ask about abim’#i’m sooo #like u don’t even kno how terrified i was to attempt writing this scene #put it off for so long and tried so hard to make it like. Good #and accurate to my own feelings anyway bc that’s the only reference i have lol #but i’m so glad you thought it rang true for you as well <3 #/ask

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NOT THE FACE SLIPPING INTO A SOB 😭😭😭 that was top tier acting from both of them, the whole scene was absolutely insane. Those little moments KILL ME.

Ah god don’t, the soft “what is wrong with you” then she gets more and more annoyed and blurts out “I LOVE YOU DUDE” I can’t put into incoherent words how they make me feel anymore like my brains a mess??

We will get though the wait together and I’ll continue to jump into your asks when I’m having a moment cos like it’s the only way I can survive at this point 🤣🤣

What’s your hopes for season 4 with jiara? Top 3?

YEAH THAT SCENE IN 3X4 ABSOLUTELY KILLS ME; rudy and maddie DESTROYED it - and don't get me STARTED on JJ's breakdown on the dock right after ksjdkfjfdf sometimes I genuinely cannot believe what we got!

MY BRAIN HASN'T HAD A COHERENT THOUGHT SINCE 2021 I KID YOU NOT KSDKFJSKD and it's just rotting by the day consumed by jiara 🤡 As painful as that fence scene was, I LOVED both their performances here, namely rudy's scathing WHEN YOU SEE MIKE COULD YOU JUST LET HIM KNOW THAT I DON'T FEEL BAD ABOUT THE MONEY CLIP - I ACTUALLY NEEDED IT and the buffering in real time WHAT

YES PLS KEEP SCREAMING INTO THE ABYSS WITH ME!!!! Maybe if we keep yellin we'll manifest some things for S4 🙃

OH GOD, TOP 3 THAT IS SO HARD!!!!! Some things that come to mind:

*I definitely need to see more comfort and love/affection from JJ's end toward Kie! We've seen the pining! We've seen Kie openly in love with him! It's his turn now!!!

*I need Kie's trauma and her relationship with the Carreras addressed - not just glossed over! I'm still clowning for some parallels there

*I'd also love to see JJ's trauma addressed and his healing shown - not just "oh hey, all is well now" bc we saw some of that process start in S3. He still has a long way to go! And if Luke returns as part of showing that process, BRING IT

*More Pogues - forever and always! That's four, but hey. I'm greedy when it comes to this show, what can I say

How bout you??!!!

#jiara #ask #my asks #lovely anon #diana answers #obx3 #obx4 #jj maybank #kiara carrera #rudy pankow

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biweeklybisexual · 10 months

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I binge watched this season in like a day so I’ll have to rewatch bc I missed a lot of fucking things but it was a little underwhelming </3

some things were very good tho like Richie’s episode, the Christmas flashback etc but I wish they had done a better job at fleshing out Claire because her character felt sooooo flat. Her dialogues with Carmy were so boring, and I know the awkwardness was definitely a point but it kind of came at the expense of any chemistry. It could have genuinely been so good had they handled her relationship with Carmy better. There’s a big disconnect bc they both think they have a good understanding of each other given they both work in very demanding fields and they do it out of passion. But Claire enjoys her work and Carmy loves his but he doesn’t like it anymore. They think they’re on the same page but they’re not. It would have been useful to highlight that disconnect better for the end to be even more foreshadowed and therefore hit harder.

Like the end felt terrible but it could have felt even worse had we actually gotten something a little more engaging from them both and I mourn that okay. I like to feel bad.

They did an okay job of showing Carmy’s unhealthy relationship with his work BUT again I would have written it better (delusional). Like this man is going insane and it’s all throwaway jokes and all until like the last episode. He was due more than a few almost-breakdowns before that last ep. That would have also built more dramatic tension (not to mention add some realism) and made the end more striking.

Ebra’s arc made some sense but also, badly handled. Sydney was great tho like maybe the only things I don’t have too much of a gripe about are her arc and those of Tina, Richie and Marcus. All in all it wasn’t bad but it could have been so much more that I’m a bit disappointed… I feel like they bit more than they could chew, it’s a very crowded show and a lot of moments felt superfluous and that’s time that could have gone towards other things like Ebra’s struggle with change, Nat and Carmy, and Claire !! I understand all the yelling and chaos is thematically relevant but like some of it could have definitely been cut to make place for other more essential stuff, like the real meat of their struggles etc.

AGAIN I get they don’t have time to talk about stuff and that’s like the point of the show. BUT the first episodes had a lot of filler and the later ones suffered from it I think. Idk I’m not an authority or whatever.

#anyway I just wanted to air out some thoughts #still very enjoyable watch !#the bear

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sudden-narratives · 2 years

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i am never vocal when it comes to my achievements. in fact, i never was. i don’t post about it nor broadcast it to be known for onlookers (this is my own preference) i can’t remember when this mindset of mine started that if so ever i decide to celebrate my wins loudly, it will all get jinxed. i know that it sometimes doesn’t make sense at all bc of course, i am aware that we all deserve some recognition too, but pondering about it just causes me to feed my fear of this annoying unknown which only opens a door to ruminate.

plus, i can’t lie about how i always loved the feeling of being safe that i constantly choose and intend to celebrate my wins with the people i value the most — certain individuals who will be happy and would choose to continue to cheer me on with genuineness. i can’t believe i am blessed with a handful of individuals in my life aside from my understanding family.

in fact, i never even posted anything when i aced the board exam 3 years ago. but i guess this one is a core memory. an exception that i would like to cherish and be instilled in this platform. i want this to be remembered. here’s to me, braving my way to share it here since i have little to no interactions on this platform which is the greatest thing about it. no mutuals, just strangers who are really poetic and just having their main character moments. i have always felt safe about sharing my sentiments in this platform. i’ll leave this here as a keep-safe and to slowly break through the belief i am in.

“ a win i gained this year ”

who would’ve thought that i would graduate the second time around? even i wouldn’t expect it to occur. although, i did consider pursuing grad school however, i thought long and hard that it’s not going to be essential in the field of work i am currently in (not unless i really pursue law school) so, i enrolled myself in a short course to enter the judiciary. it’s mainly focused on building my skills in Stenography as it is the profession i am eager to pursue. i was expecting to only receive a certificate afterwards. nothing grand, maybe i’ll just be attending a simple gathering to receive the recognition but to my surprise, i got to go up the stage once more. i forgot that i deserved to be in this momentous event and share it here — in my safe space.

i am genuinely grateful for the sudden turn of events in my life. although, i do admit that i had my fair share of breakdowns along the way. i became too blinded by the thought of getting left behind in a fast-paced environment only to have this realization that there was a reason behind my steady and still progress.

i was being prepared for the greater heights all this time.

#suddennarratives

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I’m so glad that you are moving onto things that you are more passionate about and I will always support you but one thing I ask of you is that even if you’ve moved on from danonation I ask if you will always keep your old paul dano fics up and not delete them. They have brought me so much comfort and I’d hate to lose them. But as I said I’m so glad you are moving onto more passionate things and I’m always going to support and love your writings <3.

Okay, I’m sorry, anon. Your ask kind of ended up being a bit of a vent post about my writing lately?? So, my short answer for this: I’m glad that my writing means something to you. For now, my old Paul content stays up. 😅👍🏻 Everything else I have to say is under the cut.

Whoo boy. Your timing is actually kind of impeccable since last night I was just having a little breakdown over my own writing. 😅 I was reformatting my Paul masterlist and got the chance to skim some of my work while doing so. Which is kind of a death sentence for my self esteem in most cases as I almost always kind of hate my own writing?

I just read through my stuff and get overwhelmed with embarrassment and my brain immediately goes into this panic where I’m convinced that I’ve never written a decent thing ever and I probably never will so I might as well just wipe my existence from this platform. Maybe it’s just the fact that I haven’t written something I’ve been genuinely passionate and prideful about in like…months? Maybe I’ll feel better about my work as I start variating things.

All I know is that where I am now, I kind of hate almost everything I’ve ever posted. And I still kind of want to delete my account and hide in a little hole until the end of time. ✌🏻🤪✌🏻 But more than that I just…want to be a better writer. I want to feel that fire I had for writing again. I want to write things I’m passionate about. I want to write those things well. I want to believe that I’m making people feel things again. And it’s been a long time since I’ve experienced any of those things with my writing. So, thank you, anon, for making me feel a little bit of that hope for a second.

#˚ʚ ask meda ɞ˚#˚ʚ anonymous ask ɞ˚

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shreya11111 · 2 years

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Hi here’s ask because previous person doesn’t respond but I want someone to respond this question about byler

How do you think Will would reach when he finds out that Mike is in love with him?

How do you think Mike would reach when he finds out that Will is in love with him?

How do you think will felt after "it's not my fault you don't like girls"?

How and when do you think Will found out that he loves Mike and how did he react to his own feelings?

What future do you think Will likes to envision for himself and Mike? (If Mike loved/loves him back)

How do you think Will was feeling at the snowball?

Do you think Will knows that Jonathan knows about him?

What do you think Will imagines in the situation if someone finds out that he is gay?

hi! sorry for taking so long to respond as well💀

1) i feel like he would be in utter disbelief…like he would genuinely not believe mike. he’s so convinced that he has -1% chance with mike that it would likely take him days to process (maybe even weeks💀) that mike loves him back.

2) mike would be shocked, and once he finds out how will has been feeling this whole time, he would likely have a breakdown :( i also feel like he would be in disbelief, and would have to keep asking will if he’s sure💀

3) i mean, by the look of his face and his actions afterwards, it’s quite obvious that he felt quite terrible, most likely betrayed and hurt that the person he loves and cherished the most in the world could say something like that to him. the scene of him destroying castle byers never fails to make me cry :(

4) i definitely feel like he started to have a bit of an awareness in season 2, especially during the snowball dance. however, i feel like he didn’t really accept him loving mike as the truth until maybe mid season 3.

as for how he reacted, i think he wasn’t as accepting as i think a lot of people think he was. it was the ‘80’s, and there was not a lot of positive queer rep he might have seen back then. especially as he was bullied for “seeming queer”, i think he was harsh on himself for his feelings for mike and likely thought of them as wrong (and probably still does). it’s very heartbreaking to think about :((

5) probably just doing what they love – playing d&d and other games for the rest of their lives :) also probably just making comics and enjoying each other’s company :,)

6) he was evidently not having the best time…he probably felt uncomfortable and likely a bit jealous as mike was dancing with el, and that probably hurt him as well.

7) i mean…i feel like he knows in his heart that jonathan put two and two together. maybe he’s still a bit unsure, but jonathan made it pretty clear regardless that he loves will no matter what.

8) i’m not sure if you mean what he hopes would happen or what he thinks would happen, so i’ll answer both.

he hopes what any other queer person would hope happen if someone finds out they’re queer…that the person who finds out will love and accept him regardless and will not want to remove him from their life. he’d hope for unconditional love from that person, regardless of who his/what his sexuality is. he hopes that they don’t spread any rumors or tell anyone else until he’s ready to do so himself. he just hopes to be treated like a human being.

however, i think what he thinks would actually happen is much less optimistic. he likely thinks that he would not be accepted, that he would be seen as more of a “freak” than people already see him as. he thinks that his friends would leave him, that mike would leave him, and that he’d be alone :(

the ‘80s was extremely difficult for queer people and i feel for will :( no matter what, i just want him to have the happiness he deserves.

thank you for the ask!

#byler #stranger things #will byers #gay will byers #mike wheeler #jonathan byers #byler tumblr #anti m*leven #st4 #st2 #st3 #anon ask #shreya answers

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[“What? It wasn’t a lie,” Ranboo said, shaking his head. “Yeah, sure, Techno told me to become friends with you two so I could tell him things you might not wanna say to him or Phil, but I did it because I was trying to help you!”] either Aimsey only heard this part of the conversation, or learning Ranboo was told to befriend Tommy and Wilbur sent them over the edge. Maybe the fact that Ranboo admits it too.

Anyway, they are also all of us in this moment, and they are pissed. Because if that happened with Wilbur and Tommy, what if it happened with them too? Then Aimsey has about the exact same breakdown Tommy had. Going through the motions of “I defended Ranboo to Wilbur when he was right” and “I have told Ranboo so much info he should not have been trusted with”, but most importantly “was any of our friendship even real?” I’ll get back to that bit when talking about Ranboo himself.

Aimsey jumps on the bandwagon of forcing the truth out of Ranboo immediately. Because that’s the easiest way to find out if Ranboo screwed them over too. And he did, once and what that one thing was does determine how bad it was. I’m not sure if that matters to them or not, because Aimsey is pissed and it’s a betrayal either way. Knowing what it was will reveal if and how bad the damage was.

But most importantly, a lot of Wilbur and Tommy’s behaviour suddenly makes sense. And Aimsey is a Flosuim politician. That’s their field, that’d what’s important to them. So they would not know the true threat Essempi poses to the princes or how close that threat is. And even if they did, all logic is being overridden by anger. So they let the brothers go, getting info is more important. And they do care, so if the brothers don’t feel safe here, and Aimsey can see why, they should get to leave.

(2/3)

-🎄

aimsey mostly just heard that last bit. they didn't follow wilbur at first after their encounter. they kind of paced back and forth in the halls for a bit trying to decide what to do. they definitely considered doing what he asked and going back to their room. but then their curiosity got the better of them, so they tried to figure out where he went. they knew that ranboo had been heading back to his room so they wondered if wilbur and/or tommy was meeting up with him, hence why they headed in that direction. ranboo's room also happens to be close to the train platform, so they heard the voices coming from there and walked up just to hear that

poor aimsey had to speedrun the betrayal in such a short timespan while there is literally so much other stuff going on around them lmao. but they were pissed because they defended ranboo so many times, and they were genuinely upset at wilbur for being so hostile to him. but in the end, they're the fool, and their best friend on zephys iv lied to their face. they're not thrilled.

yeah fun fact aimsey had no idea wilbur and tommy could use their Voices, so they were internally reeling over that but decided to just deal with that surprise later and focus on getting answers out of ranboo while they can lmao. and sure enough, ranboo betrayed them.

keep in mind also, aimsey has talked a lot about being ignored by the other floslium ambassadors. they're not included in a lot of the larger conversations about what's happening in the galaxy. their role is limited, and so is the information they get. so that's why they don't know about how real the Essempi threat is (tbh, no one outside the military + phil and techno knew that Essempi ships had surveillance on the planet. that was classified info so as not to induce a panic).

and yeah, above all, aimsey is their friend. so even though leaving sounds like a bad idea, they're more focused on their own betrayal and how hurt their friends must be, so they let them go

#ask #spruce anon #the stars and their children

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stopiteatpopcorn · 2 years

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GUYS GUYS GOOD NEWS

I’M BACK ON TRACK AND AM ACTUALLY MANAGING TO FINISH A FIC FOR REAL! AND IT WAS A REQUEST TOO SO IM REALLY SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG IT’S JUST THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A MESS AND THERES A LOT GOING ON IN MY LIFE RN. I’M GENUINELY PROUD OF MYSELF THAT I’M BACK ON TRACK EVEN IF ITS ONLY FOR A LITTLE BIT BUT UH YEAH- RANDOS BACK BROS!!

UNFORTUNATELY THOUGH, AFTER I FINISH THESE 2/3 REQUESTS LEFT, I MAY TAKE A BREAK OFF RECS AND JUST TAKE A MOMENT TO FOCUS ON OTHER THINGS. OF COURSE I’LL STILL TRY TO WRITE BUT IT WILL MOSTLY BE JUST WHAT I WANNA DO, BUT MAYBE I’LL REOPEN EM FOR CHRISTMAS WHO KNOWS

THERES A VENT UNDER THE CUT SO JUST BE WEARY OF THIS

So recently I’ve been having a lot of breakdowns about past things and mentally I feel drained and burnt out almost all the time as well as not so funky thoughts. I’ve been seeing a psychologist to help figure out what’s up and turns out I have severe depression (Which I saw coming) as well as a couple other things. I’m trying to continue doing things normally and to get better but it’s just really hard. But I am glad and honestly happy with myself for being able to write again considering I only ever really wrote one fic as well as some HC’s too but hey I’m slowly coming back so uh my account isn’t completely dead yet IG- If you read this, thanks for still being here and supporting my account and me even though I’ve been basically dead on here apart from the occasional re-blog. I promise for real that fics are coming :D

#Theres a bit of Rando vents under the cut and it isn't a little topic so feel free to read the first part of this and scroll #but yeah Rando is back in business bros

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just felt like rambling about my school’s bullshit somewhere that isn’t *as* directly tied to me lmao

christ. i tested positive for covid (no fucking idea where i got it) and so they have to put me in the quarantine dorms, which already sucks because i have to move across campus during finals and be alone and whatever but i get it, they have to deliver us all food, it makes sense. i hate it but it makes sense!

the quarantine dorms are on the 4th floor of the freshmen dorms. which infamously have no elevator.

i email the guy handling it all to be like hey are there any lower floor options, i’m disabled and i don’t think i’ll be able to carry my belongings up Three Flights Of Stairs. he says no, but you have plenty of time to move in so it’ll be fine. (i had 3 hours to move in from the time the email was sent)

im like. ok. i’ll try. i guess. i gather my belongings and push a cart full of everything i need for 10 days— including shit like toilet paper, bedding, etc because they do not provide that in the quarantine dorms— Across Campus. i am disabled, i have covid, it’s fucking cold out, i am already tired from that. i get to the freshmen dorms. i get to the first set of stairs. i Cannot get my belongings up even One Step.

i immediately email again saying hey this isn’t gonna work i literally am unable to get up the stairs, i am disabled, can someone be sent to help me. while waiting for a reply, in the cold, i try lugging my stuff up the stairs again. can’t even get a step up. again.

after an hour. an Hour. i send a followup message. saying hey. im sorry for sending so many messages. but i am in the freezing cold, because i do not want to wait inside, because i do not want to spread covid. i CANNOT get up the stairs. Please Do Something For Me. i still do not get a reply. half an hour passes. my mom is threatening to call every official on the planet. me, being socially anxious, is like pppplease no id rather freeze.

after a while i am So cold and tired, and mind you i woke up at 7am after sleeping like shit bc covid has given me insomnia (usually im great at sleeping), so i go up to one building that has the office of res life. idfk what every office does so im like ok maybe they can help me. and i ask the front desk person if they can ask if someone can help me. they ask who ive been emailing with, i tell them, they’re like oh he’s back here, they go back and talk to him. they come back and say “im sorry we can’t help you.” this person seems genuinely sorry and like they want to help but that a higher up, mr. Ignoring My Fucking Emails, is saying they can’t. by this point i am mere seconds away from sobbing so im like :) thank you… and leave and then have a lil breakdown in the bathroom where i can’t even wipe my snot face bc i have fucking covid and i feel bad enough even using a public bathroom at all

anyway i gave my mom permission to call whoever she wanted and she called around. i was told multiple times someone would be ‘contacting me’ and nobody did. it’s another 45 minutes. she calls the health center and there’s a nurse there who is SO horrified that NO ONE IS DOING ANYTHING that she walks halfway across campus in full Plague Gear to me. and she carries my belongings. up three flights of stairs. the entire time being like “it is Ridiculous that they make students with covid do this wtf” and i thank her a hundred times and my mom sends an email being like “pls give nurse a raise. pls tell email jerk he sucks.” the nurse is my guardian angel.

30 minutes after arriving in the dorm, email jerk replies to me saying i should abandon my belongings at the bottom of the stairs (in the middle of the dorm yard) and go to the dorm and he ‘may’ have someone come by in 15 minutes to bring my things up for me. i say … no. no thanks im at the dorm.

anyway shoutout to my school i guess

#snow.txt

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