#or maybe they hold for a few days idk

[bowletta]

this is another one of those 'took my daydreams too seriously' pieces lol

scrapperton looks soo much like a superstar saga boss... I thought... what if he was? ⚙️

#super robot monkey team #super robot monkey team hyperforce go #srmthfg #srmt otto #srmt sprx #scrapperton #my art #superstar saga #ya so. the last one of these i did? with gibson? took a few days. like 3-5 #this one? like Three. Weeks. #i had like 4 more of these i wanted to do but thats gonna go on hold for a bit lol x_x #maybe... my art can summon a true and honest srmt game.. someday... 😳 #idk if you can tell i started w heavy insp from ss but by the time i got to the monkeys i did my own animations #and it was... not fun! let me tell you : ] #for those curious scrapperton is a villain from a cartoon (srmt) who shows up... uh... twice. thats it #but i think his design is neat : ]

[hiyyihrts]

I’ve only recently got into the bridgerton fandom side of things but making an entire blog about how much you hate one ship/character is actually kinda crazy and obsessive 😭 if you don’t care about them or don’t even like the show bc of them why keep entertaining it and talking about it… maybe unclench and log off for a bit idk

#bridgerton #like idk if I don’t like smth I’m not gonna make my entire personality online about how much I hate them #aren’t y’all exhausted or what #maybe take a break from being online and go outside and realize… it’s all fiction and not reality #you don’t have to entertain it if you truly don’t care or don’t want to no one is holding a gun to your head man 😭 #this goes for any bridgerton ship tbh bc some of y’all sound insane #also… media literacy ain’t there anymore #y’all think every character has to be 100% good with no faults or very few faults in order to like them #but all characters in bridgerton have their faults and morally grey areas #and some are worse than others #but it’s all fiction at the end of the day #polin #saphne #kanthony

[aroacehanzawa]

does anyone else have this thing where they need to be just the right amount of fixated on something in their free time in order to actually be productive outside their free time, but not too much so it affects your productivity, but also not not fixated on anything because otherwise you just waste time trying to find that something instead of being productive or enjoying your free time

#does this make any sense? #like i need to start studying for exams but i don't have any specific thing to fall back on when i'm done studying for the day #so instead of actually focusing on studying i just keep pickup up books/manga/series and dropping them because i can't find something that #holds my attention just the right amount #but when i was reading witch hat atelier the last few days that was too much because i wouldn't do anything else #i think the last few years it was always a webnovel that i read over exam season because they're light and entertaining enough but because #it's words instead of visuals it's less.. consuming? yknow? #anyway idk what to read #well i've been reading can ci pin but it's a bit too serious and slow especially the part i'm on rn #might start the earth is online. maybe

[matchandelure]

i fear that the undercover top secret government assassins are growing on me (cp9)

#I HAD ZERO THOUGHTS ABOUT THEM AT FIRST #IN FACT I WAS DEVASTATED THAT THE WATER 7 QUARTET WERE ACTUALLY CP9 #BUT THEN??????? I READ CP9'S INDEPENDENT REPORT AND. I!?!??!?@?!? #the thoughts are endless ive been having one piece dreams every night for the past few days and they have all been cp9 related the brainrot #is so bad. i am sodgjkadhg #i love one piece there are so many characters with each new arc i get to i get some new characters to obsess over i love it i feel so alive #ive been fighting tooth and nail avoiding spoilers for the latest episode BUT GOD IM SO SO TEMPTED TO. TAKE A PEEK #anyways last night i was once again doing a wiki deep dive and i found some silly things on cp9's pages #JABRA AND LUCCI ARE THE SAME HEIGHT!!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY #CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!?! the kid you've had beef with since he was 13 (maybe even earlier since lucci alreayd knew him when he was 6) who you #used to have a whole head over is now at eye level with you i would actually be so embarrased #KAKU IS FROM EAST BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS OS IMPORTANT ACTUALLY!! THE MOST IMPORATNT FACT EVER!!!!!!!!!!! #so he knows the strawhats are...also from the east blue right?!? right??????! and ik the wg steals these kids early on to train them so i #doubt he has lingering attachments to his home sea but i still think this so both so so sad and so important :'(( #also not getting over how oda's depiction of tiny kaku has him holding a toy boat BC ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!?! ARE YOU K IDDING ME #kalifa and jabra's favourite dishes are both lamb based!!!!!!!!! silly because her animal motif is a sheep haha #BUT ALSO considering how her father was also cp9 and she's probably been conditioned since birth to also follow his footsteps and how jabra #holds seniority in the current lineup id like to think that these two have known each other a very long time and there were influences #the most dysfunctional fcked up family ever. cp9 #blueno and jabra are both from the north blue!!!!!!!!!!!!! and that one falshbakc we see that the two of them plus 6year old lucci trained #together but also it would be so fcked up if the two actually knew of each other before being roped into the governemnt #idk how the wg works do they just??? routinely scout around and pick up a bunch of kids ata time???? were jabra and blueno taken together?? #also wondering if ... kalifa jabra and kumadori knew each other the longest as fellow agents or soemthing #i feel like im entertaining a gazillion thoughts all at once its so hard ot balance but we know both kalifa nad kumadori have #parents in the governemnt/assassin profession that also influenced them right #idk maybe one thing they can bond over #cp9 to me is just a fucked up family of some sort. they are not found family they are like some weird forged family where they were all #forced together and somehow made it work and they all love lucci and care for his wellbeing enough to raise all that money to get him to a #doctor and they cared about each other enough to get off enies lobby together without leaving anyone behind and they went cafe hopping and #shopping and bowling together and they all care for each other in their own way

[bangcakes]

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#god i was so giddy today (or well i guess yesterday. its almost 2am JDJFJFJF) #i was waitin all day for him to finish work so i could message him n he messaged me in seconds... triple texted NDNDJDJDNDNDMDMDN #god hes so cute. im so !@@@@@ i like him so much. like ..... !!!!!!!!!!!! #he makes me so happy idk how to explain. i just !!!!!!@@ like him so !!!!@@ much !!!! #why do i deprive myself of him 😭😭😭😭😭 #but i mean we did talk for 2 hours straight in person a few weeks ago. not much you can like. converse about after that JDJDJDJDJDJDJ #:'))))))))) #maybe i'll let myself be a lil hopeful.... 🥺🥺🥺 #personal #also omg i think i figured out why he was so combative??? when i saw him last #i think it was bc of our mutual friend........... #n e way HDNDNDNDNDN #so maybe thats why he was like that. bc with me.... sure we tease each other but hes not like....... out for the kill idk JDJDJDNDNNDNDND #hes so sweet.... like not in an obvious way but like NDNNDMDDMD IDK. #we'll put it this way.... #when ppl ask him for help... he tells them to google it #meanwhile hes explaining stuff to me in detail; going up to the teacher n asking questions for me; getting up out of his seat n #looking for a plug for me JFJDJDJDD LIKE ????? #hes also so polite... thanks ppl... holds the door for ppl. god hes so...... #if he's like....... the guy im gonna be with for the rest of my life... o i'll be so happy BDJZNZNNZNZNZNZNZ #THIS IS SO SAPPY GOD. #if u saw the messages you'd be like literally what are you giddy over HFJDJDJJDJDJDJD AND THATS OKAY #hes just some guy.... love that about him the most.....

[beneaththegildedmoon]

hey fellow chronic pain sufferers/people with joint issues, have any of you found something that helps with pain while standing? like in lines and on public transport and stuff?

I can't stand for more than about 2 minutes at a time without my whole spine, along with my hip and knee joints, starting to seize up and if I have to stand longer than about 5 minutes I will end up on the verge of tears tbh but I can't always find a seat and people are assholes about giving up a seat for you when you "look healthy". I can usually just about keep it together until I can find somewhere to sit, but it always fucks up my whole day with pain flare ups while sitting or walking to the bathroom etc. which I normally don't struggle with. I'm on a waiting list for a physio appointment to try figure out if/how I can strengthen the muscles etc. but if y'all have any advice in the meantime please help

#chronic pain #hypermobility #advice please #idk I've been thinking about looking into mobility aids or sth but I have no clue what would even help #and I don't think my pain really gets bad enough for me to feel comfortable with a chair but maybe that some internalised ablism on my part #but i can't keep having my commute fuck up my whole day with pain it's unsustainable #I've asked people in my life and they've just done the whole “oh that's a normal part of getting older your body just stops working as well #but like I'm 25 #this can't possibly be a normal level of pain from just standing still for a few minutes #i refuse to believe everyone else is also holding back literal tears of pain on the regular

[scattered-winter]

literally nothing worse than waiting for bad news to hit. like i don't know how i'm supposed to go to class with this particular sword hanging over my head

#especially since this particular Bad News could change So Much .. #i don't think my dad is ready to be shouldering the entire household by himself. i really dont. #with 3 kids still at home and his job i just. i dont think he can do it alone. #and both of my older siblings have lives already !! they have spouses and jobs and kids !! #they cant just pack up their lives and move across the state !! #but im not settled i dont have a job i dont have kids or a spouse and hell i was gonna leave school anyway !! #just. not this soon. #but fuck i guess i might have to move up the timetable a bit. #but the THING IS that I DONT KNOW YET. like i Know but i dont actually know officially. yet. #and idk. maybe im hoping it'll not turn out the way i know it will so im holding off on making a decision #or maybe im just trying really really hard not to think about the future for the next few days. #but either way by tuesday i'll know for sure and that'll be that. #ill need to talk to my landlord to see if they'll let me move out early. and my counselor to see if i can take a break from school for a bi #and probably my dad just to let him know that im moving back home. idk. i dont fucking know #winter speaks #personal #grief tag #<- gonna be a Whole Thing btw if u wanna blacklist

[icewindandboringhorror]

finally settling once and for all... with the evidence laid out plainly.. which of these brother boys is more stinkys ,,,

#also please for the love of gourd do not take this seriously i am joking I do not hold any of these behaviors against my cats I know that #all cats are a little stinky and weird I have had cats all of my life I am not genuinely condemning my cats i am being silly please lol #(some of my goofy cat posts in the past will always get like.. one or two people taking an issue with something incredibly #mundane. like me saying a cat is being rude or somehting and someone being like 'um actually cats cant process the concept of #rudeness. he has no idea he did anything wrong!' ........ yes...... i am aware.. that my cat has the brain of a cat lol #ANYWAY.... polls!!! so excited to have polls.. I will try not to be annoyig but I just love asking random things to the general #public. in friend groups I am always the one asking people to taking surveys. quizzes. making surveys and handing them out. etc. #the rare times I can partially overcome my social anhedonia/inability to socially function properly/etc. is when I'm interviewing people or #socializing specifically in the context of like Information Gathering lol #I love running questionairres and stuff . even about the most mundane pointless topics. there's just soemthing really interesting #about like....... being able to ask people stuff and then look at and analyze the results. #Even though that's an incredibly simple average thing. idk.. my brain loves information even if it's pointless silly information. #I Just Think It's Neat. I have so so sos os oso many ideas but I wanted to make the first poll about my cats #of course because I'm also obsessed with them lol. I was thinking of taking some of the pictures of them in front of a blank #canvas and doing a poll of 'what are they painting?' or 'what should they paint?' but I decided to go with babey crimes #for now. inspired by various baby crimes committed just this morning. Fresh on my mind.. #I wish they had a middle option though between '1 day' and '1 week'. I think a week is too long for a poll like this but also #one day is not long enough because I dont really have THAT many active followers. if it was just a day it would probably reach like 5 poepl #people. I want to at least be able to reblog it a few times maybe. lol #I think 3-4 days would be ideal. Its a new feature though. I'm sure they'll modify things as time goes on. #Still feeling sick and bad and weird and not being that productive at all generally but... I have just enough energy stores.. #using up every ounce of my power to make a goofy poll... a worthy sacrifice....

[holyluvr]

Getting a good hit of indica that’s a little stronger than vapes I had last time after I ran out of my indica is Hallelujah Praise The LORD and that kid with ADHD

#… #I need indica or antipsychotics both to function. an upper and a downer of some sorts. stimulate then depress. over and over again. daily. #TBH one of the dreams/goals that I still haven’t let myself let go of despite knowing the stats and likelihoods of the outcomes…. #well anyway one of those dreams is to somehow fix this. to meet a doctor who has a treatment plan or life change idea that works on the drug #dependency / the ‘maybe’ acquired brain injury issues. #the ‘is this idiopathic narcolepsy or is this ABI from drs or would you consider this probable narcolepsy from ABI from drs or?’ issues. #the ‘it’s harder to put together a clear understanding of your health overall’ comments followed by silence bc they don’t need to say it lol #it’s hard because no one has known what my health ‘should’ be like. know one has any labs without me on psychotropic medication combos. #they have partial proof from brain scans for the conclusion that my brain was just .fried to deal with me/make me easy and good. didn’t work #and they don’t even need proof to know that medication combos in their own profession shouldn’t be used together or are only used together #in extreme cases with no options left that they immediately fucking jumped into and were lucky I didn’t DIE so many times but fuck yeah #now my brain hurts and I’m not how I was beforehand but don’t rlly know why or how to express it #and I feel alone there and then I have bitch ass doctors telling me to Just Stop The Meds For A Fee Weeks :-)! …..Dr u have no idea huh do u #a few weeks? give me 3 days before I’m having a psychotic episode that’s severe enough to warrant police arrest or 911 called for me. #that’s thousands of dollars in a legal psychiatric hold. and that’s if someone catches the signs on time before I potentially harm myself or #like yeah no I’m sorry doc but i can’t just Simply Stop or Substitute anti-anxiety drugs when I’ve had them holding me together b4 puberty. #anyway I’m still. hoping I’ll find some info somewhere or stories and people like me who figured something out or anything idk #because my medical testing is interfered by medications that I cannot stop taking (mainly benzodiazepines) without losing my mind now. bad.

[a-very-fond-farewell]

tried to take a day off from writing. still woke up at 5am. let’s write then 😈🔥

#sneaky niki #lamb loose liveblogging #I wanted to take a day off.. but my brain is now accustomed to wake up at 5 I guess?? #that’s so not fetch of me #topic of the day is: #I’m pissed bc I had to make a sensible decision and move a plot point a few chapters down the line #which is not fun #but feels more organic #judging by the way I’m keeping steady on this fic I think it will reach 300k #that’s a rough estimate #maybe 280k if I’m being generous instead of acting like a sadistic prick #but that’s just a theory #HDS is making it extremely hard for me to keep a steady pacing too #for example. recently he’s been giving me headache after headache about his growing sense of paranoia #he knows he isn’t sleeping enough #he knows he’s stressed af #the only reason why he has to trust one or two people in his life is bc he will turn absolutely insane if he doesn’t #and this is not me shaming #I remember how I was at my most paranoid during a prolonged episode #trust me. that ain’t fun #but he’s starting to hear things. that’s concerning. that’s suspicious. he needs help #but as usual. he refuses to acknowledge his limitations #also. attic-wifing your nemesis maybe isn’t a safe starting point to discuss with a trained professional during therapy #do criminals go to therapy? #I mean. not convicted ones. I do believe it’s part of their reintegration program. good for them #but like.. sneaky criminals? big fish evading taxes? one inconspicuous attorney holding his amnesiac crush hostage? #idk mate this is fiction #you have fun today ok? #go hug someone. or a pet. or a tree. #:D

[gojoest]

meet cutes are so beloved to me

#— ai rambles #idk why i just remembered that one time i met one of my neighbors and it was like so adorable #i finish work one day and go back home #enter the apartment building and im heading to the elevator (why use stairs im lazy) #i pass by some strangers #and hop in the elevator and just when the doors are about to close someone holds them open from outside #turns out it's one of the boys i passed by earlier and im like hmmmmmmmmmmmmm #and he's like hi. *fidgeting but trying to look cool* i just saw you and had to rush back and try my luck and maybe get ur number #but the funny part is #he just couldn't finish his sentence in one go bc yk the automatic elevator doors #they just close after a few secs of inactivity #so it was like so cute and funny how he had to start all over again a few times that at some point i started laughing my ass off #and stepped out to talk to him #we exchanged numbers just for the sake of that adorable encounter IT WAS LIKE IN THE MOVIES I SWEAR #and he was like a super cute guy i swear like he kept leaving chocolate boxes in front of my door :( #but eventually i had to cut him off bc yk im emotionally unavailable </3

[tapsoda]

Shyeeit I forgot to draw

#ik I’m fine on posting bc I have some older art stacked up to post (maybe 3 idk) but drawing has become very hard so I hope #that this gives me a few weeks to try and relearn… I feel bad that mini me thought I’d be a professional artist one day but I rlly think #id kms if it was anything other than a hobby though I am sad I don’t hold the talent to pursue that life #(the specific type of talent : not to say I’m untalented ofc) #blobbils #everything’s feels so stiff and I can’t gauge depth again *blames it on the mold* (it’s not the mold)

[paimonial-rage]

If you're a Genshin writer and are bored from time to time and need inspiration, feel free to check out @thesteambird for writing prompts and things of the sort!

#don't ask i was procrastinating on writing today #i hopefully will be getting up more lists in the next few days #please send in some ideas for lists you would like to see #i also may hold challenges and events on there like a secret santa #maybe idk yet

[bangcakes]

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#personal #i think that like... the dam's broken. for lack of a better term #or i guess the ice ???? idk man #either way. been messaging back n forth with him like crazy for the past few days #i just decided that like.... whatever. if i feel like saying something i should just say it to him !!! #and i think me being open has led to him being open.... #god its so hard when both ppl only really talk when they have something to say JFJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJJD #like... i cant even make up a reason to talk to him. i cant pretend to be dumb n not understand anything. he'll know its bullshit NDJDJDJDN #n e way...... defs met my match here lmao. but really its been so nice just being able to talk to him when i want. bc waiting until being i #person was getting so !!@@@ long !!! like god. i didnt know i could miss someone so bad...... its so !!@@@@@@ #gah !!!!!!!!!!!! #n e way. things are goin in the right direction #and hahaha !!!!!!@ i have a game plan to make sure we stay in touch too !!!!! me n one of my other friends promised to keep in touch with #each other and i was like oh should we invite everyone else. and she was like oh !! maybe ____ so i was like !!!!!!!! #so true !!!!!!!!!!@ #gosh im so excited i really like them both so much we're all similar temperaments so ya..... ive wanted to make sure i keep them JFJFJFJD #n e way. we still havent asked him but hopefully he says yes !!!! bc he always sits behind us n im just like !!!! ik you wanna sit with us #so just sit beside us istg !!!! but ah ... i think hes shy #god hes so cute #and shes like not competition btw. like..... she has a bf. she knows i like this guy now (i spilled. i couldnt hold it in 💀💀💀). and ya !! #hopefully exciting things coming!!!

[sonego]

i wish someone would k*ll me rn i'm so tired of being in physical pain i just want to not exist

#i'm so so so so done w this shit #i can't hold onto things for more than a few moments bc my hands will drop them and idk why #there's always some part of my uppwr back that is so tense it makes me feel insane it hurts so much #my shoulders and neck let's not even talk about those it's just a block of marble i swear it's so rigid #and now since my body isn't fucked enough my lower back on the righ is making me wanna die it hurts so much #bc i slipped on the stairs this morning (maybe! we should put up a fucking sign that the stairs and floors have just been cleaned!) #and it didn't hurt all day but i knew jtd come eventually lol i was just waiting for the pain to come #i hate my fucking life

[rileys-battlecats]

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#ough i am feeling. bad #past few days i havent been able to muster up the energy/motivation to work on any of my WIPs #but today i feel like i cant find the enrgy for Anything #like. i WANT to work on my art. i want to work on my big video project thats been in the works these past few months!! #but when i open the file and hold my pencil its like i cant even make a single mark #even outside of working on art i feel like i cant find the energy for anything. cant read cant listen to anything. could barely make food #idk man maybe its just some super intense burnout #my usual methods for dealing with burnout arent working today though #it doesnt help that my stomach is killing me #anyway ignore me i just want to complain somewhere <3 #brain is in Terminal Scrample Egg Mode thats all #rye.txt