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#or they just disappear and leave a gaping wound behind like its nothingff
bidilfs
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4 years
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i’m really really really tired of people entering my life, becoming a valued & regular part of it, and then vanishing without a trace.
#ive had like.. i think 3 people now? just disappear
#and i reach out to them and they ignore me
#and i worry like hell about em for a bit thinking theyve completely vanished
#then eventually i see em changing their username or their icon or whatever and realize that
#oh yeah!
#they're still here!
#they've just made the conscious choice to ignore me and not even explain why
#fuck man why do i bother putting effort into people?
#i either open up to them too much and i regret it
#or they just disappear and leave a gaping wound behind like its nothingff
#like do yall not understand that u have a presence in other peoples lives?
#that u mean things to people?
#or do u just genuinely not give a shit?
#i'm so so so so so so so so so tired of having to clean up these messes
#it's exhausting. it really is
#and it hurts because like
#i have to do so much work to just... make the things i love work without them there
#like there's a big piece of the puzzle missing and i have to rearrange it all to make up for the gap
#and i put it off because i dont WANT to write these people off because i'm a fucking IDIOT who always holds out hope that theyll come back
#(even though they never do)
#(or if they do they never start giving a shit again)
#and it's just painful to go through everything and write them out of it
#and it leaves this big tarnished ugly scar all over the things i love
#because now i have to make them function with one less friend in them
#fuck man. fuck this
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