#or use it for fandom stuff if you like of course

[spellbooking]

I can't believe I have to bring this up again, I'm sorry if this isn't anyone's cup of tea so please ignore this if you see fit. But the Baldur's Gate 3 companions are supposed to be seen as pansexual. It's outrageous how sidelined I feel as a gay man who exclusively ships male Tavs with male companions, ESPECIALLY Gale and Halsin, who are explicitly pansexual companions. I will never dictate how people write fanfics or make their tavs or anything. But seeing the blatant erasure of these companions pansexuality is maddening.

I will always use my blog as a way to advocate equality, love, sexuality, freedom of expression, etc etc. My content IS very queer based so of course not everyone can resonate with it, but it can still be supported. It is frustrating to see people talk about Halsin, Gale, Wyll, etc as exclusively heterosexual. Why do we have to gender talking to Halsin about baking? Why do we have to gender Gale talking about BOOKS? As another blog has said: I am not trying to police how people choose to enjoy the game or interact with the fandom. "If you want to read, reblog, and create content with Gale x one gender exclusively, then go ahead. Just keep in mind that he is not heterosexual. Especially when making posts about how he treats a partner, his approach to sex etc. Or when writing about him in general" to quote @dreamingofthewild. This goes for all companions.

These companions like all genders. As someone who HAS a pansexual partner, it is so so discouraging. I'm starting to see more and more stuff indicating that these companions prefer a certain gender EXCLUSIVELY. As inclusive as this game is, this is just so discouraging.

This is meant to start healthier discussions and to be mindful of the fandom as a whole. Support queer artists, queer art, queer content, queer fanfics, etc. between companions and same sex relationships. These companions can be in a relationship with a tav of the opposite gender and still be pansexual, but if we are making content and writing tidbits that INDICATE they PREFER a certain gender, this is where the problem lies.

#tay.txt #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #fandom critical #gale of waterdeep #halsin silverbough #gale dekarios #etc etc

[greykolla-art]

Hii i really love your Hazbin stuff! Especially how you draw Alastor - when i see him in your style i want to hug him to the point where his ribs crack (affectionate)

And i'm kinda worried to see digital circus now, are you gonna draw more hazbin? ^^" no pressure, of course, you do you and i'm not going to force you into something you don't like and if you don't feel like drawing hazbin anymore - that's totally fine! I just wanna know, because i adore your hazbin things and especially radiorose!!

-- With love, anon 💕

Awww, thank you sweetie!💖🤗

But yeah I think my Hazbin fixation has run its course. Guess we can use this as a bus stop marker. 😅

I can’t be tied down for too long, gotta go where the wind takes me.✌️🍃

Those who wanna jump ship are more than welcome, I’ll see y’all probably when season 2 comes out! 💖 you’ve been a lovely audience!

The rest of y’all can stay and enjoy with me whatever other fandoms I join. 😜

#grey answers #grey had a great time with you all! #but as it says on the tin I’m a FANDOM NOMAD.🤠 #I’m into the digital circus now if you wanna stay for that!

[thealogie]

from one person who is Not Normal About These Old Men to another:

how come it's always men? at least on tumblr? like i see plenty of people thirsting over women or saying they like women but i don't see any of them going as absolutely batshit insane as we get about men.

is this just internalized misogyny? is it just because many of us are straight women? what's going on? i have a personal interest in this because i would love to be one of the famous people tumblr gets obsessed with, but i sort of wonder if (provided i even achieve that level of fame, of course) anyone will ever care about my art the way they care about the art of men.

(the exception to this rule is Taylor Swift. and i don't know why.)

anyways i know you probably can't explain this perceived sociological phenomenon any better than i can but i like hearing what you have to say about stuff

It honestly is just misogyny but it’s not our fault (for the most part!). I’m not saying fandoms aren’t sexist (I’m out here saying every day that they are lol) or don’t treat female characters unfairly. but I for one don’t have these issues and would love to be blogging about a slow burn gay subtext show with two women as leads. But there are just fewer shows where the central relationship is about two women.

Jessica Jones for me was the same level of crazy as any show with two guys. orphan black too. If they just give us media that scratches this part of the brain but with more diverse leads I will be eternally grateful. We are getting there, and honestly when it comes to movies and shows with one female lead, we’re so far ahead but a slow burn homoerotic will they won’t they with two women? I blame the industry because I’m ready to hype it and I honestly think that audiences at large have proven that they can enjoy women-led things.

[xxxnightcorequeenxxxv3]

AU Batboys as Cyberlife Androids

I have 100% a bit more than I can chew with this. As I mostly know these fandoms from fanfiction. And I haven't even played the game. But that doesn't stop me from going of the deep end and make a AU in my head featuring the bat boys as cyberlife androids. And of course, Bruce is the but of the jokes too. So how does this work? Let me tell you what I came up with at work doing busy work that requires low brain power, and I pretty much autopilot and AU craft. So the idea is that Dick, Jay, Tim, and Dami have all ended up deviating. And due to damage taken, has either managed to cram themselves altogether in child model Android (or some sort of USB system storage). Anyway, that's how we get Robin, who managed to sneak away using a circus as a cover, and they end up in Gotham. (I think Dick might have been a police android before the transfer to the Robin collective, and Jay maybe was modified by the past owner for crime, no idea about Tim and Dami yet, though.) So, even if they are at risk of getting hurt, they still try to do good in the world. They some how run into Batman. With a lot of back and forth, Bruce managed to convince Robin to come with him. What they don't tell Bruce at first is that there are more of them. So, after some time, Robin asks Bruce if he could get an adult frame, please. Brucie managed to convince the public that he got the child boot secondhand. And there has been a lot of speculation as to why of the not-so-savory variety. So when Bruce requests a blank model with no programming to be sent to Wayne Tech for the transfer. The only reason Cyberlife agrees to it is that someone in Wayne tech RND convinces them Wayne is probably just gonna .... the bot. and yeah, that's how Dick gets the cake. As the others were like no, you've been in charge of Robin for so long now, you go first. So Dick agrees to transfer to the new custom model, which can change to Mr. Wayne's preference. To Bruce's surprise, Robin is operational, just different as Jay is in charge of the collective now as the next experienced model in the line. This is where Dick and the others come clear that Robin is more of a Matryoshka situation. It takes some time for Bruce to get to terms with that situation. But after some time has gone by, they come up with a plan to get another clean slate android body. Brucie is now gonna be in to role play, for his second android. He manages to get one of them beefy security bots. So yeah, he leaves Wayne RND with the forwarding request for a new blank bot from Cyberlife. And some techs are thoroughly amused by the goings on that the requests go through. And That's how we get a big beefy boy for Jay to jump to. Making it Tim's turn to be in primary control of Robin for a time. Bruce asks Robin just how many there are in there now, as it seems like the supply is never-ending. Tim calms Bruce down by saying that if they get one more android body, they'll have one each. more time elapse. And Brucie has to make yet another request, this time for a android secretary. Lucky for Bruce, the same guys as the last time are still changing and approving his request again, sending what they laughingly call "an Androgynous Twink for Mr Wayne" this time. And That's how we get Tim and Dami separated again.

And that's what I got so far, as I have no clue what more to do than possibly draw stuff. ---- So I posted on Discord to and the oh so wonderful @bucketorandomness

Added this; yes, I asked if it was okay to do the edit with credit

Option for more after-market additions for the boys:

Damian was originally a security model who was changed into an assassin by unsavory folks

Timothy was still a Drake, purchased as a kind of “test run for a real child” which they think is going great when it really wasn’t. Extra learning modules and some advanced reasoning in his base programming were mandatory for purchase

Cassandra, like Dami, was repurposed into a stealth-based assassin from a dancer base. Language programming was removed to make more room for the modifications. She follows one of the others home after recognizing a fellow android

Duke gets adopted into the Robin Collective temporarily while they drag his model back to Bruce and demand he fix it

Stephanie isn’t an android, but she did jokingly offer to join the Robin Collective once science figures out how to download a consciousness. Whether or not that already exists is up for debate.

Barbara can be a secretary model for the GPD or she can be another human like Steph if you want. If she is an android, I suggest Jim Gordon notices her deviancy and decides to adopt this new person and teach her how to people like a daughter. Also maybe self-installed body mods. I feel like she’d get a tattoo without supervision so why not upgrade her own RAM and other abilities?

#batfam #jason todd #tim drake #damien wayne #dick grayson #batman #silly goofy mood #bruce wayne #dc #AU Batboys as Cyberlife Androids #detroit become human #crossover #feel free to use this as a prompt

[fallenangelics]

I'll Meet You On The Battlefield

PAIRING | Adam/Lucifer Magne | Morningstar

WORD COUNT | 1189

SUMMARY | Against Lucifer's better judgment, he finds himself in Adam's bed once a year. Trying to turn the tables, he invites Adam down to a hot day in Hell.

RATING | Teen And Up Audiences

WARNING/TAG(S) | No Archive Warnings Apply, Friends With Benefits, Morning After, Forbidden Relationship

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AO3 LINK | Read Here

Lucifer shifted in his bed, his body aching as his bearings slowly came back to him. It wasn’t often that he found himself in this state, nor did he normally wake up this early but something about sneaking into Heaven to hook up with the First Man seemed to set off some alarm bells. 

He wasn’t sure why he allowed himself to be talked into this. Again.

But every year the day before the Extermination Adam would call Lucifer in for a meeting. Though Adam would never by choice make a meeting unless it was to gloat in Lucifer’s face then it was being mandated by one of the Seraphins, Lucifer would always agree to meet up with him and see what he had to say, even if he already knew where their future conversation was going.

When he’d arrive at Heaven’s Embassy and make his way to whatever room they were having a meeting in, ignoring the paperwork as he went, he’d find Adam munching on a fresh plate of ribs as he waited. Unlike any official meetings, Lute wasn't there, leaving the two of them completely alone and unwatched. 

After Adam’s ego dropped a notch or two temporarily, courtesy of Lucifer, a one-way portal opens for him leading straight to Adam’s room. It was always a risk choosing to go through it and breach Heaven’s walls. It was almost as if there was a disturbance in the air that everyone could feel when Lucifer was there. He still went through that portal every time.

Miraculously, these invites only started after Lilith had run away, leaving Lucifer to his sorrows and to rule Hell by himself. Almost as if Adam had been waiting for this moment since he stole his first wife, maybe even before then. 

None of that mattered though, not when he was once again tangled in someone else's bedsheets with an aching backside. He was getting ready to dress himself before creating a portal of his own to take him home. That’s how most of these occurrences ended unless, of course, Adam woke up before him and either kicked him straight back to Hell since he was too pumped for the Extermination to spare much time on Lucifer or was ready for another round, bothering Lucifer until he was fired up enough. 

Today was different though. As he pushed himself up in the bed, the pearly white sheets fell from his bare chest and pooled in his lap. Lucifer was ready to go about his day just like any other, the heavy snoring of Adam ringing next to him as he was about to get up when an arm slithered its way around his waist, pulling him in. 

Not expecting the sudden hold, Lucifer let out a soft hiss as he was tugged down. Even in his sleep, Adam was as demanding as ever, moulding Lucifer to fit his perfect image of a pillow as he was pushed onto his back and Adam’s head made its way onto his chest. 

Lucifer dared to attempt to wiggle his way out of Adam’s hold, one of his hands shoving against his brown hair while the other tried prying his arm off from around his waist. He could easily snap himself out of Adam’s hold with the angelic power he still possessed though he didn’t attempt to, rather admitting defeat then putting further effort into his escape. All he got for his efforts was a drawn-out groan from Adam as he slowly woke up and more prodding.

“Let me go, you oaf,” Lucifer murmured softly to the waking Adam, the hand that had previously been trying to shove Adam’s head away now running through his hair. Though he hadn’t been let go, he was able to wake Adam up, keeping him awake would be another task in itself. His words seemed to not affect Adam as he slowly lifted his head, resting his chin on Lucifer’s chest so he could stare up at him through tired eyes.

“You weren’t saying that last night,” Adam mumbled, eyes slipping shut as he leaned his head into Lucifer’s hand, a sly smile stretching its way onto his face. A frown etched its way onto Lucifer’s face at his words, tugging Adam’s hair a bit harsher than it was necessary, pulling another groan from him. “I don’t need to be ready for hours, I’m sure you can stay a little longer.”

“Hm, that may be the case for you but if you’ve forgotten I’m the King of Hell,” Lucifer reminded Adam and though he had been neglecting his duties as of late, it didn’t mean he could let them completely slip from his grasp. “Now if you would let go of me so I could return to Hell that would be much appreciated.”

“You’re so ungrateful,” Adam muttered though there was a smile on his face. Trying to bury that smile, Adam planted his face into Lucifer’s chest, holding him down with his weight. His next words were spoken into Lucifer’s skin, the muffled vibrations sending tingles through his body, “I go through all this trouble to bring you up here and you can’t even bother to spend a few more hours with me.”

“Maybe you should come down to Hell for a change,” Lucifer suggested, his hands returning to running through Adam’s hair. He had thought about suggesting the idea for a few years now. Though they only met up once a year, it was a grand hassle to do so as Lucifer’s presence alone could be sensed by most of the higher-ups in Heaven, how they hadn’t caught them yet was beyond him. But if Adam was to come to Hell no one would bat an eye.

“And be subjected to the bummer vibe down there?” He rhetorically asked, head snapping up to scoff at Lucifer so the fallen angel could see how just grossed out he was by the idea. Lucifer merely rolled his eyes at Adam’s words, expecting such an answer. “Hell no.”

“I’m just saying it would be easier for you to come down there,” Lucifer shrugged it off as the suggestion was a silly idea, which he at first had thought it was but with every passing year he was brought up here it seemed it could actually work out. “Especially if you wanted to hold some… private meetings.”

Adam’s eyes narrowed as he took Lucifer’s words into consideration. Just by that look alone, Lucifer knew that his words had struck something in Adam’s brain, making him think upon the possibilities they had.

“Maybe,” Adam slowly said, hesitation behind the single word.

No matter though as a smile graced Lucifer’s face before he flipped the two of them over, Adam landed beneath his small frame with an exhaled huff. “Good to know you’re taking this fling seriously but I do have to part ways now. Call me if you ever want to make the trip down.”

There was a small blip as Lucifer and all of his belongings flashed out of existence, leaving Adam stranded on his back and a tent slowly growing in the blankets.

#hazbinhotel #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel lucifer #lucifer hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel adam #adam hazbin hotel #lucifer x adam #adam x lucifer #adamsapple #ao3fic #ao3 #ao3 fanfic #ao3 writer #fanfic #hazbin hotel fanfiction #eclipsingbingo #eclipsing bingo #multifandom flash #fandom bingo #fandom free bingo: wbn edition #fandom free bingo

[soullessjack]

idk i just think it’s a little weird that almost every character who gets the “innocent baby” / “little ray of sunshine” treatment usually ends up just having neurodivergent traits and actual negative traits in the show that nobody pays attention to. like idk man it just feels like diet infantilization to me and it’s a teeny weeny bit uncomfortable to see all the time

#what’s even weirder is that half of these precious sunshine baby characters will canonically have some kind of temper too 😭😭 #like sorry I don’t think Adrien is an innocent ray of sunshine he was literally destroying property out of spite 😭😭 #cal.txt #autism stuff #fandom ableism #infantilization #she ra spop #entrapta #spn #supernatural #jack kline #autistic jack kline #adrien agreste #Like of course he isn’t canonically ND but the whole angle of his social awkwardness and unawareness #miraculous ladybug #it’s still a common trait in ND people and it’s probably the most infantilized aspect of us #but come on man #and don’t even get me started on jack. we know how I feel #TLDR jack strangling the gas n sip employee in a rage so blind he had to be shot in the back to snap out of it #like am I alone in this am I detecting a pattern that nobody else is . #siigghhh #we will never be free 😭😭😭😭 #castiel #at some point in the fandom and probably still in a few corners #autistic representation #this goes for when a character is simply coded that way too #like I cannot stress enough how coding and representation work #I also cannot stress enough that ableism does not have to be intentional to be ableism holy BALLS dude #you can do it by accident!!! you can play into tropes that you didn’t realize were bad!!!! ITS NOT A MORAL FAILING ON YOUR PART #it’s just a product of society like everything else.

[cinnamon-phrog]

Do you ever see a take in a fandom tag and you're like HNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHH

#it was SO contradictory too ugh. and a mutual liked it! #you disrespect me. you disrespect my whole family #you call us 'stinky poopy babies' #you punched my wife. you kick mah baby you KICKed my FOCKin BABY #you ate our dog. YOU ATE OUR HOUSE #/ref #it's always the people i like too. everytime i want to find a d/ hmis artist or mutual BAM they're mean petty and even a nonce #and mean to peoples with hc's like mine. yes yes it happens in every fandom but not to the point where literally everybody sucks! #aside from my mutuals who are casually into the show you guys are boss <33 #a d/ hmis artist will tell me they don't care/ even like my hc's and i'll feel great #a couple months later and they're talking shit about it or liking posts about why people who have said hcs are somehow predatory #as if there aren't actual predators in the tags and their little supportive minions running amuck. who draw LITERAL cp of Yellow #i'm not mad anymore i've become very numbed to this. i end up losing 'friends' to the point where i don't know how to make them anymore. #'course that doesn't mean i'll stop trying though. but give benefit of the doubt and be MASSIVELY let down. #or assume the worst. be RIGHT and yet still be somehow worse for assuming. #so i'm just gonna not interact. i'll still put my s/elfship stuff in the tags though i am above guilt or shame now. Look At My Post Boy #cuz like if all these people can get away with being petty and two faced then i can get away with smooching puppets #make Love not War

[carry-on-every-neverland-magic]

A post in the ineffable husbands tag: YAY!

That same post: Will not be talking about or mentioning THE DREADED LEAK because omg we CANNOT and MUST not speak of it! Tis a sin to do that! So here are some vanilla predictions

Me: (who can’t stop thinking about the leak and wants to know everyones headcanons for it) 

:(

#good omens spoilers #ineffable husbands #y'all dramatic af lmaoo #good omens #go2 #like yes of course use spoiler tags if you wanna talk about it #but also this feels like policing fandom and as long as stuff is tagged #if you're that afraid of a 2 frame spoiler with zero context #maybe you should get off the internet until the end of July

[civetside]

Hi again! Just wanted to ask if you have an Instagram or Twitter that you post your comics to? Or is it just tumblr?

(Thanks again for letting me use your wet beast harrow as a profile pic!)

for my fandom content/TLT stuff yeah just tumblr for now :] i have an insta i would post fan stuff on sometimes but i kinda forget about it a lot so i haven't posted to it for waay over a year haha, and i stopped using twitter a few year ago as well, with the way i do my comics i'd probably hit the image posting limit on there every time anywho lmao but idk with the tumblr death talk happening again for the 20th time i should probably consider posting somewhere else too, but maan nowhere ive seen has the fandom peeps like tumblr has ya know?

#ask #tlt #also of course im glad you like my art enough to make it your PFP :] !! #i have a cohost if anybody else got that maybe ill post fandom stuff on there #ill post to insta if i have too but it'll be like pulling teeth #i used to make the funniest stories on there tho

[lord-squiggletits]

It kinda sucks how Optimus Prime is a character who people (in real life) expect to be so Indubitably Good All The Time that they immediately shut down and refuse to acknowledge him whenever he does bad things or fucks up. Like I don't think I've seen any other character in this fandom get the same instantly negative reaction/never talk about him ever treatment that IDW Optimus gets.

Like, it's either him being a cop or the annexation of Earth. But instead of actually engaging with the story and going "so how does being a cop affect the way he treats and is treated by others" or "what led Optimus to annex Earth and how is this a reflection of his ultimately heroic ideal to treat organics as equal to Cybertronians despite the historical racism of his species"

people just instantly shut down and go "oh he's an asshole, he's stupid, he's not my Optimus, he's a bastard, he's edgy" etc etc and refuse to even like fuckin talk about him

It's so incredibly childish lmao especially when the IDW1 continuity in particular is already rife with characters who are also assholes that do stupid/regrettable things but people have no problems talking about/analyzing their stories.

My kingdom for a fandom that's willing to talk about IDW Optimus without immediately shutting down and just going "he's bad he's a bastard he sucks"

#squiggposting #discourse #idw op love #it's very annoying and kind of why i don't try to talk about him as much as i used to #i'm kinda tired of bracing myself for negative reactions every time #and tired of the general fandom silence about him #worse than hating them ppl also seem to make an active effort to ignore or to erase him #and it's the spite of that. like it's one thing to just not be interested or not care #but it's another to actively shun and ignore and erase him #it's not even just the cop thing either. ppl refuse to engage with any idw op specific lore that isn't like.... #idk his relationship with sen. SW? but that's for shipping purposes #of course ppl care about OP lore when it's time to ship him with someone else #but how many people care about IDW OP for who he actually is? hardly any #even w/ continuity soup people take out the cop part they dislike but they never try to write idw op's personality #so like it's not just cop hate. ppl just genuinely don't like idw op's personality or care about him in general #which i have to ask why the hell not because this is literally a feral and flawed prime that people keep saying they want #people keep saying they want an OP who isn't universally beloved and gets criticized for his hypocrisy and stuff #IDW OP IS RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU TO ENJOY #ppl just genuinely can't stand the idea of an OP who's a real person and not just Inoffensive Fun Dad or Sad Woobie

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

Rebecca sees a twisted logic in this hatred. For Millennials in particular, she told me, fans’ sense of their own morality is deeply entwined with fandom. 'We hang so much of our own identity on these things that we love,' she said. 'So if those things are threatened, you either have to admit that you’re sort of a bad person for liking those things or you have to convince yourself that everyone else is wrong.'

“Why The Internet Hates Amber Heard” by Kaitlyn Tiffany (The Atlantic)

#still reading the article but man this quote jumped out at me right away! #also (as i read on in horror): how is it that groups of people can get so ugly about literally ANYTHING #(can you imagine being the female s/o of a fandom-beloved man ............... god.) #also! i think it's important to keep in mind that we can't control what celebrities do. #we can't control what the people involved in our favorite stuff do #and we're not answerable if they wind up doing something reprehensible #i think it's important to have more of a sense of that divide you know? #we enjoy them in the specific context of their work but it doesn't mean we're responsible for them because that's impossible #idk exactly what i'm trying to say but i know what i'm feeling! #i'm just bad at ... saying words #i guess just being aware that you enjoy that figure specifically in the context of the work they're doing in a particular project #is way more healthy than feeling like you're somehow connected to who they are personally #because of course ... none of us are! #and so then maybe that way if something horrible happens like this w/ d*pp #you don't feel like it's also saying something about you

[leothil]

You know how kids make up the wildest things and tell them to you as if it all happened for real. Like, for younger kids it's partly because to them everything is on the same level of reality; doing something in your mind is as real as you doing something for real. But then as kids get older they may say stuff just to seem cooler or for fear of getting left out. I know I sure did that! But it's a phase you grow out of, usually in your teens.

But then sometimes you see some grown-ass people tell the absolute wildest stories online. Stuff that's clearly just wish fulfillment or a scenario that they think will make them seem cool or cash in some online points or whatever. And I'm just like... girl (gn). Is this really the kind of validation you want.

#when every sentence 'someone else' in the story says is full of words and phrases that you just know another random person wouldn't use #because they are very specific to a certain fandom or the way people running in certain online circles talk and you just wouldn't hear that #from 'uninitiated' people. Like why are you lying lmao #of course everyone paraphrases a bit when repeating irl stuff online but. There's a difference. And you can tell. #when it sounds like something out of a self-insert fanfiction I wrote when I was 14... yeah #just frida thoughts

[noirandchocolate]

We’re listening to that Homestuck Made This World podcast and the one guy who hadn’t read it before keeps calling WV “the Wandering Vagrant” which makes me annoyed but he’s also calling Jack Noir “the Imp-lord” and that almost makes up for it.

#kidk says stuff #Homestuck #the podcast is interesting bc they’re doing more of a media analysis than just a ‘read through and we say what parts we like… #…and let the new guy make guesses on what’s going on’ kind of thing #so they’re like talking about the context of the jokes and references #including what the fandom was doing as the comic was updating! #and also using like analytical framework-type stuff like you might learn in a media studies college course to talk about themes #and how the comic/Hussie was and is interfacing with readers etc. #((the new guy hates Dave so far and that makes me :( but he loves john so)) #((we’re ALMOST to the intermission and if they are nasty about it I’m not forgiving them))

[amazinlei]

You ever went to research what you’re character is into and how much research that makes them considered a Genius™️ on the subject and than remember that math and science were your worst subjects and gives you low-key flashbacks to how miserable school was for an diagnosed ADHD child and there was no going at your own pace in a classroom? 

This me right now

#I'M FINE BTW #this got more venty than I intended I just wanted to make funney post as I'm not thoughts head empty #I'm studying alchemy currently for one of my ocs! #it's really cool actually and a lot symbols for star signs and stuff are still used to this day! #plus practicing drawing these symbols will help me with my own craft when I start wicca for myself #and this is literally for my special interest as of late since I want to actually work on my lamb :3 #so fuck it we ball to cringe culture!!! #course ya'll knew that already when I made #phobos x snatcher huh? :P #which while I'm not too into the fandom anymore that's still one of my fave characters I made <3 #I wanted to make more content but I'm scared of making comics as silly as that sounds #plus I was in a shitty place with my art and just kinda dropped the idea due to imposter syndrome/depression #but now at least I know that fan ocs are more accepted than they were back in the day! #and it's considered like building blocks for if you ever wanted to take your ideas for original content #even better if you also make Totally Not *insert shipped canon character here* for them #that's what I did for snatcher! his name is dopple now and he's from the 60's and wears a zoot suit #anyway time to stop dodging questions! #I have a picrew saved of my sheep boi and I'm so proud of how they turned out #Me: man narinder your vessel is GNC af #Lei stop being silly #Lei's Ramblings About OCs #Cult Of The Lamb #A Hat In Time #at least mentioned anyways hehe

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

i love giving koschei a stupid made up timeywimey mental illness it’s selfindulgent and dumb and doesnt necessarily make for good fics but look at my blorbo having symtomps i love her so much

#i have so much SHAME about posting fic where i feel like the meta isnt. like. sound #where it's just scenes that make me feel something and not necessarily make a point about the characters #which is so DUMB bc the first year of writing fic i wasnt even aware there was any meta in them #only in retrospect i realised i had analysed characters and drawn conclusions and then used those conclusions to say new stuff in my fic #but i also kinda get it bc ive read posts about how fic in fandom is more about doing meta than it is about creative writing #bc you need to analyse and deconstruct the source to be able to do something new with it #you cant transform without observing #so fic that doesnt do that sorta fails at its purpose then right? so what right does it have to exist #thats what i think about my own fic then #but it's not like there is none of that in them. like you have to have analysed Something to have written Anything at all #it's just i think my meta has got more complex and it's lots of stuff that im not sure about where im still trying to figure out what ithink #so that shows up as stories that explore but dont really have anything to say perhaps #no conclusions #but then im like what does this OFFER #and of course it offers some things. it offers whatever feelings i wrote it to have #which is not unimportant #but still. shame #'whats the point in things that are just to make you feel good' well to make you feel good obvs. but am i allowed to POST it then #is it up to the STANDARDS. am i CONTRIBUTING or just making noise #i dont want to just make noise #i kinda want to say something #also like. if it's not good meta then am i still writing the character? am i still being true to them? am i doing them and the story justice #ugh anyway

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saw a post in which the op was like ‘i’m sure that if not for jgy nmj wouldn’t have died of the saber brain disease’ and that made me genuinely curious about what... are the opinions in the fandom, about this

#once again and i say this with pain in my heart It Is CQL's Fault #every time we see nmj he's perfectly fine. even his anger at the wens is righteous. no one fears his outbursts and deadly saber #and the fact that it rattles when he's angry is like... a fun little thing #and then this horrible jgy comes and da-ge's bleeding from SO MANY orifices and he's SO murderous! of course it's all his fault! #but like. in the novel it was Not like that. jgy only did his suicide-faking-but-actually-a-trick thing and nmj already told lxc #that the next time he meets jgy he'd kill him #he's a completely different person! again it might have been done to portray jgy in a worse light because of censorship #but still! hhhhh #...it Would be fun though to do a fandom opinion poll w/ additional question about people's primary iterations of the story #i'm a bit troubled myself w/ my fics because the characters i see in my head ARE cql characters and i Do use cql stuff a lot #but also most of my interpretations and headcanons are novel-based. BUT ALSO cql and the novel are different things... #so it wouldn't do to tag both. in some cases you can do that but i can't really #ach what should i do. etc #shrimp thoughts