#or you read it like the mad real world skit

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

If DCLA characters had Tumblr part 11 🕺🏼

🏳️‍🌈 creyendoenmi Follow

One time when I was in third grade, I randomly decided to pair up two people in my class. No real reason, I just wanted to see if it worked. So, I wrote a love letter to one of them and signed from the other. I put it on his shelf.

Now, here’s the thing: I accidentally left it on the wrong shelf. I left it on the shelf next to his. The girl who got it, she CLEARLY could read that it was adressed to him. But was she a normal person who realized it was put on the wrong shelf and gave it back? NO. She went to the TEACHER about this.

Now, uh… some extra context. I didn’t just write a love letter. I at first drew a picture of stick figures fighting, so that I would ”make him more interested”. And I guess this girl was shocked over the stick figures fighting.

The teacher recognized my handwriting I guess, and she confronted me about it. I was like ”my name is not even on it??” because, again, I was trying to pair up two people in my class, I pretended the love letter was from someone else. She didn’t believe me and was like ”tell me. Is it that you might have a crush on him? 😉” and I was like … ??? I signed it with someone else’s name, OBVIOUSLY I wanted to pair THEM up.

Also neither part of the two people I wanted to pair up ever found out about this. All because I put the goddamn letter on the wrong shelf and the girl who got it was a tattle tale who ruined everything

🌼 punk-not-dead Follow

Reminds me of when I was mad at someone and I decided to write a hateful letter that I put on her shelf. But then I was afraid it would come off as targeting, so I wrote letters to OTHERS too, INCLUDING TO MYSELF so that I would seem innocent.

✌🏼 arodarmivida Follow

You two are my idols.

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🌼 punk-not-dead Follow

When I have a kid I wanna raise them nonbinary, until they are old enough to decide a gender of their own, or not, or switch between different ones if that’s what they feel like! 🩷

🌼 punk-not-dead Follow

WOW this did not reach the right crowd…

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Knowing lots of europeans they’ve been trying to get me to vote for their countries in Eurovision (since you can vote anywhere in the world nowadays).

Anyway, they are always like ”vote for Italy!! No, vote for Spain!!”

And like. At this point I tbh rather vote for Sweden.

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Violetta if you DARE to vote for Sweden I will break up with you.

🎤 singing-is-who-i-am Follow

We are not dating?

🎀 italys-biggest-bow-collector Follow

I will break up with you as a friend.

Platonic breakup.

Period.

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Smooth.

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🎸 beanie-guitarist Follow

Stuff me and my childhood friends have performed on stage as kids:

- This unclear skit where we said a spell to turn me into Santa. I lost my last baby tooth during that.

- We sang ”best friend” by Toy Box. Or, ”sang”, we mimicked to it because we couldn’t speak english. We also didn’t know the implications of that song.

- We did an entire play all improvised. Everyone thought we had it scripted. It was the best thing we ever performed

- I wanted to be a magician for a while. She was my assistant. We did some pretty cool magic tricks

- We decided to roller skate on a small stage. It worked, but everyone was afraid we were gonna fall

- The microphone throwing incident™️

🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

I think of the microphone throwing incident often

🍓 chico-fresa Follow

And you’re not gonna tell us about that incident?

🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

Nope.

🎸 beanie-guitarist Follow

You had to be there.

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🌼 punk-not-dead Follow

I think two of my teachers are secretly fucking

🎤 singing-is-who-i-am Follow

If this is about my aunt and Pablo… then well. Yeah.

🌼 punk-not-dead Follow

NO THIS IS ABOUT PABLO AND GREGORIO

👩🏻‍🦱 dangerously-beautiful-ant Follow

HELP

🏍️ entre-dos-mundos Follow

DO NOT TELL DIEGO ABOUT THIS

#Please say he does not have a Tumblr #LUDMILA IF YOU SEE THIS DON’T YOU DARE SCREENSHOT AND SEND TO HIM

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✌🏼 arodarmivida Follow

Having your girlfriend also having been your best friend since middle school means she knows ALL about your awkward phases and moments… I cannot hide anything from her.

🏳️‍🌈 creyendoenmi Follow

I was even more cringe, come on.

We’re in this together🩷

🍓 chico-fresa Follow

I can imagine you two being even more cringe than what you are now. I’m glad I didn’t go through awkward phases or had embarrassing moments like everyone else in middle school.

💍 queenoftherink Follow

Remember when you fell on your roller skates while skating literally 10 meters per hour?

🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

AND HE TOLD ME HE NEVER EVER FELL AND THAT HE WAS ALWAYS PRO AT ROLLER SKATING.

🏳️‍🌈 creyendoenmi Follow

Matteo is just a clown thinking he knows everything

😎 rapmiro Follow

Hey! I don’t like you speaking to my friend like that! He is very good and he does know a lot!

✌🏼 arodarmivida Follow

Then marry him.

💍 queenoftherink Follow

Why do I bother joining your reblogs, it always takes some really weird turn-

🏳️‍🌈 creyendoenmi Follow

Admit it, Ámbar. You like it. You like seeing us cause a mess. You like it both irl and online. It’s only online that you can admit it.

💍 queenoftherink Follow

See I am this close to blocking all of you and also start a new Tumblr account because What is happening right now. What is the subject? Why are you like this?

🎸 beanie-guitarist Follow

Do you think god stays in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he’s created?

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🌟 supernova-number-one Follow

What do you do when you wake up with an… intimate dream about someone and you’ve never had any fantasy about them like that before

🎤 singing-is-who-i-am Follow

A hot tip is to not post it on Tumblr where everyone you know is following you, cause we are nosy.

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Not true! Everyone I know don’t even have Tumblr!

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Don’t change the subject. We can and we will figure it out. Thanks for telling us!

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🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

Sometimes I look at my biological aunt and I am like. Wow. You knew me when I was a baby. Maybe you babysat me at some point.

Because she is just… this cold human who seems to hate everyone else. And to imagine she at some point probably had to watch me during the day while my parents needed to run some errands feels… SO weird.

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She’s also caught me in the most weirdest situations. I am lucky now that she can’t see me.

The other day I had a tampon up my nose while she was in her once per month hour visitation at our house. I walked inside the room she was in and noticed her there. I was stiff for a moment, feeling like I needed to explain myself.

She and I have a very strained relationship, but she tries to better herself. So she was like ”I know those footsteps… is it you, Luna?”

I was like ”Yeah…”

”How are you feeling?”

”Good…”

I was waiting for her to bring up the elephant in the room, and then I realized ”oh wait… she can’t see me…” and then I sighed in relief.

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But why DID you have a tampon up your nose?

🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

I got a nosebleed from accidentally punching myself when I tried to open a very hard cap on a bottle

📸 felicityfornow Follow

Ok, so why…

You know what? Sounds pretty reasonable. I’m also glad your aunt couldn’t see you, even if it’s also a bit tragic she can’t see…

👩🏻‍🦱 dangerously-beautiful-ant Follow

Sorry if this question is personal, and if it is you’re totally allowed to not reply. I am just curious: How did she lose her eyesight?

🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

She burned her eyes trying to burn the house down

👩🏻‍🦱 dangerously-beautiful-ant Follow

Oh. Well, I guess that explains why she only has an hour of visitation once a month. Thank you for replying.

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🍓 chico-fresa Follow

I have talked to several people that apparently did some really weird thing when they sat in the car as kids, and even still do it:

When sitting in the passenger seat, they apparently look out the window and... imagine this imaginary creature or imaginary human running next to the car, sliding on the railings, sometimes skateboarding/snowboarding... just doing all this strange parkour.

Why do you do this? It sounds super weird?

✌🏼 arodarmivida Follow

So when you look out the window on a car trip you just imagine nothing????????

🍓 chico-fresa Follow

Yeah? I just see what I see passing by, I don't think about a random imaginary creature doing parkour on stop signs and railings

🎸 beanie-guitarist Follow

You had a boring childhood, man. Life is so much more fun if you imagine the little things.

🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

When I was younger I even pretended imaginary people jumping between houses where I walked, or clung onto airplanes! xD

🍓 chico-fresa Follow

But like... why?

🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

BECAUSE IT'S FUN.

💍 queenoftherink Follow

Yeah, even I did this. Now, I imagine someone roller skating rather than running. I saw them skating on the road first and foremost at a car speed, and jumped at any obstacle. It helped me imagine new tricks I could do.

And yes, it was a lot of fun, too. It was an escapism for some of us who really needed some escapism to cope with our everyday life. A little warmth in the cold.

🍓 chico-fresa Follow

Well I guess I could get that, but I never had escapism. I just lived the way I lived and stayed in reality at all times.

🏳️‍🌈 creyendoenmi Follow

Sometimes I am hit with the reality that some people are not born with any imagination whatsoever. I pity them.

🍓 chico-fresa Follow

I have imagination!!! I just didn't imagine fake people doing parkour next to the car.

🛼 rollerskatingonthemoon Follow

But you have to admit your imagination is boring.

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🧢 everythingscominguponmaxi Follow

I had an interesting dream last night.

Apparently there was this philosophy that there was only one normal person that you knew. If you didn’t know anyone, you were the normal person.

This caused people to question what is normal and what is not.

🌼 punk-not-dead Follow

So there’s really only one normal person on earth?

🧢 everythingscominguponmaxi Follow

No, who is considered normal depends on the person, but the philosophy states that everyone only knows one normal person. For me it can be one person, but for you, who knows other people than me, might have another person in mind.

The question is now… who is the normal person in your life?

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#if dcla characters had tumblr #violetta #soy luna

[astranva]

more tiktok challenges or trends with harry ?

here’s a blurb because I feel like TikTok!reader would so post a TikTok about what happened at the Oscars.

What happened at the Oscars was no secret; people were talking about the Will Smith and Chris Rock drama everywhere online. Despite it being violent and many people were vocal about condoning violence, the internet liked to add humor to everything and it was why, only a few hours after it happened, TikTok had a sound to it with hundreds of people making videos over it.

“Keep my wife’s name out your fucking mouth!” was said in Will Smith’s voice, people on TikTok adding their own take to it.

A guy was shown in one TikTok, a text written over his head that said “Zendaya is too overrated” as he lipsynced to Will’s voice. Another one was of a girl in a car, a text above her head that said “When someone is talking sh!t about my bsf” as she lipsynced.

It was a trend in a day.

You and Harry had watched the Oscars at your home, eyes going wide when Will smacked Chris.

“That looked real,” you had chuckled.

“What’s the point of that skit?” Harry had asked, eyebrows furrowing.

“Keep my wife’s name out your fucking mouth!” Will had said on your TV, and as everybody around Will went silent, so did you and Harry.

“Wow, dude. It was a GI Jane joke,” Chris Rock had said.

“Keep my wife’s name out your fucking mouth!” Will had repeated.

“Oh shit,” Harry had released a chuckle in disbelief, “It’s not a skit.”

You and Harry had talked about it, both in disbelief as you showed him the online reactions to that moment as you both cuddled on your couch.

It then wasn’t long before you started showing him TikToks about that moment, too.

Everyone around the world was aware of that televised moment, but Harry’s fans lost it when you posted a TikTok two days after it happened.

Your TikTok showed you standing in you and Harry’s kitchen, a pink jumper on with a white text over your head:

“He wears dresses and women's clothes. He’s not manly for you” it read.

With a frown on your face, you lipsynced to Will Smith’s voice as you pointed at your phone, “Keep my wife’s name out your fucking mouth!”

Like every other TikTok you posted, you were never expecting anything to blow up but when 40 minutes had passed, you were surprised.

You were working on your laptop inside while Harry was outside working out before you heard him come in, laughing loudly.

“You–” He had tried to get out before he began to laugh some more, holding his phone as he approached you.

A bemused smile was instantly on your face, looking at him as he leaned forward, trying to catch his breath in the midst of laughter, “What is it?”

Harry shook his head, taking a deep breath in before showing you his phone.

An article on People was open, a candid picture of you and Harry walking while holding hands and smiling at one another being big in the middle with the article’s headline written in bold:

“Harry Styles’ Girlfriend, Y/N Y/L/N, Shows Love Through Oscars Drama on TikTok”

“No,” you clasped a hand to your mouth, scrolling to skim through the article that was about your most recent TikTok. You skimmed, eyes going over the numbers written, “It has 4 million likes?” You asked, eyes wide as you looked at Harry who was giggling to himself as he looked at you.

“You’re insane,” he said, shaking his head.

You gave him his phone, quickly unlocking yours and opening TikTok, and sure enough, your most recent video had 18.2 million views and 4.3 million likes.

“Holy shit, H!” You laughed, showing him your phone.

Harry laughed, approaching you before wrapping his arms around you, bringing your head to his stomach, “Jeff’s about to have our heads.”

“First of all, you’re all sweaty,” you laughed, looking up at him, “Stop, is he mad? Does that make you look bad? Should I delete it?”

Harry caressed your face, leaning down to peck your lips, “It’s funny. Let them talk,” he said, and despite being someone who had grown to not seek what people thought, Harry was curious to know how his fans reacted, “What are they saying in your comments?”

You opened the Tiktok, pausing just so it didn’t keep playing before opening the comments.

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YOU DIDN’T!!!!!!

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WHEN I SAY Y/N IS MY FAVORITE GF OF HIS I’M NOT JOKING

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forget harry, y/n is an icon for this

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PLSS I CAN’T BELIEVE SHE DID THAT

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i’ve seen so many do this for harry but seeing u do it hits different

#harry styles imagine #harry styles tiktok #tiktok series #harry styles fluff imagine #harry styles blurb

[m0e-ru]

eight months in somebody actually asked me abt visualive instead of me immediately annoying ppl about it without former notice. I might actually write properly for once 😳😳😳

OK OK!!!!! In this essay I will.... I will.... Visualive Adachi.... Visu/BURSTS INTO TEARS/

OKAY OKAY for real I just care Visualive so much (as someone who can’t fully understand Japanese AHAHA)

First I’ll add some foundation about what Visualive really is, then I talk abt Adachi in the latter parts of it because this is technically the first time I’m properly talking about this hehe 🐿

T....table of contents???

Visualive

Visualive the Evolution

Masami Itou

Visualive Adachi

Visualive the Evolution Adachi

Terms and Legend

VL - Visualive

VLE - Visualive the Evolution

stage - shortened for “stageplay”

面白い - omoshiroi (it’s just that specific)

Yuuya - VL Hero name

Hayato - VLE Hero name

Baba - Hero

Masami - Adachi

Taniguchi - Dojima

Saotome - Daisuke

Mamiya - Izanami

I add honorifics but sometimes I forget the hyphen intentionally or unintentionally I’m sorry if it makes it hard to read lol

all links have automatic timestamps for easy viewing. i mean. i hope the timestamps work

VISUALIVE “Persona 4.” A stage adaptation of SMT: Persona 4 by Atlus. It adapts the first part of the story, from the hero’s arrival to after recovering Mitsuo Kubo from the TV world. It also ends on a cliff hanger, showing a teaser of Shadow Naoto being projected on the screen.

It takes up a speedy recapitulation of the hero’s spring life, before slowing down and showing in depth his school life in summer. A day before Morooka-sensei’s death, there is a little skit with Kou, Daisuke and Adachi. The hero walks into the conversation before the two other boys leaving, and Morooka-sensei walking in on the student and detective. The next day follow’s the teacher’s death and the Investigation Team (IT) begin investigating their new lead.

From the words “visual” and “alive,” the niche of this stage was meant to be the fusion of live acting and visual digital projections. All seen from the stageplay with the colorful cast of actors and CG animations being projected on the screen. This offers an opportunity for characters to summon their personas, perform cool visual effects, change the backdrop, or even confront their own Shadows.

Performed in Sunshine Theater from the 15th to the 20th of March 2012. The screenplay was written and directed by Shintaro Asanuma from the theatrical group “bpm.” The video production produced by Shutaro Oku, a film director and visual planner. He later takes over as director for VISUALIVE THE EVOLUTION, the sequel stage. The stage music was produced by Shunsuke Wada, with a special show exclusive vocal track sung by Shihoko Hirata.

On this note, I haven’t seen any sort of original soundtrack released for any of the stages and I’m SO SAD. The last song in Mitsuo’s boss fight was such a BANGER and literally EVERYTHING ELSE Marvelous, Wadasan please take my MONEY

Regarding the cast, there were some special accommodations for Teddie, Rise, and Nanako, all of which did not have live actors at the time. During the casting, actors for the three characters could not be found or simply left the directors unsatisfied they couldn’t cast anybody. An exception for Rise, who was able to have a live actor in the sequel stage. It has been stated that there weren’t any “pretty boy” actors that fit the “Teddie Criteria.” While there weren’t any child actors that were believed to portray Nanako well.

Teddie was only ever seen in his bear costume while Rise was busy talking through a call, all voiced by their video game cast. Nanako has never appeared on stage, only being scarcely mentioned in the script. Again, this is different in the sequel stage where her role was extremely important and was shown as a screen projection.

VISUALIVE “Persona 4” THE EVOLUTION. A sequel stage. Beginning abruptly in the middle of Shadow Naoto’s boss fight, the story continues from there until the “true end” of the game’s original story. *Certain characters are introduced while others have been reintroduced. And on a personal note, when it’s all comedic in the beginning, it’s all for what’s coming right after.

I don’t know if I’m salty or just find it really funny AHAHA I might go talk abt it some other day with more context ehehe

Performed in The Galaxy Theater from the 3rd to the 9th of October 2012, only a few months after the PSVITA Persona 4 Golden release, which is July 2012. The screenplay was now written by Jun Kumagi while directed by Shutaro Oku. And music production finally taken over by Shoji Meguro himself.

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HAHAHA this is starting to look like a wiki page. moving on. I might start rambling rn

(warning LONG !!!! aaa,,)

My thoughts on the stage adaptations. For the first Visualive (VL) I believe it’s pretty close to canon! I enjoy the characterization and how much love and care was present when handling the entire production.

Actors were busy playing the game itself, wherein a PS2 was present in the practice room. Along with magazines and game guides explaining the game’s story and the characters itself. Actors performing together and even improv acting together to get a grasp of their characters. All of them knowing well of Persona 4 as a well loved game, delicately handling their characters and hopefully performing them right while making the audience happy.

The staff taking care of each other while the director and video producer, Asanuma-san and Oku-san, working together well to make their vision into a reality.

The same thing happened with VL the Evolution (VLE) and literally every other good stage. Except... I feel the script kinda got out of hand with too much liberty where it feels a bit more disconnected from canon. But! It makes up for it in its content, whether comedic or (INCREDIBLY) dramatic! It’s great as its own story at that point. So in this case, I like to take the first VL and get to connect it canon, while I don’t know what the hell happened in VLE to the point I’ll just enjoy it as its own content.

These opinions deserve its own essay, post whatever bc I have SO much to say abt this. ANYWAY. VL ADACHI

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Tohru Adachi is portrayed by Masami Itou (伊藤マサミ), a screenplay writer, director and an stage actor himself. He does have a single character voice role along with a fellow troupe member in the same franchise, but mostly works as the former three. He is part of Asanuma-san’s entertainment group “bpm.” On a similar note, Masashi Taniguchi, Dojima’s actor, was also part of their group from 2011 to 2016, which may explain their good synergy as the boss and the bumbling fool dynamic. I mean, somebody’s gotta get hit in the head every few skits.

With Masami-san being an important part of the cast, he doesn’t appear as often as Taniguchi-san in backstage content like the VL bonus disk or the official blog. Mentioned in his own personal blog, he had been busy with his roles as assistant director (I am assuming also for VL).

Also fun to note, because his role is mainly comic relief, he has been using his liberty to change up the material almost everyday making each performance exciting. This also leaves some other actors jealous of his freedom in his role, such as Saotome-san, Daisuke’s actor.

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VL Adachi really has a... how do I say this? an adorable speech pattern (THE SAME SPEECH PATTERN THAT DROVE ME MAD TRYING TO DECIPHER I THOUGHT YOU WERE A CITY BOY OSSU OSSU MY ASS /shakes you violently/). Overall, he really fits the loose lipped bumbling fool, and his accent really makes him seem more casual and invested. What I’m saying is... VL Adachi either actually has genuine empathy or he actually has more energy to fake it (compared to some other edgelord. i mean you saw my p4ga analysis. I’m sick of him lol ahaha).

One of my favorite ways to explain this (OTHER THAN CHAIR CAR ADVENTURE MY BELOVED WE’LL GET TO THAT LATER) is the rice field scene with him and Dojima. It’s overanalyzation time 🎉

(43:04)

While investigating, Adachi whines about being tired while Dojima smacks him in the head. In this case, it’s established that Adachi doesn’t want to be there, yes? It’s the country, it’s hot and it smells like green.

"Ah... Dojima-san..! Why don't we take a break? (...) There really is nothing out here... Is the criminal still even here at all? (...) I wonder if I've passed being a rookie yet. Haha, but this city doesn't even have convenient transportation. I can't go to leisure lands (recreation, amusement parks, arcades, ect.) and head home at all."

Adachi then tries to tell Dojima a story. “when I got to this city after being newly assigned, I met an interesting guy (...) Yeah, I remember that the cherry blossoms haven't bloomed yet. So, I was driving my car and got near the station and--” Dojima gets a phone call.

Adachi politely puts his hands down waiting for his boss to finish so he can finish the story. Again and again, Adachi attempts to talk to Dojima about a story he’s so persistent trying to tell someone about. It was so 面白い that he would find someone to talk to about it. Even being polite and patient enough to wait for a chance to speak. He even gets fed up with it and blows up in front of his boss, clearly irritated he’s not given a chance to talk.

Sure, it could be Adachi feeling fed up like a normal person where someone agreed he to listen to him, before being constantly ignored. Or Adachi trying to be a more annoying whiny brat, depending on where you look at it.

If the story wasn’t too “interesting” to Adachi, he would’ve just brushed it off and stopped talking to Dojima entirely, or start up new small talk, or even complain some more. But no, he had a story he wanted to voice out so bad that he got irritated that the one person in the vicinity couldn’t listen to him.

Only after Dojima told him to continue their investigation elsewhere did Adachi finally stop and focus on something else. Maybe that story was for another day, or maybe it was never meant to be told.

What if it was just original (game) Adachi? He’d find a way to squirrel out of the investigation as usual, or push Dojima to “investigate” elsewhere. “Hey boss, don’t you think it’s hot? Why don’t we go elsewhere? We’ve seen this place too many times to count and I doubt anything new’ll turn up. How about we take a break at Junes, y’know? Where it’s cool? C’mon boss,” something like that.

og Adachi is just really annoying and silly to me. Some grown man thinking he can freeload because he never gets anything out of putting in more energy and effort? I don’t care how tall he is, I will smack him in the head.

Yeah VL Adachi whines, too, but at least it doesn’t look like he’s going to escape and waste his time somewhere else. He just sucks it up stops trying to leave the situation.

Or maybe I’m getting this all wrong and VL is exactly the same and my rage just gets dampened because of Masamisan’s execution of character hmm...

SO. What was his story about anyway? The one he really wanted to share to Dojima?

I mean... it’s obvious enough

First day in town? Spring? Actually mentioned driving a car when literally out of every single persona 4 media at the time was there not a SINGLE mention of Adachi having a car OTHER THAN the same stageplay it’s being mentioned in?

A story, from somewhere around uhh four? five months ago? was something that he remembered so dearly and was willing to share despite it obviously embarrassing him even if he puts the blame on a certain somebody in the same story?

Or maybe it’s because he really had nothing to talk about ever since he realized all his stories from the city weren’t actually that funny or interesting in the first place.

BUT then that would mean out of all the things he could talk about—more whining, complaining, complimenting, small talk—he insisted about talking about this story in particular.

Okay, look. I’m just. Just. As someone who talks too much, of course I have things I actually want people to hear out of all the bullshit that comes out of my mouth. And if the thing I actually want people to listen to doesn’t even get heard, I’d go mad.

Sure, Adachi’d be fine when his complaints or intentionally unfunny jokes get brushed off. But a story of a guy that he thought was so funny, interesting, 面白い gets ignored, he really blew up, even just for a split second, maybe.

And ALL the things that happened in that story—on his first day in Inaba! His car got dented, he had to deal with a weirdo dumbass employee that knew zero personal space, yelled in his ear, who didn’t know how to do their job, got his station reputation messed up on the first day, got his ass grabbed, got (unintentionally?) mocked for his lame stories, and got his car dented for the SECOND time. Probably MORE

And he STILL wanted to talk about it /punches through concrete wall/

yes I’m overthinking about this of course i am

This little tidbit of VL Adachi kinda makes me go insane sometimes—his entire characterization in VL in particular. It was really refreshing to see and how they included both of his characters in it, his facade and how irritated he is of a lot of things underneath. And how flexible his character is immediately working with other characters when there’s sudden improv to balance the situation. Like him and Dojima, Morooka, the attendant, or even Yuuya (hero) himself.

I’ll take Taniguchi-san’s messing around in the VL bonus backstage disc in place of Masami-san being so busy he couldn’t appear in it as often as other characters.

For stagetime that lasted for fifteen minutes or less, my appreciation for VL Adachi, even if he was just comic relief, really rocketed. I say VL, bc Adachi the edgelord he’s supposed to be in literally every other media is something I analyze separately.

I haven’t even gotten to VLE oh my GODDDDD

Like I said, I don’t really regard VLE close to canon but as something to be appreciated for what it is by itself. But the way Adachi was characterized there, in or out of character, still struck me.

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Yes, there was his strange fan-agreed-canon which is,,, now canon obsession with cabbages (not that that’s a bad thing lmao). There was also him being a lot more jumpy and intimate in a clowny way, patting people on the shoulder or even downright hugging them just to mess around. Even FORGETTING who the same goddam loser who grabbed his ass almost a year ago is. But like, can’t blame him they literally changed their actor (and screenplay writer) AHAHAHA

ha... no more comedy, only dorky sword fights now

(speaking of sword fights I think it’s a fun thought how Mamiya-san [Izanami, also one of the youngest in the cast] admitted it was his first time doing sword fight choreography and even thanked Masami-san and other staff members for guiding him)

One thing unintentionally in character was Adachi accidentally nabbing the sushi overdosed in wasabi. Masami-san didn’t actually account for a joke sushi and didn’t immediately eat it—until Taniguchi-san (who also made Dojima go off his shits compared to VL) jokingly yelled at him and even riled up the audience for him to eat it. He even went off stage to get water just for him to eat the goddam sushi.

And Masami-san did! (kinda choked, but he’s fine).

Continuing from the same scene, while being overly giddy about sushi dinner (and I mean overly--he was singing about it while hopping to the Dojima residence), he tried to remind the two, Dojima and Hayato (hero), that Nanako was sleeping. Probably where she was sick if the scene was translated from the game.

(30:07)

And... the dramatic parts of VLE

Adachi was the one who reported to the IT that Dojima was chasing Namatame in the rain. While Naoto was discussing Namatame’s journal entries, Adachi, as giddy as he is, took it from Naoto’s hands and reveled in the discovery of evidence so childishly(?). He even ran to Dojima when he began regaining consciousness and immediately called the nurses to help him wheel Dojima to the ER.

Then, The Hospital Scene™️, right after Nanako flatlines.

(1:02:02)

Adachi, who recently walked into the scene, immediately worries about Dojima and IT who were ALL crying. He looks down, devastated—before yelling how Dojima’s heading to Namatame’s room.

He yells in terror and the same grief at his injured boss, all while running past and even jumping over children, who fell to the ground sobbing, to get to him. He continues yelling in a pained fashion while immediately reprimanding Dojima to stop. He gets carried by the collar before being tossed to the ground at Hayato’s feet, all while being pat by the same boy.

Dojima makes his speech about how unfair it is for the ‘killer’ to be alive when his daughter isn’t. When he finally falls to his knees, Adachi rises from the ground, humbly saying he’ll do his best to take care of Dojima (or something like that I’m in tears I literally can’t do VLE’s hospital scene i h8 this). He finally starts crying along with everyone else, being pushed away again but still tries again, trying to usher his boss away from the door.

With the help of the guard in front of the door, they all disappear off stage

please... I know this scene doesn’t need that much translation because of how important this scene is in the entire story. and I know my narratives aren’t enough so just,,,, just watch it please it’s so much more than this. everyone’s acting was just spectacular

(1:08:47)

So, after the IT (YOSUKE. JUST YOSUKE. good job Mae-chan) stop themselves from k wording Namatame, it was ADACHI who reported Nanako’s miracle recovery. He ran to the same corridor where they all cried in, even panting and falling to the ground in relief trying to report the good news. Then he pats Hayato on the shoulder and says he’s going to Dojima.

With this... /slaps roof of half of VLE/ ALL of this....adachi.... adachisan.... he Cares™️..... holy shit.....

now. comparing to the game. do you even remember what og Adachi did? did he.. even do anything?????

(56:39)

NO!!! he just stood there!!!! being a bumbling fool but.... inappropriately!!! man. he didn’t act concerned enough.

adachi: /walks into a bunch of kids crying outside a hospital room/ “lmao why tf are y’all crying? did uhhh what’s her face uhhh nanako. did she d word or something? rip, I guess lol” LIKE????? CAN YOU IMPLY FASTER

and then he’s like “wgat hmm Where’s Dojima-san Heading Because That’s Not The Way To His Room 🤔” and only when he’s asked he actually mentions he’s heading to Namatame’s room and still needs to get choked by a first year for the room number like..... zero consideration

and his boss??? where his daughter he loves so much just??? di*s???? and he’s so devastated he’s doing what he can that very moment while he’s so numbed of thinking of the consequences???? And adachi goes “uhh boss that’s illegal” LIKE. BITCH. /punches through a concrete wall but harder/

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And??? His confrontation scene??? Like, I know they mashed it up w his tv confession scene to save stagetime for other scenes BUT IT WAS SO MMBMBMBMMGN /gestures in a good way/

(1:15:56)

UM?? guy behind everything??? in a vulnerable area where he could easily get physically assaulted bc hes not in the tv world w his persona?? Trash talks women like he absolute misogynist he is??? getting yelled at by a bunch of kids and YELLING BACK IN THE SAME AGITATED MANNER even TAUNTING THEM then and there to GET HIS ASS?????

og Adachi was such a pussy he got caught and just scurried off into the TV world where he ended up having powers like...ok....scared of getting beat down by a bunch of highschoolers unless you have powers...ok....

he only taunted them to get him when he was in the tv world too.....he rlly couldn’t say shit in the real world huh... lol

(yeah yeah this shows how VLE Adachi knew abt his TV world powers which would make you think if he ever went into the tv world and came back out alive. Or he’s really just a badass who doesnt give a shit abt anyone’s opinions and CAN beat anyone’s ass. i have a separate thing abt this but bc i like to laught at vle rather than overthink its own lore i might. not. idk lol)

and ??? VLE Adachi can??? He can swordfight??? he doesn’t even NEED a gun—he even reflects bullets w his blade (but apparently he can still get slapped by a flying fan more often than any other attack). His fight choreo was just...so poggers. He’s like short villains done good—like??? he’s short compared to everyone else!!! but he makes up for it for stuffing all the energy inside him while is bursts out making him him the over energetic gremlin he is!!! go VL adachi!!!!

(am I low key making fun of Madono-san in the TUUSH stageplay I’ve seen four minutes of? maybe)

OK!!! Yes I was gushing abt Masami-san again back to Adachi.

It’s portrayed that while not being afraid to admit his crimes, he also goes out of his way to be a bastard and have the gall to get a bunch of kids to fight him, one on eight. He can use a katana, probably a narrative dark reflection of the hero, Hayato which I thought was nice—and he can fight!!! It also shows his persona, yes, but...it doesn’t make it clear if he’s overwhelmed by his Shadow like in the game, where his eyes were yellow and he was emitting a dark aura.

But it gets interesting how he sees he’s getting overwhelmed and starting to lose his edge towards a bunch of kids. He falls to the ground even banging the floor like a whiny brat while literally the IT tries to tell him to turn himself in. Again, like a brat he tells everyone to shut up—before getting incapacitated. While some of the IT rejoice, he bolts up unaccepting of his defeat—before getting hit in the stomach.

(1:23:54)

And his words from when he drops his katana, “Why..?” He grabs the foldable chair against his stomach, and with a remorseful look in his eyes, he says “I’m sorry..!”

THEN HE BACKFLIPS—then Hayato slashes him.

In a tone of disbelief, he goes “no way...” and collapses to the ground, being possessed by Ame-no-Sagiri.

Blah blah blah then Teddie rockets himself into the eyeball spy cam and then they both explode aaaaa

Teddie survives but I really don’t know where Adachi went. Not even a mention by Dojima if he turned himself in or was ever found—or I need to review VLE for the 48274827482nd time hehe

WHOO then the whole cast appears for the dance number at the end of show YAHOO

#long post #persona 4 #persona 4 visualive #persona 4 visualive the evolution #tohru adachi #sulululat #pagsususuri #p4 #p4v #p4ve #//HAPPY 4K WORDS VL ANON #// if theres anything u want to ask... im right here /collapses/ #// i almost went ham over actor relationships like. talking abt bpm was ENOUGHHH we're talking about the character not the assistant direct #// aaa this took so long... i literally mashed up so many other idea documents into one.. man.

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A3! Minagi Tsuzuru - Translation [N] Harugaoka Quartet

*Please read disclaimer on blog; default name set as Izumi

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Tsuzuru: An air concert?

Citron: YES! You’ll air-play an instrument without holding one! It’s perfect for image training!

Sakuya: Makes sense…!

Citron: Until the day of the concert, the quartet group will improve their air-playing of the instruments they’re in charge of!

-pause-

Tsuzuru: …Phew. (Air-playing viola… As expected, it’s hard to get down from just looking at videos.) …Or more like, why am I the comic relief…

*flashback starts*

Citron: Tsuzuru, Tsuzuruuu!

Tsuzuru: Hm? What’s up?

Citron: Tsuzuru’s performance will be last for our air concert!

Tsuzuru: HAH!? Why do I have to be last?

Citron: Tsuzuru has extendable* talent that’s worthy of being last… So make it hyped up like the comic relief!

Tsuzuru: Um, it’s exceptional, not extendable, you know? And in the first place, is there such a thing as being hype while air-playing instruments…?

Citron: What I’m asking for from Tsuzuru isn’t just mad skills… As my partner in Citrun, I’m expecting a funny performance!

*runs off*

Tsuzuru: EHH!? Funny, you say… Wait, hold up, Citron-san, don’t just say your piece and run away!

*flashback ends*

Tsuzuru: Even if he tells me to hype it up, just what in the world should I do…

Kazunari: Huh? What’re you doing over here, Tsuzurun?

Kamekichi: A negative aura’s in the air!

Kazunari: If you’re worried about something, then talk to us!

Tsuzuru: Ummm… I wonder if it’ll help talking to Kazunari-san and Kamekichi…

Kamekichi: You won’t know unless you spit it out!

Tsuzuru: Well, the truth is…

-pause-

Kazunari: What the, that sounds wicked fun! It’s lit! We’ll lend a hand too! We’ll deffs come up with a hype performance that’s total fire!

Kamekichi: Leave it to Kamekichi-sama!

Tsuzuru: Kazunari-san, Kamekichi…

Kazunari: First off, how’s something like this?

Kamekichi: Do it like this for this part!

Kazunari: Write that down, write that down! Then after that—.

Tsuzuru: Is this gonna be ok…?

-pause-

Itaru: The last performance for our air concert is Tsuzuru, right?

Citron: The very last~!

Tsuzuru: …Then I’ll head out. ♪~♪~

Chikage: Oh, isn’t he doing well?

Izumi: Yeah, his posture's looking really great too!

Masumi: …Well, it’s not that bad.

Sakuya: It looks like Tsuzuru-kun’s playing for real!

Tsuzuru: …WAIT, y’all can’t tell the difference between a violin and viola with just me air-playin' it, riiight!

Izumi: !?

Tsuzuru: …Well, I mean, putting that aside… In the first place, what’s a viola, you ask? It’s a three dimensional model you usually see in things like photos, exhibits and plastic models… Wait, that’s a diorama, not a viola!

Chikage: …

Masumi: …

Tsuzuru: Even so, isn’t its shape kinda similar to something else? It’s tasty when it’s grilled, it’s tasty when it’s stewed… Wait, aren’t I talking about an eggplant!

Citron: …

Sakuya: …

-pause-

Tsuzuru: …

Itaru: It kinda became like a live comedy show in the middle of it.

Masumi: It wasn't air-playing, but more like an improv skit.

Izumi: Y-yeah, right…

Tsuzuru: Well that totally bombed…

Citron: Tsuzuru, it’d be better to improve your performance a little bit more!

Tsuzuru: Oh, shut it!

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*Citron originally says "木材" (mokuzai: lumber/timber), which Tsuzuru corrects as "逸材" (itsuzai: person with exceptional talent).

"I told you to be funny, Tsuzuru"

#a3! #a3! translation #minagi tsuzuru #act! addict! actors! #remember that this is being recorded #lmao #stay strong tsuzu

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This week's Saber X Zenkaiger!!!!!

I haven't been doing reviews lately 'cause after I get through 90% of one something happens and it all get's erased somehow and I end up just giving up. So let's hope I can get this done without that happening.

Saber Chapter Special!!!:

asdilfjlasjdfjsiejfl;sjef!!!!! This ep was SO MUCH FUN!!!! Not only is it a PERFECT intro/introduction to what to expect for the crossover film, but I just LOVE that they chose ZOX of all Zenkaiger Charas to be the one to introduce the Bookstore gang to the World of Zenkaiger! Zox just naturally fit right in with the mess and made the plot really smooth! It felt like just another Saber ep with a bit of Kaizoku spizzaz! Also, I knew that Mashiko Atsuki and Aoki Ryo knew each other 'cause of TeniMyu (Not sure if that's how you spell it) so that just makes the connection between their characters way more interesting and cool! (Also, Watching Zox on Zenkaigers always made me think that he was tall, but then seeing him stand next to the giants in Saber just.... I'm sorry I just can't get over how small he looks. He's so cute!!!!) I also loved how they made Zox have no qualms about stealing from Touma and Ryoga. I mean, he did only promise Kaito that he wouldn't steal in the Zenkaiger world so~ XD Another thing! I really loved how we got to see more of Kento's personality in this ep! Honestly, ever since he was introduced, he never really showed much personality outside of him being calm, smiling while doing the book skits with Touma, angry, emo, and in despair. In this ep, we got to see him reading a book, laughing with Touma because of Rintaro and Zox, dumbfounded because of Touma's mistake, trying to be a peace maker and save Touma from Ryoga's wrath due to said mistake, get mad at Orihime World for hurting Mei, be stern with Zox when he believed that Zox stole their WRBs (which, NGL, was really hot), and cutely pet the carousel horse he was riding while going "yoshi yoshi~~~". As you can tell, a lot of my attention is focused on Kento now a days and I just LIVE for learning more about this man's personality. Should I write a separate post about it??? Let me know ya'll!

Kikai Sentai Zenkaiger wa!!!!!!!!!:

again! ajdklfjalsdjfwjefklejfl;waf!!!!! This ep makes me officially love the Shindai siblings! Honestly, it feels like a special atonement mini-arc for them. We got to learn more about them personality wise, and we got to see them interact with people that they most likely NEVER imagined spending time with. Which, honestly I think is awesome because they learned from the Zenkaigers something that they'll probably never forget! Reika finally made a real friend in Magine (which would be so cool if she could become friends with Mei due to this!) (and I'm also so happy for Raika's actress for finally meeting and interacting with Magine!) and Ryoga learned that he can't always protect or think that Reika can't handle herself/isn't strong enough to fight with him. (I also think he learned what it's really like to be a true "big brother" ) Also, I LIVED for Ryoga's reactions to the Zenkaigers! See, this kind of goofiness is what I love. We have the stoic older brother who's always serious and ready to fight, interacting with these colorful, wacky goofballs full of fun. This is the kind of mix that I absolutely LOVE. Especially when they end up having to fight together. Just, that moment where Kaito and the rest were like "Dude! why aren't you doing your rollcall???? Are you shy? C'mon! it's easy! Just say who you are!" As if every single TokuHero does a long rollcall before every battle. And then Ryoga begrudgingly doing it anyway 'cause his new (he'll never admit to this but-) 'friends' have been right so far, so why not join in. And Reika joining Magine in the rollcall 'cause she's the only female Saber Rider and this moment is like every Sentai crossover where they have all the female Rangers fight together with 'girl power!' just, omg their collab fight was so cool!!!!

Alright, enough of the Shindai sibling (sadly) now for the Zenkaigers!!! I LOVED how they were introduced to the Shindai Siblings! Kaito and Juran were just running around, looking for Magine when they literally ran between Ryoga and Reika about to attack Zox. And, instead of questioning why Zox was about to get attacked by these unknown people, or even ask where Zox has been for the past few days, they just start asking Zox if he's seen Magine. And Zox is just like "Dude, I've just came back from a parallel world, there's no way I would've seen her." Just, omgosh I love Zox. And then when Ryoga finally attacks, Kaito's just like "Zox!!!! WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO?!?!" instantly knowing that it's Zox's fault they're in this new mess. One main thing that I loved about this ep was how we see more of Zox's personality (I just love analyzing personalities ok?) ok, hear me out. I know there are times where we see Zox get protective of Flint and the twins when they're in trouble, or worried about them if they're in danger. But I feel like this is the first real time we see him actually... I don't know what word to use... not really admit but... maybe a mix of show and admit about how much he loves and cherishes them? He tried to be nonchalant about it in front of Ryoga, but then when he get's back on his ship, he not only looks worried about Flint, but also SOUNDS worried. I love this 'cause it says a lot about Zox I think. Like, out of all the characters in Zenkaiger, Zox knows what it's like to not have been able to protect some one and regret it (his brothers) and I think he's scared that Flint might suffer the same fate too in a way if he's not careful. Plus, the older brother combi-finisher was really awesome!

Over all, I'm soooooooooo happy that they gifted us with these amazing special eps!!!!!! Even though they just make me want to watch the crossover film even more, I'm so happy that we get to be blessed with these preview interactions! I wonder how they'll tie these in with the film though.... will Touma and the rest recognize Zox in the film?? Will Kaito and the Kikainoids see Ryoga again and be all like "Ryoga!!! long time no see!!" and just completely shock the Saber team when Ryoga greets them back as if he was actually happy to see them again? (omgosh that'd be so cool!) Anyway, sorry that this was so long. I just had a lot of thoughts about these eps and I really wanted to share them! Also, can we keep the "why are you dancing?!" skit for Zox in the movie? Or like, actually have Zox reply to Rintaro or Kento if they ask? or would that be too lame.... hmm.... I just want more of that content~~~~

What did ya'll think about these eps? I'd love to know!

#kamen rider #kamen rider saber #super sentai #kikai sentai zenkaiger #kamiyama touma #fukamiya kento #shindo rintaro #sudo mei #zox goldtsuiker #kaito goshikida #juran #gaon #vroom #magine #shindai siblings #shindai reika #shindai ryoga #super senki

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Fated to Love You here reaffirming my long held conviction that no pure romance drama should be 20+ episodes.

This show is... really something. It is, in the fullest possible sense, A Lot. It starts out as an all-out screwball comedy wrapped around a troperiffic romance fluff plot. Wall to wall clichés, but not in a bad way; in a meta, self-aware, peak performance, finest Velveeta way. And if you’re not familiar with screwball comedy, think ‘light-hearted crack fic with slapstick and farce’. There is nothing believable or grounded about any aspect of it, it starts at Bonkers Level: Platinum and it only climbs higher as it goes on.

(On a side note, this results in the leading man being possibly the most memorable love interest in romcom history. His introduction scene is nothing short of batshit insane and you can't reliably predict how he will respond to anything. I have never seen a main character like this, he is all over the shop and utterly singular. Your first reaction to him is ‘wtf?’, your second and third reactions are ‘really?! this guy??’, your fourth reaction is ‘okay he do be mad hot tho’, your fifth and final reaction is ‘I cannot believe this performance exists, I have no idea what he is doing, but it is amazing.’

Appropriately(?) the actor who plays him is an uncanny Korean doppelgänger of Johnny Depp and- between the resemblance, the mannerisms, and the fearless total commitment to a bold as fuck acting choice with the very serious chops to back it up- I’m not convinced they aren’t half brothers separated at birth.

They do sabotage my happiness several times by starting to randomly style his (long, beautiful) hair very weird, fixing it right when the plot is rapidly circling the drain so he looks his hottest just as the show becomes briefly unwatchable, and then ruining him for the entire second half of the series by shearing it all off. WHY, my anguished cry goes up. Why do you do this?! Why does he have like seven hairstyles over the course of the show? Much later they even briefly give him that ubiquitous Kdrama Second Lead haircut with weirdly forward combed fringe in a solid straight line across the brow all the way back from the crown. It looks terrible on everyone and I hate it so much. This version was less bad than most but it is still bad. Anyway.)

So it’s an incredibly fun time to start but there are some problems with the tone and plot even in the first 9 episodes, including when the lovers start getting along really well right away and they’re both thoroughly decent people so there’s nothing keeping them from having a lovely time together making the best of the circumstances (forced/fake marriage). And, instead of introducing new conflict or advancing one of the dozen conflicts previously established and actually moving forward, there is a painfully contrived rehash of something they already dealt with which is then just never resolved. They make the hero leap to a conclusion his wife is nefarious after he’d already decided once that she isn’t (though it was completely reasonable for him to think she was- the fact that he decided to trust her so quickly just speaks to what kind of person he is), never try to find out more or talk to anyone about it, start pushing her away because of it, and have all this come to absolutely nothing. It only exists so he’ll stop being so incredibly nice to her and they won’t fall in love too fast.

You’d think they would have to eventually clear the air before the romance advances right? No. It wasn’t a real plot point, it was just a reset button to get them estranged and hostile again after they connect over their kindred spirits and we’ve spent a bunch of time showing how profoundly supportive and honourable our hero is. He’s being beautifully mature and selfless because he’s a really good dude (unusual for a romcom drama, right? for the main guy to be nice and considerate? to accept responsibility even if he doesn’t have to? Gun’s weird but he’s wonderful), but the writers need him to be cold and standoffish, so they just make him act like an unreasonable idiot for a while. He’s been thus far hugely proactive and direct and honest about everything, it’s one of his most prominent character traits, but suddenly he’s going to avoid confrontation in favour of being super passive aggressive?? Then the writers never solve it. Never! It just goes away. He got over it, I guess? He decided he doesn’t care if she’s a gold digger who deliberately trapped him? God forbid we have motivations that make sense and organic character drama, right? It's not like he didn't have totally valid reasons to be suspicious that could have led to legitimate conflict our heroine would struggle to vindicate herself from.

But anyway, apart from that kind of lazy bullshit, it’s a fine romance plot with extremely endearing characters who have great chemistry. They are fun and well-rounded and incredibly human despite all the silliness and OTT antics. Their relationship is hugely, hugely engaging and the dynamic is perfect, they really complement each other as characters and organically drive each other's arcs. There's the genuine depth and warmth and quiet pathos so often lacking from this kind of show. Things progress at a semi-reasonable pace. They work up to confessing their mutual feelings and get into some cute shenanigans before making out. It happens soon enough that you are not frustrated, but there's still plenty of build-up. Then- uh oh! We’re only 9 eps in and we have another 11 hours to fill with this fluffy plot!

Time for a bunch of absolute fucking nonsense. Time for our show, which has been so goofy and removed from reality it occasionally resembles a Monty Python skit, which has been so light it asks you to ignore the frankly incredibly fucked up implications of its premise for the sake of comedy (they were both drugged and proxy raped resulting in a pregnancy- the FL was a virgin prior to this and Gun had a girlfriend he wanted to propose to- and it was the FL’s family who did this to them: SUPER FUCKED UP), so farcical that it makes Some Like it Hot look like a gritty crime drama, that show to cover a bunch of serious heavy shit.

First, the rankest of melodrama. The families and the world all turn on our couple, but their love is true and will conquer all- UNTIL, he randomly collapses and gets convenient Soap Opera Amnesia. He’s forgotten their entire relationship and a series of coincidental pieces of misconstrued evidence, the machinations of his scheming ex girlfriend, the Soap Opera Doctor’s advice, and his closest confidants all going along with this conspire to make him believe (AGAIN) that his wife just wants his money.

This whole terrible episode is mercifully brief, but it just gets worse after his memory returns. This is where we get into the Noble Idiocy. The ‘pretend you don’t love them to “save them” from getting hurt by hurting them and making their important life decisions for them as if they don’t have a basic fucking right to decide that themselves’ kind. Which goes on for three FUCK years in the show. He wastes three years of their lives they could have spent together because he’s worried he might die young (in a terrible way) and doesn’t want to put her through that. And, of course, they inevitably get together later, so all he did was make it infinitely worse for her either way. To say nothing of how he thus couldn’t be there for her through the loss of their child. Possibly my most hated fucking trope of all time when done this way.

And, yep, you read that right. This show that has the single most batshit bonkers over the top slapstick I have ever seen in a kdrama, this show has a storyline where the fluffy romcom trope accidental pregnancy ends in massive trauma. Because she was standing around in the street after realising he does remember her (he continued to pretend he had amnesia after his memories came back, it’s all part of the stupid noble idiocy so I glossed over it) and gets hit by a car in the middle of their angst staring.

It is nearly Meet Joe Black levels of hilariously abrupt and incongruous.

so, blah blah, they lose their baby (there’s a very stupid whole thing about her telling everyone to save the baby instead of her- the baby is not far enough along for this to have been remotely viable. She is like 3 months pregnant. They all act like there’s a choice to be made between them and she’s mad at her husband for choosing to save her, but there was NO CHOICE. Either she lives or they both die! ffs I’m so irritated about this) and then he dumps her ~for her own good~~ because he loves her too much to make her go through losing him? So she loses him sooner?? right after their baby died???

Why do people in these stories always think being betrayed and abandoned for no reason and being incredibly angry at someone you love while also not getting to be with them is somehow less painful than making the best of your life together and then losing them against their will? ‘I will make her hate me and then she won’t be sad we broke up/I died!!!!’ is such a fucking galaxy brain take and I despise it with the heat of ten thousand suns. Fuck you, Spider-Man. You aren’t protecting anyone, the villains still know you love MJ and will still use her against you, you clod. Emotionally torturing the person you love is not going to make them not a target because the villains are not as fucking stupid as you two. Anyway.

Amnesia was right where I started fast-forwarding and skipping around (because I couldn’t bear it), but it only goes downhill from there. Maybe I would have toughed out more of the wretched middle part plot twist if they hadn’t cut all the hot guy’s hair off. If I’m going to watch total nonsense tedious melodrama, I need it to at least be pretty. I understand it was a Symbolic Haircut but damnit! Let me have this!

And it ultimately does the thing that kdramas seem obsessed with and which makes me want to claw out my own eyeballs with frustration. There’s a giant time skip, the female lead gets a personality transplant, all narrative momentum is lost, and the characters who eventually (at ENORMOUS length) get together permanently are essentially completely different characters with a completely different dynamic than the couple you were shipping for 90% of the story. It is so FUCKING unsatisfying and it is EVERYWHERE.

Not so much with this one because this one still had a lot of very romantic scenes late in the game, but most that do this, it’s also like all the romance is sucked out of the post-time skip episodes and the ending is a consolation prize instead of a triumphant culmination. Inevitably, the heroine abruptly cools off and is suddenly wary of the hero and wants this Important New Career she never mentioned until the penultimate episode but is now her one true life’s dream. What the apparently irresistible appeal is of these contrived separations and demure conclusions is I CANNOT FATHOM. I’m here for the fucking romance guys, you have not made Citizen Kane, please just indulge me with a big schmoopy finale.

And if not that, it’s frequently that there’s been so many random mood swings and so much shitty behaviour by the end that the relationship doesn’t make sense and you don’t know why they even bother to get back together.

I’m not inherently against all misunderstandings (they are the bread and butter of low stakes romance let’s be real) or attempts at noble idiocy from misguided characters, but the duration and seriousness of the drama these generate needs to be in proportion to how ridiculous they are. If your entire plot can be solved by a thirty second conversation there is NO REASON not to have and the continuation of the misunderstanding is a result of someone just NOT SPEAKING UP when any functional human being would have spoken up seven times by now IT’S BAD.

Do little cliff-hangers, whatever, but don’t draaaaagg out silly misconceptions into Shakespearean tragedy, it’s just wearying. It makes me hate the characters for acting like emotionally constipated toddlers with terminal stupidity. If there is so little trust, so little understanding, and so little basic patience between these people, they probably shouldn’t be dating, so try fucking harder, writers. And noble idiocy that is more than an impulse they fairly quickly see the error of is just insulting. You are not helping the other person, you are being domineering and selfish. I have a whole complex about wasting time and seeing endless parades of characters flushing years down the toilet for literally no reason gives me hives. Especially when the whole issue is about time!

(And, btw, so much of the plot is about how desperately the family needs an heir and everyone still wanting them to have kids the second time they get together- while the ~dilemma used to keep them apart is a GENETIC DISEASE which could STRIKE AT ANY TIME. Do you SEE THE PROBLEM WITH THIS WRITERS????? NO, I KNOW YOU DON’T. ommmmmmmmggggg that’s awful! So they’re just dooming more kids to Soap Opera Brain Disease? And maybe growing up without a father just as Gun did? And no one even considers suggesting adoption??? He never considers that he shouldn’t have biological children despite thinking he shouldn’t have a wife?)

ANYWAY. Please do watch the first nine episodes and the last three, it’s bananas. They are cute as fuck, Gun is The Best, and the tropey romance scenes are top quality. You don't get those things executed so well, it doesn't happen, so you need this in your life. The acting is of a calibre you never usually see in modern romcoms; these are people at the top of their game committing utterly and taking these characters completely seriously. In that way it is pure wish fulfilment for me as someone who loves romance and is almost always disappointed by popular romance media, and thus the show is incalculably special. But skip the middle. Just skip it. It's not worth the suffering. I find the tone whiplash honestly just this side of crass.

I’ve been thinking about it for over a week and I truly love the main characters so it did plenty right, but I just cannot with wedding the two things this show is trying to be together, especially when it goes so hard in two mutually exclusive directions. but also the Meet Joe Black sudden car accident device is not redeemable under any circumstances. Can we never do that again, please.

#fated to love you #kdrama #jang hyuk #writing

[fipindustries]

list of comics i made so far

i already shared the list of all the novels i tried to write throughout my llife so i see no reason why not to do the same with the comics i tried to work on. no i should clarify, with my lists of novels there was a clear cut distinction between what was a novel and a short story so to parse one from the other was an easy task. it should be known that i wrote hundreds of shorts stories that i havent shared with anyone. now a similar situation occurs with my comics, i have done hundreds upon hundreds of little comics, short jokes, little skits and short lived strips through my life, so in order to give this list some weight and not make it longer than the bible the criteria i used was that it had to be something i did on a regular basis or that tells a self contained story with a beggining middle and end.

now without further ado, lets begin!

spike Vanderville (age 7)

you can tell i was way more into comics than i was into novels from a young age. done with pen and folded paper, it was the story about a young kid called spike, whose design was heavily inspired by bradley from sticking around, who had magical powers which allowed him to manipulate reality. it was a mix of harry potter and a series of illustrates short stories that came in a magazine in argentina. his best friend was a scarecrow with a pumpkin head that he had brought to life, his archnemesis was a fat bully.

curiously enough i was so passionate about this project even though i had no idea what i was doing and no talent that i actually did like three full colored issues of it. my family was really proud of me. sadly those comics are completly lost to time

andrew and the monkey (age 10)

this was the classical story about a boy and his best friend the talking animal. one page comedy strips done in pen and paper. nothing too clever, just a way for me to try lame jokes mostly stolen from spongebob squarepants. not much else to it. i tried to do like a revamp in 2014 but it was short lived, as you can see the jokes didnt get any less lame

FIP industries (age 17)

mostly done in digital. yes as you can see fip is something that has followed me my whole life in quite the variety of mediums. there were as a matter of fact multiple attempts to make this comic a real thing but time and again they would peter off as i saw that my skill was just not up to the task. i think i have talked more than enough about fip industries on this blog, one interesting thing is that if you follow the link you will come across a lot of proto ideas that i had before they cemented and took their definite shape in the novel (and even after the novel i kept retconning and retooling things over and over again, fip industries is an ongoing thing that will probably last my entire lifetime)

Disregarding Reality I (age 20)

the first iteration of disregarding reality, a humorous strip done in pencil and paper, a fairly short lived affair, lasting no more than 3 months. the entire premise of the comic was an MRA activist and a feminist live together, they are friends, they argue a lot. remember 2013 guys? back when this whole politics bullshit truly kicked off online? this was before gamer gate, mind you. but by that point i had seen more than enough of it on tumblr and i was like “someone should do some scathing commentary with wit and penache” and that someone had to be me. mainly inspired by commics like f@nboys and el goonish hive and a thousand billion others that were so popular back in those halcyon days.

i got bored of it pretty quickly and it wouldnt be until three years later than i would finally decide to re-start the project but until then...

Strangers in the forest (age 21)

here comes a rather productive era in my ouvre, ink and paper, based on a short story i wrote, its about an eldritch monster pretending to be human and a ghost girl, killed by her father. they have a dispute because the monster wants to eat the corpse of the girl but the ghost doesnt want to give up her bones because its the one thing that tethers her to the mortal plane. they eventually resolve their dispute. by this point i was actually, unironically trying my best to do comics which i felt looked professional.

Song of a nightmare (age 21)

another one based on a short story i wrote. ink and paper, a private detective wakes up in the middle of the night and sees a mermaid lying in bed next to him. he spends most of the comic trying to figure out how the hell is this possible. still one of my favourite ones and certainly one of my family’s and friends favourites as well. a rather poetic tale, strongly inspired by argentinian fiction and their propensity towards magical realism, i was reading a lot of cortazar back then.

Aika (age 21)

as you can tell i was on a fucking roll that year. ink and paper, this was a story based upon a simple and basic idea that i had in my mind for years and years. i always liked the concept behind the movie “the kid” where bruce willis mysteriously comes across himself as a kid. so of course one day i came up with the idea, what if you recieved a visit from your future self... but she was a woman?

this is probably the most aggresively trans story i ever wrote in my life, it is literally about a guy realizing they are trans and breaking down over it. here is the giant kicker, i did not realize at all what i was doing. i was completly unaware of what was going on here, i was still deep deep in the closet and not even realizing i was there. it really is astounding the honesty and the rawness with which i wrote this comic and it went all over my head. a perfect example of “im such a great ally lol”

oh also there is time travel i guess. my main impetus (beyond whatever my subconcious was forcing me to do) was my desire to make a complete clusterfuck of a story, i was a huge fan of homestuck, i had read fleek and demon, i wanted to do my own take on a hypercomplicated time travel puzzle plot. other things came out on top of it but i didnt noticed them. fucking hilarious

Hello Agatha (age 21)

a comedic strip about a wacky pixie dream girl having wacky adventures with her wacky friends, one of which is a man with a toilet for a head. what a gut buster, what a knee slapper!

there is not much to say about this one, wacky surreal comedy was always my favourite and so time and again i would try my hand at it but it is surprisingly hard to do!

The /co/ ventures! (age 20 - age25)

an ongoing project done in multiple mediums. i think i said more than enough about this in here and here. it was me practiscing comics, practiscing my humor and adding my tiny grain of sand to the 4chan culture. i am proud to say these comics were actually very well liked there and that i would be recognized without a name or signature of any kind, just on the strength of my style.

the vest kind of madness (age 22)

probably one of the projects in which i put the biggest amount of effort to make it look professional. traditional inks and digital colors. a crossover that i cant believe never happened in comics considering how obvious it is. Rac Shade, the changing man and delirium of the endless, the two flagship vertigo characters associated with madness. clearly a match made in heaven.

to this day im flabbergasted i seem to be the only one to think of this.

Disregarding Reality II (age 23)

another work where i have already spilled rivers of bytes explaining my thought process behind it. after having a no good, terrible, very bad day, finding my self aimless and without purpose, deep in denial and depression, i decided to give my self a big project to have something to get me out of bed every day. these three guys came from the depths of my mind to save me.

this time leaning a lot more on silly humor and surrealism than political commentary, still insanely proud of how much i managed to make this last, almost three years, well over 200 pages! and in here i found the inspiration and the creative energy to tackle all sorts of diverse projects of which we are about to see all about.

Mama Bird (age 24)

my masterpiece.

by far the best comic i ever did. a kid with a bird for a mom. hilarious, touching, heartbreaking. it was a concept that i had come up with when i was 21. back then it was supposed to be exclusively a humorous comic strip but then i found a dramatic angle for the story and that was when everything clicked into place. that was when i realized this was a comic i had to do. and i did it. it took me five months but it was well worth it. still insanely proud of this one

Soft boys (age 25)

a weird experimental little story where i decided to sit down and deconstruct one of the most popular superpowers. super elasticity. more akin to me just mashing my toys against each other than me trying to tell a serious story. i am actually really happy with some of the art here and some of the sequences presented. particularly the final one where a brick joke twenty pages in the making finally pays off.

Hexen Snatch (age 25)

a semi spinoff to my novel FIP industries, we focus on a side character that managed to survive after the events of the novel and how they’ll manage to survive further beyond that. insanely soaked by the magical world of pact by widbow i wanted desperatly to share my own take on magic, every page is accompanied by a little text where i expand upon the lore and the way magic is supposed to work on this world. i really like the prose on those snippets and the ideas they work almost more that the comic itself with which i was not happy at all when i was working on it. i didnt like the character design, i didnt like how the art in general was coming out, i didnt like the pacing of the story or how superficially we were getting to expore this world in the comic proper. i had to take a very long hiatus just to accumulate the will to finish the comic and once i did i feel it really petered off without much of a satisfying payoff.

on some level i blame the exhaustion and frustration that i came out of this comic with for the fact that i ended up quitting disregarding reality soon afterwards.

Maxplosive (age 26)

another project that has followed me across multiple mediums. came up with an idea for a videogame back in 2015. saved it on the back pocket for a while, used it as a story within a story on my novel fan.tastic, practisced a couple of animations with the characters and eventually decided that, if my skills at videogame making were not enough, i had at least more than poven myself as a comic artist so maybe that was the definitive medium in which this idea would have to exist.

the original idea was to tell the story in two parts, the first half would introduce the character and the videogame as if the comic was a playthrough of the game. all fun and childlike and innocent. then the second half was meant to explore the life of the main character as an adult, how being “a videogame protagonist” had ruined her body, her mental health and her life. i tried all sorts of weird stuff with the format here, using reciclable assets, static camera angles and generally presenting the whole thing as if it was a videogame.

sadly the project got too big for my breaches, i was fucking exhausted back then, swamped with a bunch of other projects, my job, other responsabilities, unsatisfied with the story and with no idea where to take it. eventually i got tired, decided to skip a day, then the day became a week and then the week became a month and by then i had to face the facts, i was just no longer able to continue the comic. and so i quit not only maxplosive but disregarding reality all together.

i still did the occasional comic here and then but it wouldnt be until the very end of 20-fucking-20 that i was finally inspired to tackle a new project, my newest one, my last one....

Lapsarian (age 27)

an interesting experiment, i decided to do the whole comic in one sit and then post it chapter by chapter on a weekly basis. a surprising result of this was that i managed to do in one month the same amoung of pages that would have taken me 5 months back when i started disregarding reality, is good to see that after al this time i still got it.

took me a while to get the hang of it again and find my own style once more but once i armed up it was smooth sailing for 40 pages all the way to the end. but what is this comic even about?

its... weird, with full disclosure and no shame, it is mostly a fetish story about big lizard creatures commiting vore. the milkman had already shown me that i could do those types of stories and no lighting would come from the heavens to strike me down so i said, why not as a comic? i like to think that beyond the fetish content it is still a decent story in its own right, an interesting feedback that i got from this is that people are suprised how earnest it is, one saying something like “this is the best pitch for a fetish that i was never interested in”

Conclussion:

looking back on this im surprised, turns out i was a lot more prolific and working a lot more regularly than i expected, in here are documented ten years of creative output that never seems to wane. it was fun to do the roundabout trip and see how my style, my technice and generally my work ethic evolved through the years. another nice thing to see is the multiple formats, the multiple tools and mediums i experimented with, i find myself constantly trying new things, new methods, new angles, new interesting ideas for how to make a comic (without even getting into what to make a comic about).

something i always knew about myself was that drawing is a fundamental part of who i am, it is something that just cant be taken away from me and that will always be a part of my life one way or the other, is good to see it so plainly, in black and white, on this list. here goes for what i might be able to do in the future

#art #writing #fip living life

[tsarinastorm]

Stare Blankly- Adam Sackler/Reader- Part 1, Chapter 6

*This is a prequel to my upcoming fic, “Same World.” My work is also on Ao3

Chapter 1   Chapter 2   Chapter 3  Chapter 4   Chapter 5 

You walk into your apartment and find Hannah sitting at the table on her laptop, with notes scattered everywhere and Marnie sitting down on the living room floor playing with Grover. Your dog River runs to see you, but then returns to befriend the baby. You say hi to all of them then go to your room to change into a more comfortable outfit. You unpack your takeout, and make plates for all three of you. You sit down on the couch with your plate, and you start to tell them about your run-in with Jessa, “I ran into Jessa today. She was fighting with some guy and couldn’t pay for her food.”

“Well that’s classic Jessa. She’s always a hot mess, she causes all of these problems not caring about anyone else’s feelings and then doesn’t know why everyone is mad at her.” Marnie says and Grover starts reaching for a toy. Hannah adds, “Yeah for someone who wanted to be a therapist, she’s not very self-aware. She starts fucking and dating my ex-boyfriend, doesn’t tell me, then is shocked when I didn’t tell her I was pregnant.”

“Do any of you talk to her anymore?” You can’t help but ask because adult friendships go through waves.

“No, I told her that I wasn’t mad at her anymore but she’s not my friend. I have no idea what her life is like and she doesn’t know mine.” Hannah says and you can tell that she’s not as over it as wants to sound. Marnie then shares, “She wasn’t even supposed to be there for brunch that day and that was the last I saw her or heard from her.”

“UGH! Fuck! This article is going to kill me.” Hannah yells as Marnie shushes her. Hannah’s picking up her notebook and is bent over her laptop again. You sit down across the table from her, and ask, “What’s your article about? I thought you were copyrighting?”

“I am, that’s my day job but I got this article freelancing. It’s supposed to be on Mothering conference I went to.”

“See that’s why I don’t do essays most of the time. It’s easier to write other people’s emotions than your own. What’s the problem? How was the Mothering conference?” You ask so you can help her get through her writer’s block or maybe give her a new angle for the piece.

“It was supposed to be ‘empowering’ but it was all about mothers feeling perfect all the time and didn’t talk about the struggles facing mothers every day. I’m a proud, and ‘empowered’ single mother and it is hard, it’s really fucking hard. I don’t know why they just didn’t talk about that. Like you be a great mom and still acknowledge it’s difficult. It was façade feminist: looks feminist on the outside but hollow on the inside.” Hannah says and sighs. She walks over and picks Grover up, he smiles up at her. You then realize that’s what Hannah should write about.

“Why don’t you write what you just said about the façade feminism? Explain why it felt that way to you. And you know talk about how great being a mother is, but also how difficult it is.” You say and she smiles and says, “Yes! That sounds like a great idea!”

Hannah sits down and starts typing at a rapid pace. You and Marnie put on a new show on Hulu while Grover naps peacefully.

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               “Y/N! I’m so glad you could make it! I know you’re not a dramatist like me, but I think you’ll have fun!” Your friend, Kirsten says as she leads you through her party. You had met Kirsten in law school, and she was working for legal, but her real passion was theater. She was a terrific actress and had never been afraid to put herself out there. She had a larger than life personality that you had grown accustomed to. This was her birthday party but of course, she had a band playing and had a skit plan.

You’re catching up with Kirsten as Adam Sackler walks through the door. Attempting to avoid him, you head towards the restroom. Before you can make it too far, Kirsten pulls you back and says, “Y/N, this is my friend Adam, we’re in the same cabaret group.”

Adam looks at you awkwardly and you look at him awkwardly. “Oh I know Adam, I didn’t know you were in the same cabaret group.” You finally say, and then Kirsten moves close to Adam and clutches onto his arm. You know Kirsten well enough to recognize that move:  she’s going to flirt with him to see if he’s interested. Not that it means she’s interested in him, she likes to play the game more than anything. You can tell that Adam isn’t sure what to do with attention so you smile as you watch the exchange. Kirsten eventually moves along, and Adam moves to stand next to you. When you make eye contact with him, you both burst out in laughter. Once the fit of laughter has settled down you suppress your next comment.

“Kirsten is one of a kind. She’s putting the moves on you.” You raise your eyebrows provocatively at him and he shrugs his shoulders in an innocent way back at you before replying.

“She’s great but not my type.”

“What is your type then?” You question because Kirsten is gorgeous, bubbly and certainly not dull. From his relationship history, you can’t determine what his type actually is.

“You.” He’s observing your reaction with his amber eyes that you feel are boring holes into you. The look on your face is that of pure astonishment. Then, you laugh uneasily because you’re both flattered and unsure how else to respond. A change in topic is much needed at this time.

“I never saw you as a cabaret guy.” You comment.

“Well this cab group is very innovative and challenging, plus I like the artistic vision. And it’s a good break from my day job.” He says and takes a drink of his seltzer water.

“What’s your day job now?”

“I’m working on this indie film by a Romanian couple which talks about immigration and family. Think a modern A View from the Bridge meets Cassavetes, if you know who he is.” Adam remarks and watches a dance group take to the middle of the floor.

“Yes, I know who Cassavetes is, he was a true visionary. Have you ever read his thoughts on method acting?” You ask. You loved some Cassavetes movies and enjoyed the class you took on him in undergrad. Adam seemed be intellectual and opinionated therefore you assumed he’d have some commentary.

“He has a point that if you mentally become the character then it’s” Kirsten interrupts Adam’s statement by grabbing his arm and yours, dragging you to the dance floor.  Adam shows off his eccentric dance moves and you have nothing but respect for them as you throw a couple of your signature moves too.  And this dance party goes on for hours.

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Adam was walking home from Kirsten’s party with Y/N, who was tagging alongside him carrying her heels in her right hand. He was shocked when they walked out of the venue that she took off the shoes she was wearing and pulled a pair of rolled up flats out of her bag to put them on instead. After dancing for hours, the two headed home, choosing to walk together since they were going in the same direction. That’s when the conversation continued. Adam had just told Y/N about some of the stuff that he wrote, and she grabbed his arm, turning him to face her.

“Wait, you write too? Why have you never mentioned that before?” She says in an offended voice. He comes up with some rationale, “I don’t know, you never asked. I write about my life.”

Unable to think of any real reason for why never told her before, he tries to deflect.  They begin walking again in order to not cause a pileup in the middle of the street.

“I bet your stuff is good. You’re very honest, which is rare anymore. Did you write the movie about you and Hannah?” She says as if she’s putting the dots together for the first time. Adam wonders how she knew about the film about his relationship with Hannah, and now he anxiously hopes she never watches it. He remembers that she’s roommates with Marnie, that’s probably how she knows about Disclosure. He shakes his head yes, choosing not to answer verbally. She stops at the corner since this is her street. Adam hopes he’ll see her again soon.

“Marnie and I are having this apartment warming thing this Friday, you should come.” She tells him and he responds with the obvious reaction, “I’d like that but are you sure I’d be welcome with all of them being there?”

“Yeah, Marnie is inviting who she wants to and I want to invite you.” Y/N says like it’s the most natural thing in the world. Adam is still surprised so he says, “Wait, does this mean you like me?”

“I tolerate you and you tolerate me. Plus we have shared interests.” Adam smiles at her like an idiot as Y/N walks away down her street. He thinks that this is good. He can survive being around Hannah and Marnie if he gets to spend time with Y/N.

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The restaurant bustles around you as you wonder why you agreed to meet Jess for lunch. She had contacted you to invite you out as a way to thank you for helping her out. You ordered coffee and sipped as you waited. Mentally you determined that if Jessa didn’t arrive in exactly five minutes, then you would pay for your coffee and leave but then you see her outside smoking a cigarette.

“Okay so I married to this finance guy named Thomas-John who lived in Williamsburg,” Jessa says laughing, and you respond by saying, “And the fact that he had two first names and lived in Williamsburg wasn’t a red flag? Every guy I’ve ever met with two names has turned out to be a total douche. Not to mention, the people I’ve met from Williamsburg.”

“Well I was young and stupid.” Jessa says. The two of you ended up chatting once she did arrive, and you realized that you actually thought she was fun to be around. She might not be a “best friends” type of girl but you enjoyed being around her.  She continues, “I like my lifestyle, I’ve lived it since I was five years old. But everyone else has moved forward and I feel like I’m in the exact same place.”

“What do you really want to do? There has to be a way to accomplish it, and you could always do it in a non-traditional way.” She thinks about what you said, and you wonder why you’re giving her life advice when she more than likely won’t listen to you at all. Jessa raises her eyebrows and finally answers, “I want to help people figure out their lives and their trauma. I thought I wanted to be a therapist but I’m not sure if going back to school is my thing.”

“You could be a life coach. Talk about your struggles and how you got through them. Help others in similar situations.” Honestly, you couldn’t imagine Jessa sticking to anything: she was too much of a bohemian free spirit. She started smiling and thanked you for the advice, she said that she’d work on starting that. For whatever reason, you decided to invite her to your apartment warming, and she said that she’d be there.

“But you should know that Hannah will be there, and Adam was invited too. I don’t know if that will be awkward for you.”

“Uh I can manage, I’ll see you then.” She gives a hug before you both leave to go your separate ways. You suddenly worry that inviting Jessa might prove to be a mistake.

#adam sackler #adam sackler x reader #adam driver #hbo girls #girls hbo

[kdramaxoxo]

Oh man speaking of problematic yet enjoyable dramas can we talk about Soul Mechanic? Because I can't sort out my feelings on this one. I wobble back and forth. I do feel like they aren't romantising the relationship between Woo Joo and Dr. Lee. It's messy and the show embraces that, mostly, I think. I'm behind, I'm only episode 11 (21-22), I guess I keep getting confused over what point the show is trying to make?

Yes! Can we please talk about it?? 

Omg Soul Mechanic what a hot mess! It’s funny cause I’m like you - I love the way the show embraces the patients and treats them with respect. That’s what really drew me in and kept me watching. I’m stuck at episode 8 though because I just cannot live in a world where this dude gets to be rewarded for being a bad doctor?

The doctor stuff...what in what world.

All of the unethical things the kooky and talented “doctor” does for patient treatment include:

Having dinner and drinks with patients

Meeting up with patients at his home (outside but still)

Talking night walks with patients/potential patients

Allowing patients to escape and then getting mad that he shouldn’t work with them

Letting patients escape so they can play out delusions in real life with real bystanders?

Taking on cases he has not been asked to take by said patient

Doctor Patient Confidentiality is not a thing

Telling one patient about the situation of another patient to try and “help them”

Fake suicide skits using an actress to “scare” patients into fixing their condition

Trickery in order to get patients to see their illness. All Better!

Theatrical therapy which involves one patient knowing every detail about the one being treated 

Theatrical therapy that other patients for some reason get to watch?

Ok, I think I got everything? I read that the writer wanted people to empathize with the patients and we do, so good job. But the therapy is literal fantasy land unicorn crazy sauce nonsense that belittles what it’s like to actually get treated for a mental illness so there’s that too... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#kdrama #soul mechanic #fix you #ask #answer #mental illness in kdramas #this is real that list is real lol

[joan-frias]

Falling Slowly

A Gohan x Videl Fanfiction

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EAST DISTRICT, MOUNTAIN PAOZU 

Gohan is training Videl and Goten how to fly. He starts by explaining the concept of what makes a person fly and what is needed in that technique.

GOHAN: Okay. Basically, flying is all about controlling your ki. If you know how to control your ki then it won't be difficult to learn how to fly.

VIDEL: Controlling your ki? What's that supposed to mean?

GOHAN: What... do you mean?

VIDEL: I mean, what is 'ki?' How would I control something that I don't know?

GOHAN: You don't know what ki is? Hmn... Maybe they call it differently at your place... Ki is essentially energy or power.

VIDEL: What? Energy? I don't get it.

GOTEN: It's like this.

Goten blasts an energy beam on a stone. Videl is dumbfounded.

GOHAN: Yeah, that's basically it.

VIDEL: That...

GOHAN: So what do you call that?

VIDEL: T-Tricks?

GOHAN: That's not a trick. It's power.

VIDEL: (embarrassed) WELL THAT'S WHAT WE CALL MAGIC IN OUR WORLD!

GOHAN: O-Okay... So you don't know anything about ki, huh?

Gohan stoops down to Goten.

GOHAN: Hey, I need to teach Videl how to control her energy. Can you play and let us train for a while first?

GOTEN: Okay.

Goten leaves them.

GOHAN: Okay. Let me show you how to control your ki. Let's sit down first.

Both of them sit down on the grassy ground.

GOHAN: Watch as I focus my energy on my hands.

Gohan holds out his two hands facing each other. He concentrates, then a beam of energy slowly emerges in the middle of his hands. Videl looks at the light in awe. She even moved closer to get a clearer view of the energy produced by Gohan.

GOHAN: Now, you try it. Just concentrate and you'll be able to control your ki just like how I did earlier.

Videl copies Gohan's actions and tries to concentrate. However, no matter what she does she cannot let out a beam of energy just like how Gohan did.

VIDEL: (frustrated) I can't do it!

GOHAN: Give yourself some time. It's really not easy controlling your energy.

VIDEL: Is there any way I could learn how to fly without going through this step?

GOHAN: I don't know any other way.

Videl suddenly remembers something.

VIDEL: So, that beam of light that you used during the fight against the zombies, it's not just because of your costume?

GOHAN: Yeah...

VIDEL: (on her mind) But… that was a powerful blast! If that's Gohan's energy then, does that mean he's that strong?

Goten comes to them.

GOTEN: Lunch is ready!

GOHAN: Let's go and have some lunch first.

VIDEL: Are you sure it's fine for me to join you to lunch?

GOHAN: Of course it is.

VIDEL: Your mother doesn't seem to like me.

GOHAN: Don't say that. Mom is just... like that. (laugh nervously) But she's kind. Really.

Videl looks at him with doubt. Gohan just grimaced.

GOHAN: Let's go?

Gohan stands up, then extends his hand to Videl. The latter looks at his hand, then looks away as she blushes.

VIDEL: I can stand up myself. (stands up)

GOHAN: Okay.

The two of them follows Goten back to their house. Chi-Chi has set up the table outside under the shade of the trees.

CHI-CHI: Come on! Dig in!

Videl stares at the table for a while.

CHI-CHI: (to Videl) What are you looking at? If you don't join now then you'll run out of food. These guys really eat a lot, you know.

GOHAN: Mom, you're embarrassing me a little.

CHI-CHI: Oh, what's wrong with that? You need to get strong for the tournament.

Videl joins in and sits by the table.

VIDEL: Thanks for inviting me.

CHI-CHI: Oh, it's alright. There are really no restaurants near here that you can go to.

VIDEL: Your place is really... far from... normal residence.

CHI-CHI: It's my husband's place. He inherited it from his grandfather.

VIDEL: Son Goku?

CHI-CHI: You know my husband?

VIDEL: I've read an article when he won the World Martial Arts Tournament.

CHI-CHI: Oh right! That tournament. You know what? That's where he proposed to me.

VIDEL: Really?

CHI-CHI: Yes... Oh, it seems like it was just yesterday when that happened. We were matched for the semi-finals. I was mad because he kind of forgotten about his promise to me. Then he realized who I was, and he recognized his promised and asked me to marry him. Uh! It was so romantic.

VIDEL: That was... weird...

Chi-Chi looks sharply at Videl.

CHI-CHI: Hmn?

VIDEL: (smiling fondly) Weird but... you're right. It seems romantic.

CHI-CHI: See? (to Gohan) I told you it was romantic.

Gohan just continue chewing his food.

VIDEL: I guess they really won't appreciate that thing because boys doesn't know anything about romance and love.

CHI-CHI: You're right. You know, I like you already.

Videl smiles awkwardly. She then goes on and eat the food that Chi-Chi cooked.

VIDEL: Wow! This is so good!

CHI-CHI: I'm glad you like it.

VIDEL: This is even better than the food our chef's cooking.

CHI-CHI: You have a chef? Does your family run a restaurant?

VIDEL: No, it's our in-house cook.

CHI-CHI: You have a cook in your house? Are you rich? How many rooms does your house have?

VIDEL: Hmn... I'm not sure... I think it's 50 or something...

CHI-CHI: Fifty! That's a castle! Gohan, when are you going to get married?

Gohan spits out the food on his mouth. It all fly towards Goten, making his face covered with rice and some other dish.

GOHAN: We're not getting married!

CHI-CHI: Oh, of course you need to propose first. Do you want to do it on the tournament? Oh! You're just like your father.

GOTEN: So Videl is going to be my big sister?

GOHAN: No! That's... that's...

Gohan looks at Videl who is curiously watching the skit that is happening right now to their family. Gohan blushes.

GOHAN: Let's just eat. We're training some more after.

All of them continue to eat.

After lunch, Videl's training continued. After some practice and concentration, she was able to control her ki and let out a beam of light from her hands.

GOHAN: You did it!

Videl smiles as she catches her breath.

GOHAN: Just take it easy. It really is hard at first, but once you get the hang of it, it will be easy breezy for you.

VIDEL: So can I fly now?

GOHAN: (grimaces) No, not yet. You first need to learn how to control your ki, that you can place it on whatever part of you body, particularly your feet... Why don't we call Goten so that I could teach the both of you at the same time?

Goten is currently playing around with the insects and some animals.

GOHAN: Goten! I'll now teach you how to fly.

GOTEN: Coming!

Goten joins them. He stands up beside Videl, and Gohan is a few feet in front, facing them.

GOHAN: Now, you need to concentrate and focus your energy onto your feet.

Videl tries to do what Gohan said. Goten, on the other hand, just jumps constantly.

GOHAN: Jumping does not make you fly, Goten.

Goten stops jumping. He does what Gohan told him about focusing the energy on the feet. And since by nature Goten can control his energy more easily, he instantly learns how to control it to make himself fly.

GOTEN: Look! I can fly now!

GOHAN: Wow! He really did it!

GOTEN: (flies around) Gohan! I'm like a bird! Look at me!

GOHAN: Way to go, Goten!

VIDEL: Shut up! I'm concentrating!

Gohan nervously covered his mouth.

It took a couple of hours before Videl was able to lift herself off the ground. It was a little lift as compared to Goten, but it definitely means Videl was able to fly a little.

GOHAN: You did it! You lifted yourself!

Videl was able to hold herself up a little more before she loses control and goes down slowly.

GOHAN: Way to go, Videl! You did it on one day.

VIDEL: Really? I barely lifted myself.

Videl looks at Goten, who is gleefully flying above them. Gohan follows her gaze.

GOHAN: Well, Goten knows how to control his energy longer than you do.

VIDEL: You have to teach me more until I could fly like that.

GOHAN: Eh... (laughs nervously)

VIDEL: I think for today, that would be enough. I'm going back tomorrow.

GOHAN: Do you really have to?

VIDEL: You promised me, remember?

GOHAN: Right...

Videl takes out her helijet capsule and opens it.

GOHAN: Oh, by the way...

VIDEL: Hmn?

GOHAN: Your hair...

VIDEL: Hmn?

GOHAN: It think it's better... if you cut it short.

VIDEL: (blushes) You think... it looks better short?

GOHAN: I don't know... but it's better for fighting. You see, it might impair your vision while you're fighting, and your opponent might grab it-

VIDEL: MY HAIR IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!

Videl rides onto her helijet and leaves. Goten hears her screaming so he goes to Gohan.

GOTEN: What's wrong with Videl?

GOHAN: I... also don't know.

GOTEN: Girls are hard to know.

GOHAN: I guess you're right.

The following morning, Gohan continues his training with Goten. They are sparring once again, but this time in mid-air. When they were both exhausted, they come down and lie on the grass.

GOTEN: Gohan, I like training with you like this.

GOHAN: You mean just the two of us?

GOTEN: Yeah...

GOHAN: Me too... I also can't show my real strength when Videl is here.

GOTEN: Do you think she'll come back today?

Before Gohan can answer, Videl arrives through her helijet. The two boys go to meet her but were both surprised when they see Videl's new short hairstyle.

GOTEN: Who is she?

GOHAN: She's...

Videl hides back her helijet.

VIDEL: I'm ready.

GOHAN: Your hair...

VIDEL: I cut it.

GOTEN: Wait... you're Videl?

VIDEL: Huh?

Goten moves closer to Gohan.

GOTEN: (whispers) She looks different.

GOHAN: (whispers back) I know...

VIDEL: What are you two whispering?

GOHAN: (nervously) Nothing! I just... told him to play while I train you. Right, Goten?

GOTEN: Right. I'll go play now, Videl.

VIDEL: Okay.

Goten leaves.

GOHAN: So... uh... let's start?

Videl nods, signaling the beginning of their training for today.

At lunch, Chi-Chi once again set up the table outside their house.

CHI-CHI: (to Videl) You cut your hair.

VIDEL: Someone advised me that this is better for fighting.

CHI-CHI: You really are into this fighting thing very much, huh?

VIDEL: It's because everyone expects me to be there and win, especially my father.

CHI-CHI: Well, I'm sorry to say but you just won't win because my Gohan will be there.

VIDEL: Oh really? Let's see to that.

CHI-CHI: Oh girl, don't ever try. I apologize in advance to you and please extend my apologies to your father.

VIDEL: I'm sure my father won't accept it.

CHI-CHI: If he knows what you're getting yourself into, then he should.

VIDEL: Oh, he sure does. He's not the world martial arts champion if he doesn't.

CHI-CHI: Wait, what? Who's your father?

VIDEL: The world's champion, Mr. Satan.

Chi-Chi looks at Videl, seems dumbfounded for a while. She then looks at Gohan.

CHI-CHI: You didn't tell me you're dating Mr. Satan's daughter.

GOHAN: Mom, we're not dating.

VIDEL: He's right. We're not really dating.

Chi-Chi looks at Videl, quietly watching her eat. After a few seconds she looks back at Gohan.

CHI-CHI: Gohan, can you help me get something inside? It seems like I forgot to get that dish I cooked earlier.

VIDEL: I think this feast is enough for us.

CHI-CHI: No, it's not! You've seen these boys eat, right? Come on, Gohan. Let's go inside.

Chi-Chi goes inside the house, followed by Gohan.

VIDEL: Your mom really loves to cook.

GOTEN: Yes. It's her hobby.

Inside the house, Chi-Chi and Gohan proceeded to the kitchen.

CHI-CHI: Gohan, you didn't tell Videl about what really happened during the Cell Games, did you?

GOHAN: No, I didn't. Besides, she's too amazed with her father. She adores him so much.

CHI-CHI: So, how would that be? If you beat her or her father, do you think they would still accept you to their family?

GOHAN: Wha-

CHI-CHI: I'm just worried that if Videl realized the truth about her father, she will get depressed and since you're the reason she discovered it, she will hate you for that. How are you going to marry her then?

GOHAN: WE'RE NOT GETTING MARRIED!

CHI-CHI: Oh silly! Don't try to ignore the obvious. We better treat Videl very well. I have here a very nice dessert. Let's give it to her to get her favor.

GOHAN: Mom...

Later, Gohan continues training Videl. That afternoon, she was able to lift herself up more than what she did yesterday.

GOHAN: That's great, Videl! Your progress is amazing.

VIDEL: (goes down panting) It sure takes a lot of energy.

Videl sits down on the grass. Gohan follows her and sits a few feet away from her.

VIDEL: Your house is very nice. It's small, but it's so homey. And this… (indicates the surroundings) It's so beautiful!

Videl lies down and closes her eyes.

VIDEL: I could stay like this forever.

Gohan stares at her while her eyes are closed. He smiles as he listens to her speak.

VIDEL: I can't remember the last time we went on a picnic together. I mean, me and my dad... I guess it was back when my father is still a nobody.

Gohan's smile faded.

VIDEL: I guess it could have been different if my mother didn't die. At least she's there to take me to picnics and places like this.

GOHAN: How long was your mother dead?

VIDEL: She died a few months after I was born. My dad does not want to talk about it, so I don't know a lot about her. All I know is that she was a singer. And she is beautiful and kind...

GOHAN: Maybe she is like you.

Videl opens her eyes.

GOHAN: (blushes) I mean... you're kind and... well... you're... you're beautiful... (looks away)

Videl giggles. That made Gohan look back.

VIDEL: Thanks... well, you're good-looking yourself.

It was her turn to blush.

VIDEL: I saw your father's picture. You kind of look like each other.

GOHAN: Yeah... Mom always say that.

VIDEL: He seems to be a nice guy... just like you.

Gohan blushes again.

GOHAN: Well... yeah... he is nice... very nice... Kind. He's kind.

Videl stares at Gohan, quite enjoying his awkward moment. Gohan seems to sense it, so he looks back. That made Videl's smile fade slowly. Not because something bad is happening, but because her heart suddenly beat faster. She doesn't understand what's happening.

Gohan continues to stare, quite enjoying the view that Videl's beautiful face is giving him. He starts to notice every feature of her face - her big blue eyes, her cute nose, her pink lips. That's where his eyes landed last. It seems they do not want to leave that spot.

GOTEN: (voice over) Gohan!

Gohan looks away. Videl turns her head to the other direction. Goten is now in front of them.

GOTEN: Are you done training already?

GOHAN: Ah... we're... w-we're just resting. Right, Videl? (laughs nervously)

VIDEL: Yeah... (sits up) You know, it's airy and comfy here. I just... thought I might lay down for a while.

GOTEN: I think it's hot in here. Your faces are both red.

Gohan and Videl look at each other, and upon seeing each other's faces they blush some more.

VIDEL: I guess... it is... a little warm, yeah...

GOHAN: Yeah... let's head back to our house to drink some water. That might cool us off a little.

VIDEL: Yeah... (laughs nervously) Let's go.

Gohan and Videl leave.

GOTEN: Grownups are so complicated.

Days passed and Gohan continues to train Videl. She was a fast learner and she is improving more and more everyday. After just a couple of days training, Videl was able to fly more comfortably.

VIDEL: Gohan, look! I'm higher than the trees!

GOHAN: You're great! You master flying in just a week. Now you're ready for some more intense flying session.

Videl goes down to the ground. She seems not as tired as she was before. Still, she sits down on the grass and Gohan sits down as well.

VIDEL: So... I assume it's your father who trained you.

GOHAN: Yeah... and a guy named Piccolo.

VIDEL: How I wish I've met your father. If he trained and continuously pursued martial arts, maybe he has a great chance defeating my dad.

GOHAN: Videl, do you still train with your father?

VIDEL: No way! He's too strong for me, you know. He's the world champion. He will just crush me if we spar.

GOHAN: (on his mind) So Videl does not know that she is now stronger than her father.

VIDEL: No one even see him train these days. He always closes the gym exclusively when he trains.

GOHAN: So... what if... this is just hypothetical...

VIDEL: Huh?

GOHAN: What if in the tournament, someone beat your dad. Will you be okay with that?

VIDEL: You bet I am! I actually want to see him get defeated. Maybe that will reduce the ego he has right now on his head.

GOHAN: (on his mind) Yes! That means I could beat him and Videl will be okay with that.

VIDEL: But of course, that would be impossible. He's the strongest in the world right now.

GOHAN: Well, some guy might dream, right?

VIDEL: Yeah... that's also my dream myself.

GOHAN: (on his mind) If you only knew, Videl.

VIDEL: By the way. Can you keep this to him until the tournament? I want to surprise him when he sees me flying.

GOHAN: Oh sure! We don't see each other anyway.

VIDEL: It's not just that. If he finds out that I am seeing a guy like this, he'll freak out. He's too overprotective. He told me once that I could not date just some guy. He should be stronger than him, he said. Like, as if that would be possible. Like, no offense, Gohan. Sure, you're strong, but he sure is stronger than you.

GOHAN: Right... (smiles awkwardly)

VIDEL: Let's go! Let's continue my training.

GOHAN: Okay!

Some more days passed. Videl continues training until she was able to fly easily. Now she can fly with Goten with ease.

VIDEL: This is amazing! I really can fly now!

GOHAN: You're quite impressive. You did it all in one week.

VIDEL: It was all thanks to you.

Videl and Gohan smile at each other.

GOHAN: So... there's nothing else I could teach you with flying. What comes next is experience. You have to do it constantly for you to get more used to it and improve.

VIDEL: I guess I'll continue my training then... at home.

GOHAN: Right...

VIDEL: I guess... I'll miss this. (looks around) This is a great training place, you know. I will miss this. (looks back at Gohan) And... your mom's cooking...

GOHAN: You can go here anytime you want... I mean, after the tournament when we're both not busy anymore...

VIDEL: Yeah...

The two of them look at each other eye to eye. It was Videl who first looked away.

VIDEL: Ahm... I will miss Goten.

Videl looks at the kid who is now beside Gohan. She smiles at him.

GOTEN: You're not coming back anymore, Videl?

VIDEL: Well... I have to train on my own now. And, I guess your brother needs to train himself.

GOHAN: That's right...

VIDEL: So... (smiles nervously) I'm going now...

GOHAN: Yeah...

VIDEL: See you at the tournament.

Gohan nods. With a last glance, Videl takes out her helijet capsule and is about to throw it on the ground.

VIDEL: Or maybe I'll fly back home.

She flies up in the air.

VIDEL: Goodbye, Gohan! Goodbye Goten!

GOHAN: Bye!

GOTEN: Goodbye, Videl!

Videl leaves.

GOTEN: Now we can train together, Gohan.

GOHAN: Oh come on! She's not that bad.

GOTEN: I think you kind of like her here.

GOHAN: What! How can you say that?

GOTEN: I don't know. You seem kinda happy and excited when she comes every morning.

GOHAN: Well, because... because if I teach her fast then the soonest she can leave us alone training.

GOTEN: Really?

Gohan looks guiltily at Goten.

GOTEN: You're blushing again. Are you feeling hot?

GOHAN: No! Let's just... train!

Gohan transforms into Super Saiyan.

GOTEN: Now that's what I call training!

Goten also transforms into Super Saiyan and the two of them start sparring.

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11/21/2019 Patreon Stream Hour 2 of 5

Notes

Greg says he doesn’t trust people anymore. He says he hasn’t cried in a long time.

Greg talks about the game for a while, but tells a Patron to stop talking about the game when they say say others can join a mission with them.

Greg says celebrities are dumb to hug fans because a fan can take a picture of them hugging and use that to say they had a secret personal relationship. Patrons agree.

Greg says he sees people as bombs waiting to explode in his face after all he’s been through. He said he once refused to hug a chick and he felt bad.

They talk about a girl that showed up at Social Repose’s house after he told his fans if they show up with a glass of milk he’ll hang out with them. They say that girl killed herself and people blame him. Greg says you can’t prove his rejecting her had anything to do with her death. He says ultimately he didn’t pull the trigger. A Patreon says she might have received a lot of hate after Social Repose’s video about her. Greg agrees that could be a valid reason.

Greg says when SR came to his house, he said he would get an Uber when they were done, but he didn’t leave and spent the night. Greg says he smelled awful.

He says Youtubers don’t have careers anymore. He can’t think of a single Youtuber that was on his level- he cuts himself off and says Jaclyn Glenn and Blaire White are doing okay. Someone asked who Blaire was and he says she calls him a pedophile. Someone asks if she’s the dumb one. He says they’re all dumb. He says he’s surprised Jaclyn doesn’t make videos crossed-eyed. He says atheists are supposed to be less conspiracy theorists. 

A Patreon says in December Youtube is going to delete videos that don’t make money. Greg laughs and asks who said that. They reply Youtube. Greg doesn’t believe them. They say it’s in their new ToS. Greg still doesn’t believe them. They said they’ll read it again.

Greg says if Youtube was nuked tomorrow he wouldn’t feel anything. He clarifies he means the website, not the headquarters. He says they’ve wronged and screwed over so many Youtubers.

The Patreon reads the new ToS. Greg reads it and says they didn’t say they’d delete videos.

Greg jokingly asks his Patreons what he should do now that Youtube is going to be deleted. Someone said babysit. He says he used to be partially in charge of a daycare when he was 17. He says he worked with a woman named Libby who was cheating on her husband who was in the military. He says a guy would show up to see her at the daycare and Greg saw them kiss. He says she may have been in the process of getting a divorce. He says Libby would record hours when she wasn’t there and he’d have to work her hours because they had the same hours. She was 21 and she was his superior. She got paid more and was allowed to shit on him without him being able to do anything about it. He says she was mad because the kids liked him more. He says he set up their computer and encouraged the kids to play video games and she didn’t like video games, that’s why the kids hated her.

Someone links a video that says Youtube is going to delete videos that don’t make money. Greg laughs and jokes that the Onision channel is just going to be the Banana song. He says he would laugh. 

He asks his Patreons what they think about this crazy situation. Says you dump someone and you don’t want to be with them anymore. They’re yelling at you and you tell them you’re going to call a family member or the cops and they wrap their arms around you so you can’t use your hand to call anyone. You tell them you’re not going to be violent and they say they wish you would so you start nervously giggling. He asks what they would rate it as a healthy relationship out of 10. They agree it’s toxic.

Greg says it’s rare for someone to tell you they love you and mean it. He says love means even if you don’t like me I’ll still be good to you. He says the only person that has done that was Kai when they broke up for a few days. He says when Kai loves someone it’s real. Says when he loves someone, he’s not compared to Kai.

Greg says he was happy the other day because people have been talking smack, but nothing they say can comes as a surprise to people in his life because he tells them everything. He says it’s funny when people say something and they think it’s a surprise and it’s not. He says a vague story about someone complaining having too many orgasms? He says they were upset about how great sex was with him.

He says someone asked him to pull their hair, but later complained that he pulled too hard. A Patreon says someone said he pulled too hard. Greg says they never complained to him. They say he chocked them and Greg laughs. He says he’s a hair puller and a choker and everyone he’s been with was happy about it. Greg says he does it but gauges their reaction. He says it sounds like they’re advertising sexual awesomeness. Greg says he doesn’t have any shit to talk about Shiloh kink wise (this is the first time he used her name on this stream).

He says she’s very theatrical. He says if someone is dramatic, in his experience they are crazy and skilled in the bedroom.

Someone says it’s funny they have nothing to complain about until the relationship is over. He says when you dump someone 8 times, you have a lot to complain about, but when you are dumped you don’t.

He says someone told him she blamed shaving her head on him. Patreons tell him she said after sex he took her to shave her head then continued. He laughs and says it sound kinky, like a novel. He says she would complain she wanted to cut her hair, so during sex he told her to do it. He says so she did it. The Patreons repeat the story she told during the interview and Greg says he doesn’t remember what happened, but it would be rude if he didn’t have sex with her after. He says if someone shaved his head and didn’t want to fuck him he’d be upset.

A Patreon says she said he made her dress up as bald characters and the videos they made weren’t all released. He says he released them all. He has a thing about releasing all of them. He says he did have her dress up as bald characters, but laughs that he didn’t fuck her in the costumes. 

Someone says she said he was really mean to her and there was a video that came out of him throwing stuff at her face. Greg is confused. They say candycorn. He asks if it was a sketch. The Patreon quotes what he says in the video and he asks if that was part of the sketch. He says “what?” The patreons continue and say he was in the background saying these things and someone says he was throwing the candycorn really hard. Greg laughs at the candycorn. He asks if they’re sure it’s not part of the sketch and his Patreons say they think it was a blooper. He asks where the video is and they say in his comments on twitter. Someone says they thought it was part of the sketch. Someone else says it was probably taken out of context. Greg says he doesn’t remember, it was 8 years ago. 

A Patreon sends him the link to the video. He watches. He says she’s doing a vlog for her Draculoh channel. He says it was part of the script. He says it wasn’t out of context and it was part of the skit. He says people would say he was abusing her so he made those videos to play off of what people were saying. He says his Patreons know he always does that. He says she’s acting too. He says there are video effects on it because that’s the final video, it’s not a behind the scenes thing. He says it sucks when people had the context back then, but later on people don’t have the full story because that one clip was part of a bigger scheme where they were making fun of people. They were acting out what people were implying. He says it’s convenient to exclude real world events and just use literal sketches. He says everyone knows they would do things for dramatic effect and to trigger people. A Patreon says it’s just like when he made that To Catch a Predator video and people used that out of context. He agrees. He says he can’t say sorry for that because it’s not his fault people are stupid. He compares it to a staged reality show. He says if he actually treated her like that she would have dumped him. He says back then when they uploaded that video people got the joke back then, but now people act like that’s how he really is because of the context now. 

A Patreon says she said Greg tried to stop her from making music and made her make videos with him all the time. He asks then why did he make music videos with her. Patreons agree. He says at the end of the relationship he was trying to get her to make music. He says he went on a recording trip with her in LA, and another with his producer friend where she recorded music. He says she was often recording music. He says she couldn’t have stopped her because she was in a contract with a record label. He says they did get in trouble for making music because they weren’t supposed to because of her contract. He says if he tried to stop her for making music they would have gotten sued. He says he likes how there is real world evidence and then there’s sketches. He’s upset he didn’t have that foresight back them. (referring to the candycorn video I think) He says he trolled people all the time like when he said he had cancer or Parkinson’s. 

A Patreon says it annoyed her that she didn’t say it was someone else’s baby. Greg says she was pregnant twice. She said she was pregnant with his baby when she went to Canada. He says he had a professional look at photos of her and they said her belly wasn’t low enough, she was pushing her gut out so she’s not pregnant. He still took her back and she admitted she was not pregnant. She told him she had no money to get to him, but he says that makes no sense because she had the opportunity to make songs. He said every time he broke up with her she had the opportunity to record songs, but she didn’t.

When she came back, people online were saying she got pregnant with someone else’s baby. He says he’s not sure about that. He says she would have had to have gotten pregnant the night she got back for it to be his baby. When they went to the doula at 12 weeks they said the baby died at 6 weeks. He hugged her and she cried. He says he doesn’t know where she came up with sepsis, but she didn’t die so she didn’t have it. She said she needed to go to Canada and there she hooked up with her new boyfriend. Greg says he was trying to get her to come back. Someone says she said Greg knew she had a boyfriend. Greg is confused and the Patreon says you guys were already broken up. Greg says she’s reinventing what happened. He says she wrote up that she wasn’t in a relationship with him until after. He says you can’t erase what you said when it happened.

A patreon says she said he was still with his ex wife and got divorce papers because he met Shiloh. They say she said they were on skype when he showed her the divorce papers. Greg says that didn’t happen. A patreon says his ex wife knew and was in the background. Greg says a Canadian pop star said she wants to work with him and as a Youtuber he’s like yeah. She said she emailed him before, but he ignored all her emails until she said she was a Canadian pop star. He agrees and says it would be cool to work with a pop star. He says he started talking to her over Skype. He says 6 months prior he threatened his wife with divorce because she thought half of his stuff was hers. He told her he didn’t want to be with someone that wants his shit and she backed off. He says he started talking to Shiloh on Skye mid November 2010 and it snowballed quickly. She showed huge interest in him while his s/o was just a friend living with him. He married her to have a friend live with him in the military. She didn’t want kids, so it wasn’t an inspiring situation. He’s sitting next to his wife while skying with this person and they only talk about things that are totally appropriate. He says it becomes obvious from her implication that she’s super into him and he’s married to someone that’s not into him. He sat down with his wife and tells her he want to break up. She starts off optimistic and thinks it’ll work out, but then he brings her divorce papers. He tells her she could live in the house for 2 years or he’ll give her $1,000 or $2,000 a month for a year to live somewhere else. He says that’s when she started the waterworks and started freaking out and that’s when he told Shiloh he loved her. That’s when they started dating long distance. He says it was obvious what she wanted and he wanted it too. The patreon apologizes for asking, they say they just want to hear his side. He says the lady that said she doesn’t want to be with him for his assets sued his for a quarter of a million dollars. He says they raided his house and they put clothing over his surveillance cameras and left the house a total mess.

He says people think he’s evil because they don’t understand acting in videos so he might as well be as trollish as he wants to be.

Greg says since he’s made thousands of videos he doesn’t remember most of his videos. He says it’s exciting for him to watch his videos because it’s like watching it for the first time.

[wolfpawn]

I Hate You, I Love You, Chapter 26

Chapter Summary -  The newspapers give some of Taylor's thoughts on the matter, leading Tom to discuss things with both Luke and Benedict separately, while Danielle has to try and get back to life behind the camera, with people taking interest in her for what they've read.

Previous Chapter

Rating - Mature (some chapters contain smut)

Triggers - references to Tom Hiddleston’s work with the #MeToo Movement. That chapter will be tagged accordingly.

authors Note - I have been working on this for the last 3 years, it is currently 180+ chapters long.  This will be updated daily, so long as I can get time to do so, obviously.

So, the headlines are in Italics again, but most disturbing is the fact the four last ones are not ones I fabricated, but actually published pieces. If Taylor's PR is the ones putting these out there, then they are scum, if they are not denying it, they still are scum, and what scares me is the fact that there are some morons that will swallow this shit up. But she cannot always play the victim.

tags: @sweetkingdomstarlight-blog  @jessibelle-nerdy-mum@nonsensicalobsessions @damalseer @hiddlesbitch1 @winterisakiller

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Taylor – Tom made me break up with Calvin; the worst mistake I could ever make.

Taylor holds head high after Hiddleston’s secret lover revealed.

Taylor broke off relationship when she suspected Hiddleston’s affections lay elsewhere.

Taylor Swift – “I knew there was something going on.”

Tom Hiddleston’s secret girlfriend, the real reason Taylor left him.

Taylor Swift “I feel used.”

Tom Hiddleston, Taylor Swift 2016: Actor Lied About Calvin Harris To Solo the ‘Bad Blood’ Singer?

Taylor Swift and Calvin Harris Split after Tom Hiddleston Lied about the DJ.

Tom Hiddleston Is a First Class Home-wrecker.

Taylor Swift: Tom Hiddleston Was the Reason Why She Dumped Calvin Harris.

Tom stared at the headlines that faced him before rubbing his face with his hands, sighing, and then groaning in frustration. He knew Taylor would say something, but he had not expected this. “So I am a Home Wrecker, a user, and abusive?”

Luke bit his tongue for a moment, knowing no good could come from him saying that the moment Tom introduced himself to the star; he was on course for terrible accusations against him once it all ended. “Apparently, yes.”

“Does anyone believe this?”

“A few, mostly fools who think that the woman is incapable of wrongdoing and blindly follow everything the brat says solely based on the fact she donates money to some good causes.”

“What?”

“I have had people watching social media; apparently her generous nature regarding charity absolves her from any faults as an individual.”  Luke scoffed. “There are too many fools in the world.”

“What are the chances she never releases more songs?” Tom groaned.

“As likely as Theresa May coming out as a supporter of left-wing liberalism.”

“Seriously, political sarcasm?”

“You asked.” Luke shrugged. “Any word from Ms Hughes?” Tom winced slightly. “I shall take that as a resounding no.”

“She hasn’t deleted me from her Facebook,” Tom commented hopefully.

Luke grimaced. “Please do not tell me you are Facebook stalking her?”

“She’s back in Ireland for a week, and then she is off to a new set.”

“Tom, that is not normal, I mean seriously, you get weirded out by fans that do that to you.”

“What am I going to do Luke?”

“Nothing, I told you, you need to back off, she has a boyfriend. Can you imagine how hard it will be for her to explain all of this to him?”

“He knows she is friends with the family, he has gone to dinner with Emma and Jack and mum has had him over.”

“That’s some good news, but if she mentions the kiss?” Tom did not respond, “You see, you have caused her enough trouble Tom, just give it time, she forgave you for the shit you pulled when you were seeing “PR Barbie", so she will probably forgive this too.” Luke gave an encouraging smile.

“I just…” tom shook his head. “Why didn’t I ever notice?”

“Your infatuation?”

“It’s not an infatuation.”

Luke rose to his feet. “You never realised your feelings for her because she never allowed you to realise that you were envious by not having a partner, and upon her having one, you, my friend, left it too late.”

“What do you mean? Do you think we could have if I had…?”

“Could you have started seeing her, yes. Would it have lasted, well, the odds, however, were never in your favour.”

Tom bit the inside of his cheeks. It was against the odds to succeed in Hollywood, but he had done it, he could easily have worked on making things work with Danielle too, if only he had tried.

*

The news reached the set before Danielle did, and much to her chagrin, she noticed that it seemed to be a popular topic of conversation for some people.

“Hughes, a word.” She grimaced as she walked over to Irlam. “You never mentioned that you know Tom Hiddleston.”

“His mum is my next door neighbour.”

“But you said nothing.”

“Why would I?”

“Well, in this industry, it helps to know people.”

Danielle’s nostrils flared slightly. “It may help, but there is no merit behind it, besides, what would I say? That I know the man to see once a blue moon between movies that comes to visit his mum for a day or two, that I salute him if I see him having a jog.”

“If papers are to be believed, you know him considerably better than that.”

“You shouldn’t believe everything you read.” She smiled and winked.

“He’s a great guy, isn’t he?” Irlam chucked. “I worked with him, so willing to try and do everything right.”

Danielle smiled sadly, “Yeah, Tom is a good man, those photo’s, he brought me and his mum to a restaurant to celebrate me getting all of this.” She explained. “Nothing else, just because I get on well with his sister and mum, and because I never try and use them for anything.” Her voice cracked slightly at the end, her hurt at what she perceived to be a mistake on Tom's behalf becoming harder to disguise as she spoke of him, and some of his traits she had always adored. “Sorry.”

“Are you alright?” Irlam asked in concern.

“Yeah, just…the publicity from all of this, I mean, I am…there’s a reason I wanted to work behind cameras, you know?”

“Well for me, I go with the idea that I have a face meant for radio.” He joked, causing her to laugh slightly, “But yes, I understand, I see it sometimes with actors, they realise that the life of anonymity is destroyed once they become famous. What you are saying is you are not even in a relationship with Tom, yet you are receiving the attention of such, an even more horrible situation; especially if you never wanted such in the first place.” He added more solemnly. “No to mention, you now have the attention of one bitter brat.”

“God, what is that bitch saying now?” Danielle was half afraid to ask.

Irlam frowned, “You’ve had interactions with her before?”

“Sadly yes, she was at his mum’s with him, and well, she is as crazy as that supposed skit song implies, like literally, batshit crazy. She genuinely thought I would be envious of her.” Danielle scoffed.

“Well, she is the victim.” Irlam began.

“When is she ever not?”

“And he is abusive, a user and a home wrecker.” Danielle felt terrible for Tom. “From what I have read, prepare for a song about you.”

“That’s what she does, isn’t it?” Danielle sighed.

“Sadly yes, now, back to what we do. I need to talk to you regarding a scene where we have the dragon breathe fire.”

“It had to be a fucking dragon.” Danielle groaned, readying herself for the madness of the day ahead.

*

“Do I want to ask?” Benedict walked into Tom’s London home, looking around at what would probably be described as slight untidiness to most other people, but in Tom’s case, could only be called chaos. “The place is a wreck.”

“I kissed her.”

“Who?”

“Danielle, I kissed her Ben, and she rejected me.”

“Tom.” Benedict looked at him sympathetically.

“I just…I don’t think this actually hurt so much before.”

“I…I get it, in a way, I mean I was with Olivia for a decade, I thought that she was it, and it wasn’t to be.”

“You think Danielle isn’t…”

Benedict raised his hands. “I am not saying she is or she isn’t, I cannot answer that for you, but I can say this; if it hurts this much, there has to be more to this than simple lust.”

“I love her.”

“Fuck Tom, I’m sorry mate.” Ben gave a sympathetic look. “What exactly happened?”

Tom relayed everything, the meal, the conversation, the paparazzi, and the issue outside her door. “The way she acted, she was almost crying as she told me to leave, like I destroyed everything.”

Ben cocked his head slightly, “Wait, what do you mean crying? She was crying.”

“No, nearly crying, she just kept begging me to leave,” Tom explained.

Benedict’s eyes darted side to side for a moment as he thought about what Tom had said. “You need to just get some rest; you’re off to Oz again tomorrow, aren’t you?”

“Yeah, I need to redo a few scenes; apparently one of the minor actors has had to be swapped out.”

“The joys of the industry,” Benedict commented sarcastically. “Well, go, get some vitamin D, because fuck knows we are getting none here with this weather, and when you come back, we will have to further this conversation.” Tom scoffed a little, but said his goodbyes and made his way home to pack. Taking out his phone, Ben texted Sophie what Tom had just said, wanting her opinion on the situation. When his phone indicated a new message received a few minutes later, he chuckled to himself as he read his wife’s reply. “I thought as much.”

#tom hiddleston #tom hiddleston fic #I Hate you I Love You #chapter 26

[inversionimpulse]

Spider-Verse, Aquaman, and Shazam have really re-ignited my love of superhero movies. They’re so sincere. They’re telling superhero stories, they know it, they love it.

(warning; hot take ahead. If you like Thor Ragnarok, maybe stop reading here)

As a counter-example to illustrate what I’m talking about, take Thor Ragnarok. Thor Ragnarok is incredibly insecure. Every line, you can just feel how embarrassed the writers are about the story they’re telling. They’ve wrapped it in a protective shell of irony. They’re terrified that you might think they’re taking this seriously, so every potentially emotional moment is undercut with some kind of gag, they’re constantly nudging you and saying, “isn’t this ridiculous?” Thor has a stronger reaction to his hair being cut than learning his three best friends were killed. Asgard is destroyed and it’s almost a somber emotional moment, but then a CGI rock dude voiced by the director opens his mouth and turns it into a gag.

(Thor regaining his lightning is one of the only truly good scenes in that movie)

Thor Ragnarok doesn’t want you to suspend your disbelief. It doesn’t want you to believe in the story it’s telling. There’s very little real emotional depth and the characters are like walking SNL skits. It’s lighthearted and funny, but only ever at the expense of its story and characters.

(also before you start sending me anon hate, it’s totally valid if you like Thor Ragnarok! More power to you! Who am I to stop you? But this is what I think of the film.)

Spider-Verse, Aquaman, and Shazam do want you to believe. They know it’s ridiculous, they know you know it’s ridiculous, and they don’t care, and they say, “let’s have fun.” It’s the price of entry; if you can accept the cheese, they will give you a heartfelt ride full of amazing moments and endearing characters. 

Six people dressed as spiders fight a giant goblin, a woman with tentacles, an albino mobster, and a really, really big mafia boss. A fish boy man fights a dude in power armour who straight up calls himself “Black Manta” out loud and has laser eyes over Atlantean relics. A wizard who lives in a place called The Rock of Eternity gives a fourteen-year-old boy the ability to transform into a big red superhero and he goes and fights a mad scientist wizard who (spoilers!) later teams up with a telepathic caterpillar from the planet Venus. Who, like the rock dude, is voiced by the director - who plays his role completely seriously in a cool, dramatic moment that sets up the sequel.

A man dressed as a spider mentors a young boy dressed as a spider and in doing so they both grow into better people, better heroes, and have some of the most heartwarming moments in superhero fiction. A fish man finally finds his purpose and place in the world and reunites his shattered family who he loves, even his half-brother who’s spent the whole movie trying to kill him. A fourteen-year-old who says a magic word and turns into a big red superhero learns how to be a true hero and finds the loving family he never had.

It’s wonderful. Take the caterpillar, again - “What in god’s name are you?” “I named the gods, Doctor, not the other way around,” is a completely ridiculous exchange when you take into account that the boasting reply comes from a little green caterpillar named Mister Mind. But the writers take it seriously, the actors take it seriously, the audience takes it seriously. It’s played absolutely sincerely. Sivana doesn’t go “lol caterpillar, isn’t that sooo dumb?” Mind gives a cool line, establishes his evil plan, and the scene ends. And it’s legitimately cool.

Spider-Verse, Aquaman, and Shazam are lighthearted and funny, and sometimes it’s at the expense of its story and characters, but usually it’s because they really are having fun and loving what they’re doing. And because of that sincerity, because they take themselves just seriously enough, they’re capable of also having really touching and emotional stories.

Be sincere. Believe in your story, and let the audience believe in your story. It’s so much more rewarding.

#impulsive chatter #shazam #spider-verse #aquaman

[timeisacephalopod]

Ball and Chain

So I read a thing a couple days ago that said a lot of IronStrange stuff is Tony centric, which is true for a lot of what I write too (seeing that Tony is my fav character) but I was like rude. So here’s a Stephen centric fluff piece that is inspired by me watching Say Yes To The Dress lmao. Also as usual with my writing Stephen is Asian (Nepali specifically).  (Fun Fact: Sushruta is the first doctor to have recorded a surgery, hence Stephen naming his dog that).

Stephen is sure Tony doesn’t mean anything by it and maybe he’s just used to being single, he’s been single most of his life so it’d make sense. But it just annoys him that Tony never says anything when people make jokes about his upcoming marriage to Stephen as some kind of evil trap meant to strip him of his freedom.

“I know it’s probably selfish,” Stephen tells Christine, “but its offensive to call me a prison to my face.” Tony always looks a little confused when people say it but he never actually says anything about it.

Christine frowns over her lunch, “actually that’s probably the least selfish thing you’ve requested of him,” she says.

“Alright, I know he’s afraid of dogs but I am not giving up my corgi! We’ve bonded,” he says. Accidentally because he’s never been a pet person but Wong had some puppies and decided Stephen’s place was a good place to get rid of one. In his defense after two hours Stephen finally understood that Brooklyn Nine Nine skit where Rosa claims she’d kill everyone in the room and then herself for the dog.

“Stephen, he was terrified of the dog and I told you I’d take it so you’d still see him and you told Tony to get over himself. You’re lucky he loves you because that was just insensitive,” she says.

“Well he likes the dog now,” Stephen mumbles in his defense. And by likes that mostly means Tony doesn’t run from the dog in terror anymore. Its not like the fear had been warranted anyways, Sushruta is harmless unless you’re a shoe.

Christine sighs, “because you forced him to deal with the dog instead of compromising. That was selfish when you had a viable solution to your problem and a terrified partner, but wanting Tony to point out that marrying you isn’t going to end his life or his freedom is pretty normal. I’ve always hated that, men treating marriage like its the end of the world when usually they’re the ones to ask. Besides, Tony doesn’t do anything he doesn’t want to- he’s pretty famous for that so the jokes are extra stupid,” she points out.

Stephen prickles a little, “women make those jokes too,” he says- he’s heard them. Stupid reporters, he’s never liked them. None of them can ever relay his research in a way that’s actually accurate. Scientific journalism is an absolutely horrible field given how it botches the findings ninety nine percent of the time. He and Tony have bonded over it and the fact that neither of them are any good at explaining their research in layman's terms. Though they disagree that an expert should be able to do that- the entire point of an expert is that they know things others don’t, not that they should be able to teach all. Only some people can do what he can anyways, and the only person who’s a step above Tony is a Wakandan princess. He thinks Tony should give himself more credit.

“Really, Stephen? I’d like to point out that women are always the nags, the balls and chains, and the gatekeepers to freedom. There are cake toppers with brides dragging their husbands to the wedding- so yeah, women make the jokes too but they’re also mostly the butt of them and its usually guys urging their friends to run away. Guess you got relegated to the role of woman,” she says.

Stephen makes an offended noise, “how the hell did that happen?” he asks. First of all the entire point of his and Tony’s relationship is that none of them are women so how’d he get stuck in that role? Tony is shorter. And cuter. “This is because I’m Asian, isn’t it?” he asks, squinting.

Christine snorts, “actually I think it might have more to do with Tony being a living embodiment of every white male power fantasy ever and his fans don’t want to give up that toxic stereotype, but I guess it could be racism,” she says, trying at least to give him some credit.

“Once a fan mailed him a bag of his own hair. I think the fact that his name was ‘Gary’ says everything you need to know,” Stephen says. “And I am not a woman nor am I enacting some convoluted plot to trap Tony with marriage. Does the public know about divorce?” That and Christine made a point when she said Tony doesn’t do anything he doesn’t want to. And he proposed. Stephen had been mad about it because he’d been planning to and then Tony ruined his carefully thought out plans. He even used the dog in the proposal and it was so sweet he cried and now Wong has pictures he’ll certainly use to blackmail him later.

“Good luck to you, I don’t think I could handle dating a celebrity let alone one that nets me stupid jokes about how marrying said celebrity will ruin his life,” Christine says, shaking her head.

*

Stephen didn’t even want to do this stupid interview but Tony insisted, then brought up the dog when Stephen stuff refused. He mostly only agreed because Tony pointed out he’d been afraid of his own house for weeks before he finally got used to the dog and even then Sushruta is the only dog he doesn’t hate. Turns out he’d nearly been eaten by a dog as a child and Stephen felt a little bad about forcing him to deal with the dog so fine, he’ll do the stupid interview and deal with the stupid jokes about Tony’s freedom like he didn’t walk into this engagement himself since he asked but whatever.

When the stupid reporter makes the dreaded joke Stephen rolls his eyes on cue, letting out an annoyed noise but its Tony’s reaction that catches the reporter’s attention. “You must be straight,” Tony says, catching Stephen’s attention with it too because what’s that got to do with it? Which is what the reporter asks. Tony snorts, “only someone who’s had the benefit of knowing their right to marry is never in question would ever make such a fucking stupid joke,” he says, irritation written all over his features.

Oh, good point actually. Stephen never considered that because he’s never really considered himself the marrying type. But then neither had Tony and here they both are, quite smitten with each other.

“I... uh... that’s not what I meant,” the reporter stumbles out and Stephen rolls his eyes again. Sure it wasn’t, but he doubts there will be an answer if he asks what was meant by the comment.

Tony rolls his eyes too but its much more theatrical than Stephen’s, impressive considering how dramatic Christine likes to remind him he is. Personally he doesn’t think he’s that dramatic at all. “Sorry, but I fail to see how people consistently insulting Stephen to his face by acting like being married to him is some kind of hardship I’m going to have to face can be anything less than bullshit perpetuated by a group of people who’ve taken their rights to relationships for granted. I’m marrying Stephen because I love him, and I’m excited to spend the rest of my life with him even if I have to put up with his stupid dog. If I wasn’t happy about marrying him than I wouldn’t have proposed because unlike the general public I don’t think marriage is supposed to be a prison where couples suffer. And it helps that he’s good in bed,” he adds and Stephen lets out a sharp laugh.

“Yes, that’s right, I’m quite a catch,” he says, nose in the air. “And Tony is alright too,” he adds almost as an afterthought. He really is though, and he’s patient with Stephen in a way he rarely gets from others. Christine has told him not to take it for granted but Stephen already knows he takes full advantage of Tony’s patience. But he does appreciate Tony, really appreciates him because they have an understanding with each other that most don’t. He understands Stephen’s arrogance and his fears and he’s always so willing to help him when he needs it. And he can see when Stephen needs it. No one else can.

He looks over at Tony and smiles, knowing his love is translated in the look and Tony smiles back, emotion radiating off his features too. Stephen straightens a little and faces the reporter, “also, the only ball and chain in our relationship is stupid media personal such as yourself following us around all day snapping pictures and making stupid comments,” he says.

Tony lets out a sharp laugh, “god, I love you,” he says, weaving his fingers through Stephen’s.

“Well,” he says, “you are lucky to have me.” And he’s so, so lucky to have Tony too but he’s not going to say that to the cameras. People, contrary to what they might like to think, are not privy to their relationship.

Bonus Scene:

Tony didn’t want to get married in a church, he’s a fucking atheist and Stephen is agnostic, but his parents whined and cried until Tony finally gave up. Stephen, who’s much more used to fighting with his parents, had been prepared to drag it out longer but at the rate things were going they’d have to push back the wedding date because Stephen’s parents are more stubborn than Tony and Stephen combined. Which is frankly terrifying.

But here he is in what he has to admit is a pretty church even if he doesn’t believe in the deity its build to worship with Stephen standing in front of him and his dumb dog sitting between them, tongue lolling out of his face. That thing is plotting their deaths, Tony knows it, but when it eats them alive Tony will tell Stephen he told him so. 

The priest or whatever, the fuck if Tony knows, he just wanted to marry Stephen in peace before his parents got involved, prattles on until he gets to the part where Tony is supposed to do the vow thing. Tony repeats the words in a mostly empty way, knowing Stephen won’t care that he has no real interest in a religious ceremony that’s only taking place because his parents threw an epic fit at least until the part where he’s supposed to honor and obey Stephen?

“O-what?” he asks, giving Stephen a look as his eyebrows fly up. “Honey if I don’t obey Pepper you have no chance. I’ll honor you just fine, but I’ll obey over my dead body,” he says.

Stephen throws his head back and laughs, “I had him throw it in there to shake things up a little, make it interesting because you know, these things are boring and I figured the audience might appreciate the show,” he says.

Off to the side Stephen’s parents cluck in disapproval, “just ruined his own wedding,” his mother mumbles but Stephen hears it- Tony swears he has super hearing.

“On the contrary, mother, I made my wedding about me rather than you. And you know, Tony,” he says almost like its an afterthought but it isn’t. The entire point of this stunt was to give him a voice in the ceremony he hadn’t wanted because, despite his outward arrogance and generally harsh personality, Stephen has a deep capacity to care and he always goes out of his way to make sure Tony feels appreciated. Even if that means screwing up his wedding ceremony and risking his parents’ wrath later.

#ironstrange #tony x stephen strange #fanfiction #writing #wedding fluff #crack fic

[postpunkpontypandyphantomthief]

The Stage Manager: Chapter 1

Y/N watched the comic strip since the early days so they decided to be a stage manager being a stage manager already involved hard work like fixing cables and props but can they fix the problems of a cast member as well?

1989:

The First gig, the comic strip and the lord of misrule you met because of it

It was night time on the cold, colourful London streets

The bright buildings made the sights look like something from a 1960s painting

You had been wandering for a while and felt bored

Yes you did buy that one shirt just because it had ziggy stardust on the front

Television was dull anything that wasn’t a music-related or to do to with game shows you’d skip over

looking around the city of Soho when you came across the Raymond Revue bar

It looked dull at first when to the corner of your eye you could see people chuckling as they walked downstairs.

Overhearing the sound of an audience and strange sound effects you went upstairs and realised what the commotion was.

There were some comedians performing, Young comedians with new innovative material drawing inspiration from slapstick legends like laurel and hardy to “alternative comedy” jabs of political satire they were called The Comic Strip Presents.

You could hear two blokes who had a blues brothers type performance called the outer limits, a duo called French and Saunders and many others including Pamela Stevenson, Keith Allen and a communist satirist influenced by the Monty Python days called Alexei Sayle.

The night sounded enjoyable the last time you had ever heard good comedy was through the old porridge and Fawlty towers tapes.

Then another performer walked onstage he had pigtails, a red communist berret and a black jacket decorated with political badges.

“I don’t know if any of you are into poetry at all” he addressed the audience, scrunching up his nose smirking.

He then performed a monologue about theatre “Theatre! What are you? Theatre”

When I’m nearta the theatre “I ask myself this question I don’t know perhaps I should ask Vanessa Redgrave”

He shouted “But I don’t know Vanessa Redgrave” before he smirked again at the audience “And neither do you theatre”

When his monologue finished you were jaw dropped this bloke had so much charisma and energy in his performance his snarky attitude was funny and it looked like he was self-aware just having good fun with his audience.

Arriving home you couldn’t get his words and face out of your head even when looking at your old records of The Damned and Madness you’d just see his face in your mind.

With your knowledge of Performing Arts after a few years you decided to volunteer you asked Alexei Sayle if you could do some “behind the scenes work” he agreed.

The first day was something you rattled your teeth about on the way there but once you arrived the atmosphere was easy to adjust to, being an assistant stage manager was like being a bartender sometimes you’d just be fixing cables and preparing props other times you’d overhear the daily gossip but usually you’d only keep it to yourself or you’d joke with Keith Allen about it over a few drinks.

You once observed Pamela Stevenson being mocked about by the catty duo from before

Saying nothing because you left the drama in your secondary school years and you wanted to keep it that way.

However, when you’d see her in the staff room you’d try to chat.

She’d enjoy the conversations but you learned that she felt more left out when they did tours

She felt like the boys could impress the audience in ways she couldn’t and even on the female performer's side she felt like they were just competitive sometimes you’d also run into the duo that made fun of her but you’d just laugh along about it.

Sometimes while fixing cables or props you’d talk to a bloke called Ade he was another performer you’d talk about life with, you’d talk about punk music, your school years and he’d mention the one time there was a technical fault on a Dangerous Brothers skit where he was on fire and the producers didn’t notice.

Peter was one of those outer limits sometimes it would just be him other times Nigel would join usually you’d discuss a film with them or you’d help out with the technical side of their performances.

These were all interesting people who you would talk about many topics with….then there was him.

You’d see him on stage, you’d arrange technical effects for him and other times when everybody else was busy you’d talk to him

It was that day after a performance the others were having drinks and while he would sometimes be the person to be the social butterfly this time he was just there drinking while he frowned

You looked at him, he stared back soon a conversation was started once you agreed you’d talk with him in his dressing room.

He sat there frowning looking in the mirror and then glancing at photos he had of his heroes Little Richard, Ronnie Barker and Tommy Cooper.

“Hey!, (Y/N) as a performer you’ve  probably seen me when I played that poet character or Kevin Turvey those years ago Alexi had said you had seen us before.”

You nodded

“Well I��m happy that we were able to amaze you so much that it made you want to be a part of *The Experience* he said, excitedly making mime-like gestures with his hands”

You noticed he had that same aura about him that David Bowie had when he’d talk in interviews about Ziggy Stardust and how there was a big difference between chill laid back bowie and the loud flamboyant Ziggy you could see in his tired eyes that he was stressed

You asked “I might be happy but I’m not sure you are, is there anything going on that is stressing you? being a star carries a lot of hard to fulfil expectations if you don’t want to say that’s ok but I can see you're still trying to project your stage self instead of your real self.”

He blinked a bit surprised of how perspective you were “What nonsense, I’m happy I’m Rik Mayall I make people happy and when I perform I am happy” his smile became a frown, “Well I try to be”

You stared folding your hands as he then started to explain,

“I admit times have been crap recently, the new show I did for Ben Elton wasn’t successful enough so we’ll have to cancel it, while I love my new wife years ago I did make the mistake of being with her at the same time of being with my girlfriend Lise who co-wrote The Young Ones with me and it just feels empty on stage I have something I have my characters I have my jokes but to be honest I feel boring there are some good days and other times where I rip myself apart if I mess up my lines.”

You nodded as you processed his rant

“I feel like all the people and critics will think of me now because of that show is “oh look there’s that bloke who isn’t funny anymore” I’ll be nothing, I don’t work with Ben much anymore..I-I’ve been thinking of being a drama teacher”

You blinked you couldn’t believe that he would think of such a suggestion

putting your hand on his shoulder.

“Look you had an unsuccessful show, there are many bad shows out there but filthy,rich and catflap isn’t the worst, and that won’t be the main thing you’ll be associated with your an actor,you're a singer in that BAD NEWS band and your the most talented comedian I’ve ever seen, critics will be critics unfortunately, but your Rik Mayall you’ll find your spark again you’ll find another show or film you be in that will have the same memorable characters,settings and stories that your other successful works have”

he nodded still frowning looking away

“Yeah your right sometimes the spark goes out and other times the energy arrives back, thank you for the advice..still what show can I do that isn’t a flop I have the qualification I’d be a great drama teacher”

You smirked at him “a drama teacher who makes telling knob jokes and ranting about politics part of the lesson”

He cringed a little before he chuckled  “I wouldn’t do that in front of children (Y/N)! politics though is in everything theatre, history, television you can’t escape it, I’d let them make their own decisions knowledge and freedom is what they need but half the time it’s swayed by the opinions of their parents, the fascist pigs or of their teachers”

You were puzzled “Who are they?”

He then got up from his seat and smiled making more hand gestures before he rambled cheerfully

“Children, they are influenced by what they see and what they hear with all the political rubbish there needs to be some sunshine in the storm, children are smart but too many people including people in the television business take advantage of them, bastards! Children  have thoughts and wide imaginations, they should be respected they should be able to see the good in the world and the media should be providing that.”

You clicked your fingers as you got an idea “Hey Children's Programming you should do that! You were excellent at jackanory when you appeared on there you should do that again your great at narrating stories maybe you could create your own storytelling kids to show what stories would you read?”

He liked the idea “Fairy tales it’s the tales they are most familiar with because of Disney, funny because the original Grimm tales were very dark”

You said “Well how about you make this series about the Brothers Grimm fairy tales but it doesn’t have to be the glamorised Disney versions or the gritty originals it could be a sort of modern but original take on the stories and maybe you could add animation in there so each story would be different and it would give a chance for different animation companies to show their skills to a wider audience so not only would you be entertaining them but also teaching them about these timeless tales”

He agreed “The show will be called Grimm tales, I’m working with ITV at the moment so I could ask them about the idea thank you (Y/N) this is brilliant when I was little I loved seeing my heroes like Ronnie Barker read out stories and now I’m doing just that”

You smiled but still felt unsure about his other problem….the relationship problem

“Uh, Rik what about your relationship?”

He had a thought for a while and then said “I’ll try to repair relations between me and Lise if I want to move on from my mistakes I should take responsibility for them”

He grinned as he packed his belongings and headed home

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[rozl]

If I told you the truth about me

Would it matter?

Would you listen?

Like you judge me?

Would it free me?

I don’t know.

The first time I thought about killing myself... I was around four years old. I was sitting on the stairs of the first house my parents had ever bought.

I don’t know what caused it. I don’t know why I felt that way. I just remember thinking of the pair of scissors that were in the kitchen drawer. I thought of how my parents would be happier if I wasn’t alive. Maybe they would argue less. Maybe they wouldn’t be as mad. I thought about how big and heavy they were. For some reason, I decided not to.

My dad cheated on my mom. I have a half sister in Chicago. When we left her is when my life seemed to go dark. I wasnt allowed to talk about her. We used to draw together, play at the park together, walk the dog with my uncle together... my dad would come home from work and bring is chocolate snacks. We’d argue over the flavors. Wed argue over what power ranger to be.

I missed her. I miss the lack of yelling. I missed the peace.

I felt sad and I was too young to understand.

In preschool, I was bullied. I also struggled with language difficulties. I remember the day I realized my teacher didn’t know what I was saying. I felt dumb in math class. We had fucking Spanish class too. And violin. I went to a bougie private Christian academy. I felt stupid. Dumb. Confused. I remained silent. I liked picture books because they could understand. My bully would take my book from me. I would tell. She would bully me more. I don’t know why she hated me so much.

Throughout elementary school (a new school) I was quiet and reserved. I isolated myself. Always scared to talk to teachers and friends. I made impulsive bad decisions and got in trouble sometimes. I don’t know how I got away with my parents never finding out.

I struggled in math. Well, I was better than most. But not good enough for my dad. In the third grade, I started pinching myself to punish myself for doing poor in math class.

I never told anyone that.

This is my first time telling anyone that.

Wow.

Then I began to draw pictures in my notebooks. They were pictures of someone saying “good job” and “I’m proud of you.” Maybe that’s all I wanted to hear.

I found an escape in my pretend world. Maybe that’s why I’ve always been artistic. I made up a story of a happy asian family. They were called the Ha’s. I drew pictures of them in my sketchbooks. This lead to my comic book business. I started it in the fourth grade. It was called onionville.

I was good at playing pretend. I was known to be “funny” and “weird” during middle school. I liked to act in skits. Everyone looked forward to them.

I could be someone else.

I was still scared though. Of people. And things.

Off stage, I was quiet.

My basketball coach yelled at me for never talking. “You know you have to talk in the adult world right.”

I cried at night by myself.

It was in middle school that I began to question the meaning of life. What was the point? Why do we exist? What is God? Who is God?

My childhood best friend... she understood. We questioned together.

I changed my favorite things to match her. I didn’t know it then. But I know now.

Her favorite color was purple? Mine too.

She read American girl books? Me too.

In the 7th grade she liked a boy. All she wanted to do was talk about him. Hang out with him.

I ignored her. Pushed her out of my life.

I couldn’t explain what I felt. I didn’t care.

At 14, I fell in love. Well, I thought I did. He treated me so well. He loved me. He was kind. He was sweet. He wrote me poetry.

Our first date... we lit lanterns and flew them across the American river. He loved me. He loved me.

He was 7 years older than me.

I woke up in a hospital. January 1, 2012. I was high and having a panic attack. I was throwing up.

There were police and investigators.

He went to jail. I went to psychiatry. My doctor reported my story to cps.

My mom cried.

My dad went to court.

They sold the house.

I still loved him... I thought?

He loved me... I thought?

Or did he take advantage of me? Was I groomed? Manipulated? Was I, was I, was I... molested?

I couldn’t think that. I wiped the thought. Full disssociative mode.

I was depressed.

I didn’t eat. I didn’t move. I didn’t touch my phone. I didn’t touch the computer. I just laid. I laid in bed and I laid.

I guess my parents got over the grieving and began to resent me. My mom called me a demon. My dad yelled at me for being upset. He said he wanted to leave our family.

I was depressed.

I cried randomly at school.

I almost got kicked off the basketball team.

I had a best friend then too... she started seeing my other ex best friend. I hated her for it but I didn’t know why.

I pushed her out of my life too.

I held my breath for two years. I punched the walls in my shower. I cried tears for myself. I asked God why I couldn’t die.

At 17, I entered my first relationship that wasn’t a relationship.

He was abusive and crazy. He was in a gang. He owns guns. He tried to kill himself.

But I loved him anyways.

He sent me pictures of him sleeping with other girls.

I loved him anyways.

It was in our crazy, fucked up, and together but not together relationship that I somehow found peace.

Finally, someone more volatile than me to understand. I didn’t care much if he slept with other girls. I still loved my ex. But I wanted someone else to love me too.

Anyways, this guy, He slept with other girls but he offered to fly me places. I never asked where he got so much money. I didn’t want to know.

It was long distance because he moved. I never agreed to see him. He hated me more for it. He’d cuss me out. Say I didn’t love him. Call my cheeks chubby. He’d tell me I was ugly. I looked dumb. I was stupid.

But that I’d love him anyways.

“It’s mine” he’d say. He’d laugh.

I started seeing other guys too. He didn’t really know. Sometimes he did. I didn’t care.

This carried on into college. I’d see/talk to/date whatever around four guys at a time. We’d never fuck. I was too scared. I didn’t want anyone to touch me.

But we all had intimate relationships. Some more than the other.

They’d say “I love you”.

And I’d say “thank you”.

They’d ask, “can I trust you.”

I’d say, “you shouldn’t.”

And then it happened. After three years. I met another guy. Whom I fell deeply in love with.

I tried fucking it up.

I tried sleeping with other people.

I tried seeing other people.

I tried cussing him out.

Throwing out his things.

“Fuck you. I hate you. don’t leave me.”

And it has been such a taxing three years.

I smoked everyday to numb my pain.

I started skipping class weeks at a time.

I don’t know how i passed. I don’t know how I graduated.

I started making good money. I got a job as a saleswoman.

I acquired a drug addiction. “It’s just to help me have energy for work.” I’d say.

at some point, I was doing it in the library at school. I did it in the bathrooms at work, by myself.

More than 5 times a week, for sure. Maybe everyday. I don’t know how many lines or bumps. I didn’t count. I didn’t want to know.

My counselor told me to go to substance abuse help. I said I would. I lied. I never went.

So I stopped seeing her too. I didn’t want her to know I was lying.

My friend had a gun in his car. I thought of where he kept it. I thought of how I could sneak in and grab it.

And then what? Do I shoot myself in his car?

My parents would hate me. My boyfriend would hate me. My friend would hate me.

I hated myself more.

I bought more 8 balls. I did them alone.

I have borderline personality disorder.

This has been my life.

I don’t do drugs anymore.

But I cry a lot. I think of dying a lot. I didn’t know I had this disorder until three months ago. I don’t know what’s real and what’s not. I just know I suffer. This is my story. And that is all.