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chinomiko · 5 months
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HIIII CHINO HOW U ARE?!! 💗💗🫂💗 I also want the interesting things for Leiftan or any thing/fact about Leiftan I’m dying I need content of him 😭😭😭😭🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🫂 mabeibi ma beibi please I beg you sweetie, xoxooo love you sweetie!!
Heya ! I am fine thank you I guess the easiest for me to tell about Leiftan is his all backstory who was actually and unfortunately never correctly exploited and explained in game. Leiftan was a toddler during the time of the Blue Sacrifice. The aengels didn’t want to sacrifice as planned, and for this reason they ended up being persecuted by the other faes. Leiftan’s parents were killed, but before they died they put him in a stasis spell to hide and protect him.
An aengel survivor, Verom, ended up finding him. (Mowgli style XD ) Verom was weak after the persecution and he decided to establish himself at the Fountain of Youth in company of the Naiade nymphe who guarded the fountain. (She is linked to her fountain as hamadryades are with their tree.) She was a good soul and offered her help. They cared for Leiftan, still in stasis at this point.
After some centuries, Leiftan’s soulmate was born and Leiftan not destined to be alone anymore, the freezing spell broke. Toddler Leiftan slowly awoke and started living again.
So he grew up with his adoptive parents. As soon as he could, Verom trained Leiftan into using aengel powers, and taught him about the Blue Sacrifice etc.
When he was still very young, a group of exploring humans found the fountain’s place by pure luck. They ended up trying to steal its water but in the fight they killed the Naiade. The fountain dried immediately and she turned to stone. There was just a little bit of water left, she could rejuvenate with a lot of time and patience, and hope.
And then we arrive when Leiftan was a young teen, some humans found the fountain again, but this time they knew what they were looking for. And these humans happened to be... leaded by Erika's father. He was looking for that youth fountain discovered years ago, Erika was sick and dying from some unknown disease (certainly related to her Fae genes), and that was the only way he knew that could save her. He wanted the remaining water. They fought for it, of course. Charles kills Verom (he is an old man by now) and by taking the last drops of the fountain he also kills the Naiade.
With that bit of magical water with him, he and the soldiers left as he came. Thinking everyone dead.
But Leiftan was not, and he is left as a young daemon, partially trained and able to hide his nature. Full of anger and hate. Hate for both faeries and humans and this is his villain origin story.
(And so, Charles is the person who killed his parents, but also the one who saved his soulmate in doing so. How so tragic hehe.) ———————
Another thing is the potion they make Erika drink later in the story so they would forget about her on Earth.
It was Leiftan’s idea all along, he suggested it to Miiko. With this solution, he was sure Erika would have to stay by their side and he would do anything to keep her close to him. He then acted innocent around her.
And for those who might be mad at this revelation, sorry but don’t forget Leiftan has always been a villain and a good two faced one at this. (Especially in the earlier story)
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swollenbabyfat · 9 months
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arrthurpendragon · 6 months
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ssseriema · 2 years
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TO THE LOVELY PEOPLE WHO CALLED ME A FURRY POSER. I DID A FURSONA FINALLY. I HOPE YOU LIKE HIM CAUSE I DO
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thatomewirednugget · 1 year
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This is what the inside of my brain looks like right now :>
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nuumenor · 1 year
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Meet Persephone "Percy" Stern, the enticing lead singer of rising indie rock band The Bleeding Stars and my OC for @infamous-if.
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This is the worst thing I’ve ever made
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Inktober 13, 14 and 15!
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itsjesscapade · 4 months
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hey all! havent posted in a while; look at my new sillay dnd girl!
also heres her character theme
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necr0marker · 6 months
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fake cutscene thing cuz i thought it would be funny
referencing this one clip i found of some people playing phasmophobia teehee
ALSO YEAHHHHH MORE LEMONADA CONTENT WE ARE FUCKEN BALLING
here are some little bits about their friendship
MINOR CHAPTER 2 SPOILERS AHEAD !!!
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im rotating them in my head soooooo much
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Downfall (pt 2/2)
See? I didn’t lie, part 2 is here and it’s only...11:00PM Sunday night lol. Wow guys, this part got long (like 3.5k words long. Oops.) and *sappy*. But, you know what I love about snz fic? We always give the people what they want. You see a smoking gun in act 1 you best believe it’s going off in act 3. Lmao. Also, I’m sorry if there’s continuity/grammar/spelling errors, I’ll read it through again in the morning and fix them I just can’t do it tonight haha.
Anyway! Hope you guys like the second part.
cw: Male, colds, contagion, mess, there is a passing-out moment in here as well. Shit gets wild lol. This part is heavily inspired by 3 prompts in my inbox, so if you sent a prompt it’s probably featured here!
Downfall - Pt 2
When Elijah opened his eyes Friday morning, he nearly cried in relief; after three full days of feeling like death, he finally, finally felt like he was on the other side of this shit.
The past two days had been a nightmare. After Greyson had called him Tuesday night and told him that not one but two other managers had gone down, Elijah had to mentally prepare himself for a full week of work with one of the worst colds he’d ever endured. He’d walked into the kitchen Wednesday morning stuffed to the gills with dayquil, cough syrup, and ibuprofen; a combination he was sure was actively taking years off of his life. Greyson was already hard at work, despite the fact that Elijah knew he’d been at the restaurant until well after midnight the night before.
“He lives!” Greyson said, throwing his arms up as though Elijah had just scored the winning goal for their nonexistent soccer team. “You look god-awful, and I’m so glad you’re here!”
Elijah coughed out a laugh, and Greyson lead them both into the office. “So, here’s the deal,” Greyson said as they both sat. “I told both Matt and Mark to stay home til Saturday – just to make sure they don’t infect anyone else. I closed the books at 50 covers tonight and tomorrow – and I know, it’s barely enough to cover labor, but we’re in survival mode here, so don’t give me that look. I got in at six, most of my prep for the evening is done, so I figured when we open I can throw on a button down and help on the floor while you expo back here during the rush. Does that all work for you?”
The GM blinked, blindsided. He knew Greyson was good in a shit situation, but damn; the kid should’ve been a fighter pilot or an ER doctor. “Yeah,” Elijah said, “sounds great, Grey.”
So that’s what they’d done. Both Wednesday and Thursday. Elijah had holed up in the office until the servers needed him for preshift, and Greyson had prepared his cooks for two weird nights of Elijah expoing. Service had been moderately slow both evenings, which would’ve been great, if it hadn’t allowed Elijah to hyper-focus on his lingering symptoms and Greyson to flit and fret over him every time he stepped into the kitchen.
“Do you need anything, Lij? Water? Tea? Meds?” The constant stream of mother-henning had eventually worn on everyone, and even Greyson’s cooks had finally said, “Chef, he’s fine.”
But they had gotten through it. Elijah had sneezed and coughed and cursed his way through garnishing dishes, and Greyson had awkwardly talked to tables until finally the week was nearly over. And now it was Friday, one day til the big wedding, and Elijah was finally, finally feeling better.
Elijah walked in at 9AM to a thankfully-empty kitchen; he’d told Greyson the night before to sleep in, prepare himself for the weekend, take some Emergen-C and be absolutely sure he wasn’t going to succumb to the rot Elijah had brought in, but he was surprised that the chef had actually listened to him. The GM placed his things down in their empty office and took a breath; it was going to be okay. Mark and Matt would be back for the wedding, they would be relatively slow tonight, and Saturday would be perfect. Manifest it, Lij, he said to himself, sitting at the desk and turning the computer on. Manifest it.
After an hour or so of paperwork, Elijah heard the back doors open as Greyson let himself in. The GM pushed away from the computer and cracked his neck, anticipating the usual barrage of word vomit Greyson was wont to spew out the moment he walked into the restaurant. “Morning, Chef,” he called out before even seeing Greyson, marveling at how much clearer his voice was today. Fuck that fucking cold.
Greyson stepped into the office and silently saluted his boss, a Starbucks cup adorning each of his hands. “Hey, boss,” he said, placing one in front of Elijah and one next to his own computer. The chef didn’t sit down; instead, he took off his hoodie, grabbed a clean coat from the back of his chair, and buttoned it up before snagging his drink and heading into the kitchen. Elijah swung himself around in his chair, dumbstruck.
“That’s it?” he asked, watching Greyson unpack his knives a few feet away. “‘Hey, boss’? No big gameplan? No huddle to discuss the week’s insanity? No bombardment of questions regarding my health?” Greyson huffed out a laugh, but Elijah wasn’t having it. “You didn’t even tell me what you got me to drink,” he said, holding up the mystery cup.
Greyson raised an eyebrow at his boss and bit back a smile. “It’s a chai,” he said, bemused. Elijah threw his hands up, flustered.
“The amount that that doesn’t address 90% of my questions is truly amazing,” he said, taking a long sip of his drink, which – certainly wasn’t a chai. The hell was that?
“I don’t know what second-rate Starbucks you stopped at, Chef, but this is definitely not a chai,” Elijah said, pushing the cup towards the door. “What is that? It’s like...something lemon.”
Greyson colored a bit and picked up his own cup to look at the sticker. “Ah, fuck,” he mumbled, striding back into the office and switching their cups. “Sorry ’bout that. I switched the cups.”
“What is it?” Elijah asked, his face seemingly stuck in a mask of disgust. “So that I can remember to never order it.”
Greyson rolled his eyes. “Have you ever ordered something from Starbucks that wasn’t a chai?” he asked, sipping his drink. Elijah shrugged and turned towards that computer again.
“Fair enough,” he said, waking the screen by shaking the mouse. He turned to Greyson again when the floorplan popped up on his screen. “Can we take a quick look at tonight together? Since Matt and Mark are still out? Do you think we should cut the covers off now, or go to 75?” Elijah squinted, his face nearly touching the screen in concentration. After a few moments of silence, he peeled himself away from the monitor to glance at the chef, who was – the fuck was he doing?
“The fuck are you doing?” Elijah asked, snapping Greyson out of his trance. The chef had been turned almost all the way around, facing the kitchen. Clearly he hadn’t heard a word Elijah said.
“Huh? Shit, sorry boss. Lost in thought,” Greyson said, turning back toward the GM. “Uhh… 75. Yeah, that looks good,” he finished, lamely. Elijah raised his eyebrows.
“What’s your problem today?” he asked, though not with malice. Greyson chuckled.
“Just got a lot on my mind, boss,” he said. “Big weekend. Week’s been long. I need to get back to prep, if that’s okay.” Elijah gave Greyson another look, but nodded after a moment and shooed him out. Greyson smiled at his boss, held his cup out in a false ‘cheers’. “I’ll be prepping in the back kitchen if you need me,” he said, and disappeared past the line into the back.
It wasn’t Elijah’s fault, he reasoned with himself later, that he hadn’t seen through the ruse. He’d just barely gotten over a monster of a cold; he was himself busy and stressed; it was early and he hadn’t had enough caffeine. He couldn’t be expected to decode what was wrong with Greyson every time the kid acted weird. However, he couldn’t help but kick himself when he finally realized – thirty minutes before service – what the weird-tasting drink the chef had gotten himself was. Aptly named, of course, and something Elijah himself had only had once before, courtesy of Greyson himself.
A medicine ball. Greyson had gotten himself a medicine ball.
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He wasn’t sure how long he’d be able to keep this up, but it certainly wasn’t going to be through tomorrow’s wedding.
Greyson sat down, fully clothed, on the toilet and put his head in his hands for the third time that day. The fact that Elijah hadn’t noticed at this point was a mix of pure dumb luck and more sudafed than a human person should ever in their life consume. He assumed the former would begin to run out soon, as the latter had hours ago.
“Huhh...HNGSTH! NTSH! ITZSH! Fuck – HNGTSZHUE! Goddamn it.”
Greyson pulled a length of toilet paper from the roll and blew his nose until it made him cough. He checked his watch as he threw the toilet paper into the trashcan next to him – 9:15PM. When he’d stepped into this bathroom, dodging Elijah as he locked the door, all but one of the tables had left. He’d go back to the line, he’d tell Leo, his grill cook who’d been there nearly as long as he had, to check that everyone had cleaned thoroughly, and he’d sneak out the back before Elijah could question him.
And then what? Greyson asked himself as he stood and washed his hands. You somehow make a miraculous recovery between now and tomorrow morning? Have you seen how this shit took down Elijah, Mark, and Matt?
Greyson ignored the voice in his head and dried his hands. He assumed Elijah hadn’t noticed because they were both wildly busy before service, and once service had started, they were both worn thin being the only managers in their departments for the third day in a row. Greyson had managed to keep the congestion out of his voice with the aforementioned sudafed, and he had taken his happy ass to the bathroom or out back to ‘smoke’ when he really needed to sneeze or cough all night. Elijah had definitely given him some looks through the evening, but nothing Greyson couldn’t brush off by pulling a ticket distractedly and not making eye contact.
Tomorrow, though? When Matt and Mark were both going to be back, and they were all going to be prepping their asses off for the wedding? He genuinely had no idea what he was going to do to keep them from noticing.
Greyson exited the bathroom, stealthily managing to avoid his boss as he slipped into the kitchen. He gathered his things, put Leo in charge, and was nearly out the door, nearly safe, when -
“Chef!” Elijah called behind him, making him freeze in his tracks just outside the back door. Fuck.
“Yeah, boss?” Greyson asked, turning to face Elijah and hoping he didn’t look like the garbage fire he felt. Elijah crossed his arms over his chest in the cold of the alleyway and motioned to Greyson’s entire being.
“You leaving?” he asked tapping his foot. Greyson managed a smile and lifted his backpack and knife bag a little for inspection.
“Is it obvious?” he asked, quietly clearing his throat to mask the gravel of his voice. Elijah didn’t say anything for a few moments.
“Leo shutting down the line?” he asked. Greyson nodded, swallowing around a throat on fire.
“Yeah,” he said. “Did you uh…ndeed something from mbe?” Fuck.
Elijah gave Greyson a pointed look. “Grey,” he said, voice low. “If you’re sick, you need to tell me. Now.”
Greyson felt his cheeks redden, but he immediately shook his head. “I’mb good,” he said, cursing once again the congestion that had sneaked into his voice. “Promise. I gotta go, I’mb gonna mbiss mby train.” Without missing a beat, the chef turned around and headed towards the street, hoping his boss couldn’t see him stifle nearly ten sneezes into his fist as he walked.
This was not going to end well.
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It was worse than Elijah could have even imagined.
When Elijah walked into the restaurant that morning, the first thing he did was text Greyson.
9:01AM
Hey. I’m here, is there anything you want me to pull out/start on before you get in?
9:01AM
Also, how are you feeling?
Normally, he’d get a response in moments; when Greyson wasn’t at work, the man was glued to his phone, playing some stupid game or messaging one of his fifty Bumble suitors he kept on the line at all times. I get bored, he often said to Elijah. One starts annoying me, BOOM! Onto the next.
Today, though, nearly twenty minutes passed before Elijah’s phone buzzed in his pocket. He pulled it out immediately and couldn’t help but wince at the text the chef sent.
9:18AM
great. no. ill be there in 20.
Anyone who texted with Greyson more than once in their life knew that if he wasn’t being his multi-exclamation-point, constant-joke-and-lol self over text, he was probably close to death. Elijah typed out an ‘ok’ to the chef, before making a thread with Matt and Mark.
9:31AM
Elijah
Hey, guys. Just making sure you’re both on your way in. Greyson’s gonna be down bad. Need all hands on deck asap.
9:32AM
Mark
???? is he ok??? down bad in what way?
9:33AM
Matt
ya, coming now. figured chef would’ve gone down by now. should I bring anything?
9:34AM
Elijah
Just your stamina. Gonna be a long day. Thx.
9:34AM
Mark
no one answered my ?
im so confused
oh
OH
shit, I knew I got greyson sick. fuuuuuuuuck. sorry, boss :(
9:35AM
Elijah
All good. Inevitable. Let’s just get this day done.
Elijah clicked his phone off and sighed. He could go for a whiskey, or even just a long, drawn out scream about now, but a cigarette and a prayer would have to do him. Twelve hours until the wedding was over.
***
How Greyson managed to make it to work was anyone’s guess, him included.
The chef pushed through the back doors and before he could even get past the prep kitchen he was doubled over, sneezing into the sleeve of his hoodie.
“HhhIGSTZH-ue! HuhESHHH-ue! HRRTSCHZUE! NGTSHZUE! Christ, fuck,” Greyson muttered, wiping his nose on his sleeve for what he could only wish he could say was the first time that morning. He cleared his throat, which was for naught since he could barely speak, and continued his trudge into the main kitchen.
When Greyson had made it home last night, he told himself he’d be able to continue to hide his burgeoning illness. He thought maybe more medicine, some Vick’s, and a good night’s sleep would give him the upper hand against it. He’d told himself he was stronger than his coworkers, that his immune system wouldn’t fail him on one of the most important days of his career.
Oh, how the mighty will fall.
“HhNGTSHHZUE! ITSZH-uhh! Fuuuuck,” Greyson moaned, stumbling into the thankfully-empty office and yanking a handful of tissues from the box on the desk. He wiped his nose, unwilling to unleash the volley of sneezes he knew would be behind a nose blow, and pressed his palms into his eyes to try and relieve some of the pressure. Who the fuck gets a cold this fucking bad, Elijah, he wondered silently.
As if conjured, Greyson felt his phone buzz with a text from his boss.
10:07AM
Bless. That sounds fucking awful.
Could a guy not get a moment’s peace in this fucking place?
10:08AM
i should call the cdc’s biohazard unit on u for unleashing this shit onto us.
An admission, but what else was he supposed to do? Elijah could hear him in the dining room. The game was over. Greyson put his head back into his hands until he heard his boss’s footsteps click into the kitchen.
“...chef?” Elijah asked, and Greyson wearily lifted his head.
“Mornding,” Greyson croaked, before turning to the side to cough, crackly and painful-sounding, into his sleeve. He felt something get placed on the desk next to him, and when he finally was able to compose himself he saw it was a Starbucks cup. Greyson smiled, weary.
“Chai?” he asked, picking up the cup. Elijah huffed out a laugh.
“Something like that,” he said, moving to sit next to Greyson. “Now, hear me out. I think I have a gameplan.”
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At five o’clock, Elijah finally went to rouse the man of the hour with a knock on the office door.
“Chef,” he said, trying to wake Greyson as gently as possible. “Grey. We need you for plate-up.” Greyson nodded blearily and, with the help of both Matt and Elijah, managed to get to his feet.
It had been an interesting day for sure. Elijah’s plan had been for Greyson to try and help with some of the more intricate parts of prep in the morning, and then lay down from noon until it was go time, but that had proved nearly impossible.
Greyson had managed to prep for about three minutes at a time before dissolving into nasty coughing fits that lasted minutes at a time, or absolutely relentless bouts of -
“HTSHH-ue! HRSHH-ue! Hhuhh…NGTSHZUE! ITSZHUE! Huhh-ETSHZCH-oo!”
“Christ, boss,” Matt said, attempting a laugh after a particularly intense fit of sneezes, “When you go down you really go – oh, fuck.” In teasing his boss, Matt nearly missed Greyson’s eyes rolling back into his head and his knees buckling as he lost consciousness for a moment. “ELIJAH!” Matt called, catching his boss and lowering him to the ground as gracefully as possible.
Once they’d managed to get Greyson back to a standing position, Elijah had decided it was too risky to let him continue to be...vertical. Greyson had laid out for Matt exactly what he needed him to do to finish preparing the food, and retreated to the blanket fort they had all heavily utilized this week for a sleep that more closely resembled a coma than anything restorative.
Matt, Elijah, and even Mark had managed to finish the prep Greyson had worked so hard on that week by four PM. Once they felt ready, the three of them gathered in front of the office to stare at the racked-out chef.
“Should we… ask him if everything looks okay?” Mark had asked, ringing his hands. Matt and Elijah exchanged a look before Elijah shook his head.
“I think… I think he’ll be okay with just about anything at this point,” Elijah said. The other two nodded, unwilling to take this precious moment of sleep away from the chef.
When the guests were all seated and ready for first courses, it was, of course, Elijah’s job to wake the sleeping bear. Greyson, ever the trooper, took his place at the pass and regarded the three of them with all the pride he could muster.
“Thangk you guys. Really,” he said, his voice barely a whisper. “Ndow. Let’s get this shit over w – HGSTHH-ue! Snrf. Guhh,” Greyson held tight to the granite counter top and pulled himself back to his full height.
“Let’s get this done,” he said, pulling out his tweezers. “And whend it’s over, I’mb ndot answering mby phone for a fuckigg week.”
They all managed a laugh. They all assumed their positions for plating and running food. This certainly wasn’t the glamorous job it was portrayed in the movies, but they did have something all that media never seemed to truly capture; they had each other, and this place that all of them thought of as not a second, but a true home.
Greyson cleared his throat as the first of the servers came through the doors, bearing labeled sheets with seat numbers. “Order in!” he called, and they all put their heads down and began their work.
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chinomiko · 5 months
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Hello Chino, how are you? I wanted to ask you: Do you like Harry Potter? I'm a big fan! I wanted to know which Hogwarts house Crush from MCL is. Since you are the creator, you are the best person to respond. Please don't leave me empty! I'll be waiting for your response, a big hug from your fan!
Hello
I am sorry to disappoint I’m really not much interested in HP 😅 (please don’t hate me, I know lots of you are huge fans 🥹)
But I still know the basics and confirmed with a HP fan, so for the crushed I would say :
Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, and Slytherin.
Castiel - Gryffindor
Lysandre - Ravenclaw
Nathaniel - Ravenclaw
Armin - Hufflepuff
Kentin - Gryffindor
Rayan - Ravenclaw
Priya - Slytherin
Hyun - Hufflepuff
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My OCs
Yvone and Garrett
Say it!! (5/5)
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lunaartgallery · 2 years
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Drunk on touch
Romeo going through a tough time with relationships. Poor one out for the homie.
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syfqdrawer · 2 months
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A lil somethin silly I made for a friend's bday
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not---meat · 8 days
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Paradise: Chapter 8: There's No End
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Pairing: Javier Peña x McKenzie Martel
Rating: A - Adult
Warnings: Angst
Summary: McKenzie reflects.
Note: This is an AU set in between season 2 and season 3 of Narcos sometime in the 90's. I apologize in advance for any historical inaccuracies! -- Woof! Sorry for the delay in getting this out. More chapters are on the way and should be semi-regular. No promises. We are moving on to season 3 of Narcos so be prepared!
MASTERLIST --- PARADISE MASTERLIST
The house was quiet just the way she liked it. McKenzie had no clue where her roommate was and honestly she didn’t much care. It was normal for him to go off and do his own thing, normal for her to spend the vast majority of her day alone painting or doodling. Quiet days, warm ones where she seemed to seek out the cool air of her apartment, were her favorite. Days where she could sit inside and focus on her work, the windows slightly ajar to exude the fumes from whatever she was working on. It was pleasant, peaceful. McKenzie could almost forget the anguish that she had gone through in the past few days. The hurt.
She didn’t want to think about him. She didn’t want to think about her regrets from the night before… or was that two nights now? Kenzie didn’t know. The days seemed to blur together now. Nights seemed lonelier as the words spoken between the two of them swirled around her mind. Torturing her before her eyes shut.
His words specifically. The ones she had always wanted to hear come from his lips but had casted out of her dreams long ago.
I’m in love with you. I have always loved you
Words that she had imagined him saying, dreamed of him saying, before flesh hit flesh and souls entwined. McKenzie hated how she responded to him. She hated the words she said, the actions she made. Never in a million years did she think she would do such a thing to anyone much less Javier. Yet she did.
You don't have to love me back you just… please don't leave me like this.
Pain laced into his words and yet she still did the one thing he asked her not to do. She left. She turned around and walked away, leaving him alone. There was no rhyme or reason. McKenzie loved him still.
The past few days had been proof enough of it. They blended together without him, seconds seemed like hours, minutes seemed like days, and yet she wasn't entirely sure when it was that she saw him last. Two days? Three? She didn't know. She wished that she did, she wished she had kept track. There was no reasoning behind any of it. McKenzie felt lost.
How was it that he managed to turn her world upside down by doing so little, all he had to do was smile. How was that fair? She would fall apart while he moved on. That seemed to be the trend between them now.
McKenzie hadn't really left her room. She had so much to do, so many orders to pack and quite a few to complete and yet she had somehow managed to set all of those tasks aside just to wallow in her pain. Pain that she could only blame herself for. Pain that she knew she could rectify is she just grew up and pushed aside her own ego. If she could just forgive and forget. She had told herself that she had forgiven him. She had told herself that they could go back to being themselves again but when it came down to it, McKenzie had proven herself wrong.
Now she was crushed by the aftermath. It was completely fair despite her own feelings about it.
She wished she knew how well he was faring from it.
Before McKenzie had even known it, a week had gone by. Another warm day where Rob had left, leaving her alone. This time instead of wallowing she got out of bed and worked. She packed those orders, completed those commissions, and forced herself go go back to a somewhat normal. The after Javier.
Yet still at the end of the day she would stare at her ceiling and wonder. She would allow her mind to drift and she would think back to the before. Before he had spoken those words to her.
You don't have to love me back…
Please don't leave me like this.
I love you
I'm in love with you
Swirling around and around in her mind until she drifted off, her dreams no longer safe from the memories of the rain. The sensation of his warmth around her. In the aftermath she remembered the feeling. The scent of his skin in the rain, the way his arms wrapped around her and held her. The pleading in his voice.
Why didn't she just stay? Why didn't she just allow him to love her?
Those thoughts that spiraled and swirled until eventually she would get out of bed. Most nights she would make it halfway down the hall before she stopped herself. Never reaching the phone.
So why, on this specific warm night, did she decide to finish the journey? Why did her fingers dial the number to the ranch? Why did she tangle the cord of the phone around her fingers like an expectant highschool girl calling her crush.
It was Chucho who answered the phone. His voice deep and crackly, filled with sleep as if she had woken him up from his slumber. What time was it? 2am? It was late… or early… either way not the right time to be calling and she knew that.
Yet the moment Chucho heard her voice he seemed to perk up. His voice smoother while still sleep ridden. For a moment she heard a hint of sorrow as he spoke her name.
Then she asked for Javier. She asked to speak to him, she didn't care about the hour. The silence on Chuchos end was deafening and she hoped that was just him going to grab Javier to let him know who was on the phone.
Instead it was words that she didn't want to hear. Words she hadn't heard in years. Words that shot her back into the past. Suddenly she was sitting in his room again, a long black dress flowing at her feet, red coiled hair pulled away from her face, secured with a clip that she would have never picked for herself.
Tears stained her cheeks, her heart ripped out all over again. Chucho didn't have to say much more. McKenzie knew from his tone because it was the same one he used before. No context needed, McKenzie knew.
Javier was gone.
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