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inkskinned · 9 months

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you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.''#bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less.#and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help.#we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

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ice-devourer · 9 months

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i had to climb inside a river dike and pick up a book about an apathetic conceited obsessed off-putting murderer and vivid descriptions of scent to forget and ignore the atrocities gibberish tomfoolery fuckshitery agsagiri just said.

(it didn't work i wanted to plunge my head in the water and scream).

at least i took a nice pic (it fixed nothing uwu) tho look:

#if bsd was a 90s shonen i wouldnt be too shocked but ITS NOT #it's so disheartening seeing what he said about akutagawa and IMMEDIATELY recalling aya’s scene w her dad #WDYM ‘DAZAIS TRAINING PLAN HAS NEVER BEEN WRONG’#WHAT DO YOU FUCKING MEAAAAN THAT DAZAI IS THE PRESENCE THAT CONTINUES TO GIVE MEANING TO LIFE WHAT #im so apalled rn i will edit this OUT of my brain tge soonest i find the strength to do so #i have negative infinity trust n faith in asagiri rn i will just accept headcanons and analysis from mutuals and other ppl i respect here #it was ATSUSHI YOU DOOFUS A.T.S.U.S.H.I. WHO SHOWER AKUTAGAWA THAT THERE IS MORE THAN KILLING THAN THE LIFE HES LEADING RN #im so mad rn im gonna spend the entire night storyboarding an sskk comic abt #aku (while dying) realizing he has some grief to feel for his life now after meeting atsushi #i need to fix this in my head or i will be a hazard to everyone #HOW DAREEE *THIS* BE ONE OF THE KEY MESSAGES IN BSD I JUSTEGSUWGSHW THE WHOLE INHERITANCE AND CYCLE OF ABUSE IS WHAT NOW HUH #STRENGTHENING??? BETTERING??? USEFUL??? SHUT THE FUCK UUUPPPPPPP AAAAAAAARAGAGAGSGWGSGWGWGESG #i am so normal about this haha #hahahahahaahhaha

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sandraharissa · 3 months

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Ok, bcos I'm still thinking about it. I was complaining about the idea that Silco got everything he wanted cos he wanted to die a martyr and he got Jinx to become the perfect weapon against Piltover or whatever. Like completely delulu stuff. It’s like ppl correctly notice themes and parallels but then fail to understand that it’s storytelling and not part of the in-universe facts.

Like Jinx is definitely framed as the ultimate weapon against Piltover by the narrative and that’s how the audience perceives her but if that was Silco’s explicit goal, and it’s not like it’s ever stated to be, then he did a terrible job at it. To me the point of the shimmer shipment fiasco was to essentially just show the favorism/nepotism, like no matter how much Jinx messes up her dad won’t fire her, even if it makes him an inept boss. Which is smth they highlight more and more later on as we meet the chembarons and Marcus dies etc. He can’t get rid of her and he can’t get her to be useful but he’s powerful enough where he can take chembarons being unhappy with him or losing some money (until he can’t anymore).

Similarly, Silco’s death is definitely purposefully written poetically like that, where he dies this martyr-esque and self-sacrificial death, but just cos that’s the story the writers gave this character and it’s a completely satisfying ending to the character doesn’t mean that Silco the fictional character thinks this was everything he could have ever wanted. It’s such a stretch to say he wanted to be a martyr, he’s never portrayed as suicidal or narcissistic, he’s very goal oriented, how does the circumstance and manner in which he died even make him into a martyr to anyone who isn’t the audience? This stuff is poetic to us cos multiple storylines and themes converge but the idea that Silco (or other characters) would be self-aware of this or of Jinx on a meta level being the perfect weapon when she can’t even be a regular weapon to him in a practical sense is ridiculous. And it conflates info the audience has with info the characters have.

At the core to me the problem with both of these takes is that they ignore the arc Silco was given. Where he goes from cartoon villain to character with depth but that depth (the monster ideology/the betrayal etc.) makes us suspicious of his relationship with Jinx to a character with depth who over the course of especially act III proves that his relationship with Jinx is genuine. With it paralleling Vander’s arc of choosing his kids over pursuing independence. Smth that for Vander happened pre-act I that Silco can only understand once he’s at the end of his own arc.

And we as the audience can anticipate that picking Jinx will eventually also lead to an independent Zaun but it’s crucial that the two options are mutually exclusive in Silco’s mind and Silco clearly thinks of it as such even as he’s dying. His personal arc was about fully committing to Jinx/parenthood and it ends with his death. The arc that’s larger than him that goes beyond his death (Jinx’s arc/the narrative of S1) absolutely involves elevating Silco into a saint and martyr posthumously however only in Jinx’s (and therefore also the audience's) view specifically cos the last thing he did was pick Jinx over everything else and then he died for it. That however is all about Jinx, how she views and mourns Silco and how Silco's dying decision would hold this great of a value only to her (and the audience by extention). That's why Silco is kinda glorified by the ending, not cos it's the facts or that's what he'd like if he was still alive but cos that's how Jinx views him now more than ever, cos he expressed unconditional love for his daughter and kinda died for her, and she's the daughter.

#silco #jinx #silco and jinx #arcane #my:arcane

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lucyghoul · 11 months

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It’s so weird seeing ppl immediately give Jeff the likeable himbo label despite knowing he blackmailed and manipulated his wife + adult yjs but continue to demonize a teenage boy that while YES made some misogynistic comments it’s made quite clear he gets punished for it later on and it’s the least important thing about his character + he’s very much not anymore also by weird I mean it’s very much racist

yep. yep!! i mean did we all forget that travis’s asshole behavior that every loves to cite did result in him being sa’ed and nearly ritualistically sacrificed and he uses that lesson to become more cultpilled?? like travis’s behavior in s1 is understandable considering his DAD died he’s in this life or death situation because of a trip he wasn’t even supposed to BE on and he’s surrounded by girls who he is sure thinks they’re better than he is. he’s flex he’s a walking joke and now suddenly he has to be responsible for his little brother and think about dying and how he might never see his mom again. and even then he apologizes to natalie every time he fucks up and he tries. HES TRYING!!! jeff is like. had some funny lines. im not a jeff hater generally but where is his narrative heft and punishment? nowhere because he has none. the girls and the wilderness both punish travis for his behavior and he changes as he becomes more accepted by the group. jeff doesn’t see shauna or care about her privacy or autonomy (or that of the other yj. literally why does he think natalie has $50k) and picks and chooses when shauna is allowed to be traumatized and when she should be normal in his personal opinion. travis is a teenager. jeff you are a GROWN MAN. a FATHER

#also travis is INTERESTING skdjsjdishdshdj #jeffs layers vanished pretty quickly this season #yellowjackets #ask

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victimsofyaoipoll · 2 months

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Round 2

Propaganda under the cut

Erina Pendleton

Erina is SO MUCH MORE than just a "Generic Love Interest" that was brought in the story to continue the bloodline after everything that happens (and it's made abundantly clear time and time and TIME AGAIN that she means everything to Jonathan, to a point that she was his exact reason to standing up against Dio for the first time) but without fail she's only ever allowed to be the supportive best friend. Or a wingman for Jonathan and whoever he's being shipped with. Or simply supposed to sit there and allow her husband to have a male lover (the amount of posts I've seen of ppl using the excuse that 'it was very common back in the Victorian Era for men to keep male lovers that their wives were aware of and quietly accepted so it isn't a stretch to say that Erina and Jonathan wouldn't be the same--especially given how progressive she's written". Or of course my favorite when they completely erase her from the narrative and pretends she doesn't exist Jonathan's got their son for some reason, but nope she ain't there!

a lot of times ppl who ship her CANON HUSBAND jonathan joestar with speedwagon will put her on the back burner of HER OWN CANON RELATIONSHIP in favor of propping up jonawagon, to the point where 90% of the archive for jonawagon/jonawagon(eri) is either erina giving jonathan and speedwagon consent to be happy together while she acts like a #LoveIsLove wingman OR they'll have the audacity to write fics where erina comforts speedwagon at HER HUSBAND'S FUNERAL

Our hero’s hot wife who was the first (and arguably) only person to give him the emotional support he needed. She’s the only person who never expects him to fulfill some mythical role, she just loves him for who he is. She’s been his best friend and the love of his life since he was 12 years old. When it comes to hero/sidekick ship, she’s forced to be a wing woman for her own husband, either nobly letting him go or peacefully agreeing to an open relationship but only for him!!! She gets nothing out of it, she’s just a good Victorian wife who is “ahead of her time”. Usually, just so she can provide a womb so that the hero/sidekick can be dads and she can conveniently be offscreen. OR she’s written as a lesbian in order to completely and “justifiably” take her out of the equation but there’s a.) no other woman in her vicinity to even ship her with b.) there’s vaguely some faceless, nameless woman we’re meant to assume she’s pursuing, not even a real OC for her.

Alana Bloom

she kissed will graham in s1 and dated hannibal in s2 so you can imagine how bad the fandom is to her. fun fact she's in a canon lesbian relationship now tho <3

The show literally does the yaoi treatment of victimisation for the benefit of the male leads to her. And then the fandom mistreats her

I'm not sure if this even counts but...Literally a victim of Yaoi along with several other characters in-series, but she got it almost the worst. The entire show is just people dying because the two male leads are OBSESSED with each other and can't be normal about anything. Alana Bloom, actual PhD of psychology and consultant to the FBI, got kissed by one guy, fucked and fed people-meant by the other, and pushed out a window by the murder husbands' forced-surrogate daughter. Like. Actual victim of several crimes caused by yaoi. She's probably one of the few examples of a Yaoi Victim overcoming and evolving past her yaoi-related trauma into a stronger person/character, though: She gets an entire character overhaul and a hot, millionairess for a wife. She kills a man with an eel. She becomes head of the BSHCI, effectively putting her in complete power over her jackass cannibal ex-bf. She does quite well. Unfortunately, the rest of her screen time is spent trying not to get killed in the ongoing fallout of Hannibal and Will's fucked up courtship, but hey. Can't have everything. I don't even know if I'm saying anything valid here: the fandom loves her, but I supposed her position outside of the Hannigram relationship relegates her to a non-subject in a lot of Hannigram-focused fanwork. She's an 'obstacle' to their relationship only in the sense that Will had a crush on her once that went nowhere and Hannibal started an actual relationship with her SPECIFICALLY to piss off Will. I guess she's also a more literal obstacle as Hannibal's jailer and Will's friend who's constantly pointing out to him that Morals exist and he should try having some of those, maybe.

#round 2 #poll #erina pendleton #jjba #jjba part 1 #jojo's bizarre adventure #alana bloom #hannibal #nbc hannibal

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still-a-morosexual-help · 1 year

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i’ve been down the mammon rabbit hole for so long i’ve forgotten how ppl write him in non-mammon fics. i’ve recently had some lucifer brain rot and i absolutely hate the way some of the fics write mammon. i think everybody who wants to a fic w any kind of mammon appearance should take a sam-approved course so they don’t absolutely murder his character.

Plsssss😭 I had to go to a government office recently and now all I can think about is me sitting in a little cubicle stamping approval on any fics with Mammon, using a shitty little stamp with barely any ink

Okay but Mammon would actually be so supportive of MC x Lucifer when it comes down to it? The same way Lucifer's supportive of Mammon x MC when it comes down to it

Like he would be very upset and he'd initially do that whole possessive thing he does but if Lucifer is what MC actually chooses he'd back off - like he does in canon! Like he did when he saw Lucifer & MC kissing in S2, like when he fought to get back Lucifer's pendant in Lucifer's b'day event, like when he acted as MC's wingman in Lucifer's Devilcoast Devilgram.

Plus Mammon's objectively the brother who puts the most importance/emphasis on MC's consent.

PLUS PLUS Mammon genuinely loves Lucifer so much? In canon he's all the way up there with Beel as the brother who speaks the most about how great Lucifer is

AND now you've got me thinking about the premium angst potential of Lucifer x MC from Mammon's perspective because those are his two favourite people from all the worlds and they're in love with each other and he's stupidly in love with one of them but he can't do anything other than sit back and be their (overprotective) best friend

AND now you've got me thinking about how fucking hilarious this would be because MC's also Mammon's best friend and Lucifer's also Mammon's dad. MC's also really blunt and kind of a dick at times and would absolutely call Mammon Son to piss him off

This is very slightly off topic but;

I've also got a couple ships from other fandoms where characters A & B are (though not romantically involved) canonically very close - in a "you can't really write fics about one, for a long time, in their present canon timeline without bringing the other up" which I think is what happened with MC & Mammon? It's technically happened to a lesser extent with MC & the rest of the brothers as well but Mammon & MC canonically share a room more nights than not & have been doing so for years by the time we reach S4 and they started a business together in one of the devilgrams that fall under the canon main story timeline. What I'm saying is that even if their relationship isn't romantic they're definitely at a point where their lives are so entwined that it'd be hard to write about a long portion of one of their lives without including the other

If I sound less coherent than usual it's because i took two different antihistamines together and i think im dying

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epic-dragon-hell-99 · 8 days

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going to start posting again maybe i just feel like ass. like why tf am i alive that shits not fair to other people bro. i heard mom complain abt gas prices spiking and if the us still gets most of its petroleum from where i think it does i have some ideas why and i kind of hope it gets worse. cant say that irl though cause it would suck for us but i think things should suck a bit more for us really. my dad makes good money but hes resigned to never retiring so im going to need to get a job after i finish college and that shit probably wont even be relevant to fuck all if i can get one to begin with and im probably not even gonna get beyond a bachelors degree ever and thats more than most people but it mightve been the worlds most expensive waste. i wish i didnt choose a college that sucks ass cause i was ill-informed and classist abt it at like 19. convenience is nice but im not sure it was worth it. although i think why i have fuckall irls is i just have a problem trusting people in general maybe. and idfk how to make the first move or have regular small talk or benefit people other than shoving money at em cause i never know what to say and i don't wanna make ppl drive me places. i can't drive fuuuuuuck. back to gas prices! none of that shit is important to anyone but my dumb ass but i hope the usa explodes forever or something goddamn I hate this shitass country in this hellhole society for real every day people are dying and for what. fuck. if they ever reinstate the draft you guys are welcome to come to my house so we can all break each others legs n shit. also i wish we didn't have to use gas in general but electric vehicles are like what. a tesla??? ew. and there's still a bunch of shitass minerals that kill people to get and that goes for like everything i wish we knew how to at least recycle this stuff. better. also me personally my parents live ~30min out from the major cities in either direction idfk why they did this gotta deal with a hoa and shit despite being damn near in the middle of fuckall. the Scary Woods is fun to dick around in i guess but i think if i described the size of my house + yard it would be obvious why i could probably use having a shittier life like goddamn i feel like it cause i get so scared of everything and hate myself abt it. cant even attempt to be a better person right cause everything feels like a chore and i already do bare minimum or less of those. so basically things could theoretically get a little better for me but i would really prioritize people who are getting killed and dying and shit. what if someone got the president and all members of congress in a hammer car explosion would that be scary or what [lying]

#personal #this post sucks dont..read it

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lavender-at-heart · 2 years

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Hey! So i saw your "Dating Legolas would include" with a human. Do you think you could do it but with an elf? Sorry if your requests are closed.

Thanks, bye bye!😊

Legolas dating a elf hc's:

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Pairing: Legolas x fem!reader

Warnings: mentions of death, heartbreak, having children lol

words: 1.5k

Notes: tysm for the request! i didnt know if you wanted fem or gn reader so i went with fem but i can make a gn!reader one too. also im so sorry i didnt get the notification for the ask so i didnt see it until very recently<3 my requests are open and id love to recieve more! also theres a part that mention kids and if your someone that doesnt want kids or doesnt like them then you can go right ahead and pretend it doesnt exist. And remember to eat , drink water and get some good rest today, you deserve it(and shannah tovah to any jewish ppl out there:])<3

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being a elf and dating Leggo boy definitely has its perks

for one : his dad might approve of you

and secondly you never have to have the mortal and immortal talk, so yay!

growing up as the daughter of lord elrond meant you knew who Legolas was since you were born(if you dont look like Elrond's family just pretend ur adopted woop :] ).

you and every eleth in middle earth fawned over him

when you were younger you day dreamed of being a princess locked in a tower, one day he'll come and rescue you and take you away from the seemingly measly life you lived

he paid visits to Rivendell quite often , enjoying the company of you and your siblings

you had grown up with him around, always willing to teach you the art of archery or how to fend off any scary looking spiders.

but after the battle of the five armies he stopped fisiting Rivendell, something about finding the Dunedain rangers.

you grew up, and you missed him yes- but you convinced yourself that he was just a family friend- no one special.

boy you were wrong because then you meet him again when the council of Elrond happens and its like a freight train of emotions hit you in the heart

elves only fall in love once- its a very serious and dramatic ordeal, and you knew this was it.

you also knew that you could possibly die of heartbreak if he didnt return your feelings.

you assumed he saw you as a little sister, or had completely forgotten about you.

but then both of you had a talk in Rivendell, the night before you planed to head off.

he explained that he had fallen in love with you, he had always loved you but when he saw you again he knew it was romantic.

but he knew that the chances of either of you dying on this journey were very real and very possible

and although it would be very hard for the both of you, you decided to stay friends until the fight was over. it would save you a lot of pain and suffer if one of you did die though

but even just being really really friendly was not helping either, you still had a very strong connection.

he'll always make sure you keep up your health when on the road

"the key to staying healthy is to drink lots of water dear one"

"surely thats not enough food for you mellon"

always covering for you when its your turn to keep watch so you can get better sleep

and that all seems like very normal friend stuff but then...

the hair braiding

he will insist to braid your hair so you dont have to waist time doing it

he'll learn how you do your style and might even try some new designs he think would look pretty on you

you dont even know what to say, because elvish hair braiding is a sacred thing, usually you only braid the hair of your significant other or family members.

but legolas can be a bit dense at times, maybe he doesnt realize hes making this harder than it needs to be

you two always end up together , walking, rowing, wherever you are you two usually stray from the fellowship to have some alone time

you often find it hard to relate to the rest of the fellowship, being so diferent from them

but Legolas was the same as you, sometimes you feel like your the same person. so connected to eachother , finding such a peacful familiarity when your with him

gandalf thinks your friendship is absolute bs and he sees right through the both of you, hes practically your matchmaker always trying to get you together.

when you reach Lothlorian your grandmother, Galadriel knocks some sense into you

she tells you that your future will be bright and full of happiness if you can just get over your stupid friend-zone rule, but she does agree that the futre is uncertain and that you would probably die if he gets killed and vice versa.

the battles are rough but you never falter, you and leggy enjoy showing off your elven strength and beauty to the humans

you get hit on about a million times in Rohan and you can see its driving the elven prince bonkers.

if Legolas is ever injured which rarely ever happens, you are there to tend to the wounds

if he is restless you'll read or sing some elvish hymns for him to fall asleep to.

there's is nothing that can dampen your spirits when the two of you are together, even without the romantic side your happy just to be near him as often as you are.

you spend you wandering days discussing elven philosophers, teaching gimli elvish or connecting to the forests together.

when the final battle comes, you are plauged with fear

you pray and pray and pray that both of you stay safe.

legolas is the best warrior in middle earth , but you were not.

not to say you werent a skilled warrior, you were better than any man, hobbit or dwarf- but you were not Legolas.

what if something were to happen and he was left alone?

well you didnt have much time to dwell on that fact because you had won the battle and both of you must imidiatley return home to your fathers.

it wasnt fair, you were finally able to be together but noooooooooooo you just had to be separated until Aragorns corination

when you got home your father knew about you and Legolas, he said he had already had a vision of of your future together and he gave you his blessing

Arwen and your brothers were very very happy for you. arwen told you about her own romantic struggles and you bonded over the fact that you had been separated by your loves.

arwen said that the four of you should get married together, while unorthodox it sounds very exiting

you spend the few months at home planing to see Legolas again, weaving a new dress to impress him, finding a new hair braiding technique, picking apart yourself and making sure your perfect for your reunion.

you and Arwen are so nervous at Aragorns corination you can barley stand.

seeing Aragorn and your sister ruinite made you almost as happy as reuniting with Legolas

you cried, you hugged, you kissed

you met his dad and that was a traumatic experience in itself

but he seemed to like you, he respected your father and therefore he must respect you. Even though he thinks Elrond is senile.

getting married in Lothlorien, surrounded by the beautiful lights and trees, married by your grandmother and officially named the princess of Eryn Lasgalen.

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you leave your family with sadness but your beyond exited to see the greenwood

Legolas' kingdom welcomes you as one of their own and they are thrilled about having a princess

you spend a lot of time with Legolas but you also make sure to get to know your new home and its peoples

Legolas took you on a grand tour of the palace and the woods

you were amazed by the grand architecture, thinking you could spend eternity in Eryn Lasgalen, and you would.

you read up on the history of the Greenwood, learning about their customs and traditions.

you also make sure to visit the smaller less grand part of the kingdoms, visiting schools and hospitals.

to say Legolas is proud of you is an understatement

Legolas has to go to a lot of meetings and is busy a lot of the time, he feels so bad and the apologies never stop

but no matter how long he is gone he always makes it up to you

hell take you horseback riding and pack a picnic lunch to make it up to you

his father is honestly surprised at how in love the two of you are, you have been married for decades and still act as though you are in your honeymoon phase

when the two of you have your first child, a boy named Oropher[named after legolas' grandfather], Thranduil cant help but get reminded of him and his wife[and baby leggo too ofc]

Thanduil enjoys your conversations, thinking of you as a daughter he never had, and a good friend

he also lets you in on all the embarrassing baby Legolas stories he never got to tell anyone.

you end up having 5 children in all your years, three girls and two boys

some take after you more, others Legolas

you make excellent parents, teaching them the arts, sciences and ways of battle.

Legolas spends time with his children as often as he possibly can and is an amazing father

you love your life in the greenwood, its your home

but eventually the time of the elves is over and you and your family sail for Valinor, to be together forever<3

#legolas headcannons #legolas x you #legolas x reader #legolas one shot #lotr #lord of the rings #legolas #thranduil #arwen

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hazelpuff · 3 months

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I just wanted to say that I'm in love (and a bit jealous haha) with your style. It's so pretty and unique! Your hoods are gorgeous and your sims even more! (may i ask you what technique do you use to make them? Pooklet's? Face templates? A lot of sliders?)

I jumped around a lot between maxis-match, semi realistic, etc. trying to find something i liked (and i still feel i didn't quite found something i like 100%) and I'm in awe of how you made something that doesn't look like ts4 nor ts2 but a so cool and pretty in between!!!

(also a disclaimer because I'm a tiny ball of anxiety: this is no shade to anyone who likes other styles, i find them pretty awesome in other people's games, they just look a bit boring on mine. The sims is about having fun and everyone deserves to play it as they like!)

Hi! Thank you for your sweet message!

(disclaimer at the beginning of the post, my keyboard is dying since half a year and i'm putting aside the moment to replace it, but after this post, I think I'm gonna make my mind soon lol. So sorry for any misspeling - you can get double nn, no n, no m, no c, double cc, no c and many other surprises - i tried to fix everything but I could miss something xd).

I've restarted my hood 5 times I think before I got it to my recent version. I'm terrified every time through most of the process, it doesn't come easily to me xD.

Also ofc, everyone can have whatever aesthetics they like - the sims is the perfect series to express that.

With my sims it really depends. I mostly make a sim that I really like and then use it as a base for other sims, but not always. Sometimes I make a sim that I think looks quite unique but it's still missing somethig when it comes to features and makeup face details. During those moments I just open up my body shop sometime later or the next day and try to tweak this sim, sometimes it's more than once. And other times I end up liking the idk 3rd attempt but i still keep going since i want to make more similair sims, and also it's tiring to start the process from the beginning every time xD.

(pics under cut)

sry for the baldness xD - i deleted the wip hair conversion files they had and now i can't never change their hairstyles lol, idk how i did it for those two last sims seriously.

As you can see, all those sims have this maxis chain necklace, which means that I started the process using the same base sim and it just evolved into many differet results lol.

Other times I'm editing some maxis face templates to make them more my style (it's really fun!)

I also made one of my sims face into face template to make the rest of the family. I didn't want their faces to be - mouth: mom; eyes: dad; nose: mom - just a mix of both and adding something extra to make them a little more unique. Kinda pookleted their faces with two face templates.

I just really like this face. It can look either goofy or good xD.

I sometimes get inspired by images of some real life ppl (models, actors). When I'm really out of ideas I'm also dowloading sims made by others and use them as a base - just tweaking their features to be my style, mostly it's about face proportions and replacing the cc they used to the one I have. There is muuuch more examples that I could give but a lot of times it's just a result of tweaking some sims a couple of times xD.

Also due to the fact that i make my sims in body shop, idk how their faces will look whit face expressions. I was always using my sims to create previews for my cc conversions so I'm also testing them that way and if something looks too off - I'm just going back to body shop to fix that.

I think I've developed my style around the clay hair conversions that I've made - I wanted the sims in my previews to go well together with clay hair. I remember that I've picked the hair first, THEN sculpted my sims faces. There just werent that many to choose from at 1st.

I don't really use face templates - I have some, but I don't use them much - i think the proportions on faces of my sims are the closest to the maxis sims 🤔. I like their sharp features so when I'm stuck with making a sim, I'm using the pooklet method with those maxis templates but only a tiiiny bit - like 10-20% and only on those parts of the faces that I want to tweak a little more. After that I'm going back to editing the face myself.

(also a lil bonus of my sim from 2017, the only older picture that i have, i found it recently by accident and i think this is the only time when it's kinda in-context to post it 🤣).

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eastgaysian · 1 year

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Hey, I wasn't sure if I should say so or not in case it would be upsetting to you, but since you brought up the idea of a survey I thought I'd say that I have lost a parent & like you the current season of Succession has had a cathartic effect on me. I've also seen one person on twt say that's the case for them too, so I'm willing to bet a lot of ppl who've lost a parent feels similarly and like... Regardless of if it's a "good" season or not, I think media that helps me process my grief is a positive thing, it has value, or what have you. Obv it's fine for ppl to dislike the season, & ofc I don't wish others could exp that kind of loss, but like 🤷🏻‍♀️ sometimes things don't resonate with you until you've experienced smth, & sometimes that happens when you're 0-10, sometimes when you're 50-60

yeah, i started noticing a gap in reactions after connor's wedding between people saying 'that felt far too much like my own experience with a parent/family member dying' and people who acknowledged the skillful execution of the episode but didn't seem to personally connect to it (which generated a couple takes on logan's death and the perceived indignity of it that rubbed me the wrong way, lol). on the one hand my continued posting about the Discourse is because it's aggravating to me, like why is the hot topic of fan discussion 'is the show we're all watching even good?' ??? but on the other, it's genuinely just confusing to me and i'm trying to understand what i'm missing. the minor criticisms that people have cited as the root cause of their dissatisfaction don't add up to me. they feel much more like things that are only noticeable/irritating if you already have some fundamental issue or disconnect with the season.

and i think it really is that this is a season about grief and only about grief, there's no space for anything else. the emotional arcs in other seasons were usually related but distinct - you could focus in on what you liked in particular, whether that was kendall's mental breakdown, roman's freudian mess, shiv's struggle to be taken seriously as a woman, shiv and tom's failmarriage, tom and greg's weirdness, and there'd be enough material for you to chew on and have a good time without worrying all that much about everything else (although i do think being able to understand how all of these connect improves your experience of the show immensely, but i digress).

s4 is about grief. everyone is reacting to logan's death in different ways, but it all comes back to grief. if you're interested in talking about grief, there's so much to explore. if you don't find that engaging, then you're out of luck. it's fine to not find that engaging because you wanted something else out of the season/show, but that doesn't make the season objectively bad or subject to flaws that weren't already present throughout the rest of the show. and yeah, based on my reaction and the reactions of other people i've seen who have that personal experience with death, i think it's a really spectacular depiction of loss and grief that handles all the complex emotions involved with more thought and care than i've seen in other media. it would not be as accurate or impactful a depiction of grief if time and space was spent on something completely unrelated.

i don't think you need to have lost a close family member to connect to the storyline, but i also don't think you can understand what it's like until it happens in your own life. it fucked me up badly when my aunt died in middle school because she had been a major part of my childhood, but the degree to which my dad dying fundamentally altered my life is just incomparable to anything else. you really cannot experience grief as a concept or thought experiment, a person's death is real and permanent in a way nothing else really is. which sounds obvious but it's just true

#mingbox #probably won't be talking much more about this/responding to more asks on the topic bc i feel like i've gotten my thoughts out #some things i could elaborate on but i kind of don't care enough to LOL. i just don't see how the show/season could have gone another way #if i was still a person invested in tg i'd be really disappointed. but i'm not. they were a definite part of the show but not the #center of it. they were cut off. and i am fine with that because i really do not think there was another way. you can't have another season #where logan doesn't die and you can't have logan die and then tom and greg suck and fuck. and jesse armstrong voice tv is just really hard #alsoooo while i do still think greg had the potential to be a significantly more interesting character. i understand why he isn't #and i'm fine with that lol. die white boy

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sunandsstars · 1 year

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i’m sorry but spider saving quaritch is enough🤷‍♀️ it doesn’t matter if it’s his dad and he saw some other side of him. he also saw the side everyone told him about, a side he’s seen himself more than once. saving someone just because they treated YOU right, because you have daddy issues, despite the type of person they will always be and what they want to do to innocent ppl is thoughtless and selfish. you can understand and sympathize with his character and still hate him for a decision that put many lives in more danger. spider having trauma or being 16 doesn’t excuse him making that decision or means ppl can’t dislike/hate him for that. same with neytiri.

using the excuse that he saved quaritch is extremely old. people that say that only say it because they think quaritch killed neteyam, they’re salty about how their underaged fictional boyfriend is now dead 🤷🏻‍♀️

Spider is a child, who has parental issues, and shunned out from the only people he ever wanted acceptance from. It can excuse the fact he did what he did, i know he’s 16 and has a brain, but if i were him i’d save my dad too no matter what he did. And also he saw Quaritch was still alive under the wreckage, he had to think quick whether to save him or not otherwise the man would have drowned, he could have also done it on a whim.

also Quaritch is/was a human, Earth is dying, he’s working for a company that wants to rehabilitate the human population into Pandora so they can live. Hence why they’re building Bridgehead, it’s the size of California and is made to house thousands of humans. The humans see Na’vi as bad, the Na’vi see humans as bad. There’s both sides to the story here. He’s killing Jake Sully because he’s a man who abandoned his species and continues to kill what was once his own kind.

Im not excusing Quaritch’s behaviour. But he’s just a man fulfilling his mission. Spider is just a boy wanting a family.

#this person bruh #avatar the way of water #atwow #jake sully #spider socorro #miles quaritch

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🔴🔵🔮 for baxter and avalon my beloveds <3

omg yayaya my best friends <3

🔴 Red- What is a trait your OC has that those around them don’t see very often? Is it seen by a rare few or completely overlooked?

Baxter is afraid of the ocean and doesn't like to/doesn't know how to swim. the ocean is because they like knowing about things, and the ocean by its nature is very largely unknown. fucking anything could be down there, we really know very little and it scares them. (they dislike space to some extent for similar reasons, although they're more okay with it bc they can't accidentally step into a dangerous part of space like you can w an undercurrent in the ocean) the swimming is because growing up in a hospital basically means not learning certain "common knowledge" abilities like swimming or bike riding, although swimming kinda goes hand in hand w the ocean to some extent. neither of these really come up ever bc they're almost never in a context where its relevant (they were lowkey SO stressed during Inez's wedding though)

i think for Avalon, it would probably be that he's a catty bitch. he's usually pretty outgoing and friendly (HWU) or quiet and polite (RCD) and all around a bit of a people pleaser that when he says something that's more God's Favorite Hater than World's Nicest Family Man Dad Friend people can be pretty surprised when he decides to let his Opinions be known. most of the time ppl think it's Thomas rubbing off on him, but no actually that's just who he is. he just prefers to take the high road most of the time, and/or look on the bright side of things, or do what he can to make sure the people around him are comfortable (sometimes to his detriment, but that really depends on what's going on in his life)

🔵 Blue- How would your OC spend a single day of interrupted peace? Where would they go or who would they be with?

Baxter would go to a zoo and beeline (lol) straight for the bug exhibits. most of their time there would be spent in the butterfly garden bc its like the stingray bay of the zoo insect exhibits, and they really like bugs :3 they'd take Reigan, Rafael, or Gwyn with them or they'd go by themself. just chill w the butterflies all day <3

Avalon doesn't really care where he goes or what he does, so long as he's with the people he loves <3 so most of the time, that means chilling at home watching movies with Thomas or, in the case of HWU!Ava, spending some good ol family quality time w Janey and Dawn & Lily (Thomas is also there lol lmao)

🔮 Crystal Ball- What kind of future does your OC want to have? What would they do to make it real?

Baxter doesn't know how to answer this question. for the longest time they thought that they'd die somewhat young due to their poor immune system & various other medical issues they experience and had come to terms with that, but sometime after the maitoxin attack (or maybe because of?) they realized that actually No, they're going to live. there's people they love who they depend on and who depend on them and there's still so much good in the world they can do so No They Are Not Dying Anytime Soon Thankyouverymuch. but despite that realization, they're not entirely sure what's in store for them in the future. they're in a good place right now and they have their ups and downs but for the most part they're just going with the flow of things (at least as much as they can while being very autistic & liking to have a rigid day to day routine)

since there's two different versions of Avalon, this question kinda has two different answers for him

HWU!Avalon wants to make sure his daughters have a good life as unencumbered by the typical entrappings of a capitalistic society as they can be and also he wants to Create Art, and what better way to do that than entering the film industry? i mean theres probably better ways to do it, but this is the way he thought was best for him and his family

RCD!Avalon wants a future away from all this. something small and quiet and maybe full of love.

he's not sure how to achieve this.

#as a side note- Dawn & Lily do exist in RCD world (i cant make them not exist i love my daughters too much)#but Ava's involvement in their life is that of being a cool gay uncle they dont see too often #he was the donor for when Janey & her wife decided to have kids #i cant remember if ive said this before or not

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loving-n0t-heyting · 1 year

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homosexual regret:

Thinking back on why I stayed in the closet/denial for so long even when I was in an extremely liberal social environment in an extremely liberal city/state living with my extremely liberal parents; I can remember one moment in particular I was chatting with someone on a dating site when they mentioned they were interested in actually dating rather than discreet hookups and freaking out about it. This is the behaviour of a good Evangelical father of three living in Waco, TX with his trophy wife making sure they don’t learn what he gets up to in the woods with his hunting buddies, not a weird single nerd with a civil rights lawyer dad attending a school where about half the student body in 2011 seemed to get arrested at occupy protests

Part of the explanation is the obvious. Homophobia in its overt forms, heteronormativity in its ambient forms, lots of other repressed identity issues, my political discomfort and confusion with a lot of the gay rights movement at the time, etc. Plus I was bi, so I could just do straight dating yea?*

But another part is that everybody would have made such a huge fucking deal if I “came out.” Plenty of ppl back before obergefell were capable of being nice if you started dating yr own sex but nobody was capable of being fucking normal about it. The soft bigotry of obsessive fascination. I think in some ways this was worse if you were bi bc “mono gay but I’m just yr ordinary girl/dude” was a Type of Guy ppl had worked on but if you are actively choosing same-sex relationships when you have the option of straight dating instead* you can’t just like, pass it off as a weird little constraint you have to live with

This is why when I came out to parents I did it right after an even bigger personal revelation and just dropped the fact I was looking for a samesex relationship in conversation without giving them the chance to press for details. I fucked up so many decisions during that time but aggressively casual decloseting was one I look back on with pride

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*ofc in actuality I did not have the option of straight dating, as don’t large swaths of actual straight ppl. The standard costs of doing business in het dating/hookup culture are so obscene (on both sides) that a reasonable person would instantly regard them as dealbreakers, the way most normies immediately discount a potential relationship where you have to move halfway across the globe, throw out yr entire wardrobe, grow yr hair out in one of those padawan rat tails dyed vomit green, and fuck exclusively while wearing a fullbody gorilla suit—all for the sake of like, Some Guy with minimal redeeming qualities beyond compatible bits. But this collective insanity requires a heavy dose of the red pill to perceive

#comphet is everywhere it is all around us

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muirmarie · 2 months

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hi I love every thought you add to that literal magical healing cock au. That last one about the dad w a terminal illness made me think of whether he'd want to research an actual cure and maybe grapple (perhaps at/with Spock) about how both his instincts feel selfish - to be able to potentially find a cure for others vs to be able to end any harm now. Like the latter seems obvious but considering what happened with his own dad y'know? Also like what level of suffering is ok to let resolve through traditional means and who gets to decide that. It's just such a delish thought experiment of an au

(re: this)

okay but YES, absolutely, I really haven't decided on a what sort of tone I want for the story because on one hand, there IS an inherent comedy to the situation, but on the other hand, I'm sitting here like. If Starfleet finds out, I don't care HOW chill they are, there is ABSOLUTLEY going to be some ambassador on some planet they're trying to get a treaty with with some sick relative that Starfleet would just, like, mention. Like no no no we're not trying to pimp you out, we promise, but also. Here's an interesting fact, huh?

It's one of the main reasons why it HAS to have an end date tbh.

And re: the dad stuff, I don't know if I'll include it because it really is a long diversion, but part of it also is, like. The crewmember (we'll call him Dan, I need a name), he can't just go and ask McCoy, but also? It's his DAD, so he also can't not ask McCoy? And Dan is having like an entire nervous breakdown about it until McCoy finds out through other means and then has to, basically, volunteer? And afterwards he just. Asks the dept heads to just tell him if anyone else is in that same position of just. Torn between two evils? Can't ask him to do that/can't not try to save someone important to them?

But YES re: is he just??? going to go around and sleep with everyone who's got this terminal illness???? is he just letting ppl die every second he's not sleeping with someone???? (also the benefits of being on a five year mission, he can't exactly just quit and become a full time sex healer) (jim reminds him of this very aggressively one night when mccoy is Deep In It)

And YES, like with the main crew he's friends with them, so it's easier! If it's his friend suffering, then offering isn't - they're friends! He's. He's helping out a friend in a specific situation with a time crunch factor! the scenarios i picked are all specifically time crunch or in uhura's case just: prolonged pain. But where exactly is that line?

I also - which I probably won't include because it's a lot heavier than I was thinking I was gonna make this - was thinking of a security officer actually dying, and his bf just. Having a breakdown and basically demanding that McCoy save him? And McCoy has to be like. He's dead. And then he has to grapple with like. What if he wasn't dead. What if he was in a coma. What if -

And then he drinks himself into passing out, tbh.

Also somewhat off-topic, but putting aside the magical healing cock, I do love the idea of crewmembers just coming to McCoy for a second opinion on treatment for their family & friends half a galaxy away? They're like "hey my sister's sick and her doctor said it's ___ but you're you, so can you take a look at her medical records? She already gave permission." Like he's just everyone's on call second opinion whether he likes it or not lmao?

anywho i am indeed extremely torn between having this be mostly silly shenanigans with a layer of angst and some grappling with the inherent coercion, or just like. a LOT of angst and some grappling with the human condition with a layer of silly shenanigans wrapped around it, lmao.

do they keep it from starfleet command? do they not keep it from starfleet command, but kirk and uhura work together to make sure mccoy doesn't get even one (1) msg from them about his condition? does spock sit in mccoy's office while mccoy talks himself into circles, because kirk always interrupts and gets angry, but spock will let mccoy talk himself out, even as he gets into, like, the really fucked up aspects of what he's trying to deal with/what some part of him really does think he should be doing?

like there's two different stories here haha, and i don't know that they fit together, but they're both interesting!

but also dan's parents ask after that "handsome young doctor fella" the entire rest of that 5 year mission lmao, and while dan is UNSPEAKABLY grateful that mccoy saved his dad's life, and mccoy & dan absolutely cannot look each other in the eyes 🙃

i want it to be the lighter story, but BUT there's just a lot to unpack around the edges of it that's hard to ignore!!

#asks #youandthemountains #long post

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