#p: back to field

[happyzyx]

230728 yixing studio weibo update 🌟 back to field

#zhang yixing #yixing #lay #exo #p: studio #p: back to field #230728

[skimblyspones]

Sometimes I forget how much shit McCoy canonically knows, at least to a degree of competence. Like ok sure he's not an Engineer or a bricklayer but he's damn well more than "a simple, country doctor"; he's got the sciences badge instead of the medical one for a reason

#like 23rd century be damned #mccoy wears so many medical hats #as well as a decent amount of understanding of biology/microbiology #and i mean. the guy whipped up a whoke cure in Miri with a team of 3 agitated ppl #himself #an old microscope #only spock to immediately bounce ideas off of #and very limited access to ship computers #he formulated a non-lethal fainting formula from ancient materials by hand #so thats chemistry #and back to the (micro)biology—he *was* a genuine option to end out in the immunity syndrome #and swinging back to miri—both pharmacology and virology with a hint of epidemiology #Oh! and he's delivered babies on multiple occasions. no word on if he's particularly trained in gynecology or obstetrics but. #frankly i wouldnt put it past him to be trained in obstetrics and midwifery #like yes a lot of his fields of knowledge are medical #but even in a far future it seems p wild that hes *this* widely competent aross fields like. #physicians are who ppl think of when they hear 'doctor' #and he is a physician #he's just. also. a surgeon. allegedly he is a space psychologist as well #and then see above for grounds to argue he knows pharmacology virology epidemiology and obstetrics/midwifery too #and knows biology and chemistry #no wonder he wanta tk study everything

[thekidsarentalright]

okay i want to analyze this because i feel like this is Incredibly important for whatever fob8 is gonna be and should be like. Talked About.

so we all have been very intensely focusing on the "give up what you love before it does you in", and how devastating that is, how it feels like it could be pete/fobs way of saying They're giving up something they love, that they're going back on saying "you are what you love not who loves you", or similar thoughts along those lines, and that was my instinct at first too. but in thinking about it more, in conjunction with what is said immediately before it, i don't think this is at all as depressing or soul shattering as we think. the important part here is the word Faded. That phrase in quotes, which is so depressing and heart-aching, is inscribed so firmly, like it were inscribed in stone, and yet is Faded by the rain. Faded, forgotten, not kept up with, not cared about. That phrase might be there, but it isn't honored. Connections have already been made between that phrase and the lyric from srar, as if they're opposing statements. But with the context added of the words before the phrase, it seems those two are saying more of the same thing that opposing things. Pete/fob Might be told to put down what they love, but they Are what they love. they Are their music, they Are fall out boy, they can't put down what they love because it's who they are. they refuse to listen to the inscription, and would rather it be washed away by rain.

to analyze the rest of it with that most important piece out of the way, i have less concrete thoughts on the rest but still some thoughts: "the kind of pain you feel to get good in the end" reminds me of "the only way out is through" and "in the end i'd do it all again". it's pain you feel that is worth it, that you push through to see the other side and thrive on the other side.

"i saw you in a bright clear field" and "Hurricane heat in my head" i have much less to say about without a lot of context surrounding them, though i will say the 'hurricane heat' is the pain we previously discussed, with 'i saw you in a bright clear field' is making me think of field of dreams, of fate too.

summary; if this written piece is meant to show themes of fob8, and or are lyrics to fob8 songs, it so far seems to be shaping up to be an album full of hope. and love. it seems to be saying, in a way, "look at what we went through to get to here". it does not appear it's going to be a very depressing album itself, but instead reflecting back on those low moments with the knowledge that it was all worth it for the life they made from the rubble.

#obviously this could be wrong LMAO but these r just some thoughtsss #was talking to andy bangthedoldrums abt it all and he rly changed my perspective on that line #and now im just reeling like. with all the refs to past songs and albums. with field of dreams. this album is a look back to say thank god #we went through that to get here. and that view is an incredible one for an album #txt #analysis.txt #fob #p: 100

[arctic-hands]

The subject came up today and I can't decide so I'm throwing it out there because I don't give a fuck and also having survived all of this kinda makes me sound like a badass

#my life sounds exciting here but between the exciting parts it's really quite boring #ages: #8. 9. 10? 16. 17. 18. 21 I think. 23. 27. still living #near death experience #also it may have been category one but Wikipedia described Isaias as devastating so there #i want to say it was the dogs because even as scary as the too-close tornado was I really felt like I was staring down death that moment #but also is that fair in the face of everything else I've survived? #fuck it why not set it for a week I'm curious about what other people think of my life #also that tornado was less than a block away but mostly stayed in the soy field. ripped off some of the roofing of the house tho #it was either EF0 or EF1 I forget but obvs I didn't know that while hunkering down #turns out tornadoes really DO sound like trains and the air gets a bit thin #or maybe I was just panicking lol #also when my heart nearly stopped I was forced to watch while unable to speak as they readied the shock paddles which. uh. wow #luckily (?) my heart shot back up to two hundred plus beats per minute #but I lived bitches. thru everything #mecore #i don't feel awkward asking about this bc I'm p sure I've talked about all of these at various points here

[acesammy]

#just bc i saw that ice skating poll lol #i feel like every couple of months i talk with my sister in law and go 'of course i've done (thing).. i did that in gym class???' #and she looks at me like ??????? #bc i guess her gym class was just like. standing there #BUT i have to admit many of these are wild to me looking back on it #like bro they had fucking /skis/ for the kids #just a random ass assortment of skis and boots for the kids #and fucking snowshoes #and ice skates #one of the gym teachers would /personally create and maintain a rink every year in the field behind the school/ #i'm p sure most of those were donated to the school #i did not go to a private school #this was a public school #polls #the golfing unit was admittedly the strangest #it was just bc the science teacher i had that year was /really/ into golfing #so he personally provided all the stuff for it #and had the other gym teacher also do the unit #(that science teacher was a gym teacher too. i just didnt have him for gym.. only science)

[13eyond13]

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#idk what it is about working at a medical office but it's making me like tumblr less? #maybe because you see all sorts of issues all day long and then #you log onto tumblr and see myriad complaints often ranging from reasonable to absurd or whiny af #idk I think it just gives me a broader sense of what people are dealing with on average to be fielding so many health issues daily and #so a different perspective on stuff and also it shows me #how incredibly common stuff like struggling with anxiety and depression is like #Sososo common especially amongst the younger crowd #which is both sad and kinda reassuring somehow because it's like #Ok so you're not weird if you ever feel like that and you're not alone in it either #But also idk I just feel less like spending time on here in my spare time now maybe because it can sometimes feel like a place to be angry #?? Idk if that makes sense but the less time I spend on here the more the angry vibes hit me as jarring when I log back on #And idk if that is actually all that beneficial for my mental health rn either sometimes I think it makes it worse instead #p

[cimicherrychanga]

SO fucked up that when u study languages they also make u study architecture history and ant biology and economy and european politics hierarchy so by the end of the semester i still cant tie a proper sentence in any language but sure i can differentiate the neo gothic style from rococo or tell you what a bull market is

#shut up dave #im tired im tired im tired i dont care abt any of this #i mean i do enjoy architecture and art periods. i dont want to be required to know all of them #i have an exam tomorrow and one on sunday and one on wednesday and one on next saturday #then on monday and tuesday and the following saturday and monday too #and frankly. im only confident i can pass 3 maybe 4 of them #for the rest??? idk ill need to study and im very bad at that #but hey we got the grades back from the first exam!! the one i took last week and i got a 9 yippeee #that is out of 10 #it was in german interpreting n like. genuinely. im good enough at consecutive interpreting that i dont think theres a way 4 me to fail #like even if i mess it up i cant do THAT bad #i had to do it 4 english today and i think i fucked up sooo big it was so embarrassing. but then we got to the critique of my performance #and. it was all the usual nitpicks? like few word choices #the occasional discordance with adjectival conjugation. few points that 'havent clearly come across' #in my mind i had missed like a whole half of the speech but apparently it was p good still #now the problem is. same prof who teaches that subject also teaches specialized languages #and im. very bad at that one for simple reason that i have not processed any information all year #um maybe next time dont make your class about the stock market? idk just a suggestion. i dont care for wallstreet or whatever. #tho to b fair i didnt care for the european parliament last year either so ig u just cant win me on those terms #but if we get to specializing on the judiciary field i think i wouldnt be able to keep ignoring it. because of the circumstances #i have two more shirt designs to finish before the month ends but as u can see school wants me dead at the same time #one of said designs is a full 7 character thing :/ #and the other. well ive already made 3 thumbnails for it and nothing rly clicks the way i want it to

[mymp3]

The new Teniwoha song is so good it's unreal

#Was listening to it in the car while i was driving #gotta loop something for 5 hours yknow? #but holy shit listening to it with headphones feels like getting to listen to it for the first time again #the way he mixes and layers his music #chills. #Teniwoha is one of those producers that i enjoy every new song they end up coming out with. #they're incredibly skilled in their field and it shows #being able to juggle making something distinctively new vs make it sound like yourself is such a hard balance to master #and thats why i think he's one of the best producers on the scene right now #kenshi yonezu pinnochio p maretu and kikuo can all do the same #and thats partially what makes their music so interesting and special #teniwoha is definitely up there with them. #an actual chorus coming into the chorus when it seems like the chorus is on its way out? #incredible!!! #the little instrumentation and flairs #wow #he really treats flower and vocaloid as a whole as an extension of the backing #he gets that theyre instruments and he expands upon it! uses it to his benefit #! #song recs

[fyexo]

lay’s studio

#exo #lay #p: show #back to field

[shameboree]

You completely missed the point of that post. Ppl noticed a weird trend of the mean girls/bullies they knew in high school going in to nursing & were trying to figure out why they would go in to a field where they have to take care of others. I didn't notice this till it was pointed out to me by my Nurse friend + my friend who is a CNA in pre-med. Saying "there's a concerning trend of toxic women gravitating towards nursing" is not saying "nurses are toxic!" It's not about nurses. It IS a thing.

YESSSSS ive been waiting So Patiently for some brave anon to come properly Champion the We Hate Women cause directly, THANK YOU i appreciate your UNWAVERING bravery in properly schooling me about how Mean Girls are the exact equivalent of murderers and child rapists. i literally never would have seen it. the MEAN GIRLS FRM HS BECOME NURSES joke has always been a thing and i know this and see this but AS U HAVE PROPBABLY SEEN bc i admit it on a near constant basis i am Kind Of Stupid so like i never once made the connect btwn women who are just huge total cunts VS very specifically men who rape kids and murder ppl which honestly was PEAK DUMBASS OBLIVIOUS on my part bc absolutely i shouldve seen past the named issue of Male Power Exploitation used specifically to commit Heinous Crimes and seen that what really needed to be talked about was Toxic Women, which is always unquestionably the most pressing issue at ANY given moment and im soooo so So Sincerely Sorry that i missed that. it was probably my toxic dfab nature taking control of my rotten little estro brain and i cant BELIEVE i forgot to check myself

THANK U BABE my reading comprehension is TRASH GARBO and i appreciate being humbled. i also do rly appreciate not letting me slip for not explicitly disclaiming in detail what i was actually upset about (Unreasonably weve established) bc boiling it down to such a 1d take REALLY showed my dumb little ass!!! im So Bad at time management so i did make the dipstick idiot choice to attempt economizing words so i could eat in the 15min i had before going back to do my job+tech job for 6 heavy workload pts and it did us both SUCH a disservice bc u had to come all this way and give me those words so i could learn better when i Should Have Known. im sad you felt like you had to anon i tho wish youd embraced your bravery enough to show your face, more than anyone you Deserve the recognition

#listen im not going to Actually Fight but there is such a specific reason that post upset me and to pretend its bc #i didnt Understand The Point is so uncharitable and disingenuous #if u wanna discuss this off anon im totally chill having a priv convo to explain my side here #ANYWAY DAMN I JUST WOKE FRM A COMA S/P THE WORST SHIFT OF MY LIFE like id lit rather time travel back to endure my wrst day of chemo instea #also you know what field Actually attract literally the absolute most vile women on earth? childcare. can tell you Firsthand #the batshit insane settlement idve got if id started a lawsuit for the workplace harassment i endured that admin condoned n participated in #BABE... ID BE DOORDASHING EVERY MEAL!!!! ID LEAVE $50 TIPS AT SBUX!! ID ACTUALLY GET SBUX!!! #ALSO techs/pcas/psas etc are widescale Infinitely Worse than nurses wrt n ALSO awful to pts but you know who gets the flak for THAT?? guess #i cant speak for licensed nurse aids bc id literally rather die than work in a snf or any ltc but UNLICENSED TECHS?? #those are the REAL mean girls from highschool. theyre mean to e/o mean to nurses mean to pts mean to the families. its WILD #id also rather die before working day shift but i can only assume theyre mean to drs also #also every evil woman that goes into nursing goes to day shift its like a rule or something and report is always an Event #anyway anon if it isnt clear what my angle here is LIKE I SAID im cool talking abt it in dms #im off for the next several days so i am Centered #kels talks #LUCKY FOR ALL U BITCHES THEY COLLAPSE TAGS THIS IS A WHOLE POST RIGHT HERE!!!

[happyzyx]

230728 back to field weibo update

#zhang yixing #yixing #lay #exo #p: back to field #230728

[bsaka7]

im not emotionally prepared to be 23 this year like it'll be good but it'll start be embarrassing when i forget im old enough to drink

#22 I feel hasn't been that bad but I also feel I'll look back on it like wow that sucked #Kind of like what I thought of like... 18-20 but admittedly half that is cuz of covid #21 was p good... 23 I think will hopefully also be good bc 1) new job 2) then after that job I will get a NEW new job in a different field #Speaking of forgetting how old I am for several years after I started driving I would periodically start thinking I was too young to drive #Also i thought I should wear a bike helmet in the car. I didn't. But I thought about it a lot #This is luckily not a problem anymore #Waiiiiit maybe I'll actually be able to do something for my bday this year #Last year I had work... Year before I had my FIRST DAY of my summer job... Year before covid. Year before work #I mean this year I'll probs also have work but maybe can do something for it yknow

[baekuras]

well i dont need to go to the doctor but my boss also asked if i couldnt come in later before changing his mind because i was actually bawling my eyes out as a result of even thinking about calling him (thanks brain) so i don’t need to go out tomorrow to my doc if i dont want to

but dear god this is exhausting i also feel like i should be taking notes just in case i do actually smarten up and go to therapy or smth just so I know how fucking bad i can get and not just do the thing teen me did and act like everything was fine so people believed me and nothing happened and i was mad about it bc i obviously still felt like shit but i was able to just act normal enough for me to be left alone i GUESS gdi teen me leading the way for adult me to hide that anything could be wrong right until there is some breaking point last time i left school don’t actually wanna cold quit work though-feels like having no income might not be a great idea <-<

#txts #i do have savings i can fall back on and i can p easily find a new job in my field #just most other places suck ass so....no thanks #option B is i just go start my own company and become independent doing art or smth #idfk i am sleep deprived and tired as i had to point out to myself so i would actually call in sick and not try and go through work #bc that made me less anxious than calling my boss #but i am clinging to the idea of 'hey healthy human intelligence dictates that g #oing over 24hours without ANY rest is a bad idea :D #so dont fucking do that :D' #gonna have to call my dentist when they open and see if i can reschedule my appointment bc ofc the nearest date of tooth removal #is on a day where we are max 4 ppl if i am around at work #and after having a tooth broken out of you which is basically tug of war w/ your tooth vs the dentist #yeah no i WILL go home and SLEEP #every other day we are like 6 to 8 ppl w/ or w/out me #but nope-that ONE day ofc #fine whatever #suits me better bc that means i have a full day off and not just a half day #just needs to happen in that week pls #this better be rant/venting posts over for now tho #bc i am tired and hungry but nauseous but i dont feel like eating anyway which wtf #but also urgh energy required to go obtain food #mind you i have bread at the foot of my bed atm-like its not filling like a good lunch would be #but it is here #i also made chicken&rice like now 5 days ago #i nibbled a bit of that yesterday but now its been out the fridge for a full day #i cant smell so i dont trust it so i can toss that out i GUESS #maybe not the rice tho...but thats dry af anyway...idk maybe i'll fry at least that #so i also feel shit about food waste #i should make a pizza later on #generally a food that sits well w/ me no matter what AND it just has a lot of foods around

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#😫😫😫 i dont wanna do anything today. i just wanna draw #i dont wanna write manuscripts or work on prepping for the start of an experiment thats going to destory my brain #or work on any of the other bullshit i have to do. i spent 8.5hrs helping with field work yesterday and i havent taken a brake since last #Saturday. i dont wanna do anything. #but wait u say. it's sunday. ur not obligated to do anything. tell that to my annoying brain #hhhh... i just wanna think abt the beautiful kk1r family that exists in my head bc its so soft and nice #but ive got shit to do. photosynthetic processes to study. i dont have time to goof off #so ill work on things until this afternoon. then maybe ill clean my apartment. then ill go back to drawing #thats. that sounds manageable. we r trying to keep from imploding before i visit/interview with schools #bc i dont wanna crash and burn completely #hhh im tired tho. i didnt sleep well prob bc dehydration :-P #unrelated

[thriftdyke]

good news is I am now capable of feeling something other than extreme apathy and numbness at work bad news is now I am feeling Other things

#like woohoo I’m feeling connected to clients again! oh no now I’m feeling really fucking anxious and sad bc they are #extremely suic*dal #its like cool so I can either emotionally step back and get burnt out from disconnection or feel the grief and fear and get burnt out from #emotional exhaustion #I don’t know which is better honestly #crisis work is so fucking harrowing and despite working here for over a year I feel like I’m just barely Realizing that #really cool that its like the only decent work you can get in this field without a master’s. super super cool #p #suicide mention / #work tag

[shannonswizzies]

Rant ahead

#okay so #I teach pre-k just so everyone knows before I go on my thing #so I have the oldest class right the 4/5 year olds YKNOW #and our youngest are little 2 and a half year olds so I GOT BABY BABIES #okay so we had our field trip to the pumpkin patch which we do every year without a hitch #this year we had A T O N more parents wanting to go which fine #like 5 in my class alone #so my NEWEST BEEF WITH PARENTS #if you are going on a field trip with your YOUNG CHILDREN TO A VERY PUBLIC AND PACKED PLACE #p l e a s e dear god either take them or let me watch them #PICK ONE JUST PIC K AN OPTION I AM SO USED TO WATCHING THEM I PROMISE YOU I DO NOT ACTUALLY NEEED YOU #but doing that back and forth BULLSHIT WHILE I HAVE 15 OTHER CHILDREN IS NOT THE MOVE #because I am now my headcount is all over and now I have 5 children who I don’t FUCKING KNOW IF THEYRE WITH ME OR NOT #AND THEN!!!! THEN!!! NOT ONE BUT T W O TWO TWO T W O OF MY CHILDREN #T W O OF THEM BEGAN WONDERING OFF like I need you guys to understand this is a huge farm/cornfield/pumpkin patch BIG PLACE #wander WHATEVER IM NOT FIXING IT #NOT A PARENT IN SIGHT SO I T O O K THEM #only to have their parents COEM TO ME A WHOLE 15/20 MINUTES LATER BEING LIEK ‘oh sorry I got distracted’ #then give me attitude when I’m like ‘they’re just a part of my headcount now’ like STAY WITH THE GROUP NOW #I’m not risking losing a little child #keep in mind this is with MY class #the little guys ONE OF THE DAD’S WHOLE ASS LOST HIS CHILD CAME PNICKING OVER FOUND HIM S O B B I N G AND HE WENT TO THE TRACHER FIRST #anyways #pick one #I really honestly truly am so used and OKAY with having all my class because they are little Angel babies for me #(and yes I got many compliments on how polite and sweet my littles are from the staff thank u one of the best behaved groups THANK YOU) #I lost my train of thought #pls if you come on a field trip just stay with the group or don’t #pick a side choose a side I don’t c a r e what side you choose PICK ONE