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Rachel and Eliot, Married

Rachel and Eliot, Married

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[starbeambully]

Well damn, three whole years of marriage to a pretty cool guy.

#ooc #we had a pandemic wedding it was us my rabbi and two witnesses

[movielosophy]

Ticket to Paradise (2022) ~ There’s not gonna be a wedding. I won't let her throw her life away some insanely handsome guy who happens to live in the most beautiful place on earth.

#Ticket to Paradise #movie #aesthetics #when was the last time you go to Bali? #went there during pandemic #wedding aesthetics #you know this movie is not about these kids right #it's more about the second chance for the parents #maxime bouttier #kathlyn denver #julia roberts #george clooney

[manslutz]

gonna word vomit in these tags oops

#rambling to myself whatever #ik i just need to settle into this flat and get used to living by myself but im kinda like #hmm have i cursed myself w being lonely #i think also this flat is pretty dark bc the other buildings block out the sunlight so my seasonal depression is going crazy in advance #like its dumb but im not very approachable irl so i dont have many uni friends on my course and im just kinda #idk how i feel about it all #if my timetable stays the same i have tues and wed off and im getting in my head wo the distraction #like ik ill be fine in theory but im overthinking rn and its not even 3am lonely hours #and ik i can go out and do things by myself bc i often do but sometimes its nice to have the company #i made most of my friends at dorms but it was intercollegiate so they all go to diff unis to me so timetables clash double #and my closest uni friend is studying aboard in ny rn :( #idk i just feel like sometimes im not on the same path as everyone at uni rn #or maybe ur 20s are really just isolating idk #esp after the pandemic and many many lockdowns like i took a year out and all my old friends went straight to uni #and the diff in experience just meant they got closer and i got further #i only talk to one of them now and shes my ride or die but also she was kinda in a diff group of friends #and its funny (?) to think my main friendship group all still talk to each other #i just dont think im an easy person to be friends with #and idk why #its not for lack of trying or anything i just dont think im the type of person who has longlasting relationships #idk im not going into that rn #i also chose to go to a uni close to home so theres a lot that ive already done #its ok i can always do them again #but also im kinda like what if i just go home !! lmao #and itd be nice but i think itd make me feel worse when im back in the flat #hh whatever let me just get on with it and move on #its only 5 weeks until reading week and i only have this year left of uni #endure endure endure

[magnetictapedatastorage]

she’s flat as a board but wears underwire because shes weird

#fem spy #this is so. fsdhajkdf lol #fem fortress #paint #psp7 #i guess shes waiting to get her head back? #this image is basically just an ode to the wedding venue job i used to have #right before the pandemic hit.m #i had nowhere to hang my cheapass suit #so i kept it on a chair all the time #// #also those are the opening notes to Giant Steps

[neverbesokind]

Going to a wedding tomorrow for one of my college friends and feeling... many strange conflicted weird emotions 🥴

#we used to be soooo close and we used to talk about this very wedding and be so excited for it #now we barely talk and I haven't seen her in person since BEFORE THE PANDEMIC #I just feel super weird and like not... wanted? #like she'll have new friends I won't know there and I won't know when to talk to her bc it's her big day!!! #I guess I'll just hang and do my best #shh gilly

[hobisexually]

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#i! feel! so! disconnected! from everything and everyone #and it’s so god damn annoying #I either feel nothing at all or everything at once and I can’t balance it #but if I take the time to sit with the things I’m scared of I’ll just keel over I don’t have time for it #Im just on autopilot moving ahead #because I have to! if I don’t my fear will win from me and that will Not be pretty #and that’s what I’m so upset about like I didn’t get something I really wanted #and it’s fully because of anxiety but the alternative is WORSE #and the people involved don’t KNOW I have anxiety but I can’t tell them either because it will make them look at me differently and I can’t #afford them to. I can’t let that happen and I think this is the first time I’m realising how much it holds me back even after uni #and I’m so angry over it dndndnd so so so angry and if they KNEW how much I had gone through no one would ever doubt my ability to — #bounce back and take charge of a situation ever again. they’d know I can do that. But it’s too private to share so now it’s up to me to #BELIEVE it and just show them but it takes so much out of me every time #and if it weren’t for the pandemic I would’ve been much further along and if it weren’t for my fucking burnout I’d have been further along #and it weren’t for my Fucking dad I’d be further along. I’m just so mad #so mad that I have to undo and tackle so much when people just sail through things but for me EVERYTHING takes effort #also I have not seen or spoken to my dad since December and I have a wedding he’s attending and I can’t get out of it #and I constantly pingpong between ‘its for the best I broke off contact I needed the space to heal’ and ‘I am a horrible person for taking #his only daughter away from him instead of talking’ #but I’ve TRIED the talking and he just never LISTENS????? and made me feel so unsafe in this world at all times #I’m constantly trying to undo all that and it’s exhausting and no one gets how much effort that takes and I can’t tell them either #like. not gonna unload my trauma on people but if they KNEW they’d get why I don’t always react optimally to things the way they do #aaarffggHhhhHHHhHhhh #also I’m not even enjoying festa I’m not tuned in at ALL and that’s also deeply upsetting but there’s no other way atm #Also. did a thing in PFPT today that. I feel complicated things and I’m just upset about the way my life’s been until now #its making me feel worse than I was expecting #oh AND I was on a trip with friends I’ve had for 16+ years and they all were so happy to be together #felt so connected with each other and it was familiar and safe and lovely they said #meanwhile I cried at 3am in the bathroom because I had never felt more alienated from them ever #I know who /I/ am and what I want and don’t want but the dissonance with the rest of the world….. what the fuck man. What is my place even

[antidotesprout]

Nothing like going to a wedding shower to remind me why I hate interacting with people in real life ✌️

#sprout chat #when you feel like people are pointedly avoiding talking to you #like what did i ever do to you #abd why are you being rude at a mutual friends wedding shower #people are fucking exhausting #i just want to draw my lil guys #can i get more pandemic please so i have an excuse to stay home forever

[francostrider]

The Experience and Timing of Media

My group of friends had a tradition for every February called “Eat Like Hobbits”. Basically, our one friend would invite us all to her home, and she would have the excuse to cook several meals over the course of a day (which she loves doing), all the while the extended edition of The Lord of the Rings Trilogy play in the background. Well, we would watch it, but we are also chatting and just be glad January was over. We would have a good time, eat, well, like a hobbit, and embrace our nerdy selves.

So, I will confess one thing: The Lord of the Rings are not in my top five or top ten films of all time. But I have a lot of respect for the trilogy, and the amount of craft that went into every detail. And I do like them to a point. I treasure them as part of my introduction to western fantasy, as they were released around the same time as Champions of Norrath and I was coming to identify the DnD culture a lot more. The timing of the films coincided with the experience of discovering a favorite genre. And with the Hobbit day, it became a part of our shared experience.

As a fan of older media, like Robert E. Howard’s Conan books, I have been thinking a lot of the experience around the consumption of media. This involves more than the strict text of a given work. For instance, I started reading through Howard’s work via the volumes offered by Del Rey. It came in three volumes, the first of which I remember picking up after I graduated High School and in the ours before I saw X-Men 3. The volumes would follow me through our trip to Chatham, NY that year, into college and the smell of those old class buildings. They are synonymous with my experience in Rutgers and beyond.

The scents around us as we turned the page, the friends we would bring it up with, the chapter we try to squeeze in before class starts. These are all included with the actual consumption of the tale and make up our experience. We do not live in a bubble. The video games we play will either be affected by the outside world, or will be part of our relief from it. Prince of Persia: Sands of Time was played after a particularly rough time (and winter) of my life and it became part of spring. Castlevania: Circle of the Moon came out during 8th grade, a particularly joyful year of my life. And, of course, the ending of Majora’s Mask hit hard when I was a lonely kid outside of my household.

Going back to Conan, those were my own experiences, sure. But that was not the original context that the stories came out in. Those were published by Weird Tales back in the 1930s, usually one (or maybe even just a chapter) at any given publication. And these were published along side other authors, including HP Lovecraft. These would be on low quality paper (hence the “pulp” in pulp fiction), at 10 cents at a magazine stand. These would not be pre collected in a higher quality volume in a clean and orderly book store.

This was likely picked up by someone on their way to work, either to the local factory or grocery store. These were in the 1930s, so the Great Depression was either affecting the reader directly or at least seeing the damage it has caused. I imagine someone going “At least I got my Howard and Lovecraft for the month!” as they see another store close. Perhaps, like in Grapes of Wrath, copies were likely carried by migrant workers trying to make ends meet. “The Phoenix on the Sword”, “The Scarlet Citadel”, “Hour of the Dragon” and “People of the Black Circle” were just as much part of the life of a migrant worker as their tools, factories, current events and crops. Perhaps they held onto these copies and looked back on them with a mix of nostalgia and strain.

And the rabbit hole does not end there. I wonder what actors they were thinking of when they thought of Conan at the time. A mix of the movies from the 80s and artwork have long since codified Conan’s overall look and feel, but much of that was decades later. What music accompanied their reading in their heads? Did they find a friend or fellow worker and think “Oh, that could be Conan!” Did they try writing the Howard? Or at least to the publication house? And this isn’t even mentioning the human rights advocacies, protests and bloodshed at this era. Before Conan’s overall look was codified, did readers conjure a Conan of different races, imposing their own preferences?

My point is that the whole experience of reading Conan when it first came out will be eternally lost to me. I will likely never find some of the original volumes, which are either preserved in a museum or just dissolved into nothing. And even if I did, I will not know the desperation and attitudes of the time, or the actors of the time, what counted for “fantasy music” at the time, if that was even a concept.

But that does not invalidate my experience. The Experience that I bring up is always going to be unique to each of us. One 1930s reader is going to have a different experience from another 1930s reader, even if they are coworkers of similar backgrounds. I do not say this out of jealousy or some foolish self deprecating of our generation. This is more to illustrate why we love media, why we are nostaligic and why we more than enjoy, but cherish, our favorite works. The tricky thing is it is impossible to recreate. That version of you ended at the end of the experience. We have memories, but we have lost access to it at the same time. 

It is also one of several reasons why I have disdain for any claim of “Best X of all time”. Like much about the entertainment we consume, this is going to be subjective, and unique to every consumer. Awards try to find an objective truth, but they can’t dictate on a personal, subjective level. Bad timing and harsh experiences can also explain why we bounce off of works that we, in theory, “should” enjoy. I imagineThe Last of Us Part II would have been better received by audiences in a year that wasn’t 2020. These Experiences put the text to light. You never consume media without it. Despite everyone trying to talk me into it, I’m just not in the right mindset to go through Final Fantasy VII Remake or the new God of War games. They are something I currently do not want, and when I spend my entertainment hours on something I do not wish to do, I’m constantly looking forward to the thing I do wish to do.

The last “Eat Like Hobbits” we had before the pandemic was February of 2020, before the pandemic started. A lot changed since. Several people moved and found new homes. Job situations changed. But finally, in this year 2023, we got the invite we were waiting for. Our friend got her cooking going and we watched through the whole trilogy. This time, my wife and I watched through the whole thing, a first for herself. It was wonderful to have everyone over, but the trilogy changed in light of the pandemic.

First, there is what it meant: After three long years, we were able to do this again. Covid has not completely gone away, but something special had returned to us. Secondly, the scene where Frodo can no longer see home, but the fiery eye, really hit home. Leaving the house in 2020 could mean bringing back a deadly virus that has claimed over a million lives in this country alone and had filled hospitals to bursting. There was no escaping it, just the constant fiery watch of this disease and no catharsis or friends in person to comfort us. We were all trapped in our own personal Mordor, away from the lives we once had and the people we love.

And, thirdly, I am completely unashamed to admit that I thought of my own wedding last year during Aragorn’s Coronation (yeah, yeah, fuck off). But it is part of the experience I was going through. Our wedding was planned for 2021, but was postpone until late summer of 2022 for several reasons. Unfortunately, the pandemic was part of the drama leading up to it. But when all was said and done, everyone was there, hail and hardy, after three years of pain. My wife and I sat through the pains of moving, pandemics and grief together, and finally, FINALLY, we would have this day, Our day. It was not just a wedding, but also victory in its own way. All of that and everything that led to our wedding went into my recent viewing of Aragorn’s Coronation.

And let’s be honest, you should feel like a king on your wedding day.

We do not live in vacuums. It’s our real life that gives the fiction we consume meaning. As fantastical as a story or setting is, it is still a reflection of what we are. “All works are political” or so I’ve heard the phrase. We carry not only our preferences and likes, but also our life into everything we consume and create. Fiction makes little sense otherwise.

#lord of the rings #hobbit #majoras mask #the last of us #Castlevania #circle of the moon #majora's mask #Conan #robert e howard #hp lovecraft #Weird tales #wedding #pandemic #covid-19 #fuck covid

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Claire and Joe, Married

Claire and Joe, Married

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[ineffablefool]

My household just finished watching Bullet Train (2022), and I cannot remember the last time I’ve felt such sheer *delight* at a new-to-me movie.  Everything keeps happening so much, and it shouldn’t all work together but it does, and Brad Pitt plays a secret agent codenamed “Ladybug” who is the exact opposite of no chill.  Like, all the chill that other people are not?  It’s because he took it.  He has a very good therapist.

The movie is a huge pile of potential triggers (bright flashy things, lots of gunfire, blood and what I consider a small but non-zero amount of gore, so very many onscreen deaths including those of major characters...), but if anyone watches the Netflix preview trailer thing and thinks “huh, there’s no way this can actually be as delightful as they’re trying to make it look”?  No, it is.  It is a zillion miles away from being in the Soft Zone(TM), but it does involve the use of Thomas The Tank Engine characters as a way of reading people.  Apparently one shouldn’t be a Diesel.

#ineffablefool original post #not good omens #i mostly haven't...felt? this much vibrant enjoyment? for anything in possibly years by now? #so i want to note it so i can look back later #it's sheer fucking luck that i've been able to keep in pandemic isolation this whole time and it's a giant privilege #but that doesn't change the fact that i hit the point of 'touch-starved and desperately lonely' back in June 2020 #and that i've been ready to talk to my doc about T for a year now but this is not the time to start a stabbing regimen #and that housemate's steadily worsening chronic lung problem remains untreated as of march 2020 and counting #because people need to go to weddings and have vacations and shit and that's more important than covid-vulnerable people's lives #[insert shrug emoji]) #anyway it's hard to feel anything positive anymore so it's very exciting when some light peeks through the clouds #(ALSO yes i know the movie is based on a book #but i basically can't read anything anymore these days except happy-ending Ineffable Husbands fanfic #so the book will remain unread by me for now) #negativity #(in tags)

[famewolf]

this work week has felt so long and i still have two more days left

#[static] #being at work has felt painful this week #its like physically difficult to be there because i want to be doing so many other things than being at a job #it was also my 4 year anniversary working at this one job yesterday .... which .... is kind of scary #the pandemic has made time so weird and fast #im trying to just go even though it feels like its sucking away my lifeforce because i have a decent amount of time off in august #childhood friend is back in the country for their wedding so i requested time off

[reasonandnonsense]

Went to the pride parade in the suburban town I grew up in with my parents, my partner, and my partner’s sister. I know the one in the nearby big city where I live now very well but none of us had any idea what to expect from this one.

It was so much bigger than I’d imagined and met with so much enthusiasm and so far and away from anything like what was here when I was a kid that at the side of the parade route surrounded by clapping and waving and calls of ‘Happy Pride!!!’ I found myself just standing silently in tears

#thoughts escape my head #i feel a lot rn idk #also I am going for an mri in less than 2hrs #and we are so close to booking a wedding venue if the guy would just get back to us #and I still haven’t broken it to my boss that I’ve been called for jury duty #and I’m 6 days out from a choir concert with the group i tried to join in 2020 but there was a pandemic #and more and more people keep saying theyll come see it which is lovely!!!! #but a lot

[galariangengar]

💭

#this girl I was close friends/roommates with during my last year of college just got engaged with her bf of 8 years #while I am happy for both of them… idk I have difficult feelings about her now and don’t see her as a friend anymore #she used to live in the same city as me during the first like year and a half or so of the pandemic #and in that time we got to see/hang out with each other twice #first time we got to catch up for a few hours and we had a good time but it was kinda bittersweet… idk how to describe it #the second time she asked me last minute to accompany her to pick up stuff she got through Facebook marketplace #during one of those two times we hung out/she basically told me to my face that it would be the last time I’d see her #i understood initially cuz she was about to start teaching and she wanted to focus on her relationships with her bf and her family #but not long after she started teaching/she quickly started going out a lot and making new friends #then she moved to another town like 30 ish minutes away cuz her aunt kicked her out in the middle of her first year of teaching #idk I never had a good feeling about things cuz of all of that stuff I stated above #but also since she��s been trying on working to improve her relationship with her mom after everything she’s done to her #cuz we both have shitty moms who’ve said and done shitty things to us and our families #i know it probably won’t happen or won’t happen for like a few years #but in the event she invites me to her wedding/ I’m gonna be deadass with her about how I’ve felt about her #and see if she’s willing to work on improving our friendship before I decide to attend (if she does invite me cuz idk) #oh I also forgot how after she moved after her aunt kicked her out #she had the nerve to randomly ask if I could watch her aunt’s dogs during the week I was starting 3 online summer classes #she didn’t even like say hi/make small talk or ask nicely either #she just straight up was like ‘hey can you watch my aunt’s dogs during (x) week?’ #she recently congratulated me when I posted on my Instagram story that I passed my driving text and got me license but I didn’t respond #I just have a lot of difficult feelings about her now/wish I could unfollow her but I don’t wanna start shit & her be all in my face & shit #jazz uses curse! 💜

[the-gayest-tree-you-ever-did-see]

if anyone wants to know just how shitty my shitty family is: i am currently filing a lawsuit against my uncle because he took my college fund money and my dad's surgery money and other things i will not mention and he is getting the rest of his side of the family to bash me every second they can

#FUNNY! #it isnt like i called every night of the pandemic for hours on end just to keep the family fucking sane #it isnt like we paid for your wedding and failed business and clothes and children's schooling and house and FUCKING LIFE #at this point im more tired than anything this has been going on for over a year now im exhausted #like literally WHAT did i do?? sorry my dad worked hard to come to the us and that i was born here #sorry that i didnt fucking kill myself when you told me to

[kashmirichaiwithmehr]

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#why is wedding szn so exhausting asdhkjasldahsdkjasd #AND THIS IS ONLY WEDDING 2 OUT OF 7 THIS YEAR #yes i said 7 bc apparently everyone and their mom decided 2023 was the year to get married #(and yes ik its bc of the pandemic and ppl pushing things back okay shut up) #mehrtalks