Resident Evil 6 (2013) | Platform: PC

I went ahead and rewatched the event because I feel as if I didn't fully watch it the first time because I was so excited. So I rewatched it and fully paid attention and I had some thoughts about Randy and Stan's relationship (+ that situation) because it was really interesting to me.

So here's my understanding of the situation. Pretty much following from where the show took off with the Vaccination Special, Sharon wanted a divorce. However, in her divorcing him, that would mean she got half of the farm - Randy didn't believe she should get half of the farm. Stan then got frustrated with their fighting and burned down the farm to end things. However, he didn't know Randy had locked Shelly in the barn because she wouldn't do her 'weed chores', leading Shelly to burn to death. Shortly after, Sharon could not handle the loss of her daughter and shot herself.

What a dark plotline! I know South Park isn't shy to include things like this in their plots, but I often forget, so this was, like, right up front. It was really surprising.

First things first, I think it hurt me more knowing Sharon killed herself (and shot herself, at that - that's a painful way to go). I can't stop imagining how distraught and torn apart she must have been. Sharon has never outwardly been suicidal before, so it's especially heart-wrenching to hear this. I'm sure she was well aware that if she killed herself, she would be leaving Stan with Randy, and well, she was okay with that. She would rather have died, leaving her son with Randy (who has been shown to be quite reckless) and without a mother than live in a world with what happened. Think about it. Randy is driving her crazy, she's stressed, she's unhappy, Randy doesn't want to give her half of the farm, and then in the midst of all this, the farm burns, and her daughter along with it.

In a family, if there is one common person (i.e. an abusive parent) that is disliked, an odd bond is formed between those people. I don't know how to explain it, but... Okay. Randy has his issues to work through, but he's stubborn. He drags his family along in his actions, despite what they may want. At the point of S23 ("Season Finale", to be more specific), it's very safe to say they dislike Randy. At the thought of Randy being imprisoned for a long time, they're ecstatic. They're... okay with it. Although Randy is just a character, he's just a person to us, but to them, that's family. He's a husband, he's a father... Imagine how broken a family must be for the kids and wife to bond over... their hatred of a member of their family. They must've felt trapped and helpless, and... well, they could never really get away from Randy. He lived with them, he was a part of their lives. However, there was a common feeling shared with Sharon, Shelly, and Stan and that was their shared experience of living with Randy. All the drama, hijinks, being pulled around with whatever he wanted to do next. They experienced that together and they are the only ones that know how that feels. That is what I mean by an odd bond of hating a family member. It's a very real thing and it's an experience that you can only fully know if you've been in that situation. It's just such a twisted thing to bond over and I think that really amplifies the troubles of the Marsh family.

Back to Sharon's suicide. The farm burning down could be traced back to Tegridy Farms itself and to Sharon, that's yet again another one of Randy's "stupid dreams". This was the last straw. Ultimately, Randy's dream had ended up killing her daughter and that was too much for her to handle. She couldn't live in a world like that. And even more so, there's one thing I'm not including - the in-between. When I say that, I mean the time between Shelly's death and Sharon's suicide. It's safe to say Sharon didn't see Shelly dead and automatically shoot herself, but rather, I guarantee there was some time in-between. Randy blamed Sharon and Shelly's death on Stan, so it's very likely he blamed Shelly's death on Stan when it happened. This is just a speculation/theory of what happened, but I would imagine Randy would have tried to take the blame off of himself and put it on his son... This would really just put the nail in the coffin and drive Sharon to the edge. It's not the fact that Shelly died that made Sharon kill herself, it's everything around it. It's her daughter dying, it's Tegridy Farms, it's her son burning the farm, it's (likely) Randy putting the blame fully on their child. It's everything. That's what broke Sharon.

After this, we know Randy put the blame on Stan. He didn't want to take the fault. He insisted it was Stan's fault that his sister died and his mother killed herself. I could imagine that this was the separation, this is what made Stan cut himself off from Randy as much as he could. But... who was there for him? His friends weren't, they broke off their friendship. Stan's sister and mother were dead and he had no one to go to. He sulked. He didn't make an effort to move past it. It's the same as it was in "You're Getting Old" and "Ass Burgers", he didn't make an attempt to move past the things dragging him down. Rather, he let them pull him down until he was so low, it was impossible to get back up. He likely spent his whole life with hatred for Randy, not living for himself, but living with that moment his sister and mother died in the back of his mind. He blamed Randy. Randy blamed him. They were both so stubborn, it was an irreparable relationship and they both chose to sit and sulk all of their lives. They're so alike and ultimately, that caused the final blow to their relationship as a family.

More on Stan, though. I thought he was incredibly well-developed as an adult. I like his design, I like his demeanor, it really tells so much about him - he's sad. He's lonely, he's depressed, he's angry. He's not willing to accept help from anyone or kindness, at that. He constantly pushes people off and insists that he's only in South Park for Kenny. The only "person" that he has is an Alexa that mimics a wife. This is my theory on the Alexas, as it is the future and it was never fully stated. I assume the Alexas are in a similar situation to Androids in Detroit: Become Human. Androids were meant for purposes of the humans - they were an aid of some sort. Whether it be chores, companionship, sex, anything... There was an Android for it. Even children! That's what I believe Alexas to be in this futuristic universe. That is why Alexa acts so similar to a wife - she acts as a companion to Stan and in my speculation, that's what Stan wanted her to be. Even further, their relationship is a little toxic. He sits around drinking all day and she nags him. They argue constantly. I could definitely see this mirroring Stan's perspective of Sharon and Randy's relationship when he was younger. He doesn't know anything else and this toxicity follows him - he thrives in it. He and this Alexa don't get along, but he keeps her around because it's a sense of companionship when he's not willing to accept it from a person. He is so much like Randy and whether or not he realizes it, he doesn't do anything about it.

Upon my first watch, it really hurt hearing Randy say, "I don't have a son" with such anger in his eyes and contempt in his voice. It was very clear he kept that anger from that day inside all these decades and never let it go. It kept hurting and he let it hurt. It's as if he didn't want to get better because there was no use getting better. I don't doubt Randy was hurt by the situation, but he wasn't willing to let himself admit that. Rather, he put so much of his pride in Tegridy Farms that he treated it as his own child. After all, all the "dreams" he had so many years ago, Tegridy Farms is the one that was a real success (I'm not counting Lorde, given the outcome of that). It was sort of like a trophy to him, making all those failed dreams worthwhile. He even gloated to Sharon and Shelly about how they were wrong and he was right. It was a matter of his dreams and his pride, which he put into Tegridy Farms. He put so much of his time and energy and being into this weed farm that it engulfed him. He was Tegridy Farms. I think that's why he wouldn't admit he had any part of it because if he did that, it would be taking Tegridy Farms down with him. Tegridy Farms was his pride and joy, he refused to admit any fault with it because that would mean he was wrong - that this was just another "stupid dream" of his. At the end of the day, Tegridy Farms was top priority - not his friends, not his family, but this success he had after so many years of trial and error.

Something else I wanted to take note of was how when Randy heard that Kenny had mentioned Tegridy Farms in his research, he assumed it was for good, saying "He knew it was the way to fix it all." Rather... Tegridy Farms caused the problems, didn't it? Randy had attempted to cure COVID-19, but instead, made the situation worse by giving everyone mustaches and escalating the chaos. However, Randy is so certain that Tegridy Farms is the solution and is in no way a negative, he is unable to see the problems it has caused. He even went as far as to say that China (an enemy of Tegridy) is what caused Stan to burn down the farm. This is absurd, as there was no correlation between Stan's actions and China. Stan burned down the farm because Randy and Sharon were arguing about it. Yet, Randy seemed to have convinced himself that in no way could the deaths of Shelly and Sharon be rooted in Tegridy Farms - it had to be China. That made Tegridy the "good guy". He's put his entire life into defending Tegridy Farms and he's not letting go. He's not moving past his faults and he's not willing to admit anything because he has convinced himself that Tegridy was worth it, that Tegridy has been worth it all these years of defending it, no matter what he's lost in the process.

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