#people are angry now more than ever

[trans-axolotl]

have not left bed today + found out another friend got locked up + want to beat up every single adult that saw what was happening to me and looked away or actively made it worse

#personal #vent #suicide mention tw #i need to call her. last time we talked she said she was going to kill herself if she got incarcerated again #i love her. nothing makes me more angry at so many systems than trying to do suicide support with my friends who are locked up #trying to do this shit over the phone with people listening in. trying to figure out what meaningful support we can even give #because when she says that death is better than months of solitary i know exactly how she feels and what she means and i cannot fucking #most of the skills mainstream peer support has ever taught me are useless in that situation and my best is not enough #there are so many places that need to be burnt down. #there are so many people i love who are not out and it starts to kill me a little bit #and cops are starting to fuck with us here more. i've gotten bruised up a couple times from being shoved around #nothing too bad yet but just #jesus christ #sorry for coming on here to vent all the time but my offline life is a little crazy at the moment and half this shit i can't talk about irl #i honestly think i need to like. start learning how to fight properly again. bc i have so much anger right now #and learning how to actually fight sounds like a better idea then fucking off and getting into random fights like i used to #idk. will look into it

[radmista]

Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake

#was already not in a great place mentally but i entertained the call and was actually feeling okay talking to them giving them an update #she just hits me with that. and I'm not normally sensitive about my weight even when my mom harped on me for gaining some a few years back #i genuinely normally don't care bc I'm happy with myself. but i know ive lost weight because I've been on icu and we don't have time to eat #im so fucking mad and im even more mad I'm crying about it #bc what the fuck #i was actually feeling like momentarily safe talking to them and being vulnerable about working on my next life stages #and she just ruined the call. i wanted to talk to my mom and dad more. i do miss talking to them about some things. #i was happy to get to see my family all together even if it was for the dogs birthday. and people were smiling and shit #and ik theyre gonna say i ruined it by being sensitive but jfc #it was literally the 2nd thing my mom said to me on the call after we sang happy birthday #why couldn't she just shut up. why couldn't she have said anything else. why did i let it bother me so much i hung up #I'm just fucking tired and sad and now feeling even lonlier than ever #i just wanted a nice moment with my family god fucking damn is that too hard to ask for #and im even more angry and sad now that i cant call them back bc my mom will get on me about smth else we were previously talking about #that phone call was supposed to be a neutral zone just for the birthday song. and i was going to ride it out but fucking hell #why didnt i just put up with it so i could have talked to my family #and no calling them back isnt an option. they haven't apologized and it would be an un neutral call #which gives them space to harass me about work and shit

[derpinette]

i hated airpods & phones with those big fugly cameras in the back when they were announced as a concept & i hate them even more each time i see that hideousness in person

#i remember when i was 11 ( sorry for being a zoomer ) getting into an argument with an online acquaintance #over airpods because i thought they were retarded but she thought they were cool as if bluetooth ear pieces were a new invention #remember how the world used to make fun of them not even that many years prior. she was like nooobut you can hide them for cheating #& against thievery ( OK the only fair point I GUESS ) but they are just so ugly to me & stupid not practical too easily lost & damaged #especially with that pricetag like they could have made something COOL or Kawaii but of course sleek Nothing design is “in” #still after a decade now ♯MAKEITSTOP #honestly only like bluetooth for file sharing when necessary anything else is devilwork #as for the new giant multiple cameras design i mean use your eyes has there ever been an uglier decision #even if i had money i could never own a touch screen phone without a middle button & a normal camera lense in the back #like just looking at them makes me angry BUT mostly apple products i think android ones are less hives inducing #but TBH i have no headphone jack so... on my old broken phone i did but not this one -_- where are my principles...... #well i will wear this one down until it dies i already have a cracked arse screen so until it breaks i will downgrade #also remember how cute silicone phone cases were in the early to mid 2010s ♯BringThatBack #honestly can you even i think phones today are just too damn big Not mine Doe 🦌 mine is almost perfectly sized for my hands (iphone7) #at least people have more charms than ever in my city at least i see people with cute lanyards & zoomer style JesusBeaters so great ^_^ #sorry for complaining all the time but also if you are not here for my Kvetching then what else could you be here for... #*jumps into a well from shame*

[themyscirah]

Thinking about current continuity Vanessa and just getting pissed off again

Like one, LET HER REST oh my god dc you ruin her FUCKING life like an asshole only to bring her back as a villain after she finally got out oh my god-

But also like its just so bad. This is a whole other woman with her name like why are we doing this. Like first you kill her mom (JULIA NOOO) and erase her YEARS of history growing up around diana (the thing that actually made her villain turn [if you can call it that w the level of manipulation involved] interesting and fucking heartbreaking) for some shitty "oh I saved you we were friends" run of the mill whatever. Then to use that and say Nessie had a crush on her OWN SISTER (Diana, so like informally adopted, but still 😡) now????

And then they took away her curls and made her a redhead but not even the realistic kind. DC SHE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT

It just makes me so mad. Freaking guys. They could have used another name like oh my god. She's not even the first silver swan why the fuck would they do that if they're not going to explore her history w diana (which she no longer has!!!!) or how intensely fucked up everything got for her. What is even the fucking point of this then other to drag a main character of the ww supporting cast through the mud again for genuinely no reason. They could have easily had her be Valerie Beaudry (sorry Val) instead or just MADE UP ANOTHER NAME because it's obvious that no one actually cared about her as a character they just wanted the wondy villain back so like !!!!!!!!!! Why even bother

#her entire treatment just makes me so angry #like in general it makes me mad and sad and a million other emotions #but the fucking robinson version just makes me enraged. beyond pissed off. because theres no fucking reason for it its bullshit and its the #one in current continuity right now. so i get to see tom king ww panels put on my dash that have this stupid fake vanessa and its so #infuriating. like thats NOT her!!!!!!! oh my freaking god people #her hair is BROWN and CURLY and shes dianas BABY SISTER who she lived with for YEARS like she was a MAJOR supporting ww character for the #longest time. like shes got about 100 appearances (just checked) preboot this is not a minor character #so freaking frustrating #blah #ALSO. FUCKING ALSO. THE FACT THAT THE WHOLE CURRENT VANESSA TURNED EVIL BC SHE REALIZED SHE WASNT SPECIAL TO DIANA BS. FUCK YOU THERE LIKE #OH MY GODDDDD “isnt special to diana” im going to fucking kill you. what do you mean she doesnt care about her specially. thats her FUCKING #BABY SISTER. not to sound like vanessa herself a la silver swan but those clowns at dc would never say that shit about cassie oh my god #not special my FUCKING ass. nessie and her mom were literally the first people invited to themyscira in post coie continuity #like yes diana trevor and steve trevor and even baby julia kapetelis washing ashore but like the kapetelises (and you could even say just #nessie bc again her mom had been there before) were the FIRST ones invited there like you cannot say diana didnt care about them more than #the average joe dc i fucking despise you. #this girl has been through so much why is dc incapable of throwing her a bone ever. nessie i am so sorry they did that to you sweetie. #gonna tag it bc her tag deserves the traffic #vanessa kapatelis #just makes me so mad #doing all that to the normal teen girl character in a wonder woman comic is so fucked actually like dc comics i should not have to explain #that to you. what message do you think you are sending here be serious

[bisexualamy]

NYC govt and Mayor Adams hate unhoused people so much they’re willing to systematically undo the work that disability activists in this city have been doing since the 90s and earlier. When I was a kid there were so many places to sit in Grand Central. They’ve replaced all of them with standing tables. They’re removing benches from subway stations. They are making existing in public so much more difficult for anyone who isn’t able bodied, who’s old, or just needs to rest. Because they hate seeing unhoused people sleeping in public places that badly. They’re pouring all this money into more cops to police unhoused people instead of putting that money towards HOUSING THEM

#ren speaks #gd im so angry I’m so mad I’m not physically disabled #surgery just temporarily disabled me. I can’t stand for more than 10 min at a time #and now I’m forced to stand here in pain bc cops will badger you for SITTING ON THE FLOOR #they won’t even let you sit on the ground #I cannot imagine how awful it is for folks who are permanently disabled #they also know this is an issue bc each standing area has a sign asking you to give your seat up at the ONE table with chairs #to elderly and disabled people #there’s no way there will ever be more than two disabled or elderly people in one place at one time!!

[hella1975]

you cant make edits to vampire empire by big thief bc the moment i hear that song i have to start singing it dancing to it acting it out throwing up clawing the walls etc. could be the best edit in the world sorry bossman im not watching that shit. im busy

#YOU TURN ME INSIDE OUT AND THEN YOU WANT THE OUTSIDE IN YOU SPIN ME ALL AROUND AND THEN YOU ASK ME NOT TO SPIN #everyone on tiktok are soooooo annoying about this song (unsurprising) #basically a summary of the 'drama' in regards to this song: big thief released it as a snippet MONTHS ago #and the snippet sounded very jaded and heartbroken and CRUCIALLY it had the lyric 'i walked into your dagger for the last time in a row' #to then be followed by the lyric 'it's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow' #and everyone was OBSESSED with it i was obsessed with it everyone was so buzzed about the release #and then MONTHS later like truly a taking the piss amount of time later they finally released the song... different to the teaser #like they changed the WAY it was sung to sound more angry and like a scorned lover and they also straight up changed the lyrics #in certain parts like it's now 'i walked into your dagger for the last time / it's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow' #and everyone was like??? that sounds jumpy anyway but now we all know the old lyrics it sounds SO odd to get rid of 'in a row' like that #like what was the need??? and i backed all of that bc it was frustrating and more than anything it was just really odd and unnecessary #but oh my god tiktok fucking CRUCIFIED the song for it. imo both versions of the song are great on their own #i actually prefer the angrier sound of the official release as well as preferring the original lyrics #but ive seen multiple tiktoks made where people are like THIS IS THE WORST SONG EVER HOW COULD THEY DO THIS?!?!?! #and it's like. you guys truly cannot have a middling opinion about anything. it HAS to be some sort of extreme #declan mckenna's bridge for british bombs was actually a tiktok prediction. if it's not a fucking outrage... #anyway i started ranting but this is still one of THEE songs of the summer for me and you should all listen to it asap #song rec

[the-terrible-theys]

silli goofi alignment chart

elaboration in tags (i think i’m so funny for it)

#i genuinely can’t picture zach saying anything more extreme than “crap” and neither can any of the other characters #pilot zach though? completely different question #i was torn between saying aviva would curse a lot vs only having her curse when extremely angry (no there’s no in-between) #i now picture her trashtalking whatever project she’s frustrated with for hours on end and lowkey scaring everyone #and then when she’s talking to people she doesn’t curse AT ALL (unless she’s really super pissed) #uses “oh fiddlesticks” or some other silly replacement #let’s see and then jimmy would TOTALLY take the scooby doo route #”zoinks!” #”jenkies!” #”jeepers!” #”ruh roh!” #yes all of those #everyone thinks jimmy would curse though because he’s a #gamer #alternatively! no one expects the bros to curse because y’know. they’re the most family-friendly people ever #except they do actually curse #i don’t know where i picked up the headcanon of martin actually cursing a lot but i like it #the “no one would believe you if you said they curse” is extra true for them because one time jimmy heard one or both of them drop f bombs #and no one believed him about it for months until they themselves witnessed it happen again #uhh i don’t have a lot of thoughts about the other three #koki only curses when she’s emotional in some way (especially mad or grossed out by something) #and she tends to stick to milder words. “shit” “goddamn” et cetera #i stuck donita in the middle because i can’t really imagine her as being/perceived as being big on cursing #but i also can’t imagine her NOT cursing #so in the center she goes #and uhhh gourmand is what gave me the idea to throw this together in the first place #i looked at him and i was like Yeah he needs to eat soap and everyone who’s ever met him would agree #wild kratts #longggg tags. props to you if you read this far lol #alignment chart

[syn0vial]

yesterday, i learned that one of my acquaintances from church is like, gleefully and unreservedly supportive of the gazan genocide despite going to a church where every sermon for the past few weeks has been about the horrors and tragedy of said genocide. like, i could not fucking believe how hilarious he seemed to think it is that innocent palestinians are dying, just grinning and laughing and shaking his head and rolling his eyes when my pastor and i expressed horror at the innocent people being killed. just remembering it makes me choke up with anger.

anyway, i'm going to be very stupid and try to talk to him about it this coming sunday. i'll use all my teacherly tricks to try and gently lead him to feel one single scrap of empathy for the victims of israel's civilian massacre, but lbr: he'll probably respond with the same amount of glee and condescension as last night and it's going to end with me making me a scene at church.

but i know i shouldn't. so here are some things i should NOT say, no matter how angry he makes me:

i've always hated the sound of your voice, even before you said such horrible things. you say everything with such condescension. when you read the gospels in church, i have to hide my face behind my program to hide my grimacing. you make the words of christ himself sound like a grift of some oily used car dealer who thinks he's smarter than he actually is. i pity you for going through life with such a voice, and pity you even more for thinking it charming.

it baffles me that you'd allow something as basically human as compassion for the suffering of others to be so utterly sanded away by propaganda. it's pathetic that you could laugh at innocents dying. you've let yourself be lobotomized by a clumsy surgeon and style yourself wise with the icepick still sticking from your skull.

i've always thought your face looks like an easter island head sculpted from a raw chicken breast.

see? none of those would be productive, no matter how truly they express my feelings about this person.

thus: people of faith, pray that god grants me the wisdom and restraint to not light this motherfucker up in the middle of coffee hour. amen.

#vent post #personal post #this happened last night and i thought i'd feel less angry in the morning but NOPE #still incandescent about it #sometimes i think i'm a very self-righteous and unforgiving person #bc i can't seem to do the thing other people do where they can just chalk things like this up to a difference in opinion and remain friends #when someone is cruel‚ it feels like it completely deranges me #suddenly they're a monster in my eyes #buuuut none of the philosophies i subscribe to endorse this kind of black-and-white thinking. quite the opposite actually. #so. i've gotta work on seeing people as works-in-progress rather than writing them off as incorrigible monsters #but.... lemme just vent first 🤬 #love my pastor though. i was raised jewish‚ and he was adopted by a jewish family when he was 13 and almost became jewish himself #so i feel like we have similar spiritual backgrounds and see eye-to-eye on a lot of things #after my argument with the above asshole‚ my pastor and i spoke at length about what was happening in gaza and how horrible it all is #as well as topics like zionism‚ antisemitism‚ and the torah #he's such a good guy. i'm sad he's retiring :( #i feel like we need him now more than ever to keep speaking out about the genocide #and to make sure views like the one mentioned above don't take hold in our church #cw: genocide #cw: racism

[knowlesian]

whenever i watch midnight mass i am always struck by the contrast between bev and annie in their last moments

annie who meets the sun with faith and leads what’s left of her congregation in song, even knowing what they’ve done and that she is about to die because of it

and bev, who finds no fellowship and no forgiveness because she has never actually wanted to cultivate the first and she doesn’t think she’s done anything in her entire life that she might need forgiveness for, not even from god

#mike being a former altar boy who is now an atheist but not a shitty reverse evangelical about it means he is uniquely qualified here imo #i have never met anyone more accurately angry at the church than people who used to love some of the things they found there #because the church is annie and it is bev and it is leeza and erin and warren and on and on #annie who sings of her love for god in the face of death and bev who only ever loved power and control gained through god #they’re from the same place they learned the same hymns #it’s hard to explain how i can still find beauty in a religion i know way too much about to not spend a lot of time angry re: everything #but there you go #it’s annie singing as dawn breaks

[hobisexually]

why is January 2929293929 days long this year

#every day I wake up and . don’t want to #every day I have to drag myself to work and be entirely unhappy #and take every micro interaction as rejection #every day I think I have to push myself onto people in order to reach out and get what I want #but every time I’ve tried at work I don’t get it #and all my friends have a person that’s more important than me and I’m left behind #(the people I see every day or used to that is) #I attached so much of my value to work because it was the one thing I had a passion for #the one thing I could do #and now that’s gone and what the fuck do I have left #every day I sit at work and want to be so angry at everyone and I am but I’m also not and that’s what makes it worse #because I love them!!!!! I do!!!!!! but I get treated like SHIT #and everyone pretends it’s normal? #And then advises me to be More Forward in what I want? #when all I’ve been DOING is dragging myself out of comfort zones I have never been this uncomfortable ever and for WHAT #every day I’m in actual physical pain that MAYBE a surgery will be able to fix #every day I have to fight my piece of shit anxiety and seasonally depressed brain #every day I have to do physical therapy exercises or yoga or pelvic floor shit or mental therapy or whatEVER the fuck just to #find a sliver? of happiness somewhere? #And for WHAT #it hasn’t gotten me anywhere has it it hasn’t gotten me anything I wanted #tomorrow I’ll be able to look at the things I built and be happy about it again (maybe) #but today? #it’s a bad day #it’s such a BAD FUCKING DAY #I have cried every day since Sunday so far which is not normal for me I cry like five times a year usually #and my brain is screaming at me to isolate myself because at #least that way I’ll be safe from disappointing anyone #I hate when it’s a dark pit like this but what the fuck man #also the state of the goddamn world is. bad. and making me spiral worse and I just . 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠

[daz4i]

i hate you people who treat mental illness as something scary i hate you people who act like every asylum is haunted i hate you people who stick their nose into mentally ill people’s lives and creation i hate you people who treat the mentally ill as less human i hate you people who treat the mentally ill as specimen to be watched or a form of entertainment or horror i hate you ableists i hate you

#the side effect of being angry over one thing is that now i'm angry at everything i run into fr. #a video that got into the history of asylums in the us. mentioning how today the situation is good....... uuuuuuh #don't think i ever met any person who had a positive experience in a mental hospital or better than when they came in. myself included #really i mostly just hear abt people saying they were traumatized or getting misdiagnosed and therefore a lacking/wrong treatment #again. myself included. i'm still pissed off over it years later lol #then again who knows abt how it is in the us (he says after talking to people from the us who shared similar experiences) #it's almost as if stripping mentally ill people of their freedom and shoving medicine down their throat and taking away even more of their - #- rights for not behaving perfectly or even tying them up or electrocuting them ''for their safety'' is not a good course of action :) #man i feel like i need to tw the shit out of this so uh #ableism // #medical abuse // #??? idk is that even a tag???? #lmk pls i don't wanna accidentally trigger anyone

[spookyboywhump]

How are Zander’s moms when they find out Wren was sent to spy bcs he’s the only one who didn’t have a family, or close people outside of work?

They are. Deeply upset by that.

#and they make sure that’s not a circumstance he’s in. ever again #he’s theirs now. they’re his family. he has family and friends and people who love him #and will notice he’s gone if something happens #they are. extremely upset that he was treated like he was just. disposable. #they’re probably a lot more angry about it than he is even #even if they didn’t know he existed when that happened he still should’ve been treated better and his safety should’ve been ensured #they care about him a lot….. #oc stuff #wren #Valerie #Georgia #anonymous

[meezer]

spending this much time and effort and energy working towards a career path I really do not like or want or will ever go into is really taking the wind out of my sails not gonna lie. and making me hate the humanities 😍

#I hate teaching with every fiber of my being #I like translation but that's a dead-end field if nobody cares about the languages that you know (and nobody cares about romanian) #also any good translation job would probably require me to live in brussels. I do not want to live in brussels. you see my problem here #I used to like reading but then I stopped because video games is more fun #then I started reading a little more (just poetry but it's a start) and then I majored in literature and now I can't stand reading #absolutely fucking hate it #there must be THOUSANDS. of students who study in the same building as me. and yet. the bathrooms are insanely small. no bathroom has more #than 3 stalls. oftentimes you will spend your whole 10 minute break waiting in line for the bathroom. not to mention the fact that #the bathrooms never have basic fucking neccesities like toilet paper or soap. #I must've built up a reputation as a pissboy and a freak because ever since uni started I've basically been taking jabs at #the bathroom situation in conversations with T. she knows too and she hates it because she also uses the student bathrooms. AND YET. NOTHIN #HAS CHANGED. DESPITE US rightfully complaining for A YEAR about the horrible conditions. #man I'm just really angry. that this is how I spend my time. it's a waste of time the time will pass anyway yes #but it seems like an especially horrible way for the time to pass #it's like oh I could spend the next 30 minutes in this empty room looking at the wall #or I could spend it giving myself electric shocks for fun and stimulation #and I was essentially forced into giving myself the electric shocks cause other people think it would be good for my future. whatever man

[heniareth]

I wish the marketing industry a very please die

#reviewing a document on how to market to kids and i just want to burn the whole thing to the ground #it talks about community and the need for companionship and mental health and everything. EVERYTHING goes back to how can we use that #*to promote our brand #leave the kids alone for fuck's sake #what are you gonna prey on kids' loneliness to have them buy more product? you gonna foment the already present addiction to social #media for a few clicks and some cash? fuck you. fuck you fuck you fuck you to the sun and back #advertising to kids should be forbidden #let's tell a heartwarming story about friendship and cameraderie to advertise pur products IS NOTHING SACRED ANYMORE #they talk about the fucking dopamine loop that happens on social media and i don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing in their eyes #''being where they escape'' written over a photo of a skateboard park with a huge ad hanging over the ramps IT'S NOT AN ESCAPE ANYMORE NOW #image of 3D avatars with speech bubbles over them with stuff like ''let's play'' or ''what's up?'' and the figures are all just. looking #*into the distance. is there a more poignant depiction of loneliness in an online hyperconected world?? and i think it's unironically meant #to be a positive depiction of people having fun in a virtual world and yet ALL OF THEM ARE STANDING AROUND AND SYARING INTO NOTHING #antithesis of fun. they talk about overload of information in the context of how to cut through the noise and basically scream louder than #*anyone else. for God's sake if kids are overloaded don't expose them to more????? wtf??? if ''constant exposure to global issues and #*social media are resulting in their need for mental health support'' maybe don't try to build places for them on FUCKING social media?? #like are we dumb? do we build playgrounds on highways now?? you talk about the fine line between escapism and avoidance and then about the #dopamine loop?? this industry is predatory to the most extreme degree and i hate it to death. if i ever have kids i'll buy myself a brick #*nokia and relinquish all social media. fuck all of this. the worst part is i WORK here and i should be able to do something to make it #*better but fuck if i know how. can the ship bee saved or do we have to burn it to the ground. i am so angry #swearing #vent post

[hellfireeddiemunson]

sick of making plans with a specific friend only for her to not reach out abt actually hanging out until the afternoon after i’ve waited all day to hear back from her or for her to just cancel last minute entirely after i’ve again waited all day to hear back from her

#like i genuinely fucking get that sometimes life is exhausting and you’re tired and sometimes you need to take care of urself before hanging #out with people but for it to be so fucking consistent is exhausting for ME #we don’t even fucking make plans that often it’s literally maybe once a fucking month if that #like you’re telling me somehow whenever we have plans that’s when you’re SOOOOOO exhausted ?????? but you left the house 39203 other times #to do shit that takes up way more mental capacity than sitting bat your house smoking weed for a while and catching up????? #i just don’t fucking get it dude i really don’t #if i make plans with someone and the day of i don’t want to anymore i always tell them right fucking away so they don’t spend all day waitin #around and planning their entire day around it just to get fucked over #idk i’m just frustrated and probably need to eat something and i’ll be less angry #i’m just like. upset bc i don’t understand why she only ever seems to cancel on me or only seems to be soooooo exhausted when it’s the day #we planned to hang out like i just think it’s unfair to me and i Have expressed this in general before so it’s like ok cool #thanks for taking my own feelings and time into consideration 🙄🙄😐 #like i literally love and adore my friends more than life itself and it just hurts and is shitty when someone doesn’t act the same even tho #they’ve said the opposite idk #i genuinely hope i don’t sound like a dick right now bc i truly really understand when ppl are mentally exhausted or deal with chronic issue #issues* bc fucking SAME HERE I ALSO DEAL WITH ALL RHAT so it’s like idk i just don’t wanna sound like a dick i am just upset i’m not feeling #like i’m loved the same as i love people idk this always happens to me i feel like i just love too much and i over project and then when i #don’t get the same things in return i feel like people actually don’t like me or secretly are tryin to separate from me idk it’s shitty i #hate it so bad i want a normal brain this shitnfucking sucks #my brain is going too hard now tho i need to stop before i spiral for real right here right now on tumblr dot com

[skelejon]

"Not to defend the monarchy but-" I am going to stab you in the throat

#i am. angry. as a poor disabled trans person i could not be angrier at how much the country is spending on some dead old woman #6 billion. 6 fucking billion. people are starving in their homes. people are dying in the streets. #6 fucking goddamn billion. shes DEAD why does it matter???? let them pay for their own fucking funeral god knows they can afford it. #help the people who need it instead! raise benefits! stop letting CHILDREN starve! stop letting ANYONE starve! #i cant stand it here. get me out get me out. #and im lucky too. my dad helps me cover rent. most people dont have that. but even then i am maxing out one meal a day because i cant #afford anything more. im fighting off old college debt. im dragging out the last of my hrt because i was forced to go private and its too #expensive to keep up. i am stressed all of the time with bills and food and just surviving so i scrape my pennies together to get to treat #myself to a night out every now and then. because saving that occasional £20 isnt gonna get me out of this. it wont pay the rent. it wont #pay the bills. it wont get enough food to make it worthwhile. and half the time my friends pay for me to be out too. they know im #struggling so they do what they can to give me a break sometimes. but some months i have to borrow from them just to pay my water bill or #wifi bill. and thats not right. ive paid them back but i still feel i owe them more than i could ever give