#people go off trying to figure it out

[mumblesplash]

heartbreaking: this viral post is saying things you completely agree with in the most irritating way possible

#mumbling #goD #thinking about that one cringing = pearl clutching post i saw a while ago #legitimately good points and the only time i’ve ever seen someone point out the linguistic shift #of ‘cringe’ going from verb to adjective and how that takes the blame off of the people DOING the cringing #like yeah! that’s it that’s the thing i’ve been trying to figure out how to say!! #the insidious shift from cringe as an action of the beholder to a property of the beheld is not only worth examining #but demonstrates a seriously important way our brains can be affected over time by language #that was something i didn’t even notice! sure it bothered me but i didn’t know how to express WHY #and i think it’s so cool to see someone finally manage to articulate smth that’s been pissing me off for years #HOWEVER #my god was op’s phrasing annoying the hell out of me for some reason #just written in such a grating writing style i couldn’t bring myself to reblog it even though i really wanted to

[shevr]

whats down there

#shevr #my lines #experiment in expanding on a rough thing which i don't think turned out stellar but i still spent too long on it so it goes here #should i try to get in a habit ofsharing stuff easily so i can get gratification on doodling a few things and so do it more often ? #or should i knock that off and be cooler about it and just do things for myself ? idk i still haven't figured that out #wanna be one of the cool people who share a cool cool piece once in a while but still do tons of awesome sketches that r never shared yknow #that's maybe not me yet but maybe someday aaaah hey. hey you should go listen to Get Inspired by Genesis Owusu btw

[wyldhunt]

HADES II ↳ Hecate — Ἑκατη, "The Far-reaching One"

#supergiant hades #hades supergiant #hades 2 #hades game #supergiant games #hecate #hecate (hades) #mygifs #gamingedit #gamingdaily #holy fucking CHRIST trying to figure out what things hecate has dominion of to put into a gif is a nightmare #HECATE DO LESS PLEASE #she's got magic the night the moon AND light and fire and plants and ghosts and ghouls and graves and necromancy and crossroads #AND boundaries and according to some people THE WHOLE UNDERWORLD and she works from all realms GIRL JUST TAKE A FUCKING NAP HECATE #HAVE SOME GARLIC AND GO TO SLEEP FOR A BIT QUEEN #also trying to decide between ''the far reaching one'' or ''the worker from afar'' for her name translation was Dificil #but more people referenced hecate meaning ''far off'' or ''far reaching'' so i figured that'd work best as a generalization #anyways hi witch mommy i love you and your unexpected shredded muscles #im gonna be making a matching melinoe one later !

[starphenie]

whenever i think of how nikki's personality has changed from her first game to her latest i get so emotional.. bring back silly lazy genki girl nik </3

#they grow up so fast #shining nikki #nikki up2u #shining nikki fanart #nikki #my art #going thru an incomprehensible number of time loops will change you fr #not to be a momo sympathizer but i imagine one day he woke up and she was suddenly so patient and mature. lost all her airheadedness #had no interest in her usual hobbies. and he never figured out why while she was on time loop. number 100 or something #like yes nikki’s lacking in personality because she’s the mc and it makes for a more immersive story but HC WISE after trying so many times #and experiencing the same thing over and over again u probably stop trying a bit and start observing #just smiling and nodding #WHENEVER u go visit her house in sn and shes dicking around eating chips and practicing her dance routine or whatever THAT is nikki #not bending over backwards to help people or thinking of her next move.. shes spiritually never taken off her goofy rubber boots ok #shes just a lil different now. because of the time traveling #and the death

[coldgoldlazarus]

Maybe the solution to egg discourse, is that sometimes suggestions help trans people figure it out, and sometimes it pushes them deeper into denial instead, and so we shouldn't be making broad assumptions about what is or isn't good for someone, and just take each instance on a contextual basis?

#not a reblog #just based off the trans people I know #some were delayed for years by egg jokes #some were massively helped by them #some really wish they had had that help #and some wish they had that help but knowing them before and after figuring themselves out. it probably wouldn't have #people have different experiences #maybe I just have a weirdly diverse sampling to work with #but at least to me it feels like #both the egg prime directive #and the inverse response to that #are trying to simplify a nuanced question that isn't going to have the same answer every time #discourse

[theshadowrealmitself]

Fell asleep last night thinking about an au where Norman recovers from being the Green Goblin, but he ended up doing some really creepy stuff beforehand including attacking Peter as he was Peter Parker and not Spidey and then keeping him locked up for several days (Peter ends up with a few scars from it)

Norman avoids any jail time because he’s rich and revealed somewhat of the truth, that a medicine he was working on for himself had terrible side effects, no one knows about him being the Goblin, they only know about him attacking Peter

Peter is able to successfully get a restraining order against him tho, but Norman’s a jackass who keeps hanging out on the fringe of the distance he’s supposed to be at and speaking/yelling at Peter, stuff like “when you finally forgive me and drop this restraining order, I’ll be here with open arms,” and “Uncle Ben wouldn’t want you to hold this hate in your heart” and because of the previous mentioned richness, Peter can’t do anything unless Norman steps too closely

And tbh Peter mostly got the restraining order because he was worried it would look suspicious if “Peter Parker” didn’t seem too badly affected by things, since he was used to being attacked by Norman as Spiderman

But now that he’s keeping Norman away, even if he still hangs around, and he has visible scars from it that everyone can see, and everyone knows about the court case and what happened and keep asking him if he’s okay, he’s…starting to acknowledge that it all was traumatizing, not just the kidnapping event but the whole thing with the Green Goblin, that he was just pretending it wasn’t because he’s a hero, and people seeing how badly it’s been affecting him is actually healing in a way

#part of the au #was that Peter runs Parker Industries #and although most people are on Peter’s side #every time there’s a science event the people who set it up complain at him and try to get him to drop his restraining order against Norman #because they’re going to invite Norman #he’s rich and runs a science company #but they also have to invite Peter because even if it’s a small company he’s always putting out amazing inventions #and it makes it difficult for the organizers to plan it with the two of them always staying a certain amount away #so they’re dicks. #and Miles was upset that people could just harass Peter about his restraining order and that he’d have to deal with someone who hurt him #at this event #so he gets his dad involved as some unofficial security guard since Norman probably paid off all security at the event #which was really sweet of Miles but now Peter has no way of escaping as Spiderman #and then I fell asleep before figuring out how he’d get around that because if Miles is also at the event then his dad #would be paying attention to him too especially if Norman Osborn is nearby #so that’s why this section isn’t in the body of the post #I love Norman Osborn but sometimes gotta acknowledge he was a creep who greatly traumatized Peter #Peter Parker #Norman Osborn #Spiderman #spider man #spider-man #the green goblin

[trans-axolotl]

have not left bed today + found out another friend got locked up + want to beat up every single adult that saw what was happening to me and looked away or actively made it worse

#personal #vent #suicide mention tw #i need to call her. last time we talked she said she was going to kill herself if she got incarcerated again #i love her. nothing makes me more angry at so many systems than trying to do suicide support with my friends who are locked up #trying to do this shit over the phone with people listening in. trying to figure out what meaningful support we can even give #because when she says that death is better than months of solitary i know exactly how she feels and what she means and i cannot fucking #most of the skills mainstream peer support has ever taught me are useless in that situation and my best is not enough #there are so many places that need to be burnt down. #there are so many people i love who are not out and it starts to kill me a little bit #and cops are starting to fuck with us here more. i've gotten bruised up a couple times from being shoved around #nothing too bad yet but just #jesus christ #sorry for coming on here to vent all the time but my offline life is a little crazy at the moment and half this shit i can't talk about irl #i honestly think i need to like. start learning how to fight properly again. bc i have so much anger right now #and learning how to actually fight sounds like a better idea then fucking off and getting into random fights like i used to #idk. will look into it

[soft-serve-soymilk]

See for everyone else their viscomm research is all serious like going out and taking photos and brainstorming and meanwhile me viddy games go brrrrrrrrr

#dad i need to borrow your laptop for serious research *boots up p3 reload* #IT'S CALLED EMOTION MAPPING AND ANALYSIS I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT FLAWS IN JRPG CITIES AND TOWNS #like i need a design problem. so far i've thought of a couple angles but you truly need to do the fieldwork to understand. #but in the meantime. ease of navigation is one. yongen-jaya is notorious for confounding people who haven't played p5 #NOBODY seems to know where Sojiro's home is initially (bc it blends in like crazyyyyy) #there's also speed and efficiency whilst maintaining immersion (Tales cities kill me a little for how cumbersome they can be) #There's also fast travel: the penultimate staple. I want to investigate that too and how it factors into things #And finally. Is it a want or need to be different aesthetically for the designs of Calomel and Amonea and Seraphin and the like #I NEED MY DESIGN PROBLEM ;-; what is my design problem. off i go to research guys

[indigodawns]

.

#these are just some thoughts re: friendship as a result of tonight that i need to jot down somewhere but #realising that i really do have a strict and set idea of Good Friend(ship) and what that entails to me #and id written people off bc i wasn't yk ~receiving love or friendship the way id prefer and i was angry with them for that/hurt about it #did i communicate that to them though? nooo. was i fully right in that? also no. like just bc i felt unheard didn't fully mean #that they were doing something wrong. they were trying in their own way (and sometimes they weren't really or it just wasn't nice) #but that's about how we match and how we communicate right? this is so silly that's so basic but it never fully clicked for me like this #i was blaming them for stuff and building up resentment without ever expressing that (and i still haven't yk dhshsjd) #and i think where i went ~wrong was in thinking that bc i felt that way they weren't ~giving me what i need #when it's like... but did i pick up on the ways in which they DID appreciate me and show me love etc? did i give them ANYTHING to work with? #(ok yes occasionally but also... tangent but i was watching a variety show and they were teasing woozi about how #he gives interviewers/hosts literally nothing to work with. like no extra information for them to ask about or tease him for or anything #and i was like ohhhhhh. yeah i do do that sometimes with friends and it's genuinely smth i don't really know how to do like #giving casual information (but not too much and not too little???) so they can then ask questions etc. so then if im like ughh #they never ask (the right) questions or show interest (or let me talk but that's a different thing dhsjdjd) it's like... #well do i give them the chance to? much to think about thank you woozi) #anyways where was i dhsjsnsnsjns idk but it's soooo annoying that i haven't figured this all out yet #but im slowly letting go off a bunch of resentment that has truly no business being here and im trying to self reflect and all that #and im honestly doing so shit some days but others days it's? finding stuff that matters to me on a deeper level ig? #and all of it really does pale in the face of multiple genocides and it's. but yk. if i want to keep fighting #i need to build a strong foundation and sort my shit out as well and be present so im really really trying #and beating my stupid stupid depression and brain with a stick until i get there

[mihai-florescu]

So considering that the climaxes are the way they are, at this point my best guess is that the premise of tatsumi's center is gonna be. A western right wing hate group starts associating with one of their songs. How do alkaloid stop that.

#im not trying to figure out what the plot actually will be #i have nothing to go off of #im just trying to think of something ridiculous but not entirely impossible to happen a la all the other climaxes #i chose alkaloid for this because they have the soldier theme but ultimately theyre all members of some minority group #itd hurt Especially bad. in particular if it was a western christian right wing group clashing with tatsumi's christianity which is not at- #ALL like that #i just think itd be interesting and maybe then i could stop seeing those horrible takes by people stereotyping tatsumi to what they know #western christianity is like #thered also be this. you know how alkaloid were struggling with getting recognition and making it and becoming popular #to become popular with the wrong people that you morally dont agree with would be so painful

[hershelchocolateart]

GIRL HELP I WASNT EXPECTING THE SATURATION PSA TO BE THE MOST POPULAR DRAWING-RELATED THING IVE EVER MADE IN MY LIFE

#ITS STILL GOING #i had to turn off notifs it was just too much and all the comments were people being upset #shoutout to the one person who left a tag about my sona being cute tho <3 #not art #god its so scary tho #i still dont really know what to do with myself now #i want to get back to drawing things but im terrified of it now not gonna lie #had to force myself to do a just right of an evening panel today and couldnt keep going #i know how to fix it now! i do! #but theres no point to it if i cant fix it on toyhouse #so im just sitting here feeling scared and overwhelmed and also not drawing #my queue still has some stuff tho so that should be going for a while while i get back on my feet! #good luck everyone out there also trying to figure out what to do!

[bookshelf-in-progress]

Nothing better than when you brainstorm a whole new angle on a story that opens up a wide vista of possibilities and turns a blocked idea into something that could become a complete and satisfying narrative.

Nothing worse than when you write those new ideas down and discover it's still nowhere near enough to write a whole story.

#adventures in writing #twice this week already #once with the maid maleen #which was a wonderful daydream but turned out to be mostly an opening scene or two #and some painful yearning in the second half of the story #and now today i came up with a whole new angle on an old cinderella idea #figured out who these characters actually are as people instead of just slotting them into their fairy tale roles #and trying to make them match the characters that inspired them #figured out a writing style that could overcome all my structural difficulties and make it possible to write this story #i have all sorts of meta about the central couple and their backstories #and then when i go to outline it's like #where's the plot that holds this together? #i did find workarounds for my flimsiest spots i think #it would probably still be much more complicated than i want to write at the moment #but oh the daydream was so beautiful #it pains me that i can't share it just as it was #before the polish rubbed off

[icewindandboringhorror]

Bad news, got back from the vet and my beautiful baby son is going to have to be put down soon, probably tomorrow or the next day, so send him best of wishes for his next few days~ Luckily, he's actually not in a lot of pain (for now, hopefully he won't be) and is acting pretty normal, so I'm hoping he won't suffer at all and everything will be peaceful for him.

#pet death tw #death mention #let me know if I need any other tags #I would post something to help pay for his euthanasia expenses or etc. but I don't know of any secure methods #since I don't know much about stuff like that. I've heard that like on paypal and ebay and stuff people can still get your real name #and some information from their payment receipts or whatever sutff like that. thats part of why I've held off on selling clothes and sculpt #res for so long is trying to find a way to do it that's the most safe. aside from literall yhaving to start an llc and open a business bank #account and run everything on an entirely sepreate thing just so it has no association with my name and etc. #and obviouskly I don't feel like figuring out all of that stuff right now lol #I am busy just trying to make my beautiful meatloaf son comfortable and spend some time with him whilst I can #It's sad. but I'm glad the issues were caught before he was in terrible pain or anything. So suprisingly it was actually a pretty easy #decision. I would rather him go out while he's feeling okay and relatively content then wait until he's in severe #pain or extremely lethargic or etc. So it seems all very sudden but . It's better that way for him. #anyway #of COURSE this has to happen during a heat wave also.. hhrgghhh... #more fuel for my vendetta against summer lol.. Not that it's the season's fault but. something bad happening in the winter #vs. seomthing bad happening in the summer which just adds an extra layer of 'oh yeah on top of everything else #you're going to be sweating and nauseous and chronically uncomfortable!' is like.. >:T #Also for him. part of the issue is lung cancer which has spread and caused a bunch of fluid to build up in his stomach (which is what I #noticed. even though he's acting perfectly fine and normal his stomach was weird and bloated suddenly) #but if part of the problem is his lungs (which look absolutely crazy on xray) then him breathing in hot shitty thick air is definitely #not as comfortable as if he were able to be nice and cool and snuggled in some blankets. etc. etc. #ANYWAY ghhb... send him much luck and positivity!! Really hoping he can make it through the next day or so without #taking a turn for the worst. So hopeing for a peaceful quiet exit and not like tramatic sudden things. etc. etc. #cross your fingers pray to your gods whisper to the night sky so on and so forth. whatever you do that's meaningful to you.

[comixandco]

waiiiiit, now you made me think about other thing.... so, let's assume mermaids can get pregnant in human way right, but their child then has to be a merperson, because how would then a mermaid transform, if she turns into literal water... i can already imagine a pregnant mermaid and a baby with a littleee tail inside her LMAOOO.

no, actually, when mermaid transforms, the baby teleports to the backrooms /j

this goes sooo deep i just sought out a couple episodes of mako mermaids bc i remembered the guy was adopted and like. babies have to be brought up in that discussion right? And in the episode the teacher mermaid says “your mother was the only mermaid strong enough to stop you from getting your tail” which implies that????? they’re born without tails????????? How long are they babies with legs do the mermaids give birth on land and then return to the sea and their babies get tails then? do their tails slowly form as they grow older? if they have to become human to give birth why is it so unheard of for the mako mermaid girls to go on land for their mission? have they never seen any merbabies? there are canonically mermaids younger than them! And why does the h2o wiki refer to one of the characters as coming from a long line of mermen are mermaids not involved in the process do mermen get pregnant like seahorses????? why did they have to make mako mermaids and make everything so confusing?????? *cries*

putting mako mermaids aside because that’s a hot Mess. Would the baby also turn into water? it wasn’t in the moon pool but it’s parent was and the moon pool changes a person’s entire dna so like. it would change the eggs dna as well right? but the egg is only half of the dna and there would also be a human half that shouldn’t respond to water at all. does the mer dna overpower the human dna? would onlookers see a random tiny foetus floating in the air/water for a split second before the mermaid reappears around it?

yeah the baby goes wherever cleo’s coat went in the second episode

#dericelem #mako mermaids #h2o just add water #like. i get why the mermaids clothes change to their matching bra technically like if their trousers are going missing their tops should to #and it is not kid-show friendly for the mermaids clothes to rip werewolf-style every time they transform #but cleo’s coat was barely on her when she was in miriam’s pool it was floating up so much. lewis saw it disappear and he won’t tell me #where it went because he is a fictional character for a series that is almost 2 decades old and he had more pressing questions than ‘where #did the coat go?????’ in that moment and we understand that but it’s still upsetting #sorry the coat is another thing entirely #i think the lore-writing for this series was ‘if it’s cool and makes for a good episode we’ll incorporate it. if it’s a question #we can’t immediately answer or argue about and it doesn’t have to come up in the show we just wave our hand and say the moon did it’ #and that is a valid way to move forward. they didn’t realise at the time how big h2o would be or that people would still be trying #to figure out the parameters of the world they made almost two decades ago lmfao #the babies have to survive though right???? like. we can’t emma’s horrible red hair away a baby #it would be absolutely fucked up though if the baby disappeared every time they got wet and then the pregnancy reappeared once they dried #off #’cleo you can’t transform this late into the pregnancy we don’t know what will happen!’ ‘but my back hurts!’ #fun fact h2o takes place in the same universe as shape of water and this is how the fishman thing was made /j

[hella1975]

i have such a reputation that four separate people incorporated pringles into my birthday gifts. be that girl

#to the point my one mate today (the one i almost ditched in that seminar LMAO) ((WAIT I NEED TO TELL YOUSE ABOUT HIM)) #anyway! he was like 'oh i actually got you something!' which given our dynamic despite RECENT DEVELOPMENTS AHEM #is so unusual like he was NOT required to get me a gift. but then i immediately was like 'it's pringles isn't it' #and he was just like 'sigh. yeah' LMFAOOOOO #and you know what? chuffed to utter bits. ive already eaten half of them in 24 hours. scranning even more as i type this #anyway back to that guy. so you know i sometimes mention my flatmate from first year who also happens to be on my course #so off the bat we've got a weird friendship bc he's not just a coursemate bc i also lived with him #but also first year halls were assigned not chosen so it's not like we were actually FRIENDS #especially bc my flat did NOTTT get on lmfao so me and him were mainly just. acquaintances who lived and studied together? #very strange foundation to have with someone. but we went all of second year barely staying in contact #and then this year we live in the same area and for the LIFE of me i cant remember how we got back in contact #but all of a sudden we were messaging every day and meeting up before lectures and sitting together in them and stuyding together etc #and we get on REALLY well like he has my exact sense of humour i know ive posted about him several times #over the past three years being like 'me and this guy are the funniest people i know' 'he would do bits on tumblr' etc #AND THE OTHER WEEK HE ADMITTED THAT HE LIKES ME AND WE WENT ON A DATE #AND IT WENT REALLY WELL BUT I CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME FIGURE OUT HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM #SO IM TRYING NOT TO PUT PRESSURE ON ANYTHING and i was super clear w him also that im not actively searching for anything #so if smthn happens organically then it happens but if not it's my final year and that will always take priority and he was super chill #so i dont feel like i HAVE to make a decision just yet but we're going out again tomorrow #and it's like. even if it doesnt become smthn romantic i just really click with him?? like we get on so well??? IT'S SO FUN #AND THAT'S WHAT MATTERS! WOOHOO! pringles post derailed by a MAN. awful #hella goes to uni

[casualavocados]

okay at first i was like, why is ayan threatening to tell people akk's the one bringing the curse back when he already said he wouldnt. ayan also claimed he didnt believe akk anymore about not stealing the notebook bc of what he’s "now" seen akk do - but he’s known akk was behind things since the beginning. and actually the only motive i can come up with is that he was worried about what akk would do if he was left alone that night, because akk kept trying to get away from him, and not letting ayan help him. so ayan threatened to tell people that akk was bringing the curse back if he didnt stop.

and i realized that... something huge about ayan's past is that he witnessed his uncle’s suicide. and IF im interpreting this episode correctly, you have to consider that aspect of trauma alongside the way he acts towards akk, & the reactions he gets from akk.

akk pushes ayan away when ayan says he needs to think of himself first. akk leans into ayan’s hug at first but then pushes him away again and tries to leave. so ayan follows and does what he’s done in the past. he threatens. he gets a rise out of akk, a confrontation akk can't back out of rather than an attempt to escape. and maybe ayan only does that because he’s scared. maybe he’s scared of leaving akk alone, not knowing what akk will do - whether it be continue the curse or something worse. he needs to make sure akk will stop.

so throughout the rest of the episode, as ayan drags akk back to the school to search for his notebook, it’s possible that what he’s really doing is just keeping akk busy. and it works because they settle back into the same teasing/exasperated relationship they had before. it smooths things between them. but the balance doesn’t truly tip into where it needs to be until ayan has his nightmare, and akk hurries to comfort him. after their conversation on the beach, things couldn't go back to the way they were before, but couldnt move forward either. akk isn’t the only one who needed to show weakness in this ep, ayan needed to as well. especially since while they were searching for the notebook he avoided akk’s question abt why it was important again. they both needed to lean on each other this ep. they both need to learn to trust each other. so i can’t wait to see what comes next, and how ayan eventually opens up about the truth of his relationship with dika and what happened to him.

#the eclipse #suicide mention #suicide tw #ive been thinking abt this all day trying to figure out why those scenes felt off and why this ep was written that way #and then i was like oh wait its the trauma. #i mean i HOPE thats what it is otherwise the writing doesnt add up #so hm. im thinking. #everything that follows the beach scene makes more sense if you work it under the idea #that ayan is scared of letting akk go without some kind of promise or resolution that he's not going to do this again #*because people could get hurt* #*because dika DID get hurt* #and he uses the only tactic he has that has so far worked against akk's need for control over a situation #me watching the dialogue in front of the bushes over and over and over trying to analyze everything abt it #their expressions akk's tension ayan's tone of voice #its gotta mean something more than what their words are saying and i think THIS is what its saying #but i could just be making shit up to compensate idk! #im trying so hard here bc they nailed the first and last emotional scenes but how they got from one to the other left me so stumped #and idk if THIS is what the writers meant to do or if its what im imagining to make myself feel better #the eclipse the series