#perhaps. if u want it to be

[stavosmissionary]

(some) gender nonconforming and androgynous characters in asoiaf

much thanks to @staysail who was the advisor and co-conspirator for this post <3

#my gifs #blood tw #long post #any nonsense on this post will be blocked. #notes #i really really wanted to include sam #its hard to find a plus size child. but i shall keep lookinh #merlin suggested the visenya fc..thank u bestie <3 #i also really regret not being able to find a proper buff fc for bri. alas #for obara too. pretend shes a teen here #part 2 perhaps.... #with people i missed like #sam baela the mormonts elissa farman qarl the maid lysono marr etc

[adamarks]

@rainbowrowell at the end of carry on, you thank Christopher Schelling for insisting you have a higher body count. Who was originally going to live? Ebb? Some numpties? The Mage? Simon’s sense of purpose? (this one never had a chance) inquiring minds etc etc 🎤

#If u have time if u want to etc etc #ty if u see this even #hope ur having a good day #TWO SERIOUS QUESTIONS NOW I’m getting ballsy #rainbow rowell #perhaps Lucy’s chickens were gonna live

[kiwiaok]

firm believer in neil josten having just as many issues with sex as andrew

#u want to tell me that the boy that’s been warned his entire life about the dangers of letting another person close is chill about sex? #nahhh I ain’t buying this shit #he might not be touch averse and he might be very willing to try #but I can see him feeling all wrong afterwards #his skin crawling and feeling used and dirty and disgusting #it doesn’t matter that he wanted it #sex is intimacy and closeness and trust and dangerous and so very scary #am I projecting? perhaps #aftg #all for the game #andreil #neil josten

[arsenicflame]

Ed gets amnesia (Izzy-centric, pre s1 banishment, past edizzy to some degree)

It starts something like this: a rope left out after a raid, a captain showing off to the crew, a workload stretched too thin to have noticed the accident waiting to happen...

When Ed wakes, it's almost immediately clear something is wrong. He's lost a few years of memories- not much in the grand scheme of things, but it's enough that the man who lays in front of them is almost unrecognisable to the man they knew. He's from just at the point where he was starting to get frustrated with the 'ease' of being Blackbeard, tiring of his old life, but still so full of life and love in ways the present Ed forgot how to be.

He's a lot more on guard, for a start, waking up surrounded by strangers, even if they are treating him very nicely. He doesn't trust them, he doesn't even fake trusting them, just shuts them out completely.

Stede and Roach figure out what's going on pretty quickly and try to explain it to Ed after that, about what's happened and all the things he missed, but he doesn't believe them for a second- how could he? If he got hurt, Izzy would be there waiting for him to wake up. He always has been, always is, his predictable and reliable Izzy. He says as much to Roach and Stede, the only thing he will say, and they just... side-eye each other. They can't believe it- Izzy?

Anyway, Ed completely shuts down after that, so someone runs to get Izzy. Izzy, who had decided, after everything- especially the past few weeks on the revenge- that there's no way Ed would want him there. He's still lurking on deck because he can't stand not knowing how Ed is, but he knows that's not his place any more. So to say he's surprised when Stede comes and begrudgingly grabs him is an understatement- Stede doesn't tell him anything, obviously, just that Ed’s asking for him. 

The way Ed’s face lights up as he walks into the room is a punch to the gut. There's a cheerful greeting, the kind he hasn't received in years, and Ed’s yapping on about what he's been told and what happened and "this ship, Iz!" and he's just... floored. He can't say anything in response, not even to confirm their story because this is Ed, this is his Ed, who's face is turning worried, joking about how it looks like Izzy’s the one with a head injury, and Izzy can't cope. He just... storms out of the room.

Izzy’s up on deck, and he's not even yelling, or working, or really doing anything, just aimlessly coiling ropes in a daze when Ed appears on deck after him. He's thrown his leather jacket over whatever of Stede’s clothes he was wearing, a return to his Blackbeard armour to be seen by crew, and he jogs up to Izzy and starts getting handsy with him, physically turning him to looking him in the eyes and check he's ok, just generally being casual in a way that nobodies ever seen them- a way that nobody expected Izzy to tolerate (but of course he does, its Ed).

Izzy'll stutter out a response and Ed will wrap his arm over his shoulder, casually, like that's a thing they do. He'll ask for a tour, for him to explain everything, like what's the deal with this Stede guy. He's still enamoured with The Revenge and all its bells and whistles, only now he wants it with Izzy. It's all 'Iz' and 'mate' and affectionate and a side of their relationship even the Queen Anne crew haven't seen in years, a complete shock to absolutely everyone except this Ed.

Ed shows Izzy the model of The Revenge again and Izzy is both heartbroken and so indulgent because that's the Ed he had once, and he's going to take every second while he can. Ed can show him every single trinket on the entire ship if he wants. Izzy's always been willing to indulge Ed to some degree (it's Izzy, after all) but there's usually external factors, like they're in the middle of a raid, storming a hostile ship, or being chased down by the Spanish without any plan and over the years Izzy’s taken to just trying to redirect Ed quickly rather than letting him get distracted with the next shiny thing. It's been a sticking point between them, Ed's distractions and Izzy's rigidity and inability to have fun even when the occasions fitting.

But, for all Izzy's gripes with The Revenge, he does know it's safe for them- or at least that he could take on any member of this useless crew who tried to take advantage of his captain's momentary incapacity. So he does, for once, feels safe to indulge Ed. And God, he wants to. He has wanted to. He wants to watch him forever, like he did when they were little more than kids. He wants to forget all the mistakes he made just to see Ed smile and light up at him one more fucking time. He's not going to throw away this opportunity, no matter how badly it hurts him in the end.

Ed's memories don't come back in a day or so, so the crew keeps getting these shows of their relationship in a way they've never seen before- all these casual touches, and the way he'll turn to Izzy before anyone else, even Izzy laughing a couple of times. The crew gets to see a completely different Izzy- one more like the man he'd have been on The Queen Anne, a man they can see means something to Ed. He's not just his rotten first mate, a necessary evil of Blackbeard, at some point it becomes very clear that Ed did like Izzy, that he chose to have him around. It's like being back when Ed and Izzy were on the same page, at the height of Blackbeard, their partnership, when things were GOOD.

And of course, Izzy’s going along with all this. He's not telling him anything about the way they're different now, about how they finished breaking their matelotage 6 months back, about how they've been living at arms length for years, about how this simply isn't who they are to each other any more. He couldn't possibly do that, not when he gets to live the best days of his life all over again, just for a few short days. Maybe he'll get a week or two, if he's really lucky.

It's hurting him, obviously, it feels like his heart is being ripped out every time Ed touches him, every time he corners him in the depths of the ship (still so untrusting of this unknown crew- not helped by how they treat Izzy. He sees the side eyes and cruel comments and notices in a way the present version of him never did, too wrapped up in Stede and the madness of this ship) but hey. Izzy’s a masochist. He'll take anything Ed gives him, and he'll especially take this opportunity to have one last taste of what he's lost.

At the time it faded so slowly he didn't realise he was losing it until it was all gone, but he won't make that mistake this time. He knows their time together is limited, and he's going to take every fucking second he can and hold it close forever. If Ed makes him leave after he remembers? After he realises the way Izzy took advantage of him? It's worth it, to have this again, one last time.

#this is probably somewhere between too fleshed out and not fleshed out enough. yet somehow still not the right amount of substance #but i didnt want to waste another month making the additional thoughts ive had on this idea flow w the rest so this is what you get #perhaps ill come back and add my (mostly eds perspective on all of this) thoughts in at some point. who knows #if you want a vibe as to where that goes ; huge inspirations in this concept draw upon the lyrics #'But I hate when I feel like this / And I never hated you' :'''''') #(lyrics from poke by frightened rabbit which is your edizzy song recc of the week) #nyxtalks #ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #israel hands #edward teach #blackbeard #blackhands #edizzy #post dedicated to my dearest sage for bouncing this concept with me !!! i love u SO much

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

get his ass, matsuda

#death note #light yagami #touta matsuda #matsuda #matsulight #perhaps #blood #knife #wanted to do smth for the ides of march but i don’t feel like finishing anything so u get a sketch happy march 15th y’all

[phantastragoria]

🏳️‍🌈🌟 Happy Pride :^) 🌟🏳️‍🌈

#guardians of the galaxy #marvel's guardians of the galaxy #gotg game #peter quill #rocket raccoon #gamora zen whoberi #drax the destroyer #groot #nikki gold #adam warlock #mantis #universe: eidos game #my art tag #hiii i am still drawing im just stressed to DEATH #but i managed to finish this before pride month ended YIPPEE!!! happy pride month friends #i was going to draw this differently but the end of the month crept up on me and i didnt have time for something more detailed #perhaps next year... i wanted to include more characters but. u know. i wanted to have kammy with a flag strapped to her back but ALAS #but! the team at pride nonetheless 🏳️‍🌈 yeehaw and all that

[worthsmokee]

I might try Tumblr again...Twitter is such a shit show I need a break from that.. anyways here's something I did for Valentine's Day!

#gency #mercy overwatch #mercyfanart #genji shimada #genjiandmercy #genjixmercy #overwatch genji #overwatchgency #angela ziegler #gencyfanart bc i love them #still dont know how tumblr works #yes gency is totally canon bc i said so #he always listens to her #ref to their voiclines “perhaps bc u saved my life” #i want what they have

[lovesickeros]

☆ what a kind god, what a cruel god

{☆} characters zhongli {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings blood, light angst {☆} word count 0.5k

You are a kind God - with hands that heal instead of hurt. Words that forgive, instead of rightfully insult. The stories do little justice to the breadth of your gentleness, extending your love to the slimes that coalesce at your feet, eager to know the touch of the Divine. The birds that sing with the wind your praises from upon your shoulder.

But to him, your kindness is so very cruel.

They do not deserve it. He does not deserve it.

Your forgiveness should be a blessing after all they have done, but it feels like swallowing acid instead. It makes him feel sick and lightheaded, throat constricting until he struggles to breath against the weight of his sins, heavy upon his chest.

He wonders if your hatred would be easier. Even apathy, he thinks, would be preferable to the way your screams intermingle with the softness in your voice as you cradle his face between his hands within his dreams. Even in the waking world, your every word is shadowed by broken pleas, drowned in golden ichor as it rises up your throat, silencing your screams - it haunts him, and he cannot handle seeing the way you look at him in concern. He does not deserve it.

Try as he might, he cannot forgive himself. He does not think he ever can - not when he wakes to the feeling of blood on his hands, his tongue, filling his lungs until all he tastes and smells is blood.

If you had been a little less kind, he thinks he would find comfort in your cruelty.

Your anger would be a mercy.

But you are not. You are..kind. Gentle. So many things he once praised on bruised knees at an altar that towered far above him, drowned in gold and silks, every word he speaks a prayer to the most Divine. And he cannot bear the weight of knowing that he could have destroyed that part of you - he cannot bear knowing that he didn't, and you look upon the man who wore your blood like a second skin with a kindness that burns him like a hot iron.

He did not deserve such a loving God.

"..Zhongli?"

He pauses in his internal struggle, hands shaking on his lap. He clenches them into fists, blunt nails digging into his palms until they stop - yet you look at him with furrowed brows, concern gleaming in your eyes, and he feels sick all over again. But for you, he would do anything. Even if it meant pretending he did not feel like a monster in a mortals skin when you smiled at him like he was worth anything.

"Yes, Divine One?"

He chokes down the phantom taste of iron upon his tongue, forcing himself to smile to soothe the worries that crease your brow.

"You said you'd take me to the Chasm today."

He feels..relieved as the worry melts away from your features. It is the very least he can offer - he shall take upon your burdens, your worries, so that you may look upon Teyvat with love, and not fear. He will carry the sins of the many, so that you may look upon the nations with pride, and not horror.

It is all he can do, to ease the way his chest aches when you smile at him, hand tugging at his sleeve and forcing himself unsteadily to his feet.

He does not deserve you - but for today, he can pretend. Just a little while longer.

#sagau #self aware genshin #self aware genshin impact #genshin sagau #imposter au #sagau imposter au #fic tag #angst #zhongli #sagau zhongli #pulls out the whiteboard who wants 2 hear my psychoanalysis of zl in sagau!! #imposter au zl who resents himself and is just a little fucked up over what happened and refuses to accept that he can be forgiven :) #he needs therapy bc he refuses to accept that hes allowed 2 be a little traumatized!!!! #as u can see he did not handle anything well ever and he is mentally unwell. perhaps a little unstable. #making the genshin men as pathetic as possible one man at a time #I JUST THINK. there is a lot of potential 2 be had for post imposter au characters. #slaps zl this bad boy can fit so much self hatred and internal resentment and trauma and lack of self worth and #yeah :) #writes the most unhinged shit ever. refuses to elaborate. leaves

[f1shart]

idk guys. i saw the ref image, blacked out, and lo and behold this drawing exists (hey, it's not a doodle this time)

ref in question

read more for a bonus that is not a drawing this time ❗️❗️⬇️⬇️

indeed that is almeric davis, recreated in ts3, licking a phallic rainbow object...

you see 👉👈 when i was sick for a month (a week but i was gone for a month) i recreated ALL SEVENTEEN LFT STUDENTS in my beloved sims 3 game. i'm normal i'm normal i'm normal i'm normal i'm fine i'm normal (also a coinkydink: i'm sick again. ����😐😐😐😐)

#ts2 #tanmeric #guh so sick send help 😭 #tank grunt #almeric davis #la fiesta tech #shart #dk whether or not to tag this shitpost or not. it kinda is but iskkd #i guess me typing ''shitpost'' in that last tag will make it show up under shitpost anyway sigh #i love 80s/90s/00s photos they have this funky lighting effect where its like the shdows border the subject... kinda hard 2 explain #but you can tell a 80s/90s/00s photo apart from a modern day one because of it #perhaps if u want to see more of my sims 3 shenanigans i'll share them because i made a lot more than just the lft students 😌 #NO PROMISES THO CUZ I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING AT THE MOMENT 😭🙏 #boy i sure was talkative this time around

[legfish]

trible baka + cosplay

#the only mobei jun ive drawn and perhaps the only one ill ever draw #<- a hater #i think i said once that lbh was miku coded and im so serious #just for the record i think sqq would actually want to cosplay gakupo but would do luka to do shippy poses woth lbh. duh #sqh does not care but likes the humor of him and mbj being rin and len. also hes problematic enough to do it #also the triple baka protags should be self explanatory. if you dont get it sorry for u #scum villian self saving system #svsss #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #shang qinghua #mobei jun

[angelsdean]

HOUSE PARTY, ANYTOWN USA. 1999. [ ref image]

#are all these zoom in crops necessary ?? yes absolutely. i need u to see. i need you to get Closer. #there was a fourth one but i thought. perhaps. that was excessive. but i just want you to SEE. #destiel art #deancas art #destiel #deancas #my art

[albaharu]

“I am going to be normal about the trilogy today” i say everyday (failing)

#aka bunch of cornetto doodles i didnt know where to put #i have more that are a bit spicy for the random norms of whats allowed or not in this site #so if u want to see them u will have to ask me personally for them #(this is a trap to befriend more cornetto fans?? perhaps) #cornetto trilogy #the world's end #hot fuzz #shaun of the dead #the cornetto trilogy #angelbutter #nicholas angel #danny butterman #gary king #andy knightley #kingknight #shaun riley #ed sotd #steve prince #sam chamberlain #oliver chamberlain #peter page

[rebouks]

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Oscar: They left already? Matilda: I told them to. Oscar: You gonna take ‘em up on their offer n’ stay a while? Matilda: It’s better if I don’t, I’d rather get back to normal. Oscar: It might be-… Matilda: No-.. I’ll get changed, then we’ll go. [Oscar offered naught but a small nod, there was no point arguing; he’d tried to put himself in Matilda’s shoes, tried to imagine giving up one of his own children-.. but he couldn’t. He wanted to tell her how proud he was, though he knew she wouldn’t want to hear that; not now] Matilda: It’s just-.. harder than I thought it’d be. [Matilda wiped a stray tear against her knee with a grimace and a huff of frustration; annoyed at her own emotions] Oscar: I can’t imagine… … [Courtney sank to the ground and tugged Robin toward her, his tear-streaked face red and puffy. She’d failed to calm him down ever since they’d entered the room, but he wouldn’t tell her what the problem was] Courtney: Honey-.. remember what we talked about? You have to tell me what’s wrong. Robin: It hurts… Courtney: What does? [Robin rubbed his face dejectedly; unable to articulate an answer, he promptly burst into tears again instead] Courtney: Have you hurt your eye? Your ches-… [Robin interrupted Courtney will a shrill, restless “NO!” Courtney scooped Robin into her arms, heading for the door; a screaming toddler was not what Matilda needed right now] Courtney: We’ll wait in the car. [Oscar nodded and nibbled at his nails, concerned; it wasn’t like Robin to throw such a fit. Maybe the terrible twos were a couple years late-.. or maybe it was just the atmosphere…]

#ts4 #sims 4 #simblr #ts4 story #sims story #forever in between #fib #oscar finch #courtney finch #robin finch #matilda douglas #poor tilda.. she may not regret her decision or want to be a mom but ig her and her body aren't on the same page again just yet #u kno #and ROBIN BBY don't cry #;-; #sdkjskdj #tw loss #hmm not rlly but it invokes a similar feeling perhaps

[lesbiancarat]

want to give my two cents on the AI usage in the maestro trailer--

i think seventeen doing a whole concept that is anti-AI is very cool, especially as creatives themselves i think it's good that they're speaking up against it and i hope it gets more ppl talking about the issue. i also understand on a surface level the artistic choice (whether it was made by the members, the mv director, or whoever else), to directly use AI in contrast to real, human-made visuals and music in order to criticize it. i also appreciate that they clearly stated the intention of the use of AI at the beginning of the video

however, although i understand it to an extent, i do not agree with the choice to use AI to critique AI. one of the main ethical concerns with generative AI is that it is trained on other artists' work without their knowledge, consent, or compensation. and even when AI generated images are being used to critique AI, it still does not negate this particular ethical concern

the use of AI to critique also does not negate the fact that this is work that could have been done by an actual artist. i have seen some people argue that it's okay in this context because it's a critique specifically about AI, and it is content that never would have been done by a real artist anyway because it doesn't make sense for the story they're trying to tell. but i disagree. i think you can still tell the exact same story without using AI

and in fact, i would argue that it would make the anti-AI message stronger if they HAD paid an artist to draw/animate the scenes that are supposed to represent AI generated images. wouldn't it just be proof that humans can create images that are just as bad and nonsensical and soulless as AI, but that AI can't replicate the creativity and beauty and basic fucking anatomy that's in human-made art?

(also because of how kpop fans tend to react to things, i would like to explicitly say, i don't think svt need to be cancelled or whatever else because of this. personally i will probably still watch the MV when it comes out, etc. etc.)

it feels very obvious this was not just a way to cut corners and costs like a lot of scummy people are using AI for. ultimately it was a very intentional creative decision, i just personally think it was a very poor one. and even if some ethical considerations were taken into account before this decision, i certainly don't think all of them were. at the very least i feel like the decision undermines the message they want to convey

i would also like to recognize that i myself am not an artist, and i have seen some artists that are totally on board with the use of AI in this specific context, so clearly this is not a topic that is cut and dry. but generative AI is still new, and i think it's important to keep having these conversations

#melia.txt #also want to add that as musicians svt are more directly threatened by AI generated audio than they are by AI generated images #and yet AI generated images is what was used in the video #and i guess the MV director/production company are the ones directly responsible for putting that in there #whether it was their initial idea or not #and they work in a visual medium so perhaps that makes it more 'fair' but idk it just feels like #the commentary is around music. which makes sense. and using human produced music/sound #but then taking advantage of AI images #idk just feels weird #i mean i don't like it either way #like i said in the main post i understand the intention behind the creative decision #and i'm still happy svt are speaking against ai at all i do think overall they're doing a good thing here #i just don't agree with the creative decision they/the production company/whoever made #edit: deleted the part about not boycotting svt over this bc ppl were commenting about boycotting bc of the 🛴 stuff #i meant specifically /I/ am not calling for a boycott because of specifically the ai stuff #was just trying to make a general point that im not making this post bc i want to sabatoge svt or whatever #bc kpop fans love to pull that catd whenever u criticize anything #so yeah just removed that bit bc i dont want ppl getting confused what im talking about #respect ppl boycotting because of scooter/israel stuff but thats not what this post was intended to be about #edit 2: turning off reblogs bc im going to bed and having asomewhat controversial post up is not gonna help me sleep well lol #may or my not turn rb's back on in the morning

[illmoraineakoi]

What if the Pale King locked himself away in the Dream Realm to recreate what he did to the Hollow Knight? After the Vessel leaked and he realized that it most likely had capability enough to suffer, but far far too late to even hope to do anything to fix it. He was beyond the point of no return, there was nothing he could do to undo the Sealing. And even if he could, there were no other options that he could think of of what to do about the Blazing Light.

He had no choice but to keep the Vessel sealed. No choice but to watch his kingdom crumble. There was nothing he could do.

Nothing, but to seal himself away in a self-imposed punishment in the exact same way he imparted onto his only (known) living child.

A weak attempt to impose the same agony onto himself as he forced onto them.

And should the people of his kingdom stop worshiping him and forget he exists, dwindling his power and life to a pathetic end?

Well...

Perhaps that might've been for the best.

#hollow knight #Pale King #Potential Headcanon #Thinkin about this soggy worm again #I don't actually think this is the case I just think it's an interesting concept #Though perhaps not entirely out of the realm of possibility from what we know of PK's character #PK locked his most shameful memory behind the Path of Pain and the Entirety of the Dream White Palace could be an extension of that #in a sort of ''No one's allowed in but also HE'S not allowing himself to leave either'' way #The Sealing was meant to be permanent and eternal so I don't think PK made a 'back door' in case things went wrong either #Back doors are weak points and a potential escape route is something you don't want when dealing with the Radiance #So even if PK WANTED to get Hollow out of there I don't think he was actually ABLE to do so #Presuming he didn't know about the Dream Nail #Which had to of been fucking AGONY for him #''Oh shit my Vessel-child is actually alive and I just put a pissed off god inside of them aND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT FUCK FUCK FUCK' #*chucks depression meds at PK* Boi get off ur ass and at least try to do smth don't just wait around till u die ffs

[wikitpowers]

people don't want gifts for christmas, they want new kit herondale content from cassie....

#and by they i mean /i/ #/i/ want kit herondale content #i beg u cassie #pls give me anything #some art perhaps???? #OR A SHORT STORY??? (!!!) #(i would D WORD) #kit herondale #the dark artifices #the wicked powers #tda #twp #tsc