#personal feelings

[injuries-in-dust]

I haven't had a haircut since 2012.

I love my long hair, which, about now, reaches down to my waist.

But I have to admit that my hair is thin.

Sides are okay, but most hair coming from the scalp... it is thin.

My transition hasn't started yet, and may not for several more years, damn waiting list. Minimum three (which i reached this year,) but up to six years at this point.

Fuck the tories.

I always promised myself (long before I figured I was trans) that I wouldn't be one of those men (now, one of those people,) who would have a bald scalp and weak comb-over to try (and fail) ar maintaining the Illusion that I still have long hair.

I just wish I could look in the mirror and like what I see.

I wish I didn't have to deal with the problems of aging men.

I am a woman in my heart but nature gave me all of mens problems.

(Probably made worse because I didn't figure myself out until I was approaching my mid-30s)

Tall and broad body

Barrel chested

Thinning hair.

I think I have a widows peak at this point.

Hairy body. Chest, legs, arms. You name it.

I am in the wrong body for me.

I really feel I have to wait until I start taking hormones, and seeing the effects they have on me before I can even socially transition.

Because there is nothing about me that could pass as female at the moment.

And I know I've been losing hair since my mid thirties, but now I'm entering my late thirties it seems to be speeding up.

I swear I see more scalp through the follicles these days.

It's getting harder and harder to cover with volumizing products, styling, and so on.

This has mostly been a rant to just vent my feelings.

But I know a lot of ladies have short hair and are still very feminine.

Maybe I can try short hair instead of an ever growing comb-over.

Even though long hair does seem to be tied to femininity.

Most trans women in media have, at least, shoulder length hair.

Only cis-women can get away with short hair, it seems.

Maybe that's not to right way to think but it's the way I do.

I can only hope that hormones, whenever I get them, can retore some activity to the follicles of my scalp.

If nothing else, I hope that people will recommend different types of hair cuts and hair styles for me to try.

I can use an app to get a vague idea of what I would look like before I commit to the work of a stylist.

Any style that works with a person who has plus-sized features would be welcome right now.

A pixie cut is the only one I could think of right now. And I'm not totally convinced that I could pull that off.

If anyone has any other suggestions, I'd love to hear them.

#personal thoughts #personal #personal feelings #hair #thinninghair #thin hairs #trans #trans problems #trans rights #trans representation #trans pride #trans is beautiful #trans issues

[iacyper9]

In the rut of I want to write and ramble on about my legacy characters but also I don't want to come off as weird for rambling.

#personal thoughts #swtor #the raginis legacy #swtor oc's #personal feelings

[edenfenixblogs]

Man it’s so good to be near family.

It’s giving me some pretty strong feelings and making me reassess a lot of aspects of my life.

Sometimes I feel like those who love me most live farthest from me.

I live in a great city but feel so alone. There’s so much to do but it’s all so hard to get to and very few people to do any of it with who I’m close to. Everything is so expensive.

But mostly, I feel like everyone in my city just tolerates me. And only one person in my actual daily life is actually there for me during this horrific, terrifying time.

People back home are literally begging me to move back and they all keep asking me to do things at every free moment. People want to spend time with me here—family and friends. People are generally overjoyed to see me here. My sister and parents are here. My bff might move back here.

When I have kids I’d want them to be surrounded by this community. What community do I have in my city? One person who I truly feel close to and otherwise a group of people who seem to just tolerate my presence. It’s…exhausting and upsetting and I don’t like missing so much of my little cousins’ lives.

The things I’ve wanted have changed so much. I moved to the city in because it was the only city where I could do what I wanted career wise. But the career has adapted and so has my goal of how I want to participate in it. But I can’t shake the feeling that it looks like I’m giving up.

It’s stupid and I shouldn’t care—especially because it’s not true—but I moved away with big plans and big goals and if I move back I will be doing so without having achieved those goals. But my goals have changed. I know more now. I can be the kind of creative person I want to be anywhere.

I also love my independence in my city. But man… the things that make it worth living there keep disappearing.

Idk. I have a lot to think about. But right now, it’s hard to see any future in my current city.

#personal feelings #life decisions #SMBC journey

[redheadlesbianfreak]

In Breath of the Wild, Age of Calamity, and Tears of the Kingdom, Princess Zelda always feels like the main protagonist. She’s the one with the character development. She always has the most to lose. The stakes are the highest for her. She’s also a deeply interesting and complex character on top of that.

I love boy Link so much and I love playing as him. I love his design and he’s very important to me as an androgynous queer lady. But I really do think there’s so much missed potential with not having Princess Zelda be the player character in these games. It feels like it should be her! She’s the protagonist.

I can’t be the only one who feels this way. Personally, I think that both Zelda and Link should’ve been playable. Or at least some sections with Zelda in the past should’ve been playable. I get that it’s much easier said than done but it sucks how she’s absent for the majority of the game.

#tloz #totk #botw #aoc #princess zelda #personal rant #personal feelings #she’s such a strong character #i really want to see more of her #and yeah i love link #but you have to admit #this version of zelda is much more interesting than this version of link

[persephones-journey]

Okay, truth time…

I’ve been feeling a bit low lately and not even hiding in my writing has helped…

But a stupid little thing has…

Ryan Corr liking my tweet.

Like… every time I feel sad or shitty I open Twitter (I am never calling it X) and go look at Ryan’s likes, and… there it is. And it puts a stupid smile on my face every time.

It’s so stupid but… it helps.

It’s not even the first tweet of mine he’s liked, which still makes me giddy.

I never shared on here before cause… well honestly my twitter is in my real name and I like being anonymous here on Tumblr but… I guess I just needed to talk.

Cause it has been a bit harder lately. The loss of my grandfather has finally set in.

I spent my first birthday without him.

And when Ryan liked my other tweets in May, I told my grandfather and he teased me about running off with an Aussie boy lol but this time…

I couldn’t share it with him.

Yeah, it’s stupid probably…

But it hurts. And sometimes it feels like it’ll never stop…

#personal feelings #you don’t have to read this #just me yelling into the void

[niviferweeps]

I hate how little the people around me care about what is happening in Palestine. how can you not care about the numerous dead children? Especially when we have access to social media and can see them. I watched a man holding his dead child in his arms, sobbing. How can anyone who claims to be human watch this and feel nothing? I feel like I'm going crazy; I've only met a few people who care. My partner works for a Western news organization, and day by day, he is more depressed by their lack of adequate journalism on this issue. He is more tempted to quit as time goes on. He sees their active censorship on the topic and hates it, but he can't leave because he needs a job, and he will owe them money if he does.

People seem to think this is just gonna be like previous wars in the Middle East, but they don't seem to grasp how advanced technology is becoming and the fact that Palestinians are the test subjects for these new war technologies.

Please, I am becoming desperate by the day. We are on borrowed time, and people are sticking their heads in the sand. What else can I do? I am boycotting, attending rallies, emailing government reps, and retweeting from the people in Gaza; there must be more that I can do.

#free palestine #free gaza #free sudan #free congo #us imperialism #israel #personal feelings #activism

[asylum-inside]

No one cares about me, I might as well fucking die

#hate #love #Pain #Depressed #Depression #Hatred #Wrath #Painful #mentall illness #Mentally ill #Bpd #Borderline #personal feelings #borderline personality disorder #Suicidal #Death #Selfharm #I don't care #They don't care #I hate myself #I hate my life #The end #Fuck this #Fuck it #my end #Sadness #Loneliness

[anxiousdragoncollector]

dodie makes me feel things

Listening to her music is like realizing you're in love, and every moment around that person following

Listening to her music is like climbing a tree as a little kid again

Listening to her music is like going to that place you haven't been to in years, smelling that smell and wandering those rooms

Listening to her music is that bittersweet nostalgia and realizing you'll never be able to experience that thing again

It always makes me sad to listen to her music, but I do it anyway. The power that music holds over me is unfair

#dodie #music #sad #Nostalgia #In a way #personal feelings #rant?

[storyweaverofgondor]

Someone: Everyone LOVES Tuggoffelees!

Me: YES!

Someone: Everyone agrees they are a Gay Couple!

Me: *my Bisexual early to mid 20s Tugger and Asexual 16 year old Misto headcanon flashes through my mind* . . . . er, no?

(I respect the ship, i love the fact that the biggest ship in this fandom is a gay couple. But  . . . i often feel really lonely because i don’t ship it like everyone else. And any generalized statements often make me feel excluded because of this)

#cats the musical fandom #cats the musical #personal feelings #this is purely my personal feelings on my personal experiences #platonic tuggoffelees #tuggoffelees

[elficially-done-with-life]

Hey, I haven't postet anything in a while and I wanted to briefly explain why. This is going to get a little personal, so if you don't care don't read it. Thats fine.

I started an apprenticeship a few days ago and it's pretty damn stressful now. Especially because I'm not sure yet if that's what I really want to do, as I mainly applied because I didn't want to disappoint my mum by waiting for something I wouldn't be able to do anyway (I originally wanted to be a teacher, and maybe a writer at some point, but I'm really afraid of failure which is why I'm to afraid to try.).

So there's a lot going on in my head at the moment and I can't really concentrate on fanfictions and fanarts anymore (especially because I always have the feeling they're not good enough anyway).

On top of that, I'm struggling with my sexuality again (it's been going on for a few years now, but right now it is really bad again).

In other words, I'm not doing so well at the moment and I'm not really getting around to writing. Also, I think my bad feelings would have a negative effect on my fanfics right now.

I don't know if anyone even wanted to hear all this information, but it was important to me to explain exactly why I'm not able to be as active as usual right now. Because I love this fandom and I love to write for Tolkiens works.

I hope you understand🥰

#personal feelings #not a fic

[the-healing-mindset]

Feel what you need to feel. You need no one else's approval or permission to fully feel your feelings an express your emotions.

Source: Facebook

#healing #recovery #growth #emotions #feelings #anger #dissapointment #personal feelings #positivity #self-esteem #progress #life #living #Susan Frybort #confidence #self-confidence #validation #emotional validation

[blanked007]

كلام خلّى احلامي

تشوفني واشوفها قُدامي ..

#dairies #personal feelings #personal thoughts #10 Mar 2024 #SoundCloud

[crappy-danganronpa-confessions]

I've been working hard at creating a fangan for a few years now. But recently I started to really focus on it and began hiring people.

I've been speaking with some editors and I'm grateful for them. I'm noticing small flaws I didn't catch while I was still developing the early stages.

As development continues quickly, I'm realizing I'm actually really scared. What if people hate it? What if I mess up? What if it dies out? What if my writing isn't good enough?

Then I look at all the assets I have, the VAs that are putting their faith in me, the characters I put all my heart into, and I just forget to feel nervous. Im sure some people will hate it, there always will be those people, but I know the people that love it will support me.

It makes me motivated to continue.

#danganronpa #mod komaeda #danganronpa confession #Personal feelings

[itswhatever-relatable-random]

My wrong turns became the right when they led me to you. 💕💕

#personal feelings #personal thought #relatable #love

[iacyper9]

Started up what I hope will become a good business. My grandpa is teaching me how to make handcarved/handcrafted walking sticks. I plan on setting up a little local shop in my town and selling woodcrafted items, specialist in walking sticks.

I'll probably label them "Uncle Dave's Walking Sticks". A little tag explaining his life... He worked with the US military during the cold war on building new aircraft. Top secret work at the time. You know the plane in the Smithsonian, the Elsie Mae? He named it after my grandma. It was the Boeing X-45A that he worked on. The Air Force presented him with a flag at the end of it. Something most civilian contractors never get.

I know that he has always wanted to leave behind a legacy, something that he will be remembered by. He's not doing well health wise recently, and I fear there's not much time left. Walking sticks were something that he and I would work on when we visited (well, he'd make them and I'd watch).

I live in a location with lots of woods and nature and hiking trails, so I think it'd be a good business, and it'd help cement my grandpa's memory...

Here's pictures of the Elsie Mae.

#personal feelings #personal thoughts #woodcarving #walking stick

[yagikidd57]

“I don’t want to loved in a romantic way and i just don’t like that kind of attention. I don’t want to fall in love or be loved.”

-from an aroace person who thrives in solitude, basks in their own energy, and enjoys being alone.

#aromantic #aroace #aromanticism #lgbtqia+ #arospec #aro ace #personal feelings #i don’t want to fall in love or be loved #single life #single #lgbtqia #lgbtqia community #lgbtqia+ community #queer community